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Do you know? Do you know?
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone who's in a rush
to throw you away?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock
on the door has changed?

I ran to the Heads' Dorm, hot tears streaming down my face.

I had found him, snogging her shamelessly. And they were topless. I was looking for him so that we could do our rounds for the night of November 16, 1976. I heard two people making out. Thinking that it was Sirius, I entered, and stopped short.

"Oh," I said, shell-shocked. There was a Brazilian girl on top of my gorgeous boyfriend. The Brazilian's head turned - Malia Turkington. Of course. I started to turn around.

"Lily, wait!" He came running across the room, shirtless.

"No, James," I said. "It's fine. I can see that you love her more than your own girlfriend. Of course you'd pick the elegant race horse over the ugly mule." I left him standing there, a dumbfounded look on his face.

If birds flying south's a
sign of changes,
at least you can predict
this every year.
Love, you never know
the minute it ends.
Suddenly, I can't get
it to speak.

I hid my face into my pillow. There was a rap on the door.

"Go the fuck away!" I screamed.

"Lily, it's me!" I opened up the door to see Alice standing outside my room. I wrapped my arms around her.

"Lily, where's the bastard?" Alice asked, walking over to the fridge in my room, opening, pulling out a pop, and sitting on the windowsill.

"He cheated on me." Alice sprayed the room with soda.

"HE DID WHAT?!?!?!?!?"

"He -"

"Lily," James said, entering the room. I glared at him. Alice shot out of her comfy seat, walked across the room, and slapped him.


"But that's just it! I wasn't thinking!" Alice glared at him. She was going to strike him again.

"Alice," I said, talking for the first time since James had entered the room. "Leave." She gave me a questioning look. I gave her one that said I'll give you a detention if you don't. Alice quickly left the room, slamming the door on James' back.

Maybe if I knew all the
things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that
bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to
see the some about me
I'm standing on the edge
and I don't know what else
to give.

We stood there in silence for a long time.

"I'm sorry," he finally said. I glared at him.

"Oh really? That's not what it looked like. Besides," I said. "You should be sorry."

"Lily, I was under a love potion earlier today! Then, just before you came in, it wore off. She didn't realize that the dose had worn off until you left the room."

"Really? A love potion? I find that very likely," I said, rolling my eyes. Why do I have to put up with this bull? I pointed my head towards the floor.

"Lils," he said, approaching me.

"Don't," I said softly, my eyes going blurry. I put my fist on his perfectly formed abs, still free from the confines of his shirt. I looked up, the tears streaking down my face. He had a look of pain on his face.

"Just don't." Then I left the room. Alice had gone back to her dorm, so I went to the Gryffindor Common Room. I whispered the password to Priscilla (the Fat Lady) and entered. Sirius and Remus were in the corner talking about something. Alice was nowhere to be seen.

I went and sat down on the couch. The two young men stopped their conversation and looked at me. Remus must have sensed something was up, because he came over and hugged me. Sirius followed suit.

Do you know
what it feels like
loving someone that's in
a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know
the lock for the door has changed.

"What happened?" Remus asked. I looked at him.

"He cheated on me." Sirius swore and kicked over a table. Remus shook his head and started speaking in fluid Latin. Sirius ran a hand through his hair.

"How do you know?" Sirius asked.

"I found him about a half hour ago snogging that Brazilian." This time, both of the boys swore. They started pacing around the room. Finally, Remus stopped and sat down beside me again.

"Here's what we're gonna do," he started. He began to explain to me how they would shun James, no matter how painful it was, until James and I would become friends again. I thought that the plan was brilliant.

"And I know I'm going to sound gay, but you're going to have to dress differently so that he feels like he made the biggest mistake of his life. I know Alice will probably give you a hair cut, but you'll have to start wearing stripper boots. You know, the boots that go above the knee that have stirlecto heels -"

"Stiletto," I corrected.

"And you'll have to make your self more..."

"Ah. Ok, I'll try. Thanks guys. You're the best." I hugged the two of them as Alice walked in.

I flow through my act
The question is she needed
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
I could never see us ending like this.
(Do you know)
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never happened to me.
(Do you know)
But after this episode I don't see,
you could never tell the next thing life could be

"Alice," Sirius said, pulling out his wand. "This won't hurt a bit." He silently sent a spell at her. She gasped, then started smiling. I leaned towards Remus.

"She knows the plan now?" He nodded. Alice's smile grew until she was smiling ear to ear. Uh-oh. Alice Nikholi loves makeovers. She took my hand and pulled me up to her dorm. She set to work on me immediately.

I was exhausted from all of the crying. It seemed like she had just started working on me when suddenly she was done with my face and hair. Then she went to her wardrobe and pulled out an outfit - very dark short shorts, a graphic tee that had a bunch of gold and silver hearts on it, and a black mini vest. She threw the outfit at me. I quickly got changed. As soon as I was out of the bathroom, Alice transformed my converse into back, leather stiletto boots. Then she did a final inspection and towed me toward a full body mirror. I looked in it and gasped. The woman in the mirror was absolutely radiant. She wasn't the ugly girl that had been me. No. I had side bangs now, and my makeup was perfect. And the entire ensemble went together beautifully. I turned around and hugged my best friend.

"Thank you! Now we can get back at the bastard." I started toward the door. Alice grabbed a hold of my wrist.

"Oh, no you don't. There's more to the plan."

Do you know what it feels like
love is someone that's in
a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know
the lock for the door has changed.

Alice explained that I was to pretend that I was going out with Sirius. I was pretty much mortified.

"I will do no such thing! I will never -"

"Do you wanna get back at James or not?" I nodded my head. "Then let's go down stairs and have your 'boyfriend' see you." She grabbed my wrist and pulled me up from her bed. We walked out the door and stopped at the top of the stairs. Alice turned around and told me to stay where I was until I had been properly introduced. Then she went to the bottom of the stairs.

"Introducing," she said to the two boys in the room. "The new Lillian Marie Evans!" I started down the stairs slowly, making sure that I didn't trip on the stairs. I looked down the entire descent. When I got to the bottom, I looked up from under my eyelashes and bit my lip. The boys were flabbergasted. I giggled, looking at their faces and walked over to Sirius. He dropped his jaw.

"You're collecting flies, you know." He quickly shut his mouth at the comment.

"Lily," Remus said. "You look..."

"I'll take that as a compliment. Now, I need to get back to my dorm. Goodnight." I strolled out of the portrait hole and through the halls to my Common Room. I entered and found James hunched over in a chair. His head went up when he saw that someone entered the room. He looked at me and his jaw dropped. I gave him a sideways glance and sat down in the love seat opposite him. He was gaping at me. I sat there with my legs crossed. He finally remembered how to close his mouth.

"W-when were you going to tell your boyfriend that you were going to change your style?" He asked. Big mistake.

"Excuse me?" I asked skeptically. "What did you just say?" James looked down.

"I have a feeling that you're mad at me -"

"Damn right!"

"- but you have to understand that she put under a spell. She used a love potion! Lily, I still love you! I'm still your boyfriend!" I glared at him.

"Wrong answer," I said. Then Sirius entered the room and walked over to me.

"Hey, girl," he said, sitting next to me. He put his arm around me to keep me warm. James glared at him.

"Hands off. She's mine."

"I'm no one's territory, Potter. If you think that you can break a girl's heart, then you're in deep shit." I got up and kissed Sirius on the cheek.

"Get out before he gets pissed." Sirius nodded, got up, cupped my face, and then left. I stood there for a second, then went up to my room.

A few weeks later, Sirius and I were still a couple. I had had the last straw.

"Remus, I can't fake date him anymore!" Remus looked shocked. Then his face changed.

"Ok, but when you 'break up' with him, you'll have to make a scene. And you're still gonna have to act like friends after that." I nodded.

And so, that day, Sirius and I dueled over how he wasn't a very good boyfriend. James, who had turned emo and started hanging around with other people, intervened, and sent all three of us to the Hospital Wing.

It was completely silent when we got there. Sirius was the first one to talk.

"Lily," he said. "I'm sorry. Can we be friends?" I pretended to think.

"Of course, Sirius. Let's just be friends."

"Oh, so you'll be friends with him, but not me?" Potter was looking skeptically at me.

"Well, he just didn't act like a boyfriend," I explained. "You, on the other hand, decided to cheat on me." I ignored him for the rest of the time that we were in the Hospital Wing.

Dear Reader,
Thank you for the comments! And I'm going to get a gorgeous banner for my story! Thank you joellatti07! Please r&r! Also, I have a picture of James!

Michael Winges

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