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Lupin, Sirius, Lily, James
Primary Relationship
Secondary Relationship(s)
James/OC, Lily/OC, Remus/OC, Sirius/OC
Drama, Humor, Romance
Strong Language, Mild Violence, Scenes of a Mild Sexual Nature, Substance Use or Abuse
Story Reviews
First Published
2009-03-09 12:15am
Last Chapter
2013-07-10 11:58am
Last Updated
2013-07-10 11:58am

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1 Prologue

Where had everything gone wrong? Just six months ago everything had been perfectly fine. Hell, it wasn’t even Christmas yet and things had somehow gotten so irreversibly screwed up. There were spells to turn my hair green and sort my pocket change, so why wasn’t there a spell that could take this all back?

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2 Damn My Swooning Instincts

Rewind sixth months--It's the end of sixth year, where the story begins...

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3 See? Am I Brilliant or What?

“Lily, please. This is beyond brilliant. The Marauders can’t compete with this one.” Pippa gave me a lopsided smile, her golden eyes sparkling.

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4 The Effects of Firewhiskey

Sirius and Remus tumbled into sight and stopped when they saw me by the fire. I eyed them warily, wondering what they were up to so late. I then remembered what Potter had said about firewhiskey earlier…

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5 Temporary

Sirius met my eyes and gave me a small smile and I saw Remus whisper something in his ear, though I couldn’t hear it. Why did I feel like I was about to be executed?

3,191 23
6 Good Talk, Remus

How many times had I heard that Potter has feelings for me? And why was I actually starting to believe it when Remus told me as opposed to Sirius and Potter himself?

2,605 23
7 Celebrations & Revelations

“Here’s to the end of another year,” Sirius toasted and we all took a drink. The firewhiskey burned as it when down my throat but the taste was pleasant.

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8 Say Something...

“Look, Lily, there’s something I need to say,” Potter said slowly, turning on the couch to face me.

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9 Endings and Beginnings

The days of Hogwarts as we knew it were long gone… enter the reign of the Hogwarts Confessional.

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10 Dux Ducis

This was weird. Shouldn’t he be asking me out by now? Not that I wanted him to. But when a dog says “meow” instead of “woof”, you notice.

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11 Reunions

Just a year ago what I would’ve given anything to hear Potter say he was giving up on me. So why did it hurt so much to hear him say it now?

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12 Confronted

“Hey Evans,” I heard a painfully familiar voice call from behind me and I wrinkled my nose slightly before turning around.

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13 Balancing Act

Maybe I’d be lucky and what I thought were feelings for Potter turned out to be something else, like a disease... 

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14 One More Thing To Think About

“Its just…this is harder than I thought it would be, the whole break up thing,” I whispered.

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15 Introducing Holly

“This is beyond weird,” Pippa sighed, shaking her head. Sirius looked over at her, confused. She turned to meet his gaze. “James and Lily are actually being civil to each other.”

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16 The Tunnel

“This is all going to be way too hard to keep from James,” Sirius said shaking his head as he chuckled.


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17 Completely Unnecessary

Sirius pulled me back quickly as a figure appeared through the smoky light. I held my breath and stayed as still as I could as we watched the dark figure move towards us. 

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18 The Secret's Out

Well, I had to hand it to Pippa. This would definitely give us all more to gossip about.

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19 Oh, Please. I'm Pippa Birch...

“I don’t still like him,” Pippa said again turning back towards the mirror, and I couldn’t tell if she was trying to convince me or herself.

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20 Admittedly Not One Of My Best Ideas

This was the last place on earth I’d expect to find Adrian Austin on a Friday night.

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21 Move On

I bit my lip, knowing the veritaserum would make me answer honestly. This was definitely not good.

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22 Could My Life Get Any More Awkward?

I still couldn’t help but feel the guilt wash over me at seeing Chris’s gaunt face and even worse was the quickening of my pulse and increased heart rate as he ran up to me. I am seriously screwed up.

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23 Damn Books Are An Obsession

I paused, staring at confession #134: “My favorite flowers are forget-me-nots because they are your favorite”.  I took a deep breath and glanced up at my forget-me-not vase on my nightstand.

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24 Guessing Game

“Maybe all of this work we’re doing to be friends… why it’s so hard, is because we’re just not meant to be friends,” Potter sighed lifting his head, his hazel eyes locking on mine.

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25 The First Name

I couldn’t let him win this jealousy game. Even if he didn’t feel anything for me anymore I could still make him incredibly uncomfortable. Forget being mindful of PDA. It’s on.

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26 Ruthless, Thy Name Is Potter

I slammed the book shut, not even bothering to finish the last confession. This was the first time my name had appeared in the book.

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27 Almost

“I can’t really put my finger on it,” I said, breaking Marley’s gaze. “I keep thinking that the only reason we’re back together is because I was trying to make Potter jealous.”

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28 What Are Friends For?

Chris wheeled around toward me, his eyes red and glazed. He paused when he recognized me and dropped his wand to his side as we stared at each other.

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29 Interrupted, Yet Again

Curious, I dropped my bag and crept slowly towards Potter’s door. I positioned myself quietly next to the door, listening intently for any snippet of conversation I could overhear.

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30 My Own Personal Bodyguard

I flinched slightly at the venom I heard in Holly’s voice. I knew she was talking about me. I flattened my body against the door, trying to find the best listening position.

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31 Threatened

        “You know she’s just jealous,” Pippa rolled her eyes, her hand softly combing through my wavy red hair. “She knows she has competition.”
            “Or she’s just a clingy, whiny, overly-protective, pathetic excuse for a girlfriend,” Sirius grumbled with a sour expression on his face.

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32 The Ball - Part I

Agony. Bittersweet Agony. I was finally getting the attention from Potter that I wanted and I had to pretend I wasn’t even interested.

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33 The Ball - Part II

Whispering…they were whispering. Those students over there are huddled over something, whispering behind their hands, laughing silently about whatever they were looking at.

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34 We Were Wrong

We used to think that nothing could ever tear us apart. We used to think that we were indestructible. And now I knew that we were wrong.

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35 Nothing But Ashes

“Miss Evans, you are aware that you are risking expulsion by turning yourself in?” Dumbledore asked, resting his elbows on his desk and gazing over his hands at me.

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36 If You Don't Wanna Love Me Anymore

With every passing day my heart seemed to ache even more than the day before. I had tried several times to write to him, with the only result being a crumpled piece of parchment tossed into the fireplace. I just couldn’t seem to find the right words to say…. How was I supposed to tell him how I felt in a letter? I barely could say the words out loud, let alone write them on a stupid piece of paper.

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37 Epilogue

Students stared at us as we passed and we all knew why. It was common knowledge now that we were the ones responsible for the books. Half the students kept giving us looks of admiration while the other half threw us dirty looks every time we passed. We could hardly care less though, as long as we were friends again.

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