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Seeing is Believing by marauders forever xx

Format: Novel
Chapters: 36
Word Count: 64,727
Status: WIP

Rating: Mature
Warnings: Strong Language, Strong Violence, Scenes of a Sexual Nature, Substance Use or Abuse, Sensitive Topic/Issue/Theme, Contains Spoilers

Genres: Drama, General
Characters: Lupin, Sirius, A. Longbottom, Lily, James, OC
Pairings: Sirius/OC, James/Lily, James/OC, Lily/OC

First Published: 08/23/2011
Last Chapter: 08/07/2012
Last Updated: 08/07/2012

Summary:
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What would you do if you could see the future? Would you remember your best friend's birthday? Would you get out of detention?

Woud you attept to cheat death?


Chapter 1: There's always a first
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~Alexis' POV~

Some witches and wizards are special. They may be born exceedingly talented in Charms or Potions or Quidditch. They may have a knack of finding trouble or perhaps trouble finds them.

On the outside, I am nothing special. Not atrocious at anything and not astoundingly amazing at anything. I'm not ugly and I'm not pretty. I'm neither fat nor skinny. I'm not dumb but at the same time I'm not smart. I?m just average.

But on the inside, I'm special in my own way. I have the Second Sight, which means that I can see the future, for all you muggles reading this.

Nobody knows that I'm a Seer except for Dumbledore, Professor Trelawny and a few teachers. My father doesn?t know, although my mother probably knew before she died and Merlin forbid any of my friends find out.

xxxxx

"Stupid James Potter. I think I could murder him. In my five years at Hogwarts, I have never gotten a detention. Ever.

"I could curse him into next week, if you like," the pretty red-head, Lily Evans, said beside me. I wouldn't exactly call us friends. Well, we were. Sort of.

She had that stupid Potter boy constantly following her and with him came the rest of them. And by 'them' I mean Sirius Black, Remus Lupin and Peter Pettigrew- the Marauders, as they called themselves. What kind of people call themselves the Marauders?

Anyway, I found them maddening. They thought they owned the school, and I guess they did.

Sirius Black, with his black hair flopping lazily into his stormy grey eyes, had half the female population (and by my reckoning, quite a few of the males as well) drooling over him. And he knew it.

Potter was also up there on the drool-worthy list but he was infatuated with Lily so the girls fawned over him less.

Remus Lupin was the quite studious one with sandy brown hair and almost golden eyes. He had his fair share of girls hanging after him, but he didn't date. He was the only bearable one of the Marauders.

And then there was Peter. Poor Peter. He didn't know it, but he definitely wasn't in the same league as the Marauders. He was very tubby and had frizzy yellow hair with watery blue eyes that had a tendency to dart around a lot.

"It's alright Lily. At least seeing Snape's face when that potion blew up in his face was worth it." Even though it really wasn't. I inwardly winced as I remembered that she and Snape were friends. Lily sighed.

"And here I was hoping that I would have another chance to curse him! And Sev's not that bad, Alexis. He's better than Potter by any measure!"

"Hey! That really hurt, Evans!" James whined from behind us. Where'd he come from? Wait, if he was here it meant that-

"Did you see his face, Prongs? It was like-" Black contorted his face. Unfortunately, he got the expression just right and I could feel the laughter welling up inside me.

"Sirius! Leave Severus alone," Lily almost shrieked beside me. I couldn't contain my laughter any longer.

"Think it's funny, do you,?" Black said lazily at me, "Well, at least you have more spirit than Evans here." Lily harrumphed and walked off.

"Wait! Evans, will you go to Hogsmeade next weekend with me?" Potter yelled after her. I sighed inwardly. When, in Merlin's name, was he going to realise that acting like a 5 year old was not the right way to get her attention?

"James, maybe she'll go with you if you start to act alright towards her? Or maybe if you don't give her a reason to hate you?" Peter suggested. Wow, I never knew that kid even spoke, let alone had brains.

"Who are you?" Potter suddenly blurted at me.

"James!" Remus gasped. At least he had the decency to look appalled.

"What? I don't know who she is, so I asked. There's nothing wrong with that!" I rolled my eyes, of course they wouldn't know who I am and I would prefer to keep it like that.

Of course, things never go quite as planned.

xxxxx

I was sitting in our common room finishing my Transfiguration homework when Lily plopped down next to me.

"He is infuriating! Do you hear me, Alexis? Infuriating!" she sighed.

"Who?" I asked, even though I already knew who she was referring to.

"Potter! That's who!"

"What'd he do this time?" I can't say I wasn't intrigued.

"Stupid git put a Furnunculus Curse on Severus for absolutely no reason other than that Sev was 'in his way' as he put it. I feel like punching him!" She explained while making violent gestures with her hands.

"Ugh, I need to forget about him. Come to dinner with me?" She said as my stomach grumbled. I nodded and got up: Transfiguration homework could wait.

We made our way to the Great Hall in an uncomfortable silence. Lily and I were sort-of-friends, but we didn't exactly have much in common.

"Sooo...." Yeah, I'm a great conversationalist.

"Ummm...how is your Potions essay coming along?" She asked.

"Potions essay? Isn't that due in, like, 2 weeks?" She raised one of her eyebrows at me. How did she do that?

"Yeah, but have you started?"

"Uh, no. You?"

"Yeah," She has started an essay due in 2 weeks? Who would start an essay 2 weeks before it's due? Oh right, Lily Evans. Anyways, the awkward silence soon descended upon us again.

xxxxx

Lily and I sat down to eat.

"Hello, ladies," Potter said in what I'm sure he thought was a smooth voice. He sat next to me, coincidently opposite Lily. Why did he have to sit there?

"Potter," Lily greeted him, "you got Alexis a detention." Oh Merlin, she was going to draw the attention to me. I wished the floor would just swallow me whole there and then.

"Alexis? Who's Alexis?" he said cluelessly. I've been in your year and in the same house as you and have been for the past 4 years. Are you blind?!

"As in Alexis who got blamed for blowing up Snivellus' potion in his face and now is doing detention with us tonight?" Black hinted.

"Alexis as in the girl sitting next to you?" Black said. Realisation dawned on Potter's face.

Unfortunately I had just soaked in what Black was saying.

"What? You've got detention to? For what?" I panicked. This day has been horrible and now it just got a whole lot worse.

"For hexing Slytherins last week."

Great.

Not only did I have my very first detention, but I had it with the Marauders.

Like I said: stupid James Potter.

Chapter 2: Spilt pumpkin juice
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~Alexis' POV~

Oh joy. Who doesn't love detention with the Marauders? Me. That's who. I dragged my feet along the corridor, dreading what we would have to do.

At least I had detention with Filch, apparently he just made you clean things without magic.

"Miss Rose, never thought I'd see you here," Filch leered at me. You're not alone, Filchy."Go on in then. The others will explain," 'others'-Marauders, ewww. "Chop, chop! The trophies won't polish themselves! And no magic!"

I walked into the trophy room and my jaw dropped.

There were trophies everywhere.

They were stacked in shelves and piled on the floor. There were huge ones that came up to my hips and tiny ones that could have fitted into my palm. There were plain metal ones to lavishly jewel-encrusted ones.

I stood there gapping.

"Alexis? Are you going to just stand there or actually going to do something?" Black's voice rudely interrupted my thoughts. He actually thought that I was going to do a detention for something that I didn't do?

Nuh uh, no way.

"I don't think so, Black, seeing as though you're the reason I'm in here!"

"Hey! I'm the one who blew up Snivellus' potion! Why does Padfoot get the credit?!" Potter whined. I was fed-up with these idiots who thought making fun of people was cool.

I mean, sure, it's not like Snape was nice or anything, but that doesn't make a good excuse for blowing potions up in his face!

"Him, you, Lupin, Pettigrew, two of you, all of you: what difference does it make?" I shrugged.

These guys were all the same. They swaggered, yes swaggered, around the school like they owned it. They had a throng of girls following and their own personal fan club. And they thought they could get away with anything.

They were really starting to piss me off.

"I didn't do anything to deserve being here, so I'm going to sit here and watch you scrub these trophies." I sat down, leaning against the wall. Sirius looked like he was going to explode. Ooops. Sirius angry is not the prettiest sight, especially when he decided to start hexing you.

Potter interrupted before things got ugly,

"Padfoot, dude, chill. Alexis is right. I guess this is my fault. You and me, mate, can clean these trophies. Merlin knows how expert we are at it." Whoa, who knew that Potter could be reasonably nice?

"Sorry for landing you in detention, by the way." Maybe both Lily and I were wrong about him.

xxxxx

The time slowly passed. The only measure of time we had was by how many trophies the two idiots had cleaned.

Slowly, I felt myself drifting to sleep. I heard James and Sirius talking about the Slytherins and how they thought pure-bloods were superior. This jolted me awake,

"But aren't you both pure-blood?" I interrupted. Both their heads whipped around to face me.

"Yeah, but my parents aren't into the whole blood status thing," James replied. Sirius was uncharacteristically silent.

"What about-"

"Are you are pure-blood?" James cut me off.

"Nah, I'm half," I replied.

"Who's the magical one?"

"My mum. She was pure-blood. She used to tell me how shocked Dad was when he found out he was a witch," I said, smiling at the memory.

"Used to?" My smile faded.

"I don't want to talk about it," I mumbled, not looking either of them.

"She was a pure-blood. She got labelled as a blood traitor for marrying your dad, didn't she?" stupid Black thought he knew everything, "She would've been stalked and eventually hunted down." I felt tears prickle the back of my eyes. Black was slightly off the mark.

"No, you're wrong," I said but even I could hear my voice wobbling.

"Your mother was a blood-traitor, wasn't she? She was probably killed by her own parents," Black sneered. He was so close to the truth. I wish that he was actually right because the truth was so much worse.

I will not cry. I will not cry. I haven't cried in years so why cry now? I will not cry.

Well, not in front of these two, I wouldn't.

I felt the first salty tear make its way down my cheek. James and Sirius looked at me in twin horrified expressions. I don't think they knew what to do with a blubbering girl.

So I ran.
 
I ran right out of the Trophy Room, praying to Merlin that I wouldn't run into Filch, all the way to the Gryffindor Tower.

I yelled 'forte' at the Fat Lady and sprinted up the stairs.

Luckily, the others were all asleep. I curled up into a ball on my bed, and cried the hardest I had in years.

How dare he think that he understands what happened.

How dare he talk about it like it was nothing?

He knew nothing. Abso-fucking-lutely nothing.

xxxxx

I woke with my eyes raw from the tears.

"How was detention?" another girl, Alice, from my dorm asked. Lily must have told her about it. She was quite nice, but I'd never really talked to her.

I closed my eyes as I thought of the previous night.

"What happened?" Lily cried as she emerged from the bathroom and saw my face.

"I don't want to talk about it," I whispered, hoping that my voice wouldn't crack.

"Was it Potter? I swear, one day I'm going to kill him!" The other two girls in our dorm, Mary and Dorcas, looked at us. I glared at them; this was none of their business.

"No. No, it wasn't James," I said softly.

"Then what was it?" Alice asked gently. Her kind brown eyes were almost willing me to tell her.

"They were just talking about something that really upset me and they pretended they knew what happened," I said, telling a half truth.

"That's it, I'm going to hex them," Lily got up. I grabbed her arm,

"No, it's alright. I mean, he and Sirius polished the trophies. I just sat there and then ran out when they upset me"

"You ran out? As in you didn't complete the detention?" Alice's eyes widened, "Do you know how much trouble you're going to be in if they dob you in?"

"Yeah, but no one saw me. So it's okay as long as Potter and Black don't report me. I'm all good." Wasn’t I?

"I wouldn't put it past those two," Lily muttered.

"Why do you hate him, Lily?" I asked.

"Why do I hate him? He is an annoying little prat who walks around with those bloody friends of him like their top shit!" I had never heard Lily swear before, but I couldn't exactly disagree with her, "And he doesn't ever leave me alone. He thinks that just because he's the best looking guy in the school-" eh, Lily thought James was the best looking? "-that he can get any girl he wants-"

"Well, he can," I interrupted, "Except for you," I added hurriedly. She sent me a death glare.

"And he constantly tries to impress me with those pathetic pranks of his, which aren't even funny!" She finished her rant.

"You know, most girls would kill for that kind of attention from him," Alice voiced.

"But not me. I just wish he'd leave me alone."

xxxxx
 
Damn Lily and her need to compare Transfiguration notes with Remus.

She dragged me and Alice to sit with him and Sirius, James and Peter where no where in sight. Somehow I ended up sitting next to Sirius. I was staring at my plate and trying not make any sign of recognition of him.

"Yo, Pads! Move your derriere," James appeared with Peter and shoved Sirius to make room for himself. Sirius dramatically swept his arms as he was pushed closer to me and in the process dumped pumpkin juice all over me.

"Oh Merlin, Alexis! I'm so sorry!" he exclaimed. I stood up and a whole river of juice streamed onto the floor.

"I-uh...I'm going back to the tower to change. “'Bye Lily. 'Bye Alice!" I didn't wait for their responses, before running out of there.

That was the second time in a week I have been humiliated by Black. Why me? I just wanted to be my nobody-self again. Where people only knew my name, sometimes not even.

"Alexis, wait up!" I heard him yell. I just walked faster. I did not want to be around Sirius any longer.

"Don't you think you've done enough, Black?” I hissed as I spun on my heel to face him. What was he going to do next? Point his wand at me and say 'levicorpus' for a big finale?

"Geez, I'm just trying to help. No need to get grumpy," Sirius said as he threw up his arm in defence. I didn't dignify what he said with a response. I rolled my eyes. How does landing me in detention and then spilling pumpkin juice all over me count as 'help'? I noticed that he was still walking with me.

"Why are you following me?" I asked, quickening my pace to try and get rid of him, but he continued to just stride along.

"Well, I'm coming with you to the tower to make sure you're okay." Damn him and his freaky long legs to hell.

"Why? It's not like I'm covered in petrol." He looked at me with a confused expression. Right, he was a pure-blood, he wouldn't know what petrol is.

"Don't worry. Oh, forte," I said as we reached the Fat Lady.

"I'll just wait for you, then," Sirius said as I walked up the stairs to my dorm. I had left a tail of sticky pumpkin juice all the way from the hall. I pitied the house elf that had to clean it up.

xxxxx
 
~Sirius' POV~

What is her problem? It's not like I purposely chucked pumpkin juice all over her. I would only ever do that to a Slytherin and even that was lame. Speaking of Slytherins, I've got to convince old Prongs to help me prank them tonight.

I let out a laugh as I thought of my ingenious pan. Naturally, the other two had already agreed, albeit Remus was a little reluctant.

But James had said no. James didn't want to in case Lily found out. He thought it would reduce his chance with her.

I hated Lily: I hated her for stealing my best friend away from me. I hated that for hours on end, James would talk about just her eyes.

In those hours we could have planned and pulled so many more pranks and thrown parties for the sake of them!

We could have been practising to help Remus with his 'fury little problem' as James put it.

Merlin, we could have been out on the Quidditch pitch.

But no, we were stuck listening to James ramble on about some girl who didn't want him.

I could understand the thrill of the chase and all that, but it had been almost 4 years. Just watching James fail to get her attention was tiring.

Alexis came down the stairs in a fresh skirt. She swished past me without a word. Again, what is her problem?

"So where're you going?" I attempted at conversation.

"Divination," she replied curtly. Why was she doing divination?

I always thought she smart enough to not need an easy grade.

"What do you have?" she asked. Dear Merlin, Miss Snobby was actually interested in me? Maybe I should take her to the Hospital Wing to get Madame Pomfrey to look over her? I realised that Alexis was staring at him, waiting for an answer.

"Oh...I have Herbology...I think," I continued cautiously so she wouldn't snap at me, "But why do you do Divination? Don't you just listen to some crazy saying 'look through your inner-eye'?"

"Actually, Professor Trelawny says to 'look into your inner-eye'." Whoops, maybe I made her angry again. Oh, she's just joking with me. "And is that really what people think of Divination? It's actually really fun. We do all this really cool stuff."

"Like...?" I asked sceptically.

"Well, like...we do tea leaves."

"You...do...tea leaves? Isn't that kind of painful?" I joked.

"Painful? Why would it be-oh, you have a sick mind, Sirius Black!" she laughed as she got what I was saying. "We drink the tea and then read the tea leaves!" No shit.

"Well, Divination is this way," Alexis said as she gestured down a hallway.

"I'm this way," I pointed the other way.

"'K. I'll see you later then."

"'Bye."

Chapter 3: Mounting brooms
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~Alexis' POV~

"I'll see you later then."?!?!

I do not want to see Sirius Black ever again. First, his dumb friend lands me in detention and then he spills pumpkin juice all over me. Now my only good school skirt was going to have a giant stain down the front.

I climbed the ladder to the Divination room and was immediately hit with the smell of incense.

Gryffindor had Divination with the Slytherins but still there were only a few students. I was really looking forward to Divination, it was the only subject that I actually understand and excelled in. I took my usual seat and waited for my favourite class to start.

“Welcome, my dears. Today we will be studying the art of the crystal ball,” Professor Trewlawny’s voice wafted over to me. “Please take one from the shelf and turn to page 112 of ‘Unfogging the Future’” Everyone shuffled around to get everything.

Gazing into the crystal ball made me feel blurry. Maybe the book should be called ‘Unfogging the Mind’.

“Clear you mind, Miss Rose,” I was the only one who Professor Trelawney actually called by name.

“Clear it. Do not think of anything,” she whispered almost inaudibly. Clear the mind. Open spaces. Large fields. Air. Space. Instantly the foggy ball cleared. Woah. I peered into the ball. What would I see?

I saw some people playing Quidditch. Precisely it was Gryffindor playing against Slytherin.

Unconsciously, I leaned closer to the ball, so close that my forehead bumped into the cool glass. I was immediately sucked into the crystal ball.


All around me, the students of Hogwarts sat. Hundreds of children in gold and red and green and silver cheered and screamed as 14 players whizzed around on broom sticks.

And Potter has spotted the snitch. Where is he looking? There it is! There on the ground. Potter makes a dive for it...damn, he misses...Malfoy from Slytherin aims for a throw at the goal...10 points to Slytherin...it’s now 80 points to each house ...And Potter’s seen the snitch again, can he catch it this time...Rosier from Slytherin slams into Potter. Foul play! No fair!... Gryffindor’s Humphrey passes the quaffle to McDonald...Potter’s reaching out for the snitch! Is it going to be third time lucky?! YES, YES IT IS! Gryffindor’s won the match 230 to 90 points! They smashed Slytherin.

The image faded and reappeared but this time, we were in the Gryffindor common room.

“Please, Jamsie.” Lily slurred.

“No, Lily. You’re drunk.” James said firmly.

“No, I’m not. Why would I be drunk?” she almost tripped over as she tried to grab the bottle of James.

“Because that Smith dude has been pouring firewhisky into you like water.”

“I like Callum. He’s so nice.” Lily said absentmindedly. James just sighed.

“Please go upstairs, Lily. I would take you upstairs, but I can’t,” James pleaded.

“Ok then, Jamsie. Just for you,” Lily agreed and proceeded to climb the staircase. Halfway up, she suddenly tripped and tumbled to the bottom the stairs. She didn’t move.

“LILY!” James cried, trying to wake her up.


The image faded and I felt myself back in the Divination room.

"Very good, Miss Rose. 30 points to Gryffindor,' she whispered uncharacteristically and moved to help a Slytherin. I blinked a few times, wondering if I just imagined what I had seen. I gazed around at the others.

No one else looked like they had seen anything, let alone cleared the crystal ball. They were all glaring at it, but none of them would ever see anything.

None of them had the Second Sight.

None of them were like me.

xxxxx

Even after a few days, thoughts of what I saw in Divination swirled around in my head. It wasn't like this was the first time I had Seen something.

I always Saw things when I was sleeping or when I was daydreaming. Sometimes they would be so solid they looked real or they would be fainter than pixies wings but this was the first thing I had Seen about people I actually knew.

I had previously Seen this really fat man, woman, their son and this other kid walking behind them who didn't really look part of the family or the fat kid's friend either. They were at the reptile place at the zoo and the fat kid was banging on the glass of a snakes enclosure. Then the other kid who wasn't part of the family looked at the snake a full on conversation with it! Then the fat kid ran back to look at the snake and fell through the glass of the enclosure. I guess the fat kid was magical and hadn't yet learned to control himself so he just got over excited and made the glass disappear.

Another of my dreams, quite an old one, included seeing the banners in the Quidditch pitch and in the Great Hall being tuned black by Professor McGonagall. I didn't see why the banners were being turned black, I mean, it's never happened before so it must be for a special occasion.

"You must flick you wand like so, Mr Finnigan...Please pay attention to what you are doing Miss Rose. I don't think Miss Evans would appreciate having her eye poked out....Very good Miss Evans," Professor Merrythought said as she watched over her students practising the Patronus Charm wand movement.

I couldn't stand thinking about it anymore but no matter how much I tried to concentrate on the Patronus Charm, I couldn't help wondering if what I had Seen would really come true.

"Lily," I leaned over to her, "How's the Gryffindor team looking for Quidditch?"

"Wanting to try out do you?" James leaned over from behind us.

"Better be nice to Prongsie then, if you want to make the team. He's captain." Sirius cut in. Ewwww, what did he mean by 'be nice'? Lily sighed,

"No, if Potter wants Alexis on his team then he better be nice to her."

“Guys, I don't –"

"Don't be an idiot, Evans. I'm sure there are much better Quidditch players than Rosie, here."

"Rosie? Since whe-"

"You're the idiot, Black. Have you even see Alexis fly? She's amazing!" Since when had Lily seen me fly?

"Back to work Miss Evans and Mr Black," Professor Merrythought called from the front of the room but they just lowered their voices.

"Evans, I think I know the standard of the team seeing as I'm in it!

"Then Gryffindor is bound to lose this year if they have to lower their standards to you!"

"Guys, shush!" I said, probably louder than I needed to.

"Miss Rose, please be quite!" Professor Merrythought snapped from the front of the class.

"But, Professor, I was just –" I tried to explain.

"Do not talk back to me!" Sirius sniggered from behind me and started his argument with Lily again.

"I am a superb Quidditch player and I could kick your butt as well as Rosie's at it!"

" I am not Ro-" But Potter interrupted me.

"Hey, Padfoot, don't be mean to my Lily.'

"Potter, I am not your Lily. I am not anyone's Lily. And as for you Black, I'm not a Quidditch player so you probably could but Alexis is better than you think."

"I doubt she can even mount her broom."

"Excuse me Black but I can bloody damn well fly!" I said,

"MISS ROSE, this is your last warning, do not interrupt my class." My jaw dropped. That was so unfair! Lily and Sirius were the ones doing all the talking! Sirius sniggered again.

"Oh shut it, Black." Lily came to my defence. Yay! Go Lily!

"That is the worst comeback ever, Evans. And if Rosie here is such a good Quidditch player then why hasn't she tried out for the team before, huh?"

"Well... she'll come for tryouts this weekend and-"

"WILL YOU TWO SHUT UP? I DON'T WANT TO TRY OUT FOR THE GRYFFINDOR TEAM!"

I roared. Ooops. I was going to cop it from Professor Merrythought.

"Miss Rose," she started off, amazingly calmly, "Please wait outside the classroom until class has finished." Oh shit.

xxxxx

"It is so unlike you to interrupt class, Miss Rose," she started off. "I was just wondering if there has been anything bothering you lately?" Well, first of Professor, Sirius Black and James Potter have been getting on my nerves. I also seem to have a problem with my clothes as I now don't anything that doesn't have a stain on it.

But of course, I didn't say anything.

"No, Professor. Everything is alright," I said as I lied through my teeth.

"Are you sure?" she peered at me, "Nothing wrong with your studies? Home? Friends?"

"No, of course not Professor. Everything's fine," I hated lying.

"Well, that's good then. But-" Oh, Merlin. There was always a but, "I can't let your behaviour in class slip. So you will be doing detention with Filch tonight."

"What?" I yelped. Not another detention! That's two in the space of a few days: more than I had ever gotten in the last three years!

xxxxx

~Sirius' POV~

"Do you think she'll come?" James asked me on the way to the dinner.

"Do you mean Rosie to tryouts?" I confirmed.

"Duh. Lily said she was quite good. And you know as well as I do, Padfoot, that our team might as well not even compete this season to save ourselves the embarrassment."

"You guys aren't that bad," Remus tried to encourage us.

"Are you kidding? Moony, you could catch the quaffle better than Humphrey can. I mean, he can pass and all that and he's a really good flyer, but he cannot catch the quaffle," I argued.

"All he does in practise is practice catching," James groaned.

"Wait, but you guys haven't even done tryouts?" Remus asked.

"Yeah, but he was on the team last year and he was really good. Normally we keep all the previous year’s players but the whole not being able to catch thing only happened when he broke his arm on the holidays. It's healed but it's done something funny to his ability to catch." James explained, "He better get over it soon, or I'm going to have to replace him."

"If you can find someone better," I added.

"And that's why I asked you if Alexis was coming to tryouts or not! Maybe she could be Beater, that spot is open, or she could be Chaser if Humphrey isn't good enough." Sometimes James loved pointing out the obvious.

"Anyway, moving on," I said, "Full moon's coming up."

"Shush! Not so loud, someone might hear you!" Remus looked very worried.

"Don't worry, Remus. Nobody is going to figure it out," James tried to soothe him.

"But they might."

"But they wo-" James stopped talking abruptly as he saw Lily walk into the hall with Rosie and Alice.

"Stop drooling, Prongs. You're never going to get her," I smirked.

"And you're never going to get Alexis!" he snapped back.

"What? Um, I don't even like Alexis." Where'd James gotten the idea that I liked Alexis? All she did was piss me off.

"Suuuuuure," he said while rolling his eyes, "Hey, Lily! My flower, come sit over here!"

Funnily, enough, all three girls came to sit with us.

"I can't believe I got another one!" I heard Alexis say to Alice.

"Got what, Rosie?" I asked.

"No thanks to you two arguing I got another detention,"

"When?"

"Tonight with Filch."

"Yay! You and me in detention tonight Rosie!"

"Don't. Call. Me. Rosie."

xxxxx

~Alexis' POV~

Detention with Sirus? Oh, Merlin. I think I might have committed suicide by tomorrow morning. But I guess he was okay when he wasn't trying to piss me off. Which was a lot of the time.

"Miss Rose, didn't expect to see you again. Mr Black, I did expect to see you, though." Filch said, "Where're you going, Black? You ain't polishing trophies. They got polished days ago. No, you'll be scrubbing the Great Hall's floor. Without magic, of course."

It was amazing all the stuff that made its way to the floor of the Great Hall. Sirius and I found at least 6 galleons which we split half and half, a couple of quills and more than a few dried pieces of Droobles Best Gum.

We found that if we got buckets of water and chucked them on the floor then sponged the water up; it was a lot quicker and easier than dipping the sponge in and out of the
bucket. It was actually quite fun.

Oh, Merlin. I did not just call detention with Sirius fun.

"Hey, Rosie! Catch!" Sirius cried as he dunked a bucket of water on me. The water was icy cold and it felt like my head had just been split open. I stood there trying to get my brain to function again and to unstick my hand from the bucket I was holding, but all I could think of was how cold it was.

"Uh, Alexis...are you okay?" Sirius asked cautiously.

"Y-y-you did not just do that, Sirius!" I cried when I'd found my voice.

"Do what?" he asked innocently. Fine, two could play at that game,

"THIS!" I cried as I dumped the bucket's contents all over him.

"Oh! You...you bitch! That's it: GAME ON!"

"Argh! Crap, that's freezing!" I screamed as he began flinging buckets of water at me. I ran to pick up a bucket and joined in.

"Ew! It went in my mouth! Ugh!" Sirius almost threw up as I chucked a bucket of used water on him. I collapsed in a fit of laughter.

"Hey, there’s no more water left!” Sirius pouted.

“No problem I can fix that. Aguamenti!” I cried and a jet of water poured out of my wand and hit Sirius in the cheek.

“Ohhh, you just took it too far!” he exclaimed and hit me with his own burst of water. I sent some more water his way but he dodged it. Damn him being a Chaser and –
My thoughts were interrupted as icy water soaked me from head to foot. Right, Sirius Black was going to pay.

“You-you dog!” I cried.

"WHAT IS GOING ON IN HERE?" A voiced thundered from the entrance. Sirius stopped mid throw and water lamely dribbled out of the bucket. "MR BLACK AND MISS ROSE, WHY IS IT THAT YOU ARE STANDING IN THE GREAT HALL AT ELEVEN O'CLOCK AT NIGHT, DRIPPING WET AND MAKING ENOUGH NOISE FOR THE WHOLE OF HOGWARTS TO HEAR?"

Uh oh. Sirius and I were in so much trouble.

"Well? I am waiting for a reasonable explanation?!"

"Professor McGonagall, you see...this was my idea,' I stammered. Sirius' eyes widened, "I...we...wanted to clean the floor more quickly, because we're doing detention, so we could go to bed.

And I thought we could ....slosh the water around a bit and...sponge it up and we would be finished sooner." I finished lamely.

"Then why is you are both dripping wet and going to catch your death?" This time Sirius answered,
"Because, Professor, you see... Alexis slipped in one of the puddles," I was nodding furiously, "and I tried to help her up but we both ended up slipping into the water again." Sirius' part of the explanation was much more convincing than mine.

"Well, I want you to both go and see Madame Pomfrey at once. You will return here as soon as she has finished with you and clean up this mess," I heard Sirius groan from beside me, but I feared Professor McGonagall was going to make a bigger deal out of it so I elbowed him really hard in the ribs.

"Oof!" he went as the air rushed out of him. He glared at me.

"What was that, Mr Black?"

"Nothing, Professor."

"Well, get a move on then."

We both bolted out of the hall.

Chapter 4: Par-taay Pooooper
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~Alexis' POV~

"And she was like-"

"What the hell are you two doing-"

"Just not in those words."

"And so we had to go to the Hospital Wing and get dry-"

"And then we went and-"

"Cleaned up the rest of the hall." Sirius and I finished our lengthy explanation.

"So let me get this clear," Remus started, "You both had detention and started chucking water at each other and then Professor McGonagall comes in and just tells you to go dry of and then finish cleaning the hall?"

"Um, yeah," I confirmed.

"Dude, seriously? If she'd found, like, me and Padfoot and Moony and Wormtail all throwing water around, we'd have been thrown in detention for a lifetime!" James exclaimed.

"One plus of being with Rosie-" I cut Sirius off,

"Will you not call me that? My name is not Rosie!"

"Fine, being with Alexis means that none of the teachers expect bad behaviour so when it happens they're all like 'I don't want to see it happen again!" and just walk off," Sirius said as he winked at up.

He looked really sexy when he winked. Merlin's beard, I did not just call Sirius sexy. Crap, crap, crap.

"Are you implying, Sirius Black, that I'm a goody-goody?" yep, I covered my tracks well.

“Of course not, Alexis Rose," he replied, the picture of pure innocence, "I am simply stating that teachers favour you." Ok, he had to pay for that one, so I thumped him nice and hard on the arm.

"Hey, I've got the best idea!" James said. Oh dear, that didn't sound too good. "Next time we do something, Alexis come with us!"

"What? No, I don't want to!" I protested.

"Of course you do, Rosie dear. Who wouldn't want to play pranks with us Marauders?" Sirius said.

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~Sirius' POV~

She was cute when she was trying to be angry. And she can hit very hard. After dinner and us Marauders (minus James was still stuffing his face some more) were sitting in the common room doing our homework.

"What's up, Sirius?" Remus asked as he sat down next to me, "What's with the big goofy grin and misty eyes?" What was he talking about? I didn’t have a bi-ok, maybe I did.

"I don't know, Moony...she's so infuriating at times, but when she lets go, she's so much fun..."

"Alexis?" he asked and I nodded in response, "Knew you liked her, Padfoot." He patted me on the knee and started his homework. Okaaaaay. Because that wasn't weird at all....

"DAMN HIM TO HELL!" James came roaring up to me. "DAMN HIM. I CANNOT BELIEVE HE DID THAT."

"Okay, Jamsie. Calm down." Everyone sitting in the common room was staring at us now.

"I WILL NOT CALM DOWN. WHERE IS THAT DOUCHE BAG, I AM GOING TO HEX HIM INTO THE NEXT DIMENSION."

"Okay, then. Well, let's go to our dorm." I said steering him up the staircase before he got really angry.
Remus closed the door behind us. As soon as it clicked shut, James let fly,

"STUPID GIT NAMED CALLUM SMITH ASKED LILY TO HIS PARTY!"

"Yeah, sooo?" I asked.

"What do you mean 'sooo'? So obvious I must hex the hell out of him so he can back off my Lily!"

"Um, James..." Remus said a bit tentatively, "Maybe you haven't noticed, but Lily isn't exactly yours."

"SHE IS MINE, REMUS. I LOVE HER!"

"Yeah, but mate...she refuses to even talk to you..." I tried to help him see reason.

"THAT IS BESIDE THE POINT. SHE LOVES ME BUT SHE JUST HASN'T REALISED IT YET!"
Okay, maybe he was past the point of reasoning... James stood in the middle of the room, panting a little with his eyes almost bulging out of his head.

"Prongs...maybe you should talk to her," Remus suggested.

"And say what? That Smith is a git and that she shouldn't go to Hogsmeade with him? Dude, we all know that she'd just hex me," James looked like he was going to cry, "I just don't want to see her get hurt."

"Well, Prongsie," Remus shot me a warning look, which I blatantly ignored, "You knew sooner or later that she was going to start dating...maybe just as well it’s Smith. He is a Hufflepuff and all so I doubt he'd hurt her."

James stormed over to his bed and viciously shoved the curtains closed.

"Good going, Padfoot."

"Shut up, Moony. I was just trying to help."

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~Alexis' POV~

“So you’re coming with me this weekend to Callum’s party?” Lily confirmed with me and Alice.

“Of course we will, Lils,” Alice replied.

“I bet you’re only going because that Frank Longbottom guy’s going,” I winked at Alice.

“What! That’s not true!” she denied.

“Okaaaay,” Lily said, obviously not convinced, “I’ve got to find Callum and ask him what the password to the Hufflepuff common room is going to be.”

“Wait, he’s in Hufflepuff?” I asked.

“Yeah, so?”

“So...I can’t really see you going out with a Hufflepuff,” I replied.

“I’m not going out with him. He just invited me to his party!”

“Yeah, but next thing he’ll be asking you to Hogsmeade!” Alice teased.

“Nahhh, like I said, can’t see her with a Hufflepuff. Maybe a Ravenclaw...but more likely James!” I teased.

“Shut up, Alexis!”

“Ohhh, getting a bit touchy there, Lily!”

“SHUT UP!”

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The week seemed to crawl by as we waited for the weekend. Lily was so excited to be going that all she talked about was what she was going to wear and what make up she was going to put on.

“I don’t know what nail polish you should put on!” Alice said exasperatedly as Lily’s party chatter closed in on 2 hours, “Maybe to make it easier, you should go naked.”

“Nahh, Alice, but then Potter would ogle at her as she walked through the common room,” I smirked.

“Somebody say my name?” Potter’s head poked out from behind me.

“Misses Rose, Evans and Prewett and Mr Potter, please quietly copy down the notes on the board,” Professor Merrythought called from the front of the room.

“If you saw Lily walk through the common room naked, would you stare?” I asked.

“You do realise that Prongs now has an image of a naked Lily going through his head?” Black laughed from next to James. Unfortunately, Lily heard and smacked James on the head.

“Sweet Merlin, Lily, that hurt!” he cried.

“That was the point, Potter,” she replied. Turning back to Alice and me she said,

“I am not going to Callum’s party naked.”

“So that’s what you three have been talking about for the past forever!” Black said.

“No. More like what Lily has been talking about the past forever,” I corrected him.

“Well, it is tomorrow night and I still don’t know what to wear!” Lily steered the conversation back to the original topic.

“Just wear your green dress,” James suggested quietly, staring at the parchment in front of him.

“But that’s so old and I always wear that one. No, I’m not going to wear that,” she shook her head not noticing James’ lack of smart remarks.

“But enough of me, what you guys going to wear?” She asked me and Alice.

“It’s a surprise!” Alice said dramatically. Lily looked at me.

“Dunno. Whatever I pull out of my wardrobe, I guess,” I shrugged.

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Neither of us could do any homework on Saturday morning. Lily was so excited because Callum was going to be there. She had finally admitted that she had a crush on him.

Alice was going for Frank Longbottom so she too was excited.

As for me, I couldn’t do any homework because I was so nervous about going.

This was the first party I was going to in my whole Hogwarts life. I’d never been to any of the Marauders ones because I was usually too shy and just stayed in my dorm as music pumped through invisible speakers and I was never invited to one from someone in another house because I didn’t have any friends in other houses.

Alice was wearing a fire engine red strappy dress while Lily ended up wearing the green dress that James had suggested. I was a lot less dressed up than they were. I was wearing my nice stretchy jeans and comfy t-shirt.

“Come on, Al, you have to put on some makeup!” Lily said as she tried to convince me that what I was wearing wasn’t appropriate.

“Why? I hate makeup. It’s, like, every time I move my face it’s all going to crack off,” I protested.

“We won’t put on too much, just a little,” Alice said.

“And besides, you have to make up for the lack of dressy-ness in what you’re wearing,” Lily added.
I gave in and let them put mascara and eye shadow on my face.

“There is nothing wrong with what I’m wearing,” I protested as they applied gloop to my face.

“You should at least wear a nicer top,” Lily suggested.

“Excuse me, but I like my top,” I protested.

“Yeah, but maybe you should wear something a bit more formal...like this!” she exclaimed as she drew a jacket made of white lace out of my trunk.

“Oh my Merlin, it’s so pretty! Wear that one!” Lily exclaimed.

“Yeah...but...okay fine,” I gave in, not really having the energy to argue with them.

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The party was, truthfully, boring. As soon as Lily spotted Callum, he dragged her away to introduce her to all his friends. When Alice saw Frank she turned to me and asked,

“Frank's over there, Al. I’m going to talk to him. You want to come?

“Nah, go ahead, Alice,” I didn’t really know Frank or any of his friends so I figured I’d find someone else at the party to talk to.

But being here really emphasised to me that I didn’t really I had any friends. Sure, I had Lily and I liked Alice, but I didn’t have anyone else. I didn’t even have any of the Marauders. James and Sirius were nice to me, occasionally, and I hadn’t really talked to Remus or Peter.

Eventually, I had enough of the ‘who-the-hell-are-you’ stares and decided to leave.

"Alexis, where are you going?" Lily said as I was going to make my escape. She sounded very drunk.

"I'm going back to Gryffindor Tower. You should probably leave to," I was really worried. Lily didn't often get drunk. She probably didn't even realise it.

"But I'm having so much fun!" she protested and stumbled on nothing. Yep, she as definitely drunk.

"Come on, Lils. Let's go," I tried to pull her away.

"Hey, Lily! Where're you going?" a voice called.

"Oh, Callum, I'm not really sure. This is Alexis! Alexis, this is Callum," Lily introduced us and he gave me a smile. I glared back at him. Lily had been spending the night with him; therefore he was the idiot who got my best friend drunk.

"She's drunk. She's coming back to our dorm," I said coldly.

"But the party's only getting started!" he cried indignantly and more than a little drunkenly as there was a loud crash from somewhere in some corner. Smith disappeared to find the cause and I took the opportunity to drag a protesting Lily out the there.

"Where're we going?" Lily asked for about the third time.

"Back to our dorm," I gave the same reply as the last few times.

"Why? I wanna go back to da par-taaay!" she tried, trying to be all gangster.

"No," I said firmly, "We are going back."

"I dragged her all the way back to the common room while she took to singing 'par-taay pooooper' over and over again. She was so out of it that I had to her through the portrait. I could hear the Fat Lady tut-tutting behind me and muttering something like 'children these days..."

Four boys sat next to the fire. Great, just who I and a very drunk Lily wanted to see. Between them on the tables was another bottle of firewhisky,

"Ohhh, firewhisky! Can I have some?" Lily stumbled towards them.

"Um, you're very drunk, Lily. I'm not sure more firewhisky is the answer," James stated clearly.

“Please, Jamsie.” Lily slurred.

“No, Lily. You’re drunk.” James said firmly.

“No, I’m not. Why would I be drunk?” she almost tripped over as she tried to grab the bottle of James.

“Because that Smith dude has been pouring firewhisky into you like water.”

“I like Callum. He’s so nice.” Lily said absentmindedly. James just sighed.

“Please go upstairs, Lily. I would take you upstairs, but I can’t,” James pleaded.

“Ok then, Jamsie. Just for you,” Lily agreed and proceeded to climb the staircase. Halfway up, she
suddenly tripped and tumbled to the bottom the stairs. She didn’t move.

“LILY!” James cried, trying to wake her up. Oh no. This cannot be happening. This is exactly what I saw in the crystal ball. No, no, no.

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~Sirius' POV~

James picked up Lily.

“Where're you taking her?" Alexis asked him frantically.

"To the Hospital Wing," he said and walked out of the room.

"I'm coming," she said worriedly.

"She's going to be fine, Rosie," I whispered to her. She didn't say anything. Merlin's shaggy beard, she must be really upset if she didn't realise or care that I just called her Rosie.

"Come on," I said as I put my arm around her and steered her out of the portrait and after James. Remus and Peter followed us. We eventually got to the Hospital Wing

“What happened?” Madame Pomfrey asked.

“She fell down the stairs,” James replied before Alexis could say anything. Alexis opened her mouth to say something but I squeezed her shoulder to tell her to be quite.

“Mr Potter, a girl does not simply fall down the stairs and knock herself out,” Madame Pomfrey,

“Please, tell me what happened. I can’t give her anything before I find out fully what happened.”

Don’t say anything Alexis. Don’t say anything. I willed her.

“She was drunk,” in the end Peter blurted out. Dear Merlin, we were going to kill him later. Madame Pomfrey bustled off to get the necessary potions and Dumbledore strode in.

“And she was drunk because...?” he asked.

“We were at a party together,” Alexis whispered from underneath my arm.

No, no, no. She should have just kept quiet. Often, Dumbledore turned a blind eye to these sorts of parties because they were essentially harmless, but now that Lily was seriously injured, he and the rest of staff would crack down on students.

Ugh, could this be any worse?

“Whose party, Miss Rose?” he probed.

Oh no. It just did. If Dumbledore found out it was Smith’s party that got Lily severely injured...anything could happen. Anything from detention for the rest of the kid’s schooling life to expulsion to... I don't know...him banning partying of any sort at Hogwarts.

But Alexis stayed quiet and focused her eyes on the floor, refusing to say or look at anything.

Eventually Dumbledore sighed and said,
“A word in my office, Miss Rose?” Alexis looked terrified but nodded. She slipped from under my arm. It flopped to my side, suddenly missing the warmth from underneath it.

"Is she going to be okay?" James asked Madame Pomfrey.

"Of course, dear. We just have to let her wake up. In the meantime, I suggest you all go back to your rooms. I don't think she'll be waking up soon," she replied.

"But-" James tried to protest.

"No buts, Mr Potter. All four of you, to bed. Now," she snapped.

We all were a bit taken aback, usually Poppy was so nice, so we quietly plodded out of the room and back to our dorm.

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~Alexis' POV~

Professor Dumbledore led me to a part of the castle I had never been before. He said "liquorice wands" at a gargoyle, which leapt aside, and lead me up a winding staircase. We entered a room that was lined with portraits, all talking at the same to each other, all whispering about Lily.

"Miss Rose, please take a seat," Professor Dumbledore said while gesturing to a seat and sitting in one opposite.

"Do you know whose party Miss Evans was at when she became...uh, intoxicated?" he began. I didn't want to reply. I'd felt Sirius squeeze my shoulder to tell me to be quiet when Madame Pomfrey had asked what happened.

"Miss Rose, I am sure you, yourself, attended this party with Miss Evans," he tried again, "I'm sure you could at least tell me to which house did this person belong to?"

"Hufflepuff," I finally gave in.

"And I am assuming that the host of this party was in the same year level as you-no, Miss Rose?" he asked as I shook my head, "This student in Hufflepuff is not in your year level?"

"I-I don't know what year level he is in, Professor," I mumbled.

"Ahhhh, so the host is male then?" he guessed. Oh Merlin, he would easily figure out who it was from here.

"Is there something bothering you, Miss Rose? Have you seen anything else?" he asked. How did he know that it was my gift that was bothering me? I mean, sure, he knew I occasionally Saw things, but nothing significant

“Have you Seen anything significant?” he asked, staring at me through his half-moon glasses.

“Yes.”

“What did you See?”

“I Saw Lily fall,” I whispered.

“Anything else?” Professor Dumbledore asked calmly.

“I also Saw Gryffindor beat Slytherin, 230 to 90,” I replied. A cheer went up for the portraits that hung up the wall. One of them even yelled ‘Go go Gryffindor”.

“Miss Rose, you must tell me what you See. Some of the things may be confusing and not make sense, but you must tell me every time you See something. It may seem insignificant, but you must tell me. Do you understand, Miss Rose?” he confirmed.

“Yes, Professor.”

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Chapter 5: Too young to die
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~Alexis' POV~

A black haired man stood in a richly furnished room. His eyes, framed by glasses, searched the room.

He found what he was looking for; A small wooden draw in the desk. Hiss messy black hair flapped wildly as he desperately rebadged through it. Finally, his hands closed around a small blue velvet box.

A toilet flushed in an adjoining room. The man jumped away from the drawer guiltily and slammed it shut just as a stunning red-head emerged out of the door.

"James! I didn't hear you come home! The woman exclaimed. The man, James, laughed nervously. The woman peered at James and asked,
"Are you ok? You look kind of ill."

"Just a hard day, flower. Actually, I wanted to ask you something," he replied.

"Mmm?" The read head questioned. Getting down on one knee, James said,
"Lily Evans, will you marry me?


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I woke up, entangled in my blanket.

No way. No bleeding way was Lily ever going to marry James. I don't care how much of a Seer who Sees the future in her dreams and crystal balls and thingos. There was no way was Lily ever going to marry James.

I mean, she hated James who hated her for going to Smith's party last night, right?

I looked out the dorm window. Damn, it was still pitch black. Knowing, after that wonderful dream, I was never going to fall asleep; I carefully made my way down to the common room. As I sat facing the glowing embers of the fire, I let my mind wonder.

Why did I have to See things? Why couldn’t it have been someone else? To what 'Greater Purpose' was my 'gift' for?

I let out a sigh and checked the time. 5 o'clock. It was one hour until the Quidditch tryouts but I wasn't sure I wanted to go. I mean, Gryffindor probably had a really great team already and I was just going to embarrass myself by going.

I tilted my head back on the couch and stared at the ceiling. The rich red paint must have been at least a few centuries old and yet it wasn't peeling and faded. It was strong and enduring. Why could I be strong and enduring like the paint? Merlin's beard, I think I am going mad if I wanted to be like paint.

But back to the tryouts: to go or not to go... if I went I was probably going to embarrass myself but if I didn't go then Sirius or James were probably going to call me a 'scaredy cat' repeatedly.

To go or not to go...

To go or not to go...

Suddenly I heard the portrait door creak open and in walked the Marauders. Oh Merlin, there was no escaping now.

"Rosieeee! My dear Rosieee!" Sirius said as he walked in.

"I'm not your Rosie. My name isn't even Rosie," I snapped, a result of being sleep deprived.

"Ohhh, someone's grumpy!" James exclaimed. I glared at him and tried to step around them so I could make my escape.

"Not so fast, Alexis," James said as he grabbed my arm, "Are you coming to tryouts?" Ugh, no, I did not want to go to tryouts.

"Ummm...." I desperately tried to think of an excuse, any excuse, "Uhhh, how's Lily?" Yep, smooth change of topic.

"She's okay. She hasn't woken up yet, but Poppy said she's doing well," James replied with a soppy grin on his face. Oh dear, James Potter had one hell of a crush on Lily Evans.

"Don't change the topic, Rosie," whoops, Sirius saw right through my plan. "Are you coming to tryouts?"

"Ohh...." come on brain, think!

"Great! They start in ten minutes!" Sirius said brightly and went up the staircase closely followed by his fellow marauders.

Great Merlin's beard, I dearly did not want to go to tryouts now. Those two, James and Sirius, probably had some sort of prank hidden up their sleeves. Yes, it must be, why else would they want me to go to tryouts?

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~Sirius POV~

"Hurry up, Padfoot!" James whined as I splashed my face with cold water to try and wake up.

"Just a minute..." I replied. The water stung my eyes and made my skin feel tight. That's what I got for sleeping in the Hospital Wing on a plastic chair because Jamsie was too worried about his Lily-kins. Great.

"Sirius, we can't be late for the tryouts! I'm captain," James was starting to freak out.

"Ok, let's go," I said as I dried my face.

"So, Alexis..." James said as we walked to the Quidditch Pitch.

"Don't worry, Prongs. She'll be there," I said confidently.

"But what if she's not?" James asked.

"But she will be."

"But what if she's not?"

"Bloody hell, James! I just know that she'll be there, okay?" I finally lost it.

"Okay, chill. I'm just freaking out that we won't be even able to pull together a team," James was starting to hyperventilate.

"Okay, now it's your turn to chill, Prongs. I'm sure we'll be able to do something with whoever comes to tryouts," I tried to calm him down.

We finally made it to the Quidditch Pitch. I looked around but there was no Alexis.
We started tryouts, but still no Alexis.

We looked at the horribly hopeful newbies trying their best but still failing dismally, and still there was no Alexis.

We winced as some poor second year hopeful got smashed by a bludger and had to be taken to the Hospital Wing, but there was still no Alexis.

We watched open-mouthed as Humphrey showed off his recovered skill for catching quaffles but –you guessed it- no Alexis.

We picked Mary McDonald, a fourth year in Alexis' dorm, as a Chaser to replace Winestone who had graduated last year and Avery Hughes, a midget third year guy, to replace Bones who had also graduated last year.

Yep, we'd picked a third year over about six sixth and seventh years, that's how much we were scraping the barrel, which is also why we'd been so desperate for Alexis to come. And, by the way, she still hadn't showed.

"YOU SAID SHE WOULD SHOW!" James said angrily as we made our way to breakfast. Picking the new members of our team hadn't taken him out of his whole 'our team is a failure' mood.

"Well I thought she would," I protested.

"But she didn't and I had to pick that weedy third year. What his name again? Oh yeah, Avery Hughes! What kind of name is Avery? That's a girl's na-" James' ramble came to a halt as he noticed Alexis had walked in.

"Oi, Rose! What do you think you're doing?" he yelled across the Great Hall. Poor Alexis looked terrified, and rightly so, "Get back here, Rose, right this instant!" She turned and slowly walked towards us.

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~Alexis' POV~

This is it: the moment I get murdered by James Potter. I am walking down the centre of the Great Hall towards James, Sirius, Remus and Peter. James is glaring at me, Sirius is looking everywhere but at me, Remus is glancing amusedly at James and Peter seemed oblivious as to what was going on.

I looked up to the teachers table, but Professor Merrythought was the only teacher there and she was eating like there was no tomorrow, so I wasn't going to get any help there.

All too soon, I reached the Marauders. I gulped and said as casually as I could,
"Hey, guys. What's up?"

"Don't you 'what's up' me, Rose," oh dear, James was using my last name, "Why weren't you at tryouts this morning?"

"Oh, well, you see James... the thing is...well, I'm not very good at Quidditch. And I figured I didn't stand a chance against everyone else so I didn't want to embarrass myself so I decided I wouldn't go. And besides, I'm sure you pulled together a great team," I ended up telling the truth.

James let out a small growl. Okay, maybe I said something? He said,
"Alexis, can I talk to you outside?" I wasn't sure if outside was a good thing. I mean, he could hex me and no one would know to come and help me. Sweet Merlin, I'm too young to die.

Luckily, at that moment, the owls decided to deliver the post. Yes, saved! I caught a slim letter that an owl dropped to me. I saw my name and wondered who was writing to me. I mean, my Dad could never be bothered and Mum wasn't exactly in a position to write...

"Rose. Outside. Now." James ordered. Whoops, maybe I hadn't escaped.

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Chapter 6: Rebecca
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~Alexis' POV~

I followed James outside, sending Remus a 'Help me!' look but he just laughed. Okay, I was coming to terms with the fact I was going to die. James turned to me,

"Well?"

"Well what?"

"Why didn't you come to try-outs?"

"I was under the impression that I had no obligation what-so-ever to come to try-outs."

"You were under the wrong impression."

"What is your problem, Potter?"

"My problem, Rose, is that my team is failing dismally!"

"Wait. What? How can your team be failing: you have the legendary James Potter and Sirius Black, half of the Marauders." I said with a grand flourish of my arms.

"Yes, well," James started, "You see, in a team of six, having the two most brilliant Quidditch players in history is not good enough." My eyes widened. Not good enough? The legendary Potter and Black: not good enough?

"Listen up, Rosie. Humphrey, my Chaser, has just regained his ability to catch and I'm not sure how long that is going to last. Diggory isn't going to turn up to any of the practice sessions even though he can beat the life out of a bludger. Have you seen the size of his arms?" James' voice had climbed a few octaves, "I got some midget named Hughes to go Chaser but one hard throw from Humphrey is going to knock him of his broom. And I got that cake-face, Mary McDonald, as my last Chaser and she is more cake than face! Plus she is probably going to get with Diggory in the changing rooms instead of coming to practice! DO YOU SEE MY PROBLEM, ROSE?"

"Uhhhh..." I was truly lost for words.

"DO YOU SEE?!" he yelled. A couple of Ravenclaw kids shot us curious glances before disappearing for breakfast.

"Um, yeah. I'm sure you guys are going to be great this year!" I squeaked. James let out a sigh.

"Rose, seriously? We are going to be publically embarrassed. Like I said to Sirius, we might as well not even play to save ourselves from the shame."

"So what has this got to do with me, again?" I asked.

"Well, apparently you are good at Quidditch. To quote my Lily-"

"She's not yours."

"- apparently, you're amazing."

"Yeah, well sorry to disappoint you, James, but I'm not. I'm just average." I said and turned and walked off.

"Please, just think about it." James called after me.

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I walked off to the library fuming. Gryffindor had a bloody spectacular Quidditch team! How dare he tell me that his team was crap and about all the problems he was having with his team.

I mean, he was a bloody Marauder! Didn't he have, like, the world greatest brain or something? Ugh, this was all so confusing. I just wanted to be Miss Nobody again.

I looked at the letter I had been holding in my hand all this time. It was addressed to Alex-a childhood name my parents used to call me but I grew to hate it. I opened the letter with shaking hands.

Dear Alex,
I don't really know where to start. Merlin knows I'm not the world greatest letter writer. That's the reason why I never really write to you. I just don't know what to say.

Do you have any news? I know I do, that's partly the reason I'm writing to you.

How are things at Hogwarts going? I hope you like your school. Your mother and I went through great pains as to deciding between Beauxbatons and Hogwarts. Speaking of your mother, just before I tell you my news, I would like you to know that I loved your mother more than you could ever imagine. She was everything to me. There isn't a day that goes past that I don't wish she were still here with us. Every time I look at you, it's like I see her. You have her eyes and her smile. I just wish things could have been different. I wish I listened to her and helped her. I wish I'd realised things earlier. But there is no use dwelling in the past.

It has been 9 years since your mother has gone. 9 years of watching you grow up. I wish she'd been here with us every step of the way. Every day I regret being with her because it is my fault she was disowned by her family.

Having you go to Hogwarts every year is hard. It's hard being alone all the time. I've met a woman at work. Her name is Rebecca and we are currently engaged. The wedding is set for July.

We would very much like it if you would agree to be her bridesmaid.

I love you,
Dad
PS. Attached is a photo of me and Rebecca


I shook the envelope and out tumbled a photo with my Dad and his arm around a woman who was not my mother. Her hair was dark brown, but still a few shades lighter than mine. She was smiling broadly but the smile didn't reach her bright blue eyes.

My father, on the other hand, looked so happy it hurt to look at the photo. He was smiling so hard that he had little crinkles at the corner of his bright green eyes. I felt tears well up in my eyes. This...fake woman...had done what I had tried to do for the past 9 years: make my father truly smile.

I mean, my father would smile and nod while I told him about school in the summer and he'd grin appreciatively when I (attempted) to cook dinner, but you could always tell he was distracted by something.

How could he just forget Mum like that? And then replace her with ...that?!?!

My father was going to marry her while Lily was going to marry...James. It all sounded so illogical.

I picked up my quill and started to write a reply to my Dad.

Dear Dad,
I don’t really have any news. I was going to try out for the Quidditch team.


Ok, so technically I was never going to try out for the team, but Dad had always wanted me to try out.

But I missed try-outs.

Not so much of a lie. But it was more like the Captain and his best friend are freaky.

Hogwarts is the same as it is every year. Same room, same teachers same classes so far.
Congratulations on getting engaged.
From Alexis.


Yeah, so it was short but it wasn’t exactly like I had much more to write.

I couldn’t write Rebecca looks like a bitch so I think you should ditch her so it can be me and you again, could I? And I didn’t want to have to wear some icky dress and watch them get married so I just left whether I wanted to be a bridesmaid out

Suddenly, I felt so tired. I'd had enough of Quidditch and surprises for a while. I lay my head down and the table and promptly feel asleep.

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"Alexis?" a soft voice said as somebody sat down in front of me. I looked up and I saw Remus Lupin. Ugh, one quarter of the Marauders. I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes and looked around me. Where was I? Oh yeah, in the library.

"What do you want?" I asked, probably more rudely than necessary. He looked very nervous and his eyes were wondering. They finally fell on the photo of my Dad and her.

"Is that your mum and dad?" he asked.

"No. That's my dad. That is not my mum," I snorted. This...person...was never going to be my mum. Nothing could replace her.

"Ohhh," he seemed to run out of this to say.

"Why are you here?" I asked bluntly. I was not in the mood for this. I was angry and upset.

"Well, you see... Gryffindor's Quidditch team-"

"I am sick and tired of hearing about Quidditch, Remus," I said tiredly. I didn't have the energy to be angry. "I really don't give a shit if James and Sirius' team is failing and I am just so sick of being asked to join the team!" I stood up and started to gather my things but Remus grabbed my wrist.

"Please, Alexis, just listen to me," he begged.

"Look, Remus," I didn't quite know what to say without hurting his feelings, "James has just spilled his guts about his dismal team. I don't need to hear this." I grabbed my bag and headed for the door.

"James wants to ask you straight out to be on the team but he's just too proud to do it," Remus called after me. I froze on the spot, wondering if he was telling the truth.

But then I remembered: he was a Marauder. Admittedly the nicest one, but they were all the same: pranksters, manipulative and egotistical.

Chapter 7: Ugly words
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~Alexis' POV~

"What’s wrong?" Alice whispered to me when I finally sat down next to her in Charms. I sighed.

"Remus wants me to join the Quidditch team. Apparently James is too proud to ask me to join, or something."

"Duh. He's James- too damn proud for his own good," Lily said.

"But I don't get it. Even if you wanted to join the team, it's not like there's a place for you and you did miss tryouts and everything." Alice puzzled.

"I know, right? How does that work?” I wondered out loud.

“Hey, Lily,” Smith said as he sat down on the other side of Lily. I crinkled my nose. I did not like this guy who got Lily drunk.

“Hi, Callum. Have you met my friends?” Lily asked as she gestured to us.

“Yeah, we met his party. You introduced us. Remember?” I asked but she shook her head.

“’Course she doesn’t,” James angrily from behind us, “She was fuck drunk.” Woah, unnecessary swearing. Lily let out a nervous laugh and glanced sideways at Callum but he was copying down notes from Professor Flitwick. “I don’t understand why you kept pouring the firewhisky into her, Smith, even though she was clearly drunk.”

“Shut up will you, Potter? You just can’t stand that Lily doesn’t like you,” Callum sneered back.

Woah, this guy clearly had some attitude. Nobody said something like that to James Potter about Lily. Nobody.

“Will you both please be quite? I can’t hear what Professor Flitwick’s saying,” Lily said diplomatically, pretending that she hadn’t heard either James or Smith.

I inwardly sighed and realised why Lily almost never got asked out: because James would then continually harass the guy. I slowly felt myself daze of until a piece of parchment landed on my desk. It was from Alice.

Did James just get insulted out loud and Smith got away with it?

So Alice was thinking the same thing as I was. I wrote my reply and tossed it back to her.

Yeah, I think so. But did Lily totally ignore Callum’s douche baggy-ness moment?

I know, right? Lily must really like him to not hex him like she would hex James.
Lily and Smith? But he’s a Hufflepuff!

He’s an EVIL Hufflepuff. Aren’t they supposed to be like really nice or something?

I don’t know. Maybe? Or maybe he’s a Slytherin in disguise?

Argh, this is too difficult. Talk to you after class.

I scrunched up the note and set it on fire with my wand while Professor Flitwick wasn't looking, best not to keep any evidence.

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"So what's with Lily?" I said as class ended.

"I don't know. But I don't like Smith," Alice replied as she swung her bag over her shoulder. We were both going back to our dorm. Lily said she was meeting that Slytherin, Snape, down near the lake.

"Neither. I mean, what kind of guy gets some poor girl that drunk that she can’t even walk up a staircase by herself?" I replied. We walked in silence, both lost in our own thoughts.

"So how're things with Frank?" I asked.

"Oh, they're great," she said with a sappy grin on her face, "We're going together to the next Hogsmeade. You reckon Smith'll ask Lily?"

"Definitely." I was certain. Suddenly we heard a dull thud from around the corner.

"What was that?" Alice said as someone around the corner said,

"You stay away from her." A second voice said,

"And if I don't? What are you going to do, Potter?" Oh, so it was Smith talking to James.

Alice nudged me with wide eyes and mouthed,
"What do we do?" I put my finger to my lips and flattened myself against the wall and kept listening.

"I'll hex you until you're dead," Potter.

"You couldn't even if you tried," Smith.

"You're a Hufflepuff, Smith. You would know a jelly leg jinx from a locking one," Potter.

"You think you're so clever, don't you Potter?' Smith.

"But you know what? Lily isn't going to stand for your shit forever," Smith again, "One day she's going to realise what a little fucker you are."

"You shut up, Smith. You don't even like Lily! You're doing this to get back at me for that time I humiliated you in front of the school," Potter countered.

"Oh, you are so up yourself. Just because wittle Jamie Potty wuvs Lily Evans he thinks he can keep other guys away from her. Well you know what, Potter? One day, she's gonna find someone who really deserves her and it's not going to be you. One day, you're going to have to watch her walk down the aisle towards another ma-" Smith was cut off by what sounded like a really really hard punch.

"Shut the fuck up, Smith. You shut up. You have no idea what it feels like to love a girl for four years and get rejected every time by her. You have no idea what that feels like," Potter said.

"Yeah, you're right. I don’t because the first time I asked her, she said yes. Me and Lily are going to Hogsmeade together next time there is a trip." Smith replied.

"What?!" James roared so hard that it hurt from standing this far away. I was thinking the same thing. Smith had already asked Lily?

"You heard me, Potter," Smith sounded very calm, "Me and Lily Evans are going to Hogsmeade together."

"But-but why?" Potter spluttered.

"Because she likes me. You just can't stand that Lily might actually like someone other than you, Potter. You can't stand that after all these years of trying, she still hates you. But guess what James fucking Potter? If you supposedly love Lily so much, then why must she be with you if she hates you so much?" Smith continued his rant,
"If you love Lily so much then wouldn't it better if she were just happy? At least she's happy with me, Potter. She won't stop yelling around you and you make her angry."

Smith sounded...ugly. I wasn't sure if any word would sound ugly but it was the only way to describe it.

"What are you implying, Smith?" Potter growled back.

"Too dumb to figure it out, Potter? Well, have you ever thought that she might be happier with someone other than you? That maybe you might not be the best for her? Or that you might not even love her, you just want her ?" Smith sneered.

There was no reply but instead there were footsteps coming towards us.
Alice grabbed my arm and we sprinted the other way.

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~Sirius' POV~

"Prongs! Where have you been, mate? I exclaimed as James walked into our dorm." We've been waiting for you for forever. We need to figure out the details for the next full moon!"

James stormed into the bathroom with a look of death across his face. He slammed the door behind him.

"Dude, what did I say?" I said to Peter.

"Dunno, Evans probably just said no to him again," he said as he crouched over some Transfiguration essay. I heard the shower turn on full blast. Figures, for some reason Prongs enjoys taking showers when he's really pissed off.

"Anyways, so what do I say this time?" Moony asked.

"Uhhh, last time it was your aunty was getting married, so how about this time you're Mum's really sick?" I suggested.

"Do you think that maybe some one's going to notice, though? I mean, I disappear every month for a different reason. Somebody's bound to connect the dots..." Remus trailed off.

James came out of the shower, still dripping wet and with only a towel on.
"Prongs, cover up," Remus said.

"Shut up, Remus," James snapped and shoved open his trunk and ripped out the first shirt he could find. What's up his arse?

"Mate, what's up?" Peter asked. His essay was now more than 1 foot long. This was almost a record for Peter.

James just straightened and marched back to the bathroom to put on his clothes.

"Padfoot," Remus said. Eventually, I realised he was waiting for a reply.

"What?"

"Don't 'what' me, Sirius. What's with Prongs?" He sighed.

"I dunno. He'll get over it. He always does," I brushed it off. James acting all moody was actually quite common. Usually it happened after Lily says no to him or after he sees her walking with Snivellus.

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~James' POV~

Hogsmeade was my favourite thing. I looked forward to it every time. I look forward to getting up my hopes that, finally, Lily might say yes to going with me.

And then Smith had to go ruin it for me.

I meant what I said when I punched him. I really did.

I'm willing to bet 10 Galleons that he doesn't know what it feels like to be rejected over and over and over again. By the same girl who he's loved for what feels like forever.

Sirius always asks me why I like her so much and I don't really know. There's this thing that just...shines about her, you know? Like every time I see her I feel like smiling until my jaw breaks, even when she's yelling her lungs out at me.

She just makes me happy. I mean, I practically live just to see her.

I don't really get why she yells at me and everything. I mean, it's not like I actually did something wrong. So, okay, I hexed a few Slytherin's, but they're evil.

I sat on the bathroom floor with the towel around my waist and my fresh clothes strewn around me wondering if perhaps Smith was right.

Did I love Lily? Yes.

Did I want to see her happy? Yes.

Would I do anything for Lily to be happy? Yes.

Even if that meant her not being with me? No. Yes. Maybe.

I wanted her to be happy but happy with being with me. But maybe her being unhappy with me is a bad thing and maybe it would be better to see her have a good relationship with some other guy. Was that too much to ask? According to Smith it was.

According to Smith. What kind of excuse is that? Smith is just some delusional Hufflepuff who thinks he can win over my Lily.

But that sounded all so wrong. She wasn't 'my Lily', she wasn't anyone's Lily. She was her own person. She's not some object that can be owned.

But I wanted her to be happy and that's what counted. Right?

Chapter 8: Real love?
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~Alexis' POV~

“Hogsmeade tomorrow!” Lily sang as she danced into the common room with Remus behind her.

“Who are you guys going with?” She asked.

“Frank,” Alice said.

“Oh, that’s great, so I get to go by myself.” I hate going to Hogsmeade by myself. What was the point of shopping and drinking butterbeer by yourself?

“Nawww, Alexis. I’m sure it’ll be fun,” Lily tried to comfort me.

“It’s okay, I plan on spending all my time at Honeydukes and buying copious amounts of chocolate,” I said.

“Yay! Chocolate for the win!” Remus did a fist pump. Ha, who knew this guy liked chocolate? I thought guys preferred lollies or something...

“You like chocolate, Remus?” I asked.

“’Course he does. He doesn’t stop eating it,” Sirius said as he walked up to us. James was trailing along behind him, staring at the ground, “I think maybe he’s addicted.”

“I’m not addicted, Padfoot. I merely enjoy eating the sweet delightful substance,” okay, so Remus could use a couple of long words and sound really posh. “But then again, who doesn’t?”

“James doesn’t,” Lily said suddenly. James didn’t say anything but just stared at the floor. Lily was staring at James.

“Sirius, what’s up with James?” I asked.

“Dunno, he’s been like that for the whole week,” Sirius shrugged.

“James?” I asked. No reply. “James?”

“What?!” he snapped at me. Okaaay, why is James so pissed at me?

“Woah, she just said your name, Prongs. What’s been with you lately?” Sirius said. James looked up at Sirius blankly then turned and walked up the stairs to his dorm.

“Okaaay, then,” I said as an awkward silence descended. Peter shifted his weight nervously-when did he get here?- and said,
“Well, I’m off then. Got a Transfig essay to do.” He then scrambled up the stairs after James.

“Soooo...” Lily said trying to break the awkward silence, “Who are you guys going to Hogsmeade with?”

“We Marauders are all going together,” Remus replied. Alice piped up,

“Oh, that’s great. Alexis is going to be all alone! Now she can go with you guys!” Uhhh, I didn’t want to go to Hogsmeade with the Marauders.

“Um, it’s okay guys. I’ll just go by myself,” I mumbled.

“What? No, you can’t go to Hogsmeade by yourself. You are coming with us,” Sirius exclaimed.

“Yeah, Alexis, come with us!” Remus said.

By Merlin’s beard, Alice is going to pay.

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~James' POV~

I walked up the stairs, my feet dragging up the staircase. I heard Peter come up the staircase behind me.

“James?” he asked. I couldn’t get mad at him. He was just too damn nice to everyone. Even if he was kind of dumb, I couldn’t get angry at him.

“Yeah?”

“What’s wrong?” he asked. That’s all anyone has asked me in the past few weeks.

What’s wrong?

Are you alright, Prongs?

Is there anything bothering you, Mr Potter?


Nothing was wrong. I was just fine. There was nothing bothering me.

“Nothing, Pete,” I sighed.

“Okay, well, if you ever want to talk, I’m here,” he said.

“Thanks mate, but I’m fine,” I replied. I picked up my towel and went into the bathroom. I sat down on the floor with my back on the door.

From this position, I could see a sliver of blue sky from the tiny window above the toilet. I loved the blue sky. It was what I saw when I was playing Quidditch and looking for the Snitch. It was freedom.

Suddenly I felt really dizzy. I lent my head back on the cool door and stared up at the ceiling. The world blurred and spun.

I felt something hot run down my face and I realised it was tears.

Stupid Callum Smith had taken the one thing I always wanted: Lily.

But did I really love Lily?

How can someone be in love with someone else for over four years when the feeling wasn't mutual? Was that even possible? Was it really love? What did real love even feel like?

Or was it just infatuation?

Yes, it must be. Sirius has been telling me for ages that it wasn't love. But I do love her, don't I? That's what I've been saying for the last couple of years.

Stupid Smith stole her from me.

Anger and rage filled me but at the same time I felt so desperate and helpless.

I stood up unsteadily and stumbled towards the cabinet above the sink and ripped open the door, not really knowing what I was looking for but I knew it had to be sharp.

I saw bottles and bottle and more bottles. Angrily I swept them all of them shelf and let them clatter noisily to the ground.

"Prongs, what are you doing in there?" I heard Remus call from outside the door. I let him wonder as I continued searching on the next shelf.

My eyes finally landed on a razor. Using my wand, I dismantled it and got the blade.

I shoved my sleeve up to my elbow to expose the underside of my wrist. For a few seconds, I stared blankly at my wrist and the razor.

I'd heard about the muggle girl living next door who harmed herself...

I lowered the razor towards my wrist.

But something stopped me. Something said in the back of my mind Lily means everything to you. Loosing her is devastating, but it shouldn't come to this. This isn't the answer.

The voice made me stop and think for a second.

One second merged into a minute.

A minute merged into moments.

Eventually my shallow ragged breathing deepened and slowed.

The boiling anger and rage subsided and soon I couldn't even remember why I had wanted to hurt myself so badly.

So yeah, I liked Lily. But was it real love? Real love fighting for?

But how would I know what real love feels like? Mum was always going on about 'puppy love' and how young people fall into it and they think it's real love but it's not.

Yes, that must be it. Puppy love. I wasn't in love with Lily. It was just puppy love. A crush. No more and no less.

It was just a childhood crush that had gone on for too long.

I was over it.

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~Alexis' POV~

"ALICE! You are so dead!" I yelled as soon as we walked into our room.

"What?" she asked innocently.

"Don't what me! Now I have to spend my weekend with the Marauders!" I squealed.

"Yeah, but you get to spend it with James and Remus," she winked at me, "and Sirius."

"So?" they were Marauders. They were eeeevil.

"They're hot," she said and winked again.

"Alice!" Lily said, shocked.

"What? They are," Alice reasoned.

"Yeah...but-but..."she just trailed off.

"But nothing, Lils," Alice stuck her tongue out at her, "James is hot in his adorable I-love-Lily-way. Sirius is just plain hot. Remus is hot in his quite booky way. And Peter...well..."

"Yeah let's not go there!" I laughed.

"That's so not true! James I-love-Lily way is not adorable!" she squeeled.

"Yes it is and you know it Lily Evans!" Alice said.

"No it's not! It is so annoying the way he hangs around me and constantly drives me insane and I just wish he would leave me alone!" I yelled.

"Alice," I said, "Our dearest Lily has a little crush on Jamesie!"

Alice burst out laughing with me. Lily just sat there with a shocked expression on her face.

"What are you guys talking about? He's...James Potter. He makes my life hell," she protested.

"Sure thing, Lils. You keep telling yourself that," Alice snorted. Right about at this point she was laughing so hard she fell of her bed.

Suddenly Lily groaned and put her head in her hands.

"What's wrong, Lils?" I asked.

"Oh Merlin, is it really that obvious?" she said. Alice froze, mid laugh on the floor.

"What did you just say?" she asked still in her half-way-through-laughing pose.

"Is it really that obvious that I like him?" Lily mumbled from between her hands.

"Merlin's beard! You admitted it! Lily Evans likes James Potter!" Alice squealed as she jumped up and gave Lily a hug. Suddenly Lily dropped a bomb on us,
"But what am I going to do about Callum?"

"Forget about him. He's a douche bag anyways," I suggested.

"Alexis! Seriously, what am I going to do? Hogsmeade is this weekend and I'm going with him!" she cried.

"Just go with it. It's only one date with Smith. He might not even want to go with you again. We'll sort it out later."


Chapter 9: Shock horror
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a.n. here are the quotes from the book (J. K. Rowlings 'Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban' pages 63 and 64) that I used in this chapter.

"Well, look who it is,"

"Potty and the Weasel."

"I heard your father finally got his hands on some gold this summer, Weasley. Did your mother die of shock?"

"Who's that?"

The rest of the talking parts in the first chunk of italicised writing follows the conversation between Harry, Ron and Hermione on the train to Hogwarts quite closely. I wanted to use what they actually said but the chapter initially got rejected for using too many quotes form the book.


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~Alexis' POV~

He was almost 100% sure he was dreaming. He kept hearing the voice of his long-gone friends: friends that he had not seen in over 14 years and would certainly never seen again, so Remus Lupin settled in his seat and savoured being back when he was 13.

"Should wake him up?" No, Peter. Please don't. I want to be in this moment forever.

"He looks like he needs some food." Obviously, Peter, I'm always hungry!

"Um-Professor?Excuse me?" wait-Lily was in the compartment with them? Of course, they were probably in here to annoy her in the first place. But who's the Professor?

"Don't worry dear. If he's hungry when he wakes, I'll be up the front. He can come up and getting something from there" Ahhh, yes, the trolley witch. James and Sirius always had fun flirting with her.

"He is asleep, isn't he? I mean-he hasn't died or something?" trust Peter to think of something stupid like that- of course he wasn't dead.

"No, no, his chest is going up and down. He's breathing," there's the sensible Lily I know. Always looking and coming to reasonable conclusions.

The conversation turned to Quidditch- a topic I wasn't very savvy in, so I just enjoyed the voices of his friends wash over me.

Suddenly, I heard the compartment door open.

"Well, look who it is," I would know that nasally voice anywhere. It was Malfoy.

"Potty and the Weasel." Wait-what?

"I heard your father finally got his hands on some gold this summer, Weasley. Did your mother die of shock?" Remus chocked on his own saliva. If this wasn't his friends, then who were they?

"Who's that?" I just had the same thought, Malfoy.

"New teacher. Didn't you know?" Again with the new teach thing! Why would James and Sirius choose a compartment with a professor in it?

"As you were saying, Malfoy...?"

"Let's go." Remus heard the door of the compartment slide shut.

Even though he thought he was dreaming, Remus felt the lightest he had in years. He had been transported back to his own blissful schooling days and for a few moments,

Remus Lupin felt truly happy.


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~Alexis' POV~

I woke up with sun streaming into my eyes. Damn, I had forgotten to close the curtains. I rolled out of bed and groaned.

What was that dream? I knew I was dreaming from Remus' point of view but who were all the other characters? Why hadn't he seen his friends in over 14 years?

Today was Hogsmeade. Great, I get to spend the whole day with the Marauders because Alice couldn't keep her mouth shut.

I stumbled down to breakfast, still half absorbed in my dream.

What was with the whole Remus-not-seeing-his-friends-in-14-years thingo? Did he do something really horrible to make them hate him? And who was the Professor?

I shovelled food in my mouth quickly. Maybe if I snuck out to Hogsmeade quickly, I wouldn't have to go with the Marauders.

"Rosie!" Sirius called as him and the other three walked in. Ugh, no such luck with dodging them. He slung his arm around my shoulders and winked at me, "Today is your lucky day, m'dear. You're coming to Hogsmeade with us!"

"Ugh, do I have to?" I whined.

"What?" James said with a mock shocked expression, "A girl not wanting to spend Hogsmeade with all four Marauders?"

"Shock horror!" Remus exclaimed with wide eyes. I thought he was supposed to be the 'quite booky one'?

"Well, it look's like I don't really have a choice anymore..." I trailed off.

"Of course you don't, Rosie," James said.

"Oh Merlin. Don't you start on the whole Rosie thing to," I rolled my eyes.

"What, it's a nice name!" Sirius exclaimed.

"Sirius, it's not even my name," I said and got up to go back to my dorm so I could go help Alice and Lily get ready.

Unfortunately, Sirius decided it would be a good idea to tackle me to the ground for some reason.

"Don't think you can escape us, Rosie!" he yelled. Of course I wasn't trying to escape! Cough cough.

"What the hell, Sirius?" I cried as he fell on top of me. All the air whooshed out of my lungs. He rolled over a grinned at me.

"You can't escape!" he said with a wink. I think I've mentioned that before but I will say it again for extra effect: Merlin, Sirius Black winking is totally sexy.

"We'll be here waiting for you!" Because that wasn't a pedo-ish statement at all.

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~Sirius' POV~

I sat on the floor of the Great Hall watching Alexis walk out.

"Oh, Padfoot, my friend. You so have it bad for her," Prongs said from the table up above.

"Shock horror!"

"Moony, you have to stop saying that," I said to him as I got up and sat back down at the table.

"Shock horror!" he said again.

"Yep, it must definitely getting close to full moon," I said.

"Shock horror!" leaked from his mouth. I glared at him and he gave me a loopy grin, "I'm not the one in luuuurve with Alexis!"

"What? Remus, talk English!" I exclaimed.

"Dude, you tackled her to the ground... and then winked at her," Remus said, obviously trying to imply something.

"Yeah, so? I was joking around with her," I explained.

"Nope, you were flirting with her," James corrected me.

"No I wasn't."

"Yes you were."

"No I wasn't."

"Yes you were." That was Peter this time.

"Oh shut it, Wormtail."

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~Alexis' POV~

"Thanks, Alice," I mumbled to no one as I opened the door. I really wasn't over having to go to Hogsmeade with the Marauders.

"That's okay," a voice said as Alice materialised out of the bathroom. She did a little twirl and said,

"How do I look?" She was wearing a red floral dress with a black waist belt and black combat boots.

"You look amazing," I smiled, "Where's Lily?"

"Right here!" she said as she ripped open her bed curtains and jumped into the middle of the room, "So, Alice and Frank. Me and Callum. And you and the Marauders!" Both Alice and Lily let out manic laughs.

"Oh shut it you two. I will get my timely revenge!" I gave them my fake evil laugh, "mwa ha ha ha ha-"

"Oh shush, you. Hurry up and get changed. Hurry, hurry, hurry!" Alice said as she clapped her hands in time.

"Somebody's excited!" Lily said as she put up her hair.

"Not me," I said. Lily rolled her eyes.

"Come on, you bum. Let's go." I sighed, resigned to my fate and followed them out.

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So I hate to admit it, but Hogsmeade with the Marauders actually wasn't that bad.

We went to Honeydukes and bought a ton of chocolate. Actually Remus bought a ton of chocolate and I bought a few bars. No joke. That dude bought so much chocolate that he had to shrink it and he still carried two bags full.

We went to Zonko's while James and Sirius gave me a running commentary about which products had featured in which prank.

Then we went to The Three Broomsticks to warm up and have a butterbeer.

"Sirius, you coming over to mine again from Christmas break?" James asked Sirius.

"Yep. Like always, man," he replied.

"Don't you spend Christmas with your family, Sirius?" I asked, puzzled. He let out a bark-like laugh.

"Merlin, Rosie. What kind of question is that?" he said.

"Uh...a legit one?" I was really confused.

"Wow, you really don't know do you?" James said.

"Shock horror!" Remus said.

"Okay, Remus. Shut up, please? It was funny at the start and now it's just annoying." James sighed. Remus just laughed. Yep, definitely cuckoo.

"Have you heard of The Most Ancient and Noble House of Black?" Sirius asked. I shook my head, "Well, it's my family. They're pureblood, as you so graciously pointed out in our first detention together. When I got put into Gryffindor, they saw me as a blood traitor, because I was supposed to go into Slytherin and be their perfect first born, you
know?"

"That sounds...not great," I wasn't sure what I was meant to say.

"Yeah, well, that's they're loss," he snorted.

"What about you, James? You're a pure blood, yeah? What about your parents?" I asked.

"They don't mind. They're not pureblood extremists so they let Sirius stay at our house and they don't care who I make friends with," he shrugged.

"Wait, so Sirius lives at your house, not just at Christmas time?" I asked.

"Yep. It's great; my best friend lives with me."

"Wow, I feel sorry for your parents at holiday time."

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~James' POV~

"We practically have free reign on the house!" I told her and laughed. The sound was mechanical and fake. I wondered if anyone noticed...or if it was just me.

"Don't your parents ground you or something?" she asked me.

"Nup. Mum and dad are both aurors so they're out a lot of the time. When they're actually home, they're dead to the world asleep," I replied.

"Shock horror!" Remus said and let out a loopy laugh. Yep, it was definitely getting close to the full moon.

"That's so cool! I would love my dad to be an auror! Although he is a muggle..." she laughed.

"So what does your dad do?" Remus asked her.

"He owns his own restaurant down the road from my house. It's called Little Italy," she said.
"No way! Little Italy on Whitings Lane?" he gasped. Alexis nodded. "I love that place!"

Soon the others where in their own little conversation about Italian food.

My eyes wondered over to Lily's table.

Correction: Lily and Callum's table. They were making out like there was no tomorrow. It was their first date and they were all ready all over each other.

I guess Smith wanted to rub it in my face that Lily liked him better than she liked me.

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~Alexis' POV~

Remus was just telling me about how he loved chocolate gelato when I saw James staring at something just behind Peter.

I followed his gazed and saw Lily sucking face with Callum. What in Merlin's name was she doing?

I thought she liked James!?!? But now she was making out with Callum?

A couple of tables down, I saw Alice staring puzzledly at the couple. Her head whipped around and saw me staring. She got up and headed to the bathroom. I followed her.

"What does Lily think she's playing at?" I hissed when I'd finally caught up with her.

"I don't know! Oh Merlin, you do realise that Smith's probably going to ask her back here the next time Hogsmeade comes around?" she said.

"Well that...complicates things...what do we do?" I murmured. I was so confused. Alice sighed and said,

"There's nothing we can do, short of dragging her right out of here."

"So what do we do?"

"Watch her dig herself into a shit deep hole?"

"She is so going to kill us later for letting her."

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"So Alexis..." James said with a sip of his butterbeer as I sat back down at the table, "you got a boyfriend?" I almost choked. Since when was James interested in my love life? And James freakin Potter at that.

"Nope," I said.

"Shock horror!" Remus exclaimed. I shot him a glare,

"Gee, thanks Remus."

"There is just a little someone I know who is- let's just say...interested in you," James said with a grin.

"Wow. That makes me sound like a cow at a farmers market. That farmer is interested at that cow," I said as I pulled a face. Oh Merlin, I did not just make a comment about cows and farmers to the Marauders.

"Okaaaay...but are you interested?" he asked.

"Uhhh. Well who's the guy?" I asked.

"It's a secret."

"Well, how can I be interested in a guy when I don't know who he is?"

Luckily James momentarily halted his interrogation when he noticed Callum get up from his table and make his way over to Madame Rosemerta to buy some more butterbeer.

"Stop drooling, Prongs," Sirius said.

"Yeah, man," Peter agreed, "You didn't even ask her out this time!"

"Ahh...well you see, Peter, I don't like Lily anymore." What. The. Hell.

Just then Mary and Dorcas, the two other girls in our dorm, pushed past our table almost sending Peter's butterbeer flying all over him. Oh crap, they better not have heard James or they could definitely do some damage via the rumour mill.

"Shock horror!" Remus exclaimed. I don't think he was actually listening to the conversation anymore. I think he was just saying 'shock horror' for fun. Remus was seriously messed in the head.

"Wait, what?" Peter asked. I guess he really was the slow one.

"You heard me. I don't like Lily anymore," he said casually. There was silence at out table.

"What? Don't look at me like that Remus," he continued, "I realised that is was just a crush. And Lily's never going to like me, so I may as well move on."

Silence.

"I mean it's been four years and she still hates me," he ranted on, "so what's the point, right?"

Sirius slapped James on the back and congratulated him for moving on.

I was stunned. Shocked.

Lily had just started liking James back but she's making out with Smith instead and James actually doesn't like her any more?

Shock horror. Oh dear, now I'm starting on it too.

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"WHAT THE HELL, LILY?!?" I shrieked when Lily finally walked in from her date with Smith. The guys and I had come back about an hour ago and Alice not long after.

But Lily just waltzed past me a flopped on her bed with a sigh and closed her eyes. Alice and I went and stood over her, waiting for an answer.

Finally she noticed us and said,

"It was amazing." We glared at her. "What? Was I not supposed to enjoy it?"

"Lily..." Alice whispered, "I thought you liked James?"

"I do," she said.

"SO WHAT IN MERLIN'S NAME WERE YOU DOING SNOGGING SMITH?!?" she cried. She looked like she was about to bitch slap Lily.

"What? Oh that...hmmm...it was amazing, Alice. Wonderful," okay, what happened to our level headed Lily Evans? Who stole her and replaced her with this bimbo?

Alice nudged me and signalled that we should talk outside.

"What-" I shooshed her and dragged her downstairs to the common room where, strangely, there was nobody.

"What in Merlin's name does Lily think she's doing?" Alice asked me.

"Well, at this stage, I doubt she's thinking very much at all," I said.

"No shit. What's with all her...gushiness?" Alice said.

Just then the portrait door swung open. Dorcas and Mary walked in. Alice and I abruptly stopped talking as they walked past.

"How was your Hogsmeade trip, Alexis?" Mary giggled.

"Yeah, we saw you were sitting with the Marauders," Dorcas said.

"We also heard that James isn't chasing after Lily anymore!" Mary fake whispered. "Is that true?"

"Um, I don't know, Mary. Why don't you ask him yourself?" I replied, not quite knowing where the conversation was heading.

"Oh trust me, Alexis. I will," she said with a shrill laugh. Then she and her crony went to walk out of the Gryffindor Tower (what was the point of entering in the first place?).

"Hey, Mary, house rule: no dating other Quidditch team members, especially the captain!" Alice yelled after them.

"But rules are meant to be broken!" She yelled back.

Chapter 10: Side effects
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~Alexis' POV~

A few days after Hogsmeade was the first Quidditch match of the season. It was Gryffindor against Slytherin. It was also the day that my second ever letter from Dad came by owl. It was getting chilly as winter came so I had my favourite purple scarf that Mum had knitted me before she...went.

Dear Alex,
Perhaps you should speak to the captain? I know how much you love Quidditch and if you're good enough, I don't see why he (or she) shouldn't let you onto the team, even if you missed tryouts.

I remember when you were three and you had a little toy broom that you loved going on. It would barely fly high enough that your feet wouldn’t touch the ground. Once it was windy outside and you mother said it wouldn’t be safe but you insisted that you would be fine and then got on the broom.

I remember when a big gust of wind came along and pushed you off your broom. You fell on a rock and you were crying so hard and there was quite a lot of blood which made you scared. We had to take you to St Mungo’s to get that massive gash in your leg healed. You were crying so hard but then we went to Floreen Fortescue’s and we got you a triple chocolate mint ice cream and then you were all happy and smiley. I miss those days. I really do.

You never mentioned whether you would like to be a bridesmaid or not. Rebecca the dresses will be purple. I think that will suit you every well.

Anyway, the lunchtime crowd is coming in, so I must go.

With love,
Dad.


"Not going to the match?" said a voice. I looked up: it was Remus. I smiled and shook my head.

"I could ask the same of you," I replied.

"Well, I am going to watch. James and Sirius would kill me if I didn't go to see them play. I'm just here to pick up a few books," he explained, "You should come."

"I don't know...are James and Sirius still hell bent on me playing for Gryffindor?" I asked hesitantly.

"I don't think so," Remus laughed, "But if that's what you're worried about: I'll protect you!" he said in a grand voice and a wide flourish of his arms.

I laughed. In the past few days, Remus had been looking sick. He was pale and didn't eat much and not to mention his 'shock horror's. It was good to see he had recovered from whatever it was.

"Well, then, let's go!" I shoved Dad's letter in my bag. It could wait.

Remus and I found Peter who had saved a spot for Remus but not me. The three of us ended up squished together on two seats.

The players from each team flew out and James and the Slytherin captain shook hands. The first Quidditch match of the season had begun.

Gryffindor was up 80 points to 70 when things became frighteningly familiar.

"And Potter has spotted the snitch. Where is he looking? There it is! There on the ground. Potter makes a dive for it...damn, he misses...Malfoy from Slytherin aims for a throw at the goal...10 points to Slytherin...it’s now 80 points to each house ...And Potter’s seen the snitch again, can he catch it this time...Rosier from Slytherin slams into Potter. Foul play! No fair!... Gryffindor’s Humphrey passes the quaffle to McDonald...Potter’s reaching out for the snitch! Is it going to be third time lucky?! YES, YES IT IS! Gryffindor’s won the match 230 to 90 points! They smashed Slytherin! "

The crowd let out a huge roar and echoing sounds of 'Go, go Gryffindor' could be heard all around the pitch but I felt dizzy. I looked down at the pitch. Big mistake. From up here, everything was so tiny on the ground. It would be so easy to just fall out of the stands. On little slip and-

"Alexis?" Remus shouted over the din, "Are you all right?"

And that was the last thing I heard before everything went black.

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Opened my eyes and found myself in the Hospital Wing. Professor Dumbledore was the only one sitting beside my bed.

"Miss Rose, how good to see you awake again," he said.

"Professor Dumbledore..." I mumbled and sat up in my bed.

"Now, perhaps you would like to tell me what happened?" he asked.

"I fainted, I think," I said.

"Yes, it would seem so. Madame Pomfrey says you will be just fine but do you by any chance know the reason as to why you fainted?" he said as he peered into my eyes. It was like he could look right into my soul.

"Um, no Professor," I don't know why I lied to him.

"You did See something?" he said as he squinted at me. I quickly looked away.

"Miss Rose, it is imperative that you tell me of your visions. I'm certain that I've told you before that you must come and tell me right away if you have one," he said as he leaned back in his chair.

I bit my lip. How did he know that I had one of my visions just before I fainted? Or more that one of my visions became true?

I gulped and said,
"Professor...um...you see...just before I fainted, something I Saw a while back became true." I looked up nervously to meet his gaze.

"Miss Rose," he said softly, "what would this vision be?"

"One where Gryffindor beat Slytherin, sir. Right from when James spotted the Snitch, all the way to Gryffindor winning," I said.

"Oh yes, you told me that one a few months ago. Have you seen anything else?" he asked.

"Yes," I explained to him how I saw James propose to Lily and the confusing one where Remus was in a carriage with his friends, which didn't make much sense.

"I see," he said when I had finished explaining, "Thank you very much for sharing this with me. Now, I have other matters to attend to but please do come see me if you See something else."

He gave me instructions on how to get to his office and he gave me the password.
Finally he said,
"You are free to go when Madame Pomfrey says you can. I do hope it's soon because your friends are making and awful lot of noise outside." And with that, he walked out of the Hospital Wing.

Madame Pomfrey bustled to give me some lunch and some foul tasting medicine then she told me I was free to go.

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~Sirius' POV~

"But we are her friends," Alice said.

"I'm sorry dear, but at the moment I don't think Alexis is up for visitors. She's not even conscious," Madame Pomfrey said sympathetically.

We all started talking over the top of each other.

"Well then-"

"-not conscious-

"-see her-"

"-not make a difference!"

"Yes, well..." Madame Pomfrey was clearly getting flustered.

"Awww, come on Poppy!" James said with a wide smile, "We just-" he was interrupted by the door opening and Dumbledore stepping out.

"Professor Dumbledore!" Madame Pomfrey took the chance to get the heat off her, "Is it all right if I let these children in to see Miss Rose?"

"I don't know, Poppy. You are in charge and I fully trust your judgement as to whether Miss Rose is up for it," Dumbledore said with twinkling eyes. He then left.

I loved this guy. He was so chill and everything.

"So can we see her?" Remus asked.

"Yeah, Poppy. Please?" I asked.

Madame Pomfrey mumbled something about 'children these days' being 'persistent' but then said louder,
"Let me check on her. If she's good to go then I'll send her outside. I don't want you disturbing the other patients."

"She better bloody well let us see her," Lily said fiercely.

"I'm sure she will," Prongs said simply.

What happened to him? He used to be all over her and act like the biggest retard around her but know he doesn't even look twice at her...

The doors to the Hospital Wing swung open and out stepped Rosie. Lily and Alice both squealed and hugged her and just generally fussed over her.

Eventually she managed to untangle herself from their hugs and saw us guys standing awkwardly around them.

"Congratulations on winning James and Sirius!" she said.

"Stuff winning, are you okay?' I said.

"Sure, fine and dandy!" she exclaimed said and then giggled. Since when did Rosie giggle?

"Dandy means your gay," Remus said.

"I think Sirius is gay!" she giggled.

"What?" I said, confused. "Since when?"

"Gay for James that is!" she laughingly corrected herself.

Madame Pomfrey emerged from behind the Hospital Wing doors and said,
"I think she may be like this for a little while. It's a side effect of the potions. She's fine but she'll just be a little...funny for a bit."

"I'm not funny!" she said and then went to skip of down the hall.

"Right. Not funny at all," I said.

"Do you think we should tell her there's a party in the common room tonight?" Peter asked.

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a.n. so that's chapter 10 :)
Tell me what you think of it!

marauders forever xx



Chapter 11: Butterbeer is for girls
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~Sirius' POV~

Remus had charmed the room so that music pumped from invisible speakers all around the room.

James and I had sneaked butterbeer and firewhisky from Hogsmeade and had gone to the kitchens to get food from the house elves.

And Peter...well...Peter was...actually, I don't know.

Some Ravenclaws and Hufflepuffs were here, obviously no Slytherins. And no Smith,
as per request from Prongsie.

People were dancing and drinking and eating and there were some couples in their own private little corners. A bit early in the night for that kind of stuff, I think.

The party was just getting started.

"Mate!" James said as he came up to me, "Where're the girls?"

"Right there," I pointed with my chin over to the stair case. All five of the fourth year girls were coming down together. James went over to them.

"Frank, dude, how's it going?" I said to the sixth year.

"Great," he grinned at me, "Epic party!"

"Hey," Alice said, more to Frank than me, as she walked up to us. She kissed Frank. I looked away to give them a bit of privacy. Awkward.

"I'm..uh...just going to go," I said and walked away. Not that either of them noticed.

"Moony!" I found him at the drinks table pouring himself a butterbeer, "Not man enough for firewhisky?"

"Nah mate. I'm just so girly. I thought you were the gay one with Prongs?" he said laughingly, "You want some?"

"I'll take some firewhisky." I leant over and took some.

"So," he said, "Why is Prongs dancing with Butt-chin?"

"Butt-chin? Oh, her name's Mary. And he can dance with who ever he wants," I said.

"Yeah, but do you really think he's over Lily?"

"Nope."

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~Alexis' POV~

"Al?" Lily said.

"Hmmm?"

"Why is James dancing with Mary?" I followed her gaze over to where Mary had dragged James- but it wasn't exactly like James resisted- to dance.

"I don't know, Lils."

"Why is he not over here pestering me to dance with him?" she asked, puzzled.

"Ummm..." crap crap crappety crap. What do I say? Think! Quickly, oh Merlin, know she's looking at you like your retarded. Say something, anything!

"Uhhhhh...." oh, you go, brain, "I don't know. Maybe he's trying to make you jealous?"

"You know what?"

"What?"

"I think its working." Oh for the love of Merlin, why did she have to start liking him just as he got over her?

"Ohhh..."

"Hey Alexis! Hi Lily!" Remus saved me as he came over with three butterbeers, "Want one?"

"Sure," I nodded and he passed me one. Lily took one to.

"So you girls enjoying the party?"

"Not enough dancing," Lily pulled a face.

"Well, let's dance then!" we followed Remus to the space that had been cleared of couches for dancing.

We danced to heap of songs that I didn't recognise. Eventually we had to take a break.

"Phew. Who knew dancing could be tiring?" Lily said as the three of collapsed onto a couch.

"Well, I'm going to get another butterbeer. You guys want anything?" Remus said as he got up.

"Another butterbeer would be amazing, Remus," I said as I looked up at him.

"Butterbeer here as well," Lily said as she rested her head against the back of the couch.

As Remus left, Lily turned to me and said,

"You know, I think Remus likes you."

"What?!" I said, my head jerking up so I could look at her.

"You heard me, I think Remus likes you," she repeated.

"No way."

"Mmhmm. He kept staring at you while we were dancing," Lily said.

"Really?"

"Really."

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"Come on guys, let's dance again!" I said as I tugged on their arms.

"I'm way too tired to dance, Al," Lily groaned.

"I'll dance with you!" Remus said and jumped up.

Lily gave me a look that said I told you so.

I rolled my eyes back with an accompanying look that said It's just dancing.

I followed Remus back to the 'dance floor'.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw James and Mary making out on the couch behind the drinks table. Merlin, for a guy who claimed to be in love for 4 years, he sure moves on fast.

Dancing with Remus was really fun. I thought it would be awkward without Lily because I didn't really know him, but our bonding over food at Hogsmeade seemed to have cancelled that out.

Suddenly, a slow song came on. I looked at Remus awkwardly, not knowing whether he would want to dance to this song with me.

Wow, his eyes are really golden.

And he is really tall.

"Um...dance this with me?" he asked, his eyes on the floor.

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~Sirius' POV~

I drank another firewhisky as some Ravenclaw named Emma babbled on in front of me.

"...so what do you think?" She asked.

"Oh um..." What the hell was she talking about?

"Sirius, are you okay?" She asked leaning in closer to me. This was my queue to add some corny pick up line but my eyes drifted to over her shoulder.

"I think I'm going to puke," I said referring to how closely Remus and Alexis were dancing.

Emma hurriedly moved back from me, thinking that I was going to puke from the six bottles of firewhisky I'd drunk. Her eyes followed my gaze and she understood what I meant.

He even had his arms around her. WHAT WAS HE DOING?!

He knew I liked her. He was even the one to point out that I liked her. So why was he doing this?

"Why don't we dance Sirius?" She asked, but I wasn't paying attention. I pushed past her and stormed up to Remus.

I grabbed the back of his shirt and pulled him away.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" I growled.

"Um, dancing? Sirius I think you're drunk. You should go upstairs and sleep," Remus said.

"I'm not drunk! I've hardly drunk anything I'm so not drunk that I'm like sober and you only want me upstairs and out of the way so you can get with Alexis!" I shouted. I was so angry.

How could Moony have done this to me? He was supposed to be my best mate.

I drew my arm back to punch him but before I could move, he looked and me, pulled out his wand and said,
"Stupefy."

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~Alexis' POV~

"What was that?" I asked Remus.

"That was Sirius drunk," he said.

"What was with the bit about you getting with me?" I used air quotation marks when I said 'getting with me'.

"uhhh..." he hesitated, "You should ask him tomorrow."

"Tell me."

"I'm taking him upstairs now. I'll see you tomorrow?" He said as he hefted Sirius body over his shoulder and made his way to the staircase.

"Sure, bye Remus." Looking around the common room, I realised just how late it was.

The only people left were either the couples making out or a few drunks passed out in some very awkward positions, such as half on-half off the couch.

Sighing, I went back up to the dorms.

"Alexis!" Lily cried as I walked in. I looked up and saw her and Alice sitting on her bed, "you and Remus, eh?"

"What? Since when did you like Remus?" Alice shrieked.

"I don't," I rolled my eyes and plonked myself on Lily's bed, "Remus ended up stupefying Sirius."

"Wait, what? I thought you were dancing with Remus?" Lily asked.

"So you do like Remus!" Alice said triumphantly.

"No I don't! I was just dancing with him!" I said exasperatedly.

"Then why did Sirius get stupefied?" Lily asked.

"I was dancing with Remus and then a slow song came on and it was really awkward because I didn't know whether he wanted to dance to a slow song with me but then he asked me and so we did but the it was really weird because he like put his arms around me in like a hug but that's how we ended up dancing-it was like hug dancing."

I took a long breath, "We were coming to the end of the song when Sirius came up and just grabbed Remus and started yelling at him about something to do with me. He was really drunk, I think, and it was sort of getting out of hand and it looked like Sirius was going to punch Remus so Remus stupefied him."

"So Remus likes you," Lily said, "And so does Sirius."

"No," I said.

"C'mon, Al, it must have at least crossed your mind that at least Remus does," Lily said.
I was highly doubtful.

"Yeah, Al. I mean, Remus asked do slow dance with you," Alice nodded.

"No, I don’t think Remus likes me but if he does, I don't like him back. I just want to be friends," I said firmly.

"Yet you were slow dancing with him?" Lily said.

"Yeah, it was a mistake. I think I gave him the wrong impression..." I trailed off.

"What about Sirius?" Alice asked

"Sirius is Hogwarts biggest player. He doesn't like girls, he just hooks up with them," I said, hoping they would realise I hadn't actually answered Alice's question.

"You didn't answer Alice's question." Damn Lily and her brains.

"I don't know," I said truthfully.

"What do you mean you don't know?" said Alice, "It's pretty simple. You like him yes or you like him no."

"Well, he's Sirius Black," I said.

"So? Come on, Al, it’s not like we’re going to tell anyone," Alice asked.

"So...I don't want to be another one of his tissues."

"Tissues?" Ha, sometimes Lily and her brains weren't all that smart.

"Something he uses and then chucks away when he's done with them," I explained.

Alice sighed,
"You still haven't answered whether you like Sirius or not, Al."

"It's a simple yes or no," Lily added.

"Yes."

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a.n. so she finally admits she like Sirius! And what do you think of Remus dacing with Alexis and Sirius being drunk? I'd love to hear what you think :)
xo,
marauders forever xx


Chapter 12: Butt-chin and Elf-ears
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~Sirius' POV~

I woke up to find myself tied to my bed. What the fuck. I looked around the room and saw Prongs still sleeping in his bed.

"Prongs!" I tried to wake him up, "James Potter!" No sign of life.

"James James James James James!" Still nothing.

"OI PRONGSIE, LILY EVANS WANTS TO MAKE OUT WITH YOU!" he sat up immediately.

I knew it.

I knew he wasn't properly over Evans yet.

"Dude, why am I tied to the bed?" I asked.

"Don't you remember?" he replied.

"Nope. Untie me. Now. And tell me what happened," I said, still a bit groggy from last night's drinking.

"Fine," he said and started to untie me, "You were drunk and you tried to punch Remus so he stupefied you and then carried you up here and then tied you to the bed so when you woke up, you wouldn't be able to attack him while he slept."

"I tried to punch Remus? Why?"

"Because he was slow dancing with Alexis."

"WHAT?! WHY?" I demanded, now fully awake. James muttered something almost incomprehensible. Almost.

"James, I am not a douche bag. Remus is the douche bag here seeing as he's the one dancing with Alexis even though he knows I like her," I said angrily.

"Technically, Padfoot, you never admitted to liking her. You kept on denying it," James was, annoyingly, correct.

"Fuck of James. I have the biggest headache. Is Moony pissed at me?"

"Hell yeah."

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~Alexis' POV~

Lily and Alice and I were sitting and having dinner. I had successfully avoided all four Marauders for the entire day. It probably helped that it was a Sunday so we didn?t have classes.

Remus appeared at the Great Hall doors. Crap. I kept my eyes down. Maybe if I couldn't see him he couldn't see me.

No such freakin luck. He sat down next to me.

"Hey," he said. The others mumbled their replies but I kept on staring at my roast chicken.

I felt Lily nudge me under the table. I looked up at her. She flicked her eyes towards Remus indicating that he said hi. I sighed and said,

"Hi, Remus."

"Did you have fun at the party last night, Remus?" Alice asked, not so subtly. I glared at her.

"Uh, yeah," Remus grunted and piled gravy on his mashed potatoes.

"Well, I got to go," I suddenly said and with a last swig of pumpkin juice, got up to leave.

"Wait, Alexis," he said and grabbed my arm, "Can we talk?" I replied in a firm voice that no, we could not talk.

I wish. In reality, I squeaked,

"Sure." Remus got up and followed me outside the Great Hall.

"About last night," he started, "I'm really sorry. I think I may have given you the wrong impression that I liked you as more than friends but I don't and I'm really sorry that we slow danced together and I'm sorry." His eyes were fixed directly on his shoes.

"Oh thank, Merlin," I said, utterly and completely relieved. Remus looked up at me, confused. "I feel the same way Remus. I felt horrible that I might have led you on or something but that's great that you feel the same way to and I'm really sorry as well."

Remus grinned back and me and said,
"So we're cool?" I nodded. "Friends?" He held out his arms for a hug.

"Just friends," I replied and gave him a hug.

"Get a room," a gruff voice said from behind Remus. We broke apart and saw Sirius walking towards us with James.

"Padfoot, mate," Remus said and moved towards him.

"Don't mate me, Lupin. I am not your mate and you are not mine," Sirius tried to push past him into the Great Hall.

"Sirius..." I said. Maybe he would talk to me, although I wasn't sure why he was angry at Remus.

"Don't, Alexis. Just don't," he said sadly.

"James?" I asked, looking at him. He looked like he was going to say something but Sirius then gave him a look so he didn't reply.

Remus and I watched in silence as the two black haired boys left to get breakfast.
It was a shit ending to a shit day.

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~James' POV~

"Mate, you're going to have to face him sooner or later," I said to Padfoot as we walked into the Great Hall.

"I think I prefer later," Sirius said and sat down next to Alice.

"Still, you can't just keep putting it off," I reasoned.

"Watch me."

"Put what off?"? Lily asked.

"Facing Remus," I told her. Wow, this was a big improvement. I could talk to her without hitting on her or think how green her eyes were or how shiny her hair was.

But I did notice that her hair was a bit bouncier and curlier abd-

Oh Merlin. Stop.

"You should talk to him," Alice said.

"No,"? he said and reached for some broccoli. Ew, who in their right mind would voluntarily eat broccoli?

"Alexis feels really bad about what happened," Lily said.

"Bull. I saw her face when she was dancing with Remus," Sirius said, trying to keep his voice steady.

"She does, Sirius. You should talk to both of them," Lily said, almost pleading, "She feels really bad."

"She lead me on," I heard Padfoot's voice waver.

"She didn't mean to," Alice said.

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~Sirius POV~

"How do you know?" I asked them. This was a load of bull crap. Stupid me was so innocent to believe that maybe the girl I liked, liked me back, instead of just wanting to hook up with me.

"Sirius, we're her best friends," Lily said.

"Jamsie!" Butt-chin Mary cooed from the entrance of the Great Hall. Oh great, now we're probably going to have to listen to them slobbering all over each other.

"Mary!" James grinned back at her. She bent down and gave him a kiss. I looked up at the Great Hall roof.

Today, it showed the fading sunset. There were streaks of orange and red. Man, I sounded like a girl.

"Sirius," Mary shook me out of my staring, "Why are you staring at the ceiling?"

"Oh, I um...neck cramp, you know," I said and rolled my neck, pretty convincingly, if you ask me.

"Ok, well, I was wondering...you know Dorcas?" She asked.

"Yeah, the other girl who shares your dorm, right?" I replied.

"Right," she nodded, "Well...she's pretty, don't you reckon?" Ahhhh, so this was what Butt-chin was trying to do: set me up with Elf-ears.

"Uh, sure," I said, "Why?"

"Nothing," she said in a way that obviously meant the complete opposite, "But next time we go to Hogsmeade, you and Dorcas should come with me and James."

Double date with Elf-ears while James went with Butt-chin?

Hmmm...

Chapter 13: Ready for anything...
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~Alexis' POV~

"We need a girl's night," Alice said as she charged into our dorm.

It had been a week since Remus and I had fixed the awkwardness. Things with Sirius had gone downhill from there.

He wouldn't speak to either me or Remus so it made it kind of hard.

"Girls night!" Lily squealed and plonked herself right in the middle of the room. I, on the other hand, was slightly confused.

"Girls night?" I asked them.

"Yep, Dorcas and Mary both have detentions tonight so we can have our girly goss sesh," Alice nodded.

"Okay...but um, well...what do we do?" I asked nervously.

"You don't know what happens in a goss sesh?" Lily asked with an open mouth.

"Well..." I said uncomfortably, "You guys have been my only friends and that was only this year..."

"Rightio, well, I have lollies and chocolate and some special fizzy pumpkin juice so we're all set," Alice said and sat next to Lily.

I collected some of the chocolate I had bought in Hogsmeade and sat next to them.

"Okay. So, Remus, you and Sirius," Alice said and crammed a handful of Bertie Bott's Every Flavoured Beans in her mouth.

"What about us?" I asked.

"Everything. Are you and Remus going out? What's up with Sirius?" Lily asked.

"No, me and Remus are just friends. How many times do I have to tell you that? That night was just a mistake," I paused and took a sip of my fizzy pumpkin juice, "And as for Sirius...I don't know," I sighed.

"What do you mean you don't know?" Lily asked.

"Well...I'm trying to find out why he's pissed at me but he won't talk to me or Remus and when I tried to talk to James, Sirius kept hanging around so I couldn't talk to him properly and this is so complicated," I tipped my head back and drained my glass. I filled it up again.

"I tried to talk to him," Alice started. She hesitated.

"What?" I whispered, "What did he say?"

"You don't want to know," Lily said.

"Wait, you know to?" I said. She nodded, "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because you don't want to know," Lily said.

"I want to know the truth."

"He said ...you lead him on."

What?!

"WHAT?! I lead him on? ME? He"s Hogswart's bloody resident player and I lead him on?" I yelled.

"Shhhh. He can probably hear you all the way in the boy's dorms," Lily said.

"I don't fucking care. He's the most wanted guy at Hogwart's, he can get whichever girl he wants and yet he thinks I lead him on?" I said.

"Well...yeah," Alice said softly.

"B-but, why?" I asked.

"Don't you see, Al? He likes you," Lily said.

"What?!? No way. No freaking way did Sirius Black have a crush on me.

"Of course he does!" Alice cried, "Why would he get all pissy at you and Remus for slow dancing together if he didn't like you?"

"Wait, that doesn't make sense."

"Yes it does," Lily nodded, "He cares about you being single so he got protective over you when you danced with Remus so now he probably think your with Remus because neither of you have been talking with him."

"But..."

"There"s no buts, Al. You know it's true..."

"Okay, fine, let's pretend for this purpose, that he does like me...why doesn't he act like it?" I asked.

"Do you know how a guy with a crush acts, Al?" Alice asked sceptically.

"Uhhh, well...he doesn't leave her alone. Like James around Lily..." I said. My knowledge of guys was...err...limited.

"He gives her annoying nicknames, such as Rosie. He is protective over her when other boys try and take her, especially when that boy is one of their best friends. He-"

"Okay, Okay! I get your point," I cut off Alice.

"Awww, come on, Al. Tell me honestly that it hasn't crossed your mind that maybe, just maybe, Sirius likes you," Lily said.

"If he likes me then why doesn't he listen to me?" I sighed, "But enough of Sirius and Remus and me. When he's ready to talk, we'll talk. What about you and Callum, Lily?"

A soppy smile came over her face. Yuck.

"It's good," she said. I screwed up my nose. There was something fishy going on...

"You should stop leading him on," I said, point blank.

"What?" Lily said, really puzzled.

"I said that you should stop leading him on," I repeated.

"I'm not?" she looked genuinely puzzled.

"Yes you are!" Alice exclaimed, "The only reason you went to Hogsmeade in the first place was that you'd already said yes to him but you liked James and then you went and full on made out with Callum! That's really messed up, Lils."

"I know, but..." she trailed off.

"No buts, Lils. It's just plain wrong. As much as I dislike Smith, I don't think leading him on is very nice," I broke it to her.

"You don't like Callum?" she looked like I'd personally offended her.

"We hate Callum," Alice jumped in before I could say anything.

Lily looked like she was going to cry.

"And anyway, Lils, you told us, like, last week that you liked James!" I said.

"Yeah, I know, but..."

"But what?" Alice said.

"Honestly?" Lily sighed, "I don't know. I just really really like Callum but I can't exactly explain why."

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~Sirius' POV~

So here James and I were stacking books in alphabetical order, ready to be put back onto the shelf for detention.

"Hey, Prongs?? I said.

"Yeah?" he said.

"Did I do the right thing?"

"What do you mean the right thing?"

"Well, with Alexis and Remus?"

"I don't know, mate. Maybe you should talk to them. Like, I mean, I've been hearing things."

"Like what?"

"Like...that they're just friends and that Alexis didn't mean to upset you or anything..."

"Dude..." maybe I was just jumping too quickly to conclusions?

"You should talk to her," he finally said.

"I think I should...but I don't think she would want to talk to me. I've been a total idiot to her..."

"Mate, I have a plan." Oh dear, the last plan James came up with ended up in Peter and a few Hufflepuffs in the Hospital Wing for a week and Remus with hot pink dread locks.

Don't ask.

xxxxx

~Alexis' POV~

I was sitting in the common room writing a reply to the letter that Dad had sent so long ago.

Dear Dad,

It's fine if I'm not on the Quidditch team. I mean, there's always next year, right? And in the meantime, I can practice my throwing technique.

I remember that toy broom. What happened to it? It was the best broom. Speaking of brooms, I was wondering if I could get a Cleansweep? They were sooo fast.

With the wedding, could I maybe choose my own dress? I'll choose a purple one and everything.

I've got to go now.

Love, Alexis


I'd just finished writing my letter when Alice came frantically running in.

"Al!" she panted, "Quickly...Lily...in trouble..." I stood up and grabbed my wand.

"Where?" I asked. She gestured for me to follow her.

We sprinted down several floors and through numerous hallways. Alice led me to part of the castle I had never been before. There were rows rooms. Finally Alice stopped outside one.

"In there..." she panted. I peered into the room. It was dark and gloomy.

"What were you guys doing in there?" I asked.

"Just go help her!" Alice said and shoved me into the room.

I stumbled into the darkness. I heard the door slam shut behind me and I was plunged into pitch blackness.

"Lumos," I whispered and braced myself for whatever horrors Lily had gotten herself into.

Basilisks to boggarts, I was ready.

Chapter 14: ...except Sirius Black
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~Alexis POV~

I cast my light around the room. The only thing in this room was an empty couch.

"Lily?" I called softly, wondering if maybe Alice had made a mistake.

Suddenly a big whooshing sound came from the couch and Sirius appeared.

What the hell.

"Where's Lily?" I said angrily.

"She's in the kitchens. Prongs is with her getting cake," he shrugged.

"So you tricked me?"

"Well..." he shrugged again.

I spun around and went to go out but the door was locked. Alice must have done it.

"Let me out"? I said as firmly as I could. I was ready to punch a wall.

"Sorry, Al. No can do. I don't have my wand or a key to the door," he said casually.

I was a witch.

I had magic.

"Alohamora!" I said. Nothing happened. I tried again. Damn.

I leant against the door and said,
"How did you just appear?"

"Invisibility cloak," he said. My jaw dropped. Those things were really hard to find, "Prongs has one."

I slid to the floor and crossed my legs, accepting the fact that my friends had mercilessly tricked me and left me to Sirius Black. Okay, maybe that was a tad bit over the top..

"Why don' you sit here?"Sirius patted the space left on the couch.

"No."He had tricked me.

He sighed and said,
"Fine, your choice."

"So why am I in here?"I asked, even though it was quite obvious. I might as well get it over and done with.

"To talk to me."

"I figured that much, Black." We were back on last name terms.

"What's going on between you and Remus?" he asked.

"Excuse me?" I'd been trying to tell him this for the last week, but he hadn't listened to me. Why did he want to know now?

"I would like to know what is going on between you and Remus," he repeated.

"That is what I've been trying to tell you for the last week, Black," I said ans crossed my arms.

"I know and I'm sorry for ignoring you, but I would like to know," he said.

"Im surprised that James hasn'?t told you yet."

"He has..." he trailed off.

"But?" I prompted him.

"But...I want to hear it from you."

"Why don't you ask Remus?" I said quite rudely. It wasn't that I didn't like Sirius and it wasn't that I didn't want to be friends (or even more than friends) with him. It was that he had been acting like a douche bag for the last week.

Sirius sighed,
"Because I've been horrible to him and you to, Al," at least he could admit it, "I should have listened to you guys when you tried to explain things. And I've got to say, it didn't look to good from point of view. I mean, my best friend was dancing with the girl I liked and then I find them hugging...

"Wait, you liked me?" Oh crap, maybe I should have listened to Lily and Alice.

"Well, yeah..." he said like it was obvious. But it wasn't.

My resolve to be angry towards him softened. Sirius wasn?t being mean, he had just misunderstood the situation.

Perhaps that he had said he had liked me was helping....

Wait. Hold up. He HAD liked me?

"So you don't like me anymore?" I asked.

"What? Of course I still like you!? he exclaimed. He turned bright red.

Nawww, Sirius blushing was extremely cute.

"Sooo...how are we going to get out of here?" I asked, wondering if I should tell him if I liked him back.

"I don't know," he admitted, "I guess Prongs was just impatient to put his plan into action so we didn't come up with how to get out."

"Great, so we're stuck." My butt was starting to hurt from the hard floor so I got up and plopped onto the couch next to Sirius.

"At least you're stuck here with me."

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~James' POV~

"Do you think they're going to be okay?" Lily looked at me really worriedly.

"Don't worry. What's the worst that could go wrong?" I assured her. We were sitting in a corridor a few hallways away from Sirius and Alexis.

"He doesn't have his wand! Alexis could KILL HIM!" she shrieked.

"Well...I don't think she would." I couldn't even convince myself.

"You haven't seen Alexis angry. She completely over-reacts about everything," Lily said worriedly.

"It's okay. Alice will be standing guard outside. If she hears loud crashing and banging, she'll unlock the door and save Sirius. Or she might just walk in on them making out," I shrugged.

"That's gross, James," she wrinkled her nose. Merlin, she was pretty.

"Nah, it's a fact of life."

"It's still-"she was interrupted by Alice sitting walking up to us. "ALICE! YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO STAND GUARD TO MAKE SURE ALEXIS DOESN'T KILL SIRIUS!"

"Chill, Lil. Hey, that rhymes! It's fine, they've been in there for, like, five minutes and nothing happened."

"So you left?" Lily asked the obvious.

"Yeah, might as well give them their privacy," she said.

"Hey, Remus!" I spotted my fury little friend who wasn't exactly fury or little at the moment. He came towards us.

"Hey," he sat down with us, "Why are we sitting in the middle of a hallway?"

"We are waiting for Sirius and Alexis to kiss and make up," Lily clapped her hands like a kid in a candy store. Remus just raised his eyebrows.

"So does this mean I'm going to get an apology from Sirius? Or do I have to go say sorry to him because I'm just really sick of fighting with him so I might as well."

"Dunno, man. Might have to see how he goes with Alexis," I shrugged.

"Well, I'm hungry. I need some food," Alice declared and got up to go to the kitchens.

"Do you even know where they are?" Remus asked.

"Uhhh...well, no," she admitted.

"Come on, we'll show you," we all stood up, "I want cake anyway."

So of to the kitchens we went.

"Master Lupin and Master Potter! What would you like?" A little house elf named Figgie asked us.

"This is Miss Prewett and Miss Evans, Figgie," I introduced them, "Could we have some chocolate cake and some hot chocolate?" the little house elf went scurrying off to get our food.

She placed our food on a little table in the corner and found some seats for us.

"Do you think they?d have made up by now?" Alice asked as she added marshmallows to her hot chocolate.

"Depends," Lily said.

"On what?" I asked.

"How pissy Al is."

"We should probably check on them soon," Remus stuffed some cake into his
mouth, "you know, to make sure they're not both dead or something."

"Eat first, Moony," I said,

"Yeah, Remus, get your priorities right," Lily laughed.

xxxxx

After we ate our cake and hot chocolate, Remus was still hungry so we Figgie to bring us some pizza.

Then Remus stuffed his face and then we went to check on Sirius and Alexis.

"Do you think it'll be like Romeo and Juliet?" Lily asked.

"What's that?" I asked.

"It's a muggle story about two people who fall in love but then they both commit suicide because they think the other is dead," she explained.

"That is quite disturbing," I said.

Alice shushed us as we reached the room.

Oh Merlin, there was no sound coming from the room.

Alice unlocked the door and we peered inside.

And there was Sirius and Alexis sitting on the couch, wrapped up in each others arm.

She even had her head resting on his chest.

Sirius looked up and put his finger to his lips to tell us to be quite. Alexis was asleep.

Chapter 15: Let me out
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a.n. I used an epic Dumbledore quote in this chapter. It's from J. K. Rowling's Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone, page 215-
"To the well organised mind, death is but the next great adventure."
enjoy :)

xxxxx

~Sirius' POV~

Today was the big day: I'd decided I was going to ask Rosie to Hogsmeade.
 
I chucked a piece of parchment over Alexis' shoulder and onto her desk.

Hey :)


I saw a small smile spread on her face. It made me feel all fuzzy and warm on the inside.

She wrote a reply and made sure Professor Flitwick wasn't looking before levitating the parchment back to me.

Heya :D

Go to Hogsmeade with me?

Isn't that ages away?

Yeah, but I want to make sure that you don't go with anyone else <3

Sure <3

Yay! She wanted to go with me. Well, I did sort of expect it after what happened a few days ago. It actually went a lot better than I expected.

Like, I thought we'd come out being friends, which we did, but I now knew she liked me back. Which made me want to jump for joy.


Things were looking up. Except that me and Remus still weren't talking. I was really worried for him. Full moon was coming up and I didn't know how he was going to get through it without all of us.
 
Sure, he had Wormtail and I would definitely let Prongs help him, but would he want me there? Even if I wanted to be there to help him...

  Professor Flitwick droned on and on about something or other...I must have dozed off for a bit because next thing I knew he was telling me off.

"Mr Black, if I'm boring you too much perhaps you would like to perform the charm that produces water for us," Professor Flitwick said from the front of the classroom.

"Aguamenti," I said, rolling my eyes. That was one of THE easiest charms.

"Hmmm..." Flitwick said and went back to lecturing the class. His moustache twitched like a ferret. Damn, I wish Prongs was here so I could tell him about it. Oh well, I'll tell him later when he gets out of Potions and I get out of this torture.

My eyes wondered to the window. I could see Madame Hooch giving the first years a flying lesson.

I wish I was out on the Quidditch pitch. Maybe I could go when this class ended. Only another half an hour to go.

I looked over to Alexis, wondering if she would like to know about Flitwick's ferret. Her head was resting on the table: she must be asleep.

I felt another little smile creep across my face as I remembered how it felt to have her in my arms.

Suddenly, she started having little convulsions in her seat. Shit, what was going on?

"Miss Rose? What, in Merlin's name are you doing?" he said and walked over to her but she just kept on shaking.


And that was when she fell out of her seat and started having, like, a full on seizure.

The whole class erupted in a commotion. Some stupid Slytherins were sniggering at her from the corner while Lily and Alice both looked horrified and scared.

I was just so shocked. What was happening?

Professor Flitwick was muttering some sort of spell with his wand held high, presumably trying to stop whatever was happening.

Almost as quickly as it had started, it stopped. Rosie was just lying flat on her back with her muscles all loose and relaxed.

I ran up to her and knelt down.

"Rosie?" I whispered.

"Mr Black, she is unconscious," Flitwick said. Lily then asked the question on all our minds,

"What happened?"

"I'm not sure, Miss Evans...Mr Black could you please take her to the Hospital Wing?" I nodded, "You'll need to carry her and Miss Evans, please go with him."

So I picked her up, noticing how pale her face was and set off to the Hospital Wing.

xxxxx

~Alexis’ POV~

“Professor Slughorn,” McGonagall said as she walked into the dungeons, “A word with Mr Potter, if you don’t mind.”

“Of course, Minerva!” he said. A black haired boy stood up to follow her. He looked terrified.

“Please take your books to, Mr Potter. We may not be coming back,” McGonagall said.
Now armed with his books, he followed her all the to Dumbledore’s office.

“The Professor Dumbledore will see you alone,” and with that, she left.

Mr Potter looked around seemingly lost.

He reached out to knock on the door.

“Come in,” a voice called from within. He pushed open the heavy wooden doors.

“Ahhh, Mr Potter. Take a seat. Tea?” an old man with a grizzly white beard said. Mr Potter nodded.

“Now, I have some news for you. Your mother wanted to come in a deliver it herself, but I thought that would not be best,” The older man said.

Professor Dumbledore took a deep breath and slowly walked to his massive desk.

His fingers trailed on the desk, making some papers fall to the ground but he didn't seem to notice. It was like the world was spinning in slow-motion.

"To the well organised mind, death is but the next great adventure,” he said as he peered out of the window that faced the Quidditch pitch.

"Sir?" Mr Potter said, not knowing what he was trying to say.

"Your father has been in an accident,” the old man

"What kind of accident?" Mr Potter said nervously.

"They took him to St. Mungo’s but it was too late,” he said.

"What?"

"Too late to save him," he said like it was the most obvious thing in the world, "I'm so sorry."

"Professor, I'm not sure I understand you. What are you sorry for?"

"James, your father is dead."

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I'm not sure when I woke up. I sort of drifted in and out of it.

"Hurry, Sirius..."

"...Mr Black, what is going on..."

"...I don't know what happened..."

"...seizure..."

I opened my eyes but the world seemed a bit blurry.

"Al?" Someone whispered.

"I think she's still out..." my vision cleared and I saw Lily and Sirius sitting by my bed,

"No," I said hoarsely, "I'm awake."

"Oh thank Merlin," Lily said as Sirius lent in and gave me a hug. Mmmm, he smelt good.

"What happened, Rosie?" Sirius asked softly.

That's when it came flooding back to me.

James...Dumbledore...an accident...shit.

I jumped out of the bed.

"I need to find James," I said and made a start for the door.

"MISS ROSE, WHERE ON EARTH DO YOU THINK YOU ARE GOING?" Madame Pomfrey boomed from the door to her office.

"Oh...I need to find James," I said nervously, my quest suddenly forgotten.

"I highly doubt that, Miss Rose. You need to rest. You will not be going anywhere," she said sternly and took my shoulder to lead me back to the bed.

"Well, if I can't speak to James then I need to talk to Dumbledore," I said as firmly as I could. The room had started to spin around.

"I'm, sorry, Miss Rose, but in fact Professor Dumbledore is in an important meeting," Madame Pomfrey shoved some disgusting liquid down my throat.

"No, you don't understand," I spluttered.

"No, you don't understand me. You need rest. You passed out. Do not tell me that is normal," Madame Pomfrey said, "Now don't make me tie you to the bed."

I sat down and so she left. My brain was racing: I needed to tell somebody. Preferably Dumbledore so he could...well, what could he do? Even if he knew James' dad was going to die, he didn't know how, or by who...

For all I know James' dad could have just had a heart attack or something and there was nothing anybody could do...wait, no: Dumbledore had said it was an accident.

People don't call heart attacks an accident.

Or I could have Seen what happens in like 15 years. Wait, no, James still looked very young and he was still in school. So it was somewhere in the next 3 years.

"You feeling ok, Al?" Lily interrupted my thoughts.

"Uh...yeah..." was I feeling okay?

"So why do you need to find James and Dumbledore?" Sirius looked at me.

Oh fuck. Nobody knew about me Seeing things except for my parents, Dumbledore and few teachers.

I didn't want them thinking I was a freak or something. I mean, I never thought I needed friends before, not proper friends anyway.

But I did. I couldn't imagine a world without Lily and Alice and Sirius and James and Remus and, hell, even Peter. It would be so lonely.

"Ohhh...um...I don't remember," Merlin, I was the world's worst liar.

"Okay," Sirius said with disbelief.

Madame Pomfrey came back in and told Lily and Sirius that they needed to leave to go to their next class. Sirius protested, which was very sweet of him, but he was still forced to leave.

"I'll see you later, Rosie," Sirius said before he left. He seemed to hesitate but then he bent down and kissed me softly.

I was so stunned. I just sat there blinking at him as he left.


Chapter 16: Believe it or not
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~Sirius' POV~

"She'll be fine, Sirius," Lily said to me as we went to Herbology, "Stop worrying."

"I'm not worrying," I said and instantly knew I had lied. I was so worried about her. Like, she just collapsed in the middle of Charms and had a seizure-y thing. Who wouldn't be?

"Lies. You obviously care about her. A lot," Lily said. Was I really that obvious?

"Well, I do," I said. I really cared about her, why lie? Lily just smiled back.

"What?" I asked, just completely frustrated in the lack of answers about everything.

"Nothing. It's just completely adorable how you are so concerned about her. I wish I had a guy like that," she said. I stared at her in disbelief.

"What? Are you blind? You have Prongs!" I exclaimed, "All he does is worry about you! And you have Smith as well!"

"It's not the same."

"What do you mean?" I asked. Lily hesitated.

"It's just that...you like Alexis and she likes you back. James likes me, well at least he thinks he does, but I don't like him back," she said.

Oh shit. She still thinks Prongsie still likes her? Crapety crapety fuck.

I would have thought Rosie would have told her by now...

"And I do have Callum, but it is different," she said.

"How is it different? And James really does genuinely care about you," I said, which was true. He did care about her, just not bordering on obsession anymore, "And you don't like him back? Not even a teensie bit?"

"Well, maybe,'" she said. Oh Merlin, I had to act like the nosy best friend, didn't I? And then find out that the girl he had just gotten over now likes him back.

Oh Merlin, why do you hate me so?

"But that's not the point. The point is that it's adorable how you care about Al," she said.

"Whatever. She just collapsed randomly. Don't tell me you're not worried about her."

"But, I'm serious, stop worrying about her. She'll be fine," Lily opened the door.

"You lie, Evans. I'm Sirius." She just rolled her eyes in a way that said 'not funny'.

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I was walking back to Gryffindor tower when I was attacked by Butt-chin and Elf-ears.

"Sirius!!? Elf-ears cooed.

"Um, hey?" I forgot what her name was.

"So anyway, Sirius," Butt-chin said, "You know how I was telling you about going on a double date with Dorcas and James and me" So Elf-ears was Dorcas. Meh, I liked Elf-ears better.

"Yeah, I remember," I said cautiously. My mind was quickly scrambling for a way to get out of this.

"So do you want to do it this weekend?" Butt-chin asked.

"Sorry, ladies, but uhhh..." my mind was still scrambling, "I've sort of already asked Rosie.?

"Who? Who's Rosie?" Elf-ears said in a voice that was way to high-pitched.

"Alexis," I said.

"What? Why would you want to go with her?" Elf-ears almost yelled.

"And you promised that you would go with us!" Butt-chin said angrily. She and Butt-chin actually looked pretty scary when they were all fired up.

"Sorry...uhhh...bye," I said almost sprinted out of there before they could hex me into the next dimension.

I walked into our dorm. The guys were sitting on Prongs' bed like they were having a girly gossip session. Actually, they probably were.

I didn't know whether I should join them or if I should just pretend that nothings happening.

"Sirius," Remus gestured for me to come over. Okaaay then.

"What's up guys?" I said casually. Remus shrugged and looked over at Prongs. James was just staring straight ahead.

"Hey, Prongsie, what's up?" I asked again.

No answer.

"Uhh...James?" I asked.

"Yeah,"? he said.

"What's up?"? I repeated for like the millionth time. He shrugged and popped a piece of chocolate in his mouth.

"Not much," he mumbled through a chocolatey mess.

"Dude, you have a bit here," Moony said while pointing to the edge of his mouth. James just shrugged and wiped it on his sleeve.

"Prongs, you are going to get so fat from all that chocolate," I said and slapped him on the stomach, "is that the beginnings of a belly, I see?"

James looked absolutely horrified.

"Quidditch pitch. Exercise. Now," he said and grabbed his broom.

We took a short cut that Peter had discovered in our first year. Things were a bit awkward while we were talking. I tried acting completely normal with Remus, but it was really awkward.

"Soooo," Remus said as we walked to the pitch.

"Yeah...last one to the pitch is a humungous hippogriff!" I yelled to break the awkward silence. We all sprinted to the pitch but, obviously, Wormtail came last.

"Wormtail's the humungo hippogriff!"? Prongs chanted over and over again as he chucked the quaffle to him. Peter fumbled with the ball, but he did manage to catch it, eventually.

For the next hour, things were almost like back to normal.

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~James' POV~

We chucked the Quaffle around and had fun. Even if Remus didn't really know how to play and Peter didn't really have the...erm...physical capabilities...it was still really good.

"Dude, enough!" Remus flopped off his broom and onto the ground.

"I think you're the one who's been pigging out on chocolate!" Sirius said. Remus punched his in the arm. I just smiled and lobbed the Quaffle at Peter's head, which he fumbled and then dropped.

"Nice one, Petey!" I grinned.

"Shuddup, Prongs," he said and attempted to chuck the Quaffle at me. He failed. Badly.

"I'm hungry. Let's go to the kitchens," he grinned and got up. Remus and Peter also went to go fill their bellies.

"You coming, Prongs?" Sirius asked.

"You go ahead, mate. I got to get my Quidditch robes from my," I said and made my way over to the locker room.

I shoved open the door and that was when I heard the whispering.

"You said it would work," a voiced hissed.

"I-I-I'm sorry. It w-was supposed to," said a second.

"Supposed to is not good enough, Snape!" The first voice said. Who were they? Obviously the stuttering idiot was Snape...

"I'm sorry, Callum!" Oh. My. Merlin. Callum Smith? As in Lily's boyfriend Smith? Or just another Callum?

"It's Smith to you," ah fuck. It was Callum Smith. I followed the sounds of their voices. It was coming from the cupboard that held the broomsticks that the first years used.

"So-sorry," Snape said.

"You should be, Snivellus. You said it would work," Smith snarled.

"It should be working! I swear! Maybe you didn't give her a large enough dose!" Wait, he was drugging some poor girl?

"I give it to her every eight hours, Snivellus. Why the hell is it not working?" Smith growled.

"I-I don't know? Maybe L-Lily's immune to it?" They were drugging Lily?!?!

"She can't be. No, I want another stronger batch by next week," Smith demanded.

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~Alexis POV~

I was sitting in the Great Hall eating my dinner. I'd just been released from the Hospital Wing and I was ravenous.

I was eating my third bowl of pasta when James walked in and sat down in front of me. I looked guiltily at him, wondering if I should tell him about his father or not.

He had the right to know and I wanted him to have some warning and maybe it was just best if told him?

"Alexis," he said, "We need to talk."

"About...?" I asked.

"Lily." Duuhhhh. Silly me, of course Jamesie wanted to talk about his Lily-kins. Doesn't mean that I shouldn't tell him about what I knew about his father.

Do we have to?" I whined.

"Yes," he stood up and dragged me out of the hall.

"But James, I haven't finished eating!" I said and tried to break free.

"You have now." He led me down an empty corridor and turned to me.

"Smith," he said, "is drugging Lily."

"You're joking," I said, "Right?"

"No."

"What is he drugging her with?" I decided to humour him.

"I don't know but it's some kind of love potion thing!"

"He's drugging her? You seriously believe that, James? Smith may be a dick head but he's not stupid," I said and tried to go back to my food.

"Wait, no. I heard them," he said as he grabbed my wrist.

"What? Now's there's two of them?" I asked.

"Yeah. Smith and Snivellus," he nodded.

"Stop being an idiot, James."

"I'm not! I heard them talking in the broom cupboard at the Quidditch pitch changing rooms! Smith was almost bashing Snivellus about how it's not working!"

"Why were you even in there?"

"I had to get my cloak."

"Right," I nodded, "Nice try James but next time, try and come up with something more believable. Like a hippogriff ate your underwear."

"A hippogriff ate Prongs' undies?" Sirius said as he came up to us.

"Yep," I said and twirled my finger next to my head to indicate James was crazy.

"Please, Al, you have to believe me," James said. He looked like he was on the verge of kneeling down on two knees and begging and pleading.

"No she doesn't," Sirius said and put his arm around my shoulders.

"Shut up, Padfoot. Just because have a big arse crush on her," James glared at Sirius.

"I sure do," he said with a smile and kissed me on the cheek. If I wasn't going red before, I definitely was now.

"James, if you want me to believe you, maybe you should tell me something more believable," I said.

"Wait, what did you tell her?" Sirius asked.

"I heard Smith and Snivellus talking and I think Smith is getting Snivellus to make some sort of love potion so he can drug Lily," James said really quickly.

"Dude...that's a bit far-fetched, even for you...are you sure?" Sirius asked. James simply nodded in reply.

"Well, then we need to get proof and then make sure Smith gets what he deserves and tell Lily," Sirius said.

"Wait. Stop. You actually believe him, Sirius?" I said, ducking out from underneath his arm so I could face him.

"Well, yeah," he said and shuffled awkwardly. I jaw nearly hit the floor, "I do believe him. Like, I don't think he's creative enough to come up with Smith slipping love potions to Lily."

"Hey! I'm right here!" James exclaimed.

"I know, mate. I can see you. I'm just convincing Rosie that you're not lying," Sirius said.

"Whatever, guys. I'm hungry. I'll see you later," I replied and went back to the Great Hall for more of that really good pasta.

I sat down next to Alice who was sitting by herself.

"Hey, where's Lily?" I asked.

"In the library studying with Snape or something," she shrugged. My mind instantly turned to what James had just told me. If James had just say Snape in the locker room, then how could he be studying with Lily?

"Guess what James just told me," I blurted before I could stop myself.

"What?"

"Apparently Snape has been giving Smith love potions so he can drug
Lily," I said.

"Are you serious?" Alice gapped at me.

"That's what he told me."

"No. Freaking. Way," she said slowly.

"It's not confirmed or anything..."

"But it does make sense!" Alice exclaimed.

"How?"

"Well, how she's always like 'I can't explain how I feel about Callum' one moment and the next she's all like 'I'm in love with James'."

"Yeah...maybe? We should just keep an eye out for her. She might get hurt."

"Who might get hurt?" Lily said as she sat down next to us. Alice and I looked guiltily at each other.

"Uh, doesn't matter. Where were you?" I said quickly eventhough both Alice and I knew the answer.

"I was supposed to meet Sev up in the Library so we could study, but he never showed," she said, looking quite upset.

"Oh, Lils, I'm sure he had a valid reason," Alice said and gave me a pointed look.

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So we stuck to Lily like glue. Wherever she went, we went as well. Whether it was the dorms, classes or even the bathroom, we were right there with her.

"I haven't seen anything," Alice whispered in my ear.

"Neither," I shook my head, "I think James' got it wrong. We eyeball her drinks and nobody has slipped her anything."

"You think James would make this up?" Alice said.

"Do you really thing Smith would slip her love potions continuously? Or that Snape would agree to it? He's like her best friend, Alice, I don't think he would," I said and turned back to the board to copy the notes that Slughorn has written.

A piece of parchment landed in front of me. It was covered with James messy scrawl.

Instantly I was filled with guilt again. James seemed really close with his parents, even if they were almost never home. Who knew how it would affect him if his father died?

Rosie, Sirius and I have come up with a grand plan. Would you like to hear it?

Oh dear Merlin. That did not sound good.

Not really! But I guess you're going to tell me anyway, so go ahead

Do you remember ages ago when we said that you would have to pull a prank with us?

Ah shit. So that was what this was about. I remembered it too well when they told me that I had to pull a prank with them. It was just after I'd had a water fight with Sirius in the Great Hall and they called me a goody-goody.

Do I ever

Well, we have a plan

Do enlighten me

You'll find out soon enough

Arrghh!!! Damn those Marauders! The suspense was killing me.

Suddenly, the door to the dungeons flew open. Professor McGonagall strode in.

"Professor Slughorn, a word with Mr Potter, if you don't mind."

"Of course, Minerva!" he said.

Oh shit. It was like d?j?-vu. No, this can't be happening. Not now...

"Please take your book to, Mr Potter. We may not be coming back," Professor McGonagall said.

I tried looking at her to determine how she felt. Sad? Distressed? Pitying? But her face was a blank canvas.

James picked up his books. He was looking at Sirius who was gesturing back to him that he didn't know what this was about.

When James and Professor McGonagall left, I was silently beating myself for not telling James earlier.

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Chapter 17: A friend in need
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~Sirius' POV~

Slughorn had given us a three foot essay on the uses of Polyjuice Potion. Seriously, all you do is drink the stuff and turn into someone else...

"But what do you put in it?" Peter squeaked from next to me.

"Any part of them. Tears will do. Blood. Hair," I answered while flicking through my text book. Suddenly, the door flung open and Prongs walked in. "Prongsie! What did McGonagall want?"

He pushed past me and went straight to the bathroom.

"Padfoot?" Peter eventually broke the silence.

"Yeah?"

"I'm hungry."

"Well, let's go to dinner."

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"Sirius, what's wrong with James?" Lily asked me as James walked into the Great Hall.

James looked terrible. There was a long rip down the back of his robes while his tie was slung around his neck. His hair didn't stick up in every direction like it normally did.

"Dunnno," I said, "He came back from McGonagall's looking pretty upset."

"Hey, James," Lily said as Prongs took a seat. He just grunted in reply.

"Dude, what happened to your robes?" I asked.

"It got stuck in a suit of armour," he said flatly.

"Looks like the armour won," Rosie smiled. It slowly faded when she realised that James didn't seem to find it funny.

"What did McGonagall want?" I said. James just shrugged in reply. Okaaay, something was definitely wrong here. Prongs wasn't into short explanations.

"So have you got the tactics for the match against Ravenclaw?" I asked. James just shook his head.

After dinner, we all went back to the common room.

"I'm tired guys. I think I'll go to bed," James said. I glanced at the clock: it wasn't even 9 yet.

"Yeah, it's been a hard day, I think I will too," Peter said and trudged up the stairs.

"Come on, Prong's. Let's all go up to our dorm," Remus said with a pointed look at me that said This includes you

"James, what's going on?" I said as the dorm door was firmly shut.

"My father is dead," James whispered. There was a shocked silence. James' father was an auror so naturally he was a high priority target for the Death Eaters.

"How?" I asked.

"Who?" Remus added.

"It was some Death Eater. Dumbledore wouldn't tell me which one," James said frustratedly.

"James...I'm sorry," Peter said, which by his measure was a pretty big show of emotion.

"It's alright Petey. It's not your fault. Dumbledore also said that they were after Mum too but they only managed to get Dad. He said that she mustn't be alone without any other aurors there. The funeral is this Saturday ...will you guys come with me?" James said as he lay down on his bed.

"Sure thing, mate," Remus said.

"Thanks. And please don't tell anyone," he whispered.

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I woke up quite early the next morning. Remus was just walking out of the bathroom.

"We need to talk, Sirius," he said.

"Yes, I think we do," I agreed and followed him out into the corridor.

"Mate, I know you may hate me for what I did and I'm not saying I did something wrong, but I think James really needs us right now. He needs us together and to help him," Remus said.

Ever since our Gryffindor victory party, things had been tense between us. At first we couldn't even stand being in the same room together but we eventually saw that it was ridiculous. We started hanging out as the Marauders again, but things just weren?t the same. There was always awkward tension between us and none of us would speak about that night.

I really cared for my fellow Marauders because they were like my family to me. Correction, they were my family. I didn't want the awkward tension between us to be there and I didn't want to cover it up for James. We couldn't just ignore that it was there.

"No, I don't want to, Remus. I want to sort this...crappy thingo out," I said firmly. Remus nodded understandingly.

"Me too. I just want to say that I'm sorry for dancing with her and-" he said but I cut him off.

"I was drunk. I shouldn't have acted the way I did and I'm really sorry to," I said.

"We good?' Remus asked.

"Definitely," I said and gave him a brotherly hug.

"So what's up with you and Rosie?" he said with a conspirational wink.

"We're going to Hogsmeade this weekend!" I said happily.

"Wait, Padfoot?" Remus said with a worried look on his face, "You do realise that this weekend is also the funeral?"

"Oh, shit."

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~Alexis' POV~

"Stop worrying Lily. I'm sure he's fine," I tried to reassure her.

"But did you see him?" Lily wailed.

"Hush child," I said. I, personally, thought that she was waaaay over reacting, "He can probably hear you from here." Ha, that shut her up, "Any way, I got to do some homework. Stop worrying about James. And that's an order.'

I was halfway through my essay when I remembered a letter I had gotten from Dad that came this morning.

Dear Alex,

Rebecca has clearly stated that you can't wear just another purple dress but you have to wear the one that she wants. I really want this wedding to have what will make Rebecca happy. Please understand.

There will a dress fitting this Saturday at 11 o'clock which you must attend. I?ve already talk to Dumbledore and he said you may use his fireplace to floo to ours which I have gotten connected to the network for the day.

Love Dad


I sat there in shock. Things were really getting a move on. It wasn't Christmas yet and they'd already started making plans for a July wedding.

"You all ready for this weekend?" Lily interrupted my thoughts.

"What's this weekend?" I asked blankly.

"Hogsmeade," she said in a 'duhhh' voice, "I'm going with Callum."

"Ah, fuck. Shit balls," I swore loudly.

"What?" Lily said looking confused.

"I promised Sirius ages ago that I would go to Hogsmeade this weekend with him but I just got a letter from Dad saying that I have to go a dress fitting for their wedding," I explained.

"What? Oh, Al, that's so shit. Can't you get out of going to the fitting?" She asked.

"No, because what Rebecca wants Rebecca gets," I said bitterly. Dad had written how he wants things to be perfect for Rebecca and how he would do anything for her wedding but he didn't even mention anything about the Cleansweep I had asked for.

"Tat actually sucks so bad."

"Will you come with me?" I asked her with my best puppy dog face.

"I can't, Al. I already promised Callum I'd go with him," Lily said while pulling a face. Damn Callum and his stupid love potion pact with Snivellus. I wish I could just tell Lily about it and how James found out and then he could be her knight in shining armour and the the rest of us could live in peace.

"Awww, come on, Lils. Do you even like the guy?"

"Of course I do!"?she exclaimed.

"But you like James," I said, totally unconvinced.

"I like both of them, Al! Aren't I allowed two like two guys at one?" she cried.

"Nt when you're going out with one of them but you like the other better," I said.

"Wo said I like James more than I liked Callum?"

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I was trying to find Sirius. I had braced myself for whatever he would say when he found out.

"Sirius," I said as I walked up to him.

"Hey, Rosie!" His face lit up as he saw me. Oh Merlin, why did this have to be so hard? "I was just coming to talk to you. I have to tell you something."

"Wait, wait. Me first. Um...I can't come to Hogsmeade this weekend with you," the words tumbled out of my mouth.

"What?" he said, sounding slightly relieved, "Merlin, I had to tell you I couldn't go with you because of some stuff with James...anyway, why can't you go?" he said.

"Wait-what stuff with James?" I said, 'And I have to go to a bridal dress fitting thingo because my Dad is getting married."

"I ...errrrr, I can't exactly tell you," he said as he looked down at his feet.

"Please?" I said as I gave him my best pleading-puppy-dog look.

"Okay, fine. But you have to keep it a secret, but...we Marauders are going to James' dads funeral," he whispered into my ear.

"What?" I said, wondering if I had heard correctly, "What happened to James' dad?" Sirius shifted uncomfortably from foot to foot.

"I can't tell you, Rosie. I'm sorry. It's not even my place to tell you that he's dead...I'm sorry." He did genuinely look sorry...

"It's okay, Sirius...I hope James it okay though... And what about his mum?" I asked.

"I don't think Prongs took the news too well...he's a really upset and his mum's fine but she's going to have like bodyguards and stuff," he said.

"Okay..." I said awkwardly. I knew how it felt to lose your Mum or Dad, especially to the Death Eaters.

"Well...I got to go and make sure he eats his food and doesn't get mopey...so bye then," he said awkwardly.

"'Bye," I said as he turned down one corridor and I turned down another. It suddenly reminded me of the time he had spilled pumpkin juice all over me and I went back to Gryffindor Tower to get changed and he followed me there. We had an awkward goodbye when we went our separate ways.

That was so long ago. Back then I hated Sirius and James and Remus and Peter but now I can't imagine life without them.

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Chapter 18: Taken for granted
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~James’ POV~

The day of Dad’s funeral was grey and bitterly cold: it was fitting weather for the occasion.

Sirius, Remus, Peter and I flooed to my house from Dumbledore’s fireplace. Alexis and Lily were there as well. I think they were going to a dress fitting or something.

"Hey,” Lily said as she came up to me. She touched me on my arm. A few days ago this would have driven me crazy but today I just stared at her.

"I heard about your father,” she said softly.

"How do you know?” I asked, slightly angry that one of my friends had told somebody: even if that person was Lily.

“Sirius told Al and then she told me. I’m sorry James, I really am,” she said, looking genuine.

“Sorry that my best friend told people something that wasn’t supposed to get out or that my father is dead?” Lily flinched at the word ‘dead’ but quickly regained her composure.

“Both,” she simply said before she stepped into the fireplace. I instantly regretted getting upset at her for something that Sirius did. Hell, I didn’t even care that Sirius told anybody, as long as I didn’t have to tell them myself.

I stepped into the fireplace after Peter had gone. I said ‘Potter residence’ as clearly as I could.

I saw the mass of other fireplaces rush by me. I saw many happy families: some were still having breakfast some were just sitting and talking.

I flashed past one place with a family of three: a mother, a father and a young blond haired boy all eating breakfast. My family would have once been like that. I thought that it would always be like that. I guess it was something that I took for granted: that my parents would always be at home for me.

It would have been the same for that little boy. He would grow up loving his parents and thinking that they will always be around until some tragedy strikes and then he would be just like me: going to a funeral and blubbering on like a girl.

I stumbled out of the fireplace when I’d gotten to our house. Immediately Mum latched onto me and gave me a big hug. I instantly felt her tears soak my shirt.

“It’s going to be okay Mum. It’s going to be okay,” I said, trying to comfort myself more than her.

“We’re sorry,” Remus said on behalf of the others when Mum had finally detached herself from me.

“It’s okay, dears,” she said with a watery smile, “It’s not your fault.”

There were many other people in our house: family, friends, work colleagues and lots of other people.

The mass of bodies soon became overwhelming. There were so many people here.

Some people had never even met Dad before. Some had seen him every day.

I envied those who had seen him every day. I wish he were here so I could tell him that I love him.

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~Alexis’ POV~

Lily and I woke up early on the day of the dress fitting. She had wormed her way out of going to Hogsmeade with Callum. Thank Merlin, I couldn’t stand the thought of her going anywhere with that slimy lying git.

“I’m going to go talk to him,” Lily said as she saw the Marauders walk into Dumbledore’s office.

“No, don’t,” I said and grabbed her arm to stop her, “Sirius wasn’t supposed to tell me and I wasn’t supposed to tell you.”

“Don’t be ridiculous, Alexis, it’s the right thing to do,” she said and walked off to him.

“Hey,” Sirius came up to me just as Lily started to talk to James, “You didn’t tell Lily,did you?”

“You should have seen how worried she was about him, Sirius. I couldn’t just let her wonder,” I said.

“It’s fine, Al,” he said and pulled me into a hug.

“Is he going to be okay?” I murmured into his shirt.

“He’s James,” he said cryptically, “I’ve got to go.”

“Save me from my soon to be step mum who I’ve never met before,” I said as I clungto him tighter. He laughed softly but pulled away from me.

“’Cya,” he said as he kissed the top of my head and then stepped into the fireplace.

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The first thing I noticed when I stepping into my house was that there was an overwhelming amount of pink. There were pink curtains that replaced our old white ones that had been put there by Mum.

“Alex!” Dad exclaimed as he walked into the living room, “Who’s your friend?”

“Dad, this is Lily. Lily this is my dad,” I introduced them.

“Nice to meet you Mr Rose. You have a nice house,” Lily said trying to be polite, “It’s very…”

“Pink,” I finished for her.

“Well, come meet Rebecca,” he said. We followed him to the kitchen.

“Hello, you must be Alex,” a blonde woman said as soon as I walked in.

“It’s Alexis,” I snapped. This woman looked kind of…fake. Her eyes seemed to blue and her hair too blond and her boobs too big.

“Oh, right, Alexis,” she said, unfazed.

“Anyway, hun, this is Alexis’ friend Lily,” Dad did the introductions this time.

“Nice to meet you, Mrs Rose,” Lily said.

“She’s not Mrs Rose,” I said quickly, “Not yet anyway.” Lily shot me a look.

“Call me, Rebecca,” she smiled her large fake smile.

“Are you girls hungry?” Dad said quickly as he produced a tin of cookies.

“No, Henry. We have to go to the dress fitting. Lily, are you coming to the wedding?” Rebecca said with one big breath.

“Oh…um, yeah, I guess I’ll come,” Lily said hesitantly.

“Well, then you will both have to bring dates,” Rebecca said.

"What? Dad never said anything about dates!" I exclaimed and shot Dad an accusing look.

"What's your problem? You'll just Sirius! Who do I ask?" Lily said looking panicky.

"James," I said in a 'duh' voice, “Or Callum,” I added as an afterthought. He was officially her boyfriend, after all.

"Who's Sirius?" Dad suddenly said. Oh shit, Dad didn't like me going out with guys and all that.

"He's..." I said trying to think of something that Sirius was to me and that Dad would approve off.

"He's Al's boyfriend," Lily jumped in.

"He's not my boyfriend," I quickly said but it was too late. Dad's eyes bulged in horror. Crap.

"Alex, we'll talk about this later. In the meantime, it's off to the dress shop!" he said, trying to play Happy Families but failing dismally.

The wedding dress shop was pretty much a nightmare. Rebecca had wanted all her five bridesmaids (one of them being me) and her two flower girls wearing matching purple dresses. Seriously, who wears purple at a wedding?

When the dressmaker pulled out the rack that held the dresses I nearly threw up. The bridesmaid's dresses were strapless while the lucky flower girls got to have spaghetti straps.

"I refuse to wear that," I said in what I hoped was a firm voice.

"You have to!" squeaked one of the other brides maids with fire-engine red hair.

"Um, I can't exactly wear a dress when I have a lack of..." I gestured towards my chest area.

"It's alright, darl," said the dressmaker as she snapped some gum, "We can always tape it to you." She looked me up and down and made a few adjustments to the dress, mostly around the boob area and then shoved the dress in my arms and gestured to a dressing room lined hall.

"It's hideous," I said as I stepped out to show Lily. I had to hold it up because it was so loose.

"It doesn't look too bad," Lily said as she was obviously trying to hold back a laugh.

"Shut up. Let's go show the others," I said and walked down the hall back to the main room.

Suddenly, Lily grabbed my arm. She put her finger to her lips and dragged me close to the wall.

"But why?" I heard one of the bridesmaids whined.

"Because she's his daughter," Rebecca said. I could just picture her rolling her eyes.

"But then that means you have five bridesmaids and it's going to look ugly when you walk down the aisle," another bridesmaid complained.

"You think I want her here, Penny? I would rather she stayed in that boarding school of hers." I felt like I had been stabbed in the heart. I didn't like my first impressions of Rebecca but I was willing to get to knew her before I judged her.

"But she doesn't have to be a bridesmaid!" yet another bridesmaid complained.

"Yeah, Rebecca. She's not even that pretty!" exclaimed another bridesmaid. Was it some predetermined condition that a bridesmaid had to be pretty?

"Don't be mean, Adele," Rebecca pretended to be upset, "If you're going to complain about her, complain about her lack of boobs. She's going to look ridiculous in a strapless dress!" I'd had enough of the mean comments. I marched out of my hiding place and went right up to Rebecca.

"You know what? I'm not doing this. I refuse to be a bridesmaid to the biggest bitch who wants me to wear a hideous purple dress. You don't want me here and I don't want to be here so it's a win-win situation," I said angrily. I turned around and marched right out of the bridal wear place.

It was only until I got down that road that I realised that I had no shoes or my other clothes. It was freezing cold and soon my fingers had turned numb.

How dare Rebecca say those things about me? How dare she be so absorbed into the wedding that all she cared about was that it was perfect?

Wasn't a wedding supposed to be about two people coming together for love or something?

I came to yet another intersection of streets. When I spotted a large group of people coming towards me: amongst them were the familiar faces of the Marauders. Crap.

I was in the middle of nowhere in a dress that barely counted as clothing and no shoes. Great. Just abso-freaking-lutely great. Maybe if I turned around and ran they wouldn't notice me...

"Rosie!" Sirius yelled out. Damn, too late.

"Oh, hey," I smiled weakly as they approached.

"What are you wearing?" Remus asked.

"Not a lot," Sirius said dryly as he slipped his jacket around my shoulders. Mmm, it smelt like Sirius.

"Why aren't you wearing any shoes?" Remus asked me.

"And where's Lily?" Sirius said as he looked around for her.

"Um, I'm not sure," I said, "I was at a dress fitting and I got really angry at something and I just had to get out of there before I started breaking those butt ugly vases." I looked around at the people who had stopped because of me. Glancing around, I saw James holding the hand of a woman who could only have been his mother.

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~James' POV~

"I'm so sorry," Alexis said as she walked up to Mum.

"It's okay, dear. It's not your fault," she repeated the exact same words that she had said to Remus.

"I'm Alexis," she introduced herself.

"Ahhh...My James and Sirius have told me much about you in their letters," she said as she took in Al's lack of clothing and shoes. "Why don't you join us?

"Ohhh...." Al said hesitating, "I wouldn't want to intrude and besides, I really should go back and get the rest of my clothes."

"No need for that," a voice said. I turned around and saw that it was Lily hold an armful of clothing. She really did look beautiful even though she wasn't dressed up. In this stormy autumn weather, her red hair was the only burst of colour on a dreary background.

Once Al had put some shoes and a thicker jacket, we set of to the graveyard.

Through the funeral service, I stood by myself. It wasn’t because I chose to. I chose to stand alone. Although no one would choose to be alone at a funeral.

This place would be the last connection I had with Dad for the rest of my life. I would never see him again or ask him advice on girls or just chill out with him in the back garden. I thought he would have been around forever. I took that for granted.

At the end, I put a bunch of flowers on the headstone in one final goodbye.

I’d never felt so alone in my life.

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~Alexis POV~

Lily and I stood either side of James but not once did he acknowledge our presence. I watched at the heavy casket was lowered into a hole.

Guilt sat like a rock at the bottom of my stomach. I could have saved this man. I could have stopped him form getting killed by Death Eaters. It was all my fault that he was dead. Now James would never have a father and Mrs Potter wouldn't have her husband. She could remarry but nothing would ever be the same.

Time was repeating itself and there was nothing I could do. Somewhere in this graveyard, my mother too was buried. Nine years ago, this scene had played out exactly the same. I had lost my mother to Death Eaters and I could have stopped it. James had lost his father to Death Eaters and I could have stopped it. It was all my fault.

I wanted to give James a big hug and tell him everything would be ok. I wanted to tell his that Death Eaters were all bastards anyway and his father didn't deserve to die- just like my mother. I wanted to tell him that I knew exactly how he felt and how guilty I felt. I wanted to tell him that with time, things would get better.

But I didn't. I stood there and let the guilt naw away at my stomach until I couldn't take it anymore and still I stood there silently.

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Chapter 19: Just Alexis Rose
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~Sirius’ POV~

Rosie received a howler at breakfast on the day after the funeral.

“You better open it before it explodes,” I told her when I saw the bright red envelope.

“Is it going to be bad?” she asked worriedly as she held it as far away as possible from her as possible.

“The longer you leave it, the worse it gets,” Lily replied. We all braced ourselves as she opened it.

“WHAT WERE YOU THINING?!?!” a man’s deep voice boomed across the Great Hall.

“I EXPECTED BETTER BEHAVIOUR FROM YOU INSTEAD OF JUST STORMING OUT. I AM SO DISSPOINTED IN YOU ALEXIS. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU HURT EBECCA? DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH SHE WANT TO GET ALONG WITH YOU BUT YOU HAVE TO GO AND MAKE IT SO HARD FOR HER,” there was a little pause and you could hear her father take a small breath and then continue.

“I EXPECT YOU TO WRITE AN APOLOGY TO HER,” he finally said before the letter burst into fire and then crumbled to ashes.

The Great Hall was dead silent. It was all eyes on Rosie. I saw the tears well up in her eyes and I just wished that I could make them go away.

Suddenly she stood up and ran out of the Great Hall. When the big heavy doors boomed shut, the chatter started up again.

"I'm going to make sure she's alright," Lily said. She and Alice rushed out of the Great Hall. There was an awkward silence between us Marauders. Actually, it was probably only awkward for Peter. I was worrying about Rosie, James hadn’t been himself since the funeral and Remus was probably planning his Charms essay.

"Guys?" Peter said nervously, "We should probably get going to class."

We Marauders stood up without a word and exited the Great Hall.

“I’m going to find Rosie,” I said.

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~Alexis’ POV~

I ran back to our dorm, ignoring all the curious glances I got from people who hadn’t been in the great Hall.

How did Dad send me a howler? He was a muggle and muggles couldn’t do howlers. I was so embarrassed.

I slammed the door shut and grabbed a piece of parchment and quill. If Dad wanted me to write an apology to Rebecca, he would get a fucking apology to Rebecca.

Dear Rebecca,
I’m sorry that my dad ever met you.
I’m sorry that you two are getting married.
I’m sorry that you are such a horrible bitch.
Yours sincerely,
Alexis Rose


I rolled the parchment up and ran to the Owlery. Fury, rage and embarrassment propelled me up the steps but it was a long way to the top. By the time I reached the entrance, I was puffing and out of breath. I realised that I’d forgotten to bring a jumper and it was freezing.

“Stupid fucking Rebecca,” I swore under my breath as I attached the parchment to one of the schools owls. This one had a nasty temper and liking for biting peoples fingers. All the better if it didn’t like Rebecca.

I launched the owl and then started on my way down the ice-covered
steps. It was to Gryffindor Tower for some books and then off to Divination.

It was just when I was going through the Fat lady’s portrait when I collided with something. Something big and muscley, namely Sirius.

“Rosie,” he said, “I’ve been looking for you everywhere!”

“Go away, Sirius,” I said, trying to hold back my tears. His face fell.

“Are you okay?” he said and tried to pull me into a hug.

“Leave me alone,” I almost yelled and tried to shove him off but he just hugged me tighter.

I don't know how long we stood there but eventually the tears stopped flowing.

"Thanks," I said and looked up to him.

"No problem," he replied and pressed his forehead to mine.

I loved how around Sirius, I could just be myself. I didn't have to pretend to be strong or have to hold back the tears. I could shout and scream and he would still be there for me.

Which was actually quite odd seeing as his reputation was mostly that he was a heartless manwhore who didn't exactly have girlfriends but more like snog buddies.

Which, again, was strange because we haven't exactly shared the most passionate experiences and he did ask me out to Hogsmeade.

Which equates to eventually-girlfriend.

Which goes against everything I have ever heard about Sirius and his reputation. Shit.

"Sirius," I said. Suddenly panicky, I pulled away from him.

"Yeah?"

"Um...where is this going?" I said.

"Where is what going?" he said while running his hand though his hair.

"This," I said gesturing towards him and then me, "Us."

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~Sirius' POV~

Us.

The word echoed in my head a couple of times.

US. US. US.

"Uh, what do you mean?" I said.

"Well...us, you know..." she said, shrugging her shoulders like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"Um, not really," I said. I actually knew perfectly well what she meant.

In the past, I haven't exactly had a good record with girls. Sometimes people call me a player or a manwhore and I guess that was pretty much true.

Except that I've changed and I want a real relationship: not half an hour in the broom cupboard.

Rosie sighed and pulled her jacket tightly around herself.

"Well, your reputation is pretty well known around the school...and, what I'm trying to say is... I guess I want to know..." she stuttered.

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~Alexis' POV~

Oh dear Merlin and any other higher being who is listening, please help me.

I didn't want to offend Sirius by calling him a player, although I
doubted that he didn't already have an idea of his reputation, but I had to know where this thing between me and him was going.

"All the girls say that you're a player and that don't do relationships so I want to know why you're here with me," I said before I lost my nerve.

"Rosie," he said softly and took a step in my direction.

"Uh uh," I said and put my hand in front of me, "answer the question."

"I really like you, Rosie," he said, "and...I know you're not the kind of girl who would want a short stint in some empty classroom so I want to change."

I couldn't help but let out a loud snort.

"What?" he said, completely puzzled.

"Sirius Black, do you even hear what you're saying?" I continued before he could answer, "You're Hogwart's resident player. All the girls want you and all the guys want to be you."

"Um, yeah. So?" he said, completely oblivious to what I trying to tell him.

"And I'm just Alexis Rose," I sighed.

"No, you're not just Alexis Rose," Sirius shook his head furiously, "You are beautiful and funny and smart and you understand people so well...and...and... I would change for you."

I shook my head sadly and felt my throat tighten but no tears came leaking out.

"How many girls have you used that line on?" I said softly and headed up to Divination.

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The smell of burning incense hit me like a wall.

For the first time, Professor Trelawney's class didn't capture my attention. Maybe it was Sirius or perhaps it was Dad or Rebecca.

Fucking Rebecca.

"And so that concludes this class," Professor Trelawney said, "Miss Rose, please stay behind to discus details of your detention." What the shit? When did I get detention?

"Rosie!" Sirius pounced on me the minute I stepped out of the room.

"Go away," I said and quickly made my way to Gryffindor Tower.

"Wait...stop," Sirius said and grabbed my arm.

"Let go of me!" I said pulled away.

"Just listen to me, please."

"And why should I?" I demanded.

"Because I really like you and I meant everything I said this morning and in answer to that question, you are the first girl whom I've ever told that to!" That made me stop.

"Fuck off, Sirius. If you thing that for one moment that I believe that I'm the first girl you've said that to then you must think I'm fucking stupid," I said, surprised at the amount of venom in my voice.

"But you are the first girl I've said that to!" he said indignantly.

"Have you heard one thing I said this morning, Sirius?!" I cried, "You are a player. What makes you think that I believe you want to change?!"

"You say 'player' like it is a bad thing!" he says softly.

"It is a bad thing," I snort. Too late, I realise what I've just said. "Wait- Sirius. That came out wrong."

"No, it didn't," he whispered, "But fine. If that's what you think of me..." he said and abruptly turned around.

Suddenly it's me trying to make him listen to me and not the other way around.

The difference is that he is as good as ignoring me as I can see the future. Which is extremely well, if you didn't get that.

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a.n. so i thought prehaps you guys would like a preview of the next chapter :) by the way, it's not sirius who's talking

"Wait. Where're you going? Where're the others?" Al said as she followed me.

"I can't speak right now, but you have to go up to your dorm," I said. It was too dangerous for Al to come.

"What? No, I'm coming!" she shrieked.

"Alexis, you don't understand!" I said and shoved the portrait open.

"Not more students sneaking out!" the Fat Lady yelled as I ran down the corridor.

"Well explain it to me!" she said. I stopped and took a deep breath.

"Please, Al. It's not my place to tell you why but please just go back," I begged, "It's not safe."

"Excuse me? Not safe?!" she shout-whispered, "And why would it be not safe?"

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Chapter 20: Diamonds in the sky
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~James' POV~

I think I was holding up pretty well. Sirius never turned up to Charms that morning. In fact, he never made it to any classes today.

"Dude, where were you?" I asked when he finally made an appearance in our dorm at 10 o'clock that night.

"Around," he said and started to change into his pj's, "Where's Remus and Petey?"

"Around," I said, sort of pissed off that he gave me such a wishy-washy answer. Actually, I didn't know where they were.

"Prongs," he said, "How did you know you were in love with Lily?" That made me stop and stare. Padfoot always thought that my crush on Lily was ridiculous and I was wasting my time on a lost cause.

"Why do you want to know?" I asked cautiously.

"Because I think I love Rosie and I just fucked up big time today. ALthough I'm not exactly sure what I did wrong," Padfoot said.

"How badly?"

"I doubt she'll ever want to talk to me again," he shrugged, "and I'm totally out of ideas about how to make it up to her. Like, something tells me that I have to do something really radical to make it up to her, but I don't know what."

"Write her a poem?"

"Mate, I know you wrote Lily poems, but look how far that got you."

"You got a better idea?" I asked.

"Drink firewhisky and get totally wasted." he rummaged in his drawer for his emergency supply.

"Mate, do you think you should be drinking?" I said. I never was one to drink whenever I felt like it, but I did get pretty drunk on special occasions.

"I don't give a shit," Sirius replied and raised the bottle. Well, I guess realising he loves a girl counts as a special occasion, right?

"Don't you remember what happened last time you got drunk?" Sirius just kept on glugging, "you tried to punch Remus for dancing with Al."

"Dude, there's nothing worse I can do. Rosie already hates me," Sirius spat, "What more damage can a bit of firewhisky do?"

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~Alexis' POV~

Detention with Professor Trelawney was a bore. While rearranging her tea cups, I fondly remembered the time where I had detention with Sirius and we ended up having a water fight.

Those were good times. Now he's probably trying to find some Ravenclaw to get it on with.

"Al, where were you?" Alice said as I finally trudged into our dorms.

"Detention," I grunted.

"Um, for what?" she asked.

"Actually, I have no idea," I shrugged.

"James said Sirius wasn't in classes all day to day," Lily said, obviously angling for some kind of information.

"And you're telling me this because?" I said flatly.

"Because you're his girlfriend," Lily pointed out.

"I was never officially his girlfriend. We never went out and even if I was I'm now his ex," I said bitterly.

"What?!" Alice and Lily gasped in unison.

"We had a fight this morning after I got that stupid howler."

"About?" Lily prompted.

"I asked his where our relationship was going. Like, if we were just like a once of or something and he said that he knows that he has a reputation but he wants to change and I basically said that was bull shit then later after Divination I called him a player and he thought I said it like it was a bad thing and he got pissy and walked off," I said in one big breath.

"Naw, Al, I'm sure things will be all good tomorrow!" Lily said.

"Probably not. He's probably already jumped some Ravenclaw," I said, “but who cares? In a few days’ time, it will be Christmas break and I can just pretend this never happened.”

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~Sirius' POV~

The firewhisky left a blazing trail as it slipped down my throat.

Ahhhh, that was better.

"Mate, slow down," Prongs said from his bed, "I can practically see your insides burning to bits."

"Shuddup," I could already here my voice slurring.

After a while, I realised that I'd finished almost two thirds of a bottle. Meh, Prongs knew where to get more of this stuff.

"Mate, do you think it's really hot in here?" I said, suddenly feeling like I was wearing a woollen cloak in summer.

"Are you joking, Padfoot? It's freezing!" Prongs said, "Anyway, I'm going to sleep. Night."

"Nighty-nighty, Prongsie!"

I kept sipping my firewhisky while I looked out the window. The night sky was like a black cloak and the stars were like diamonds.

Suddenly, I knew what I had to do to get Rosie back. I had to get her a star: I had to get her the best diamond of all.

Grabbing my broom, I lurched down the stairs. Geez, maybe I had more to drink than I thought.

I pushed the portrait open.

"Where are you going!" I heard the Fat Lady say from behind me. Blurrily, I gave her the finger and made my way outside the castle.
Pushing open the heavy doors, I breathed in the cool fresh air. I mounted my broom and took off to find my Rosie a starry diamond.

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~Alexis' POV~

Two boys stood in an empty Hogwart's corridor.

One was tall, lean and muscular. His ash blond hair hung slightly limply but he walked with the air of one who always got what he wanted. The other one was short and thin with oily long black hair. He stood with a slight hunch and avoided the other boy's glare.

They spoke in hushed voices.

"It's not working, Snape," the blond one growled.

"Y-y-you mustn't be giving it to her right," the oily haired boy-presumably Snape- stuttered.

"No," the blond haired boy stretched out the only syllable, "You must be making it wrong."

"But I f-f-followed the instructions, S-s-smith! I s-swear!" Snape said.

"Lies!" Smith said, grabbing the smaller boy by the collar and jamming him up against the wall. Snape made small strangling noises.

"I did!" Snape protested and coughed

"Shut up and listen. This is how it's going to be: you're going to give me the name of this stupid love potion, then I'm going to make it from now one and you will not breathe a word of any of this to anyone. Got it?" Smith said nastily. As soon as Snape gave a splutter that resembled consent, Smith let go of his and he slithered to the ground.

"Good. Now that that all cleared up, what it called?" Smith said, all cheery like they were talking about Quidditch.

"It's called Cupiditium Adfectus."


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I sat up in my bed. My mind was racing: James was right about Lily getting drugged by Snape for Callum. The question was how strong was this stuff and how the hell was Smith getting Lily to take it?

Maybe James would know.

I took the stairs to the boy's dorm two at a time.

"James!" I practically screamed as I burst into their room. Only one of the four beds were occupied. Strange. Where were the other three?
Please please please let this be James. I nudged the figure that was completely under the doona.

"Go away, Moony," a very sleepy James said.

"Get up sleepy head!" I screamed and pulled of the covers. A very topless James was lying on the bed. Thank Merlin he didn't sleep naked.

"Ugh," James said and opened an eye.

"WHAT THE FUCK?!" he screamed and bolted up right once he realised it was me, "Geez, Alexis. What are you doing here?"

"You were right." James blinked back at me blankly, "About Smith drugging Lily using a love potion that Snape was making except that Snape isn't going to be making it anymore because Smith will be, oh, and it's called Cupiditium Adfectus."

"Told you," he smirked, "Wait, how do you know, though? Did you hear them talking?"

"Uhh, um, I just sort of know." Shit, I totally forgot to come up with an explanation other than 'I see the future'.

"Where are the others?" I said, trying to change the topic.

"How do you know?" he persisted.

"Um...." c'mon brain, think! Say something like 'I heard them in-'.

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~James POV~

"OH, SHIT!" I yelled when I suddenly remember what tonight was- it was the full moon. That was why Remus or Peter weren't here. Merlin, I can't believe I forgot!

I can't believe Sirius forgot either. He got drunk over a girl and ditched Remus.

"I'll be right back," I said to Alexis and ran out of the dorm while pulling a jumper over my head.

"Wait. Where're you going? Where're the others?" Al said as she followed me.

"I can't speak right now, but you have to go up to your dorm," I said. It was too dangerous for Al to come.

"What? No, I'm coming!" she shrieked.

"Alexis, you don't understand!" I said and shoved the portrait open.

"Not more students sneaking out!" the Fat Lady yelled as I ran down the corridor.

"Well explain it to me!" she said. I stopped and took a deep breath.

"Please, Al. It's not my place to tell you why but please just go back," I begged, "It's not safe."

"Excuse me? Not safe?!" she shout-whispered, "And why would it be not safe?"

"I don't have time for this!" I said, hearing the anger seep out in my words.

Sirius was drunk while I was here wasting time. That left Wormtail to control Moony and what use was a rat against a werewolf? Petey would get killed.

"James Potter, you are going to tell me right this instant what you are keeping from me!" she said, her eyes practically bulging out from their sockets.

"I can't," I said desperately, "You have to ask Moony. It's his secret. Please, go back to the dorm and we can talk tomorrow."

"James..." he voice was dangerously low, "Tell right now."

"I can't. Look, all the clues are under your nose but please I have to
go. It's a matter of life and death." I really wasn't joking.

"You better have a damn bloody good reason, Potter," she said and
marched back to Gryffindor Tower. Something in her voice told me that tomorrow was going to be a big day. I just hoped that all four of us Marauders would be there to go through it.

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a.n. A huge thanks to JohannaMarie for suggesting 'foveoamoris' (encouragement of love) and TheMoonLove for 'tywyll chwant' (dark lust). In the end, I decided to come up with my own: 'Cupiditium Adfectus'. I came up with 'Cupiditium' from the Latin word 'cupiditatem' meaning 'enomored' while 'adfectus' means 'emotion'.
xo,
marauders forever xx


Chapter 21: Someone else's secret
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~Alexis POV~

Stupid James Potter.

Wouldn’t tell me was so important.

Wouldn’t tell me where the rest of the Marauders where.

Stupid James Potter and his secrets.

I could hardly complain about James having secrets. I mean, look at me: I can see the future while most of my friends probably think I’m going to fail Divination.

Speaking of Divination, I was supposed to tell Dumbledore all the dreams I had. Crap. I could hardly go yapping on about how Smith and Snape were drugging Lily. Well, I could and then he would put an end to it which would make things good but then that would mean that Lily would get angry at me for not telling her.

I collapsed onto my bed, drew the hangings close to shut out the moonlight and started mentally complaining about stupid James again.

Stupid James for telling me that where ever he was going wasn’t safe.

Stupid James Potter for telling me that I had to go talk to Remus because it wasn’t his secret to tell.

Stupid James ‘Prongs’ Potter for telling me that I had all the clues and that I could work- oh my Merlin. It just hit me like a speeding train.

Oh my fucking Merlin.

Remus was a werewolf.

That was why where ever he was going wasn’t safe, because it was the full moon and Remus was a werewolf and it had to be Remus because they called him ‘Moony’ and because it’s not James’-but rather Remus’- secret to tell.

Holy hippogriff. My head spun at this new revelation.

Remus was a werewolf: a big, ugly, hairy stinking werewolf. Werewolves killed people: they hurt them and their families.

But no, not Remus-the sweetest guy ever- surely? Sure this was just some crazy figment of my crazy over-active imagination?

That’s right. That had to be it. No, Remus wasn’t a werewolf: there probably was some perfectly good explanation as to why it was Remus’ secret and his name was Moony.

Yes, of course. Silly me: there had to be a perfectly good explanation….

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~Sirius' POV~

The cool air rushed across my face. I flew around Hogwarts castle a few times; just enjoy the feeling of the cool air.

I knew that if I got my Rosie just one diamond, just one, that would be all that I needed for her to forgive me. I didn’t care if she thought I was a player: I had worked hard for that reputation but now it was time for a change. All I needed was a second chance from Rosie.

Soon, I tilted my broom towards the sky and set off on my quest for Rosie’s forgiveness.

I was an owl soaring in the night sky.

I was a hippogriff gliding among the clouds.

I was a Seeker seeking the best prize of all: a starry diamond for my Rosie

Nothing could stop me.

I ran my hair through my knotted hair and wondered what the others were doing.

James was probably dreaming about his Lily, Petey would be nibbling on some cheese while Remus would be studying.

Far below me, I heard an awful howl. It was a howl of pain and distress and angry, all rolled into a huge ball of fury. A voice in the back of my mind said ‘monster, werewolf’. I pushed these thoughts away because why in Merlin’s beard would old Dumbly let a werewolf into the school?

I soared higher and higher into the air. My fingers were becoming quite cold. Perhaps I should have bought some gloves along. Oh well, it was too late now to turn back.

Another howl was let off by the monster. Again, the same voice said ‘help, friend’. Was this little voice mad? I would not help a werewolf: I would get ripped to pieces, and anyway, what would I do? And there was no way it was my friend. I would never be close to such a monster.

The voice pushed harder ‘help! Friend! REMUS!’ That sobered me up for a moment.

It was the full moon and Remus was going through his transformation. I needed to be with him, but a werewolf would rip me to parts. I then remembered that I was an animagus. An unregisted animagus, yes, but an animagus none the less.

So I change into my dog form so I could help him.

But I forgot that I was on a broom. In the sky. Very high in the sky with dog paws which were utterly and completely useless.

Before I knew it, I was falling. Faster and faster I tumbled until I thought I would never reach the ground.

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~James POV~

Finally, I pushed open the doors between the castle and the snow laden grounds. I paused for a moment as I heard poor Remus howl in the distance. He would be at the shrieking shack with Petey which left the drunk Sirius well out of the way with some girl in some cupboard. At least he would be safe.

I transformed into my stag form and ran towards the Forbidden Forest. That was where Remus’ howl had come from. Sharp branches tore at my sides but I kept on running. Suddenly, I burst into a clearing. This was one Sirius and I often lured Remus to so other objects such as trees wouldn’t be a threat to him.

I heard another howl, but strangely this one came from above me. How was Remus in the sky? Did he somehow magically become a flying werewolf?

I looked up into the sky and saw a figure falling. It definitely wasn’t a human figure, but somehow it didn’t quite fit the shape of a werewolf’s figure. In fact, it looked distinctly like a dog-a dog that was falling from the sky and would soon be mashed onto the ground.

“Accio broom!" I whipped out my wand. I had maybe 20 seconds before the dog became mush.

One one thousand...two one thousand...three one thousand…

Why was there a dog in the sky? The only dogs around here were Padfoot and Fang.

Crap. Sirius. He was drunk out of his mind and I just assumed that he would be with some girl but he was probably that dog.

WHERE IS A BROOM WHEN YOU NEED IT?

Twelve one thousand…thirteen one thousand…fourteen one thousand...

Thump: the broom flew into my hand. I mounted the broom and took off.

Whooshing up to Padfoot, I deftly caught him.

I landed on the ground and put him down softly. I didn’t want to lay him in the snow-he would be freezing- but what choice did I have? In the distance I heard another of Remus' agonising howls. Crap, is Petey still even alive?

Sirius let out a low growl.

"Come on, Padfoot, you have to change back," I said and slapped his furry mongrel face, "Come on, Pads. Please." His eyes were open but they were staring blankly at to the left of my face.

"Dammit, Sirius! Change!" I yelled and shook his doggy form. Thanks to some miracle, he did.

"Jamesie!" he squealed and sat up.

"Sirius, you have to go back to Gryffindor Tower," I said as firmly as possible.

"No, but I have to get my Rosie a diamond!" he wailed, "I have to go higher than the sky!"

Merlin, Sirius made no sense when he was drunk.

"No, Sirius. You have to go back to the tower," I said and that was when he passed out and Remus the werewolf appeared from the forest in front of me.

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~Alexis' POV~

A humungous grey werewolf was charging through the forest. It stopped to howl at the moon. It was scared and angry and worried and furious at the same time.

It knew something was wrong. Where was the black dog and large stag that normally appeared on the full moon?

A small grey rat perched the monster's rippling muscle. It trembled vigorously, or it could have just been the strong wind rustling its short fur. Bright red blood soaked it’s already matted fur.

In the back of its mind, a small human boy was struggling to control the beast that raged.

Momentarily, the beast was distracted by a falling figure in the night sky and the boy seized control of the animal's body but the werewolf was untameable. It threw the boy into the deep recesses of its mind and howled as it returned to its former glory: a glory that was only obtainable by the beast once a month.

The werewolf was in control and it was hungry. It wanted that falling figure: that sweet, tender juicy morsel and then it would move on to bigger and better things.

The monstrous beast charged through the woods and burst out of the dense foliage.

It saw the fallen figure on the ground, but crouching next to it was another boy: this one with the same coloured hair in the night sky but with a pair of glasses perched on his nose. The werewolf licked its lips and hot drool rolled down its matted fur: it would get two entrees tonight.

The crouching boy looked at the werewolf and transformed into a stag. The transformation entranced the beast for a few moments. It was fascinated at how the boy's back arched and his skull elongated but now, the boy was no longer edible: the one lying on the ground would have to suffice.

The werewolf crossed the space between him and the boy and the stag in less the ten paces. It leapt across the last two and dove for the boy. Mid-dive the stag lunged to the beast, coming between the werewolf and its prey.

The werewolf was knocked back. It tipped its drool covered chin to the sky and howled.

Nobody got in the way of the wolf at the height of his glory and his prey.

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I woke up panting, as if I had just run a marathon. The back of my neck was drenched in sweat but I was shivering.

Remus was a werewolf.

It wasn’t just my hyperactive imagination: Remus Lupin was a werewolf. And even more than that, a werewolf who had three animal friends helping him out: a rat, a dog and a stag. What kind of silly animals would even go near a werewolf, let alone help it?

I felt like slapping myself. I kept referring to the werewolf as ‘it’ but Remus isn’t an ‘it’: Remus is a person, he is my friend. I would do anything to help him.

And then for the second time that night, I was hit by another speeding train.

Remus had three other Marauders; Remus had three animal friends helping him.

Remus was nicknamed ‘Moony’ due to his condition: James, Sirius and Peter had their own nicknames.

My crazy logic tells me that the werewolf’s three animal friends are Remus’ fellow Marauders.

Obviously, James was the stag: hence the nickname ‘Prongs’. Peter was ‘Wormtail’ while Sirius was ‘Padfoot’. So the rat on the werewolf’s shoulder was Peter and Sirius was the dog.

So why weren’t James and Sirius already helping Remus in their animal forms? I didn’t think they were dumb enough to wonder around outside the castle when there was a werewolf on the loose.

When would this happen anyway? I had the same problem with James’ dad and look what happened there.

Questions questions questions and so little answers.

And who was the boy lying on the ground? There wasn’t enough light his face but something told me that it was Sirius.

The conversation with James earlier that night started to reply in my head.

You don’t understand…go up to your dorm…not my place to tell you…not safe…ask Moony. It’s his secret…all the clues are under your nose…matter of life and death.

It was tonight. The future in my dream would happen tonight and Sirius was going to get his insides torn out by his best friend who is a werewolf.

No.

No. I would not let that happen.

I sprang off the couch and ran out of the tower, soon leaving the Fat Lady’s shrieks behind.

I sprinted as fast as my legs would take me. I’m not exactly the fittest girl around and by the time I reached the heavy front doors, my calves were burning. Only the fact that Sirius might be in danger kept me going.

I pushed open the doors and stepped out. A chilly blast of wind hit my face and I thanked Merlin that I remembered to grab my thickest jumper before I went to get James.

Coming from the Forbidden Forest, I heard a long howl. That must be Remus. What other animals or magical beings let out howls on the night of a full moon? I just prayed that my deduction of my dream and what James had told me was correct- that indeed it was tonight that Sirius was in danger.

Taking off at a slow jog, I headed for the Forbidden Forest. Soon, the tall dark trees loomed in front of me and for a moment, I lost my nerve.

I mean, what can I do against a werewolf?

I cleared my head, and steeled my resolve. My dream was going to come true tonight. I knew it and I had to do something to not let it happen.

I took my first step in the forest. I half expected the werewolf to appear as I entered the forest but it didn’t. Soon, I was making my way through the trees, following the direction that I heard Remus’ howl.

Suddenly, the trees cleared in front of me and the moon up above me blinded me.

As soon as my eyes refocused, I knew I had found him. Actually, I had found all four of them.

The werewolf was lunging towards a stag while a black haired boy lay a few steps next to me in the snow. I assumed that rat was here somewhere. I took one look at the boy in the snow and instantly knew that it was Sirius. It had to be. Was he still alive?

I tore my eyes away from his still body and saw the stag and the werewolf struggling. The stag somehow struggled free and danced lightly away from the large grey beast, despite a long gash in its side.

The stag mustn’t have realised that I was there because it started to trot in my direction. I wanted to scream: to yell and rage and ask the stupid stag what it was doing but I had no time for emotions as the werewolf suddenly sniffed the air and looked right at me.

It knew I was here

And it wanted human flesh.

It howled into the night sky and came bounding over in my direction, completely disregarding the stag. The stag tried to stop it but its wound was starting to affect it.

Suddenly, the werewolf was only a few strides from me. It less than a few seconds it would be upon me and I knew it wanted to kill me. I wasn’t facing Remus anymore. Remus was gone while this night was still alive and the only thing left was this great towering beast.

There was nothing I could do. I knew I was going to die.
 
 


Chapter 22: She knew
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~Alexis POV~

My mother died when I was 6. She was the most beautiful person in the world. She was kind and loving and always had a smile on her face. She was very fair and treated me just like an adult even though I was nowhere near one.

I wished she had died earlier. I feel like a horrible person for saying that but it is the truth. If she died when I was younger, then I would not remember her.

For weeks after they killed her, I cried myself to sleep at night. I knew my father did the same.

Once, I was awake in the dead of the night. For once, my dreams were of the past and not the future. I saw them come over and over again and each time they ruthlessly slaughtered her.

I’d gone downstairs to pour myself a glass of milk. Mum always made me warm milk when I couldn’t sleep at night. I’d tiptoed past my father’s room as not to wake him and had heard big gasping sobs.

My father wasn’t supposed to cry like that. In fact, he wasn’t supposed to cry. He was the big strong man that lifted me onto his shoulder when there were parades in the streets and piggy backed me when I was tired.

He was the man who let me stay in the restaurant late at night when mum was out on a business trip. He’d let me sit in my favourite corner booth with my Dragon. Dragon was made by mum for me when she was too heavily pregnant to do anything but sit in her leather armchair and sew.

My mother was the loveliest person you would have ever met. She'd do anything for her young family: not her parents or brother and sister, though. I learnt from a young age that mum was not on speaking term with the rest of her family.

"You are young, Alex," she had said, "You would not understand."

"Please, Mum. Try to explain it to me? I want to know," I'd begged. Finally she gave in. She had explained about her pure-blooded parents and how they did not approve of her marrying my muggle father.

"There are many things I want for you, Alex. Many many things. When you grow older, I would love you to get married one day and have a family of your own. One thing to keep in mind is that you should marry for love: not because of blood status," she said in all seriousness, "Just because someone is pure-blooded, does not mean they are better than half-bloods or muggle borns or even muggles."

What she was saying was ridiculous. I mean, I'd just started first grade and she wanted to talk about me getting married?

But it all made sense now. Mum was telling me to follow my heart and not be influenced by other peoples' thinking's and ways of life.

The thing I miss about my mum the most is her hugs. She had her own special smell that was warm and sweet and slightly powdery.

The scent would especially cling to her purple cardigans. Her favourite purple cardigans. Mum adored the colour purple. Her special briefcase that she took to work was purple. My mother's colour was purple and now stupid Rebecca was taking it for her stupid wedding.

I knew exactly what was going to happen that fateful morning. I had seen it a few weeks before but had dismissed it as a nightmare. At the time I didn't know everything I was going to dream was going to come true.

They'd come at dawn. They hadn't bothered even trying to hide themselves. They blew open the door and marched straight up the stair case. I'd flung open the door to see what was going on. It was a big mistake-they'd actually come for me.

"You, child," a greying old lady had snarled and grabbed me by the front of pyjamas, "have no right to be here." The door to my parent's room was flung open, revealing my mother with her wand at the ready. Dad stood behind her.

"Drop her, Esmeralda," my mother had ordered.

"What? No hello to your dear mother?" the old lady pouted.

"You should show your parents respect," the man with a salt and pepper beard said.

"You stopped being my parents when walked out of your house," my mother snarled. I was so shocked: what had happened to my sweet mother?

"Now now Calla, dear, there's no need for that tone," the old lady said patronisingly. Suddenly, she tugged me in front of her to use me as a human shield. I couldn't breathe: the collar of my pyjamas had been twisted horribly around my neck. Everything seemed like something out of a fairytale.

"The girl comes with us," salt and pepper man said. I could feel myself getting lightheaded

"Don't try and follow us dearies...or else," the old lady said and pointed her wand to the side of my head. I panicked. I started to struggle, to break free, but the lady had an iron fist. Or else what? Why weren't my parents doing anything? Why were they just standing there? Why weren't they helping me?

"Drop her," my father said and took a step towards Esmeralda. My eyes felt like they were going to pop out of their sockets. My stomach was threatening to pop out of my mouth. If my parents were going to stated there and watch me choke, then I would have to do something by myself.

So I did. I screamed the first spell that came to my head.

"Stupefy!" It was the one on my favourite television program about to children who like playing pranks on each other. Suddenly, the tension around my neck lifted and the old lady and salt and pepper man dropped to the ground like a bag of stones.

"Quickly, you must go," my father said to my mother, "take Alex and find somewhere safe. I'll find you."

"But Henry-"

"No buts, Calla. Please just go," my father turned to us and said desperately.

Everything happened so quickly. I was only six and I didn't even have a wand. My 'stupefy' spell wasn't strong at all and before I knew what had happened, the old lady and man had sprung back to life.

"AVADA KEDAVRA!" the old lady shrieked and flung her wand around to face me. Green light poured from her wand coming straight at me. Mum dived to shield me.

If only I could stupefy the green light then everything would be ok. If I could stop the green light then she never would have died protecting me. All I had to do was stupefy it...stupify it...stupify it.

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“STUPEFY!” I screamed at the werewolf. It stopped dead in its tracks but it didn’t drop to the ground and I was sure that its eye balls still twitched.

Nothing happened or a few moments and I was wondering if I had got the rat stag and dog thing wrong.

The stag trotted up to me. The rat was perched on its shoulder. James and Peter didn’t transform back into their human form and my doubts began to grow. I mean, three friends all being animagus was pretty unlikely…

The stag lowered its head in a gesture that resembled a nod. I think it was thanking me.

I cleared my throat.

“I know it’s you, James. That rat on your shoulder? It’s Peter. That is Remus,” I pointed to the stunned werewolf, “And Sirius is a dog.”

The stag stood staring right at me. It looked at me right in the eye and blinked a few times. It turned its head towards the rat. They seemed to be having some sort of telepathic conversation.

“It’s you, James. I know it is. Don’t pretend,” I said nervously. Maybe I was just talking to bunch of animals?

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~James’ POV~

She knew.

No, she couldn’t! Could she?

She’s a smart girl and I did tell her everything was right under her nose but how did she now that we were animagi?

“Come on, guys. Enough. Change back,” she said firmly. Oh my Merlin, she knew. She knew.

Perched on my shoulder, Peter’s leg was ripped to bits. My flanks were bleeding pretty badly and Sirius was lying unconscious in the snow. He would be freezing while werewolf Remus was just waiting to rip him to bits.

We had no choice. Well, we did but it wasn’t a very nice one. Either, we could change back or we could pretend that we are just animals but then Alexis and unconscious Sirius would still be here when Alexis’ spell wore off. I inwardly sighed. We had no choice.

I shrugged my shoulder in the way that indicated to Wormtail that he should hop off. When he was safely on the ground I transformed into my human form. Beside me, Peter did the same.

“Oh my Merlin,” Alexis said under her breath, “I was right.”

“How did you know?” I demanded as soon as my mouth was fully formed. Alexis just blinked back at me.

“I-I just do,” she stuttered.

“Somebody must have told you!” I said.

“Look, can we do this later? I’m pretty sure he’s about to be un-stunned,” Alexis said, looking at Remus.

“Fine,” I said through gritted teeth. I had to get my priorities right. Making sure everyone was safe from Remus was the most important thing: finding out how Alexis knew came second.

“I’ll take Sirius out. I don’t think he’ll be doing any good lying in the snow. Will you and Peter be ok?” she asked, eyeing our bloody tops.

“We’ll be fine,” I said and tried to wake Sirius up.

“Not your first time, huh?” she said and walked over to Sirius and I. I felt like throttling her. No one was supposed to know about us being animagi. I mean, we weren’t registered. Would she blab?

“Nnnnmmmhhh,” Sirius groaned and his eyes flickered open, “Rosie! I tried to bring you back a star…but I fell.” Right, so that was why he was flying drunk in the sky in the first place.

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~Alexis POV~

Um, why was Sirius trying to get me a star?

“Mate,” James said to Sirius, “You and Alexis have to go back to Gryffindor Tower.”

“Mmmm,” he said with a blissful smile on his face. Why was he smiling, did he not remember that he and I were not exactly on speaking terms?

“Come on, Sirius. Let’s go,” I took his arm and dragged him back to Gryffindor Tower. He was stumbling around and at one point I actually thought he was going to collapse. How badly did Remus hurt him?

I eventually managed to put Sirius to bed and I dragged myself to my own dorm. I feel asleep before I had time to even take off my shoes.


Chapter 23: Avoiding explanations
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~Alexis POV~

The minute I woke up, my mind started reeling. Remus was a werewolf. James, Sirius and Peter were unregistered animagi while Sirius was drunk out getting a star for me.

I stumbled down to breakfast, my mind still trying to make sense of the past few hours.

"Miss Rose," Dumbledore approached me when I had finished my breakfast, "a word in my office?"

I followed him. The moment I stepped inside, I had flash backs about Dumbledore telling James his father was dead. I should have told him. It would have been the right thing to do. Instead, James' father was dead.

"Have a seat, Miss Rose," Dumbledore said kindly as he pushed his half-moon glasses higher up on his nose.

"Is there anything you would like to tell me? Any visions lately?" he enquired.

"Yes," I said truthfully, my voice laced with guilt. I could have saved James' father.

"And what were they about?" he asked.

"I knew James' father was going to die," I whispered. Dumbledore raised his eyebrows but other than that, he showed no other expression.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because I didn't believe it. And anyway, I didn't know how he was going to die, like, if it was going to be of a suspicious cause or maybe he had a heart attack or something and when I tried to tell you, Madame Pomfrey said that I couldn't leave and by the time she let me go, I didn't have to courage to come here," I said.

"Miss Rose, you have a very great gift. Do you understand that?" I nodded, "It is very well developed and I have no doubt that every single thing you dream will come true. Now, you can use this gift for the greater good and come tell me or you could let it gnaw at you until you dread going to sleep."

"I'm sorry, Professor," I whispered.

"It's not me you should be apologising to, Miss Rose," he said, "The question is: can you forgive yourself?"

"I could have saved him," I whispered, "He could be alive."

"That is not so."

"It isn't?"

"I believe that your gift is very strong, Miss Rose. I believe that what every you see will come to pass no matter what you do," Dumbledore said, "But enough of that. There is something else troubling you, what is it?"

I recalled how I had seen inside Remus' head when he had been a werewolf and how I had seen James turn into a stag and Peter into a rat and how I believed Sirius could turn into a dog.

I thought about how I had seen Smith and Snape talking about that potion. What was it called? That's right: cupiditium adfectus. But surely Dumbledore didn't need to know about that? Surely he didn't need to know about the petty goings on of his students?

"Remus is a werewolf," I said, "I saw it in my dreams."

"I know," Dumbledore surprisingly said, "Does it disturb you, Miss Rose?"

"I...I don't know," I said. How did I feel about Remus being a werewolf? I hadn't anytime to think about it last night and it was just starting to sink in.

"Are you afraid of him?" Dumbledore asked.

"Well, not exactly Professor. He is such a good friend and he only turns into a monster at the full moon. I mean, other than that, he's a perfectly normal person, isn't he?" Dumbledore nodded his agreement.

"I am glad you feel that way, Miss Rose. Mr Lupin must go through this by himself and I'm sure it would not help his cause if he knew that you despised him for being a werewolf and spread the knowledge around the school."

"But, sir, Remus isn't alone. He's got James the stag and Peter the rat and I think that Sirius may be a dog." Dumbledore had a look of utter surprise on his face. Oh Merlin, don't tell me he didn't know they were unregistered animagi.

"Is that so, Miss Rose?" I nodded. "Hmmm, well, I certainly can't see them doing Remus any harm. How about we keep the fact that I know they are unregistered between us two?"

"Ok, sir."

"Is there anything else bothering you?" he asked. I thought about Snape and Smith and the love potion.

"No, sir."

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~James' POV~


It was close to dawn before Peter and I eventually lured Remus back to the Shrieking Shack.

“Let’s go, mate,” I said to Petey as the sun started to rise.

We had maybe three hours of sleep and then it was Alexis Rose Interrogation Time (ARTT for short).

Peter and I made it back to our dorm. I quickly healed our scratches and bruises, made sure Sirius was still in bed and then we went to bed.

I woke up at eleven and decided to look in the common room for Alexis. Thank god today was Saturday and I didn't have classes. Alexis and Lily sat in the corner table. Damn, how was I going to get Alexis away from her?

“We need to talk,” I said as I flopped down on a spare seat.

“Go away, James. I need to finish my homework,” she said tiredly.

“No, we need to talk,” I said firmly.

“Homework,” she said as she rocked unsteadily in her chair. Lily’s head was going back and forth between us.

"What's going on?" Lily asked suspiciously.

"Nothing," Alexis said quickly. Too quickly.

"Tell me," Lily commanded, "James, tell me." I hated when Lily asked me to do something. Rarely could I say no except when it came to protecting one of my best mates-Remus that is, not Alexis.

"Nothing's going on, Lily," I sighed and went to get some breakfast from the kitchens.

Today was going to be a long day.

I had to convince Alexis to talk to me so I could ask her how she knew that Smith and Snape were making some love potion called cupiditium adfectus.

I had to find out how she knew to come to the Forbidden Forest. Most students would keep well out of its way. This month has been the first time anything has gone wrong with us Marauders helping Remus at the full moon and it just so happens that she turns up: it was no coincidence.

I had to make sure she told no one about Remus' furry little problem and she told no one about Peter and I being unregistered animagi. She probably suspected that Sirius was one as well, but she had no proof, right?

"Pancakes and maple syrup," I said when Figgie, a kitchen house elf, asked me. I thanked her and then proceeded to wolf them down.

I had until Monday to talk to Alexis because after that it was Christmas break. I didn't want to go home: it would remind me of what I had lost. At least Sirius would be coming home with me but who would mum have?

I blinked back some tears and quickly finished my pancakes. Deciding that I should visit Remus, I thanked Figgie once again and left.

"How you feeling?" I asked a battered looking Remus.

"She knows, doesn't she?" Remus said.

"Yes, she knows," I said.

"Who told her?" he demanded.

"No one did. She figured it out and then she came outside and saw for herself," I explained.

"She must hate me."

"I don't know, mate. I've been trying to talk to her all morning but she avoids me."

"I'm going to talk to her, James. She should be hearing this from me."

"Fine, but why didn't you remind me and Sirius?" I asked.

"Your father had just died and I'd seen how badly Sirius was affected by Alexis so I didn't want to be one more thing for you to be worried about," he explained.

"Moony, you are so silly. You are me and Sirius' best mate and if you think that you are just 'one more thing to worry about' then you are highly delusional," I shook my head, "Next time just tell us, ok?"

"Ok."

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~Alexis POV~

I hid in the girls dorms all Saturday afternoon and Sunday. I made sure that Lily and Alice and Frank were with me whenever I went to mealtimes and carefully avoided any sort of contact with any of the Marauders.

I mean, what was I supposed to say? 'I can see the future so I saw that Sirius was in trouble because I saw Remus the werewolf's desire to hurt him'? No, I don't think so.

So I avoided them.

I caught the Hogwart's Express back to London with Lily and waited for Dad to come and pick me up.

Eventually, I spotted him in the crowd.

"Dad!" I cried and ran over to him. I was just about to give him a huge hug when I realised that he was looking straight through me like I was invisible.

Without a word he exited Kings Cross and walked over to his car. I followed him. He open the boot and I dumped by stuff inside. Silently, we drove home.

Chapter 24: The truth
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~Alexis POV~

The silent treatment continued for the next few days.

I wanted to scream and to kick and to punch but instead I ate quietly during dinners and disappeared into my room in all my spare time.

Occasionally, I'd catch glimpses of dad and Rebecca acting all lovey-dovey and couple-y. It made me want to cry, puke and be happy all at the same time. My dad was finally happy- something that he hasn't been for the past 9 years- so why was I not?

Eventually, I could no longer stand being ignored.

"Dad," I said as I walked downstairs. He didn't even acknowledge my presence.

"Dad," I said more loudly. Nothing.

"Dad, why do you keep ignoring me?" I eventually said frustrated.

"Why do you think I keep ignoring you?" he said monotonously.

"I'm sorry I sent Rebecca that note," I whispered.

"Are you?" he said.

"Yes. I was just so upset when you sent me that howler. How did you manage to send one anyway?" I asked.

"That's a secret, Alex," he replied.

"Hey, dad?" I asked, wondering if he wanted me to just leave him alone and go do the right thing and apologise properly to Rebecca.

"Yeah?"

"Please don't call me Alex anymore. It's Alexis."

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I didn't want to apologise to Rebecca. Apologising was accepting that she was marrying my dad and that was that. But what else was I supposed to do?

"Rebecca?" I finally gathered the courage.

"Yes, Alexis?" she said, fake politely.

"I'm sorry for sending you that letter," I said and realised that I actually was sorry.

"It's alright, darlin'. It was actually quite hilarious." I blinked. Hilarious? She thought me getting angry was hilarious?

"But honestly, do you wish me and your father weren't getting married?" she asked. I was slightly shocked. She actually cared about what I thought?

"I didn't know you were getting married. I didn't even know that dad knew you. I just got an owl one day from dad saying he's met this woman and they were getting married," I said completely truthfully.

"He never mentioned me?" she blinked.

"Um, no..."

"Never mind, I'm sure he was just waiting for the right moment," she said, "Maybe your father and I are rushing into things...perhaps we shouldn't be getting married so soon."

"What? No, you have to!" I said and I meant it.

"Alexis, I know you don't us to but if we are going to be a proper family, shouldn't we be starting on the right foot?"

"You make dad so happy," I whispered, "Ever since mum died, he hasn't been happy."

"But what about you? Are you happy?"

"Do I have to be a bridesmaid? I know you don't want me too and I don't want to be one," I asked.

"No, you don't have to be."

"Then, yes, I am happy."

"Your father won't be happy about you bringing your boyfriend. What's his name...Sirius?" she asked.

"Yes, Sirius," I said, frowning, "but he's not my boyfriend."

"Sure thing, hun, that's what they all say," she said with a wink.

"I'm serious!" I exclaimed, "We had this big argument and I haven't even spoken to him for about a week."

"What did you fight about?"

"Sirius has this reputation at Hogwarts..." I trailed off, not really knowing how to explain.

"Ahhhh, I see. He was a player, no?" I nodded. "And you wanted to have some sort of serious relationship? No pun intended."

"Yeah, and then I called him a player to his face and then he said he wanted to change and he told me I was beautiful and funny and smart but then I asked him how many times has he used that line and then walked off," I explained. Rebecca whistled softly.

"Alexis, a boy doesn't tell you all that for no reason. He sure has balls for saying it."

"You don't know him, Rebecca. Sirius is the kind of guy who has a reputation for not having girlfriends but rather snog buddies," I said. I couldn't believe I was discussing boys with someone who was going to be my 'mother'.

"Boys grow up eventually, Alexis. Maybe Sirius decided it was time for him," Rebecca said, "Now, enough of this. The letter and everything else is history. How about we start over again?"

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Dad came into my room that night. I was reading a muggle book when he sat down on the edge of my bed.

"Alexis?" he started off.

"What?"

"I realise the last few months has been tough on you," You think, Dad? "But I want to say thank you."

"For what?" I asked blankly.

"For accepting Rebecca. I love her, I really do and this wedding means so much to both her and me..." Dad said.

"I know" I whispered.

"I know this may feel like I am trying to replace your mother but I'm not. Your mother will always have a special place in my heart and Rebecca will not be overtaking that place," Dad said.

"Really?"

"Yes."

"The wedding's theme colour is purple," I said flatly.

"I know you don't want it to be, sweetheart. I know," Dad said.

"Can't it be any other colour?" I asked hopefully.

"No." My face fell, "I know it's hard for you. It was Calla's favourite colour but Rebecca tells me that you don't want to be a bridesmaid."

"I don't want to be. I don't want everyone looking at me and I don't want to wear a purple dress and, besides, Rebecca doesn't want me to be one."

"When did she say that?" Dad asked.

"At the dress fitting. She didn't know I was listening," That shut Dad up for a bit, "But it's ok, me and Rebecca are starting with a clean slate."

"Well, that's good then. Now what about this Sirius boy?" Oh no, I'd hoped he'd had forgotten about that.

"Nothing, Dad. Lily was just trying to be funny."

"Ok, then." Dad said. Awkward silence.

"I'm sorry, Dad," I whispered.

"For what?" he asked, looking surprised.

"It was all my fault." I felt myself choking up, "I knew it was going to happen. If I'd just said something, then it wouldn't have happened. If I'd just said something, mum would be here."

"You knew?" Dad spluttered, "You knew that Esmeralda was going to kill Calla?"

"Yes. It's all my fault," I sobbed. I wanted Dad to give me a hug and tell me it was ok and that it wasn't my fault. I wanted him to make me warm milk like Mum used to. I wanted him to not be so disappointed in everything I did.

There were many things I wanted but instead, Dad got up and silently walked out of my room.

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Christmas was horrible. Well, Rebecca was being pretty decent but Dad had gone on ignoring me again.

I woke up at ten in the morning and looked at the pile of presents underneath the Christmas tree. It was tradition for me to buy my Dad a pair of socks and a tie for Christmas but looking at the two small parcels under the tree, everything felt wrong. A small box the size of my fist contained the necklace I'd bought for Rebecca.

"Merry Christmas, Alexis," Rebecca said as she walked into the living room. She handed me a steaming cup of hot chocolate which I blew on to cool it.

"Merry Christmas, Rebecca," I replied.

"Why don't you open your present?" Rebecca gestured to the tree.

"It's Rose tradition to open our Christmas presents together," I said. This was technically true although both Dad and I knew what was in our presents. Mine always had a pairing of earrings or a bracelet in it.

"Your father's gone out," Rebecca said and pressed her lips together. She didn't seem too happy.

"Is everything ok?" I asked. Rebecca shook her head and started to cry.

"Since y-you came b-back, he's h-hasn't been himself. I always c-catch him looking at p-pictures of Calla or g-gazing out the window," she sobbed. I sat her down on the couch and handed her a box of tissues. What was I supposed to do with a sobbing soon-to-be-step-mum?

"It's my fault," I whispered. I didn't want it to be true but deep down I knew it was.

"What do you mean?" she said after she blew her nose.

"It's hard to explain,' I said.

"Can you please try?" Rebecca said. She looked so pathetic with her black mascara running down her face with her pink cheeks and red eyes that I couldn't say no.

I tried to explain the best I could about pure-bloods and what happened with Mum. I stumbled when I got to the part where I had the Second Sight but I told her anyway. I told her how I knew Esmeralda was coming and how Mum would die and how I knew James' dad would die. I told her how I knew it was all my fault and that Dad didn't take the news well when he found out I knew the Mum would die protecting me.

"It's not your fault, Alexis," Rebecca said when I was done.

"Yes it is."

"No it's not. There was nothing you could have done to stop Esmeralda and her husband from coming to find you. I mean, for heaven's sake, you were only six!" she exclaimed.

"I could have told Mum what I had seen," I whispered.

"Would Calla have believed you?" Rebecca asked. I didn't think so: young witches with the Second Sight were known not to have very accurate predictions.

"Dad blames me," I said.

"That's not true!" she protested but I knew it was a lie.

"Yes it is, he's never properly gotten over Mum and he's always blamed me. I mean, they were after me in the first place and she died protecting me. That makes it my fault," I sobbed.

"No. No, it doesn't. Esmeralda killed your mum: not you. It is Esmeralda's fault," Rebecca said firmly.

"Really?"

"Yes."

"How do you know?"

"It is the truth."

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Chapter 25: Mending broken ties
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a.n. As you may know, I am an epic fan of Dmbledor quotes! In this chapter, I used a quote from him from page 722 of J. K. Rowling's 'Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows'. It is ‘Do not pity the dead. Pity the living and above all, those who live without love.’

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~Alexis' POV~

Dad didn’t come back until lunchtime.

“Dad, where were you?” I asked das soon as he stepped in the front door.

“Let’s talk about that later, Alexis. Let’s open presents now!” he cried gleefully. I f Rebecca was so upset, then why was Dad so happy?

“Sure.”

Rebecca was ecstatic when she opened her present for me. She insisted that she wear the necklace as part of her wedding jewellery while Dad said he would wear the socks.

Dad didn’t give me his usually bracelet. Instead, he gave me a dog-tag style necklace with an engraved quote. It read ‘Do not pity the dead. Pity the living and above all, those who live without love.’

“I don’t blame you, Alex. I never have and I never will,” he said and gave me a huge hug. I felt tears sting my eyes but for the first time ever, they were tears of happiness.

“I’m sorry if you ever felt like I blamed you for Calla’s death,” Dad whispered. I didn’t know what to say.

So I didn’t say anything at all. Eventually, Dad let go.

“Anyway,” he cleared his throat, “I have another present for you!” Rebecca clapped her hands excitedly.

“You are going to love this,” she squealed. Dad and Rebecca lead me into the hall and there sat a brand new Cleansweep.

“Oh my Merlin,” I gasped. I rushed over to the broom and picked it up to inspect it.

Its shiny handle gleamed in the hallway. He hadn’t forgotten I’d asked for a Cleansweep.

“Can I try it?” I asked excitedly.

“Not in the hall,” Rebecca laughed.

I rushed outside in my pyjamas and took off into the air. For the first time in a while, my brain turned to Quidditch.

What had James done to replace the chaser who’d broken his arm? Did they still have an open spot? Did I even care if they did?

A shiver ran through me and I realised that fly in my pyjamas in the middle of winter probably wasn’t the smartest idea.

“How is it?” Dad asked as I landed.

“A-ma-zing!” I cried.

“I knew you’d like it,” Dad grinned back at me, “Now how about we get some lunch?”

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An owl arrived for me just after I’d finished doing the dishes.

Carefully removing the letter I took it up to my bedroom.

Dear Al,
I want to know what happened. Why did you refuse to talk to any of the guys before we left Hogwarts? Why has James been bugging me about where you live? WHAT IS GOING ON? I NEED A SUITABLE EXPLANATION!!!

Anyway, now that’s got out of the way: how’s your Christmas been? Mum wants to know if you want to come over the night before the Hogwarts Express leaves and then we can take you to the station the next day. Alice will be there as well.

Oh, and James sent me a letter to send you. I didn’t read it (*ahem*, why does he need to know why you know? *ahem*) because I’m nice like that.

And before I forget, Remus and Sirius hves been owling me about you to get your address and I eventually gave in so know they know where you live. Why suddenly so popular? ;) hahaha. But seriously, what is going on?

Love Lily


Lily had enclosed another letter, presumably from James.

Alexis,
I’m sending this letter to Lily so she can send it to you because she won’t give me your address.

I need to know what you know and how. Why did you keep avoiding us Marauders? I need answers, Alexis.

James


So now Lily knew that James knew that I knew something.

Crap. I had dug myself into a huge mess with no way out. But I need an escape. I couldn’t tell them.

I went downstairs to ask Dad if I could go to Lily’s- which he agreed to- and then sat down to write a reply to both letters.

Dear Lily,
Some things came up a few days before we left and I didn’t really want to talk about it with the Maraudesr. It would probably be better if I told you face-to-face. You probably wouldn’t believe me if I said it anyway.

Christmas has been great! Dad got me a Cleansweep. It is so amazing: no joke, it flies like the wind. And I'd love to come over the night before!

As for James, don't worry about it. We can always talk when we get back to school.

I'm sorry I can't tell you more.

Love Alexis


I didn't want to explain everything to Lily, but what choice did I have?

I'd just sent my letter off when an owl came sweeping into the room. It was carrying a letter from Remus.

Dear Alexis,
I know that you know I am a werewolf and that it is the reason you avoided me before the Christmas break.

I want you to know that if you do not wish to talk or associate with me, I fully understand, but I would greatly appreciate it if you did not spread it around the school.

Tomorrow night, my family and I are going to your father's restaurant- just a little bit of warning.

Yours sincerely,
Remus Lupin


WHAT?! He thought that I didn't want to talk to the Marauders was because I didn't like associating with a werewolf?!?! No no no no. This was not right at all.

Quickly, I grabbed a piece of parchement to scrawl back a reply.

Remus,
HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND?! I DON'T CARE THAT YOU ARE A WEREWOLF!!!

I've been trying to avoid James (not you) because he wants to talk about something that I don't want to talk about.

You are an amazing friend but slightly spastic if you think that I wouldn't want to be friends because you are a werewolf.

Anyways, we will continue this conversation tomorrow.

Love Al.


I quickly attached the note to the waiting owl.

I honestly didn't care that Remus was a werewolf: he was a really good friend. And besides, he was only a werewolf once a month and when he was, he was not himself. I was proven right by what I had seen in my dreams.

Slowly my mind turned to what Dumbledore had told me the day after the full moon.

No doubt that every single thing will come true...use this gift for the greater good...

Was he right in saying that everything I Saw would come true? Maybe I was just a really bad Seer and my mind just liked playing tricks on me.

I thought about the two things that I had seen involving my friends that had yet to come true. I Saw Remus coming back to Hogwarts and James proposing to Lily.

I closed my eyes and tried to recall every single detail from my dream about Remus.

I'd seen my dream through Remus' eyes. He'd been dreaming about his friends- friends that he had lost a long time ago- more specifically, 14 years. But why hadn't Remus seen Lily or James or Sirius and Peter in 14 years? What had happened? Why was Remus back on the Hogwart's Express?

To me, there as only one clear explanation- Remus was coming back as a professor 14 years after the rest of the Marauders and Lily disappear or left or abandoned him. My mind kept coming back to the possibility that they all might've even died.

I moved on to my other dream- where James proposed to Lily. I carefully analysed every detail and realised that my gut reaction to this dream was totally wrong. I mean, all I Saw was James propose to Lily: I didn't see whether she had accepted or not. That was the important thing: for all I know, Lily could've whipped out her wand and hexed him right there and then.

But that couldn't be right either because Lily had ecxclaimed when she came out of the bathroom that she hadn't head James come home. Presumably come home to the house they shared. Together.

I let my eyes drift open and tried to shake my head clear but there were just so many questions with so little answers.

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The next day, I insisted that I went with Dad to his restaurant.

"It's the day after Christmas," he argues, "stay here and enjoy what's left of the holidays. Relax."

"No," I firmly stood my ground. Eventually, he gave in and let me come.

The only thing was that I had to wait all the way until that evening until Remus came.

Finally 7 o'clock came around and Remus showed up. He introduced us to his parents and I talked to them for awhile. Eventually, Remus dragged me away from them to our own table: no doubt he wanted answers.

"I still want to be friends," I said as soon as we sat down, "I don't care that you are a werewolf."

"I know. You said it in your letter. The thing I want to know is why wyou were outside in the first place." Oh Merlin, why hadn't I realised that ofcourse James would have told the rest of the Marauders how I had gone outside!

I tried putting on my best wide-eyed innocent look but it didn't work.

"I'm serious, Al," he said.

"No, you're not. You're Remus!" I tried to joke but he just sighed.

"Why'd you go outside?" he asked.

"You know if you don't tell me know then you'll just have to face all four of us Marauders when school comes around again," he said and I realised that what he said was true. Either way, I had some serious explaining to do.

"I can't Remus," I whispered.

"Why not?"

"I just can't."

"You know my deepest and darkest secret. Whatever explanation as to why you were outside when James made sure you were inside can't be as bad as being a werewolf," he tried to reason.

"It is," I said.

"Will it make you a social outcast?" I nodded.

"Will it make people think 'freak' or 'monster' everytime you walk past?" he asked and I nodded again.

"I can't tell you, Remus. I really want to," I said.

"All you have to do is string a few word together," he said, making it sound like the easiet thing in the world.

"I can't."

Remus sighed but he dropped the topic.


Chapter 26: Something to tell you
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~James' POV~

I have the most screwed up friends in the world. Seriously.

Let's take Sirius for example.
He bugs Lily non-stop about Alexis' owling address so he can write her a letter and then when he finally gets it, he can't think of a single thing to write! I mean, how hard is it? Ok, maybe it was hard because Sirius didn't quite know where he stood with Alexis. But stil!!

Now let's look at Remus.
He get's Alexis' address off Lily the first time he asks but then sends her a letter saying he understands that she might not want to be friends with him anymore.

"Why'd you do that for?" I had asked him.

"Because she's been avoiding me. Obviously she doesn't want to be friends with a werewolf." I told l him that I suspected that she was hiding something other than not wanting to be firned.

Oh, and then he goes to dinner at her father's restaurant and doesn't try to get the truth out of her! I mean, what is this? Does no one else care that she is hiding something very big from us and not doing a particularly good job?!

ARRGHHHHH!

Ok, now that I got that out of my system, I feel a lot better.

"James, dear, have you got everything for tomorrow morning?" Mum said as she walked into the room Sirius and I shared.

"Yep," I replied.

"What about you, Sirius?" Mum asked as the boy in question walked through the door.

"Not yet, Aunt Helen," he replied.

"Well, you better get a move on, boys. You'll be going back to school tomorrow morning!" Mum exclaimed then left.

"I hate packing," Sirius grumbled as he chucked stuff randomly into his trunk.

"Well, hurry up. We're having lunch soon," I said.

Mum had been coping very well. She acted like herself and sometimes it seemed like she was pretending that Dad was just on some sort of business trip.

There was always another auror here. Mostly throughout the day, some auror named Blorx stayed while Mum's best friend Caroline stayed during the night.

I missed Dad a lot.Sometimes I dreamed that he was still here. I always enjoyed those dreams.

But then there were some nights that I had nightmares. I'd dreamed that I'd been there that night when he'd been murdered but they'd killed Mum too. Then they'd turn their masked faces on my and point their wands in my direction. I always woke up sweating at that point.

I hated the Death Eaters for killing my father. Before he died, I knew they’d worked for the Dark Lord but I didn’t really care. I didn’t understand what that meant for everybody else.

But things had gotten personal and I wanted revenge.

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~Alexis’ POV~

“Bye, Dad,” I said as I slammed the door shut. It was the day before Hogwarts started again and I was at Lily’s house. I rung the door bell and waited.

“Hello, dear,” a woman with short auburn hair answered the door, “I’m Lily’s mother and you must be Alexis.”

“Hi,” I smiled shyly. I was never good at meeting new people.

“Come in. Come in,” the woman said opened the door wider so I could come in. I barely had time to let my eyes adjust to the lighting when something attacked me.

“ALEXIS!!!” Lily squeeled in my ear.

“LILY!!” I yelled back.

“ARRRGHHHH!!” Alice screamed as she ran down the staircase and envelepoed both of us in a huge hug. Mrs Evans shook her head as she walked away.

Once we’d taken my bags up to Lily’s room, we all sat down for a nice girly chat.

“I heard James has been owling you,” I smiled.

“Hush,” Lily said and looked embarrassed.

“What’s he been saying?” Alice said.

“Not much,” Lily mumbled as she looked down.

“Aww, come one, Lily!” I wheedled.

“I’m totally serious! We’ve just been talk about random stuff!”Lily protested.

“Riiight,” I rolled my eyes, “Lily’s hiding something!”

“Hypocrite,” she said, “I’m not the only one keeping secrets!” Lily looked at me accusingly while Alice seemed just confused.

“What is it? What did I miss?” Alice said. I didn’t say anything.

“Alexis has been hiding something,” she said in an accusing voice. I looked out the window and didn’t say anything.

“What?” Alice asked, “Al, what is it?” I was silent for a while, hoping that maybe they would give up.

“I can’t say,” I whispered. Lily snorted.

“It’s something to do with the boys,” Lily said, “I know that much and whatever it is they are desparate to know as well.”

“I’m sorry,” I whispered, “but I can’t say.”

“Why not?” Alice asked.

“I just can’t,” I shook my head, scared that maybe it was time to tell the truth, but the girls said no more about it.

That evening was one of the best times of my life. We did everything girly and sleepoverish, just like in the movies and we gossiped about the Marauders and many other things.

“Are you and Sirius still not talking?” Lily eventually asked me. From where I was lying, I could see out the window and up into the sky. The stars where not as bright here as in Hogwarts but I could still see them clearly. It reminded me of how Sirius was trying to get me a star.

“You gave him my address right?” I asked.

“Yeah.”

“Well, he never owled me,” I said.

“I’m sorry,” she said.

“It’s not your fault, Lils,” I laughed softly, “What’s up with you and Frank though, Al?”

Turns out that Alice was fast asleep.

“We should probably go to sleep to,” Lily said just after she yawned.

“Too true. ‘Night then, Lily,” I said.

“’Goodnight.”

xxxxx

A bald man in fluttering black robes stood at the wrought iron gate blocking his entrance to a grand brick manor. He laughed manically at their feeble attempt to stop him.

"I will break the gates, my Lord! Oh, let me!" A woman with flying black hair and blood red lips said.

"No, Bellatrix. I will,' he replied in an oddly high pitched voice.

"Maxima bombarda," he said, with an almost lazy flock of his wand. Too easy. He strode confidently down the gravel path, amused as the woman destroyed the car sitting in the drive way. He blew apart the front door. A man stood at where the door should have been, his glasses half falling of his face,

"I won't let you get them! You can't-" he was cut off as the bald man whispered 'avada kedavra' and a burst of green light hit him on his chest. His body thumped dead to the ground. A petrifying shriek escaped from the woman's lips.

"Calm down, Bellatrix. The fun has only begun!" the bald man exclaimed.

Upstairs, another woman, this one with fiery red head, stood clutching her baby. She was terrified.

She thought that he would have chosen Neville, Alice's son. Lily felt guilty about wishing she terror onto her best friend.

But now she knew he was coming after her.

Coming after her to kill her and her baby.

Her Harry.

No. She wouldn't let that happen.

She could hear the front door being blown off its hinges and she instantly knew. The Dark Lord did not show mercy. He would have taken her James. A tear leaked from the corner of her eye as a cold hand clutched her heart.

Did they make the right choice? If only they had more time. If only- the young boy in her arms let out a small cry. How could she forget about Harry? Lily still had Harry. She still had a little of James.

"Mummy loves you, Harry. Mummy loves you very much. You are very loved, Harry," she whispered, "Never forget Mummy loves you." She whispered the last sentence as the door to the nursery was flung open. Lily looked at the doorway and saw Death. Death raised its wand.

“Out of my way, silly girl,” Death said coldly but Lily would not let Death take her Harry. She would rather die.

"I said stand away!" Death roared. Suddenly, he grew impatient. He wanted –no, needed- to kill the boy. The boy was the one in the prophecy that would bring him down. He must die. So what if his insolent mother was in the way?

Lily stared defiantly at Death. She saw him raise his wand as and whispered those dreaded words: 'avada kedavra'.

And Lily Evans was no more.


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My eyes flew open to find Lily and Alice both shaking me.

“Oh my God, Al,” Lily said when she realised that I was awake, “You were screaming so loudly. Are you okay?”

“I..I…yeah, I’m fine,’ I said but it sounded like I meant the exactly opposite, “Just a bad nightmare.”

I wanted to sit down and cry.

"I-I got to go to the bathroom," I said and fled.

Merlin's fucking beard.

I had never so wanted to not have the Second Sight. Never in my life. Not when I knew Mum was going to die. Not when I knew James' dad was going to be killed.

I just wanted it to stop. I did not want to see the future.

After closing the bathroom door behind me, I sat on the floor and tried to calm my breathing. I turned my mind to what I had just Seen.

Lily was going to marry James. She was going to have a baby boy name Harry. Holy Merlin's pants.

Then some dude addressed as 'my Lord' would come after the boy because of some prophecy. Then the guy would kill James and Lily.

Holy Merlin.

Eventually, I picked myself off the ground.

“Are you ok?” Alice asked as I walked back into Lily’s bedroom. I made a small choking noise and Lily looked at me really weirdly.

I could deal with seeing little things. Hell, I could deal with knowing James' dad was going to die and that James is going to marry Lily and that Smith is drugging Lily.

But not this.

If I didn’t tell them, I would never be able to look anyone in the eye again.

“Guys, there’s something I have to tell you.”

xxxxx

a.n. so what do you think?
i know i didn't really stick to what happened the night of Lily and James' death but i wanted to be able to write my own thing. Do you think it turned out alright?
xx,
marauders forever xx


Chapter 27: Secrets and lies
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~Alexis' POV~

"YOU'RE PREGNANT!? Lily screamed and I couldn't help but burst out laughing.

"Nooooo," I laughed, "Not that." They seemed to get the hint that what I was going to say was serious.

"I have the Second Sight."

No, the world did not end and no, the girls didn' shun me.

"ou're serious, aren't you?" Alice said. I nodded.

"But why tell us now?" Lily asked. That night's nightmare came rushing back to me.

I couldn't do this. I couldn't tell Lily that I knew her future and I knew how she was going to die.

I just can't.

"Because you guys are amazing friends and I just wanted to tell you." It sounded like a blatant lie, even to my ears.

But what was I supposed to say? "Lily you're going to die protecting yours and James' son named Harry?"

No.

I would tell them when James started pestering me.

Yes, that is what I would do.

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"So how long have you known you've had the Second Sight?" Lily asked when the Hogwart's Express started moving.

"For as long as I can remember. I don't even know a time when I didn't have my dreams," I shrugged.

"So what have you seen?" Alice asked the dreaeds question. I immediately felt guilty that I knew so much of Lily's future. I should have asked Dumbledore what to do. He knew that I knew what was going to happen to my friends and he never said I couldn't say?

"Bonjourno!" a voice cried as thecompartment door slid open. We looked up to see the four Marauders walking in.

"So how was everybody's holiday?" Remus asked.

"I got a Cleansweep for Christmas!" I cried.

"What? Are you joking?! That is so unfair!" Prongs cried from next to Sirius.

"It is so amazing!" I laughed, "I flew sooo much!"

"So does this mean you'll be joining the team?" James asked eagerly.

"Um...no. I mean, you don't still have a spare position, do you?" I asked. Wondering what I would say if they did have an open position.

"Hughes is playing but I think he wants to quit," James said.

"I wouldn't want to push him out of a place that he worked for," I hesistated. The boys dropped the subject, probably remembering the fit I had last time when they wouldn't leave me alone.

Lily and James started flirting with each and Remus gave me pointed look and rolled his eyes.

A few times I tried to catch Sirius' gaze but he was clearly avoiding me.

Maybe talking to the boys wouldn't be such a bad idea- they would get to know the truth and maybe then Sirius would be willing to work this out.

If he still wanted to be with me, that is. I did call him a player after all. But seriously, what was with him trying to get me a star?

The chatter surrounded me and I started to feel drowsy so I closed my eyes for a little rest but I was scared that some other horrible dream would come to me.

I didn't want to See anymore.

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~Sirius' POV~

I avoided looking even in her direction. I mean, what was I supposed to say?

I hated it when I didn't know where I stood with people I cared about.

I heard the conversation around me but I just looked out the window. Outside, snow was gently swirling to the ground.

"I got a Cleensweep for Christmas!" I heard Rosie cry. I felt jealously bubble up in me.

"What? Are you joking?! That is so unfair!" Prongs yelled.

"It is so amazing! I flew so much!" She laughed. I wanted to ask her everything about the broom but, of course, I didn't.

I wanted to ask her where we stood but I wanted to wait until we wee alone. That way, I wouldn't be publically humiliated.

I stole a quick glaced at Rosie out of the corner of my eye. Her head was drooping as her eyes slowly shut. Her head slowly jerked up and she blinked, as if trying to keep awake.

She repeated this process a few more times until I think she eventually fell asleep.

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~Alexis' POV~

A man with wild black hair and sunken in cheeks sat hunched at the corner of his cell.

For one kept in the highest security prison the wizarding word had to offer, he was oddly alert.

But there was another scent that clung to him: hope.

For this man was not any ordinary prisoner of Azkaban: he was an innocent one.

He never killed Peter Pettigrew.

Pettigrew may have betrayed James and Lily and hence Remus and Sirius, but Sirius did not kill Pettigrew.

In fact, Pettigrew wasn't even dead.

But leaving him well intact- except perhaps for a thumb- was not what Sirius now considered a fair trade for James' and Lily's lives. Harry would never know his parents and it would be all Pettigrew's fault.

Sirius wanted revenge on him- he wanted Pettigrew dead.

And Sirius knew the way to get out of this horrid wretched stinking place.

Oh, yes, Sirius Black would not be staying in Azkaban for one more day.

He changed into a black dog.

Once upon a time, the dog's coat had shined and it was well mucscled but now it was ragged and its ribs stood out.

The dog was so skinny that it managed to slip through the bars of its cell.

Large figures in tattered black robes turned to the dog. Sirius felt a chill go through him. They were his jail gaurds.

Sirius had seen many evil prisoners turn into a mad mumbling mess but he knew they would not harm him for they could not feel animal's emotions as well as humans.

The dementors glided silently Sirius and for the first time, he thought that maybe he was wrong.

The silent figures surrounded Sirius and pressed in on him. Sirius felt neauseous.

He wanted to throw up. He wanted to lie down and make the pain go away.

He didn't want to be cold anymore. He didn't want to be starving. He didn't want to be a wrongly accused prisoner.

Sirius the dog lay down on the cold stone floor. He let out a small whimper. He closed his eyes and gave up all hope of ever escaping.

The black dog lay there for what felt like days-but it could have just been minutes or even seconds.

It waited for death to finally take him but he was left alone, save for the dementors but they could hardly be couted as company.

Eventually the dementors lost interest in the dog and wandered off and Sirius was left on the floor as a mass of shivering dog: the scent of hope was now gone.

A tear leaked out of Sirius the dog's eye as he recalled happier times. He thought of James and Rosie and Lily and Remus. He missed them so much. He wanted things to go back being like how they were.

But that was more than a life time ago. Now he was just an escaping innocent prisoner: life no longer held meaning or purpose.

The woman he loved had died; his best friend and hishis best friend's wife had been murder by the betrayal of another friend while his only alive friend thought he was the one who had betrayed his best friend and his wife.

There was nothing left for Sirius except death.

Something ticked over in the back of his mind. There was a boy.

Harry.

As the last momory of James and Lily, he was still alive.

Sirius was Harry's godfather. He had sowrn to protect and help Harry.

He still had a purpoe to be on this earth.

Slowly, the dog pushed itself back onto its paws and staggered toward what it thought was the exit.


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~Sirius' POV~

She started screaming. She was stll asleep when she started shaking- just like that time in Charms.

She fell onto the floor but still she didn?t wake up. She curled into a small ball and let out a small shriek.

"Al!" Lily leapt off the seat. "Wake up! WAKE UP!" Alice had joined her on the floor and soon all of us were kneeling around Rosie.

"C'mon, Rosie," I whispered and took her hand, "Wake up."

And just like that, her eyes opened.

"Oh my Merlin!" she gasped and lept straight up and hugged me.

"You're ok!" she sobbed as she hugged me so tightly it was slightly choking. I didn't say anything but just hugged her back. I don't know what happened but I knew that she at least still cared about me.

"Of course, I'm ok. Why wouldn't I be?" I whispered. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Lily shoot Alice a subtle look. What was going on?

"I just-just...nothing. Don't worry," she said.

"You were screaming a lot," James said, "Are you sure you're ok?"

"I'm fine," she insisted and sat down properly on a seat. Alice kept trying to catch Rosie's eye subtly but she was failing dismally.

"Something's up," I finally said after about 10 minutes of meaningful eye gestures and nudges and coughing between Lily, Alice and Rosie. Lily and Alice both turned to Rosie.

"No," she said automatically. Huh? What was this about?

"I think they should know!" Alice bust out.

"No," Rosie said again.

"They're your friends to!" Lily wheedled. Rosie bit her lip and looked away. I wanted to tell Lily to shut up because didn't she realise that she making Rosie upset? I didn't like anyone who made her upset.

"You can tell us anything!" James exclaimed in his 'I know that you have something to tell me and I roughly know what it is about but I want to know more' voice.

Rosie let out a sigh and fiddled a bit with her hair.

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~Alexis' POV~

I twirled my hair around my finger to by myself sometime.

What do I do? What do I do? What was I supposed to do?

I was sick of secrets and lies.

All my life I have pretended I was normal and I didn't have the Second Sight but if they accepted Remus for being a werewolf then why wouldn't they accept me? I just wanted to stop pretending.

I wanted to be me. I wanted to be able to look them in the eye and not feel guilty about what I knew.

But as always, people do silly things at silly times and I just kept quiet.

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Chapter 28: Facing the music
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~Alexis' POV~

I could tell that the Marauders were not happy for me not telling them and neither were Lily and Alice.

"You should've told them," Lily hissed through her teeth as Dumbledore said a few words before we ate dinner.

"It's my choice," I hissed back and instantly felt guilty about all the other things I had kept from the girls. I mean, it's their future, so shouldn't they have the right to know?

"It would've been the right thing to do," Alice said from the other side of the table.

"What are you so scared of, anyway?" Lily asked once dinner commenced.

"They would think that I'm a freak," I mumbled.

"Too late for that!" Alice snorted and I sent her a mock poisonous look.

"But seriously, Al, maybe you should tell them the truth," Lily said.

What Lily had said gnawed at me all through dinner. Once, I caught Dumbledore staring in my direction as if he knew what had happened. Crap, I was supposed to report back to him, wasn't I?

Right, that was the number one thing on my To Do List.

After dinner, I quickly slipped away from the Gryffindors before anyone noticed and went up to Dumbledore's office.

"Come in," he called when I knocked on the door.

"Ahh, Miss Rose," he said, I thought there was something on your mind."

"I Saw so many thing on the holidays," I said.

"Well the, you better take a seat," I sat, "Now, what did you See?"

I recalled what I Saw and felt myself choke. I couldn't do this. I couldn't tell him.

I steadied my breathing and then quickly recounted what I had Seen before I could think twice. When I finished, Dumbledore was silent.

"Um, sir?" I said, just to make sure he hadn't fallen asleep.

"I'm just thinking, Miss Rose," he said, his voice faraway.

"Sir," I hesistated, "Should I tell them?"

"If you wish," he replied, his face expressionless. Inside, I wanted to scream: this dude infront of me was supposed to be a wise old man but the best he could do was 'if you wish'?!

We discussed what I had Seen a bit more and then I left. I had no more answers to my questions to when I first walked into his office.

I thought a bit about what the girls had said about the Marauders having a right to know because they were my friends. I thought that perhaps they had a right to know because it was their future I knew.

And then there was what I Saw on the train...it had deeply disturbed me.

Why was Sirius in Azakaban? Even being a half-blood but knowing about as much as a muggle born, I still knew that Azakaban was the highest security prison in the wizarding world. And even if I hadn't known, I knew it from my dream.

Well, I knew why he was in Azakaban, but I didn't get it. He was in for 'killing' Peter Pettigrew when in fact Peter was still alive. Sirius had been thinking about how he hated Peter for betraying James and Lily, but to who or what?

Oh Merlin.

No.

It couldn't be.

But that was the only explanation I could think of.

Peter had betrayed James and Lily to the 'lord' and then the guy went to James and Lily's house to kill their son, Harry, but ended up killing James and Lily instead.

No.

My mind rejected this explanation. It was just so wrong.

But it was the only explanation.

I felt sick at the thought of what lay ahead in life for Sirius.

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"Where were you, Al?" Lily asked as soon as I walked into our dorm.

"Around," I gestured vaguely. Lily raised her eyebrows but said no more.

"Al," Alice mumbled through her toothpaste, "I shtill fink oo should tell vem tha troof."

"Go rinse your mouth out," I rolled my eyes. When she came back, I took a depth breath and then made an announcement.

"I'm going to tell them. Tonight."

"Then let's go," Lily said as she jumped off her bed.

We stood huddled outside the boy's dorm.

"You knock," I whispered to Lily.

"No, you knock," she hissed back.

"Oh, for goodness sakes," Alice said and reached over our shoulders to knock on the door. The chatting we had heard immediately stopped.

"Come in," a voice said. I think it was Sirius. I could hear my heart pounding in my ears.

"Alexis has something to tell you," Lily announced.

The sick churning feeling in my stomach got stronger and I just wanted to run out of there and throw up.

The guys all turned expectantly to me. I thought that maybe I'd be saved from telling them by passing out.

"In exchange form James telling Lily," I blurted out before I could stop myself. Everyone turned to James, totally confused.

"Tell her what?" he asked.

"Tell me what?" Lily said at the same time.

"Don't act all innocent, James Potter. You know what I'm talking about," I said. The sick feeling was subsiding as no one was focused on me anymore.

"You first, then," he said. I took a deep breath to try and calm my nerves.

"I can see the future." I expected to feel a great weight to be lifted off my shoulders, but instead everything just pressed in on me more. I felt like I was telling them a begger lie by not telling them what I had Seen.

James burst out laughing.

"Good one, Al!" he sniggered, "Now tell us the truth."

"That is the truth, you prat," Lily said.

"You're joking," Sirius said flatly. I shook my head: I wish I was.

"So that's how you knew-" James stopped abruptly. He shot Lily a glance to make sure she hadn't noticed but it was too late.

"KNEW WHAT?" Lily almost shrieked, "WHY IS THIS ALL RELATED?"

"Ok, Lils" I said, "Why don't we just all calm down and we can talk about this properly."

Eventually, we were all seated on the floor in a circle.

"What is going on," Lily said through gritted teeth. I could tell she was trying not to yell.

"Why don't you start, Al?" James said. The prat.

"Fine." I took a deep breath and then launched into my explanation. I told them about how I had the Second Sight and everything else, but I didn't tell them what I had Seen. They didn't interrupt me once.

"And now it's time to tell Lily," I said when I had finished. James bit his lip nervously.

"Wait," Sirius said. Then he asked the dreaded question.

"What have you Seen?"

I wanted the ground to swallow me whole right there and then.

"Many many things," I whispered. My head swam as I thought about everything I knew.

"Rosie, have you Seen anything to do with us?" he whispered.

Merlin, no. How could he have known?

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~Sirius' POV~

Obviously she had Seen something about us, or at least one of us.

I mean, she couldn't look any of us in the eye and she looked like she was going to through up.

"Yes," she said as she started crying. I pulled her into a hug but she pushed me away.

"No, Sirius, I can't,' she said bravely, "I need to do this on my own."

"I've Seen many things: About people I know and people I don't. Recently, though, I've been Seeing a lot of things about you guys."

"Do you know our futures?" Petey piped up.

"Yes," she said and dissolved into tears.

"What happens?" Remus asked. Rosie's tears slowed down a little as she tried to gain some composure,

"We all die," Alice said sarcastically but this seemed to set Rosie off again.

"Hey, I was joking, Al," Alice said worriedly.

"But that's it! That's just what happens!" she cried, "James and Lily get married and have a son named Harry who is part of some prophecy and so is Alice and Frank's son who's named Neville. And then some lord has too choose which one the prophecy is referring to and he chooses Harry and so you guys have to go into hiding or something and then Peter betrays you to the guy that's trying to find you. So he murders James and Lily while trying to get to Harry!"

This left us in a shocked silence.

"But that's not it," she continued. Oh dear Merlin, there was more?

"Sirius gets chucked in Azkaban for killing Peter because he betrayed them to the guy that killed James and Lily but the thing is Sirius never killed Peter! So after a long time, Sirius tries to break out of Azakaban by changing into a dog and then he excapes!"

"Wait," Lily said, "He changes into a dog?"

"Yes," I said, "I'm an unregistered animagus."

"We all are," James nodded.

"Except for Remus," Peter squeaked and I could have murdered him there and then: it would have saved me from having to go later him later.

"Why aren't you?" Alice asked Remus.

"Becuase I'm a werewolf." I knew it pained Remus for even saying the word 'werewolf', "I understand if you guy's don't want to be friends any more."

"What? Are you kidding? Of course we still want to be friends!" Lily shrieked.

"That's what I said," Rosie rolled her eyes.

"So why are you guy's animagus'?" Alice asked.

"Because on the full moon, when they're around, my tansformations aren't as bad," Remus explained, "Wait, that reminds me, Rosie, why did you come outside?"

"Because I'd just Seen that you guys were in trouble," she explained. That reminded me about the time when Rosie collapsed and had to go to the Hospital Wing.

"What happened that time in Charms when you had to go to the Hospital Wing?" I asked.

"I...um..I was having a dream...about the future," she mumbled. Again, obviously that was not it.

"About?" Lily asked. Looks like she's interested in this aswell.

"I'm sorry, James," she seemed to whisper.

"For what?" He asked. I had a feeling that this was not going to be good news.

"I Saw Dumbledore telling you that your father had died," she whispered.

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~James' POV~

She might as well have slapped me and then told me that I was a magic unicorn who enjoyed magic mushrooms.

I blinked as the information suck in.

I. Saw. Dumbledore. Telling. You. That. Your. Father. Had Died. DIED.

No. She knew?

She knew and she didn't tell me?

"YOU DIDN'T TELL ME?" I yelled and jumped up. I winced as my voice slightly broke.

"I'm sorry...I was so...lost. I didn't know what to do," she whispered.

"You could have done the right thing and told me!" I yelled and made for the door.

"James," she grabbed my arm, "I'm sorry. But I didn't know it was going to come true. I-"

"You're a fucking Seer and you didn't know something was going to come true?" I yelled and shoved off her arm, "Are you retarded?"

Her face crumpled and I instantly fell bad, but then I remember what she had done and all feelings of remose were quashed.

"Leave me alone," I said gruffly and stormed out of the dorm.

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~Alexis' POV~

I felt useless as I watched James storm out.

This was all my fault.

"Al," Lily interrupted my thoughts, "What was James supposed to tell me?"

I turned to Lily but everything seemed to be a dream.

"Smith is making a love potion to drug you," I finally said. Lily blinked back at me.

"I'm sorry, but what?"

"Smith is making a love potion to drug you," I repeatd, "Well, at first it was Snape who made it for Smith to give to you, but now Smith is making it."

Lily's face went bright red.

"I cannot believe you," she spat, "Sev is one of my closest friends. I cannot believe that you would even suggest that he's doing something as horrid as that."

"Lil-" I tried to say, but she cut me off.

"Sev has been nothing but kind and caring," she raged, "And I knew you never trusted him or liked him but you could at least show him a bit of respect!" she screamed and then stormed out of the boy's dorm.

It wasn't supposed to be like this. They were supposed to accept me for being a freak, just like the acpeted Remus. They weren't supposed to get mad. I was supposed to be able to sleep peacefully tonight.

It was all James fault. He didn't have to get angry. Well, I suppose I just told him I knew his father was going to die, but what's done is done. Right?

And as for Lily, I've just been doing what she's been telling me to do all along: I told the truth.

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Chapter 29: Different this time
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~Alexis' POV~

I lay in bed and listened to Alice snoring gently and stupid Dorcas and Mary giggling and gossiping from Mary's bed. Lily hadn't been coming back to sleep in the dorm for the last few days.

James was mad at me. He refused to even look in my direction or acknowledge my presence in any way. Sirius thought I hadn't done the right thing when I didn't tell James that I knew his father was going die.

As for Remus and Alice, they told me that I shouldn't be afraid of my gift. Although, I got the feeling that Alice was a little afraid of me ever since I told her that she and Frank would have a son named Neville and it was between the two children that would determine who would die.

Everytime I closed my eyes, Sirius escaping from Azkaban would replay over and over in my mind. Something twigged in my memory. Something was wrong. And then I remembered: Sirius had said that the woman he loved had died. I was once again split two way: one sidfe of me wanted Sirius to love me but the other rational side of me thought that Sirius was a player and why the hell would he change his ways just for me?

Ever since I called him player, things hadnt been so great. Me, being me, had yet to gather the courage to go up to him and make things up. Of course, if I had just kept my big mouth shut in the first place, I wouldn't be in this position anyway.

I just wanted to sleep but the thought of perhaps Seeing something disturbing prevented me.

Before I told the Marauders, I was happy. And now everything was messed up. If I'd just kept my big mouth shut, I wouldn't be having this problem. Stupid me had to go blaberring because my conscience couldn't take it.

I tried to close my eyes and sleep. Tomorrow, we had a small Transfiguration test that McGonagall said would help us 'gauge where we are'. No matter how much I tried, though, I couldn't sleep.

Eventualy, I gave up tiptoed down to the common room.

I nearly tripped on the last stair when I heard two voices talking: it was James and Lily and I'm pretty sure Lily was crying.

"I tru-usted them!" Lily cried softly.

"The bastards," James growled, "I'm going to kill them. All of them."

I wanted to run down and ask what was happening. I was slightly hurt that Lily had gotten James to comfort her and not either me or Alice but at the same time I completely understood.

"And to think it was Dorcas and Mary!" James growled. Huh, what did those two bitches have to do with anything?

"I-I-I just feel so embarrassed, James," Lily said.

"I know, love." I waited for the hexes and jinxes to come pouring out of Lily's wand for calling her 'love' but it never came.

"Do you want me to hex them for you?" James said. Lily must have nodded because James said,
"I'll rope the other guys in."

"Thanks, James," Lily sniffed.

"It's no problem. You probably should be going to sleep," James said.

"I don't think Al wants me up there. Not after what I said to her anyways," Lily whispered, "And besides, Dorcas and Mary are up there."

"I'm sure everyone will be asleep by now, but how about you come sleep in the boys dorm?" James suggested. This was scandalous. Lily Evans sleeping in the boys dorm on the request of James Potter?

I crouched on the staircase, hidden by the curving wall, as the two went up the boy's staircase and then silently ran up to our dorm.

"Alice," I hissed as I shook her awake.

"Uggghh," she said as she cracked open one eye, "What, Al?'

"We need to talk," I whispered. I put my finger to my lips to tell her to be quiet.

"You better have woken my up for a good reason," she said grumpily as soon as I shut the door behind us.

"Something's going on," I said.

"Al, something is always going on," she yawned.

"No, but this time it's different," I said, "This time it involves Mary and Dorcas and Lily feeling embarrassed and James calling Lily 'love' without Lily hexing him." Alice's eyebrows shot upwards when I told her that last bit.

"Are you serious?" Alice asked, wide-eyed. I nodded.

"And then when James asked her to go to bed she said she didn't want to come up here because she was scared of Dorcas and Mary so they went up to the boy's dorm."

"No," she gasped.

"Yes."

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~Sirius' POV~

I was almost asleep when I heard James come back up to the dorm. I was just about to get up and asked him where he had been when I heard that there was someone else with him. It was a girl.

"Are you sure his okay, James?" Oh my Merlin, it was Lily!

"Of course it is, Lily. Don't worry. They guys are all asleep anyway," James whispered.
"Are you sure?" Lily asked.

"One hundred percent. You can have my bed, I'll sleep on the floor," James said until he moved away so that I couldn't here him properly.

My mind was racing. Something was definitely up. Maybe Rosie or Alice knew?

But even if they did, would they tell me? Everything had gone so wrong in the last couple of days.

I shivered everytime I remembered what Rosie had told me about Azkaban. Would I really try and kill Peter? Would everything she said would happen actually become reality?

I assumed the 'lord' that Roseie kept referring to was Lord Voldemort, also known as the Dark Lord.

My family was a big supporter of him. I was supposed to become a Death Eater and all that shit, but I left because I didn't want to be a part of it. I thought it was wrong.

Now look at it all. Peter was supposed to betray Lily and James to Voldemort and I was going to attempt to kill Peter.

I tried to clear my head of everything but it was all just too much.

I didn't want to be in Azakaban. Mother used to tell me stories about them when I was little.

She told me that they would suck your soul out and leave you as an empty shell of your former self.

They didn't bring fear upon people, they were fear.

They ate away at hope and fed off people's emotions.

They had no mouth.

I shivered under my doona even though I knew that there were no dementors here at all.

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~Alexis' POV~

"Are you sure you heard correctly?" Alice whispered.

"Yes, of course I'm sure!" I whisper-yelled back at her.

"Then I am utterly confused about this." She shook her head, "I mean, seriously, I thought Dorcas and Mary were harmless..."

"Apparently not," I said and pursed my lips.

"Hey, is anyone up there?" Somebody hissed from the bottom of the stairs. Alice and I both froze.

"Hello?" the voice hissed again,"It's Sirius, can you get Alexis and Alice in the fifth year for me, please?"

Alice mouthed it's Sirius.

We both went into the common room.

"Hey," Sirius greeted us, "Guess which pair of lovebirds came up to our room?"

"Lily and James," I said and I felt Alice nod next to me.

"Wait, how did you know that?" he asked.

"I heard them talking but they didn't see me," I said.

"Why did Lily agree to going up to our dorm?" Sirius asked.

"Because something happened with Dorcas and Mary," Alice said. We were all silent for awhile.

"What do you think happened?" I asked.

"I have absolutely no idea," Sirius said while he screatched his head.

"Neither," Alice agreed. The silent descended upon us again until Alice yawned.

"Merlin, it way to late to be up. It's so late it's early. I'll see you two tomorrow," she said and disappeared up the staircase.

"Yeah, me to-" I tried to get away but Sirius cut me off.

"Can we talk?"

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~Sirius' POV~

I winced internally as I heard myself say those words. Those words weren?t saying what I wanted them to say.

"About?" She looked at me expectantly. I didn't think that she had done the right thing when she kept what she knew from James but I don't blame her. I can't imagine having to tell anyone that their father would die no matter what.

"Us," I dropped the same bombshell on her as she dropped on me before the holidays.

"What about us?" She said and bit her lip.

"I still really like you?" I started to say.

"And I still really like you," she said with a big grin on her face.

I felt a smile spread across my face.

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~James' POV ~

I felt like doing a victory dance around the dorm.

Lily Evans was in my dorm and Sirius didn't even have to kidnap her! This was a huge cause for celebration.

Except for that thing with Dorcas, Mary, Smith and Snape. I can't believe they were in the drugging business together. So much had happened in the last few hours and my brain was racing.

I still couldn't get over that Smith was using Dorcas and Mary to drug Lily. I guess the only good thing is that over the Christmas break, they couldn't get to her.

But now, Lily was too scared to go back to her dorm and we still hadn't figured out how Dorcas and Mary were getting Lily to take the potion.

I wanted to go and punch Smith. Stuff the fact that I had a wand. I just wanted to hurt him.

And then there was Alexis. I hated her for not telling me, but at the same time, I kind of understood why. I didn't forgive her for not telling me but at the same time, I didn't feel like I could be angry towards her.

And I can't believe that Peter asked Al! I mean, did he really want to know our futures? Isn't that against some Law or Nature or something because we might purposely change what happens and everything would be thrown out of whack?

I let out a small sigh as I thought of the big mess we were all in. The anger I'd felt towards Al had subsided considerably and I sort of regretted being angry at her. I mean, sure I was mad but it already happened and there was no point in being angry because what good would that do?

Tomorrow, I would get Sirius to help me. And maybe Al, she does owe us marauders a prank anyway. I wouldn't tell Remus or Peter because Remus would try and stop us and Peter would spoil the plan.

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a.n. I can't believet that I'm up to Chapter 29! It seems like yesterday I wrote the first chapter XD
Anyway, what do you think of what happened? I know it's a bit of a filler, but I thought that we should see a bit more of what everyone thinks of the situation.
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Chapter 30: Forgiveness
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~Alexis’ POV~

I woke up to find Sirius wrapped around me. I thought back to last night and smiled as I recalled that we had made up.

Slowly, I untangled myself from him so he could sleep somemore.

“What happened last night, Al?” Alice smirked as I walked into the dorm, “You never came back.” She winked at me.

“Nothing,” I poked my toungue at her, “We just made up and so we’re starting again!”

“It was just as easy as that? He said sorry and so did you and you forgave each other?” Alice exclaimed, “I mean, he wasn’t pissed or worried about what you had Seen?”

“Well, of course he was alarmed at what I had told him,” I shrugged, “But you know, maybe it won’t come true. Maybe I just had nightmares.” I knew I was telling lies and so did Alice.

“That’s a lie, Al.” She shook her head.

“Ok, that’s a lie. Of course it’s going to come true. That’s what the Second Sight is, right? But he didn’t get super pissed or anything. I kind of got the impression that maybe he ws angry at Peter,” I said, “I mean, he was the one who asked.”

“So you two kissed and made up?” Alice teased.

“Hush child. I don’t want to corrupt your innocent mind,” I said, “Come on, let’s get breakfast. I wonder what happened to Lily flower and her Jamsie-kins.”

As Alice and I walked into the Great Hall, people stopped talking and turned to stare. Heads swivelled as we walked to the Gryffindor table. James and Lily were already sitting down. Alice shot me sideways look but I sat with them anyway. Alice went and sat with Frank.

“Morning,” I said cheerfully. Lily looked up but she stared right through me. I expected that James wouldn’t even dignify me with a response, but he shocked me by grinning right back at me.

“Morning to you to, Rosie,” he said, “Now, you remember that you owe us Marauders a prank?”

“Ugh,” I said and nodded miserably, “How could I forget?”

“That’s the spirit, love,” he said. Lily shot him a glare as he said ‘love’. Hmmmm, is that some jealousy I detect Lily?

“What do you want me to do?” I said, resigning myself to the fate of another.

“Prank Dorcas, Mary, Smith and Snape,” he said. I raised my eyebrows.

“Why Dorcas and Mary? Smith, yes, or course I’ll help but I thought Snape was…uhh…” I said as I realised I had reached a touchy subject.

“Alexis,” Lily suddenly said and looked me right in the eye, “I’m sorry.” I jerked my head back in surprise.

“For what?” I said.

"For not believing you when you said that Snape was helping Smith," she said.

"Well, I could be wrong," I said, knowing that it must've been very hard for her to apologise.

"You're not. I heard Dorcas, Mary and Callum talking about it. They said that they were glad Snape taught them how to brew it or something like that," Lily whispered.

"Lils," I said sympathetically, "I'm so sorry." James put his arms around a close to tears Lily and I couldn't help but smile: they were just so bloody adorable together.

"What's the plan?" I asked.

"Ohh, I love plans!" Sirius said as he sat down next to me, "You left me," he pouted.

"Sorry, Sirius, but I was hungry." I rolled my eyes, "What's the plan James?"

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~James' POV~

"So that's it?" Al said and stared at me, "That's all we're going to do?"

"Well...yeah," I said feebly.

"James," she said and took a sip of her pumpkin juice, "They just insulted and hurt your precious Lily flower-"

"I'm not his Lily flower!"

"- and all you're going to do is prank them?" She stared at me some more.

"Well...yeah," I said again. Al shook her head and so did Sirius.

"Sorry, mate, but that plan kind of sucks," he sniggered.

"Do something eviler!" Lily squealed from next to me.

"What do you suggest Lily flower?" I asked. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Padfoot roll his eyes and smirk but I knew that he probably already had come up with a pet name for Al.

And when I found out what it is, it would be payback time.

"I don’t know!” Lily exclaimed, “You guys are supposed to be the pranking geniusus!”

“We are, dear Lily flower,” Sirius said and batted his eyelashed at Lily. Al whacked him over the head.

“Don’t call me that, Sirius,” Lily said.

“Why ever not Lily kins? James does.” He gave her a soppy smile.

“Because your dear Rosie might get jealous.” Sirius eyes widened in panick and I felt like laughing.

“You know that I’m just joking, right?” Sirius said frantically.

“No,” Alexis said and got up and lef the Great Hall. The only reason I knew she wasn’t angry was because of the smile that spread across her face as she turned around.

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~Sirius’ POV~

“Wait!” I called and ran after her, “Rosie!” She just kept on walking.

Dear Merlin, what did I do? I was just joking and she had to know that, right? I would never do anything to my best friend who also happened to be my best friend’s girl friend.

“Alexis!” I said and grabbed her arm. She glared at me.

“Sirius, we have class,” she said and tried to turn away.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean anything by it!” I said. And then Rosie did the weirdest thing ever: she burst out laughing.

“You do know that I’m just joking with you, right?” She said. She stopped when she saw the look on my face, “Well, I guess you didn’t know.” I felt a huge smile cross my face.

“So do you reckon James’ plan will work?” She asked me.

“Nope. It’s a really bad plan. Of us Marauders, I come up with the pranks, Remus is the brains, Peter tags along and James gives ridiculous ideas that wuld never work. As you can see,” I said. She tipped her head back in laughter.

“What happening to James and Lily?” She asked when she stopped laughing.

“They need to go out together,” I said and kissed her on the lips.

“Obviously,” she murmured, “But the question is how?”

“I think I know.”

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a.n. ugh, im so sorry this took so long and is so short! I’ve actually had the worst writers block in history and it’s still going. I’d really appreciate it if you would review and tell me where you would like to see this story going and perhaps what ending you would like to see.

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marauders forever xx



Chapter 31: Love of my life
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a.n. I was in a craaazy mood when I wrote this chapter so it's kind of weird and wacky but I hope you guys enjoy it nonetheless. Don't forget to review!

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~Alexis' POV~

"Sirius," I said as I walked in to breakfast.

"Hey," he grinned lazily back at me. I felt my heart do a couple of backflips.

"Come to Dad's wedding with me?" I asked, if a little nervously.

"I was wondering when you were going to ask," he said with a broad grin, "Sure. Do I have to wear anything fancy?"

"A muggle suit," I said, "No dress robes or Rebecca's friends will think you're crazy."

"Ok, I think I can get a hold of a suit," he nodded as Lily and Alice walked into the Great Hall. I waved Lily and Alice over to where Sirius and I were sitting.

"Liiiily, you have to ask James," I said with my best smile.

"Stop grimacing at me," she said, "And I am not asking James to your dad's wedding."

"Oh and Alice, you can bring Frank," I nodded.

"Wait, when is it?" She asked but I ignored her.

"Lily!" I fake squealed, "That's so great that you're going to ask James!"

"I-" she protested but I cut her off.

"You should ask James as soon as he comes in!" I squealed even louder.

"Ask me what?" A deep voice sounded and Lily visibly paled.

"No-othing," she stammered. James smiled and shrugged but I could tell he was interested.

"Go on, Lily, tell him!" I clapped and bounced up and down. Sirius nudged me in the ribs and mouthed at me, Don't overdo it.

Out of the corner of eye, I saw Alice dissolved into a poorly disguised laughing fit as a coughing fit.

"Yeah, Lily, tell me!" James said, mimicking my over enthusiastic tone. I glared at him but he just smiled back at me.

"J-J-James, would you go to Alexis' dad's wedding with me?" Lily finally managed to spit out.

James' eyes bulged. His face flushed and his breathing speed up. He choked on the piece of toast in his mouth. Remus thumped him on his back but that probably just made it worse, judging by the way James was swatting at his hands. I looked over to Lily to find that she had left her seat and was running out of the Great Hall.

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~James' POV~

"Lily, wait!" I cried but it came out more like ,"Eeeeugggh. Uhhh!" Yeah, attractive.

My last thing I saw was my precious Lily flower running out of the Great Hall before I passed out.

I dreamt of a family of sloths. There was a cute baby one that looked EXACTLY like Lily. It had red hair and everything. And there was a mummy sloth who didn't like me and bit me when I tried to put it in the ambulance because it was bleeding. Or that might have been just the natural fur colour. Anyway, I took mummy sloth t hospital in the ambulance while baby Lily sloth sat on my lap.

"James," baby Lily sloth called my name.

"Yes, baby Lily sloth?" I asked back.

"James, wake up," Lily called to me.

"I am awake, baby Lily sloth," I said as my eyes flew open. I saw that I was lying in the Hospital Wing with Lily sitting next to me instead in the back of an ambulance with a bleeding mummy sloth.

"Baby Lily sloth, huh?" Lily said sown at me with a raised eyebrow. Oh shit.

"Oh, it was a ... dream....you "James," baby Lily sloth called my name.

"Yes, baby Lily sloth?" I asked back.

"James, wake up," Lily called to me.

"I am awake, baby Lily sloth," I said as my eyes flew open. I saw that I was lying in the Hospital Wing with Lily sitting next to me instead in the back of an ambulance with a bleeding mummy sloth.

"Baby Lily sloth, huh?" Lily said sown at me with a raised eyebrow. Oh shit.

"Oh, it was a ... dream....you know...um," I said and sat up, managing to clank heads painfully with Lily who was still leaning over my bed.

"Fuck," I swore under my breath and then managed to look up at Lily. She was clutching her head.

"I'll get Madame Pomfrey," Al announced loudly and then nudged Sirius, "Go get Madame Pomfrey."

"What? Why me?" he whined.

"Because I said so," she said and nudged him again. Sirius left, muttering under his breath. Man, he was whipped.

Pomfrey returned and waved her wand at Lily's head and she stopped groaning.

"How are you feeling, Mr Potter?" She asked after she had dealt with Lily.

"I don't know....I had a really weird dream," I mumbled and looked at Lily. Was it just a dream? Did she really ask me out or was it just my imagination?

'Well, you seem to be fine know, you may go."

"Mate, I had the weirdest dream," I said to Sirius once the girls were out of earshot.

"And that would be?"

"I dreamt that Lily was a sloth," I said as Sirius let out a barking laughing.

"You serious?" he wheezed.

"No, that would be you," I said and shook my head.

"You know what I mean," he rolled his eyes, "But you seriously dreamt that Lily was a sloth?"

"Yes."

"Okay....well, that's not the important question. The important question is whether you will be going to the wedding with Lily,"

"Of course I'm going to a wedding with Lily!"

"No, James. I don't mean your wedding with Lily. I mean Rosie's dad's wedding."

"Oh."

"Yeah, oh."

"Maybe she'll ask me again?" I said, wistfully dreaming of the love of my life.

"Doubt it, Prongs. She already asked you once." Sirius shook his head.

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~Alexis' POV~

"Lily!" I said and made a slapping motion, "What the hell was that?"

"Al, it's not my fault he passed out!" Lily squealed. She peered around the corridor to make sure there was no one to hear us, especially not any of the Marauders.

"Yeah, but you could made sure you got an answer from him when he woke up!" I said exasperatedly.

"Well?" She waved her arms around vaguely.

"And anyway," I continued, "he now thinks it was just a dream." I saw Lily's shoulders slump.

"You think he does?" She moaned, "What was with him calling me a sloth, anyway?"

"No idea. Didn't you hear him? He didn't even remember. I think you need to ask James Potter out again, Lily Evans."

"Of course he remembered!" Lily said, shocked.

"Then why wasn't he screaming and laughing and attempting to hug you and screaming that the love of his life loves him back?"

"Al, I am trying to pretend that I didn't just make the guy I like pass out."

"Ohhhh! So you admit you like him!" I screamed.

"You like whio?" Alice materialised next to me.

"Lily likes James!"

"Arrgghh!" Alice screamed and launched herself at Lily, "I'm so proud of you! You finally admitted it!"

"She also made his faint."

"It wasn't my fault!" Lily interrupted.

"Wait what?" Alice said and stared blankly at both of us, "James passed out? Why?"

"Because Lily asked him to Dad wedding!" I laughed while Alice crumbled into hysterics. Lily stood there with her cheeks increasingly turning a more alarming shade of red.

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~Sirius' POV~

"So Lily and James, huh?" I said and wiggled my eyebrows at Rosie as she sat down.

"Yup," she said with a laugh, "Never thought Lily would actually fall for him, though."

"Neither did Prongs," I said and pulled her into a hug.

My mind turned to what she had told us about our futures. Would I really end up in Azkaban? Everything seemed so unlikely. Although, if you asked five year old me, I would never have thought I would run away from home.

"Is it really all going to come true?" I whispered into Rosie's hair.

"Yes."

"Are you really going to die before I go to jail?"

"I don't know if it was me you were referring to, Sirius. It could have been another woman," she said and looked up at me.

"No, it was you," I said.

"How can you be sure?"

"Because who else would it be?"
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a.n. hooray for the update! Woop woop :P Why not drop me a review on your opinion on James and Lily? Or perhaps James and sloths? And what about Rosie and Sirius?
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marauders forever xx


Chapter 32: A Marauder secret
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~Alexis' POV~

I sat in the library before dinner and read the letter that had arrived that morning.

Dear Alexis,
I was just wondering how many people will be coming to the wedding? Please reply soon. I need to confirm the table seatings.
Love always,
Rebecca


"Yo, Lils," I said and threw my quill at her.

"Ow!" she exclaimed as the quill hit her in the face, "You should be a chaser, Al."

"Yeah?" I said secretly pleased, "Well, James is trying to recruit me onto his team. Anywho, is your precious Jamesie coming to the wedding or not?"

"Firstly, he is not my 'precious Jamesie'," I rolled my eyes disbelievingly, "And secondly, I have no idea."

"You can't have no idea, Lily! It's been weeks since you asked him! How can you not have had a reply?" I exclaimed.

"It's only been three weeks!" Lily protested, "And besides, we have a silent agreement to pretend that I never asked."

"Well, I made no such agreement," I said and got out of bed, "I'll ask James for you."

"You will not!" Lily shrieked and grabbed my arm, "I'll go ask now." She ran out of the library. I smirked. I knew the threat of asking James for her would freak her out.

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~Sirius' POV~

"James!" I said and thumped him on his shoulder.

"What the hell was that for?" He groaned and punched me back.

"I dunno," I shrugged back at him.

"Merlin," he complained and rubbed his arm.

"Don't be such a baby," I said.

"So what's happening with you and Lily?" Remus broke in.

"Nothing," James said dejectedly.

"What do you mean 'nothing'?" I said appalled, "James, it's been forever since your Lily flower has asked you."

"Only I'm allowed to call her Lily flower," James growled.

"But seriously mate," I ignored him, "You have waited for the moment that Lily liked you back and it happened two weeks ago but now you can't even be bothered?"

"I don't know...I mean, after I woke up, she just pretended like it never happened. I guess she must have just made a mistake or something," he sighed.

"Um, so?"

"So, I don't want to go pestering her just in case," he said and stared down onto his piece of parchment.

"Oh you are hopeless," I sighed, "I'm going to look for Rosie."

The hallway was eerily quite as I stepped out behind the Fat Lady.

I hurried down the hallway but stopped when I realised that I had no idea where Rosie was.

Silently thanking Merlin, I reached into my robes and drew out the Marauders Map.

I scanned the map and found that she was sitting in the library.

I started to fold the map back up when my eyes fell on something unusual.

Very unusual.

Shoving the map back into my pocket, I sprinted down the corridor.

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~Alexis' POV~

I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I knew, Madame Pince was shaking my shoulder and telling me to get out of the library.

I gathered my books and check the library clock as I headed back to Gryffindor tower.

It was half past eight.

I pushed open the door to Gryffindor common room to find that it was empty except for Alice, James, Remus and Peter.

"Al!" Alice said, relieved, "Where ion earth have you been?"

"Are Lily and Sirius with you?" James said and tried to peer behind me.

"No, it's just me," I said and saw James' face drop, "What's wrong?"

"Lily and Sirius have been missing and we would know here they are but-" James cut Remus off.

"Sirius went to find you and I've been looking for Lily but we can't find them anywhere."

Remus let out a yelp as James not-so-subtlety jabbed him in the ribs. Alice's head whipped back and forth between Remus and James.

There were definitely hiding something.

"What are you hiding?" I asked suspiciously.

"Nothing!" James and Remus chorused and then looked guiltily at each other.

Hmmm, nothing indeed.

"Anyway, I'm sure Lily's just helping Sirius with work..." I said.

"Al, you and I both know that Sirius does not need help with his classes," James said.

"What are you implying?" My voice suddenly went cold.

"I'm not implying anything, Al," James said, "I just think we need to find them."

"And if you guys can't, how am I supposed to," I said and crossed my arms.

Remus looked at James and glared at him.

"You mean he didn't tell her?" He said to James, his voice straining.

"Well..." James shifted uncomfortably, "I thought he would've."

"Tell me what?" I demanded.

"Nothing," Remus and James chorused together again.

"Tell me!" I protested.

"No," James shook his head.

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I rolled over in bed, trying to get comfortable. I'd been trying to sleep but James and Remus' words kept playing through my mind.

What on earth where they talking about? What was Sirius supposed to tell me?

And why the hell was it so important that we find Sirius and Lily.

"Lily!" I exclaimed and sat straight up.

"She's not here, Al," Alice whispered from her bed.

"Sorry," I whispered back, well aware that Mary and Dorcas were sleeping. Although they had treated Lily so badly that I didn't think they deserved any consideration whatsoever. "I just can't sleep."

"Me neither." There was some shuffling from Alice's bed and then the edge of mine sagged.

"What do you think they're hiding?"Alice said from the foot of my bed.

"I don't know," I said while sitting up and drawing the curtains shut, "And where the fuck is Lily?"

"Al..." Alice trailed off and fiddled with her hair.

"What?"

"You don't think..." She bit her lip.

"Think what?" I said. Alice stayed silent.

"Alice, tell me," I demanded.

"Oh come on, Al," Alice pleaded, "Don't pretend that it hasn't crossed your mind."

"Al, I'm not pretending!"

"Don't you think...hasn't it occurred to you," Alice looked up at me and then quickly looked away.

"Spit it out Alice!"

"That maybe Sirius is cheating on you?"

"Don't be ridiculous, Alice," I snapped, "And anyway, if he was, who would it be with?"

"Lily."

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~Sirius' POV~

"You can't tell anyone," Lily pleaded.

"Lily, we have to tell someone!" I said back.

We were standing in the cold corridor. Lily sat with her back to the wall. Her red hair hung limply and her mascara ran down her cheeks. I was pacing up and down, not only to keep myself warm, but to help me think about what had just happened.

"Please," Lily begged, "Please don't tell." She pulled her knees up against her chest and started crying.

Oh Merlin, I was not properly equipped to deal with a crying female.

"Lily..." I said quietly, "We have to at least tell James."

"Merlin, no!" She started sobbing even louder.

"He's your boyfriend. He can handle this," I said and crouched down next to her. When she didn't answer, I sat down properly and patted her on the back. She flinched away and the gravity of what just happened sunk in.

"How about Rosie? We could tell her!" I said.

"No no no! Definitely not Al!" Lily said and looked up at me, "We can't tell her!"

"And why not, Lily?" I demanded.

"Do you know how she will look at me if we told her?" Lily said and covered her face with her hands, "She would be so disgusted and horrified and she wouldn't want to be friends. She'd hate me!"

"Lily, don't be ridiculous," I said. My hand twitched to pat her on the back again but last second I pulled away.

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~James' POV~

I hadn't seen my girlfriend and my best friend for the better part of the day and I was starting too really panic.

You see, life would have been a whole lot easier if Remus and I had the Marauders Map. Unfortunately, it has seemed to have disappeared into thin air. Remus even tried the accio spell but it didn't work.

I sighed and looked up to the roof.

"Hey, Remus?" I called over the bedroom.

"Yeah?"

"Do you maybe think we should have just asked Al straight out if she knew about the Map?" I asked.

"Mate, I don't know..."

"And do you think all those things she said will come true?"

"Let's hope not."

"I would never have let some dark lord get to my Lily! He would have to kill me first!" I said and waved my wand like I was killing some unseen foe.

"James, have you considered that maybe he did?"

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a.n. Sorry for the long wait! But it's a (sort of) long chapter so does it make up for it?
Oh, and what do you think of Sirius and Lily? Is Sirius really cheating on Rosie and is Lily cheating on James (even though they're not together)? Or maybe there's something worse?
Please review, it makes me so happy when people do!
xx,
marauders forever xx



Chapter 33: We need to talk
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~Alexis' POV~

I woke at dawn to find my pillow streaked with tears. I sighed and then rolled over, wishing that I had a Sight to distract me.

Quietly, I slipped of the bed, making sure not to wake Alice as she had fallen asleep next to me.

I tip toed downstairs and sat in front of the fire. The last few weeks had been absolutely draining. Making up with Sirius had been the right thing to do but everything felt so wrong and awkward when I had told them that I had Seen their futures.

Suddenly, I heard the portrait being opened.

"Where on earth have you been Sirius?" I said tiredly as he tried to sneak past unseen. A guilty look crossed his face as I felt a pang in my stomach.

What was he hiding from me?

Why was his hair sticking up more than usual and his shirt all messed up?

And was that a rip in the seems of his shirt and a blood stain?!

"Hey," he said softly and tried to kiss me.

"No," I said and pushed his face away. He winced and I saw that there was slight bruising around his cheek and nose, "What happened to you?"

"Nothing."

"Don't 'nothing' me, Sirius Black. Where the fucking hell have you been since yesterday after noon?" I spat.

Sirius sighed.

"Look, Rosie, I'm really tired and everything hurts and I smell bad. I need to shower and sleep... Can we have this conversation later?" He pleaded. I looked up to face but his eyes slid away from mine.

I stepped back and turned up the staircase without another word.

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~Sirius' POV~

My heart sank as Rosie stalked up the staircase. I so badly wanted to tell her what had happened but Lily had made me promise not to tell anyone.

I never broke my promises but this one was just so hard to keep.

I took a quick shower to get rid of the smell of blood but couldn't find enough energy to dress properly so I just chucked on a pair of boxers.

I lay down, glad that I could finally rest, but images of what had happened that night kept playing over in my mind.

A heard James stir from the bed next to mine and I quickly pulled the curtains shut to avoid any awkward questions.

"SIRIUS!" James yelled as he ripped open the curtains. I sighed. I should've known that curtains wouldn't stop Prongs.

"Dude, I'm trying to sleep," I said and rolled over.

"Merlin, Pads. Where the hell have you been all night!" James turned to ranting mode, "Not only did you disappear, so did Lily and thanks to you, Remus, Peter and I couldn't even get the Map to find where you where. You know what happened, Sirius. You know what? Moony and I were on the verge of asking Rosie if she knew where the bleeding map was!" James took a deep exaggerated breath.

"Are you done?" I said quietly.

"Yes!"

"Then get out and let me sleep." I yanked the curtains out of his hands and rolled over.

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~Alexis' POV~

"Come on, Al," Alice whispers to me and drags me down the staircase, "You have to face him again."

"I can't, Alice."

"Yes you can," Alice said and took my arm, "Don't think about it. Besides, he's probably not cheating on you at all. If you're really that worried, confront him about it."

"Al, do you remember the last time I confronted him?" I asked. Alice shook her head, "He ended up breaking up with me."

"Ok," Alice admitted, "But that was last time."

"True."

"So let's go to breakfast."

I let Alice lead me down to the Great Hall where the Marauders- minus Sirius- were eating breakfast. I involuntarily sighed and Alice shot me a look.

"See it's not that bad is it?" She said and sat down next to Peter.

"What's not that bad?" Peter piped up.

"Nothing," Alice said and shot me another look.

"Stop looking at me!" I squealed.

"Well stop making me attempt to telepathically communicate with you!" Alice shrieked back.

"Both of you shut up. My head can't handle this," James moaned.

"Where was Sirius?" I blurted.

"Dunno. He was in a crappy mood," James shrugged, "He pulled his curtains on me."

"What?" Alice screwed up her nose.

"I mean, he pulled his bed curtains closed and got super grumpy at me when I pulled them open," James explained.

I sighed and felt like face planting into my porridge. I heard it makes an excellent face mask.

"Oh, and Al?" James said.

"Yeah?"

"Do you think you could play this at our next game?" James said quietly. I opened my mouth to reply but James cut me off.

"And if you don't want to just say 'no'. You don't have to get all pissy and storm out," he said quickly. I rolled my eyes.

"You, James Potter are an idiot," I laughed, "Luckily enough, I am a nice person. So yes, I will play for you." James' eyes lit up like a kid at Christmas and I wondered how I could every have said no to him.

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~Sirius' POV~

I woke up at midday.

Shit, I had missed all my morning classes.

Oh well, it was more important that I spoke to Lily.

I left the Gryffindor Tower and used some handy hidden hallways to go unseen to the Hospital Wing.

"Lily," I said by way of greeting.

"Sirius," she said back, "You didn't tell anyone?"

"Of course not," I said and took a tentative seat at the foot of her bed.

"Good," she said blankly.

"I still think we should tell someone," I said after a while.

"And who would we tell, Sirius?"

"Anyone....Dumbledore," I said.

"No," Lily said shortly.

"Lily, you can't go on like this!" I said, my voice was become extremely raised.

"And why not, Black?" Lily said, suddenly her eyes all cold and refused to look at me anymore.

"Because one day, that little fucker who calls himself Smith is going to go to far and seriously hurt you, Lily!" I yelled, "One day, he's going to end up hurting you so bad that you won't even realise! One day, he's going to go too far and you're going to end up dead!"

"Get out, Black," Lily said her voice devoid of emotion.

"What?"

"I said get out."

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~Alexis' POV~

A boy and a girl sat opposite the headmaster. A nurse fretted around the girl.

"Headmaster," she trilled, "Miss Evans is in no condition to talk to anyone! She should be resting where I can keep an eye on her."

"Thank you for your consideration, Poppy, but I need to talk to Miss Evans and Mr Black," Dumbledore said calmly. Poppy huffed.

"With all due respect, headmaster, Mr Black has several broken ribs, a dislocated shoulder, a broken nose, numerous cuts and bruises and Miss Evan is no better off!" Poppy's voice was starting to climb, "Both have mild to severe concussion and probable internal bleeding and severe psychological repercussions!"

"And those psychological repercussions are exactly what Mr Black, Miss Evans and I are here to discuss," Dumbledore's voice strained, "If you could perhaps give us a few minutes?" Poppy huffed some more but left without anymore arguments.

"Proffeso-"

"Mr Black, do not even try to deny anything," Dumbledore said sternly.

"Professor," Miss Evans broke in timidly, "I would like to say that everything was my fault." Dumbledore looked slightly startled.

"Are you sure, Miss Evans?" Dumbledore asked and peered over the top of his glass.

"Yes, Professor. I take full blame," Lily said shakily but lifted her chin defiantly, "I started the fight with Smith and his friends. I fired the first spell and I am one hundred percent responsible."

"You may both go," Dumbledore said shortly, "Madame Pomfrey will tend to your injuries but rest assured that we will talk more later."

Miss Evans and Mr Black left.

"Are you crazy?" Mr Black yelled the second the door was closed, "Lily, don't you just keep walking. Don't you fucking da-"

"Don't you swear at me, Sirius!" Lily shrieked. Sirius took a deep breath.

"Lily, did you hear Madame Pomfrey?" Sirius said, "My ribs are smashed, my shoulder isn't sitting in its joint and my vision keeps going out of focus. I did not just get into a fight with Smith and his cronies to have you take the blame for something that Smith started!"

"I couldn't say it," Lily whispered and then started crying softly.

"And why the hell not?" Sirius demanded.

"Sirius?" Lily said softly and stopped walking.

"What?" Sirius stopped to.

"You have to promise that what ever I say next you can't tell anybody," Lily said and started cry.

"Merlin, Lily. Um...please don't cry...of course I won't tell," Sirius mumbled, slightly incoherently.

"Oh God...I promised myself that I would never tell..." Lily cried.

"Um..." Sirius said hesitantly.

"My father...he used to hit my mother," Lily sobbed, "Oh God...I should have told someone..."

"Did he..." Sirius gulped, "..did he ever...hit you?" Lily shook her head vigorously.

"He never hit me. Just mum...it was so horrible...one day, mum and I left..." Lily sobbed and Sirius pulled her into a hug.


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I woke up to find Alice shaking me.

"Al, wake up." It was raining so loudly that I thought y ear drums were doing to pop.

"I'm awake!" I said and sat up, "Oh God, Alice."

"What?"

"Oh, my God," I said and buried my face in the sheets. What the hell was that?!

"Ok, what ever it is, please save it for later. If you don't remember, you promised James that you would play," Alice said quickly and glanced at the door, "If you're not down in five I can almost guarantee James' is going to come charging up the stairs. Forget about the slide."

"Oh, God," I groaned and rolled out of bed, "I can't Alice."

"Why not, lazy arse? Come on, you're brilliant at quidditch and you don't even have to practice," Alice said and practically dragged my out the door.

"What, Al. I got to change," I said and started ripping my clothes of and chucking on my robes.

"Well, you were just standing around so assumed you enjoyed playing in your pyjamas," Alice said and rolled her eyes.

"Al," I said softly and looked away, hoping that she would see that I couldn't play.

"Please, what ever it is, Alexis Rose, tell me later. James' is going to crack the shits at you."

I sighed but shoved all thoughts of Lily and Sirius into the back of my mind.

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"PARTY IN THE COMMON ROOM!!" James screamed at the top of his voice. Everybody cheered.

I should have been happy.

We won. In fact, we smashed Ravenclaw and I don't want to boast, but I did make a large contribution.

The Ravenclaws were dragging their soggy eagle tails across the pitch and I knew I looked like one of them.

I shoved my wet robes into my locker, not even bothering to squeeze out my hair. I flopped down on to the wooden bench and dropped my head between my hands.

Outside, the world was grey and it was pouring rain. James and the rest of Gryffindor were in party mode but all I wanted to do was sit down and cry.

So I did.

My sobs had slowed to ragged breathing when there was a knock on the door.

"Rosie?" Sirius softly and poked his head around the door.

"Go away, Sirius," I said but I didn't mean it.

"Rosie, listen to me," Sirius sat down next to me, "We need to talk."

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Chapter 34: Enjoy it now
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~Sirius’ POV~

“Rosie, listen to me,” I sat down, “We need to talk.”

Suddenly, the door burst open to reveal Alice.

“I don’t know what you two love birds are up to,” she sang, “And I don’t want to know, but James isn’t letting the party start before his star chaser and beater show up.”

“Um…Alice-“

“Not now Sirius. You two are coming to the party right freaking now,” she said forcefully and grabbed us by the arm and dragged up out.

“Mate!” James yelled above the din as Alice, Rosie and I entered the common room.

So much for the party not starting until Rosie and I got there.

I tried to grab Rosie’s arm to take her somewhere where we could talk: somewhere where I could tell her what was going on.

I may have promised Lily that I wouldn’t tell anyone but things couldn’t go on like this. Someone had to know. I figured that Lily would trust Rosie the most and besides, she was the one I was most comfortable around.

I looked wildly around for Rosie, but she was already disappearing into the crowd.

I would never find her.

“Firewhisky?” James said and offered me a cup. I downed it in one go.

“Whoa, Padfoot, take it easy,” Prongs joked but handed me another cup of Firewhisky.

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“Come on!” Alice dragged me through the crowd to who-knows-where. I thanked Merlin for Alice for saving me from Sirius’ inevitable question of ‘What’s wrong?’ but at the same time, I cursed her because Sirius was going to tell me something important.

“Where are we going?” I yelled as Alice dragged me behind her.

“Emergency girl timeout!” Alice shrieked, which bought herself a few confused glances from people. Alice crashed into our dorm which had a white faced Lily sitting on the bed.

My mind flashed back to what I had Seen and I feared the worst.

“Lily?” I said softly and mentally prepared myself for the horrors.

“I kissed him,” Lily said in a daze.

“What?!” I said, shocked, “You kissed Smith?!”

“What?! No, not Smith. Why the fucking hell would I kiss Smith?!” Lily yelled, “I KISED JAMES POTTER!!”

The dorm was dead silent. My jaw had just dropped through the floor and Alice looked like she was about to pass out.

"Really?!" Alice squealed and grabbed Lily's hands. Lily nodded furious and danced around the room like I bunch of loonies.

I sat down heavily on the bed and hunched over. I tried to keep my breathing steady and the tears from spilling out.

"Al, aren't you happy for Lily?" Alice said as she dropped Lily's hands. I bit my lip and looked at Lily.

If Lily like James, then that was ok. If she started going out with him then it was not good at all.

If she actually liked him and she acted on it then there was every chance that what I had Seen would become true.

No.

"What I Saw could become true," I whispered.

"Oh, Al!" Lily said and sat next to me, "Don't be like that. I just kissed him! And besides, you knew I liked him before and it's not like we're getting married!"

I bit my lip and looked away. I couldn't deal with knowing exactly when, where, how and why Lily and James would die.

Inwardly, I sighed but I looked up anyway and smiled at the two girls looking at me.

"Sure," I forced a laugh, "It's not like you're getting married."

I woke up the next day in an unfamiliar bed. Someone's arms were wrapped around me.

I turned around and saw a sleeping Sirius. His breath tickled my face. Slowly, his eyes opened.

"Hey, beautiful," he said with a smile.

"Hello, Sirius," I said and kissed him lightly on the lips. I pulled away but he clung onto me and kissed me deeply.

"I wish we could be like this forever," Sirius said contently.

"We can," I said and looked at him.

"Not if I'm supposedly going to end up in Azkaban and you're going to die," he said miserably.

"That's not going to happen," I said forcefully, "And besides, we can always enjoy it now."

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~Sirius POV~

I felt like a liar when I kissed Rosie.

Of course I was going to end up in Azkaban and she was going to die. That was the only way, wasn't it? You can't change the future just like that. I don't believe in the whole 'you determine your own fate' thing. I believed that your future was already set out for you.

I looked at the beautiful girl who was dozing in my arms and kissed her forehead.

I sighed contently and hugged her tighter.

I'd heard from James last night that lily had kissed him. Yes, you heard right, Lily Evans kissed James Potter. Not James kissing Lily but Lily kissing James.

I didn't have to like Lily, but I was happy for my best mate.

Rosie was dozing when the bed curtains were ripped open.

“Moon-“ Remus cut me off with a jumble of words that tumbled out of his mouth.

“Sirius, no time… I know you’re preoccupied… but James,” he panted. Rosie’s eyes fluttered open.

“What happened?” She said, still half asleep.

“I have to make sure James is alright,” I said.

“Ok,” she said and then smiled before quickly falling asleep again.

Remus didn’t even wait until I had put a shirt on before he was already sprinting down the hall.

“What happened?” I asked Remus as we sprinted down the hallway.

“James got called to Dumbledore’s,” Remus slid as he turned a corner, “About his mum…Death Daters.”

I swore loudly.

“Is she ok?” I asked

“She’s fine. Well, she’s not but at least she’s alive,” Remus pushed the doors open, “I’m just hoping James doesn’t do something stupid.”

We were nearing the edge of the Forbidden Forest when I heard the yelling and swearing start

"Stupid fucking Death Eaters!"

Crash!

"I should just go and avada them right fucking now1"

BOOM!

"Do you here me, Peter? I'm going to kill every fucking moron who hurt my mum today!" There was a dull thud and then some more loud swearing from James.

"Mate," I said when James and Peter came into view, "What happened?"

"Death eaters went after James' mum," Peter said and looked worriedly over to where James was still swearing.

"SHE"S IN FUCKING HOSPITAL!" James seethed when he saw me, "If going to fucking kill them all!"

"Uhh-"

"You hear me, Sirius? All the fucking Death Eaters!" James screamed.

"Sure thing, ma-"

"You're stupid fucking family!"

"Cool-" Wait what? "What the hell, James?"

"You heard me, Black. Your fucking family attacked my mother," James hissed.

"Ok, I think you need to chill, James," I said and shook my head.

"I will not chi-"

"JUST LSTEN TO ME," I screamed, "They are not my family and you know it. I haven't talked to my parents for, like, a year. You and your parents are like my family."

I expected James to continue yelling or perhaps punch me in the face but instead he sat down and started crying.

At that moment, Lily came running with Rosie struggling to keep up with her.

"James!" Lily said and wrapped her arms around him. He leaned into her and bawled even louder.

"It's okay, James," Lily whispered, "She's still alive."

"But the baby's not!" James sobbed. Wait-wht? Baby? What baby?

"Baby?" Lily said and looked up at me in shock. I shook my head to tell her I didn't now.

"Sh-sh-sshe," he managed to say between sobs, "Wa-as pre-e-egnant."

What?

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~Alexis' POV~

There is nothing worse than seeing a boy cry.

Nothing, I tell you. Nothing.

I had no idea what I was supposed to do. Peter and Remus were standing awkwardly to one side while Sirius was standing nearer to sobbing James and Lily.

I'd heard what James had yelled about Sirius' parent.

To be entirely fair though, Sirius didn't even associate himself with his parents. It was clear that he wanted nothing to do with them.

I walked up to Sirius and put a hand on his shoulder. I wanted him to know that i was here for him.

He pulled me into a hug and held onto me like his life depended on it.

Something wet plonked on my shoulder.

I looked up to Sirius and realised that he was crying too.

Chapter 35: The definition of 'ok'
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~Alexis' POV~

Days turned into weeks and weeks stretched into months. Each day James grew quieter and each day Sirius' shoulders drooped a little more.

Lily started to look at James with massive puppy dog eyes and it felt like Sirius and I were drifting further and further apart.

"It's crazy how things have changed, isn't it?" I said softly one night while Sirius and I were having dinner in the kitchens.

"What do you mean?" He replied.

"Well, less than a year ago, you and James didn't even know my name and now you're my boyfriend. Lily couldn't stand the sight of James but now she looks at him adoringly but James most of the time doesn't even look at her twice," I said.

"I guess so," Sirius shrugged and looked at the house elf that came rushing past. I sighed.

"Don't you feel like we don't talk anymore?" I said softly- so softly that I thought Sirius hadn't heard me.

"Sirius?" I said.

"What would you like to talk about?" Sirius said stiffly. I blinked blankly at him.

"Anything," I said, "Everything."

"Well," Sirius said and looked at me, "That essay Slughorn set us is going to take us forever."

"Yeah. Do you want to work on it together?" I asked and looked hopefully at him. His eyes slid away from mine and onto the floor. "We don't have to if you don't want to."

"No!" Sirius exclaimed, "I do. It's just that..." I looked at him expectantly.

"It's just that..." he trailed off.

"You know what?" I said and pushed out my chair, "Forget it." I slapped my cutlery down and headed for the door.

"Rosie, wait!" Sirius said and grabbed my arm.

"For what, Sirius?" I said tiredly, "What would you like me to wait for, huh?"

Sirius looked taken aback and his mouth flapped open and closed but no sound came out.

"For us to finally be a proper couple?" I said and wrenched my arm out of grasp, "Because all it ever seems like is we fight and then make up and then fight some more."

"No, it's not-"

"Yes it is, Sirius!" I cut him off, "Just for once I would like to be able to look at you and not think about the next time we're going to fight about something!"

"Well, how do you think I feel, huh, Alexis?" Sirius yelled. His face was so close to mine I shrunk back, "How do you think I feel knowing that you're going to die young?"

"I-"

"Shut up and listen!" He bellowed. When I didn't keep talking he continued, "My girlfriend can see the future. She knows that I'm going to go to Azkaban after he dies. She knows that Lily and James are going to have a happily ever after that is going to be cut short by the evil guy my family supports. HOW DO YOU THINK THAT MAKES ME FEEL?!"

Sirius' eyes bulged out. A sharp pain rain up my arm and I realised that he was gripping my arm again.

"You're hurting me," I whispered as I felt tears prick my eye lids. Sirius looked at his hand in surprise like he hadn't realised it was there. He let go of me

"I'm sorry if I spoilt all life's surprises for you but heads up, honey, I'm no-"

I was suddenly interrupted by a glass shattering scream.

Sirius and I looked up in surprise.

"Let me go!" Someone screamed.

It sounded like Lily.

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~James' POV~

I sat on my bed drawing random things aimlessly on my parchment. On the bed next to me, Remus was writing furiously. Sirius had disappeared off with Rosie somewhere.

I was insanely jealous of my best friend- he couldn't care less about his family and he was with the girl of his dreams.

I still loved Lily with the bottom of my heart but things had changed.

My father was dead, so was my unborn baby sister, my mum is in danger and I'm stuck here at school.

I often caught Lily looking at me and she'd quickly cover it up by looking away or smiling at me.

I should have cared. The girl I had loved for most of my life was starting to love me back but I just couldn't care less.

McGonagall had spoken to me privately on numerous occasions about my lack of homework and even Slughorn had commented on my inattentiveness in class.

The truth is that caring takes strength and strength is one thing I do not have right now. Just simply getting out of bed was a struggle, let alone dealing with school work and a certain fiery red head.

"Hey, Prongs?" Remus interrupted my thoughts.

"Yeah?" I said.

"Are you still going with Lily to the wedding?" He asked.

"I don't know, mate," I sighed. Remus fell silent, although I got the feeling he wanted to ask me something.

I lay in bed and stared blankly at the ceiling.

"James?" Remus asked.

"Yeah?"

"Are you ok?" He said and I felt his eye glance over in my direction.

The real problem was the definition of 'ok'. Fine could be 'yeah, just working on this fuck hard essay' or it could be 'just a bit tired?'or 'I'm in love' or it could even be 'I'm absolutely dying on the inside but I don't know what to do or how to say it so I'll just say ok instead'.

I bit the side of my lip and said,
"Yeah, I'm fine."

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~Alexis' POV~

My lungs felt like they would explode as I sprinted down the corridor. I?d only heard the scream once but something told me it was more than just a 'Holy crap, it's a spider!' scream.

Sirius' long legs carried him swiftly down the hall: it didn?t even look like he was running.

We rounded a corner a second time just as a group of people came into view.

About 6 massive Slytherins had circled around someone or something- Lily. All heads turned to Sirius and I as we came around the corner.

I fumbled in my pockets to get my wand, taking my queue from Sirius who already had his aimed at the group.

"Let her go," Sirius growled.

"If you want her come and get her," one Slytherin growled. I realised it was Smith.

Before I knew what was happening, hexes and jinxes were flying in all directions.

6 Slytherins against Sirius. And me. But I wouldn?t call myself a top student at Defence.

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~Sirius' POV~

Everything happened so quickly but at the same time it went in slow motion.

One moment we were just standing around like a mother's club and next thing I know I've thrown the first curse and I'm replied with six of them.

I was thrown in the deep end.

Somewhere between having nasty spells chucked at me, I managed a glance at Rosie. She was struggling to even hold off half of the hexes and other nasty things going her way.

I managed to look past the Slytherins and saw Lily curled up on the floor.

Fuck, what had they done to her?

I was suddenly ducked as something flew at my head. Great, now the Slytherins thought that throwing portraits would be a good idea.

I straightened up just in time to see Lily getting up slowly from the floor.

She straightened up and shoved her wand tip into the closest Slytherin's back. He collapsed straight away.

I got distracted as I saw out of the corner of my eye a portrait flying towards Rosie- a portrait that she did not see.

For a second a forgot that I was a wizard and screamed her name in warning. She glanced at me, just as the portrait smashed into her and she crumpled to the ground.

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~Alexis' POV~

Sirius screamed my name, and I glanced at him- just in time to see a portrait that had detached itself from the wall slam into him.

From the corner of my eye, I saw something coming quickly towards me. I turned just in time to see the painting that crashed straight into me.

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~Sirius' POV~

I opened my eyes and a crippling pain shot through my body. My vision blurred as tears welled up. I swiped them away and then, ignoring the pain, sat up.

Slughorn was crouching next to Lily, who was conscious. McGonagall was walking towards me while the 6 Slytherins as well as Rosie were nowhere in sight.

My brain went into full panic mode as McGonagall strode towards me. Usually you could tell what she was feeling but now all I could see was a blank mask.

"Mr Black," she started off grimly. The world spun as everything went in and out of focus. I blinked a few times and the fuzziness went away but I still had trouble concentrating on her words, "You and Miss Evans are to follow me."

I glanced over to Lily. Her face was white as a sheet and she looked like she was about to throw up.

"Now please, Mr Black," McGonagall said firmly. I picked myself off the floor unsteadily and followed her down the corridor. I could hear Lily and Slughorn following, some distance behind.

I could hear Slughorn talking to Lily. He saying shit like 'I'msure it's just a misunderstanding' and other words that I'm sure he thought were comforting to Lily. I wanted to turn around, slap him and tell him to shut up.

McGonagall lead us to the gargoyles that guarded Dumbledore's office and then told Slughorn that she could manage things from here. I heard Lily let out a sigh of relief as she watched him turn back down the hall.

"Dumbledore is waiting for you," McGonagall said before saying the password and leaving us to face the headmaster alone.

"Ladies first," I said groggily to Lily and gestured up the staircase. Lily shot me a look that I couldn't read before starting to climb the stairs.

I made it halfway up the stairs before everything started to spin. I grasped the banister to stop myself from falling.

"Are you okay?" Lily said and stopped walking.

"Yeah, fine,' I gasped as the stairs beneath my feet stopped moving, "Let's get this over and done with, yeah?"

Chapter 36: Save your questions
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~Alexis’ POV~

“You could always floo to my house and walk from there,” Remus suggested.

“Yeah, we finally got our fireplace fixed,” James nodded, “Poor muggle guy was wondering why Mum kept telling to make sure a person would fit.”

“So that’s cool?” I asked James.

“Go ahead,” he said.

“Ok, well, see you guys later,” I said and waved goodbye to everybody.

“See ya,” they all chorused back to me.

I walked to the fire place, grabbed a handle full of the sand like floo powder.

I had barely thrown the powder when a massive explosion erupted.

Suddenly, I was floating high above James’ house.

Below me, the house looked whole. That was until I fell swiftly through the air and looked through the window of the house.

The living room was a scene of destruction: there were bodies everywhere, No one looked severely hurt but the oak table had trapped Lily.

I looked over to the fire place. There was a big hole in the wall were it should have been.


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My eyes flew open and I realised that I was lying in one of the Hospital Wing beds.

I struggled to sit up, but when I had, I took a quick glance around the room. Sirius was lying in the bed to my right while Lily was in the one to my left.

Every time I blinked, I saw James' house lying in ruins and that floaty feeling or being dead. Air caught in my throat and I had to concentrate on my breathing. Was it normal to see your own death?

The room was eerily quiet: all I could hear was Sirius’ steady breathing and the pounding in my head.

The door creaked slowly open.

“Ahhh, Miss Rose, you’re awake,” Madame Pomfrey said softly, “Hear, drink this potion. It’ll make you feel better.”

I slurped down the sickly sweet potion and moved slowly down my throat.

I breathed out slowly and the little soldier in my head stopped marching. I felt so sleepy.

So tired.

If only I could lie down and rest my head.

Then I could go to sleeee…..

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~James’ POV~

The Fat lady’s portrait slammed open. Everyone, including Remus and I, looked up to see McGonagall stalking in.

“Lupin, Potter, follow me,” she said curtly before sweeping back out the portrait.

“What did you two boys do know?” A seventh year boy called out.

Remus looked at me and raised his eyebrows. I shrugged back at him.

“I didn’t do anything!”

Moony and I followed Mcgongal out of the common room. She was already nearly turning the corner. We ran to catch up with her. She didn’t even acknowledge that she had left us behind.

“Professo-“ Remus started but McGonagall cut him off.

“Save your questions for later, Mr Lupin,” she said with a slight apologetic look on her face, “I don’t know anything.”

I some reason I felt like we marching to our doom as McGonagall lead us to Dumbledore office even though McGonagall had often pulled us out of classes, often for something that wasn’t even our fault.

"What do you think we'll get blamed for this time?" Moony whispered.

"Dunno, mate." McGonagall suddenly stopped at the bottom of Dumbledore's staircase.

"You both may go up. The headmaster is waiting for you," she said and swept away.

When we got to the top of the stairs, the door was already open to Dumbledore's office.

Remus looked at me and I knew we were thinking the same thing: do we knock?

"Come in," Dumbledore's voice called out before Moony or I had done anything.

I led the way into his office. Usually it felt quite welcoming, even if we were normally in there because we were in trouble. Today, it felt heavy and serious and foreboding.

"Ahhhh..." Dumbledore said when he saw us, "Mr Potter and Mr Lupin, please take a seat." He gestured to a plush red couch opposite him. My eyes wondered around Dumbledore's office. I noticed with shock that all the portraits were empty: not a single one had their occupants.

Remus and I took a seat tentatively opposite Dumbledore and took the tea he offered us.

"Thank, Professor," Remus said and I could hear his voice quiver: he was just as scared as I was.

"No problem, Mr Lupin," he said and took a sip out of his own delicate china cup, "How are you boys finding school?"

This question took as both aback. I looked Moony and found that he had glanced at my as well.

Was this a trick question?

"It's fine, sir," I said and took a sip of tea to wet my dry as a brick throat. Dumbledore looked at Moony.

"It's going well, sir," Moony said nervously.

"Good...very good," Dumbledore murmured absently and glanced at a portrait, "And your friends? I see you boys are becoming quite close to Miss Evans and Miss Rose."

"They're great girls, sir," Moony said with a little uncalled for enthusiasm.

"And you, Mr Potter? What do you think of them?" Dumbledore said and glanced at the same portrait. What was he looking for?

"The same as Remus, sir. They're great," I said and took another sip of tea.

"Good..." Dumbledore said and sat up straight when a previous headmaster came hobbling into the portrait.

"They are in the Hospital Wing while the others have been taken to St. Mungo's," the old man said before disappearing again out of view.

"Who are at the Hospital Wing and St. Mungo's?" I blurted out before I could stop myself.

"Miss Rose, Miss Evans and Mr Black are at the Hospital Wing while a number of Slytherins have been admitted to St. Mungo's," Dumbledore said calmly.

"What for, sir?" Remus said. I wasn't sure I wanted to know the answer. Dumbledore ignored Remus' question.

"Boys, what can you tell be about Callum Smith?" He said.

My eyebrow shot up. This had something to with Smith?! I always knew he was a creep.

"He went out with Lily once," Remus said when i didn't answer.

"Only once?" Dumbledore said sceptically. Remus and I both nodded, "Are you sure?"

"Absolutely positive," I said.

"Why do you want to know, sir?" Remus said even though I'm sure a smart boy like him already had an idea.

"A serious incident had occurred," he started off, "Although I do not know the full story, it appears that Miss Evans took it upon herself to confront and number of Slytherin. Unfortunately they were too strong for her but luckily Miss Rose and Mr Black came to her aid but it was still the three of them against about 6 Sly-"

"Lily would never do that!" I exclaimed.

"That is the story she gave me," Dumbledore said gravely, "And until Miss Rose regains consciousness I cannot confirm this. I also suspect that the Slytherins will agree with Miss Evan's story."

"Impossible," I said, in denial, "Lily would never attack someone like that. Especially not a whole bunch of people by herself!"

"Are they ok?" Remus said quietly, interrupting my rant.

"They will be quite fine under Madame Pomfrey's care, but ti will take some time," Dumbledore said, "Miss Evans and Mr Black are recovering in the Hospital Wing, you may visit them."

It felt like Remus and I left in a dream.

Every logical part of me screamed that some thing fishy was up. Couldn't Dumbledore see that Lily was just not the kind of person to do that? Was he really that blind?

"I don't get it, Moony," I said as we approached the Hospital Wing, "Lily must have lied to cover up for someone."

"Let's just wait to see what she says before we make any judgement, ok?" Remus said and paused to look at me before he pushed open the heavy door.

Rose, Lily and Padfoot were all in bed next to each other.

Lily was awake, sitting in her bed eating.

"What happened?" I blurted out the second I saw she was awake, "What the hell happened?"

"Leave me alone, James," Lily said softly.

"No, Lily! What the fuck was Dumbledore on about, huh? You against Slytherins? What the fuck?" My voice steadily rose to a scream.

Madame Pomfrey emerged from her office.

"Mr Potter, if you don't be quite, I'm going to have to ask you leave," she said sternly, "Miss Evans needs to rest."

I looked over to Lily who was resolutely staring at the plate in front of her.

I noticed for the first time the dark circles under her eyes and suddenly felt like all the energy had been sapped out of me. The anger and confusion I had felt for the last hour disappeared and the emptiness took over.

"I need to go anyway," I mumbled flatly and left.

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