Addison Prewett sat in her hospital bed and stared up at the ceiling. Her long, wavy auburn hair was tangled and spread along her slim back. She hummed to herself, not knowing what had happened. She was empty. Empty of all feeling and memory. She hardly remembered anything. She barely even remembered who she was.


Sirius Black entered the small hospital room and walked over to her bed, nervous and shaking.

“Oh, Addy. I was so worried about you. Come here.”

Sirius pulled Addison into a big hug and let out a sigh of relief. He hadn’t slept in days. He had been so worried about her, he had even forgotten to eat, something Sirius never forgets to do. He pulled away and stroked her hair. She didn’t even look him in the eye. 

“Addy, are you okay?” Sirius asked, “Say something.”

Addison didn’t respond, she just continued humming her song and looking up at the ceiling.

“Nurse!” Sirius shouted, getting up from the bed. “I need a nurse!”

Sirius ran over to the door and shouted for a nurse out into the hallway. A plump lady dressed in white came running to the door.

“Boy, would you be quiet! This is a hospital! Keep your voice down!” the nurse whispered harshly. “Now what do you want?”

“I think something’s wrong with Addy…she’s not talking. She won’t even acknowledge that I’m here. It’s not right.” Sirius ran a hand through his hair and threw a nervous look Addy’s way. The nurse looked at him and her face softened.

“Oh, your poor child. Sit down, I obviously have a lot to tell you.”

The nurse led Sirius to the guest area, closing the door to Addison’s room.

“Ms. Prewett suffered a large amount of damage to her brain. She is in a state of shock. Staying under water for extensive amounts of time puts a lot of stress on the mind. For now her head is empty and her memory is gone. It would take a miracle for her to come back.” the nurse sighed.

“What do you mean, ‘it will take a miracle for her to come back’! Of course she’ll come back! She’s Addy! She’s right there! Right in front of me!” Sirius screamed, leaping out of his chair. “She will be the same again! She has to be!”

Sirius pushed his chair over and ran over to Addy’s bedside.

“ADDISON! ADDY! Say something!” shouted Sirius, shaking Addison slightly. “Wake up! I need you to wake up!”

Addison just continued to stare around the room, her light blue eyes blank and free of all emotion. Sirius continued shaking her gently until he realized that nothing was ever going to happen. His Addy was gone.

Sirius refused to let himself cry in front of her, even if it wouldn’t register in her mind. He wanted her to feel safe, and him crying was not going to do that. He wasn’t weak, and never would be. He leaned down to kiss her on the cheek. As he pulled away he looked into her eyes and could have sworn for a second that she matched his gaze. He shook that thought out of his head knowing fully that it was never going to happen.

“I’ll always be there for you, Addy. No matter what.” Sirius squeezed Addy’s hand and turned to leave the room.

 *  *  *

Sirius walked down the halls of Hogwarts with another blonde girl on his arm. This ones name was Katie Carlson. She was the kind of girl that would make a Sirius fan club and ask everyone to join. She was basically obsessed with him. He had spent a lot of time snogging her after he found out about Addison. He was depressed and his mind was numb. He took out his feelings on easy, slutty girls. It was the way he dealt with things.

“Siri, baby, will you pweaseee walk me to the gweat hall?” Katie sulked in a faux baby voice. It was so irritating that Sirius almost said no, but her face was so pathetic that he had to oblige.

“Uh, yeah. Sure.”

“Thank you!” she squeaked, once again attaching herself to his arm.

Sirius padded down the halls with Katie clinging onto him like a lost puppy.

“Addy would never do this.” Sirius thought. His mind always kept traveling to Addison every time he did something. Every time he slept he dreamed of her. When he was in class he scribbled her name on the corner of her parchment. Everything revolved her, and even a good snog wouldn’t soothe the pain of his broken heart.

“Baby, we’re here.” chimed Katie, ripping Sirius out of his own thoughts.

“Oh.” he said, quite unenthusiastically. “Uh…bye.”

Sirius turned on his heel and walked back to his dorm. He wasn’t hungry. He didn’t want to eat. Not if Addy wasn’t there to eat with him. He sulked his way back to the common room and plopped back onto the couch.

“Hey Sirius.” someone said from across the room.


James walked over to the couch and sat beside him.

“How are you feeling?” he asked


“Oh. I’m sorry about Addy. She didn’t deserve it. Nobody deserves that.”

“Yeah. Nobody.”

Addy and Sirius we’re running along the side of the black lake.

“Last one in is a rotten egg!” Addy shouted as she pulled off her jacket and dived into the water.

“ADDY! What are you doing?” Sirius shouted over the wind. She was wild. It must have been less than 50 degrees out and she still didn’t even hesitate to jump into the freezing water.

He breathed a sigh of relief as he saw Addy’s auburn head poke out of the black water.

“You’re a rotten egg!” she screamed. “Come in before I make you!”

Sirius smiled and took off his jacket as well. He took a running jump and dived into the water headfirst. When he came up he saw Addy’s face directly in front of his.

“I’m no rotten egg.” he smiled.

“Are to! You we’re the last one in!” she retorted.

“Yeah well…that stuff is sophomoric and stupid!”

“Yeah well…you’re no fun!” she yelled, pushing his chest lightly.

They laughed and Sirius went after Addy to chase her. She yelped and started swimming away from him, laughing. He caught up with her, grabbed her waist, and spun her around so that she was facing him. Her teeth were chattering but she looked so happy. It was so windy now that they could hardly hear themselves talk. Their faces were so close that he could count all the eyelashes that were covering her beautiful eyes.

“I love you, Addy.” Sirius whispered.

“What?” she shouted. She couldn’t hear him over the wind. She cupped a hand to her ear and leaned closer.

“I said-“ Sirius was cut off when Addy was tugged underneath the water.

“Addy come on.” Sirius said, crossing his arms. “Don’t play games.”

Sirius waited for at least a minute for her to come up and she never did.

“Addy?” he asked to the water, beginning to get nervous. “Addy, stop it!”

He still could see no sign of her under the water. He began to panic and dived under the water and opened his eyes. All he could see was blackness. Sirius rose out of the water and began to frantically swim to shore, calling Addy’s name as he swam. He couldn’t recall ever being so scared in his life.

“ADDY!” he screamed, cupping his shaking hands around his mouth. “ADDSION PREWETT!”

He saw no sign of life under the lake. He started to call for help but no one came. He was constantly calling her name for about 2 and a half minutes when suddenly Addy flew out from the surface of the water and landed with a big thump on shore. 

“Addy!” Sirius screamed, running towards her. He leaned over her and checked for a pulse. He closed his eyes and breathed a sigh of relief. She was alive.

A few weeks had passed, and Sirius was tired, empty and depressed. Addison hadn’t left his mind once and he was beginning to think he was wasting his time thinking about her. He had loved her, sure, but he couldn’t stay like this for the rest of his life. Sirius needed to see her; he was longing for her touch, longing to see her face again.

* * *

“Hello, I’m here to see Addison Prewett.” Sirius said, his voice shaking. Even saying her full name made him feel sick.

“Yes, sir. Ground floor, 17th room on the left.”

Sirius walked down the hall slowly and counted each door as he went.

10, 11, 12…

He kept on walking and wondered what he would see. What if she was worse? What if she remembered? Maybe she knew who he was, or even better, knew who she was…

15, 16, and 17.

Sirius stopped at the 17th door. He took a deep breath and entered the room.

Addy was sitting on the bed, her legs straight out in front of her, the blanket pulled up to her waist. She looked better, but still distant. She didn’t look like the same Addy that Sirius had known for more than 6 years.


She looked up at him. He had to admit that she definitely looked much healthier. Her face was more full and her hair looked clean and untangled.

“Oh, hello.” Addy didn’t even look Sirius in the eye. “Who are you?”

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