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Chapter 5: Settle Down;

People were more scared then ever in the following weeks. This man was rising quickly, with one murder so close to us he had the entire Ministry up in arms. I am not a girl who is scared usually or quickly, but this man scared the living shit out of me.

Seriously, just one man, and he can instill so much fear in people that people don’t say his name? That I have nightmares? That he’s got followers already?

This man means business.

I glanced out of the window. Today was one of those teasers, where it looks inviting and warm and sunny outside but you step out there and it’s freezing. I hate those, the way the water reflects off the lake makes me want to swim but if you just dip a finger in you get the chills.

The bell rang and I snapped out of my trance. I had been staring blankly in the direction of the Professor without ever really ever processing anything said.

And, so my day continued. Through Advanced Charms (Merlin knows how I got into that class), Advanced Muggle Studies, and some Potions. And then finally, the most exciting event of my entire Friday.

The bell that ended my last period.


A weekend, a whole two days plus the rest of this one!

Actually, that is the usual concept of a weekend, but for some reason it just seemed more inviting this time.

I grinned as I put my bag down in the Tower and collapsed on my bed.

“Let’s go to dinner,” Emmeline said, looking antsy.

“Hungry?” I said, getting up and following her.


I made eye contact with Narcissa when I walked into the Great Hall and I grinned acidly. Regulus smirked. And Alecto looked ready to kill me.

“Do I want to know why you’re smiling at my brother?” Sirius said.

“It’s a long story, concerning Alecto Carrows ending up with hairy feet and that Yaxely girl ending up with flippers,” I said nonchalantly.

“I’m guessing that was you saving the world, right?”

“Eradicating the world of whores, one Slytherin at a time!”

They laughed and the banter continued all the way through dinner, and ending when pumpkin juice made its way out of Hestia’s nose. Chris thought it was funny. He eats with us now, because he and Hestia are getting rather sickeningly serious.

“Let’s go outside,” Sirius said to only me as the Hall emptied.

I nodded, and he took my hand, leading me outside.

We walked down to the lake, laughing and zigzagging and jumping over rocks and whatnot the whole way.

He led me around a tree, and on the side that overlooked a drop to the lake I found a plaid blanket spread out with a six pack of butterbeer and some other assorted more romantic items waiting for me, including levitating candles and a thick blanket we wrapped our selves in.

“What’s all this for?” I asked, looking up at his eyes.

“At exactly 9:23 there is a comet due to pass right above us,” he said, grinning.

“Sirius, it’s barely seven.”

“Yes, I know,” he said, still smiling.

“What are we going to do until then?” I asked as he popped open a bottle of butterbeer and handed it to me.

“Bond,” he said simply, sipping his own drink.

Eventually, we were cuddling under the blanket against the tree, looking up at the now starry sky, not cold at all, warmed by each other.

“Did anyone tell you how really amazing you are?” Sirius said.


“Well I think you deserve to be told every day,” he said simply.

I smiled as I rested my head on his shoulder and he kissed my forehead.

Why does this boy always smell so damn good?

I sighed contentedly. He took my hands in his and laced his fingers through mine slowly.

“What did I do right?” I said.

“What do you mean?”

“I have you. I must have done something right.”

He smiled and kissed my cheek.

“8:10,” I said, checking his watch.

“One hour, twelve minutes,” he said.

“Eleven,” I corrected as the minutes changed.

“So what exactly happened with Narcissa and Alecto?” he asked curiously.

“Long story.”

“We’ve got one hour and ten minutes,” he said.

“Okay so basically, I was walking in the hallway and they started to bother me. Pointless jibes, snide remarks, normal Slytherin whore stuff. And then the one raised her wand, I ducked, curse backfired. I repeated this until all aforementioned whores were jinxed, hexed, cursed, or transfigured. Then Regulus came along, distracted them, I escaped.”

“All without using your wand?”

“Yup,” I said.

“Nice work.”

“I thought so.”

“I don’t know what you see in Regulus,” he commented.

“I don’t know him, really. All I know is he saved our lives and had a warm jacket. And he’s never hurt me personally. And he’s your little brother, how bad can he be?”

He snorted. “Bellatrix is my cousin, that’s how bad it can be.”

“So is Andromeda.” She’s a friend of my mum’s, she buys good cookies, because I actually doubt she could bake.

“I still don’t like the idea that you are all buddy-buddy with my brother,” Sirius said, breaking the easy silence between us.

“We aren’t all buddy-buddy! I went out with him to save your necks, remember? The information out of him saved our lives, remember?” Cara shut up you aren't accomplishing anything.

Stop. Opening. Your. Face.

Goddamnit Cara I'm your conscience, listen to me for once!

“Yeah; and he is my father’s little golden child. He does everything my family has brainwashed him to do, he is and always has been Bellatrix’s best friend. He took a liking to you, but that doesn’t change who he is.”

“I don’t want to talk about it anymore,” I said, exhaling deeply. His body against mine was tenser. I don’t like this subject. Families are such a sore spot, he doesn’t like to talk about his and I am ashamed of half of mine.

“No, I do.”

“Well I don’t!” I snapped.

“It’s always about you! Always what you want!”

“God- you were always like this! It’s always your way!”

Ryan’s voice echoed the words he had said to me so long ago.

Is it really always about me? Am I that bad? I don’t think so. I think I just push all the wrong buttons sometimes and that’s how it comes off.

Now it was war.

“Am I really that bad?” I whispered, “Am I that conceited?”

Conceited. Is that the word I am looking for?

Self-absorbed, that’s what 'all about you' means, right?

“No, Cara that’s not how I meant it-,”

“Yeah but that’s how you said it.” I was turned around by now, glaring at him. God those words had hurt, simple words like that only really sting when they come from someone you care about as much as I do about him.

“I can’t talk to you when you are like this,” he said simply, shrugging. I jumped to my feet.

“Like what? Insulted or hurt?”


“Mhm? What?”

He shook his head.

“No really, what?” I demanded.

I should really learn to just shut up and stop over reacting.

I’ll never learn.

My eyes were slowly filling with tears.

Don’t do this Cara, your above crying every time you argue you with him.

I sniffled, trying to hide it.

I turned around, and looked at him blankly before heading back up to the castle.

I sat down on the edge of the stone steps and looked out at the water.

A single comet shot through the sky.

God I was furious, mostly with myself.

* * *



James was yelling at me from his broom about a mile behind me. I was furious. Still. And everything and everyone was bearing the brunt of my frustration. Two boys. Two that mean so much to me. Both say it’s all about me, always my way. I mean really, am I that horrid?

Sirius and I had been having such a romantic moment, I had been so happy, and then I had to be so stupid and kept opening my mouth, Words just kept spilling out of me.

I am overreacting; a little voice in the back of my mind told me I shouldn’t be this bothered by his words. I shouldn’t be racing around 600 miles an hour on a broom while everyone else conducts quidditch practice like normal humans.

I saw a glint of gold. I dove all the way down to the ground at top speed, and caught it within ten seconds.

“Sorry! Must’ve fallen out of my pocket!” Dorcas yelled.

It was a galleon.

Since Ryan, Gideon, and Fabian had graduated, we had three new players with us. Wesley Sorenson took Ryan’s place, he was a fourth year, and two third years named Jimmy and Rebecca took the place as beaters. They were all really good, not better then our previous players but still really good players. Good enough to win us games.

I scowled at Wesley and pocketed the galleon.

I raced upward and then to the left, and caught the actual snitch.

That’s it, I caught the snitch three times, that’s all I usually do in practices.

I put it away and went back up in the sky to practice my flying.

I raced, dipped, soared, rose, turned, and flipped on my broom. I then attempted this swingy-slidy move on my broom that almost game James a heart attack because I kind of almost fell and broke my face.

I ignored him and Emmeline as they lectured me on how I shouldn’t try to kill myself. I ignored them when they ended practice, I kept flying. Flying was almost as calming as swimming for me.

Sirius and I hadn’t spoken. It had been fifteen hours, roughly. It was lunch. I wasn’t hungry. I was thinking I was in love with this kid. I mean, no one had ever been able to make me so angry with just a few words, make me so nervous at the prospect of a kiss, make me want to ditch everyone else just to be able to spend ten minutes with him, and worst of all…I lost my appetite. That was when I knew it was getting serious.

It was freezing, I was sweating. I think it was because my whole body seized up and my heart raced and blood pumped faster just when I thought of him like this.

I shook my head, trying to clear it of Sirius and everything about him.

But everywhere I turned a memory popped up.

That lake, he saved me there. That tree, that’s where we were last night. That stump, we hopped over it when we ventured into the forest last year. That spot, that’s where Lily saved Snape after OWL’s, Sirius had been part of that. That, that’s where he caught me and Ryan. That’s not much of a happy memory, but it still was a memory.

I looked down at my hands on the broom. Sirius had held my hands.

I am desperate here, can’t he see? You can’t just drop me for now…probably almost sixteen. I hadn’t eaten. I hadn’t done anything.

I am such a mess. A wreck. A girl in serious need of…Sirius.

“CARA!” My eyes flickered down. A mess of red hair met my eyes.

Lily. And she was holding something in her hand. Food and water.

“Come down!” she yelled.

I obliged, she had in fact cared enough to come all the way here just to track me down.

“Hey darling,” she said, handing me the sandwich she had carefully wrapped in napkins and the bottle of water.

“Let’s sit, shall we?” she said as I nodded and she led me over to the bleachers.

“Talk to me, love,” she said. Lily is the most caring, gentle person when you’re her friend. Once you’ve got her as a good friend, you don’t shake her; she’d do anything for you. She’ll be a great mum.

So we ate and sat and I told her the story. She muttered ‘git’ in all the right places, and even gasped with a ‘he didn’t!’ at the right spot.

“And so concludes everything I have to tell,” I said, shaking my head.

“So how was your night?” I asked.

“I went on a date with Alec Fenwick.”

“The 7th year? I didn’t know you talked to him,” I commented.

“I don’t, I see him in the library and he helped me find a couple of books. We got to talking after dinner and I showed him how to get food from the kitchens, and we sat there eating until midnight. It wasn’t a date per se, but we laughed a lot. I actually got to know him and like him a lot.”

“Go Lily,” I said with a smile.

“Yeah, I’ve promised to eat dinner with him and his friends tonight at the Ravenclaw table.”

“Meeting the friends? Wow, he really likes you.”

“I’m just meeting his friends.”

“Yeah, his friends! That’s a big thing.”

Lily blushed.


She likes him. How cute.

All happy people should die.

“So what are you going to do about Sirius?” she said.

“I don’t know. Nothing. Wait out the rest of the day. Last time I apologized to him it didn’t work. I am waiting for him to say sorry to me.”

“Good move.” I nodded in agreement. We had finished our sandwiches.

“Let’s go inside, you must be exhausted. And you are definitely in need of a shower,” Lily said, grinning.

And so the once enemies now best friends, meaning me and Lily, walked up to the castle and she went to find Alec whilst I had the best bubble bath of the millennium.

It was a just a few years in the making now
The two were locked in a heated dispute
Cause he was gone when she needed him more
Then she could really ever let on to
They were the poster perfect high school sweethearts
But moving out can’t erase the time
But to a spin on working it out, and
Everybody knew that they were out of their minds
Oh you really need to settle down
And let it go
Settle Down; Cartel

A/N - Its doing that thing where it takes me ten times to get it to actually post because my computer keeps spazzinggggg=/

Please don't hate me for making them fight=] lol.

So, next chapters written and the chapter seven is giving me some serious trouble. Just some writers block, but i feel a writing mood coming on so I think numero seveno (siete?) will be done along with 56% of chapter eight (ocho?) by tonight. So, expect plenty of updates within the next week. (Uh. Weeko?)

BTW: Everyone who caught the Captain Jack (whom I don't own)reference last chapter gets a cookiee.

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