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Draco, Ginny, Harry, Dumbledore, Hermione, Neville, OC, Remus Lupin, Ron, Snape, Fred/George, Seamus, M. McGonagall
Primary Relationship
Secondary Relationship(s)
General, Angst
No Warnings
Story Reviews
First Published
2005-01-09 2:33pm
Last Chapter
2005-05-14 4:49pm
Last Updated
2005-07-03 1:27pm

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Ch. # Chapter Title Word Count Reviews
1 Thoughts

Sad story!!! Lonely, miserable, guilty. That's how Lupin's life always was; and how it will always be. Now three years after he's seen Harry for the first time, Remus is back at Hogwarts. Maybe the hardest of it all is to have to teach and face Harry as though his parent's death, the incident in the Department of Mysteries, and none of it had ever happened.

820 24
2 Why...?

First lesson with Harry in his sixth year...

970 12
3 Alone

Remus stops a fight between Malfoy and Harry; but that doesn't make things better at all. Then he talks to Snape, and finally, reads the Daily Prophet...

1,522 22
4 The Gryffindor Common Room

Lupin must find Ron and Ginny...

1,153 11
5 Words are tough to say

Now Lupin must tell Ron and Ginny about their father...

1,449 14
6 To Dumbledore's office and back

just read!!!

1,168 12
7 Staff Meeting

Remus goes to the staff meeting ordered by Dumbledore, then speaks to the Headmaster alone.

1,380 13
8 Extreme Fury

Lupin just wants to finish his lesson and get back to Dumbledore for some news on Voldemort's actions... Harry and Hermione want to know where Ron is, because they have no idea his father's dead... And things get complicated when Harry can't control himself in front of Lupin; Lupin, the man who lost all his friends because of Voldemort. The man who hates himself for what he is. The man whose life is one, sad, miserable fight against himself. And the one man who killed his godfather.

1,366 13
9 You're tearing my heart

Dumbledore will make an announcment at dinner... And knowing what he will say doesn't make Lupin feel better. Not when it's news of death, not when it means Harry will keep accusing him of everything that went wrong in the world.

1,615 11
10 Payback

Dumbledore pairs up teachers and prefects for patrols. And when Snape ends up with Harry and Lupin with Malfoy, the Potions teacher comes to Lupin with the idea of trading... except it's not that simple, not anymore. Because Remus is tired of it. So terribly tired...

1,552 9
11 A fight and a memory...

Lupin's angry at Snape; so angry he wants to fight. But Snape's got another weapon... somehow, words that awaken some painful memories can do more damage than curses. Much more damage.

1,845 9
12 The Patrol

Lupin and Malfoy patrol in the castle... together. And something unexpected happens...

1,808 7
13 Close transformation

Lupin goes to Dumbledore with the hope that the Headmaster will agree with his plan. But even if he does, it looks desperate.

1,942 8
14 Portkey

Remus leaves the Shrieking Shack: too many memories, too much pain. He knows he'll have to take that Portkey; but whether Harry will come or not, he doesn't know yet.

1,178 6
15 Together

Remus brings Harry to a place where he would have liked never to have to come back. And, yes, that's right, this story is NOW FINISHED!!!

2,413 15


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