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A/N: So excited for Hunger Games!!!! Anyway, here is chapter 34! YAY! 6 more chapters to go!! I can hardly believe it! Happy Hunger Games! And may the odds be ever in your favour....in the words of Effie Trinket

Disclaimer: harry potter is owned by J.K. Rowling, and the quote above by Effie is from the Hunger Games, I dont feel like looking up how to spell the authors name. Suzanne Collins, is it?

Remus' Secret
Chapter 34: Tempers


 

A month into the year, and I'm barley getting through History of Magic. And it’s only because Remus is helping me.


 

And after all this time, I'm starting to feel bad. Really bad, about not letting Remus know that we know his secret. I mean, what’s the harm if I tell him? He deserves to know. I don’t even remember why we agreed to not tell him. Why had we? Oh well, what’s the worst that could happen?


 

I decided that I will tell him that I know his secret. Now I just need to figure out when….should I tell him now? Or should I ask him to meet me in the astronomy tower, and if I ask him to meet me in the astronomy tower will he think I'm breaking up with him? No way will I ever break up with Remus.


 

Okay, how about I tell him tonight. When our friends go off to bed and Remus stays up reading, he always reads late on Friday nights, I’ll ask him if he wants to take a walk with me around the grounds. That sounds good to me. And a nice way to spend Friday night, walking the grounds with Remus.


 

But for now, I had to get through potions, my last class of the day.


 

“Don’t put that in it’ll explode!” my partner, an annoying Ravenclaw guy named Liam, stopped me from putting ginger into the mix.


 

“It won't explode!” I stuck my tongue out at him and dropped some ginger into the pot. Liam took cover under the table but after 5 minutes went by it became clear that it wasn’t going to explode. I smiled as I mixed the potion and poured some of the finished product into a vial and capped it. I took it up to professor Slughorn after writing our names on the label and sticking it on the vial.


 

“Thank you Miss Cresswell.” And I went back to my seat.


 

“How’d you know it wouldn’t explode?” the Ravenclaw asked, I grinned,


 

“Class dismissed,”


 

“Guess you’ll never know!” and I gathered my book and went over to where Remus and Peter were putting their finished potion into a vial.


 

“Ready to go to dinner?” Remus asked when he came back from giving Slughorn his potion.


 

“Yup.” I chirped and Remus took my hand and we walked happily to dinner.


 

I was sure I was making the right choice by telling him.


 

**&&**


 

“Remus?” I asked as Lily and Charlotte left the common room. The guys had already gone to bed.


 

“Mhm?”


 

“How’s the book?” he shrugged not really listening to me. “Is it so interesting that you won't go on a walk with me?” I smiled. He looked up at me,


 

“You want to go on a walk?” I nodded, “At 12 at night?”


 

“Yes. It looks like a nice night. I like the stars anyway, there always nice to look at.”


 

He placed a book mark in his book without moving his eyes away from my face and placed the book down, then he stood up and offered his hand, “Alright, then let’s go for a walk.”


 

“Around the lake? How bout the castle? I always wanted to know what the back of the castle looked like!”


 

He laughed and pulled the marauders map out of his pocket, he looked it over and we left the common room, from there he took me into a passageway and that led us to the great hall, checking the map one more time, we left the caste and walked into the cool brisk night.


 

Remus put the map away and took my hand. We walked toward the lake are hands swinging. This is nice; I wish this happened every night because I never wanted this to end.


 

Why do I feel like I should savor this moment?


 

I shrugged the feeling off and we got to the lake, turning so we could walk around it.


 

“So, how was your day?” I asked Remus while I swung his hand back and forth.


 

“Don’t worry, Maya hasn’t even looked at me during Arithmancy.” Yeah he takes that class with her.


 

“Good.” I smiled, “Or else I’d have to punch her in the face.”


 

Remus laughed,


 

We were pretty far away from the school now…should I tell him? Why did my stomach feel like lead? Was I nervous?


 

“Hey Remus?” I stopped and looked at him, he stopped to and gave a questioning look, “Last year Lily, Charlotte and I noticed that…you’ve been…disappearing…it seems, once a month..” I said slowly, because saying it slowly was the only way I seemed to be able to make the words come out of my mouth.


 

Remus was still giving me a questioning gaze, but I thought he looked a little worried as well. He knew where this is going…


 

“And we…kinda figured out…” I looked at the ground, unable to finish.


 

“That I'm a werewolf?” he said bitterly. Remus was no longer holding my hand; he let it go after he said the word werewolf.


 

“Yeah…” I looked up at him, Remus was looking away and glaring at the lake, then he turned that glare to me,


 

“How, exactly, did you find out?!” I shrunk from his gaze,


 

“Uh…I kinda heard…you and Sirius talking about the full moon last year……so I told Lily and Charlotte…and somehow Charlotte convinced us to follow after you guys…”


 

“Damnit, Elizabeth!” I winced, “Couldn’t you just stay indoors?”


 

“I wanted too!” I couldn’t look him in the eyes, “But Charlotte ran out of the common room! Lily and I couldn’t let her go alone!”


 

“You shouldn’t have let her go at all!”


 

“Remus, we didn’t know what would be hidden by the whomping willow…” I said softly.


 

“But I'm sure you guessed some kind of monster, right?!”


 

I found myself nodding; I looked up at him and saw the hurt in his eyes, “Remus! Know now that I'm not going to judge you for it! I understand you have no control, but nonetheless I'm terrified of werewolf’s.” my voice sounded week though, “I promise we won't go out on a full moon again,


 

“You’re scared of me, aren’t you!?” Remus sounded strange; I winced at the strangeness of this,


 

“NO! well, when your screaming like that yes…but I'm not afraid of you, only when you transform…”


 

“Why, because your parent’s taught you that werewolf’s were evil? That you should stay away?” his voice was low, but not Remus-like at all.


 

“No! Remus I—” he cut me off,


 

“YOU COULD HAVE DIED!”


 

“But we didn’t!”


 

“YOU COULD HAVE! YOUR LUCKY I DIDN’T SNIFF YOU OUT! I COULD HAVE KILLED YOU! THEN WHERE WOULD WE BE?!” not screaming at me, that’s for sure. But I wasn’t about to say that. I regretted thinking it, much less saying it


 

“Remus,”


 

“NO! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU!”


 

Right then I was starting to get angry, and I roared back at him,


 

“YOU CAN'T BELIEVE ME?! YOU, REMUS LUPIN, CAN'T BELIEVE ME?! WELL I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU! YOU KEPT A SECRET FROM ME! A HUGE SECRET NONE THE LESS! I SHOULD BE THE ONE NOT TRUSTING YOU!”


 

“YOU SNUCK OUT; YOU WENT DIGGING AND NEVER GAVE ME A CHANCE TO TELL YOU!”


 

“I DIDN’T GIVE YOU CHANCE?! REMUS, I DIDN’T FIND OUT UNTIL PRETTY LATE IN THE YEAR! I WAS HOPING YOU’D TELL ME SOON! WHEN I TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU, I THOUGHT YOU’D LET ME IN ON THE SECRET, EVEN IF I ALREADY KNEW! IT WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE TO HEAR YOU TELL ME! TO KNOW THAT YOU TRUSTED ME ENOUGH TO TELL ME SOMETHING LIKE THAT!”


 

 “I do trust you.” Remus whispered softly, which was strange after all the screaming.


 

“DO YOU? DO YOU NOW? THEN WHY THE HELL DIDN’T YOU TELL ME! I WANTED YOU TO TELL ME! I DIDN’T WANT TO STUMBLE UPON IT, HAVE YOU ALMOST KILL US!”


 

A look of surprise and hurt crossed Remus’ face, “I almost KILLED you!?”


 

I nodded slowly, “We ran into you…and we hide in a dresser…if Sirius, James and Peter hadn’t been there you probably would have killed us…” I didn’t have the guts to look at him,


 

“ELIZABETH, DON’T YOU THINK I HAVE A RIGHT TO KNOW THAT?!”


 

“I don’t know what you have right to know anymore, Remus.” and with that I turned on my heel, my eyes stinging and I was fighting off tears. Remus was just standing there, glaring at me; I could feel his glare on my back.


 

And what had just happened? Remus and I just got in a fight. Does that mean were over? Dear godric I hope not! I still loved him; every ounce of my body knew that!


 

And he never screamed at me like that before! Heck, Remus never screamed at me! Remus never screams at anybody! Was I the first to make him that angry?


 

And a tear fell. That trigged all the other tears and soon I was running to the castle trying to fend off as much tears as possible.


 

I wanted Remus to comfort me just as much as I didn’t want him too. Does that make any sense?


 

Honestly, now I'm scared of him, I’ve never heard anyone scream that loud. I feel like I had disappointed him. And I didn’t like that. So I had to make things better. But how?


 

I think I should talk to Charlotte and Lily first; they’d help as soon as they got over the fact that I told Remus.


 

Remus was right; I should have told him that I knew. But deep down I knew I agreed to keep it a secret from the marauders just because I was still hoping Remus would have trusted me enough to tell me himself.


 

Now I just felt like a disappointment, and I was miserable and felt a little untrustworthy. I felt like Remus didn’t think I was worthy of knowing his secret. I had really thought he loved me…but does he?


 

Oh hush up Liz your just being over-emotional! Of course Remus loves you, its Remus. he never lies! It just not him!


 

Deep down I knew that was a lie, Remus had lied many times before…


 

And I got to the common room and made my way to my dorm, wishing very much that I could erase this day or re-play it. Then I wouldn’t have told Remus and I’d be left waiting for him to trust me enough with his secret.


 

A thought suddenly occurred to me as I got in bed:


 

If I had never told Remus that I knew his secret, would he ever trust me enough to tell me? Or would it remain a secret in his eyes?


A/N: I know you hate me! But it can't always be a happy ending! I was planning this from the beginning. Why else do you think Remus and Liz haven’t had a fight the whole time they went out? Cuz I felt bad that a huge fight was just on the horizon.

So who do you like better from the Hunger Games, Gale or Peeta? tell me in a review! Me and my friend were arguing about who deserves Katniss at the beginning of class, it was awkward when the bell rang and it went silent but we were screaming at each other...
Please no spoliers on the books if you read them! I only read the first one so far and I'm waiting to get my hands on the second and third!
 

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