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Thinking Of You…
Chapter three: Mission Impossible?

The sounds of cutlery scrapping against china echoed through the great hall, along with the constant chatter. Lily, Alice, Celina and Zayda were situated in their normal seats at the Gryffindor table.

“I still cannot believe he had the cheek,” Lily shrilled. Alice rolled her eyes at the other girls. “I mean, he knows I hate him, so he comes and joins us for the whole train ride. I swear if he comes near me again…”

“I’ll punch his lights out,” Sirius and Peter chorused from behind her. Lily swivelled round in her seat to give the boys her famous death glare before realising.

“Where’s Potter?” She asked, sounding more bored than curious.

“Why, missing him already?” Sirius asked mockingly.

“Nooo,” she replied prolonging the “o”. “It’s just if one of you are here the other usually isn’t far behind. What’s wrong, have you finally divorced him?” She laughed to herself.

“Funny Evans,” Sirius said dryly. “Hysterical. Since when did you become a comedian?”

Lily raised her eye brows at him, “Ooo Sirius, it seems someone got out of the wrong side of the bed this morning.” He shuffled slightly in his seat.

“I didn’t get much sleep,” he said whilst yawning.

“What’s up?” Zayda asked, genuinely sounding concerned. Sirius made to ask her why she cares but thought better of it; a certain memory of her gripping him into a headlock for getting gel melted to her hair straighteners flooded his mind, making him cringe.

“It’s nothing. Just James.”

“What’s he done this time?” Lily asked casually as if she had been expecting this to happen soon.

“Oh…Noth-…” Sirius began, but was cut off by Peter.

“Thinking up his new strategy of how to get you to say yes,” Peter finished with a smile.

Sirius rolled his eyes at Peter who looked at him dumbly.

Sirius sighed figuring he might as well tell them now. “Well, every year since James has been trying to get you to go out with him he makes up an aim. OK, so it’s the same aim every year but you get my drift?”

“And,” Lily started her voice becoming louder. “What would this aim be?”

Sirius looked at her as though she was stupid, “to get you to say yes, duh.”

Alice lifted her eyes to ceiling whilst shaking her head. “Well that’s stupid,” she stated. “What a stupid aim to come out with.”

“Excuse me?” Lily turned to Alice with an amused look on her face. “Are you saying that I am not good enough for someone to come up with an aim to get me to go out with them?”

Alice looked at Lily with the same expression, “yes.” Lily made a mock hurt sound and the girls dissolved into a fit of giggles.

Over by the large wooden doors that lead to the great hall stood a tallish boy with messy black hair and his friend, Remus Lupin. Remus had ushered James over to the side before entering the great hall to have a talk with him.

“You want to have the talk with me?” James asked with a grin from ear to ear. “Because you know Moony I was actually thinking about having it with you; I wanted to make sure you knew which bits went…”

“Prongs!” Remus shouted over James’ rambling hoping to drown out his words. James smirked at his friend. “Now seriously mate I wanted to talk to you about Lily.”

“What about her?” James asked sighing; his voice became soft and his eyes glazed over as he caught sight of the red head at the Gryffindor table. Remus coughed irritably. James shook his head and turned to face him.

“James, listen, you’re obsessed.” Remus stated simply.

“Obsessed with what?” James asked, again his head was turned in the direction of the Gryffindor table. He watched as Lily spoke with Sirius and then started laughing. “How come Sirius makes her laugh and when ever I try to, she hexes me?” James said, slightly angry.

“She’s probably laughing at him,” Remus said shortly, wanting to get to his point. “Anyway…”

“Well, I wouldn’t care if she was laughing at me, as long as I made her laugh.” James slumped up against the wall, Remus looked at him sadly. “I don’t understand why she doesn’t like me. I mean, every other girl does.”

“Oh Prongs,” Remus sighed, it seemed to really get him down; one girl not falling for him. James gave a wonky sort of smile and shrugged while straightening himself out. “What are we going to do with you? You can’t keep going on like this; you’ve done it for two years. I don’t see why you don’t just give…”

“I am not giving up on her Moony,” James insisted. “I can’t,” he let out a low sigh and shook his head again. “I can’t bring myself to do it.”

Remus tilted his head and surveyed James through narrowed eyes. He’d never heard his friend talk like this before. Sure he realised, even if Sirius said he was wrong, that James really did like Lily. Sirius refused to believe that his partner in crime could finally be growing up and may just end up with one girl pretty soon. But he also thought maybe James liked the chase Lily gave.

“I mean,” James seemed to realise what he had said and backtracked over the last sentence. “I can’t have my reputation dampened on because she’s to stuck up to finally give in to her feelings. How could she not like me?” The smirk was back.

James had gone through a few phases with Lily Evans. When he first realised that he liked her he was young; he called it love and the boys called it stupidity. Surely enough, he soon came to terms with the fact that it wasn’t love and maybe he just wanted what he new he couldn’t get. He would act like she was just another girl but deep inside he knew what his feelings were. Sirius was to wrapped up with being young and having fun to realise and it seemed only Remus knew his true feelings. He wasn’t sure what they were but everything about her intrigued him; and he was dying to know her better.

Remus sighed and shook his head. “You don’t need to act the player in front of me Prongs,” James looked at him quizzically. “It clearly obvious that you like her but for some reason no one seems to see it apart from me. Why don’t you stop putting up this wall and acting like a jerk in front of her and be yourself.”

James sighed again; he seemed to be doing that a lot lately. “Moony, you know me too well,” he smiled. “To be honest I don’t know how I feel and I guess I never will until she gives me a chance. And I’m not giving up until she does.”

“Then I suppose we have to do something about it.” A grin spread across James’ face. “But I’m afraid you’re not going to like what I have to say.”

James frowned and looked at him questioningly. “I think the best way for you to get her would be to leave her alone for a bit,” James looked shocked. “I know you’re not going to find it easy Prongs but I think it’s the best thing to do; when you’re constantly around her all she does is get annoyed. You know what I mean?”

“So what you’re saying is that I should just ignore her?” James asked quizzically.

“No, not ignore. Just, don’t ask her out every second, if you’re going to talk to her have an actually conversation and, I know how you like to get her angry…”

“She looks so cute,” James smiled innocently.

“I know, but, well, it gets her angry,” he finished lamely. James smirked.

“I know what you mean,” he slapped a hand on Remus’ back. “Cheers mate, that was better advice than Sirius’.” Remus raised his eye brows to him.


“Kidnap her and lock her in a broom closet with me until she said yes, maybe even snog her to make her see what she’s missing.”

“Yes well Prongs, that one may sound fun, but I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t live to see the outside of that closet again.”

“You don’t have to tell me twice.”

Lily stood up from the Gryffindor table and turned to see James staring in her direction, “urgh, he creeps me out when he does that.” She said to the girls. They all turned to look what she was on about and laughed at James as he embarrassedly turned away.

“Bless him,” Alice said whilst gathering her books.

“Bless him?” Lily asked eyeing her friend. “You’re supposed to be on my side; don’t bless him.” Alice rolled her eyes at Lily who ignored her.

“I don’t see why you let him get on your nerves so much,” Celina stated.

“I do not let him get on my nerves,” Lily snapped. The three girls looked at her amusedly. “Fine. Well, not anymore. My new mission; ignore James Potter at any cost.” The girls shook their heads as they followed Lily out of the great hall and passed James; Lily gave him her death glare before he could even say anything.

“I bet you ten galleons she’ll be screaming at him by curfew tonight,” Zayda offered.

Lily sat quietly by herself in the common room. Curfew had come and Lily had not once raised her voice to James; which Alice and Celina reminded Zayda. Actually, Lily had not seen Potter since their last lesson that day, potions. Not that she wondered about it, she only realised because of Zayda’s argument that she can’t have lost the bet; James not being around had to count for something?

She shut her book slowly, having lost interest in it for that night, and gazed dreamily into the fire. The flames were growing smaller so she concluded that it must have been early hours of the morning. She never was a good sleeper; sleep was when her thoughts came to her, thoughts which clouded her mind from sleep.

“Can’t sleep Evans?” A small tired voice came from the corner. Lily turned and frowned when she saw the face of James Potter, of course, walking towards her. She picked up her book deciding she had suddenly become tired.

“Don’t leave on my account, I’ll go,” James turned back to the stairs.

“No,” Lily called him back. It wasn’t that she wanted him to stay down there with her or anything, but he hadn’t done anything wrong and she didn’t want to be seen as a bad person. She half hoped he would turn around with a smirk and some cocky remark so she could curse he back to his dorm, but he never. James just shrugged his shoulders and took a seat opposite Lily.

Lily turned her head as she felt his eyes on her, but he was looking into the dazzling fire. She shook her head, she was so used to his staring that she constantly felt as if his eyes were on her; it was uncomfortable. But his eyes were not burning into her this time.

James looked out of the corner of his eyes every now and then at Lily. She looked so beautiful by the light of the fire; it danced in her bright green eyes. He was holding back the erg not to nag her to go out with him but the way she was tonight did not help. Her red hair was pulled back into a messy high ponytail with loose hair around her face, she wore no make-up but she didn’t need it anyway.

“James…Potter,” Lily corrected herself quickly before he could realise, but he did.

“Yes?” He tried to keep the smirk off his face.

“Couldn’t sleep?” She asked uncomfortably. James shook his head, “me neither.” She glanced down at the floor, lost for what to say. She couldn’t stand the silence and even if she did hate him, she couldn’t take much more of this awkwardness. James and Lily never spent time together on their own.

James’ head was thinking a million things at once, he had to say something. Remus’ advice had been to just be friends with her, it was the place to start, but he couldn’t even hold a minute conversation with her. The only time he had ever spoken to her would be to ask her out, and that always resulted in an argument. Any other time he had tried to speak to her he had turned into arrogant mode and just pissed her off even more. He didn’t understand why he did that. It was something about her that made him nervous but over confident at the same time. He would come out with something he thought was charming but she though annoying; he couldn’t put a foot right in front of her. Why wasn’t she like every other girl that fell at his feet? He banished the thought as soon as it popped into his head; if she was like every other girl, he wouldn’t like her so much.

James was so deep in thought that he didn’t even feel Lily’s eyes upon him. He smiled sincerely. “You have changed Potter,” she said with a slight laugh in her voice. James didn’t know how to answer to this so said nothing at all. “I mean,” Lily started to explain. “Back in first and second year you used to really wind me up and get on my nerves, well, you still do now,” she frowned slightly. “But what I mean is you, in yourself, seem different.”

James narrowed his eyes at her slightly confused, “explain it to me?” He asked.

Lily smiled at his curiosity. “I’m not quiet sure even I know what I’m talking about,” she said as a thought but carried on nonetheless. “You always seem so spaced out, like you’re deep in though, thinking about things. Even Sirius, Remus and Peter have noticed; they said you did it a lot when we were on the train.”

She looked at him as though expecting an explanation, but he didn’t know what she wanted him to say. “I suppose,” he was confused.

“Oh, forget I even said it.” Lily said as an after-thought. James had to think fast, they were on a good conversation which Lily actually initiated.

“No you’re right. I have been thinking a lot this year.” James stared up at the ceiling, he hadn’t really thought about it but it was true. He was always thinking about Lily of course, and he always did. But it was only the first day of school and already this year seemed different; he didn’t feel himself. He was constantly slipping in and out of daydreams. He was so confused about his feelings towards Lily; stupid hormones. “I just…Have a lot on my mind I suppose.”

Lily opened her mouth as if to inquest further but seemed to think better of it. James seemed weird tonight but she knew by tomorrow morning, when he was back with his friends, he’d be the same arrogant twirp; asking her out because he’s been through every other girl.

“How come you couldn’t sleep?” James asked suddenly taking Lily off guard.

“Oh,” she thought for a second about the question at hand. “I’ve never been a good sleeper; a person who falls asleep as soon as their head hit’s the pillow, truly has no worries in the world.” She smiled at him, for the second time in all the years he’d known her.

“Just like Sirius,” James smiled at the though of him falling asleep back on the train.

“Well, we all know his head’s filled with nothing but air,” Lily said whilst rising from her seat. “I’m going to try and catch some sleep. I’ll see you in the morning…Potter.” James frowned slightly at her use of his last name before lifting his head and smiling at her.

“G’night Lily.” She turned to leave. “Oh and Lily,” James called back to her. “About you not being able to sleep because of your worries.”

“Hmm?” She looked questioningly at him.

“If you ever need to talk about them, I’m here,” he knew it was a long shot but a smile appeared across her face nonetheless.


And she turned and left for the girls dormitories.

James sighed, putting his hands on each chair arm and rising to go to bed. He turned and took a look at the girls stairs before taking the boys ones two at a time.

A.N So thats chapter 3 =]...I don't have many reviews =[ im feeling un-loved =P hehe. I have a banner now! Isnt it gorgeous =D
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