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Once upon a time, there lived a bright, beautiful, and charismatic witch. She lived her life to the fullest, enjoying everything that could possibly be  thrown her way. She had great friends, excellent grades, and a lust for life. She only had one problem. She fell in love. This is the story of a girl who gave up her world for a boy. This is the story of Hermione Granger.

 

 

 

The snow is so beautiful. It never causes pain. It’s just…there. It knows how to comfort. It knows how to protect. It knows how to love. But what is love anyway? I’ve given up everything for him. I’ve given up Ron, the only boy who’s ever loved me. I’ve given up school to run away with him. I’ve given up my family so we can be together. But why won’t he talk to me? Does he love me? I’m sick and tired of all the prayers I’ve wasted on him. I’m going to do it. I’m going to ask for his love. I can’t wait any longer.

You, you know how to get me so low
My heart had a crash when we spoke
I can't fix what you broke


Sighing, I got up and walked to the other side of the tent. We’ve been on the run from Death Eaters for a few months now. After all we’ve been through, he still hasn’t said the most beautiful three words in the world to me. I’ve said it to him maybe every night.

He was looking out the window, shivering from the cold. He has been awfully quiet lately. He barely speaks anymore. It’s as if the life has been sucked out of him. He doesn’t know what’s going on. He doesn’t feel. He isn’t the Draco Malfoy that I had fallen in love with.

I placed my hand on his shoulder, trying to soothe him of his burden. He didn’t even look up at me. I haven’t seen his warm and inviting smile for what feels like eternity. I was mustering every ounce of courage I had just to utter one question to him. But this wasn’t just a question. My whole life was to be put into this question.

And you, you always have a reason
Again and again this feeling
Why do I give in?


 “Draco…”

He didn’t move. The bright moon illuminated his face. His platinum blond hair looked messy and dirty, as we have been on the run. His face had smudge marks of dirt and mud. His eyes looked lost and confused. But he looked perfect to me. 

“Do you love me?”

Again, he didn’t move. I half expected him to jump up from whatever thoughts were invading his mind and embrace me in one of his heart-warming hugs, asking me why I would ever ask such a silly question. But the realistic part of me knew this wouldn’t happen.

He sighed and put his head in his hands. He started to cry softly and didn’t even bother hiding his tears. They rolled down his cheeks and dripped onto his shirt.

And I always was
Oh always
Was one for crying
I always was one for tears


I stayed there with my hand on his shoulder. He didn’t push me away nor did he pull me closer. It was as if I wasn’t there. I didn’t know what to say. What could I say to the man I love, breaking down into silent sobs when I asked him if he loves me? What could I possibly say?

The sun's getting cold, it's snowing
Looks like an early winter
For us
Looks like an early winter
For us
An early winter
Oh, I need you to turn me over


He sat there, crying. He didn’t stop. He didn’t look at me. I squeezed his shoulder for reassurance, but this action went unnoticed. After an hour of him sitting there crying, he looked up. He looked straight into my eyes. Hurt, confusion, sadness, grief, regret, sorrow, and heartache looked straight into my eyes. It was too overwhelming. I searched his eyes for love. That emotion seemed to absent from him. I suddenly knew the answer to my own question. I turned to leave, but I felt his hand grab mine to turn me back around.

It's said,
The map of the world is on you
The moon gravitates around you
The seasons escape you


He opened his mouth to speak, but nothing came out. I turned around once again and I felt him grab my hand once again. When he opened his mouth this time, he managed to talk.

 “No” he whispered.

 And I always was
Oh always
Was one for crying
I always was one for tears


 The ground from beneath me was gone. The air from around me was gone. The world started to spin faster and faster until it was out of control. I couldn’t see straight. The only word in my mind was “No”. I didn’t have enough energy to cry. I couldn’t walk away. My feet seemed to be glued to the ground. His face was the only thing I could see. He wasn’t talking, but his eyes seemed to be telling me everything. He stared at me. I don’t know how long I stood there, but all I knew is that I lost my world. I lost everything. Everything had been a lie.

No, I never was
Oh never
One for lying
You lied to me
All these years


My feet seemed to move me away from where I was standing. I had no control over my body anymore. My mind had completely shut down. My eyelids started getting heavy, but I knew I wouldn’t be able to sleep. I had walked out of the tent hours, maybe days ago. Everything was a blur. Nothing was real anymore.

The sun's getting cold, it's snowing
Looks like an early winter
For us
Looks like an early winter
For us
An early winter
Oh, I need you to turn me over


I felt no emotions. I didn’t know what sadness was. I couldn’t sort anything out. I had no heart, no soul. I was sitting in front of a thawing lake. I looked beyond its horizons. The moon shone brightly above me. The moon strangely reminded me of Draco’s eyes. The way it emitted warmth. The way it would make me feel safe, like everything was going to be okay. It made me hate the moon. Snowflakes whirled around me in the heavy wind.

The sun's getting cold, it's snowing
Looks like an early winter
For us
Looks like an early winter
For us
An early winter
Oh, I need you to turn me over


I stood up and walked into the lake. I felt my knees getting wet in the freezing water. Then my shoulders. Wind thrashed against my face. And with one last breath, I dove.

It gets too much
It gets so much
Starting over and over and over again...

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