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I'd Lie by star11rox

Format: Novel
Chapters: 6
Word Count: 13,504
Status: WIP

Rating: 15+
Warnings: Strong Language, Mild Violence, Scenes of a Mild Sexual Nature, Sensitive Topic/Issue/Theme

Genres: Drama, Humor, Romance
Characters: Lupin, Sirius, Lily, James, Pettigrew, OC
Pairings: James/Lily, Sirius/OC

First Published: 08/09/2008
Last Chapter: 06/12/2009
Last Updated: 06/12/2009

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He was there for me, when I needed him most of all. He stayed by my side, helped me through the hard times. But his kindness led to a feeling I can't imagine. Could it be love? Surely it isn't. And yet I fear it is. But I can't tell anyone. Not now. I have to hide my love, bury it deep inside me, at least for the time being.

Chapter 1: There For Me
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So, no one's heard anything from me in a while.... Yeah, anyway, I was listening to Taylor Swift's song, and it inspired me to write this. If you've heard the song, you'll notice a lot of things pulled from the song. Anyway, enjoy!

I’d Lie




            My school has always had beautiful landscapes. Mountains, forests, and lakes surrounded Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. That’s the main reason I went outside so much. Sometimes, I would take a walk around the whole school (which generally took a while) and sometimes I would sit below my favorite oak tree and do homework, sometimes I would hang out with my friends, and sometimes I would just sit there and close my eyes and let my mind drift. Which is exactly what I was doing today.


            I’m Lily Evans. I’m seventeen years old, and I, as mentioned, go to Hogwarts.  I have fire-red hair, and emerald green eyes. I’m a very friendly person, and I’m not one to judge people before I actually know them. I a fairly good witch, even though I am a muggle-born. I’m particularly good at Potions and Charms. I’m not a person you can easily stereotype. I’m not particularly hotheaded, even though I’m a redhead. I’m not a tomboy, even though I hang out with boys way more than I hang out with girls. I’m not a girly-girl, even though I like wearing makeup and having sleepovers. I used to be very easy to stereotype. I was your typical girly, I’m way too good for you type. But then my parents died, right after fifth year. Then, everything changed.


            After they died, I kind of lost myself. I didn’t know who I was anymore. I needed to figure out some things. I had lost my parents, my sister, and my home. I had nothing. And for some reason I took solace in James Potter.


            If you’re wondering why that surprised me so much, let me explain something to you. James Potter used to be the most obnoxious, annoying, arrogant prat in the world. He would ask me out about six times a day, and I always said no. He and his friends, the Marauders, they called themselves, pranked people all the time. They found joy in other people’s pain. I thought they were the most obnoxious idiots I had ever had the displeasure in meeting. But one day about halfway through fifth year, James Potter acted so unbearable that I just snapped.




“What is with you?” I asked angrily, after James annoyed me so much he reached a new personal best. “You’ve been acting like even more of a jerk than usual! What happened, did someone drop a house on your mum?”


James’s eyes flashed red for a moment and I thought perhaps someone did drop a house on his mum. “Shut up Evans, it’s none of your damn business.” Then he swiftly walked away.


I noticed Sirius and Remus staring at me. “What?” I shouted.


“James’s parents died.” Remus said quietly. My eyes widened. “Oh crap.”

So I guess when they died, I thought James could relate. Petunia had deserted me, and sold the house, so all I had was a lot of money, none of which I wanted. I did know who I could turn to, so I turned to James. I can still see the look on his face when I showed up that summer day in the pouring rain crying my eyes out. It was halfway between shocked and ecstatic.




After we stared at each other for about five minutes, James finally said, “Evans? Would you mind telling me what you are doing here and why you are sobbing?”


I collapsed into his arms. “My-Parents-got-killed-by-Death-Eaters,” I said in one fast breath. He patted my back.


“Lily I understand. My parents died a few months ago.” James said. He gently led me inside to one of the couches in his enormous living room. He sat me down on it and then sat down next to me.


“I know. Remus and Sirius told me- after I snapped at you that one time. Sorry by the way.” I said. James nodded, still looking alert, as if he expected me to shout “July Fools!” any second.


“It wasn’t your fault, you didn’t know. I was acting like a jerk because I didn’t know what do. It’s like someone telling you that you can’t have what you have had your whole life anymore. You don’t understand, you are hurt. I just took it out on everyone around me, because they still had all their parents.” He stared off into space for a moment looking upset. After a second he snapped out of it and turned back to me. “Look, I’m not going to tell you to try to forget, because that’s what everyone told me. You shouldn’t forget, you should just look back with fond memories. What were your parents like?”

He looked at me intently.


I wiped the tears off my face and siphoned the rain out of my hair. “Well, My dad- he really hated that I can’t do magic outside school. I remember one time- right after my second year- he convinced me to show him how I could charm things to levitate. I actually did it and- the Ministry sent a letter telling me that I had broken wizarding law. It scared him to death.  He thought that I was going to be kicked out of Hogwarts” I started crying again. “ I had to do a hearing and everything just because he wanted to see a bit of simple magic!” James started laughing. “And my mom- well, you couldn’t meet her and not love her. She just had the welcoming, friendly vibe to her. She could make you feel so at ease. She always told me never to be anything but what I am, and everything else would just fall into place. And she always saw the best in people. Even when they couldn’t see it themselves. She was beautiful inside and out. My dad would always say that he didn’t know what he had done to deserve her, but someone obviously loved him a lot to give him a gift as amazing as her. And she would always laugh at him and tell him that he had been himself, and that was all that she needed. They were so in love. I always hoped that someday I might have someone to love like they did.”

I trailed off and looked at him. He was looking at me with an unreadable expression on his face. “So what about you, what were your parents like?”


He grinned. “Well, my dad always told me that I am a lot like he was when he was my age. Apparently he loved to pull pranks too. Every summer when I got home from Hogwarts, we would sit around for hours discussing every single prank I had pulled that year and how I’d managed to pull it off. And every year at the end of the conversation, he would tell me about how he’d pulled a prank that made Mum fall in love with him. Then she’d roll her eyes and say ‘I was concerned because you were in the Hospital Wing for two weeks, dear!’ And then they would have argue about how Mum had fallen in love with him for an hour. Once Mum had finally won the argument, she would leave. Then I would ask Dad how he put up with her all the time. He’d laugh, and say ‘One day you’ll understand, son.’” He paused, thinking about it, and then laughed and continued. “My mum, well, she was very tolerant, to say the least. My dad was always teasing her. Sometimes, during the summer, we would prank her. She would shriek, and then mutter, ‘If I had just married Edwin Lockhart I wouldn’t be in this situation.’ Then my dad would tickle her, and say ‘But then you wouldn’t have me, dearest!’ And she would shudder.”


 I laughed. We talked for hours and hours about our parents, and other random things, until very late at night, when Sirius Black walked in. “What’s going on?” Sirius said curiously.


James turned solemn. “Sirius, Lily here was telling me that her parents died.”


Sirius softened. “I’m sorry Lily.”  He walked over and hugged me warmly, and then walked upstairs.


“Sirius moved in with me a while back. His parents kicked him out of the house.” James said quietly. I nodded.


“I better go, it’s getting late.” I said a moment later. I stood up.


James jumped up. “But didn’t you say that your sister sold your house?” I nodded. “Well then I insist that you stay here with Sirius and me. It’s lonely enough in this big house with just me and Sirius living here.”


I thought about for a moment, and then nodded. “Thanks. A lot.” He smiled, and led me upstairs.


After that day, James, Sirius and I were inseparable. Remus also became very close to me, as he tended to visit the Potter Mansion a lot.  Peter never became as close, and I’m not sure why. We tolerate each other, anyway.


When we arrived at King’s Cross together the next September first, people were, well, surprised, to say the least. When we had gotten off the train the June before, we had been ignoring and avoiding each other, so it made sense. My previous best friends, Chrissy and Gretchen were mad at me because I went to James instead of them. I tried to explain why I did, but they wouldn’t listen. And I let it go. I had changed a lot that summer.


James and Sirius changed too, towards me at least. Sirius became my big brother. If anyone tried anything with me, they would have him and James to answer to. James, well, we had bonded in a way I hadn’t thought possible. He became my best friend. He was my confidant. I told him everything. Well, almost everything.


That summer, I changed. A lot. I stopped obsessing over everything, like grades, and looks, and homework. I started just enjoying the little things. James had taught me that. Some point during that summer, and I am still not sure exactly when, I fell in love with him. Hard. Which wouldn’t have been so bad if he hadn’t grown up and stopped asking me out.


I opened my eyes as James, Sirius, and Remus walked to my tree where I was sitting. “Lily-kins!” James sang. I rolled my eyes.


“Jamey-poo!” I said teasingly. He scowled.


“I told you not to call me that!” He said.


“And I,” I said, laughing, “told you not to call me Lily-kins!”


“Well,” James said slowly, “It’s a good thing I’m stronger than you are because I think I am going to have to TICKLE IT OUT OF YOU!”  He jumped over me and started tickling my sides, where he knew I was most ticklish.  “Sirius, hold her feet down!” Sirius immediately grabbed my feet and pinned them down.


“James- Harold- Potter- I swear- if you don’t stop,” I said, gasping. James laughed evilly.


“Say it.” He said, smirking.


“NO!” I shouted indignantly.


“Say it and I’ll stop!” He said. I glared at him.


“Fine. James Potter, you are the most handsome, sexiest gift to women that Merlin has ever seen, and I bow down to your awesomeness.” I said, scowling.


He grinned. “True, true.” If he only knew how true I thought it was. He got off of me and sat next to me. I turned to the rest of them.


“Did you all just come out here to annoy me, or did you have a reason?” I said.


“Now Lily-pad, do we need a reason to come down to see our favorite girl in all of Hogwarts?” Sirius said, feigning hurt. 

“You Sirius? Definitely.”


He sighed. “Fine. We need help on our Charms homework and Moony refuses to help us. And also, it’s time for dinner and I’m STARVING!” He said the last part dramatically.

“I’m with you on the starving part, but there is no way I am going to help you with your homework. It’s due first thing tomorrow!” I said, rolling my eyes.


“Come on Lily. Please? Pretty please?” James said, giving me those big hazel puppy eyes he knew I couldn’t resist. I sighed. He pouted.


“Fine.” I said, annoyed. James and Sirius cheered.


“As thanks,” James said happily, “I think Sirius and I should parade you into the Great Hall on our shoulders!”  He looked at Sirius evilly. Remus laughed, picking up my bag for me.


“Wait- Sirius-James- NO!” I shouted desperately. They easily picked me up and swung me on their shoulders. “SIRIUS ORION BLACK AND JAMES HAROLD POTTER! PUT ME DOWN THIS INSTANT!”

And those two devils did it. They actually paraded me into the Great Hall, shouting “Lily is our Queen!” at everyone. I detected three scowls, two from Chrissy and Gretchen, and one from Severus Snape over at the Slytherin table.  They flopped me down across from where Peter was sitting and laughing, and sat on either side of me. Remus sat next to Peter. Then they both kissed me on the cheek. Sirius’s kiss felt warm and comfortable, but James’s sent an electric volt down my spine.


“I hate you guys!” I said, annoyed. They both laughed, Sirius’s like a bark, and James’s, drawn out and casual. I loved his laugh.


“We know you love us Lily-kins.” James said cheerfully. I groaned.


“Will you two ever behave yourselves?” I asked.


“Yeah. I was thinking maybe when flobberworms fly.” Sirius said.


“Actually, I was thinking when dementors invite you for a cup of tea,” James said. Sirius shuddered. We don’t know why, but Sirius hates dementors.


After dinner, we went back to the common room to sit in our favorite chairs. James and I always share a large squashy loveseat, Sirius and Remus share a couch, and Peter sits in a large chair.

I explained the Cushioning Charm to them, and then we got to work, Sirius and James writing the essay they should have written before, Remus doing extra credit Arithmancy, Peter doing who knows what, and me working on an essay for Potions due on Friday. At nine o’clock in the evening, James and I got up to do rounds.


It was a slow night. We only saw two Hufflepuff girls and a Slytherin boy. James immediately deducted points from the Slytherin, and gave the Hufflepuffs a warning. I smiled. Some things never change.


After an hour, we decided no one else was out and went back to the Gryffindor common room. The only people who were in it were Gretchen and Chrissy, who immediately stood up, glaring, and walked up the girls staircase. I sighed, flopping down on the couch.


“You don’t need them, Lily-flower.” James said seriously, sitting down beside me. 


“They were my best friends, James.” I said gloomily.


“I have an idea, want me to play you a song?” James said.


I grin widely. “I would love that.” James smiled. He scans the room wildly, and then conjures up his guitar. I’m the only one who knows he can play guitar. He loves playing guitar, and he’s amazing at it, but he won’t tell anyone because he’s afraid they will make fun of him.  Sirius especially.


He started playing my favorite muggle song, Iris, by The Goo Goo Dolls.  He knows it’s my favorite, he just doesn’t know that I feel that way about him.


He plays through that and about three other songs before stopping suddenly. I have closed my eyes and leaned my head back, soaking it all in. “Lils, what’s wrong?”


“Nothing.” I’m just in love with you, you idiot. Sometimes I feel like he sees everything in black and white. If I could only just say, “I’m holding every breath for you.”


He stares into my eyes. I try to distract myself by counting the colors in his eyes. I can count at least six. Looking into his eyes feels like looking into his soul. 


“I know something is up so you better tell me now.” James says, grabbing my shoulders.


I smile sadly. “Nothing is wrong James. Look, I’m tired. I’m going to go to bed.” I give him a quick hug, and then run upstairs.


I think James can see through everything but my heart. I’m surprised not one of the Marauders has figured out that I’m in love with James yet, even if they are thickheads.


Of course, if you asked me if I loved him, I’d lie. 

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Chapter 2: Just Another Day
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Chapter 2


The next morning, I wake up extremely early. I know that I’ll never get back to sleep, so I decide to take a bath in the Head bathroom. I quickly grab my cloak and slide my slippers onto my feet. I take a quick look at the other four girls in the room, Chrissy, Gretchen, Heather, and Leah, all asleep, and walk downstairs.


The Gryffindor Common Room was dark, the lights being charmed not to turn on until the sun was up. The fire from the previous night was all out, and had turned to ash. I walk outside, to where the Fat Lady is snoozing loudly.


I walk up to the fourth floor to a portrait of a flower. I give the password, (“Bubbly”) and walk slowly inside. The Head bathroom is even more insanely amazing than the Prefect bathroom. There are even more taps, and each one of them is pure gold. The tub is the size of a swimming pool, and is all marble. There are probably five hundred fluffy robes and towels in various sizes, fluffiness, and colors, and there is a rack that will take your clothes off you when you command it to. There are also four diving boards at various heights.  On one wall there is a small portrait of every Head boy and Head girl. I smile looking at the one of James and I, at the very end, hugging.


I command my clothes to be taken off, and they immediately fall off and are hung up on the rack. I choose three of the taps, strawberry, cherry, and raspberry, and they turn on. Almost immediately the pool-sized tub is filled up. I climb onto the highest diving board and dive in.


As soon as I hit the water I feel refreshed. These bubble baths never get old, and I take one at least once a week. I swim the backstroke a few laps, letting my mind drift. I think back to a memory from two weeks ago, when Severus Snape (the backstabbing git) tried, once again, to win my friendship back.




“Sirius, no girl is going to ever agree to go out with you with that horrible line,” I groaned, as the Marauders and I ate breakfast one morning.


“Wrong! ‘Did it hurt when you fell down from heaven’ is a classic. Girls love that sappy stuff.” Sirius insisted, sitting next to me, shoving bacon on his plate.


I rolled my eyes. “Sirius, I’m pretty sure that I, as a girl, would know what girls like.”


Sirius shook his head. “You don’t count. You know me too well.”


“Well if it isn’t Lily Evans,” I heard someone breathe into my neck. I spun around, to where Severus Snape was standing.


“What do you want Snape?” I growled.

“I want you back.” He growled, glaring at James and Sirius.


“Umm, let me think. No.” I said, spinning back around. 


“Lily.” He said more softly.


“Go Away!” I yelped.


“I just want to talk to you!” He said more frantically.


James and Sirius stood up and blocked me from his view. “The lady said to go away.” Sirius snarled.


“So you better move before we do something we won’t regret.” James said angrily.


Snape glowered. “Fine. But someday, Lily, you won’t have them to protect you!” He stalked off.


“Lily, I know he was your best friend, but I hate him!” James said.


I, as usual, sighed.


It reminded me of how James and Sirius were always out to protect me. It’s funny, really. Whenever a specimen of the opposite gender so much as looked at me they would glare back at him with daggers in their eyes. Sirius always said that he didn’t think they were good enough for me.  James always agreed, nodding his head very fast. It always annoyed the heck out of me, but I think it is kind of sweet.


So while the male population of Hogwarts all liked me but were afraid of me, the female population hated me, because, well, let’s face it. I was best friends with the three best-looking guys in Hogwarts. Being the “mother” of the Marauders did have its pitfalls sometimes.


I swim back to the edge of the bath and climb out. I pull my wand out of my robes and dry myself off. I put a straightening charm on my otherwise curly hair and put my robes back on, leaving the Head bathroom. It is time for my day to really begin.



About an hour later, I am back in the common room, absentmindedly staring at the fire in James’s and my favorite squashy love seat, waiting for the Marauders to drag their sorry butts down here so we can go to breakfast. I notice James’s guitar lying on the couch, and smiling, vanish it to the place James hides it so no one will find it.


A few minutes later, the Marauders finally get down to the Common room, all rubbing their eyes tiredly. “Finally,” I exclaim. “I’m starving.”


“Sorry Lily. We went to bed rather late last night.” Sirius says, reaching out to hug me. I resist.


“You were out of the common room before we got back from patrolling yesterday, what could you have possibly been doing in your dorm?” I ask, confused.


“It doesn’t matter.” Remus spoke up. Sirius reaches out for a hug again, and this time, I let him reel me in. I wrap my arms around his warm body comfortably, knowing there is absolutely nothing between us. 


“Lils, you smell good.” Sirius says into my hair. I smile. “Like cherries, strawberries, and raspberries all put together.”  I glance at James, and wink. He grins. No one knows about the Head bathroom except the heads, who are informed it is top secret. Professor Dumbledore doesn’t want anybody sneaking into it (Marauders) and even made James take an Unbreakable Vow. Clever old man. James is still trying to find a way around it.


We walk down to the Great Hall quickly, all of us starving. Fortunately, it seems the House-elves have outdone themselves as usual this morning. I sit down and immediately start piling food on my plate.


“See, that’s what I like about you Lily,” Sirius says. I raise an eyebrow. “You look like an angel but you aren’t afraid to eat like most girls are.” I grin, and take a large bite out of my favorite chocolate chip pancakes. Sirius, James and Remus dive into their food. Once they finally emerge about 15 minutes later, Sirius, James, Remus, and I head off to Charms while Peter goes to Divination.


Charms is easy as usual, and I quickly cushion my desk and finish for the day. Then I rip of a piece of parchment and start doodling. I’ve almost finished a very good drawing of a unicorn with no legs when James pokes me.


“What?” I hiss. 


“I. Can’t. Get. This.” He says through his teeth. I roll my eyes. “Give me your wand.” He obliges. “Just kind of a jab, like this.” I demonstrate. He does it and gets it right. He gives a wide smile.


“You’re my savior, Lily.” He says seriously. I smirk.


“You know it.”  He laughs.


The period ends a few minutes later with Professor Flitwick assigning us a foot long essay. We leave with the usual complaints from James and Sirius about too much homework.  Our second class of the day is Transfiguration, which is absolutely my worst class. Fortunately, it’s James’s best class, so he helps me out.


Today we are transfiguring each other, so Sirius and Remus pair up and so do James and I. We are supposed to be transfiguring into animals and James goes first.


Bestia,” he says, and flashes his wand towards me. I turn into a cat. James starts laughing. I say, “What?” but it comes out as a meow. 


“Lily,” he says through his laughs, “You even have burning red hair as a cat. That’s just not natural.”  I stick my tongue out at him, which must look strange, me being a cat. After he laughs for a minute longer, he picks me up in cat form and takes me over to Sirius and Remus.  “Guys, doesn’t Lily make a great cat?” He asks. They nod, also laughing. I hiss angrily, and he changes me back.


“Evil little boys,” I mutter. When James isn’t expecting it, I wave my wand and shout “Bestia.”  I get the spell right, but miss James and change Sirius instead who turns into a shaggy black lab. Figures, with his hair. I then try again, aiming for James, and succeeding, this time focusing on another shaggy black lab, which he changes into. The two dogs start fighting each other. Remus and I start laughing. It’s a hilarious sight, but unfortunately I have to be the mature Marauder and stop them.


“James. Sirius.” I say sharply. They stop for a moment and look at me. “I will not change you back until you stop fighting.” One of them, I think James, comes up to me and puts his dog-face on my lap. He swishes his tail and I sigh. “Fine.”


De-bestia!” I say, pointing my wand at the other dog. It turns back into Sirius. James-dog looks at me, wagging his tail. “What do you think, Sirius, should I change him back?” I say, winking.

“Nah.” Sirius says, turning to smirk at James. He gives me his trademark puppy dog eyes, which are even cuter with him being an actual dog. “Sirius, help me!” I say, cowering at his face.


“Fight it Lily, fight it!” He says urgently.


James whimpers. “Sirius, I don’t think I can!” I said pathetically.


“Fine. Be that way.” He said, pouting.


De-Bestia!”  I cry, and James changes back into his usual cute self.


“Being a dog is weird. All you ever want to do is scratch yourself and chase your tail.” James says, scratching himself. I laugh.


Charms end without any other excitement, and we head down to lunch, starving. Today they are having shepherd’s pie, which I love. I scarf it down, so I can head outside to Care of Magical Creatures early and talk to Hagrid before going over to Professor Hickson’s meeting place.

It’s a beautiful day outside, much like yesterday, and I watch birds fly over me as I go down to Hagrid’s hut. I knock quickly on the door.


“Why hello, Lily!” Hagrid says eagerly. I smile. “Here to talk before Care of Magical Creatures?” He says, smiling back.


“Of course. But I was thinking, since it’s such a beautiful day, what if we go for a walk in the Forbidden Forest instead?” I say, gesturing to the forest.


“Are you sure it’s not too scary for you?” he says, raising one of his thick eyebrows. 


“Hagrid, I have been hanging out with James and Sirius for over a year now. Nothing scares me anymore.” I say seriously. He laughs.


“That doesn’t surprise me, for some reason.” He says. 


We walk outside.


“So how are James and Sirius anyway?” He says as we enter the Forbidden Forest’s depths.


“Great. Still teasing me all the time.” I said, rolling my eyes at the thought.


“Now would they really be James and Sirius if they didn’t tease you?”


“Well no.” I admit.


“Exactly.”  Hagrid concludes.


“It’s strange though. With Sirius it feels like just a big brother teasing his little sister, but with James…” I start. He nods knowingly. I told him how I felt about James almost a year ago.  “With James it feels… right. In the bottom of my heart.” I say softly.


“Look, Lily, I really think James likes you. And that’s coming from someone that has been talking to confused boys and girls for twenty years.” He says, looking at me straight in the eyes.


“He’s way too good for me, Hagrid. He’s so sweet, and funny, and amazing, and I’m just…. Me.” I say sadly.


“Lily, you are amazing. He knows that.” Hagrid says. I hear the sincerity in his voice and know that he believes it. He doesn’t understand how screwed I am.


I check my watch. “Sorry Hagrid, I have to go.”


“All right, bye Lily.” 


James’s POV


Class starts in two minutes, and Lily isn’t here. I’m used to it, though, sometimes Lily will disappear for up to two hours at a time and won’t understand why Sirius and I were worried.  We’re very protective of her, and I think it annoys her. All guys are afraid that if they go out with her, we will hurt them. It’s not true. Just because that idiot Josh Peters cheated on her last year and we personally made sure that he would never have children, doesn’t mean that no one should ever go out with her. Just that any guy would have be insane to cheat on her.


Lily suddenly rushes up from the direction of Hagrid’s cabin. Her face is flushed and it appears she has been running. Sometimes I wonder if she has a secret boyfriend or something. She stops next to me. I mouth “Where were you?” but she appears not to have heard me.


Then Professor Hickson walks up. It’s time for the lesson to begin.

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Chapter 3: Reconciliation
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Chapter 3

Care of Magical Creatures goes by without any other excitement, and the boys and I walk back to the castle for free period. We arrive at a mostly empty Gryffindor tower, and I immediately flop down on Sirius and Remus’s couch. Laying down I take up the entire couch, and I stretch out. Sirius, James, and Remus laugh.

“Lilly, I don’t know how to tell you this,” Remus says, “but you are on my couch. And I think you might want to move.”

I shake my head, and close my eyes, pretending to go to sleep. Suddenly I feel strong arms on my waist and my legs. I open my eyes to see James and Sirius carrying me over to the loveseat James and I usually share. I laugh, and they smile.

“You know you love us Lils.” Sirius grins. I roll my eyes, and pout.

“Because we love you,” James adds. The words are so good to hear.

“Plus, we’re all awesome, and awesome people always have to stick together.” Sirius says.

I laugh and summon my school bag to come to me. I pull out my Care of Magical Creatures book.

“Lil, stop it. You’ve done enough homework, free periods are for rest and relaxation,” James says.

I flick my wand at him and mutter “Bestia.”

This time he turns into a cat. His fur is as black as his hair normally, and his eyes are hazel as usual. He hisses.

“Silencio” I say.

He pouts, looking at Sirius and Remus. They both ignore him, working on the essay for Potions. James, annoyed, leaps onto our loveseat and curls up against my stomach. He falls asleep within moments. I absentmindedly stroke his fur while reading my latest novel. An hour later I finish a chapter and look down at James. His cat face peers back up at mine.

I smile. “De-Bestia.”

The only problem with this is that he is on my lap, so when I transfigure him back, he goes back to his massive stance of six feet on my lap.

“James, get off now, you’re squashing me.”

“Sorry.” He moves next to me. “Being a cat is quite nice. I like being pet.”

“Well it’s time for dinner now, and it would be quite odd for me to walk down with a cat who knows how to eat with a fork and knife.” I say, standing up.

They all copy me, and, after we send our books upstairs, I link arms with James and Sirius.

Chrissy and Gretchen are waiting outside when we exit the portrait hole.

“Lily, um, we’d like to talk to you.” Gretchen says nervously. Chrissy nods, and I raise an eyebrow.

“Okay. How about dinner?” I say. They nod. “All right, let’s go.”

I let go of Sirius and James and walk with them. James looks at me. I give him a look, and he lets me go.

Chrissy, Gretchen, and I walk down to the Great Hall in silence. We take a seat towards the end of the table, and I notice the Marauders sit as close as they possibly can.

“So, um, how have you guys been lately?” I ask, feeling a tinge of nervousness.

“Good. You?” Chrissy replies.

“Pretty good.” I say.

Gretchen, who, until this point, has been staring at her food silently, speaks up. “Look, Lily, we’ve been talking about it, and we’re sorry for what we did at the beginning of last year. It was stupid and childish; we know the same thing happened to James so naturally you’d go to him for comfort.”

I started crying. James, who has been staring down at us angrily, stands up indignantly. I shake my head at him.

“I’m so sorry that I never went to you all, I was just so messed up and it seemed like the right thing to do at the time, but it was wrong. I should have gone to you, after all, you were my best friends.”

“Are your best friends.” Chrissy insists firmly.

I laugh. “I’ve missed you guys.”

Gretchen starts crying along with me. “We’ve missed you too.”

“We need to catch up. Let’s blow this butterbeer stand.” I say immediately.

Chrissy grins. “How bout the super secret hiding place of sacredness?”

My eyes light up. “You still remember that?”

The super secret hiding place of sacredness was a deserted classroom we found in first year that we transformed into a girls hangout. It’s disguised as just a regular classroom though. We spent all of 1st thru 3rd year there, and most of 4th and 5th too.

We stand up. Down the table James and Sirius look at us and I mouth, “See you later”.

I love them, of course. But it is time for a girls’ night.


Half an hour later, every food ever created that has little to no health value is spread across the floor of the classroom. The door is sealed shut, and three couches are in a circle.

“So what’s new? Who do you have a crush on? How’s life with the Marauders?” Chrissy asks eagerly.

“Umm, not much, James Potter” I mutter his name as quietly as I possibly can. “And crazy, as you can probably tell.”

“Definitely crazy.” Gretchen says, apparently not noticing my mutter. “So maybe we should start right after your parents died?”

“Umm, sure. So I went over to James’s house, with no home and a lot of money I didn’t want, and I told him what had happened. Basically he cheered me up, and when he found out that I didn’t have a place to stay, he offered to let me stay there. I spent the rest of the summer there, with James and Sirius, and Remus came over every day. I guess they were just different than I thought they were- or maybe I just changed.”

“One thing we noticed,” Chrissy begins, “is that after, well, after it happened, you started relaxing a lot more than you ever did before. You were always so worried about school, and what people thought about you, and what you thought about yourself, and afterwards you just seemed to not care anymore.”

I consider this for a moment. “I guess my parents taught me one last thing- that every day you have is special, and you always have to enjoy every last second because tomorrow is promised to no one. And then I finally understood what the Marauders live by, which seems to be to enjoy your life all you can, and not stress over everything. And even though those boys make me want to pull out my hair sometimes, I love them, and I know they love me and would do anything to protect me. No matter if I want the protection or not.”

Gretchen smiles. “It’s amazing. How you can talk about them like that, when not that long ago you would always complain about them and how obnoxious and annoying they are.”

I grin. “Oh, they are definitely still obnoxious and annoying. I can just appreciate it more now.”

Chrissy and Gretchen laugh. Then Gretchen speaks up. “So when can you hook me up with Remus Lupin?”

I gasp. “Since when do you like him?”

“Actually, I have for quite a while.” Gretchen tells me, blushing. I smile.

“I definitely think that can be arranged,” I say, popping a green Bertie Bott’s Every Flavor Bean into my mouth. Eww. It tastes like grass.

We talked on and on for what seems like mere seconds. It is just like old times, and I realize just how much I have missed them. Too soon, I check my watch and realize that it is time to go patrolling.

“Guys, I gotta go. I’m sorry, but maybe we can pick this up at breakfast tomorrow?”

“Definitely,” They say immediately. I grin. 

James’s POV

“I’m worried about Lily. They hurt her once, they might do it again.” I say, staring at the chess board.

“Prongs, relax. Lils hasn’t had girl time in a ridiculously long time. She needs it.” Sirius says in a bored tone.

“Aren’t you worried about her too?” I demand.

“Not particularly. Lily is a big girl, she can handle herself.”

I stand up and start pacing. “It’s almost time for patrolling. I should go find her.”

“Like I said, Lilly is a big girl. She can check the time and figure out that it is time for patrolling,” Sirius says, again, sounding extremely bored.

Lily chooses this moment to rush in. “Sorry- I’m late. We- just got so caught up talking- and I didn’t realize what time it was until a couple minutes ago. “

“It’s okay,” I say nonchalantly. I’m so slick, I should be an Auror. I’d be amazing at it too. “Sirius over here was worried sick.”

Sirius snorts and rolls his eyes. “Slick,” He mutters under his breath. See, I am slick!

“So are you ready to go?” Lily asks, smiling.

“Yeah. Let’s go.” 

“So what did you all have to talk about?” I ask Lily as we round the first corner.

“Oh, you know. Mostly about the last year and a half and how I’ve been, and how they’ve been. You know, just girl stuff; nothing that would really interest you.”

“Oh really?” I say.

We see a first year Ravenclaw that looks terrified to see us.

“You know that you aren’t supposed to be out of the Ravenclaw tower right now, right?” I ask him.

“Y-Yes,” He says.

“Go off to bed. Don’t let it happen again,” Lily says kindly.

He grins widely- I mean who wouldn’t, given how gorgeous Lily is- and runs in the direction of the Ravenclaw tower.

“First years,” I sigh. “They are so cute and innocent.”

“James, when you were a first year, you set the common room on fire,” Lily reminded me.

“I’m wasn’t exactly your typical first year, though, was I?” I say.

She stops.

“No, you definitely were never a typical Hogwarts student. How you got Head Boy I’ll never understand,” Lily says. I stick my tongue out at her. She laughs.

“But really,” She says. “I really have missed them.”

“Lily, what if they hurt you again?” I ask in the most concerned manner possible.

“They won’t.” She tells me as we turn to another hall. “And we’re doing breakfast tomorrow.”


“Look. I love you guys, and I love hanging out with you and everything, but I’ve needed this. I haven’t had a girls’ day in forever.”


We walk another half an hour and then head back to Gryffindor Tower.

“I’m tired.” Lily says, laying on the loveseat that she and I always share.

“Then go to bed,” I say.

“No, I should work on that essay that is due on Monday.” She summons her books and pulls out her Charms homework.

“It’s Thursday. Come on.” I say.

“No, really, I should work on this.” Lily says sleepily.

I sigh, taking Peter’s armchair and pulling out my Potions essay. Fifteen minutes later, I look over to find Lily asleep on the loveseat. I sigh. I pull out my mirror. “Sirius.”

“Yo. What’s up?” He says.

“Lily fell asleep; can you come do your thingy so I can take her up to her bed?”

“Yeah, just a sec.”

A minute later I see Sirius arrive at the bottom of the stairs. He walks across the common room, does some weird magic I haven’t figured out yet, and sleepily he walks back upstairs.

I lift Lily off the loveseat, marvel for a second how she can eat like a man and weigh practically nothing, and carry her upstairs. I arrive at the 7th year dorm and knock.

Chrissy Brenner, one of Lily’s old friends, arrives at the door. It doesn’t bother any of the Gryffindor girls when one of the Marauders comes into their dorm anymore; they are used to it.

“Hey James,” She says. Apparently all the Gryffindors are sleepy- the seventh years anyway.

I motion to the sleeping Lily in my arms. She nods and lets me inside.

I carry Lily over to the bed I’ve grown to know is hers, and pull off her robe. I’ll let Chrissy do the rest.

“Thanks.” I say to Chrissy, and she nods and smiles.

Life with Lily tends to be something like this. She’s somewhat of a Marauder, but she doesn’t know about our night excursions and I don’t plan on telling her. She’d want to help and I don’t think she could handle that, not to mention I’d be worrying about her the whole time.

I can’t explain it. Having Lily around, I feel so incredibly protective. Whenever she’s out of my sight, I’m worrying about how she is and where she is and who she’s with. I know she’s a big girl, I know she can handle herself, but I can’t help myself.

I guess it comes with having a girl for one of your best friends. I wonder if all guys are this protective of their girl-best-friends, or I’m just some sort of freak.

I bet I’m just a freak.

*End of Chapter 3*


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Chapter 4: This Could Get Interesting.....
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Chapter 4

I wake up in the morning by way of Gretchen’s cat, Lucy, sitting on my face. “W-When did I fall asleep?” I ask sleepily.

“I’m not sure, but James brought you up after your patrols last night. He didn’t say when you fell asleep,” Gretchen says.

I try to ignore the immediate daydream of James carrying me bridal style up the stairs, holding me tightly against his chest.

“All right. So we are doing breakfast today, right?” I ask, rubbing my eyes.

“Yeah. Go ahead and get ready and meet us at the place in five minutes.”

“Okay, I’ll see you then.”

Chrissy and Gretchen leave the room and I am alone. I grab my uniform and then charm it onto my body. Then I walk into the bathroom and perform a makeup charm . I decide to leave my hair curly, which I don’t do often.

I walk downstairs and then to the hideout. I know the route backwards, forwards, and inside out.

It appears that Chrissy or Gretchen has “ordered” food from the house elves, because the room was filled with breakfast galore. I see my favorite chocolate chip pancakes, eggs, bacon, sausage, French toast, and a ridiculous amount more. Chrissy and Gretchen are lounging on the couches, and smile as you go in.

“Good morning sunshine,” Gretchen says sarcastically. I laugh, and summon all the food.

“Wow Lily, you’re the same as ever,” Chrissy says. I stick out my tongue.

“Except less mature,” Gretchen points out. I turn my tongue to face her.

We laugh and laugh for over an hour, and we completely lose all track of everything. Finally, Chrissy wonders what time it is, not thinking that it has been that long. I check my watch.

“Crap,” I exclaim, “We’re fifteen minutes later for class. I have Potions, what do you all have?”

“I have Divination,” Gretchen says, “and Chrissy has Arithmancy.”

“Well we better go,” I say. They nod and we stand up.

We exit the room, they go the opposite direction as me. I walk, not particularly caring how late I am- skipping class is healthy once in a while, and I’m Slughorn’s favorite.

I turn another corner and run smack dab into- Josh Peters? I haven’t talked to that arse since he cheated on me last year.

“Lily,” he says,  “What a fun surprise!”

I narrow my eyes. “What do you want Peters?”

“How about we go to Hogsmeade?” he asks seductively.

“How about you go to hell?” I say. I go around him and begin walking.
“I know you like him,” he calls after me.

“Like who?” I spin around and face him nervously.

“Don’t act all innocent. I’ve seen the way you drape yourself all over him, you never go anywhere without him and his ‘buddies’.” he smirks, he knows he has me there.

My eyes widen desperately. “Please, Josh, you can’t tell anyone. Do you know what would happen to me if he found out? My whole life would be wrecked.”

“I know,” he sneered. “So how about I come fetch you at seven?”


“Fine then. I think I’ll just have to…”

“Rictumsempra!” I shout, and he flies against the back wall. I spin around and run as fast as I can the rest of the way to the dungeons.

I open the doors as quietly as I can.

“Lily!” Professor Slughorn was never one for subtlety. “I’m afraid you’re late, dear!”

“I’m sorry sir, it’s just..”

“It’s okay, just don’t let it happen again.”

Some of the Slytherins open their mouths to protest, but Professor Slughorn gives them a stern look and they fall silent.

I quickly take my seat next to Sirius.

Where were you? He mouths.

I shake my head.

I’ll tell you later.

I look at James across the room and mouth the same thing. He gives me a questioning look, which I ignore. I wonder what to tell him. I can’t tell him the truth, he will know how I feel about him. I just hope Josh doesn’t tell everyone.

It’s a double Potions lesson, and afterwards it’s time for lunch. I quickly pack up my books and walk out the door before James or Sirius can find me.

I head towards the Great Hall, hoping that Josh hasn’t told anyone. To my great displeasure, I find him already sitting at the Ravenclaw table. The Great Hall is mostly empty, due to my running, and the fact that Slughorn tends to dismiss Double periods five or ten minutes earlier than all the other teachers.  When Josh sees me, he grins evilly and walks over.

“Why hello there Miss Evans. Have you changed your mind? This is your last chance, you know.”

“No. And if you tell anyone, James and Sirius will come after you."

“Aww, is your pathetic little crush going to come save you?” He smirks.

“Sure is.”

“Well then. I guess we’ll just find out, won’t we.”

“I guess we will.”

Even though I am definitely the underdog to win this fight, I can’t help but spin around and flounce back over to my seat. I keep my back to him, and start grabbing food and piling it onto my plate.

A minute later, people start pouring into the Great Hall. My Marauders (I can’t help but think of them as that) walk in, then Chrissy, and then Gretchen a bit after that. All of them head over to where I am, and sit down either next to or across from me.

“Apparently they’ve decided to go American,” says Sirius, taking the hot dog of my plate. I protest and he takes a bite. “So why were you so late to class Lilybell?”

“That’s actually our fault,” Chrissy interjects. “We were having so much fun at our girls day we completely forgot about the time.”

James glares at her, and she pretends not to notice.

“And what does one do at a girls day?” says Sirius, taking another bite out of my hot dog.

“Wouldn’t you like to know,” Chrissy says in a sultry tone.

Sirius gulps. Chrissy has always had that effect on guys.

“Mostly just talking,” I say.

Chrissy pouts.

“Lily, come on, you are ruining the mystery that is a girls day.” She complains.

“I’m sorry,” I say. I stare at Josh Peters, wondering if he is telling everyone that I have a crush on James Potter. Merlin, I hope not.

“Ooo, Lily, who are you staring at? Is it a guy?” Gretchen asks excitedly.

James follows my gaze. “Josh Peters?!” He says incredulously.

“Do you have a crush on that guy, Lily?” Gretchen asks. “You didn’t mention one.”

“NO,” James answers loudly. “That guy is an arse.”

“Why?” Chrissy asks.

“He cheated on me,” I say in a small voice.

“Not just cheated on her. He didn’t apologize, didn’t admit he had done anything wrong even AFTER Lily caught them in the act, and then proceeded to date the other girl and cheat on her!”

“Arse,” Gretchen says sympathetically.

I give her a small smile. Out of the corner of my eye, I see Josh stand up. I immediately give it my full attention. He sees me looking at him, and smirks.

Oh no. He is not walking over to the Hufflepuff table. Please tell me no. Oh no. He is not walking over to Vivian Matthews. Vivian Matthews is the biggest gossip in our entire school. If you want to keep a secret, Vivian is the LAST person you’d tell. She can’t keep a secret. If she knows something, the entire school will know it within an hour. And he just whispered something. Her eyes just went wide. And now she’s looking over here.

“Guys,” I say nervously, “Will you all come back with me to the Gryffindor tower before we go History of Magic?”

“If by we, you mean I’ll go with you all and then lounge in the tower while you all go off to boring old History of Magic, then sure,” James says.

Dang. I forgot about that. James failed his History of Magic OWL. As in he got a Troll, which is the lowest you could possibly get. Sirius, by some gift from Merlin, got an Acceptable and is therefore stuck in the class, as it fills a requirement to have the necessary amount of classes.

“Yes,” I say.

We all stand up, and I usher all of them quickly out of the Great Hall. Josh gives me an evil look.

I rush them back to the common room, knowing that no one in there will know about it yet. I stay as long as possible in the common room, and I only let us leave when we will make it to class just in time so that no one who has already heard will be able to talk to us.

My plan works, and everyone is sitting down as we enter the room. I quickly take my seat next to Sirius and Remus, and look around. I see many suspicious looks staring at me, and many hushed tones, too. Oh no. It’s already happened. Now my friendship with James is ruined, and everyone is going to find out, and my whole life is going to be over. There’s no way I can take this. James, Sirius, Remus, Chrissy and Gretchen are all I have left. My parents are gone, my grandparents, my sister ran off and got married and doesn’t call me, and I have no one left. I’ll have to move to France, or Italy, or Spain, and start over. I try to picture myself at Beauxbatons, and I can’t do it. Hogwarts is my home.

I contemplate my terrible fate the entire class period (does ANYONE pay attention in History of Magic?) and then quickly escape, my friends following close behind me. I rush back to the Gryffindor common room. There’s no way James hasn’t heard yet- Vivian Matthews has connections to everyone, and a minion in every house. I bet everyone in the entire freaking school knows, excluding my friends, of course. And that’s just good planning with a fast escape right there.

I arrive back in the common room in record time (even if I have no friends left after this, I’ll be in really good shape) and quickly scour the room. The room falls silent as soon as I enter it. I see James, who has his face in his hands. My friends are still behind me, as they didn’t run, and I rush over to him.

“James, is something wrong?” I say, pretending I have no idea what is going on.

“I think you know what is wrong, Lily Evans,” he says flatly, looking at me. “I thought we were best friends. I thought we told each other everything. I guess I was wrong.”

“No, James,” I plead, “You weren’t wrong. We are best friends, we do tell each other everything, I was just afraid when I started getting these feelings that you wouldn’t like it and you wouldn’t accept the idea, which is why I didn’t tell you.”

“Still Lily, I mean I had a right to know. If you started liking…”

“Liking who?” Sirius popped up over my shoulder, the others in tow. He rested his chin on my shoulder and I couldn’t help but laugh.

“Don’t act all innocent, Sirius Black, you had a part in this too. I mean Lily could have been for months… And I’m sure you knew too! You probably liked it, and here is good ole clueless James Potter, completely unaware that anything is going on! And you just probably went along with it too. I bet you encouraged it.”

I’m feeling sick to my stomach at this point. “Look, James, I’m really sorry. I was going to tell you eventually, but it never seemed like the right time, and there were always distractions…”

“Yeah,” he cut in bitterly, “Sirius distractions.”

“Wait. What?”

“You all were probably going at it for months behind my back.”

Now I’m confused. “Okay James, what are you talking about?”

“I’m talking, Miss Evans, about how you and him are completely and totally in love with each other.”

“Wait. Who would the him be?”

“Who else? Sirius Black!”

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Chapter 5: An Unintentional Escape Route
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Chapter 5
An Unintentional Escape Route

“Who else? Sirius Black!”

My jaw drops and I hear a gasp.

“WHAT?” I hear Sirius shout.

“Don’t deny it. I heard about the whole thing.”

I know this is completely horrible and everything, but I am amazed. I was just handed the best escape ever. This could work.

“You’re right, James,” I hear myself say. Did I really just say that? Could this work? Could I just maybe be the dumbest redhead in the history of the universe?

Sirius spins me around and stares me down- which is highly intimidating, I might add. In a strained voice, he says, “Lily? Could I talk to you for a minute, please?”

I follow him away from the others.

“What do you think you are doing Lily?” Sirius says angrily.

“Admitting my true feelings?” I say, as more of a question than an answer.

“That’s the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard. I may be a bloke, but I know that you are completely in love with James.”

Maybe Sirius is less oblivious than I originally thought. It’s definitely possible.

“You’re right.” I’m not even going to deny it, when I know it’s true. “That is why I’m begging you to do this for me.”

Sirius thinks for a second (which is very unlike him).

“Okay,” he says finally. “I’ll do this. But I have a limit to how far I’ll go. And I’m only doing this because I love you. If it was anyone else…”

“Thank you!” I say. I hug him, and he returns it gingerly.

“Let’s do this.” Sirius looks fierce. He slips his hand into mine- which feels really weird- and we walk back over to the rest of them.

“Look James,” He begins, “You can’t blame Lils for it. I begged her not to tell you because I didn’t want there to be any weirdness in our dynamic, and I didn’t want you to have to be involved. Lily wanted to tell you, she really did, but I thought it would be better if you didn’t know. That was stupid and wrong, and I’m sorry, mate. I really am.”

James pauses  for a second. He’s not going to believe this, this was a stupid idea. It’s not going to work.

“It’s okay, mate,” James says. “Nobody can control who they like. I’ll just leave you all, so you can have some time alone.”

He turns and walks off towards the boys' dormitory.

“Lily!” Gretchen says. “Why didn’t you tell us?”

I look at Sirius desperately.

“It’s just like I told James, we wanted to keep it a secret because we didn’t think that people would accept it.” That boy must love me if he’s willing to go through all this trouble so James doesn’t know that I am in love with him.

“So, Lilybell,” He says, “Would you like to go for a walk around the grounds before it’s time for Herbology?”

The look he’s giving me tells me that I should probably accept this.

“Sure.” That boy can be intimidating when he wants to be.

We say goodbye to the others and leave the common room.

Sirius doesn’t say anything until we get to the grounds and start walking around the lake.

“So how are you going to get yourself out of this mess, Lil?”

I close my eyes. “I have no idea. I just know that James can’t find out about this.”

“What are you trying to do, make him jealous by using his best friend?” He raises an eyebrow.

“Actually, I thought that the person who told that to James thought that I liked James. Turns out he thinks I like you, so that was an easy way out of that little mess.”

“Except now you’ve gotten yourself into the mess of letting the guy you’re in love with think that you are in love with his best friend and dating him. That can’t end well.”

“Sure it can,” I argue, “James doesn’t have to know that we aren’t really. In due time, we’ll ‘break up’, and James will be happy because he’ll have been a jealous mess because I’m dating you.”

Sirius looks at me. “And you really think that is going to work?”

I nod eagerly.

He sighs. “All right then, let’s talk about the limits of this relationship. I will hug you, hold your hand, maybe the occasional flirting, but I refuse to kiss you. I’m sorry, that is sick.”

“What?” I say innocently. “You don’t think I’m kissable?”

“Maybe to other people, but Lil to me you’re the sister that I never had. I love you and everything, but dating you? I’m sorry, but that just won’t work for me.”

“Fine,” I say, faking exasperation. “We won’t kiss, even though I totally know that you want to.”

Sirius rolls his eyes. “Lily, I hope this works out, but if it doesn’t, I’m hiring you a shrink or taking you to the mental ward at St. Mungo’s.”

“I…” I start, but then close my mouth. “Okay, deal.”

By this time, we’re making the final turn around the lake. And then Josh Peters decides to walk up.

“Hey guys,” he says cheerfully, with a smirk on his face.

“Why you smug little bastard I’d like to…” Sirius steps forward but I pull him back.

“Sirius, no. Actually, Josh here is what brought us together,” I say, giving him a look.

He understands. “Oh really? In that case, thanks mate.”

“Yeah,” I say, putting my hand on his chest and laughing girlishly. “Now if you don’t mind, Sirius and I are off to go do some things.” I wink at Josh, and his jaw drops. Mission accomplished.

“Yeah, see you later mate.” We link hands and walk around him. As soon as he’s out of earshot, Sirius says, “You know, I just might have some fun with this.”

“Oh, I know I’m going to have some fun with this,” I say, laughing. “Did you see the look on his poor smug little face? Hilarious!”

“I know!” Sirius is also laughing hysterically. “Only two things can come of this, I’m killed by James when he finds out, or I die of laughing too hard.”

We laugh for a bit more as we walk back to the common room. It’s kind of pointless, seeing as we’ll just be walking right back down for Herbology, but I don’t feel like staying to chat with Josh Peters.

As we walk back to the common room, hand in hand, a silence falls down upon the halls of Hogwarts. I hear hushed whispers.

“I knew that was going to happen eventually,” I hear Vivian Matthews mutter to her best friend, Sandy Adams.

“I thought it would have been Lily and James!” Her friend whispers back.

Do they think we can’t hear them? If they do, they need some serious help and perhaps a hearing charm too.

We arrive back at the common room through the Fat Lady (“Ooo, are you two dating? Let me tell you a story….”) and sit down on the couches where everyone else is sitting. I naturally take my place next to James, and Sirius falls into his seat next to Remus.

James stands up. “Wouldn’t you much rather sit next to your boyfriend?” He sneers. He seems mad.

“James, of course not, you’re my best friend.”

He either needs a hearing charm too or is choosing to ignore that. He stand in front of Sirius, who awkwardly gets up and collapses next to me in the loveseat. He whispers “Just play along,” in my ear.

This could get weird.

James’ POV

I can’t believe this is happening.

Lily? Sirius? My two best friends? DATING? Holy Merlin, what is going on? Is the Earth falling apart? Is today April Fool’s Day?

First I need to figure out what is going on. I’m pretty sure Josh Peters told me Lily was in love with Sirius. I’m pretty sure Lily and Sirius admitted they were dating secretly. I’m pretty sure I just watched Sirius and Lily walk out of the common room hand in hand. I’m pretty sure Lily just hit his chest playfully.

I can’t understand this. First of all, I don’t understand why Lily would like Sirius, secondly, I don’t know why Josh Peters would know before me, and finally, and perhaps most importantly, I don’t know why it is bothering me so much.

I don’t like Lily. Well, I mean, of course I love Lily, and of course I’d do anything for her, but I’m not IN love with her. Well, I thought so…..

Back when I was young and stupid, I asked Lily out several times. A day. And I thought I got over her after she came in that day in July, but what else could explain why it is bothering me so much that Lily and Sirius are going out?

It must be brotherly protectiveness that is making me have these feelings. I care a lot about Lily’s safety, and of course I’d worry about if the guy she’s dating is right for her or not. Although I thought that Sirius had felt the same way. Turns out he just wanted that boyfriend to be him. Jeez, you think you know a guy.

Although I guess I’m not a saint either. I liked Lily a little bit too much in that string bikini last summer…..

No James. Stop it. You don’t like Lily. You are concerned for her safety. I slap my face.

“Come on Potter, snap out of it,” I mutter to myself. “Pull yourself together.”

The portrait hole opens and Lily and Sirius come in laughing, holding hands. Great, they already have an inside joke. I’m going to become a third wheel, and it’s going to suck.

Sirius and Lily walk in. Lily flops down on our loveseat, and I stand, and blurt “Wouldn’t you rather sit next to your boyfriend?”

I hope I don’t look as stupid as I feel.

“James, of course not. You’re my best friend.”

Good to hear. I think it would be best if I don’t respond to that, though. I walk over to Sirius and motion to the seat I was sitting in. He walks over and sits down. Sirius whispers in her ear. This could definitely get weird.

“So James,” Lily giggled, “what’s going on?”

“Not much,” I reply coolly, “just hanging, you know, the usual.”

Lily nods. “James, I had an idea. I thought it would be fun if we had a surprise Hogsmeade trip tomorrow. So, you know,” She looks at Sirius girlishly and I feel like I might puke, “Sirius and I can hang out and stuff.”

I sort of want to know what the stuff is, and sort of don’t. In the end, my head decides I don’t, and I retort “There’s no way we’ll be able to get McGonagall to approve a trip for tomorrow.”

“I think we can,” she replies. “I’ll go ask her now. Siri, want to come with me?”

She already has a pet name for him. Isn’t that just fantastic?

Apparently he thinks so, because he gives her a cheeky grin. “Lil, I don’t think we have enough time before Herbology. We’ll go right after, I promise.”

“Good,” Lily replies smiling, “We need some alone time.”

She winks at him. This is sickening. How can Sirius possibly like this? Every cutesy word that she says to him makes me want to puke a little more.

“Of course...” I swallow, “You do.”

I thought nothing could be more sickening then Snape when he hadn’t taken a shower in three weeks to 'conserve water', but I was wrong.

“So we better go to Herbology,” Sirius says.

I nod, and slowly regain my composure.

“Let’s go.”

As I watch them link hands yet again, I have strange visions of me killing Sirius, me comforting Lily as she complains about what a bad boyfriend Sirius is, me kissing Lily- all right, what the hell is going on? 


Chapter 6: Unnatural Romantic Excursions
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Chapter 6

Lily’s POV

So this seems to be working out. I admit that it probably wasn’t the best idea I’ve ever had, but it certainly has the possibility of ending in my favor. Provided, of course that Sirius never tells and I never tell. I know I certainly won’t, but Sirius might if he needs something to hang over my head. I’ll just try not to annoy him for a while.

As Sirius and I walk back up from Herbology, I see him staring off into space. I nudge him. “Sirius?” I whisper softly.

He shakes his head and comes back down to Earth. “Sorry,” he mutters, “I’m thinking through all the possible ways that this could end horribly.”

“It won’t,” I reply reassuringly. “Neither of us are going to tell.”

“But what if someone hears us talking about it?” He whispers.

I hadn’t really thought of that. “No one will. We can just not talk about it.”

“What are we doing right now, Lily?” He asks pointedly.

“Talking, like couples do.”

He snorts. “Of course we are.”

“Well, it’s not going to work if you have that attitude! Come on, it’s going to be fine.”

He sighs. “All right, now that you’ve conjured up this trip to Hogsmeade, we’d better go ask McGonagall.”

I grin. “I actually did want to go to Hogsmeade, so what’s the hurt of asking?”

He shrugs. “I just have a feeling this is going to end badly.”

“What’s going to end badly?” James asks from behind us. I flip around.

“It’s just- uh- this prank that Sirius and I thought up to pull on Snape.” I lie. Those boys are rubbing off on me.

“Oh,” He responds. “What prank?”

Clearly Sirius realizes he should be the one to answer this. “We’re just going to buy Dungbombs and a Love Potion and put essence of the Dungbombs in the Love Potion so Snivellus falls in love with a Dungbomb. It was Lily’s idea, and I’m saying it might actually hurt Snape.”

“Since when do you care?” James wonders.

“I don’t want to actually hurt him.” Sirius quickly adds, and I see him cross his fingers behind his back.  I should have known.

“Well, it wouldn’t hurt to try. Probably. So when do you all want to do it?” James asks.

Quickly I concur with Sirius by saying “Let’s not do it, Sirius was right. It could actually hurt him and I don’t want that to happen.”

We reach the staircases. “Hey Lils let’s come on and ask McGonagall.” Sirius suggests.

“Okay. See you later James.” I walk away swiftly, right as I see him reach for a hug, as we always do when we part ways. I hope he’s insulted and maybe a little jealous. I put my arm around Sirius’s waist for more effect.

I’m being mean, I know, but I really want this to work. Being in love with someone who doesn’t return the sentiment hasn’t been the most fun experience of my life- especially when the male in question thinks of you as a sister that is “fun to hang out with”.

It’s worse when I think of how he used to like me and I always turned him away. How could I not realize what an amazing person he is? He’s charming, sweet, funny, caring, and yes, a troublemaker, but he knows when it’s time to stop and be serious.

And, me, stupid immature Lily Evans thought of him as an immature prat. How could I not see it?

We arrive at McGonagall’s door shortly, and Sirius raps on it. McGonagall is quick to open it.

“Yes?” She inquires.

“I was wondering,” I begin, “If it might be possible to have a Hogsmeade trip tomorrow.”

“Tomorrow?” She replies with a snort. “Well I’ll check, but I don’t think we can do that.”

She disappears underneath her desk, reappearing with a befuddled look a few moments later. “I’ll notify Madam Rosmerta, we’ll have a special visit just for seventh years. We can’t have a full visit, some sort of muggle appreciation event is occurring Saturday evening and the shops will become very crowded. How does that sound?”

Sirius and I look at each other and grin. “That’d be awesome,” I respond. Professor McGonagall smiles slightly. “I’ll have Professor Dumbledore give an announcement at dinner. In the meantime, you two go outside, it’s a beautiful spring day.”

“Sounds like a plan,” I agree. We walk out the door.

James POV-

As usual, Remus is in the library when I hurry in. I rush over to him. “Remus this is insane. Lily and Sirius?! What is UP with that?!”

Remus sighs. “James, I thought you got over Lily after fifth year. I thought you finally moved on.”

I snarl indignantly “I have moved on! She’s like a sister to me!”

Remus sets his book down. “James, think about it. Why are you so angry that Lily and Sirius are dating?”

“Because Sirius is all wrong for Lily!” Remus rolls his eyes. “What kind of guy would be right for Lily?”

“Someone who knows her inside out! Someone who would rather die than let anything happen to her! Someone who knows exactly how she loves taking long bubble baths in the mornings and knows how she sighs loudly as she falls asleep and how she has six different smiles and how she hates cutting her hair shorter than shoulder-length and how she cares so much about her friends and….”

“So you, basically,” Remus interrupts. I groan. “Think about it James, who knows her better than anyone else alive?”

I think it over. “Me,” I say softly.

“James, here’s my theory. That summer after fifth year, your subconscious realized that Lily needed a friend, not a boyfriend. So you buried your feelings inside you. I guess this thing with Sirius has triggered them back to the surface.”

I don’t want to believe him. But all of this really truly makes sense. I should’ve known I wouldn’t be able to get over Lily that easily. I’ve loved her since the first day I saw her, I’ve dreamed of marrying her and having little Potters running around. I can’t believe I was that thick.

“So what am I supposed to do?” I turn back to Remus.

He looks at me. “You’re going to have to fight for her.”

Sirius’s POV

I met James Potter when I was eight years old. My parents found out the Potters were purebloods and decided to send me on a play date. We immediately became best friends, after I helped him pull a prank on his dad (the first of many epic pranks). It wasn’t long before my parents figured out that his parents were blood-traitors, but it was too late. We were best friends.

I met Lily Evans on the train on the way to Hogwarts for the first time. She was one of the scared looking first years that could easily be identified as muggle-born. She was also hanging around Severus Snape, who I vaguely knew and disliked immediately. I knew James very well by that point, and he looked at Lily for the first time in a way my eleven-year-old mind couldn’t comprehend.  He turned to me after she walked away, and said in a serious tone I had never heard him use, “I’m going to marry that girl”. I, being 11, laughed it off and told him to wait a few years.

When I arrived back at the Potter Mansion that rainy night the summer between fifth and sixth year, I was surprised, but somehow, it made sense. It felt like destiny was finally taking its course, and James was finally going to get the girl he’d been in love with for almost six years.

Lily became a fifth marauder. She’s commonly referred to as the mother of the Marauders, she has kept us in line the past few years when we’ve come close to going too far. The only thing we keep from her is what we do when the full moon comes around. None of us want her to be put in that kind of danger.

Needless to say, the four of us have always got Lily’s back. Lily’s the only girl I’ve never been attracted to, and the only girl that I love on a purely platonic level. So am I crazy for agreeing to pretend to be her boyfriend so that she can seduce my best friend who is so obviously still in love with her?

In answer to that question, yes, of course I’m crazy. I’m Sirius Black.

Neither James nor Remus is in the common room when Lily and I get there, and Peter is in his usual remedial Transfiguration lesson. He’s hopeless. The only Gryffindors in the common room are two sixth year girls, three fourth year boys and a handful of first and second years. Everyone else is enjoying yet another beautiful day outside.

Lily automatically moves to her loveseat and I settle down next to her and put my arm around her, whispering in her ear. “If we’re going to do this, we’ve got to be convincing,” I feign saying playfully.  Lily giggles.

“So Sirius, I believe our deal was, you didn’t have to go to Madam Puddifoot’s tomorrow as long as you finished ALL your homework tonight,” She smirks.

I glare at her. “Lil, I know, but I really could do most of it on Sunday. I want to enjoy today.”

“Siri, if you do it now, you can enjoy your Sunday. Besides, you have Quidditch practice Sunday evening; you won’t really be able to do much. You have to do it, it’s our deal.”

“Oh, fine.” I conjure my books from upstairs and begin writing a History of Magic essay. Lily pulls out her latest novel and is instantly absorbed. I grab her hand.

She looks up at me inquiringly. I mouth “play along” to her, and she understands. I begin playing with her hand and tickling it.  I am so going to torture her for this.

After a few minutes, I drop her hand. She’s leaning against one side of the loveseat, and I’m leaning on the other. I pull her over to my side and into my arms. She squirms uncomfortably and I smirk, putting my arms around her waist.

Gretchen and Chrissy come down from the girl’s staircase. Seeing us, they sigh dreamily as only girls can and start to walk over. James and Remus appear at the portrait hole and they all walk over to the loveseat.

“Okay, question time,” Chrissy states. “What do you like about Lily, Sirius?”

“Well, she’s gorgeous, first of all,” I start, “And funny, and smart, and an amazing kisser.” James starts glaring at me.

“What about Sirius, Lily?” James asks her. “What do you like about him?”

“Well he’s the best looking Marauder, of course, and he’s awesome with magic, and he’s also a great kisser.” James is looking murderous.

“Oh really?” He says inquiringly.

“Kiss her!” Chrissy and Gretchen shriek obnoxiously. I can see why Lily stopped being friends with those two; they’re so annoying. The girls continue to shriek.

Remus speaks up. “Chrissy, Gretchen, why don’t you leave these two alone so they can have some privacy. You know, they haven’t been going out very long, they just went public today, I’m sure that they don’t want all this attention and pressure so early in the relationship.” Remus can be deep sometimes. Wrong, but deep.

Chrissy rolls her eyes. “Remus, we’re her friends! This would be the people she’d want to do this! They have to go through this, and it’s easiest coming from friends!”

Remus sighs tiredly. I know he hates getting into relationship nonsense, it’s not his thing. Chrissy and Gretchen start shrieking obnoxiously again and I groan.

“Kiss her! Kiss her!”

“Yeah, Sirius, why won’t you kiss your girlfriend?” James growls.

I look around at everyone, then back at Lily anxiously. She has a frantic expression on her face. I think over a million things in three seconds. But then I remember the look on James’s face the day he met Lily. If this helps Lily and James, I’ll do anything.

So I do the only thing that seems natural. I grab Lily and kiss her.

I'm one of those people that believes that everyone should be able to vent when they need to, and I want to. I've had such a hard time with this chapter, I had it halfway done two months ago and I hit a roadblock I couldn't get over. I wrote several different versions, and finally climbed over the roadblock and wrote this one. I'm not completely happy with it, but I'm satisfied. You can expect the next few chapters sooner than this one came out! Thanks and please review!