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Lupin, Snape, Sirius, Lily, James, Pettigrew, OC
Primary Relationship
Secondary Relationship(s)
James/Lily, Remus/OC, Sirius/OC, Other Pairing
Drama, Humor, Romance
Strong Language, Strong Violence, Scenes of a Sexual Nature, Substance Use or Abuse, Sensitive Topic/Issue/Theme, Contains Spoilers
Story Reviews
Work In Progress (WIP)
First Published
2009-03-29 1:55am
Last Chapter
2012-10-16 4:09pm
Last Updated
2012-10-16 4:09pm

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Ch. # Chapter Title Word Count Reviews
1 Searching

It had been two months and 4 days. Sixty-six days in all.

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2 May the Best Man Win

“If Shay is still somehow alive and she comes back, don’t think that I won’t fight for her. You had your chance with her and you messed that up. My time with her was cut short. The Shay I was with was damaged by you and I’ll be damned before I let you do that to her again.”

2,752 20
3 Losing Faith

"For her own sake, I hope that she is dead. However, Voldemort is not known for his mercy. So, yes, I do believe she is alive. I do not, however, believe that we will ever see her again. Voldemort will not give up that kind of power without a fight.”

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4 Fight For Your Life

“I must say, I’ve been anxious to get you in my grasp. You’re a great witch, Shay Calhoun. I heard Dumbledore has been training you well."
Shay refused to acknowledge that he was even speaking.
“There is no need to worry. You’re not going to die today. I have big plans for you,” Voldemort said.

1,767 16
5 The Plan

When stuck in a lightless room with no contact outside, time seems to fly. Shay didn’t know whether she had been in that room for a day or a week. It could have been a month for all she knew.

2,250 15
6 Feel the Pain

“You passed out. You were dehydrated, starving, and close to death. I just gave you a potion to bring you back,” Snape said.
“You should have just let me die,” Shay said with sincerity.
“That wouldn’t help any of us,” Courtlyn thought.

1,663 9
7 There's No Place Like Home

“Is it time?” Shay asked with underlying excitement.
“No. I’m sorry. He wants you out there,” Courtlyn thought sadly.
Shay could have cried. She didn’t know if she could take another session with Voldemort, but she was so close to being free.

2,389 14
8 Remember Me?

“I don’t know any of those people. I want to see people that I know,” Shay demanded.
“Who do you know? Whom would you like us to find?” Dumbledore asked.
“I don’t know,” Shay paused for a moment, “Where’s my family?” Shay asked.
“We are you family!” Sirius blurted and ran through the curtain.

2,197 14
9 Do You Want to Know a Secret?

“What’s wrong, Lily? Is there something you need to tell me?” Shay asked.
“It’s about leaving.”
Shay waited for her to continue as Lily tried to find what to say.
“James, Harry and I are going to be going away for a while,” Lily said and looked at her best friend who was confused and shocked.

3,028 11
10 Old Secrets, Old Friends

“You love me Remus?” Shay asked with a small smile.
“More than you know.”

1,647 6
11 Dashed Dreams and Espionage

As Severus walked by the infirmary he thought about stopping and seeing how she was doing. It had been over a month since he left her on the steps of Hogwarts. It really was the safest place he could go with her. He wanted to make sure she was all right but he was positive that she would not want to see him. So he kept moving towards Albus Dumbledore’s office.

2,028 6
12 Pick a Side, Any Side

“You’re absolutely gorgeous,” Sirius said in a breathless tone.
Shay blushed a little.
“Those aren’t the words I was looking for but thanks for the compliment. You’re not so bad yourself,” Shay said.
“Shay, I’ve been wanting to do something since you got back,” Sirius said in a little more than a mumble.
“What do you want to do?”
Sirius answered her with a small kiss on the lips.

4,892 9
13 The Truth Is...

“Who did you dream yourself to be with?”

1,140 7
14 Moving On

 “The only thing we can do is try. If we don’t, we’re always going to wonder ‘What if?’ and with this war now’s not the time to sit around and wonder. Now’s the time to act.”

1,815 8
15 Can't Get Enough

“This isn’t going to be fun for me,” Sirius said sadly.

“It doesn’t have to be bad, Sirius. Go out and meet new people. You don’t have to think about me every second of the day. I trust you Sirius.”


2,130 2
16 A Day in the Life

They knew their son wasn’t going to be an ordinary kid. Why would the Dark Lord want him if he were just ordinary? Not that there’s anything wrong with being average, at least according to Lily.

2,069 3
17 Back to School

Shay watched him out of the corner of her eye and saw that he decided to sit next to Professor Binns. Shay had to keep her laughter to herself. Of course he would sit next to Binns. Shay shouldn’t have expected anything else. Severus Snape always went to safe, unnoticed route.

3,575 3
18 Butting Heads

“I can’t help that Gryffindor has always had a knack for trouble.”

“Severus, I could just strangle you some times. Leave the Gryffindors alone. This isn’t fair,” Shay said and crossed her arms in a huff.

“You’re just worried your house isn’t going to win the Cup,” Snape said and straightened his stance a little.

“I’m not even a Head of House! I’m officially nonpartisan.”

2,566 2
19 It Doesn't Do to Dwell

Shay watched Severus get extremely uncomfortable.
“Is there something you want to tell me, Sev?” Shay asked and moved towards the edge of her seat.
Shay could tell there was something. Severus Snape always had a certain pain hidden in his eyes but at that moment the pain looked excruitiating.

3,387 2
20 Crush

 "I think you're extravagant."

3,821 3
21 Autumn Anger

 Shay didn’t like Trelawney because she told the prophecy that put Lily, James and Harry in danger.

“I still can’t believe that Dumbledore gave her a job. All because of one prophecy and some luck timing,” Severus admitted.

Shay was about to reply when she realized what Severus had revealed to her.

2,746 4
22 In the Dead of the Night

Sirius examined the flat more and noticed something startling. There was an empty frame sitting on Peter’s mantle. Sirius remembered that it was Peter’s favorite picture of Alana. Sirius’s stomach dropped. Peter wouldn’t have taken that photo unless he was going somewhere. Sirius couldn’t help but think of the Potters. Sirius couldn’t help but think the worst.

3,235 6
23 Twelve Years Past

Another day, another Daily Prophet, another headline about the escaped convict Sirius Black.

2,241 5
24 Recruitment

“But I digress. We have that favor to ask of you. Shay, I would be honored if you would join the Order of the Phoenix once again.” 

Shay wasn’t surprised by the offer but she was going to stand her ground.

“No, I’m sorry. I can’t do it this time,” Shay said apologetically.

2,691 7
25 Daughter

“You should have told me sooner,” Sirius finally responded through the door.

“I don’t want to talk about this through a door, Sirius. Please let me in,” Shay begged.

She heard Sirius walk towards her and he slowly opened the door. Shay noted that he looked worse than his mug shot.

2,732 7
26 Round Table Discussions

“That’s the thing about metaphorical ice cream. It doesn’t have the capabilities of making you fat. Not that the metaphorical ice cream would care because the metaphorical ice cream likes who you are, no matter your robe size.”

4,089 5
27 Polyjuice

Shay put her hand out and Snape set the bottle in her palm.

“Thanks Sev. So what am I going to look like?”

“Taller, plumper, short black hair. Quite average and ordinary,” Severus said with a playful sneer.

4,200 2
28 A Bottle of Wine Later...

“It’s been 14 years,” Shay added, feeling sorry for her closest friend.

“Merlin man. I haven’t had sex in 14 years but I was locked up in bloody Azkaban,” Sirius inserted and gave Remus a shake of his head.

“I have never been one for talking about my sex life and that certainly isn’t going to change now. Let’s drop it,” Remus insisted and crossed his arms over his chest in a huff.

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29 Star-crossed

 "You say this, except you're holding on to me like you know love."

3,864 0
30 Hogwarts '95

“Mr. Malfoy just told me a disturbing tale,” Umbridge chirped.

“Did he? What was it about?” Jayme questioned and kept up her naive act.

“He was brutally attacked in the corridor just moments ago.”

Jayme looked back at Malfoy. He was feigning misery as well as he could.

“I’d call it an improvement,” Jayme commented with a grin.

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