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Harry, Dumbledore, Lupin, Snape, Moody, James, Lily, Tonks, Sirius, Pettigrew
Primary Relationship
Secondary Relationship(s)
James/Lily, Lucius/Narcissa, Snape/Lily, OC/OC
General, Action/Adventure, Angst
Contains profanity, Strong violence, Scenes of a mild sexual nature, Sensitive topic/issue/theme, Spoilers
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Work In Progress (WIP)
First Published
2012-03-30 5:13pm
Last Chapter
2014-05-03 6:05pm
Last Updated
2014-05-03 6:05pm

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1 The First Scar

“What’s dead?” Remus said.

Remus had to know what dead meaned. But he had to know. He was scared because he didn’t know. He had to know what dead meaned. Not knowing made him more scared. He had to know. Daddy looked at Remus. His face was still sad. Remus didn’t like it.

“Dead means gone,” Daddy said.

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2 The Quiet Before All Bad Things

“I didn’t mean to!” Remus cried, shaking all over. “I know you told me not to go into the woods! I’m sorry, Daddy! I don’t want to turn into a werewolf! Daddy, please just make it go away! I’m sorry! I don’t want to turn into a werewolf! Please, Daddy!”

Daddy was crying now. Daddy never cried. He was brave and he never cried. “Be brave now, son,” Daddy said.

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3 The Many Faces of the Moon

“I’m sorry, Remus,” Stephen said. “We can’t be friends anymore. My daddy says you’re bad and I don’t want to be a werewolf too.”

“But you’re my best friend for forever!” Remus said. “I would never bite you, I promise I wouldn’t! I wouldn’t ever, ever bite you!”
“My daddy says that doesn’t matter."

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4 The Runaway

Remus knew he had to go. He knew he had to. He was a wolf and a wolf wasn’t allowed to live with wizards. Wolves had to live far away from wizards, because wolves only hurt wizards, wolves only made wizards sad.

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5 The Broken Cup

Wizard. Remus liked the sound of that word. He much preferred being a wizard to being a werewolf or a killer. Yes, he liked the sound of wizard very much. Wizard sounded like him. Werewolf and killer never sounded like him, but wizard did. That was what he really was, a wizard, just a wizard and nothing more.

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6 The Aurors in the Woods

“Are you a wizard too?” said an excited voice.

Remus jumped because he got a fright. He turned around and there was a boy standing behind a fallen tree trunk. He had been hiding there all the time.

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7 The Badge

“I’ve been meaning to talk to you for a while actually,” Dad began, looking at his son.

A spark of panic ignited inside Remus’s chest, overpowering his excitement slightly. He didn’t know what Dad was going to say next, but he was scared it would be something bad, something that would make him feel sad again, and all Remus knew was he didn’t want to feel sad again, he just wanted to continuing feeling happy, just happy.

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8 The Truth

“Why did you do it?” Remus asked, forcing the question out of his mouth.

“Do what?” Dad replied, his voice sounding confused.

“Insult the werewolf."

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9 The Unexpected Visitor

Remus ran down the stairs, curiosity filling his brain. Dad was about to open the door. Remus stopped half-way down the steps. It was a good hiding place as he was out of the immediate line of vision of the knocker and he could still see what was going on. Seconds later, the door was open and nothing could have prepared him for who he saw standing on the porch. It was none other than Albus Dumbledore.

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10 The New Arrival and the Big Departure

Dad lifted Remus’s truck onto the train and placed it inside the very last compartment, which was empty. Then he came out, took Mum’s hand and looked at his son. Remus had been looking forward to this day all his life, but now that it was here, now that he was actually leaving for school, he wasn’t sure he wanted to.

“You’ll write to me, won’t you?” he blurted out desperately.

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11 Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry

The compartment door opened. There was a boy and a girl standing there. “Can we sit down?” the girl asked. She had long red hair and brilliant green eyes. Remus had never seen eyes like that before.

“Sure,” he said enthusiastically, gesturing to the empty seat opposite him.

“I’m Lily,” the girl said as she sat down.

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12 The Deepest, Most Desperate Desire of his Heart

The mirror was large and ostentatious with its ornate golden frame and smooth silver surface. It towered over everything else, claiming for itself a place of grandeur next to all the broken, dull and dusty furniture surrounding it. There was something about this mirror that held his attention; letters were etched into its frame. They made words, but he couldn’t make them out. He stepped closer, desiring a better look.

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13 Some People Just Can't Be Friends

Severus laughed. “What on earth gave you the idea that we were friends?”

“We played Exploding Snap on the train, and you saved me from falling in the lake,” Remus replied, starting to feel small again.

“Well, looking back I should’ve let you drown."

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14 Getting One Back

“It was Peeves, Mr Filch!” Peter lied desperately. “It was Peeves, not us!”

“A likely story!” the caretaker spat. “Do you know how many of you students blame your misdeeds on that foul poltergeist? I’m not falling for that one, oldest trick in the book that, do I look like a fool?”

James looked at Sirius, clearly thinking that yes, Filch did look like a fool, but he wisely decided to keep that comment to himself.

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15 The Whomping Willow

“Here,” Sirius said, standing up and abandoning his dinner, “I’m taking you to the Hospital Wing, c’mon.”

Remus’s heart was thundering in his ears. He shook his head. He didn’t want to go the hospital yet. He wasn’t ready for the full-moon. He wanted his mum and dad. He didn’t want to turn into a monster. He didn’t want to go to a strange house guarded by a killer tree.

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16 You Can't Always Get What You Want

“Alright, what’s eating you?” James asked, looking at Remus and seeing his disappointed expression.

“The book I want is in the Restricted Section,” Remus explained sadly.

“Just get a teacher to sign a note for you, they all love you, and you’ve got that innocent look down to an art, it shouldn’t be a problem,” James pointed out.

“Not this time.”

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17 House Rivalry

A Slytherin prefect with blonde hair and a pale, pointed face appeared at the end of the corridor. “Fifty points from Gryffindor for duelling in the corridors,” he said silkily.

“And what about Slytherin?” James injected, completely outraged. “Snape was duelling as well as us!”

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18 Infiltrating the Enemy Stronghold

“Here’s the plan for those of us running on the brainpower of a troll,” said James, “we follow some Slytherins, and learn the location of their stronghold. At lunchtime, we stake out said stronghold and figure out how to get inside. Then, during afternoon lessons, we knick some enemy scarves and whatnot and disguise ourselves the Muggle way. Then, at dinner, when Sirius’s mad cousin, that Malfoy git, slimy Snivellus and the other damn Slytherin first-years are munching on their steak and kidney pie, we break in, get the badge and get out. Simple!"

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19 Repercussions

Then, out of nowhere, out of nothing, there was a flash of red light, and before any of them could do so much as blink, James was tumbling down the steps, yelling his head off.

“I didn’t do anything,” Sirius blurted out completely confused.

Remus and Peter rushed to James’s aid as Sirius stood there, completely stunned, not understanding what had happened. James wasn’t able to get up; somehow his legs had been glued together. Remus has no idea what is going on.

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20 Christmas

He heard Mum’s alarmed voice call his name from the house.

“I’m sorry...” Remus said weakly, as he felt himself drifting off into unconsciousness. “I’m sorry I ruined Christmas....” But Remus never heard Dad’s reply, because exhaustion had taken over, pulling him down into the world of black, dreamless sleep.

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21 There Are Worse Things Than Being a Werewolf

“What do you know, Remus?” Sirius shouted, clenching his fists. “Nothing bad has ever happened to you! You know nothing about anything so just shut up and stop telling me I don’t mean what I say!”

Remus gripped the edges of his seat as his insides shook all over. He had said the wrong thing and now Sirius hated him. “I’m sorry,” he babbled, his voice breaking, “I didn’t mean – I’m sorry - I never.”

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22 Choices

“Are you still on Severus’s side after he jinxed you back there?” Sirius asked pointedly.

“I’m not on his side!” Remus replied, slightly offended that Sirius would think he was.

“Well, you sort of act like you are,” James added, giving Remus a searching look.

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23 Water Demons

“HELP!” shouted a high-pitched and mousey voice.
Remus turned on the spot, trying to locate the source. James, Sirius and Severus stopped fighting. Peter was standing stock still in the middle of the pool. He had a red flag in his hand, but it was the look of fear on his face that caused Remus’s blood to run cold.
“Please help!” Peter shouted again, in the same voice. He was trembling all over and was too scared to move. 

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24 Respect and Disrespect

Severus bit his lip. “How can I know I can trust you, Potter?”
“You can’t,” said James, “but I swear to you, I’m right.”
“That’s not good enough!” said Severus.

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25 Whispers and Lies

On Wednesday, however, just as class was beginning, Mary McDonald raised her hand hesitantly. “Professor Newlyn, sir,” she said in a mousey voice. 

His eyes narrowed on her. 

“Sir, I was wondering if you could tell us who the Death Eaters are?”

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26 Fear of a Name

Remus then began to examine Slughorn’s desk a little more closely. Most of the desk was littered in old newspaper clippings. Remus read the headlines. They were all familiar. He had seen them all in the Prophet. Slughorn had kept the articles and stories that covered disappearances and acts of violence. Remus leaned in closer, straining his eyes, trying to make out what was written. As far as he could tell, next the article on the two murders of the members of the Magical Law Enforcement Squad was written two words: Tom Riddle?

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27 Dead Ends

“Hang on,” said James, suddenly getting a brainwave. “What if Slughorn’s in on it?”
“What? Like he’s one of them?” Remus replied. The thought had never occurred to Remus before, but now that it actually had ... the idea was beyond laughable.
“Yeah,” said James eagerly. “He’s head of dark wizard central, it makes sense.”
Sirius burst out laughing.

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