The night of the first Prefect meeting had finally arrived, and though James lazily waited for them to arrive Lily sat on the edge of her seat in anticipation. James tried to get her to relax by rubbing her back and squeezing her hand, but none of it seemed to be working. Instead she would give him a small smile and then turn back to staring at nothing.
He knew it was because Severus would be in such a close proximity, and he wondered if guilt was starting to eat away at her. "Lily?"
"You know how much you deserve this position, right?"
"Of course I do."
"Then you don't have anything to worry about, especially Snape."
"What are you talking about? He's not what I'm nervous about."
"I know you feel bad about him not getting the badge."
"No I don't. If he had gotten it I would have been stuck with him for the whole year. Being biased towards Slytherins, trying to convince me of his ways...plus, I think you've done a pretty good job, minus a few hiccups," she nervously giggled.
"Lily..." James mumbled wanting to get her to open up, "Remus told me you feel bad about how this worked out. I would too if the tables were turned."
"He told you about that?" Lily asked in a high pitched voice.
"Yeah, and believe it or not, I understand."
"Why would he tell you? That was personal."
"I kind of forced him to," James muttered.
"Why would you do that?"
"Because... because you wouldn't even though I could tell something was wrong, and it made me nervous so I asked Remus what was so special between you two that you could tell him things, but not me, so he told me."
"Special? There isn't anything special between us! We're friends!" She paused to try to regain her composure until she remembered hers and James's conversation. "Is this what you were trying to get out of me the other night? Did you honestly think I had a crush on Remus?"
"No!" he automatically said, "Well, maybe, but then I asked him and he said there was nothing to-"
"You asked him?" she yelled.
"What was I supposed to think?" James yelled back, "It was like every damn time I was trying to spend time with you, or something you would be with him either studying, or-"
"You weren't supposed to think anything, you were supposed to trust me. After everything else you've trust me with this is what you choose not to believe me with? He's your best friend!"
James already knew that what he did was wrong, but it felt a hundred time worse because of Lily's eyes brimming with tears glaring at him.
"Lils," he huffed, "Remus already made me feel bad enough. I don't even know what was going through my mind. All I can say is I'm sorry."
"We'll talk about it later...I can hear the Prefects coming." Lily knew her face must have looked like a tomato from all of her frustrations so she took a few calming breathes (though quietly hoping James wouldn't realize) in hopes of helping it return to a normal color.
The Prefects arrived in order of their Houses; first the Hufflepuffs, then the Ravenclaws, shortly followed by the Slytherins, and lastly, right on time were the Gryffindors.
"Good to see you all," Lily greeted them.
"Should've we have had a Prefect meeting in the first week of school?" Naomi immediately asked.
"We could have," Lily said patiently.
"We both thought it would be better to wait a few weeks though to allow everyone to get settled in with their routines though before putting more stuff on your already busy schedules," James answered.
Lily dared a quick glance at Severus and saw that he was glaring at James as he spoke, as if he shouldn't have the right to be talking.
"With that being said, how are your patrols working in with your schedules. Any conflicts yet?"
All at once Prefects began voicing out their problems, each trying to be louder than the other.
"Quiet!" James yelled over them, "Everyone quiet down! Jeez, you'd think that being Prefects you'd all know that you'll be given the chance to speak," he muttered making Remus, who had sat across from him smirk.
"I'm going to put out a piece of parchment and I'd like you all to write down which clubs or study groups you're in so that we can work out a schedule that works in everyone's interest," Lily said. She pulled out some parchment and quill, and automatically everyone began to get up from their seat. "Sit!" she ordered, "At the end of the meeting you can all get in an orderly line and patiently wait your turn."
When everyone sat down (though some of them were rolling their eyes at Lily's orders) the meeting finally began and the group began choosing weekends to go to Hogsmeade from a list of dates the Professors had given them. Out of the nine and a half months they would be at school they were only allowed four weekends to go to Hogsmeade.
"I'm sure everyone would love to go for Valentine's Day!" a Hufflepuff Prefect said.
"I'd rather go before Christmas though," a younger Gryffindor voiced.
"And we can't go to both because?" a Slytherin said sarcastically.
"Why do we need to go for Valentine's Day?" Severus said, "It's a ridiculous holiday, if you can even call it that."
"It's a nice way to show the people around you their love for them," the Hufflepuff Prefect shrugged.
"Pathetic," Severus muttered to his fellow Slytherins, who all snickered.
Lily sent him a sharp glare, but Severus didn't show any reaction to it.
"We go both dates," James reasoned, "But because those two are so close together we'll want to plan to remaining two very carefully. We don't want them to be too far away from each other, but at the same time we don't want to use them up too fast either."
"Well," Naomi spoke up, "If I remember correctly how we did it last year, we went in October, December, February and then April because by the time April comes it's Spring and it's not too cold to do things out on the grounds anymore. People get occupied by the lake and good weather."
"Yeah, that worked out really well last year," her fellow Ravenclaw said.
"Okay," Lily nodded, "Does everyone agree?"
With mumbles of agreement, and no specific complaints, Lily decided that they had done all that was needed and allowed people to write their schedules down on the parchment. James waited patiently for the line to clam down and then for Lily to gather all of her things. Remus had at first also waited for his friends, but James violently shook his head as a warning that he didn't want to be in the way of Lily's wrath.
Once packed up, she tried to make a quick exit out of the door, but James stopped her. "Lily, please wait."
"Why?" she snapped.
"Because I don't want to talk about this in front of everyone in the Common Room."
"I don't see why not. You obviously don't have any consideration for privacy."
"That's really how you're going to look at this? Merlin, Lily! I didn't know what to think! Can you really blame me for being curious about my girlfriend's life?"
Lily stomped her foot on the ground in frustration. Sure, she could have told him and trusted him with her thoughts, but that wasn't the point! Remus betrayed her trust and James invaded her privacy. She took a deep breath so that her voice wouldn't come out sounding like she was being strangled. "You should have waited until I was ready to talk about it with you. Just because I talk to someone else about my problems doesn't mean I like them."
"Okay," James compromised, though he still didn't fully understand, "Next time, if there is one, can you at least hint that you're not ready to talk about instead of acting like it's not there?"
"Yes," she sighed.
The subject was dropped and they walked out of the classroom where the meeting had been held only to find Severus just outside of its door. Lily hesitated only for a second before moving on, but he called after her to stop them.
"Yes?" Lily said shortly. Automatically, James grabbed her hand catching Severus' eye who held back a scowl.
"I need to change something about my schedule," he said in a low voice.
Lily looked at him curiously knowing that he shouldn't have any schedule compromises since he was always too unsocial to join clubs and was too proud to join a study group.
"Right." She untangled herself from James's hand and began rummaging through her bag for the piece of parchment. When she had it in her hands she scanned the list for Severus' name, but couldn't find it. "You're not on here."
"That's what I need to change."
"What time aren't you available then?"
"Can I talk to you in private about it?"
James had his mouth open to answer that question, but Lily sent him a cutting glare to make it close again.
"We are in private," she said looking around the empty hallways.
"You know what I mean," he huffed.
"Tell me now so I can write it in, or your availability will stay completely open."
"Fine," he said shortly, "I won't be able to patrol on Thursdays."
Lily began scribbling down, "Reason?"
Lily stopped writing and looked up at him, "You don't have anything personal. It has to be because of a club or study group."
"Lupin gets personal days!" he argued. James's glare intensified on Severus.
"Because his mum is deathly ill!"
Severus glanced at James before turning back to Lily to say, "We all know that's a lie."
"That's not your place to say," James snapped, "Just give him Thursdays off so we can go," he told Lily.
"But-" Lily started to complain.
"Consider your Thursdays open."
James pulled Lily back down the hallway despite her grumbling. "How are you just going to give in like that? We should have stuck our ground. We can't have students thinking they can walk all over us."
"I was being diplomatic," James muttered.
"This is true," Lily nodded, "You didn't even have to get your wand out." She leaned over to nudge his hip in an attempt to lighten the mood.
"Snape has always had it out for Remus, and I figured this was one way to get him to shut up."
"Yeah, no one else needs to get the idea in their head that he's a lycanthrope." Lily chanced a glance up at James, but his stare was focused in front of himself. "I mean, that would be crazy, right? Just because he happens to go home on the same days as the full moon means nothing. Same with how horrible he looks when he does come back. I would look like that too if I saw my mum dying."
"Yeah," was all James said.
Lily frustratedly tried to think of something else to say. Years ago Severus had mentioned to Lily the idea of Remus being a werewolf, but she immediately shrugged it off as a made up reason of his to hate a Marauder. However, Severus started observing Remus' actions around the full moon, and it was true that he always grew pale before the full moon, disappeared for a night, and then came back looking utterly horrible. It was all obvious, but Lily never wanted to believe that Remus had to go through such a horrible experience every month by himself.
Then when "the incident" came around and Sirius had promised to take Severus to a werewolf Lily became even more assured that Remus was a werewolf. In an attempt to protect him from Severus though she used the incident as a reason as to why Severus should forget the whole thing. She knew he wouldn't, but it was hopeful thinking.
"He is a werewolf, isn't he?" she said in a low voice.
"That's ridiculous. Of course not," James shut her out.
"Lily," he smirked mocking her.
"Why don't you ask him yourself?"
"Well, that's not really something you can just go around asking people."
"You'll have to rely on my answer then," he shrugged.
Lily looked down at the floor still frustrated by his answers. On the one hand, James was just trying to be a good friend, but it would be so much easier if he would solidify her thoughts. She didn't want to badger him anymore though and dropped the subject right after saying, "How ironic that the two of you can talk about my personal problems, but you suddenly find a conscience when it came to that."
The next couple of weeks, Lily and James's schedule was settled. Every morning they would meet in the Common Room to walk down to breakfast together, each go to their classes, eat lunch together, finish their classes, go t the library for homework (though James did this grudgingly), eat dinner and then spend their last few hours together in the Common Room with their friends. Meanwhile, they only had to do patrols on Monday nights since they had figured out the rest of the Prefects schedules.
School life was much less strenuous like that for the Lily who now only had to concentrate on finishing her homework as quickly, but still efficiently, as possibly so that she and James could spend time together. Most of the time they would stay in the Common Room with friends, but there were other times when James would ask for her help on a subject in the Head Dorm, which she quickly found out meant that he wanted alone time with her.
This didn't always mean that they would be making out on the couch, though Lily found that breaking the rules didn't make her feel as guilty as she thought it would, but instead just the peace and quiet of being able to be alone was nice.
This particular night though, Lily and James were enjoying the peace and quiet a little more than usual. James had tricked her into think that he honestly needed help with his homework, but once they had arrived Lily noticed that he hadn't even brought his book.
"Well, well, if it isn't beauty and the miscreant," they were greeted, "More homework, I assume?"
"Double checking Prefect schedules since Quidditch season is coming up," James easily lied.
"Horrible sport," Madame Lae scoffed. She unconcealed the passage way and James quickly led Lily in, and far enough away so that Madame Lae couldn't overhear them.
"James, I don't really have time for this right now," Lily told him standing in front of the always lit fireplace.
"Hear me out," James said, "Quidditch season really is coming up. We start try outs next week and then after that I'm going to constantly be at practice."
James stood in front of her and wiped her hair off of her shoulder before nibbling on it. "That means we won't get to see each other nearly as much as we have been. I saw an opportunity for us to get some alone time, and figured I may as well take advantage of it."
Lily leaned into his kisses knowing that it was true. "Okay," she mumbled, "But even after Quidditch season is done, or we get some extra time we can't keep abusing McGonagall's trust like this. They're expecting us to me mature!"
Kissing her lips, James nodded in understanding and led Lily to the couch. Without breaking contact, he pulled her down on top of his body making them both topple onto the cushions. Lily giggled at their crash landing, but James wouldn't let her lose focus.
He snaked his hands underneath her school robes, and then found the hem of her undershirt that was still tucked into her skirt.
"Have I ever told you how crazy this skirt drives me?" he said giving them both a chance to breathe.
"I don't even shorten it like the other girls," she laughed.
"That's why! I was always dying to see your legs." One his hands softly traveled to her legs and pulled up the skirt so that he could see her thighs. "I feel bad for the other lads though. I at least got to see them during the summer. No one else has the slightest idea what they're missing out on."
"Isn't that a good thing?"
"Definitely. McGonagall would take my badge if I had to defend you from all of those prying eyes," he laughed.
Lily rolled her eyes, but leaned forward to softly bite James's cheek. His hands again began going up her shirt, but the moment they reached her bra strap Lily froze.
"Hm?" he said trying to get her lips back down to his.
"I have a slightly embarrassing conversation topic."
James brought his hands out from under her shirt and cupped her face. "Now?"
"Yes?" Lily said nervously.
"Okay," James sighed. "Go for it."
"Well, it's just that I've been thinking about how patient you were with me during the summer with how far we...go and everything. I mean, with the fact that it was just weird at first, and then the whole Marcus thing, but now we're at school and everything is going really well, and I was wondering...how far do you plan on going?" she ended, a little confused by her own words.
James bit his tongue so that he wouldn't laugh at Lily's nervous face. "Lils, we can go at whatever pace you need to. I'm just along for the ride."
"I know you would, but with my thoughts aside do you have any...preferences?"
James sighed and realizing that they probably weren't going to be needing to be laying down anymore, he sat up so that he could look Lily eye to eye. "I'm just as new to this as you are. I may have dated around a lot before you, but it's hard to do much more than making out when you're in a broom closet."
Lily laughed partly at his joke, but mostly it was laugh of relief that she wasn't the only inexperienced one here. In the past, she and Marcus had never gone all the way, but there were also a few things she wasn't so proud of. It wasn't really in her character to do things that she wasn't sure about, but during those summers with Marcus she had felt like she was someone else and let a few things slide.
"Okay, good," she nodded, "I mean, because it's not to say that I'm completely inexperienced, just with the grand finale. When I was with Marcus-"
"Stop!" James put his hands up to his ears, "I can't hear that. I never want to be able to picture anything that the two of you did."
"Sorry," she laughed, "The point is that I'm a little rusty, and I really don't want to embarrass myself. Plus, we've never really talked about it so I wanted to see that we're on the same page."
"Considered it talked over."
"Well, the Prefects bathrooms should be empty by this time at night..." James winked. Lily rolled her eyes and stood from the couch. "What? You said you were rusty? What better way to warm you back up?"
Lily threw her head back in a laugh and walked towards the exit, James now following right behind her. "Oh, Potter. You're so cute to think that just because we talked about it thinks I'm actually willing to do those things with you."
James shrugged and looked down at Lily. "Well, you are...aren't you?"
They passed by Madame Lae with a nod of farewell. "Maybe... I still need a little convincing from your end."
James's eyebrow furrowed. "Oh, I'll show you convincing."
"I'll believe it when I see it," she challenged back.
Their jokes went back and forth until they reached the Gryffindor Common Room, where thankfully no one had noticed their extended absence.
"Gotten lucky yet, Prongs?" Sirius asked the moment they sat down.
James threw a pillow at Sirius and Lily's cheeks burned pink. Well...almost no one had noticed.
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