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Chapter 3 - Apologies


Sirius left on that note and then I really was the last person in the Great Hall. I never thought Sirius was the insightful type; then again like he had said I had never given Sirius, James, nor Peter the time to get to really know them. I had a pretty good excuse for it though. About a month after starting our first year James had asked me to be his girlfriend in front of basically the entire school, the bashful little girl I had been then had turned him down. I had always knew that Severus had a crush on me but when James asked me to be his girlfriend Severus did the unthinkable.

“No she does not want to date you Potter,” Severus spat. “Lily is my girlfriend.”

“I am not!” I yelled at him looking at him like he was crazy, “I am not dating you.”

“Then you are free to date me?” James asked with excitement.

Severus threw the jelly leg curse at James.

“You wait!” James yelled and threw the boogey curse on him.

“Stop it!” I yelled.

“What is it to you?” James asked, “You don’t like him anyways. Long greasy hair and that horrible nose; why do you even give him the time of day Evans?”

All the kids around us started laughing at him and Severus turn bright red and ran away.

“Sev wait up!” I yelled running after him.

“Sev!” James laughed, “She even has a pet name for him! Snivellus and Lily sitting in a tree….”

I shook myself, how could I forget that memory. The fact of the matter was that I had thought James was cute all those years ago, and that I had wanted to be his girlfriend. In face I had been honored that he asked. The only thing was at that point in time Severus was my best friend and I knew how much he liked me. If James would have just been mature and walked off I would have found him later and told him that I would have loved to be his girlfriend. He humiliated Severus and me, and for that I loathed James Potter all those years.

I finally got up and headed to the common room I shared with James Potter. As I walked into the portrait hole I almost ran face first into the one and only James Potter.

“Whoa, watch it!” James said as he fell backwards so that he would not fall on top of me.

“Sorry,” I said lending my hand out to help him up. He looked at me surprised but took my hand. “Where were you off to, Quidditch practice?”

“Not this late, I was actually going to check on you.”


“Yeah I was worried…” He looked down I could have sworn I saw his cheeks tint a pink shade.

“Oh, well thanks.” I smiled at him and when he looked up to see I was not mad about him worrying about me and that I was smiling, well he smiled back. “I was okay, just daydreaming in the Great Hall.”

“Yeah you looked as if something was on your mind at dinner.”

“I need to talk to you.”

James gestured towards the couches away from the portrait hole and I followed him. I sat down on the couch I had been upon last night and he sat beside me. “I need to apologize for last night.”


“I had no idea…”

“No idea to what?” James asked confused.

“About your father’s dying wish.”

“Wait,” James looked at me for a moment with disbelief in his eyes. “Are you only apologizing to me because my dad is dead?”

“Well, no but…”

“No thanks Lily,” he said getting up. “I do not need your pity,” and he left me stunned as he went up to his room for the night.



“So,” came Sirius behind me in a sing song voice. I was about to walk into Defense Against the Dark Arts but I turned around to see the known ladies man.

“So what?”

“What has your knickers in a bunch?”

“Your buddy.”

“My what?” He laughed, “Oh James.”

“Yeah him.”

“What now? I swear you two will be married one day.”

“Not likely, anyways I tried to apologize last night…”


“He told me that he did not need my pity.”

Sirius growled almost dog like, “What the hell is wrong with him? You are actually being nice to him…”

“What do you mean actually being nice to him?”

“Come off it Lily,” he laughed. “You never give James the time of day. I mean I know back in the day I know we were annoying.”


“Have I annoyed you the last two days?”

He had a point, “No but I have not been around you much.”

“Okay point taken,” he nodded. “Other then the two of you bickering has James been annoying?”

Now that he mentioned it James was being everything but annoying.

“So let me get this straight,” he went on. “You admitted to him that you apologized because of his dad dying?”

“Not exactly…”

“He figured it out then…”

“I sure did,” a voice came from behind the both of us. “Thanks for talking about me behind my back though and by the way bell is about to ring.” He walked into the class room and I turned to see Sirius with his mouth hanging wide open.

“What?” I asked.

“You really pissed him the hell off,” he said shaking his head and walked into the classroom with me on his feet right as the bell rang.



“What the hell did you do?!” Amelia hissed at me at lunch.

“I have never seen that look on his face,” Alice commented.

“He figured out that I apologized after I found out about his dad.”

“Moron,” Amelia snorted.

“Oh Lily,” Alice sighed.

“Then he overheard Sirius and I talking about it.”

“You are smart,” Amelia said sarcastically.

“You know what Amelia are getting on my nerves, piss off.” I grabbed my books and stormed out of the great hall.



I was doing my Charms homework when he walked into the common room, he sat in the couch across from me but did not say a word to me as he was working on something. We went on like this for about a good two hours when I finally got sick of it and decided to break the silence.

“What is your problem?”

“Not now Lily,” he said not looking up from what he was doing.

I walked toward him and ripped it out of his hand and threw it to the floor, “I want to talk now.”

He stood up and was a good seven inches taller then me, “What makes you think you have the right to make me talk to you? What makes you think that you can be a total bitch to me twenty four seven but I am suppose to do whatever you want me to at the drop of a dime?!”

“Excuse me?! What the hell did you just call me?!” I said as I felt my face turning as red as my hair.

“I do not have the time for you petty games,” he said picking up whatever he had been doing off the floor and handing it to me. “Now leave me the hell alone.” For the second time in two nights he stormed out on me.

I looked down and read what he gave me,


Look, I have no idea what is going on. I am sorry that you hate that I am Head Boy and that now for the rest of term we will have to share living quarters and work closely together. I know how much you hate me and I have accepted that, but we are just going to have to suck it up and do it for the sake of our graduating class. Next time you want to know what is going on in my head ask me, don’t go talk to Sirius.



Wow, he really knew how to make me feel like a total and complete bitch. I threw the paper down on the floor for the second time that night and stormed up stairs towards his bedroom. I went for the door handle and of course it was locked. I took my wand out of my pocket and raised it to the door knob and said, “Alahomora!” I heard the lock click and from the other side of the door there was, “What the hell?”

I threw the door open and got as much in his face as I could at my height, “How dare you!”

“What now?!” He yelled back.

“If you have something to say, you need to man up and say it to my face!”

“Fine, I was trying to be nice.”

“Yeah that is likely.”

“You are a hotheaded, now-it-all!”

“Oh yeah,” I yelled at him. “You are an insufferable, male chauvinist pig!”

“How would you know, you have never given me the time of day?!”

“How could I, when you change girlfriends as often as I change socks!”

“Wait,” James face and attitude changed. “You would have actually given me a chance?”

My face fell and my eyes bugged out, “I never said that!”

He stepped closer to me, “You didn’t have to it was implied.”

I went to storm off but he grabbed my wrist and twirled me back around towards him. He turned me so fast that I fell into his chest and when I looked up his face was inches away from mine. We both looked at one another for a moment too long and I pulled back and then stomped on his foot.

“See a male chauvinist pig! You think every woman on God’s green earth pines for you!”

He did not say anything, James Potter just stared at me in awe. I ran out of the room and threw myself on my bed after slamming the door. I expected him to come in after me, but he never did.



“Has things gotten any better?” Alice asked me about a week later.

“Yeah,” I smiled. “I just ignore him like I did before he became Head Boy.”

“Lily,” Alice sighed. “That is not going to solve anything, how are the two of you suppose to get anything done?”

“Like what?” Amelia asked, we were at dinner.

“They have to plan when we go on Hogsmeade trips, decorations for Halloween, Christmas, Seventh Year ball, and end of term feast.”

“Hogsmeade trips?!” Amelia smiled looking at me, she loved getting away from school and going into the little town of Hogsmeade.

“Yes,” I nodded as I ate some lasagna.

“You better get over this not talking to James Potter thing and plan woman!”

“So you would put my happiness over a Hogsmeade trip?” I asked Amelia knowing the answer before I even finished the question.

“Hell yes!”

I felt someone tap me on the back and by the look on Alice’s face I had an idea who it was.

“Yes?” I asked without turning around.

“We need to talk,” he stated.

“Talk then.”


I turned around to glare at him, “I have had enough alone time with you to last a lifetime.”

“Lily I am serious…”

“Mr. Potter, Miss Evans?” It was Professor McGonagall.

“Yes?” I asked thrilled to have my attention taken away from James.

“Professor Dumbledore would like to speak with the both of you in his office, Miss Evans I think he is in the mood for Lemon Drops.”

“Lemon what?” James asked totally clueless.

I looked up to indeed see that our Headmaster was not at the teacher’s table anymore. “He wants to see us now?”

“Yes, the sooner the better.”

I nodded and got up to leave, I then turned around to see that James had not moved at all. “Are you coming?”

James nodded and followed me, “What does the Headmaster want?”

“That is the password to his office, it is always some kind of treat.”

“How do you know that?”

“From being a Prefect the last two years.”



“Thank you for meeting with me in such short notice,” Professor Dumbledore grinned as I walked in two steps ahead of James.

“No problem,” I smiled as I took a seat across from his desk.

“None at all,” James said as he took the seat next to mine.

“I have had some teachers asking when the first trip to Hogsmeade will be, it is about time to put bulletins up in the common rooms so that the third year and older students can start to get ready for the trip.”

“Oh,” I dropped my eyes to the floor.

“We have not exactly sat down and planned that out yet,” James spoke before I could muster anything out of my mouth.

“Oh, I see.” Dumbledore the put his hands together, “Maybe I made a mistake.”

“Mistake?” I asked.

“Yes,” he nodded. “I knew that you and Mr. Potter had some differences but I never thought that the two of you would put your differences ahead of your Head Boy and Girl duties.”

“Professor,” I tried.

“No,” he shook his head. “I need the two of you to be able to work together or for the first time ever in Hogwarts history I will have to replace the Head Boy and Girl.”

“We will work this out,” James spoke again before I could muster anything out of my mouth.

“Good,” he nodded. “I except an answer from the two of you within three days. Same place and time.”

He then turned his chair towards the wall of portraits of previous Headmasters and we both knew it was time to leave.



I was in my room on my bed, crying my eyes out. James and I had walked back to the common room in silence and I went up to my bedroom without saying a word to him.

There was a knock at the door, I knew exactly who it was but I was really not in the mood for him right now.

“Come in,” I barely spoke.

I had my back turned to the door and I was under the covers curled up to one of my pillows.

James sat down beside me on the side where my face was turned, “Please look at me.”

I sat up and looked straight into the hazel eyes that would soon melt my heart, “What?”

“You have been crying?” He asked me, “But why?”

“Why? Are you really asking me that question,” I could feel that my face was all blotchy but at that moment I could really care less. “I have never wanted anything more in my life then being Head Girl and now I am going to lose it.”

“Why do you say that?”

“I can not work with you, we argue to much.”

“Lily, I am going to resign.”

“What?! What about your father’s wish?”

“Well he got his wish, I was Head Boy.”

“For a little over a week?”

He shrugged, “You win some and you lose some.”

“I can not let you resign,” I shook my head. “You realize how horrible I would feel that you gave up being Head Boy because all we do is bicker?”

“Then we need to come to an agreement.”


“I know you hate me…”

“I don’t…”

“Don’t lie Lily. We will have to just get along enough to do our Head Boy and Girl duties.”

“Okay,” I nodded. “So let’s start.”

He shook his head, “Not tonight. I am tired and I have to hold Quidditch tryouts bright and early tomorrow.”


“Yes,” he nodded at me. “You know Saturday.”

“Oh okay.”

“Tomorrow after tryouts?”

“Sure,” I nodded and he left my room without another word while closing my bedroom door behind him.



“So what did Dumbledore want last night?” Amelia asked butting in as usual.

“Want to know if we had planned the Hogsmeade trips and all that.”


“We told him no.”

“Oh,” Alice said feeling the worst coming. “What did he say?”

“That if we did not put our bickering aside for our responsibilities that he would have to replace us.”

“Oh wow,” Amelia bit her lip. “So what are you going to do?”

“What I have to, be civil with James Potter.”

“Is that even possible?” Alice asked, “I mean you have never had any patience for him.”

“I will have to make room for it or else I have to resign Head Girl.”




Sorry its been over a week since I have written home, school has been so crazy busy. I knew being a Prefect was a lot of work but it was nothing compared to be Head Girl. I miss you so much, I hate being so far away. Yes, I am still planning on coming home during Christmas break. No I haven’t forgotten about Christmas and of course Petunia’s wedding. Hope you are well.

Love you,


I reread the letter before I attached it to Bella’s leg, “Bring it straight to Mum and don’t let Petunia intercept it.”

Bella hooted and in a way I knew that she knew what I was telling her.

It was Saturday and I knew James would be at Quidditch tryouts, I did not want to see him anyways.

“Lily?” I turned around to see Barty Crouch Jr.

“Oh hey Barty.”

“So congrats on getting Head Girl.”

“Thank you,” I blushed.

“Any idea when the first Hogsmeade trip will be.”

To my great disgust the idea of working with James later on today hit me, “We will be discussing that today and telling Professor Dumbledore in the next few days. Then he will tell the teachers and everyone should know.”

“Awesome,” he smiled at me. “Well whenever the Hogsmeade trip is, you will have to meet me at the Three Broomsticks for some butterbeer on me.”

“Sure.” I nodded and I headed towards the grounds to see Amelia, Alice, and Frank.

“What took you so long?” Amelia groaned, “I have had to sit here with these two while they snog all day!”

“You just got here,” Alice pointed out.

“Lily!” I turned around to see Remus.

“Hey, you want to join us?” I asked him.

“What are you all doing?” He asked as we were all laying around the lake.

“A whole lot of nothing,” Amelia sighed as she was about to take a nap.

“Sounds great,” he said laying between Amelia and me.

“So where is the rest of the pack?” Alice asked.

“Oh,” Remus nodded as he sat up to look at Alice and Frank. “Sirius and James are at Quidditch tryouts and Peter is watching in the stands. I got bored so I thought I would come hang out with Lily.”

For most of the day the five of us hung out, laughing, talking, and just having a good time.

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