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From Hate To Love And Back Again by Irish_Ginny

Format: Novel
Chapters: 27
Word Count: 66,986

Rating: 12+
Warnings: Mild Language, Mild Violence, Scenes of a Mild Sexual Nature

Genres: Fluff, Humor, Romance
Characters: Lupin, Sirius, Lily, James, Pettigrew, Voldemort, OC
Pairings: James/Lily, OC/OC, Remus/OC, Sirius/OC

First Published: 05/31/2006
Last Chapter: 10/23/2006
Last Updated: 11/01/2006

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This takes place during James and Lily's 7th Year. After James is once again rejected by Lily he asks the other Marauders for help. But is this a good idea? Especially if Sirius is helping? Join James, Lily and their friends as they tackle their last year and everything it brings; love, loss and laughter. PLEASE REVIEW!!!! I really need you to tell me what you think!!

Chapter 1: Chapter 1: Flower Dilemma
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DISCLAIMER: I do not own Harry Potter or anything got to do with him. He is all J.K. Rowlings (lucky!)

Chapter 1: Flower Dilemma

“Ah! This is so frustrating!” said James. He was alone in his room after once again being rejected by Lily Evans. He fell down onto his bed with a sigh.

“Prongs mate, I think you’ve gone completely mad this time,” siad a voice from the door.

James looked up to see his best friend Sirius Black standing in the doorway.

“I’m getting a vibe that this is women trouble, or rather Lily Evans trouble. Am I right?” said Sirius.

All he got was a sigh in return.

“Ok, sit up little grasshopper and let the master help. We are going to sort this out once and for all. If not for your sake, for mine. We haven’t pulled a good prank in ages. You’ve been too rapped up in your ‘oh so pathetic’ love life.”

James sat up with a sigh. “Ok, what are we going to do?”

“Well for starters, don’t take his advice. His idea of a relationship is making out with a different girl in a broom cupboard everyday,” came a new voice, that of Remus Lupin.

“Hey, I resent that Moony. I haven’t been with any girl today.”

“Oh yeah? What about that 6th Year in Hufflepuff?”

“Oh yeah. Ah well, it doesn’t matter. This is about Prongs, not me. He is too pathetic at the whole dating thing and I think it’s about time I stepped in and helped. He’s been making a fool out of himself for years and he’s ruining the name of the Marauders.”

“He is not pathetic. He just doesn’t know how to handle Lily.”

“In case you guys haven’t noticed, I’m still in the room. Do you have to talk about me like that?” said James lifting his head.

“Sorry Prongs, but you have to admit you are terrible when it comes to Evans. I vote you forget about her. Why go through this for a girl?” said Sirius.

But this was definitely the wrong thing to say.

“She is NOT just a girl. She is THE girl. There is something special about her, I just can’t think of it. And where do you get off Padfoot? You’ve never felt anything for a girl. You couldn’t possibly know what I’m going through. You’ve got no heart when it comes to girls. You only care about what they look like and how long it will take for them to go to a broom closet with you. You’ve never been in love!” yelled James, jumping off the bed.

“Ha! I have succeeded in my first task! I got you out of your bed,” yelled Sirius triumphantly, smiling his usual charming smile.

But it seemed that what James had said finally registered in his head. His smile faded quickly.

“Prongs, did you say you were in love with Evans?”


“Prongs! What is the no. 1 rule of the Marauders? ‘No Marauder is EVER to fall in love’.”

“Actually,’ interjected Moony. “The no.1 rule is ‘Always stick by your fellow Marauders’.”

“Fine then! It’s the second rule…”

“No, the second rule is ‘Cause as much mayhem in Hogwarts as possible’.”

“It doesn’t matter Moony!’ came an exasperated Sirius. “The point is he broke the rules. He’s not allowed fall in love. When you fall in love things like this happen and the Marauders are no longer the four, well maybe three, Wormtail isn’t that hot. Anyway, we’re the three hottest guys in Hogwarts! We must stay available so we can please the women of Hogwarts. If we fall in love, who will be there for them? They’ll fall apart. They’ll be heartbroken. They’ll die because I’m not there. They’ll…”

“Ok Padfoot, you’ve made your point,” said Remus.

“…they’ll cry every night over the ruined Marauders. They’ll kill every girl in Hogwarts to find out who we’re with. They’ll…”

“Shut up Padfoot. I thought we were going to help Prongs with this? That is why you came up here right?” said Mooney from the end of James’ bed.

“Well no actually. I came up here to annoy him to come out and play a prank on dear old Snivellius. He was walking by the common room, but then I got up here and Prongs was moping about Evans for what must be the millionth time! So I decided he needed my help.”

“Oh yes Padfoot, you’re the best person for advice. If he ever needs to know how to date six girls at once, he’ll come to you,” said Remus.

“Six is easy. Now eight that’s...”

“Otherwise,’ said Remus, he’ll come to me. I am more understanding than you. Although that’s not hard. You after all have the emotional range of a teaspoon, if even that.”

“So Prongs,’ said Remus turning to James. What happened with Lily?”

“It’s obvious isn’t it, Prongs-”

“Sirius, shut up!” said Remus.

“Fine, fine Moony. I’ll let you handle the, as I like to call it ‘Flower Dilemma’,” said Sirius. “I’ll just sit here and observe quietly.”

“Sure Sirius. The day I see you sitting quietly is the day I enjoy being a werewolf,” said Remus before turning to James and giving him a look that told him he should start talking now.

“Ok,” said James with a sigh. “Well I was walking back to the common room from McGonagall’s office and I saw Lily in front of me. Her beautiful red flowing hair blowing around behind her as she walked, like an angel…”

“Ok Prongs, we get the point. Lily looked great, continue please,” said Remus.

“Well, she was alone so I walked up to her,” said James.

“After he stopped drooling over her,” commented Sirius.

“Shut up Padfoot. Continue Prongs,” said Remus, glaring at Sirius.

“Well, I walked up to her and…”

“Hey my Beautiful Flower, how are we doing today?”

“Get lost Potter. I’m not in the mood for you today,” Lily sounded very irritated, but noticing things like this was not James’s strong point.

“You don’t have much choice my darling angel; we are Head Boy and Girl after all. We have rounds to do later.”

“Exactly, later. I don’t want to deal with your giant head right now Potter. I don’t know what charm you put on Dumbledore to make you Head Boy but it won’t work on me. So please leave me alone,” Lily hissed at him.

“Ok Evans. I’ll leave you alone if you answer my one question and give me the right answer.”

“I will not go out with you Potter so don’t waste your breath asking me.”

“But I want to waste my breath on you my love. So anyway, since you are Head Girl and I of course am Head Boy, I feel it is only fitting that we go to Hogsmeade together. What do you say?”

“I say the same thing I’ve said for five years; I’d rather date the giant squid.”

“Now, see Evans, you’re in denial. I can sense it. You really do like me and want to go out with me, you just won’t admit it. I mean I can see why you would want to go out with the handsomest, most intelligent, funniest guy in Hogwarts, but I don’t understand why you’re hiding it Evans. I won’t reject you if that’s what you’re worried about be-”

But he didn’t have time to finish his sentence before Lily pulled out her wand and yelled ‘Rictusempra!’ pointing her wand at James.

James was thrown forcibly backwards and landed on his back. When he looked up Lily was standing over him, looking murderous.

“Listen here Potter. How dare you accuse me of wanting to go out with you. I will NEVER go out with you. Get over it. I’m sorry if I just squashed your dreams of dating every girl in Hogwarts but it doesn’t matter. I would NEVER even consider going out with an arrogant, big-headed, toerag who thinks he is God’s gift to the women of Hogwarts. Well let me tell you Potter, you’re not. You are an evil bullying git who picks on students who are weaker than you. Just because you have a natural ability with jinxes and hexes doesn’t mean you can parade around this school like you own it and expect everyone to fall on their knees before you. So grow up. Don’t ever ask me out again Potter. Because next time you do, I’ll make sure you go to the Hospital Wing with a lasting injury,” Lily yelled at him.

With that said she stomped off back up the corridor and turned in the direction of the library.

“What is her problem,” James asked himself before getting up off the ground and walking rather awkwardly towards the portrait of the Fat Lady. After all, if you’re hit with a jinx sent by Lily Evans when she is really angry, she makes sure you can’t walk straight for a week.

Hope you all liked it. It is my first fic so it starts slow, but it gets better!

Chapter 2: Chapter 2: Moony's Advice
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Chapter 2: Moony’s Advice

James looked up to see Sirius rolling around his bed in laughter.

“What is so funny Padfoot?” asked James looking at the reaction of his friend.

“Well….Prongs…it’s just….hahahahaha!!” laughed Sirius. He was now nearly on the floor from laughing. He couldn’t compose a full sentence without laughing.

“Moony, what is wrong with him? It wasn’t that funny,” said James looking annoyed and hurt.

Remus looked over at Sirius and gave him a disapproving look. When Sirius saw this he tried to calm down. It took a lot of work but at least he stoped laughing long enough to tell James what was so funny.

“Well Prongs, in case you didn’t notice, Evans hexed you. And by the sounds of it, and the way you’re walking, she got you good mate,” Sirius said before bursting out laughing again.

Remus looked at Sirius and tried to tell him to shut up, but it didn’t seem to be working. Sirius got up and walked over to James and hit him across the head.

“What the hell is wrong with you Prongs? You let Evans hex you? Evans? Do you know what will happen if anyone finds out one of the famous Marauders got hexed by a girl? There will be mayhem. You have ruined us Prongs. I don’t think I can ever look at you the same way again,” said Sirius before falling back onto his bed with his hand up to his head in mock faint.

“Padfoot, ease off, ok?” said Remus but he was also having a hard time keeping a smile from his face.

“I didn’t mean for it to happen. I didn’t think she was going to hex me. I thought she was only going to give me another lecture but she seemed to get really pissed off fro some weird reason,” said James looking slightly flustered.

“Well, can you really blame her Prongs? You were a bit tactless,” said Remus.

“Tactless is too soft Moony. I would have gone with stupid, crazy, idiotic…” piped up Sirius from his bed.

“Not helping the situation here Padfoot,” said Remus before turning again to James.

“The thing is Prongs, girls, especially girls like Lily don’t like to be told how they feel and what they should do. You come on a bit strong for her I think and, well, it was one time too many.”

“But I still think she over reacted by hexing me,” said James looking up at Remus helplessly.

“Well, I’m not sure. She hasn’t been herself this week, so that could have something to do with it I suppose,” said Remus.

“Moony what am I going to do? I don’t know what it is about her but when I’m around her I….I don’t know….I loose myself. Am I really as bad as she says I am?” asked James.

“Sure you’re not! Ok, so you’re a bit big-headed, and yes you play a lot of pranks and she was right about hexing Snivellius and about how you treat girls but other than that you’re not that bad,” smiled Sirius from the other side of the room. This earned him a pillow in the face from Remus.

“Sirius, I’m warning you. You can stay and try and help or go downstairs to everyone else,” said Remus with a warning tone in his voice.

“He is beyond help Moony. Did you even hear his story. The poor chap is a lost cause,” said Sirius. This time though he was too fast and dodged the pillow sent his way.

“Haha Moony! You misse… Ow Prongs what was that for?” exclaimed Sirius. He was of course referring to the book that James had sent at him when Remus had missed.

“What? Moony missed, what did you expect me to do? Let it go?” said James with a smirk.

“Well I’m glad I’m finally getting my best friend back, but next time could you use something lighter than a book? I can’t risk my fantastically good looks!” pouted Sirius.

Both James and Remus started to laugh at this. When they calmed down James looked at Remus with a worrying look in his eyes.

“I’m serious Moony, I….” started James.

“No you’re not, I’m Sirius!” interrupted Sirius, smiling at the other two Marauders. Remus rolled his eyes at Sirius.

“Come on Padfoot, don’t you think that joke is getting a bit old?”

“Do you think it is,” asked Sirius

“YES,” both James and Remus shouted at him at the same time.

“Well then, I don’t!” he proclaimed happily, smiling widely at the pair of them.

“Will you ever grow up Padfoot?” asked Remus, looking at Sirius with a hint of amusement.

“MOONY! How dare you even suggest that! I shiver at the thought of it. I don’t want to grow up. I never will! I’m going to be like that guy in the muggle book you never grows up!” he exclaimed.

“You mean Peter Pan?” James asked.

Sirius and Remus looked at him.

“How did you know that? You come from a wizarding family. I find it hard to believe you read a muggle book,” said Moony.

“Well, I heard Lily and her friends talking about how they read it when they were young, and Lily said it was one of her favourite books so I decided to read it. It was a strange though. I mean flying without a broom, what’s that about?”

“You mean to tell me that the famous Prongs, master of magic, prince of pranks, lord of ladies, read a muggle book because Lily freaking Evans said she read it? You are hooked mate. You have gone to the dark side,” Sirius said looking at James as if he was a mad man. “Of dating of course. Not the real dark side,” he added seeing the looks on James and Remus’ face.

“Well, it does prove one thing. James is willing to grow up and change for Lily. Aren’t you Prongs?” Remus asked.

“Of course I am Moony. I don’t know what it is about her but she makes me act like a complete jerk around her,”

“Got that right,” commented Sirius

“But I’m not really like that. I love her so much it hurts. I will do anything if she would just give me a chance. And if that means not pulling anymore pranks or cursing Snape, then so be it. I am willing to change for her. But I don’t know what she wants. Ahh! Why does it have to be Evans? Why can’t it be any other girl in Hogwarts? Why does it have to be the one who always rejects me, who rips my heart out and stomps on it when she gives me one of her cold stares? Why do I have to fall in love with her?” James questioned, looking like he was close to tears.

Sirius looked like James had hit him again. He couldn’t take in what James had just said. He is willing to stop playing pranks and hexing people and basically stop being a Marauder, for a GIRL. And one who hated the sight of him for that matter? He looked at James to see him close to tears. Damn that Lily Evans! She is ruining my favourite Marauder! If it is the last thing I do I am going to get the two of them together. They are clearly meant to be (even to him and he’s as blind as James when it comes to things like that). But I can’t stand to see my friend in this pain over one stupid, selfish girl who won’t admit how she feels about him. DAMN HER!!

“What am I going to do guys? I need to do something or she’ll never go out with me.”

“Well, I hate to say this James, but you do need to change, especially around Lily. Don’t hex people in front of her, be polite to her, don’t be arrogant in front of her, be…” Remus said.

“Should he be taking notes? How is he going to remember all this?” asked Sirius

“Shut it Padfoot! Anyway as I was saying, Prongs, you need to treat her like a human being, not an object. Take more responsibility with your Head duties. She would appreciate that. You need to show her you can be mature, that you’re not just about playing pranks and hexing people. Show her the real Prongs we all love. But you need to give it time. Get her to be friends with you first. You need to take things slowly. Talk to her, not at her. You should also loose the last name thing, let her know you are serious about this. And whatever you do, do NOT ask her out until you are sure she will want to. Even if you have to wait for her to ask you herself,” advised Remus.

“Wait a minute. NO Marauder gets asked out by a girl. A Marauder always does the asking, because we are irresistible! Well, at least I am,” said Sirius, looking at Remus in shock fro suggesting such a thing.

James looked at his watch and jumped.

“Sorry guys, I have to go. I have to meet Lily for rounds. Better not be late if I want to impress her. Thank you guys for your help,” said James before rushing out the door.

“I think we are going to need some help with this Padfoot,” said Remus still looking at door James had just exited.

“And I know the two perfect people to help us,” said Sirius.

Hope you liked it! Please tell me what you think! I am new at this so I want to know if there is anything I should/could do to improve! Thanks!

Chapter 3: Chapter 3: Potter Problems
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Chapter 3: Potter Problems

Lily stomped down the corridor towards the library muttering to herself.

“How dare he! Like him? He wishes! Argh! I could kill Potter!” she exclaimed angrily.

She walked quickly into the library and slammed her books on the table. She sat down and took out her potions essay, still muttering about James.

“Ah! I can’t do this,” she shouted earning her a disapproving look from Madam Pince.

She stood up again, stuffed her books into her bag and stalked angrily out of the library. She was walking so fast she was nearly running and only stopped when she reached the portrait of the Fat Lady.

“Butterbeer,” she said through clenched teeth.

“Right you are miss,” said the Fat Lady before swinging open to let Lily in.

Lily stormed across the common room to the staircase leading to the girl’s dormitory. Everyone knew that by the look on her face she was not to be messed with. One poor first year fell over a chair trying to avoid her. She stomped up the stairs and slammed the door of her dormitory behind her. Her two best friends, Alice and Joanne, looked up when she slammed the door.

“It’s Potter again, isn’t it?” asked Joanne, already knowing the answer. Only one person could get under Lily’s skin like this and it was James Potter.

“What happened this time?” asked Alice. Alice was very calm and quiet. The complete opposite of Joanne. Jo was very outspoken and loved to be the centre of attention. Which she always was. She was absolutely gorgeous with her long black hair, deep blue eyes and perfect skin. Boys were falling over themselves to get to her. Alice was also really pretty, but in a different way. She looked really sweet with short blonde hair and chocolate brown eyes.

“Well I was coming back from…Well I was just walking along the corridor towards the library and Potter came up behind me and asked me out,” shouted Lily looking like she was going to burst with rage.

“Really? Potter asking you out? That is so unlike him!” said Jo sarcastically.

“Then,” continued Lily, acting like she didn’t hear Jo. “Then when I told him no he said I was in denial and that I really did like him!”

Alice and Jo looked at each trying not to smile. They knew that Lily really liked James, but that she didn’t want to admit it. Anytime anyone mentions James and Lily in the same sentence Lily goes mental. But they know she only does it because she doesn’t want to admit she has fallen for James, the same way they know James only acts like a complete jerk in front of Lily because he likes her. They know he’s not really like that. Or so Alice says because he lives beside James and says he is a really nice guy, Jo still doesn’t trust him completely because he is friends with Sirius Black, who she completely hates. They have tried everything to get her to confess but anytime they mention him she goes off in a rant about how terrible he is.

“What did you do to him Lily? Can he still walk?” asked Alice.

“Well he went on about how great he is and how he thinks I like him so I hexed him,” murmurred Lily not looking at her friends.

“Lily! Lily Evans broke the rules? She used magic in the halls? To hex another student off all things? I never thought I’d see the day!” laughed Jo.

“Shut up Jo,” said Alice before turning to Lily who was now throwing books and ink bottles at the walls.

“Lils honey, calm down. What’s wrong? Did James do anything else? Did something happen before you met James?” asked Alice trying to reason with Lily, but also trying to avoid the flying ink bottles and books.

Lily rounded on Alice looking ready to kill and cry at the same time.

“Why did you call him James? Do you like him now? Do you think he is not an arrogant bullying jerk anymore? He is Potter and always will be Potter. Nothing else,” yelled Lily at Alice

“Lily calm down. He is not such a bad guy. You should give him a chance. He isn’t the same guy he was two years ago. He as grown up and he really likes you. And I know you like him too,” said Jo.

This time Lily blew.


Alice and Jo looked stunned. They had seen Lily give out about James on loads of other occasions, but never like this. He couldn’t have done anything that bad. Something else must have happened.

“Lily?” Alice tried again in a calm voice. “Did something else happen to you?”

Lily looked at her feet but didn’t answer.

“Come on Lily, you can tell us. What’s wrong?” asked Jo

They both looked at Lily to see her eyes filled with tears. Alice rushed over to her and gave her a hug. Lily looked at her two friends, and the tears that had been threatening to come all evening finally burst out.

“Oh Lils, it’s ok. Please tell us what happened? Why are you crying?” asked Alice close to tears herself. Alice is very sensitive and hated to see her friend cry.

“I…I was walking back from Slughorn’s office and I saw two people stand in a corner. They seemed to be kissing, so I went over to them to tell them to go back to their common room and it was….it was….Robert,” sobbed Lily.

Robert was Lily’s boyfriend. They’d been going out since the end of last year.

“That evil bas-“ shouted Jo

“Shush,” hissed Alice. “What happened then Lily?”

“I went up to him. He was with Katie Chang. She saw me and stepped away from Robert. She seemed very happy with the fact that I found them. Robert looked around to see why Katie had stepped away and he saw me.”



“Um…..Lily, hi,” said Robert

“What are you doing?” asked Lily looking at Katie who was smiling at her.

“Oh well…um…I was…eh,” rambled Robert looking at his feet

“You’re cheating on me? With her? Why Robert?” asked Lily looking shocked. Robert had always seemed like a really nice guy. Jo and Alice never really liked him, but they wanted her to go out with Potter, what did they know?

“Well…I was hoping to see you earlier to tell you….but I couldn’t find you,” said Robert.

“So you decided you’d let me know you wanted to break up with me by letting me see you kissing Chang in the halls?” shouted Lily

“No…I didn’t want you to find out like this. It’s just…I don’t think we should see each other anymore.”

“WELL THAT’S OBVIOUS,” shouted Lily

“It’s just….I don’t know…..I feel weird around you, like you’d rather be with someone else. Probably Potter,” said Robert

“I think you were the one who wanted to be with someone else while you were around me Patterson,” yelled Lily looking ready to kill

“Lily I’m sorry, it’s just…well-“

“Save it Patterson. I don’t want to hear it,” Lily said quietly before turning around and walking up the corridor, holding in the tears that were threatening to come.


“Oh Lily I am so sorry. He is such a jerk,” cried Alice giving Lily another hug.

“That f*****g evil b*****d,” yelled Jo. “How could he do this to you? And with Chang? What does he see in her? She is a self-centered, over emotional idiot, boyfriend stealing b***h!”

“It’s ok Lils, you’re better off without a jerk like that. I never liked him anyway.

“Me neither. He is an evil git. Oh, just wait ‘til I get him. Maybe I can get James to help?” she said to herself, laughing evilly.

“Don’t worry Lil. There is someone else out there for you, someone better. You just have to find him,” said Alice reassuringly.

“He may be closer than you think Lils. You just have to open your eyes,” commented Jo.

Alice gave Jo a warning look. The last thing they wanted was to get Lily worked up about James again.

“I don’t think so,” said Lily in a quiet voice. “If he dumped me for someone else, why would any other guy be different? I mean I’m not really pretty so why would he want me?

“That’s not true Lils-“ started Alice

“Yes it is. I mean, I’m not like you. I don’t have a boyfriend that loves me like Frank loves you. You’s have been going out for a year. I don’t have that.”

“But that doesn’t mean-“ Jo tried but Lily stopped her

“But I don’t have guys fawning over my ever step like you do Jo. Maybe I should just give up on guys altogether. They just get in the way,” sighed Lily

Alice and Jo looked at each other shocked.

“Why would you do that Lily? Guys love you. You’ve had loads of boyfriends,” said Alice

“Yeah, what about Ja-“ started Jo but Alice stopped her.

“Lily don’t let one jerk ruin your whole life. You’re are the prettiest girl I have every seen-“ said Alice

“Not to mention smart-“ commented Jo

“And funny-“

“And caring-“

“And sweet. The point is any guy would be lucky to have you Lils, so don’t give up. You’ll find someone. I guarantee it!” smiled Alice

Lily looked at her friends and smiled

“Thanks guys. You’s are the best friends a girl could ever have,” said Lily.

Lily looked at her watch and jumped. “Sorry guys, I have to meet Potter for rounds in five minutes. I’ll see you later,” she said before rushing out the door.

When Lily closed the door Jo and Alice looked at each other.

“We have to do something Jo. She can’t give up on guys. What about James?” asked Alice looking worried.

“I have a plan. But we’re going to need some help,” said Jo with a mischievous glint in her eye.

A/N: Thanks to everyone who has read this and especially to those who have reviewed! I hope you liked it! Please review and tell me what you thought! Thanks again and I'm hoping the next chapter will be up soon!

Chapter 4: Chapter 4: Operation Stag and Flower
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Chapter 4: Operation Stag and Flower

“Padfoot, where are you going?” asked Remus. Sirius was already half way down the stairs lead to the common room. He turned.

“We want to get Prongs and Evans together, right?” asked Sirius

“Yes of course,”

“And no one knows Prongs better than us, right?

“Yeah, so where-“

“And the two people who know Evans best and can help us are…?

“Alice and Jo! Sirius you are brilliant!” exclaimed Remus

“God Moony, what took you so long? Of course I’m brilliant. I’ve always known that,” smiled Sirius before entering the common room.

They looked around for Alice and Jo but they weren’t there. Just as they were about to leave the common room to look for them, they heard someone thundering down the stairs leading from the girls dormitories. The boys looked around to see Alice and Jo running towards them.

“We need to talk to you two,” said Sirius and Jo at the same time.

“Jo baby. I didn’t think you were that desperate for me. Actually, I thought you were playing hard to get. Guess I was wrong. Oh well,” said Sirius moving towards Jo.

“In your dreams Black. You have no chance,” said Jo giving Sirius a cold look that could have challenged Lily’s.

“Ok, so you’re back to playing hard to get. I can deal with that,” said Sirius smiling flirtatiously at Jo who rolled her eyes.

“I think we should go somewhere no one is listening to us,” said Remus looking around the common room.

“Why? No one is listening to us,” said Alice.

“My dear lady, you have so much to learn about the Marauders,” said Sirius smiling charmingly at Alice. “People are always listening to us.”

Jo rolled her eyes again. “Give me a break. You Marauders think you are so great and everyone loves you, but you’re wrong. No one cares what you do,”

“Oh really? Excuse me little lady,” said Sirius turning to a second year who blushed furiously at being addressed directly by Sirius Black. “Do you know what I just said before Ms. Plunkett here made that horrible unfound accusation?”

“Ye-yes. You said My dear lady, you have so much to learn about the Marauders. Then you smiled at her,” said the girl giving Alice a cold stare. “Then you said People are always listening to us,”

“Thank you very much,” said Sirius leaning down and kissing the little girls hand. She nearly fainted but Sirius didn’t notice. He turned back to Jo.

“See? I told you everyone listens to what we say,” said Sirius smugly.

Jo opened her mouth to retort but Remus interrupted.

“As interesting as this argument would be, I think we have better things to do.”

Sirius and Remus looked at each other. Sirius nodded and started to head out of the common room dragging Alice with him.

Remus followed them out with Jo walking beside him.

“Where is he going?” asked Jo

“Room of Requirement,” answered Remus.

By the time Remus and Jo reached the Room, Sirius and Alice had already entered and were sitting on chairs situated beside a large blackboard. Remus and Jo entered and sat in the two remaining seats.

“Ok, we presume you’re here about the same thing right? James and Lily?” asked Remus looking at Jo and Alice.

“Yeah. Lily came in giving out about James again and we decided we needed to do something. Jo said you two could help,” said Alice.

“Of course we can! We are the Marauders. We can do anything!” said Sirius

“Oh really? If you can do anything, why did you come to us for help?” Jo asked Sirius smiling sweetly at Sirius

“Because we wanted to know why the hell your friend is so stubborn. We didn’t know what to do about her.”

“Well we need to know why your friend acts like a complete idiot around Lily. What is wrong with him?” asked Jo

“Ok, you two have just proved the point. We need each other to do this so could you two please stop going down the others throat when they say something?” asked Alice looking at Jo and Sirius

“So,” started Remus. “Are we agreed that- What is it Sirius?” Sirius was waving his hand in the air trying to get Remus’ attention.

“I think we should have a name for the plan. We always have a name for our plans Moony,” insisted Sirius

“Ok Padfoot, what did you have in mind?” asked Remus with a sigh. Being Sirius Black’s friend could be very exhausting.

“Well I was thinking-“ ha started

“Really? That must be a first. Did it hurt?” asked Jo Sirius giving him a charming smile.

“Ha-ha very funny Ms. Sarcastic. Anyway, as I was saying, I think we should call it Operation Get the two most stubborn people in the history of Hogwarts together to make the rest of our lives a hell of a lot easier and quieter.”

Everyone looked at him and burst out laughing.

“Sirius, are you really serious?” asked Alice

“Of course I am. You said it your self. I am Sirius!” said Sirius smiling at Alice.

Remus groaned. “Padfoot, that is the new rule of the Marauders. You are never to say that joke again”

“Black, we can’t use that as a name. I can’t even remember half of it!” said Jo

“I was Operation Get the two-“

“Just think of a new one while we get on with the rest of the plan,” said Remus before turning to the girls. “Ok, so we agree that Lily and James should be together?”

“Definately! It is obvious she likes him. She hardly ever stops talking about him, although it is never anything good,” laughed Alice

“You’re lucky. Prongs never shuts up about her. All he ever talks about is her. Did you see Evans hair today? Wasn’t it beautiful? Or her eyes? Aren’t they the most perfect shade of green? I swear I know more about Lily Evans than thought possible to know about a girl!” exclaimed Sirius

“Padfoot, the name please?”

“Ok Moony. I know your plan can’t function without one of my fantastic names so I’ll think of one for you,” said Sirius

“So, do you have any ideas about how to do this Remus?” Alice asked.

“Well, I know it’s going to take a long time. They are both really stubborn. I think the first thing we have to do is get them to become friends. I don’t see how we could get them to date if they can’t even have a civilised conversation with one another.”

“That’s true. How do we do that though? Lily insists she hates him and won’t talk to him,” said Jo

“Did she-“ Remus started but was interrupted by Sirius.

“I’ve got it! How about Operation Wake Evans up the fantastic features of Prongs and stop Prongs from acting like a git in front of her!”

“No Sirius. Think shorter and less complicated,” said Remus smiling at the look on Sirius’ face.

“Fine, fine, fine. You people are so picky,” sighed Sirius

Remus turned back to the girls. “Did Lily tell you what happened earlier?”

“Oh yeah, that. Well that wasn’t entirely James fault. He didn’t help, but it wasn’t his fault. He was just in the wrong place and definitely the wrong time,” said Alice

“Why? What happened?” asked Remus

“Lily broke up with Robert Patterson today. She was completely crushed. They’d been going out for-

“78 days today,” said Sirius. Jo looked at him. “James constantly reminds us every day how long that evil git has been going out with his Lily. He has a picture of Patterson, along with every other boyfriend Lily has ever had, on the back of his door and uses them as dartboards.”

Alice and Jo started to laugh. Sirius looked at them questioningly.

“It’s just, if James is throwing darts at his picture for dating Lily, he is going to murder him when he finds out what. And I’m going to help hem,” Jo explained

“What happened?” Remus asked

“She was walking towards the library and she saw him making out with Katie Chang in a corner. He told her he wanted to tell her earlier but he couldn’t find her. He is such a jerk!” said Jo. She looked like she wanted to kill.

“Well you are right, James is going to kill him. Let’s hope Lily won’t see,” said Remus

“So how do we get James and Lily to become friends?” Alice asked.

“We have to push them together as much as possible. In classes, around us, at meals, everywhere,” said Remus

“We’ll try and show Lily that James really is a good guy but we need to get him to act like it around Lily, not like a jerk like he usually does,” said Jo

“This is going to be really hard. Lily is really stubborn and won’t listen to anyone who mentions James and James likes Lily-“ said Alice

“Loves,” Sirius interrupted. “Prongs told us he loves Lily today.”

“Oh! That is so sweet!” Jo and Alice squealed

Sirius rolled his eyes and muttered “Women”

“So step one is to push them together as much as possible, get Lily to see the good things about James and get James to stop acting like an idiot around Lily? This is going to take a lot of work,” sighed Jo

“But it will be worth it right?” Alice asked

“Definitely,” said Remus

“Of course,” said Jo

“Stag and Flower,” Sirius said. Everyone looked at him in puzzlement.

“We’re going to call it Operation Stag and Flower,”

“You know what? I like it,” said Remus

“Me too,” Alice smiled

“Why Stag?” asked Jo. “Why is James Stag?”

Sirius and Remus looked at each other before Remus answered.

“Well James is like the leader, like a stag. It is just something we call him, the same way Lily if Flower.”

“Oh. Ok,” said Alice. But Jo didn’t look convinced. She knew they were hiding something.

“Well we better get back. You two should go first. It will look suspicious if we all go back together. Especially if James and Lily are there,” insisted Remus

“Ok, see you guys later,” Alice smiled and she and Jo left the room.

Remus looked at Sirius.

“That was a close one Moony. Do you think they’ll figure it out?” Sirius asked.

“I hope not Padfoot. I really hope not,” Remus sighed. He was afraid they would find out that he was a werewolf if they figured out James was an animagus. He was afraid they would run from him like everyone else did. Sirius seemed to know what he was thinking because he clapped him on the shoulder.

“It will be ok Moony. Even if they do find out they won’t care. They know it’s not your fault it’s just what you are,”

Remus smiled at him.

“Now I on the other hand, am a different matter. I have just as many problems as you. You’re just a werewolf, I am a girl magnet. I am too good looking for my own good. Jo seems to hold that against me. You could get away with it, but I’m afraid I am doomed,” sighed Sirius shaking his head.

Remus laughed. Sometimes it is good to have Sirius Black as a friend.

A/N: Hope you liked it! Sirius is very weird but I still love him! What about you? What did you think? Please review and tell me! Thanks again!

Chapter 5: Chapter 5: Truce
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Chapter 5: Truce

James stood outside the common room waiting for Lily. He was quite nervous because he wasn’t sure if she would have calmed down much in the last hour. He just hoped she wouldn’t hex him again; he still hurt from the last one.

He turned around at the sound of the portrait hole opening. Lily appeared out of the small opening. James looked at her and knew she had been crying. He eyes were red and puffy and her hair was a mess, but to James she still looked beautiful. It hurt him to think she had been crying over him. He never wanted to hurt her.

“Hi Evans, ready to go?” he asked

“Yeah. I think we should start from the dungeons up. What do you think?” she asked not looking at him.

“Sounds good to me. Let’s go!” he said cheerfully

They walked along in silence until they reached the dungeons. Then James spoke.

“Look Lily, we have to work together a lot this year and it won’t work if we can’t even talk to one another. So I think we should call a truce,” he said holding out his hand.

Lily looked at him. He called me Lily? And was calling a truce? Maybe he has grown up a bit.

“Ok, truce,” she agreed shaking his hand.

James beamed. “Yes!” he thought. “We are making progress!”

They walked along in silence again, but this time Lily spoke.

“James,” she started, stopping so she could look at him. He stopped too, wondering what was wrong.

“James, I’m sorry for what I did earlier. I shouldn’t have hexed you. I just wasn’t having a good day and well…”

“I didn’t help?” he asked smiling

“Yeah, you could say that,” she laughed

James wanted to jump for joy. I made her laugh? This is great! And she called me James! Yes!

“I’m sorry too. I just kind of, I don’t know...” he said looking at her to see a sad look in her eyes.

“Lily, what’s wrong?” he asked kindly

“No-nothing,” she said quietly, but she wouldn’t meet his eyes.

“Are you sure? You look like you’ve been crying,”

“What? I haven’t been crying. Why would you think that?” she asked in a hurry, but still not looking at him

“Well, you’re eyes are all red and-“ he started

“They are? Oh no!” she said catching a look at her reflection in a mirror. She tried to wipe the tear streaks off her face and smooth her hair, but it wasn’t working.

“It’s ok Lily, you still look beautiful,” James said. He wanted to kick himself. “Why did I say that? Things were going well considering what happened earlier. Why did you have to ruin it you big idiot?”

Lily looked at him and smiled. “Why did I just smile at Potter? He doesn’t mean what he said. He is Potter. He couldn’t mean it. Could he?”

“Than-Thank you James,” she said weakly

They walked on together in silence checking every corridor for students. James kept glancing at Lily wondering what was wrong with her. “If she said she was sorry for earlier, she couldn’t have been crying about me. Right? Then who was she crying over? I’ll kill them! Whoever hurt her I’m going to kill them.” He really wanted to know who or what had made her so upset but he thought better of asking her again. “If she wants to tell you what is wrong she will. So don’t push it. Remember what Mooney said? You have to be friendly and kind to her. Don’t force her into anything,” said a little voice in his head.

Lily looked at James to see he had a worrying look in his eyes. “What is wrong with him?” she thought. “You are you idiot!” said a voice in her head.

“Robert Patterson broke up with me today,” she said. “Why did I just say that? This it POTTER! He will probably be delighted. He’ll probably give Robert a load of chocolate or something.”

James stopped in his tracks. Lily looked around at him.

“Wh-what? When did he do that? I thought he really liked you.”

“So did I. I caught him making out with Katie Chang in the halls before I ran into you. He told me he tried to tell me earlier but he couldn’t find me,” Lily said quietly

James looked murderous. He wanted to kill Robert for causing Lily pain. “That evil git! How dare he hurt my Lily. I’m going to kill him! Why would anyone do this to Lily? She doesn’t deserve that. I’m going to kill the prick!”

Lily looked at James. He didn’t seem happy about this. “Why did I have to say something? He is going to be twice as annoying now knowing I don’t have a boyfriend anymore.”

“So,” said Lily trying to change the subject. “When-“

“Did he give a reason why he wanted to break up with you?” James asked still looking really angry

“He said he thought I didn’t want to be with him anymore. That I wanted to be with someone else. But I told it was him who wanted to be with someone else. Then I walked away,” said Lily. She didn’t really want to talk about it again, especially not with James.

“Don’t mind him Lily. He doesn’t deserve you. You deserve someone better. He is just a jerk who used you. You don’t need him so don’t worry about it. It’s his loss after all,” said James looking directly at Lily.

Lily didn’t know what to what to say. “Maybe he has grown up.” “I think you like him. You should give him a chance. He isn’t the same guy he was last year,” said the voice in her head. “I DO NOT LIKE POTTER!” she said angrily to herself.

“So, when so you think we should have Hogsmeade weekend? Dumbledore said we could make a list of when we wanted to have them,” said Lily changing the subject.

James looked at her and knew she didn’t want to talk about Robert anymore so he didn’t push her.

“Well, the first one I think should be on Halloween. Give us all a break,” suggested James

“Yeah, then I think the next one should be a week before Christmas. Give students a chance to do some last minute shopping.”

“Then Valentine’s Day. Let couples get away from the school for a day,” said James not looking directly at Lily.

“Ok, so that’s three. We need one more. When do you think that should be?” Lily asked

“Eh…End of April maybe? Give students a break before exams?” James suggested

“Great! So that’s Hogsmeade covered,” said Lily conjuring a piece of parchment and writing down the dates they had picked.

“Dumbledore also said we have to have meetings with prefects once a week. What day would suit you best?” she asked

“Well Sirius and I have decided on Wednesday, Friday and Sunday for Quidditch practice so any other day,” he said looking at Lily who was smiling.

“Of course we have to work around the quidditch schedule. The famous James Potter has to have the perfect team! Can’t interfere with his practices!” said Lily smiling at him.

“Of course you can’t! I don’t need the practice, I’m already brilliant. But the team would fall apart without me! Besides you’re on the team too, you have to go to practice aswell,” he replied

Lily rolled her eyes at him, but was still smiling. Usually she would have scowled at him for his cockiness. “What is wrong with me?”

“So how about Saturday? Or will you need that for your detentions?” she asked

“Not yet. It’s only the second day. We haven’t got any yet. Sirius is very disappointed,” he laughed

“So Saturday for prefect meetings. What about tutor sessions?”

“Tutor sessions? No one said I would have to tutor anyone!” James said

“Yes they did. It was in the letter that came with your badge. Didn’t you read it?”

“I only had the chance to read the start before Sirius took it off me shouting about how I have disgraced him for coming Head Boy. He said I betrayed him,” James shrugged.

Lily laughed. “Well it said we had to choose one night a week to teach younger students in different subjects. So Monday, Tuesday or Thursday?”

“Monday, we have the least amount of classes that day so we will have less homework,” said James

“Like you do your homework the day you get it,” Lily said slyly before writing this down on her parchment aswell.

“So are there any more things we have to do or do they want to take up all our free time?” asked James looking at the list.

“Yes there is. We have to meet once a week to discuss different things and tell the other any ideas we have,”

“That only leaves one day out of the whole week to spare! Being Head Boy is harder than I thought,” sighed James

“What did you think it was going to be, walk around the school and give out detentions to everyone?” she asked smiling at his shock

“Well, no. But I didn’t think we had to do everything!”

“Well now you do and it’s too late to get out of it now! So which would you prefer Tuesday or Thursday?” she asked

“For what?”

“Our meetings idiot!”

“Oh. I don’t know, which do you have free?”

“Both, but I think I’d prefer Tuesday. Is that ok with you?”

“Yep! Which only leaves Thursday free,”

“Not really,” she said with a smile. She looked at James to see a look of shock on his face.

“What now?” he asked, exasperated

“We have to meet with Dumbledore every second Thursday to tell him any ideas we have or ask him any questions and them of course we have patrols every night of the week.”

“When are we going to get time to do homework or study for NEWTS?”

“Well, Dumbledore said things will lighten up as the year goes on. Of course you can always cancel a Quidditch practice,” she suggested trying to hide a smile

“No way! I can’t cancel Quidditch. It is the only thing that will keep me sane through all of this. Besides we have to win the cup again this year. I don’t feel like handing it over in my last year. We have to practice non stop. You too Evans,” he said with a smirk.

“Ha! I am great at Quidditch Potter! I don’t need to practice. I can catch the Snitch from anywhere. You on the other hand, I suggest you get in as much practice as possible before our first game,” she said smiling charmingly at him.

“Very funny Evans! Don’t get cocky-“

“You’re one to talk about being cocky,”

“I’m allowed to be. I’m the Captain. I can kick you off the team if I want,”

“You wouldn’t dare!”

“Oh really?”

“Yeah! You need me on that team. We have no chance if I’m not there. I seem to remember we never won the Cup ‘til I joined, even though you were on the team for three years before that,” she smirked

“It wasn’t my fault. I scored every game, it was the rest of the team. They were terrible. But when I was made Captain I made a great team-“

“That included me,” Lily smiled

“Ok it included you. The point is I make a great Captain and I picked a great team,” he said

“Yes we have a great team and we are going to win the cup again this year. No way am I leaving without it,” stated Lily.

“You know what Evans? I think that is one of the first things we’ve ever agreed on,” said James

“I think you’re right Potter. Wow, that felt weird to say,”

“You better get used to saying it. You’ll be saying it a lot from now on,” smiled James

Lily rolled her eyes but smiled.

Before they knew it they reached their own Head common room. They went inside and said goodnight before going into their separate rooms.

“Maybe this year won’t be so bad after all,” Lily thought closing her door.

A/N: So? What did you think? I know it was a bit rushed to have them talking already! I think it is more fun to have them fighting but we all know they have to stop sometime! Please please PLEASE leave a review and tell me what you think! I really want to know if I should continue and I can only find out if you TELL ME!!! So please? Thanks again for reading! = )

Chapter 6: Chapter 6: In the library
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Chapter 6: In the Library

The next few weeks passed quickly for the Hogwarts students. The seventh years had so much homework they had very little free time anymore. Any spare moment was spent in the library researching or writing essays. Sirius Black for one was not happy about this arrangement

“Why do we have to come here? I have never been in the library in all my years in Hogwarts. I hate it here. It is so quiet, I am dieing to set off a firework or something,” complained Sirius who was sitting at a table with the other Marauders (except Peter, he said he had to go somewhere else), Lily, Jo and Alice.

“It’s not quiet with you here Black,” said Jo while looking through a Transfiguration book

“I take that as a compliment!” he said

“Padfoot, don’t you have any work to do?” Remus asked him looking up from his Charms book

“That’s funny Mooney. Have I ever done any work before?”

James laughed at him and Lily rolled her eyes.

“If you don’t even do your homework, how are you going to get through your NEWTS? Won’t you have to study?” Lily asked but instantly regretted it.

Both James and Sirius burst out laughing.

“Poor naïve little Evans. Of course I don’t need to study. I know everything already. I am a Marauder. Apart from being extremely good looking, we are all geniuses. Well, at least I am, the rest of you are debatable,” said Sirius looking James and Remus up and down.

Sirius ducked as Remus tried to hit him but didn’t as James hit him over the head with his Potions book.

“Ow Prongs! Aren’t you on my side? Do mean to tell me you are siding with them?” asked Sirius accusingly giving the others an evil look.


“Why would you do that to me Prongs?” asked Sirius looking offended

“Well for one there are more of them. I am surrounded by them. And second, you said you were the smartest and best looking. If that is true, I am horribly insulted. So I think you can see my position here Padfoot,” said James smiling at his friend.

“You’ve betrayed me Prongs! Siding with Evans over me? That is low, no matter what I said,” accused Sirius

James looked at him trying not to laugh. “Sorry Padfoot but Evans is more of an attractive option,” said James smiling at Lily who rolled her eyes.

“Fine Prongs, fine. You have won this round but you haven’t heard the last of me. I’ll be back,” said Sirius getting up and walking out of the library.

Everyone else was nearly falling off their chairs laughing.

“You know you are going to pay for this Prongs?” said Remus

“No. We’re going to pay for this,” laughed James

“What do you mean?” asked Lily

“Sirius is not going to forget we sided against him. He’s never going to let it go. No matter what we do. He is going to make life hell for us,” explained Remus

“Doesn’t he already?” said Jo

“That is true, but he does it unknowingly. Now he is going to do it on purpose aswell. It’s going to be a long week,” sighed James, but he was still smiling. Sirius could always lighten a mood. There was too much stress around lately. They were all cracking and it was only the start of October. NEWTS were proving to be harder than he thought.

Lily stood up to pack her bag. “Come on James, we have to go to the tutoring session.”

James groaned.

“What’s wrong Prongs?” Remus asked

“I hate those kids. They are so annoying,”

“JAMES!” said Lily looking at him.

“What? They are. They never show any respect. I swear we was never that rude when we started here,”

“I know they are but you can’t say that,” Lily insisted

“I knew you didn’t like going to these things as much as I did. I don’t see why you won’t let me jinx them. They would learn the spell and learn some respect. Plus I would get some satisfaction from it.”

Lily just rolled her eyes again and walked out of the library, James trailing along behind her.

Alice turned to Remus and Jo. “Operation Stag and Flower seems to be going well,”

“Yeah. They have been pretty civil to one another over the last few weeks. Only had a few fights,” said Remus

“But those fights were big fights,” laughed Jo remembering two days ago when James and Lily got into a huge fight in the Gryffindor common room. They stood at either end of the room and shouted insults at each other. They seemed to release all stress from the week in those fights.

“Well yeah but that can just prove they are meant to be. I mean have you ever seen Lily fight with anyone with the same passion she does with James?” Alice asked

“No. They both seem to bottle everything up and then let it out at one another. Did you see Lily when we both left her in Herbology and she had to do her project with James? She looked like she wanted to kill us,” laughed Jo

“But Prongs seemed very happy about the situation,” said Remus smiling

“Do you think either of them suspect anything?” Alice asked

“No. When we do anything Lily is outraged and doesn’t notice and James is too overjoyed to care even if he did notice,” Jo said

“We seem to be making some progress though. Prongs isn’t acting like quite as big an idiot around Lily. Her really wants her to like him,” said Remus

“I know, I feel sorry for him. Lily still insists she hates him though. She says he hasn’t changed even though he hasn’t been acting like a jerk anymore,” said Alice

“She is just stubborn and won’t admit it. She is too proud to say she has fallen for him. I can’t wait for the day she finally does. I’ll dance around the common room for days,” smiled Jo

“There isn’t much more we can do yet though. I mean we make them sit beside each other at meals, in classes, when we do homework together. Nearly every other moment they have to spend together anyway because of Head duties. The only time they don’t spend together is when they are asleep-“ said Remus

“Which we will change,” smirked Jo

“Jo!” Alice exclaimed

“What? That is what we are working endlessly for isn’t it?”

“Well yeah but-“

“Exactly. I was merely stating a fact,” Jo smiled

“Ok, so tomorrow in potions we have to pick partners for the rest of the year because the rest of the potions we will be making will be made in pairs. How do we work this one?” Remus asked

“Well Alice and I will go together. What about you and Sirius? Will you two go together or will one of you go with Peter?” Jo asked

“Sirius and I will probably go together. We haven’t seen much of Peter lately. He always says he has other things to do,” said Remus

“Ok. So then we leave James and Lily to go together. Make sure we get a cauldron as far away from her as possible. She is going to flip,” Jo said laughing

The other two laughed. Operation Stag and Flower seemed to be going according to plan. They only hoped it would work out in the end. They all wanted their two friends to be happy and they knew the only way that was possible was if they were together.

A/N: Not a very informative chapter or with any main plot to it, just there as a fill-in! Please tell me what you think! Thanks again for reading! = )

Chapter 7: Chapter 7: Sirius' Plan
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Chapter 7: Sirius’ Plan

James was up in the 7th Year boy’s dormitory with Remus and Sirius. James was telling them how things were going with Lily, but what he didn’t know was that Sirius and Remus already knew all of this as it had been their doing in the first place. But they listened anyway, they didn’t want James to figure out what they were doing.

“Prongs,” Sirius said suddenly. James looked at him, he had been half way through telling them what Lily said in Potions yesterday.

“I think we need to do something bigger than just talking to Evans. We need to really get her attention. Get her to notice you and how you feel,” said Sirius

“What did you have in mind?” James asked, interested

“James what happened to not making a fool of yourself?” Remus asked

“Don’t worry Mooney, he won’t. Not really,” said Sirius smiling

“What do you mean not really Padfoot? What are you thinking?”

“Singing!” Sirius said smiling widely at his friends

“Are you serious?” asked Remus


“Don’t even think about it Padfoot. That joke is banned,” said Remus

“But singing would be perfect!” Sirius insisted. “I have it all planned out. Evans is walking up the halls and suddenly the lights go out,” he said jumping onto his bed.

“Then, Prongs comes up the hall singing and we put a spotlight on him. We have to get a song that starts slow,” he thought to himself. “Then it gets faster and we have lights everywhere and Prongs runs up to Evans singing. She won’t be able to resist him. We could get the whole school in on it. It will be great and little Ms Evans will be yours Prongs,” said Sirius triumphantly.

Remus looked at him stunned. “We have to stop his plan at all costs. Lily will hate James. Trust Sirius to come up with something like this,” he thought.

“There is no way Prongs is doing that. Lily will kill him!” Remus insisted

“No she won’t. She’ll love him. She will think he is really sweet to sing to her.”

“This is Lily we are talking about,” said James. “When has she ever said she would love for me to run up to her in the halls singing? I don’t think she’ll go for it Padfoot.”

Sirius looked defeated. He was getting tired of just sitting around waiting for something to happen. It wasn’t in his nature. “Ok, if he won’t do it maybe I can modify the plan a bit,” he thought to himself. “Yes I can see it now. This is going to be brilliant!”

Remus and James were still looking at Sirius. They knew he wouldn’t let this go, but they just hoped he wouldn’t do anything stupid.

Later that night Lily and James were doing their rounds on the 5th floor. They weren’t talking but it wasn’t an uncomfortable silence. It was easier to be in each others company than either of them realised.

James was thinking the best way to tell Lily he wouldn’t be able to do rounds with her tomorrow night. But he couldn’t tell her why. Tomorrow night was a full moon so he would of course be out with Remus, but he couldn’t tell Lily that. If he told her he had detention or something like that she would think he had gone back to being an immature idiot.

“Em…Lily, I have to tell you, I-,” but he was stopped from saying anything else because at that moment the lights went out. “Oh no! He didn’t?” thought James

But he had.

(I Love You Baby - Frankie Valli)
‘You’re just too good to be true,
Can’t take my eyes off of you,
You’d be like heaven to touch,
I want to hold you so much,
At long last love has arrived,
I thank God I’m alive,
You’re just too good to be true,
Can’t take my eyes off of you.

Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you leaves me weak.
There are no words left to speak,
But if you feel like I feel,
Please let me know that it's real.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

James looked around in complete shock. He couldn’t move. All of a sudden different coloured lights filled the halls and the suits of armour magically began to play trumpets. James couldn’t believe he had done this. “I’m going to kill him!”

I love you, baby,
And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm a lonely night.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay
And let me love you, baby.
Let me love you.

James looked at Lily she how she was reacting to this but she seemed completely mortified by the situation. “Who can blame her? She probably thinks it was my idea. I’m going to kill him. Slowly and painfully,”

Things seemed to have stopped so James turned to Lily to tell her this wasn’t his idea, but it seemed it wasn’t over yet. As soon as turned to Lily more music started. If he thought the last one was bad, it was nothing compared to what was coming next. The lights went low again but didn’t go out completely like the last time. The suits of armour began to play different instruments again to the beat of the music.

(Kiss the Girl - The Little Mermaid Soundtrack)
‘There you see her,
Sitting there across the way,
She don’t got a lot to say,
But there’s something about her,
And you don’t know why,
But you’re dying to try,
You want to, Kiss the girl.’

‘Yes you want her,
Look at her you know you do,
Possibly she wants you too,
There is one way to ask her,
It don’t take a word,
Not a single word,
Go on and, Kiss the girl.’

“Sing with me now,” said a voice

Suddenly, hundreds of little fairies came flying all around James and Lily, circling them, and glowing different colours.

Sha la la la la la la
My oh my looks like the boy too shy
Ain't gonna kiss the girl
Sha la la la la la la
Ain't that sad
Ain't it a shame too bad
You're gonna miss the girl

Lily was trying to laugh. She had a feeling she knew who was behind this, and by the shocked look on James face it was not him.

Now's your moment
Floating in a blue lagoon
Boy you'd better do it soon
No time would be better
She don't say a word
And she won't say a word until
You kiss the girl

Sha la la la la la la
Don't be scared
Go on and move your head
You gotta kiss the girl (“Whoo Whoo” sang the armour”)
Sha la la la la la la
Don't stop now
Don't try to hide it now
You wanna kiss the girl (Whoo Whoo!”)

Sha la la la la la la
Float along and
Listen to the song
The song say "Kiss the girl!" (Whoo Whoo!”)
Sha la la la la la la,
Let the music play,
Do what the music says,
You gotta kiss the girl.

At the end of the song the pixies showered James and Lily with small pink confetti hearts and glitter. Then they disappeared.

Lily couldn’t hold it in anymore and burst out laughing. She was mortified that someone had done this, but the look on James face was priceless. He turned to her with a questioning look. She started to laugh again.

“You mean to tell me you found that funny?”

“Well…no….not really. It’s just, the look on your face when it started. You weren’t in on it then?” she asked trying not to laugh

“Of course not but-“

“Good because if you were I would kill you,” she said smiling sweetly at him

“But I do know who did it,” said James walking down the corridor and stopped in front of an old tapestry. Lily followed him and he pulled the tapestry back to reveal two people.

“Jo!” Lily shouted looking at her friend who was rolling around on the floor laughing with none other than Sirius Black.

“You mean to tell me you did this?” she asked outraged

“Not on my own. It was his idea. I just helped,” Jo said laughing

James went over to Sirius and hit him over the head. “Padfoot you idiot! I told you NOT to do that,”

Lily turned to James. “You knew he was planning this?” she asked

“No, well yes. But I told him not to. I knew you wouldn’t like it but he obviously didn’t listen,” said James hitting Sirius again.

“Ow Prongs. You have to learn to control your emotions mate. You shouldn’t repress things, let them out,” said Sirius who was still on the ground.

“You’re right Padfoot,” said James hitting him again

“Why did you do that?”

“You told me to let out my feelings. Right now they’re anger,” he answered and hit him over the head again.

“Oh Prongs, do you mean you didn’t enjoy our little show? And you didn’t take the advice of the last song. I don’t seem to remember you kissing Evans? Do you Jo?” asked Sirius

“Nope! I don’t think he grasped the concept. You have probably upset Lily over this James. I sure she wanted you to kiss her. Isn’t that right Lil?”

Lily rolled her eyes. “No that’s not right. Now you better get back to the common room before I give you both detention, which I an very tempted to do right now. Come on Potter,” she said turning to James. “We have to finish rounds.”

“Ok. See you tomorrow Padfoot,” said James giving hm a threatening look before following Lily.

“I think that went quite well. I expected Lily to go mad at us and James. She must be coming around,” said Jo still laughing at the look on James and Lily’s face when they saw them.

“Or course she is. My plans always work!” laughed Sirius smiling widely at Jo.

A/N: A complete nonsense chapter but it's just there for a laugh! Sirius is a very weird person but funny too!! Ok come on people I really really need some reviews!! Please just leave one for me telling me what you think because I don't know if you like it and if I should keep going! Thanks for reading! = )

Chapter 8: Chapter 8:Halloween
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Chapter 8: Halloween

It was now the day before Halloween and the professors as well as Lily and James were busy putting up the decorations for the feast. Neither of them had mentioned what Sirius and Jo did a few weeks ago, they were trying to forget about it but it wasn’t working.

Lily had received a letter the week before from her parents saying her sister, Petunia was getting married the day after Halloween and they wanted her to be there. She was leaving in a few minutes. Lily wasn’t sure about this. She and her sister barely talk to each other anymore and Lily wasn’t sure if Petunia even wanted her there. It was going to be a long week. She had tried getting out of it by saying she might not be allowed to leave school, but that plan didn’t work. When she went to Dumbledore to ask he said it was no problem as long as she was back before classes started again the following week.

Now she had no choice but to go now. She would rather stay here with Potter than go, but being around James wasn’t as bad as she thought it would be. She had got to know more about him during their first two months as Head Boy and Girl. She realised he wasn’t as bad as she thought. He could be a nice guy, and he was smart. She discovered that from having to sit beside him in nearly ever class because her friends would abandon her. Sometimes she thought they did it on purpose. She also noticed he hadn’t had any detentions so far this year and he hadn’t hexed anyone in the corridor that she knew of.

“Maybe he has changed. Maybe Alice and Jo are right, he isn’t such a bad guy. And he is quite good looking. Oh my god! Did I just say James Potter is good looking?

“Yes you did!” said the annoying little voice in her head. “I knew you liked him! Ha! I told you, but would you listen? No, you’d rather be stubborn than open your eyes,”

“Shut up!” she told the voice, but she knew it was right. She had fallen for James. But what was she going to do. She saw the way he treated his other girlfriends.

“But he has been chasing after you for five years!”

“He only wants me because I’m the only one who ever said no to him. If I said yes he would drop me in a week. He just wants to prove he can get anything he wants. He doesn’t really feel anything for me,” she said to herself before leaving the Great Hall to get her trunk before leaving. She would decide what to do about James when she came back, right now she had bigger problems.

With a loud crack Lily arrived in her back garden a few minutes later. She looked around to see the whole place was pink. Pink flowers, pink napkins, pink tablecloths, pink everything.

She walked into the kitchen, dragging her trunk behind her. She saw her mother and her sister sitting at the table talking. When she walked in her mother jumped up with a scream and ran over to greet her other daughter. Lily put down her trunk and gave her mother a big hug. She had really missed her mother even though it had only been two months.

“Oh Lily darling, I’m so glad you could come. I was afraid you wouldn’t be able to make it. Isn’t it great Petunia?” asked her mother

Petunia looked at Lily as if was something filthy. “Wonderful,” she replied dryly before turning around and walking away.

“She’s just nervous about tomorrow,” said Lily’s mother. “She really is glad you could make it. Really.”

“Sure mom. Of course she is,” said Lily. “So how has everything been? You seem to have been busy,” she said looking around at all the decorations.

“Well she only gets married once. We wanted her to have a good one. What about you Lily? Do you have someone special at your school? Will we be having another wedding soon?” her mother asked. She knew Lily wasn’t much of a romance person but she hoped she would find someone.

“No mom, no one yet. I’m still looking,” said Lily laughing.

“Well let’s hope you find him while your mother and I are still around. I have to make sure he is good enough for my Flower,” said a new voice. Lily turned around to see her dad standing in the doorway.

“Dad!” Lily shouted excitedly running towards him and wrapping her arms around him.

“Oh Lily! How have you been? I have missed you. Things have been so quiet around here without you. Well not quiet exactly, but not the same,”

“What do you mean?” Lily asked

“Petunia’s fiancé has been around a lot lately. I don’t like him,” her dad stated flatly.

“Me neither,” said Lily’s mother. “But Petunia says she loves him so we have to be supportive.”

Both Lily and her dad snorted at this. Her mam looked at them trying not to laugh. “They really are more alike than they realise,”

Later that night Lily was awoken by a noise outside. She didn’t know why it had woken her but something just didn’t feel right. She lit her wand and looked at her clock. It read 12:01. It was Halloween.

Lily heard another noise outside, like someone walking through leaves. But not one person, no, there was at least six people outside. “Why would anyone be here this late?” she asked herself. Then it hit her. She had no idea why it came to her but she knew she was right. “The Death Eaters were at her house,”

She jumped out of bed as fast as she could and ran over to the desk searching everywhere for a piece of parchment and a quill. When she finally located one she quickly scribbled on it: Death Eaters. Someone help. Quick

She tied this message to her owl and sent it to the only place she could think of, Hogwarts.

She ran out of her room and into her parents.

“Mom, Dad, get up you have to leave now. There are Death Eaters outside. You need to get away from here right now,” Lily said in a rush.

“Lily honey what are you talking about?” her mother asked her looking worried. Since both of Lily’s parents were muggles they didn’t have any idea what a Death Eater was.

“Death Eaters. They are outside. You have to leave before th-“

But it was too late. Lily heard the door bang open. They were in the house.

Lily reached into her pocket for her wand but she couldn’t find it. “Oh no, I left my wand in my room!”

Lily grabbed her two parents and dragged them down the hall and stuffed them into the hall closet. “Thank god Petunia is staying out tonight,” she thought.

“Stay here and don’t make any noise. I love you,” Lily said before closing the door and running back up the hall to her room and got her wand.

As she walked down the hall she saw the group of Death Eaters standing in front of an open door. Lily’s heart stopped. That was the closet she put her parents into. She looked at the floor and saw what the Death Eaters were looking at, the bodies of her parents.

“Look there is the mudblood,” said one of them from beneath their mask.

Lily did the only thing she could think of and ran down the hall and out the door, with the Death Eaters behind her laughing.

“Running isn’t going to save you mudblood. You’re going to die. Just like your parents,” a women laughed from under her mask.

Lily shot a stunning spell at her but she blocked it.

“Is that all you have mudblood? My master said you would be a challenge? You have made him very unhappy mudblood. Now you’re going to pay. AVADA KEDAVRA!” the witch yelled. Lily dived behind the garden bench just in time to avoid the curse.

“See Bella? I told you she would be difficult,” said a sly voice. Lily’s heart froze. Lord Voldemort was here.

“Come on out mudblood. Why hide? You are going to die in the end so why waste time with games?” asked Voldemort giving her a twisted smile.

Lily stayed where she was. She knew she had no hope against Voldemort. He was the most powerful dark wizard of all time. She couldn’t beat him. “Well if he is going to kill me, I’m not going to go down without a fight,” she thought to herself.

She stepped out from behind the half destroyed bench and faced Voldemort.

“Very good. I like for my victims to be obedient. Before I kill them,” he added

Lily raised her wand and shouted ‘EXPELLIARMIUS’ at Voldemort but he just flicked the spell away.

“Tut tut. Why did you that? Now I have to teach you some manners. ‘CRUCIO’ he yelled pointing his wand at Lily.

Lily fell to the ground in agony. She felt like white hot knives were piercing ever inch of her skin. She bit down so hard on her tongue to stop herself from screaming it was bleeding. She didn’t want to give Voldemort the satisfaction of hearing her scream.

“Trying to be brave are you mudblood? You won’t scream will you not? Well I can keep this up all night until you do. No one is here to save you,” smirked Voldemort.

“Oh yeah?” came a voice from behind Voldemort.

Voldemort looked around to see who spoke, breaking the curse he had on Lily allowing her to crawl over behind the bench.

“I think you are mistaken in that idea Tom,” came the voice of Albus Dumbledore.

Lily was now able to make out the group of people who had just appeared in her garden. There was Dumbledore, Alastor Moody, Kingsley Shacklebolt, Professor McGonnagal, Professor Flitwick, Professor Slughorn, and to her surprise, three Marauders, James, Sirius and Remus.

“You can’t stop me Dumbledore. I am going to kill the mudblood. She has caused me too much trouble. Her, Potter and his friends. I will get them Dumbledore you can’t stop me,” said Voledmort before apparating. Everyone looked around to see where he went. James made to rush towards Lily but suddenly there was a loud crack behind her and she felt Voldemort pull her up by the hair. James was fighting to get to her but Sirius and Remus were holding him back.

“CRUCIO!” Voldemort whispered in her ear. Lily’s face screwed up in pain. “I will get you mudblood, mark my words. You may have escaped this time but Dumbledore won’t be there to save you all the time,” he whispered before letting go of her and dis-apparating along with his Death Eaters.

As soon as Voldemort let her go Lily sank to the ground unconscious. The last thing she remembered was a pair of strong arms picking her up and carrying her away from her childhood home that was now in flames, burning to the ground.

A/N: Hey hope you liked it! It's so sad isn't it! Please review and tell me what you think! Thank you! = )

Chapter 9: Chapter 9: Potter Manor
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Chapter 9: Potter Manor

James rushed to Lily as he saw her fall to the ground unconscious. He lifted her limp form up into his arms and carried her away from the burning house towards the group of Aurors. Dumbledore came over to him and placed his frail old hand on his shoulder.

“She is going to be ok James. Don’t worry,” he said kindly seeing the distraught look on James’ face.

“If she is ok, why won’t she wake up?” he asked quietly looking down at Lily’s pale face.

“Lily is an extraordinarily strong person James,” Dumbledore told him. “But suffering the Cruciatus Curse controlled by Voldemort twice in one night has left her body very weak. It will take time for a full recovery.”

“Should we bring her back to Hogwarts now Albus?” Professor McGonnagall asked looking at Lily with tears in her eyes. Lily was one of her favourite students.

Dumbledore also looked at Lily and then at James who was still holding her closely.

“No. This will be a hard thing for Lily to overcome and it will be harder once the Prophet gets hold of this. I don’t think Hogwarts will be the best place for her, at least not for a few days,” he answered.

“Then where will she go Albus? St Mungo’s?” asked McGonnagall

“Potter Manor,” said James suddenly. “She can stay in my house for a few days until she is ready to come back to Hogwarts. It already has every protection known on it so no one will be able to hurt her.”

Dumbledore looked again at James to see a passion burn in his eyes as he spoke. He knew James cared very much for Lily, and this could help her not only overcome the physical injuries but also the emotional ones of losing her family. He nodded.

“We will go immediately, before we attract any unwanted attention,” said Dumbledore. “Can you apparate Lily, James?”

James nodded. There was no way he was letting go of Lily until he was sure she was ok.

“Ok then. You, Sirius, Remus and I will go first, then the others will follow. On three then. Three…..Two…..One…..”

With that there were four loud cracks and James, Lily, Dumbledore all disappeared, reappearing moments later outside Potter Manor.

Dumbledore went in first, followed by Remus, then Sirius and finally James still holding onto Lily.

James mum and dad came rushing into the room. Mr Potter was holding a piece on parchment in his hand.

“What happened Dumbledore?” he asked looking around at the four students. “We just received a note saying that you were coming here. What is going on?”

“That will be explained later Harold. Right now we need to get Ms Evans into a bed. She has had a very tough night,” said Dumbledore indicating towards Lily unconscious in James arms.

“Oh my! The poor dear!” exclaimed Mrs Potter rushing over to James and Lily. “I think we should put her in the room beside James. It is one of the comfiest in the house,” she said before turning around and going up the stairs, with Dumbledore behind her.

“Do you want me to bring her up son?” asked Mr Potter walking over to his son.

“No, it’s ok. I have her,” whispered James before following his mother up the stairs.

“So that’s Lily?” said Mr Potter watching his son walk up the stairs.

“Yeah. How did you know?” asked Remus standing beside him.

Mr Potter shrugged. “I don’t think I’ve seen James more upset than he is right now and only someone he loves very much could worry him this much. He doesn’t usually let things like this get to him. He is a strong chap,” he said before heading into the kitchen with Remus and Sirius.

Twenty minutes later they were joined by James, Mrs Potter and Dumbledore.

“How is she?” Remus asked as James took the seat beside Sirius.

“She is still unconscious, but she seems more comfortable. I doubt she will wake until tomorrow,” said Mrs Potter, pouring tea for everyone.

Mr Potter turned again to Dumbledore. “So, what happened Albus?”

Dumbledore sighed sadly. “Voldemort came after Lily,” he said simply. No one at the table flinched at the sound of name. They were all used to hearing it as James parents were both Aurors.

“He felt Lily had caused too much trouble for him since the time she escaped him last year,” he said looking at the three boys whose faces were all pale, but none so much as James.

“He wanted to get rid of Lily ad he chose tonight to do so as he knew she was in the muggle world and had no protection. But how he knew where she was I cannot say.”

“Wh-What about her parents?” Mrs Potter asked.

“They were discovered by Death Eaters and killed. It seemed Lily hid them in a closet when she realised they had no escape, but they were found. I do not know if Lily knows this,” Dumbledore said sadly.

James was sitting very stiff in his chair, trying not to cry. Seeing Lily in that much pain and not being able to do anything about it was tearing him apart. Now Lily had no parents and it was possible she didn’t even know? “Why did this happen? To Lily? She doesn’t deserve this, no one does. WHY?”

Tears started to roll silently down his cheeks and no matter how hard he tried he couldn’t stop them. Sirius noticed and turned to him.

“Prongs mate, it’s ok. Lily is going to be fine,” he said.

“No she won’t. She lost her family and it’s all my fault,” James said tars still falling.

“James son, it is not your fault. There was nothing you could have done. Y-” said his dad.

“Yes it is,” shouted James standing up. “Her note came to me and if I had of gone to Dumbledore straight away instead of reading it we might have made it in time to save her and her parents.”

“James listen to me,” said Dumbledore. “This is not your fault. What happened tonight was terrible, but you cannot blame yourself. Lily wrote the message moments before her parents were killed, so no matter how fast you got to me with the note we wouldn’t have been able to save.”

James sat back down tears still falling freely down his face. Sirius put his hand on James’ shoulder trying to tell him everything was going to be ok.

“It’s just, I hate to see her in so much pain when there is nothing I can do to stop it. I don’t want her to have to suffer. She doesn’t deserve this,” James said angrily.

“I know James. No one deserves for this to happen to them. I know how hard it is for you to watch someone you love suffer. But James, you have to be there for Lily and you have to be strong for her. She is going to need you,” said Dumbledore looking directly at James who nodded.

“She will need all of you,” continued Dumbledore looking at the three boys. “aswell as her own friends. She needs to know she still has people who care for her. But I think it would be best if she wasn’t crowded with people for the first few days. She will need time to accept what has happened. So I think in four days you two,” he said looking at Remus and Sirius. “aswell as Ms Plunkett and Ms Osbourne can come and stay here for the remains of the holiday. If that is ok with you Mr and Mrs Potter?”

“Of course Albus. It is no problem at all,” said Mrs Potter.

“Does that mean I can stay here Professor?” James asked.

“Yes James. I think it would be a good idea for you to stay here with Ms Evans,” smiled Dumbledore.

James nodded and he, followed by Sirius and Remus, left the kitchen and made their way to James room.

“Are you sure it is ok for James to stay here Albus?” Mr Potter asked.

“Yes. Lily is going to need him more than she even knows. Besides, I don’t think James will be able to focus on much at school if his heart is really here,” Dumbledore said.

“So she is the girl who has stolen James heart for the last five years?” Mr Potter asked Dumbledore but it was Mrs Potter who answered.

“Yes, I can see it in his eyes when he looks at her. He loves her more than anything else in the world.”

“They are both very lucky,” said Dumbledore quietly. “After all, they say love can conquer all, and those two share the strongest bond of love I have ever seen before. Even if they haven’t realised it yet,” he finished smiling.

A/N: I know it doesn't really have much in it but I didn't want to rush into the next chapter without having that bit of explanation! Hope you liked it and please review and tell me either way! Thank you so much!! = )

Chapter 10: Chapter 10: All At Once
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Chapter 10: All At Once

Lily woke up to find herself in a room she had never seen before. She looked around the room at the pale green walls and white furniture. “This is the most beautiful room I have ever seen,” she said to herself.

But then something at the side of her bed caught her eye. It was a person. She wasn’t entirely sure who it was as her vision was still slightly blurred. But the morning sunlight caught onto something on the persons face. Glasses. She then made out that the person had untidy black hair. Really untidy. “James,”

James had stayed in the chair beside Lily’s bed all night. He wanted to make sure she was ok. He hadn’t slept all night, but he wasn’t tired. He couldn’t sleep until he knew for certain that Lily was ok.

He looked again at her face, as he had been doing all night, to find her eyes were open and looking at him.

“James?” she asked weakly.

“Lily it’s ok, I’m here. You are safe,” he said trying to hold back the tears that were threatening to come when he saw she was awake.

“Where am I?” she asked in the same weak voice.

“Potter Manor,” he said. “We brought you here last night after….”

“After what? Why am I here? Shouldn’t I be at school?” she asked herself. But then the events of last night came back to her with full force. She could see everything as if it was happening all again; Voldemort pulling her by the hair, cursing her, James showing up, her parent’s bodies on the ground.

Then the realization finally hit her. “My parents are gone. They are dead. No they can’t be. They are fine. What was I thinking?” But then she remembered again the image of her parents lying on the floor, lifeless, and she knew it had really happened. It wasn’t a dream, no matter how much she wanted it to be.

(All at once - Whitney Houston)
‘All at once,
I finally took a moment,
And I’m realising that,
You’re not coming back,
And it finally hit me,
All at once.

James was watching Lily very closely. He saw the emotions on her face change from confusion, to realization, to horror, to sadness. It tore him apart to see this. “She knows,” was all he could think.

Then tears started to roll down Lily face as she finally accepted what happened. She tried to fight it, but she couldn’t. James got off the chair and sat on her bed, wrapping his arms around her in a tight hug. He wanted to cry himself but knew he had to stay strong. “For Lily,”

‘All at once,
I started counting teardrops,
And at least a million fell,
My eyes began to swell,
And all my dreams were shattered,
All at once.

Lily held onto James with all the strength she had. She buried her head in his chest and cried for hours. James sat on the bed with her and held her, rubbing her back and kissing the top of her head, telling everything was going to be ok.

Lily looked up at James and into his eyes for the first time that morning and saw so many emotions in them. Sadness, worry, grief, sorrow, misery, but most importantly, love. She saw the love burning in his eyes as he looked at her that she had never seen before but somehow she knew had always been there. She wanted to stare into them forever. She needed that. She needed to be loved. It was at that moment that she finally realised what she had been fighting for five years. She was in love with James Potter.

James looked down at Lily to see the horrible look of grief and sadness that was clouding them. But as he looked deeper into them he saw something different emerge. Love.

They both moved their heads until their lips finally met. There was a feeling of longing coming from both of them. This was something they both had been waiting for for a long time. It was a gently kiss but it contained every emotion in it. Everything they had both been feeling up until that moment was put into the kiss. When they finally broke apart James looked down at Lily again to see the love in her eyes was glowing above everything else.

“I love you Lily,” he said quietly, not breaking his gaze from her eyes.

“I love you too James,” she said in a much stronger voice than earlier, before reaching up and kissing him again, more passionately than before.

They both sat like this on the bed for a while, but neither knew how long. They were lost in each other. They both wanted to escape the hurt they were both feeling.

When they broke apart after what felt like hours, Lily laid her head on James’ chest again. James wrapped his arms around her again, hugging her into him. They sat like this for while before Lily spoke.

“James, please tell me it didn’t happen,” she said quietly.

James sighed sadly. “I am so sorry Lils, but I can’t. I really want to.”

Lily started to cry again softly. “It is all my fault. I forgot my wand and I had to go back and get it, so I hid them in a closet. But when I got back the Death Eaters where outside it and they…..and they….” She sobbed, but she couldn’t finish that sentence. She couldn’t say they were dead.

‘Ever since I met you,
You’re the only love I’ve known,
And I can’t forget you,
Those I must face it all alone.

‘All at once,
I’m drifting on a lonely sea,
Wishing you’d come back to me,
And that’s all that matters now,
All at once,
I’m drifting on a lonely sea,
Holding on to memories,
And it hurts me more than you know,
So much more than it shows,
All at once.

James turned her around to face him. “Lily, this is not your fault. You cannot blame yourself. You tried to protect them, and that was really brave. You have to believe that. You will never be able to move on if you keep blaming yourself. The only one to blame about this is Voldemort,” he told.

Lily looked into his eyes again. “James, I am so sorry,” she sobbed.

“Why Lily?” he asked worried, afraid she had done something.

“I am sorry I treated you so badly all these years. I was so horrible to you and you didn’t deserve that. And I don’t deserve you,” she said trying to pull away but he held on tight.

“Never say that Lily. If anything, I don’t deserve you. You are smart, caring, beautiful, sweet, kind and gentle. I know I acted like a jerk in the past and you have every right to be mad at me over that. But we have both grown up and all that matters now is that we are together. We need each other. I am never going to let you go Lily Evans. I have chased you for five years and now that I have you, you are never going to escape me again. I love you Lily and I always will. Nothing is going to change that,” he said and kissed her again with all the passion he was feeing.

Lily looked up and smiled for the first time that morning.

“I love you too James Potter,”

And with that they fell asleep, exactly as they were, wrapped in each other, each taking comfort from the other.

Slowly the door opened slightly and Sirius and Remus poked their heads in it, looking at their two friends.

“Well it looks like Operation Stag and Flower has succeeded,” said Sirius smiling at the sleeping couple.

A/N: Awwww! Well we all knew that it was coming! But it's still really sad! What did you think?? Please review and tell me! Thank you so much for reading! And extra thanks to everyone who reviewed! I really love reading what you all think! Thanks again! = )

Chapter 11: Chapter 11: Acceptance and Recovery
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Chapter 11: Acceptance and Recovery

James woke several hours later to find himself still sitting on Lily’s bed with Lily wrapped tightly in his arms. He smiled to himself. “What did I ever do to deserve someone so perfect?”

He thought back over the last few hours remembering everything that had happened: Lily kissing him, Lily telling him she loved him. It made him smile even more widely.

It wasn’t exactly how he imagined it happening, but it didn’t matter. All that did was that they were together and nothing could tear them apart. He was going to make sure of that.

He looked down again at Lily. “She seems so fragile, like she is made of glass,” he thought. “She is so beautiful, so perfect. She doesn’t deserve to have her life torn apart and her parents taken from her,” he thought to himself, but stopped, because the thought of what happened to her made him want to kill Voldemort and is Death Eaters.

He felt Lily stir under him and looked down to see her eyes were open and she was smiling at him. “She is so beautiful. I wish this moment could last forever,”

He smiled back at her and leaned down to kiss her. She returned his kiss, running her hand up his neck and into his hair. “This is how it is supposed to be, just the two of us. No one to destroy our lives,” she thought kissing him passionately.

They kissed for several minutes. Neither of them wanted to stop but they heard footsteps and the door opening. They broke apart quickly and looked up to see Sirius and Remus standing in the doorway, smiling widely at them.

“Well it seems you two have finally come to you senses,” laughed Sirius placing a tray he had been holding onto James’ lap.

“Your mother sent us up with breakfast to see if you wanted any. I think she knew something was going on and didn’t want to walk in on you,” said Remus smiling at James and Lily who both blushed.

“So we volunteered instead,” said Sirius brightly. “We had no problem walking in on you. By the way Prongs,” he said turning to James. “What are you doing in the bed? Don’t you think you are taking things a bit fast?”

The other three laughed. James knew Sirius was trying to lighten the mood and cheer Lily up, for which he was very grateful. Or maybe he was just being Sirius? It was hard to tell sometimes with him.

Remus hit Sirius on the arm for his last comment.

“What Moony? I was just cheering Lily up. Although I think Prongs has already seen to that,” he said smiling cheekily at her. He then received three pillows in the face.

“Why did you guys do that?”

“What? There was no book handy and Lily was holding the cup, I had nothing else to hit you with,” James said smiling at Sirius who scowled.

“Ok, the new official rule of the Marauders is ‘No one is to hit Sirius with any item. He is off limits as his amazing good looks are at risk. Ow, what did you do that for Prongs? You just broke the rule!” he asked rubbing his head where the plastic cup had hit him.

James put up his two hands in an innocent fashion and looked at Lily who was leaning against him laughing. Sirius looked at her questioningly.

“What? You said it was the Marauders new rule no one was allowed to hit you. I knew James really wanted to hit you, so since I am not a Marauder, I did it for him,” she said smiling sweetly at him.

James and Remus were laughing so hard, they were nearly crying. Between the look on Sirius’ face and what Lily had done, they were both doing well to still be sitting upright and not rolling around on the floor.

“Now I know why I fell in love with you. You are completely amazing. That was brilliant,” James laughed before kissing her. He was glad she was able to still have a good time. He knew she wasn’t over her parents death, no where near it, but at least she was able to deal with it and wasn’t closing herself off to him.

They stayed like that for a few minutes, laughing. Well James, Lily and Remus were laughing; Sirius was scowling at all of them.

“So what did you guys really come up here for? It couldn’t have been for breakfast or see me throw a cup at Sirius,” asked Lily still laughing.

“Well no, that was just an added bonus. We actually came up to say goodbye. We have to go back to school this morning. We were supposed to go back last night but Dumbledore decided it would be best if we had some rest so we are leaving in a few minutes,” said Remus before looking directly at Lily. “How are you doing?” he asked kindly.

Lily sighed. “Ok. I mean I’m not over it obviously, but I’m accepting it. I am doing better than I expected and I have you three to thank for that,” she said looking around at the three boys who were all looking at her with sadness in their eyes. At her words James pulled her into him and kissed the top of her head.

“I am really sorry for what happened Lily,” said Remus.

“So am I Remus. Thank you for saying that. It means a lot to know you care,” she said tears in her eyes.

“Hey, I care too. I care a lot,” piped up Sirius from the other side of the bed. Lily laughed at him. She knew he wanted to cheer her up and she was glad for that. “I am so lucky to have friends like these,”

“I know you care Sirius. Thank you,” she said smiling at him. “Why do you guys have to go?” she asked.

“Dumbledore said he felt it would be better for you if you weren’t surrounded by too many people. I also think he had a feeling that you two might want to be alone for a while,” said Remus looking at the two of them with his eyebrow raised.

James and Lily looked slightly guilty but grinned anyway. Then Remus stood up and pulled Sirius with him. “I think it is time for us to go,” he said.

James nodded and eased out from under Lily.

“Ok, I’ll come down with you,” said Lily from the bed and James looked around at her, slightly worried.

“Are you sure you will be able to get up?” he asked.

“Of course, I’m fine, there is not- Ouch!” she exclaimed as she made a move to get out of the bed. Apparently the pain of realising her parents were gone and numbed the physical pain in her body. But the unexpected move had brought it back.

“Lily, are you ok? Maybe you should stay here,” James said rushing back to her and grabbing her hand.

“I’m fine. I just….I just moved too fast. That’s all,” she said, still panting after the sharp pain she had experienced.

“Ok, if you really want to get up, we can just take it slower this time. And warn me before you move. You frightened the life out of me,” James said.

Lily smiled and held on tight to his arm as he helped her get gently to her feet. She got a bit dizzy when she stood first and grabbed onto James for support.

“Are you ok?” Remus asked her with concern.

“Sure she is, this is another excuse to hold onto Prongs,” said Sirius smiling at Lily, but he was just trying to hide his own concern for her.

She smiled at Sirius. “As much as it pains me to say this Sirius, you are right,” she said smiling up at James who was towering above her.

James smiled back at her cheekily. “You don’t need an excuse, just ask. I am very happy to help.”

They all laughed at this and made their way very slowly from the room. Lily was very weak and had to lean strongly on James to keep herself upright. James had his arm around her waist, holding onto her tightly and supporting her body against him. He still wasn’t sure that getting up was a good idea, but if Lily felt she was able for it and she wanted to, he was going to be there with her. Every step of the way, no matter how long it took, he was not going to leave her.

It took twenty minutes for them to get down the stairs and into the hall leading to the kitchen. Lily looked around the house as she walking through it, completely mesmerised by its beauty. She loved this house, and she had only been down one hall and in room. But this house had something that only two other places in the world had, one of which didn’t have that something for the last seven years, and never would again. Thinking about her destroyed house and her parents brought tears to her eyes again. James looked at her and stopped before entering the kitchen.

“What is wrong Lils? Is it hurting you to walk? I can take you back upstairs if you want. Oh Lil honey, don’t cry, what is wrong?” James asked leading her over to a chair and sitting her in it. He then crouched down in front of her and looked into her eyes.

“It’s this house,” she said looking around the beautifully decorated hall. “It is perfect,” she continued at the confused look on James face, which didn’t change much with this statement. “It’s just, it has such a homey feel to it. It makes me feel warm and loved just being here.”

“But you are Lils. Everyone in this house loves you. Especially me,” James said.

“I know that James. I love being here. It is so beautiful and amazing. I love when a place makes me feel at home. Only two other places have every made me feel like this, and one of them is gone forever. Your house just reminds me of it,” she said, tears starting to fall down her cheeks.

James got up off the floor and sat on the chair, lifting her onto his lap gently, and kissing the top of her head. She buried her head in his chest again and he comforted her the best way he could, by simply holding her.

“That house was my first home,” she said lifting her head slightly. “I loved it. It wasn’t just the house, after all a house is just a building. It was the feeling inside it. The feeling of walking through those doors and knowing you were loved. But when I got into Hogwarts, that feeling changed. My own sister hated me and, even though they supported me, my parents didn’t know me anymore. They didn’t know about magic or Hogwarts, and they still loved me. But Petunia didn’t. She wouldn’t accept me and I nearly dreaded going home when I knew she was going to be there, and I hated that. I wanted for her to accept me so badly, but she wouldn’t. She turned cold against me and my home didn’t feel like home after. I felt like I was a burden, the three months I spent there every summer. But now it is gone. I will never get to walk through the front door again to feel that love you should feel when you are with your family. But I don’t have one of those anymore either,” she said sobbing into James again who was shocked at what Lily had said. He knew Lily’s sister hated the fact she was a witch, but he didn’t think it upset her this much. He rubbed his hand up and down her back in a soothing way and kissed the top of her head. But Lily wasn’t finished.

“So I took refuge in Hogwarts. It was the only place I felt I actually fitted in. I tried so hard to become a great witch. I wanted to show people you don’t have to be pureblood to succeed. But, it never worked. If I was any good I would have been able to save them. I thought Petunia would start to realise that my being a witch wasn’t so bad, but she never did. She is going to say it is my fault this happened, she said being a witch was bound to cause problems. And maybe she is right. If I wasn’t a witch, none of this would have happened. My parents would still be alive, I would have a home and she wouldn’t hate me.”

James pulled her in even closer to him. “Lily you don’t honestly regret coming to Hogwarts do you? If you never came you wouldn’t have met me, or Alice, or Jo. Even if you didn’t become a witch Lily, it doesn’t mean Voldemort wouldn’t have come after you. He just would have hunted you for a different reason. You survived because you are an amazing witch. You are Head Girl. That is not something you are born with, you have to work for it, and you did. You proved you belonged at Hogwarts, even though you are not pureblood. You showed everyone in the school that you can do anything. Dumbledore knows you are an amazing witch, so do I, and Remus, and Sirius, and Alice, and Jo and even Voldemort. If he thought you were weak would he ever have come after you? If you weren’t meant to be one of the greatest witches ever, would you have escaped him last year and again this year? No, you wouldn’t have. You are the brightest and most skilled witch I have ever seen, but you need to believe that. So don’t doubt who you are Lily. You are an amazing person and witch. You risked your life trying to save your family. I bet they were, and still are, so proud of you. I know I am,” he said kissing her on the lips, as if reinforcing what he just said.

“I love you Lily Evans and I am not going to let you go. We are going to get through this together. You and me,”

Lily looked into his deep hazel eyes and saw a determination and love so strong, it brought tears to her eyes because she knew that that love, that passion, that determination, it was all for her, and only her. She never wanted to lose that. She wouldn’t be able to cope if she did.

“I love you too James Potter. I will never leave you. You are stuck with me for life now and there is nothing you can do,”

“I think I can live with that,” he answered smiling, before leaning down and kissing her deeply. Lily wrapped her arms around him and ran her fingers through his hair, pulling his head closer, deepening the kiss. James pulled Lily right into him and kissed her back with as much love and passion as she was kissing him with.

What neither of them knew was that they were being watched. When Sirius and Remus arrived in the kitchen and saw that James and Lily were not with them they turned back and made to go out the door when they saw Lily and James in the hall. They stayed at the door listening, only to be joined by Mr and Mrs Potter, McGonnagall, Slughorn and even, surprisingly Dumbledore.

Mrs Potter watched her son. Her eyes were shining with tears. She was so proud of him she couldn’t put it into words, so she cried. She was so happy her son had found someone to love and care for. She knew he would love Lily with all his heart. She was glad James was there to help Lily through this. “She is a very lucky girl,” she thought as she watched them kissing. “We did a good job raising him. I couldn’t have asked for a better son,” she thought again and reached for her husbands hand and hoping James and Lily would end up as happy as they had.

“Nicely done James, nicely done,” Dumbledore said smiling to himself. He knew he didn’t make a mistake choosing his Head Boy.

A/N: Please tell me what you think? Please please please!! Thank you! = )

Chapter 12: Chapter 12: Reunited Again
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Chapter 12: Reunited Again

The next few days past by quickly. Lily was making a good recovering and she had taken to walking around the gardens with James. She loved his house. When she began to get some of her old strength back James brought her on a tour of the entire house. It was HUGE! There were so many rooms in it she lost count after the first ten. Each room was completely different. They all had their own different style or design and all of them came with their own bathroom. She was completely amazed by it. She knew James was wealthy, but she didn’t know he was THIS rich!

Her favourite room of all was the room at the very top of the house, called the Mood Room. When you walked into it, it changed to whatever colour suited the mood you were in at the time. Usually she and James would go up there at night and look at the stars. She loved to look at the sky. It was the most beautiful thing in the world to her. She especially loved it at night. She and James would go up when it got dark, sit on the white sofa that was at the window together, wrap themselves in a blanket and talk or just look at the stars. She loved doing this. She felt like, when she was up there with James, all her problems and worries just disappeared. Nothing mattered once the two of them were there together. It had become kind of a ritual for them to go up there. No one every bothered them. They were free to be together, without anyone around them.

This morning Lily and James were walking through the garden hand in hand. The grounds around Potter Manor where even bigger and more remarkable than the house. Lily liked to walk through the grass, picking the flowers along the way. She still hadn’t gotten all the way around them. But James assured her it would take a lot longer than a week to fully explore all the grounds. Still, it didn’t stop her from dragging him out every day to try.

She thought back over everything that happened in the last few days. It had been hard to get up every day knowing what happened. Every morning before she opened her eyes she wished that it had all been a dream, but then she would open her eyes to find herself in the beautiful room the Potters had set aside for her and sigh. It really had happened.

James had really helped her to deal with it though. He still wouldn’t leave her at night. He would stay there because he knew she needed comfort to stop what happened from haunting her while she slept. He would come in about half an hour after she left him, go over to her bed and sit in the chair beside it. But then she would pull the covers off her and tell him to get in, which he did. He would lie beside her and hold her as she drifted off into a peaceful sleep. He knew his parents already knew what he was doing, but that they trusted him and Lily. James never thought about doing anything. He just wanted to be there to comfort her, and that is exactly what he did.

Lily remembered as different people stopped by Potter Manor over the last three days. Different people from the Ministry, Aurors and people from a secret society called the Order of the Phoenix called regularly. James and Lily didn’t know much about the Order. The only thing they knew was that they were fighting against Voldemort. Lily swore that if Voldemort was still at large when she finished school she would join. James agreed fully with this plan when she mentioned it to him. They agreed to join together.

Tomorrow was the day Sirius, Remus, Alice and Jo were due to come. Lily was excited about seeing her friends again. She was starting to miss them. After all, if they weren’t there she had no one to talk to about James! The only bad thing about them coming was that her and James alone time would be limited. Even though they had only been together three days, Lily was getting to know so much about James that she never knew before. And he was the same with her. With every passing day they were falling more in love with each other. They could be together and not have to talk, like now. They were just walking together in complete silence, each deep in thought. But they had other things to do aswell. They didn’t just talk or walk in silence all the time.

James looked over at Lily to see a smile playing on her lips. He tried not to smile too. He was glad she was getting back to herself. She still cried everyday, which he expected. But those outburst of tears were few now. She was starting to get her own strength back aswell. She was able to walk without too much difficultly. Most importantly, he thought, was that she was sleeping. He made sure of this as he stayed with her every night. He was happy that what happened didn’t cause Lily to close off to people. He enjoyed their last three days together. He watched her closely to make sure she was ok, but they were still able to have a good time.

He looked down as he felt a pull on in his. He turned to see that Lily had stopped behind him, her grin growing bigger.

“What is wrong Lils?” he asked but not in a concerned way, more in a curious way.

She just pulled him closer to her and kissed him out of no where. James pulled her against him and wrapped one arm around her waist and ran the other one through her long hair, kissing her back. She put both her hands at the back of his head and played with the hair at the nape of his neck, sending shivers down his spine. When they broke apart several minutes later he looked down at her grinning widely.

“What was that for?” he asked

“What? I’m not allowed to kiss my boyfriend?”

“Of course you are,” he answered smiling at her. “You just surprised me.”

Lily grinned triumphantly. She loved to catch James off guard. She knew she could make his knees weak when she did and she enjoyed it as he struggled to stay upright by holding onto her tightly.

“I know,” she laughed. “It was great!”

James suddenly lifted her up and spun her around in a circle, holding on tightly to her.

“James! Put me down right now,” she said

“No. I don’t think I will. Unless you make it worth my while,” he answered laughing at her.

“James Harry Potter! You put me down this instant!” she shouted hitting him repeatedly on the shoulder.

“Nope,” he laughed

“And why not?” she asked loudly still hitting him.

“Well for one I am enjoying this immensely. For another, hitting me is going to make me put you down. And lastly, I told you, you have to make it worth my while,”

“And how could I do that?” she asked smiling charmingly at him.

“That’s up to you. Be creative,” he said before swinging her around again to stop her from hitting him again. She really was quite strong, especially for her size.

When he stopped swinging her she leaned in and kissed him fiercely on the lips. She started to play with his hair again and she could feel his knees go weak before they both fell to the ground laughing. Luckily for Lily, she landed on James instead of the ground. James didn’t seem to happy about the landing. Lily continued to laugh.

“I thought I said be creative. You know what happens when you do that,” he said

“Exactly. I knew it was going to be effective. So I win!” she said happily. James tried to get up but she pushed him back down.

“Where do you think you’re going Potter?” she asked. “I won, now you have to make it up to me.”

James grinned at her. Then he reached up and brought her lips down to meet his. They broke apart and Lily smiled.

“Um….I think you need to work on your rewards,” she said laughing at him. “Oh James, I love you so much.”

“I love you too Lils,” he said before kissing her again. As they deepened the kiss they heard a shout from behind them.


James and Lily sat up fast as they saw four people approach them.

“LILY!” two of them yelled, running towards Lily and throwing their arms around her.

“Alice? Jo? What are you doing here? I thought you were coming tomorrow?” Lily asked looking at her friends. She was so glad to see them again, she had missed them.

“Dumbledore let us come a day early because Alice was driving him up the wall asking him questions every time she saw him and going to his office all the time. The poor man!” smiled Jo, looking at Lily. She seemed genuinely happy. She could still see some of the grief in her eyes, but she was recovering.

“So, what is going on here? First time you two were lying in a bed, now you’re lying on top of one another. Will someone please explain?” asked Sirius

Lily just laughed but James answered.

“Well, if you didn’t come barging in at inopportune moments Padfoot, there may be something to tell,”

“Well then it is a good thing I have such marvelous timing, isn’t it?”

Lily rolled her eyes, but she was glad to have all her friends around her again. “So how are things at Hogwarts?” she asked

Alice, Jo, Sirius and Remus looked at each other. Over the last few days the news of what happened at Lily’s house had gotten around. The Daily Prophet reported on the attack and there were now rumours going around Hogwarts about why Lily wasn’t here. Not all of them were good, or even nice. Many people claimed she was in Azkaban because she was really a Death Eater and sold her family to Voldemort. Jo and Sirius had each been given a weeks worth of detentions for hexing a group of students who were saying Lily was in St Mungos in a criminally insane ward.

“They are fine. Nothing too big. Next term starts in a few days so mostly people are catching up on the homework they neglected to do earlier. So what has been going on here? Anything interesting?” asked Remus, quickly changing the subject from Hogwarts. He didn’t want Lily to hear any of those rumours if he could help it. It would be hard enough for her to come back to school without things like that being said about her.

“Not really, things have been pretty quiet. Lots of different people dropping in to visit my parents, but nothing special,” answered James.

Alice then turned to Lily. “So you finally opened your eyes Lily?” she asked looking from her to James and back. Lily blushed. She knew it wouldn’t be long before her friends began to question her, but she would rather they do it when James wasn’t beside her. All she could do was nod.

Alice and Jo started to roll around the grass laughing.

“What is so funny?” asked James looking at Lily who was blushing furiously.

“Oh nothing. But I seem to remember having a certain conversation with a certain red-head about how she should open her eyes to a certain black haired Head Boy,” said Jo laughing.

“Oh really?” said James looking again at Lily with his eyebrow raised.

“What? It was when you were still an arrogant prick,” she said


“She has you there mate. You were a prick. And an idiot, and a fool, and a git, and completely clueless. Face it Prongs, it is who you are. Or were. Or….Oh well I’m confused. You two are the most confusing and stubborn pair I have ever met. And NOW you are together? This is going to be a very long year,” sighed Sirius. Everyone started laughing at him. They stayed there for hours talking, laughing, joking and occasionally hitting Sirius. As it should be. They were all happy to be reunited again.

A/N: There wasn't really much of a point to that chapter either, I just need to have something to fill in the gaps between the big parts! It was mainly just to describe James' house, show James and Lily's relationship growing and bring everyone back together. Hope you liked it! Please review and tell me weither you did or not! Thank you so much! Extra extra thanks to everyone who has reviewed already! I love reading them! Please keep doing so! = )

Chapter 13: Chapter 13: The Mood Room
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Chapter 13: The Mood Room.

The last few days of the break went by fast for the six friends. Nothing unusual happened, unless you count Sirius breaking his record for the longest time he stayed quiet.

The group spent these days mainly outside as the weather was surprisingly mild for the start of November. They would walk around the grounds talking or sit under one of the large trees joking and laughing together.

At the moment James, Jo, Sirius and Remus were playing Quidditch. Lily really wanted to play but thought better of it, so she and Alice watched the others fly around. Lily was watching Jo closely as she had been doing for several days. She noticed something strange in her friend’s behaviour lately and decided to confront her later that night when they were together.

When Lily, Jo and Alice were alone in Lily’s room after dinner Lily decided to talk to her.

“Jo, do you like Sirius?” she asked.

Jo dropped the brush she had been using and turned to Lily.

“No I do not! Why would you even think that? Me like Black? Never happen,” she stated.

“Like Lily liking James would never happen?” Alice asked. She too had noticed a change in Jo.

“That is different. They were stubborn and in denial about it. It was so obvious they would be together. But me and BLACK?”

“Yes you and Sirius. You are so like James and I. You are in denial about it and he is arrogant over it. You two are made for each other. I’ve seen the way you’ve been acting this week. You keep glancing at him all the time and you bring him into every conversation,” Lily said.

“I seem to remember us giving you this lecture Lily,” Jo retorted.

“Yes you did, and you were right. Just like we are right about this,” Lily said smiling.

“But come on, it’s Black! Hogwarts permanent bachelor. He could never have a serious relationship. He has been with more girls than I can count,” Jo said.

“Well there is the pot calling the kettle black. You have been with as many guys as he has girls. You just don’t want to admit you like him,” laughed Alice.

“He really does like you Jo. He is exactly like James. He may act like an idiot but he isn’t really,” Lily insisted.

Jo fell down on Lily’s bed in defeat. Lily and Alice grinned at each other. “I knew it! Jo likes Sirius! Ha!” Lily thought to herself.

Later that night Lily was standing by herself on the balcony of the Mood Room. The room had turned a dark blue when she had entered. She stood at the railing gazing up at the stars, thinking about her parents and the afternoon she arrived for the wedding.

“What about you Lily? Do you have someone special at your school?”

“No mom, no one yet. I’m still looking,” said Lily laughing.

“Well let’s hope you find him while your mother and I are still around. I have to make sure he is good enough for my Flower,”

This memory brought tears once more to Lily’s eyes. Her parents had never met James. They had never had a chance to get to know him.

She looked up again at the stars twinkling above her. “They are up there,” she thought to herself. “They are watching me right now,”

“I think you would have liked him dad,” she said out loud gazing longingly at the stars above. “You two would have got on well together. You would have loved him too mum, his charming manor and humorous personality. I hope you both would have loved him, I’m sure you would’ve if you ever got the chance to meet him. I think you would have approved of him for your Flower dad. I love him more than anything else. I always have, I was just too proud to admit it. And because of that you never got to meet him, you never got to see the man I love with all my heart,” she cried out, tears rolling down her cheeks.

“Why did this have to happen? Why to you? You were amazing parents and you didn’t deserve to die. I don’t know what I am going to do. I don’t know where my life is going to take me anymore. There have been so many bumps along my life but this one hurt the most. Why did he have to kill you two? You didn’t deserve it. You weren’t involved. You were innocent. I got you into this mess. I got you killed. I go off to learn magic for seven years and when I come back I can’t even save you? This is all my fault. I miss you guys so much. I know I was away at school most of the year but I knew you would be there when I got home. But now I have no family and no home. I have no money. Everything was destroyed, my family, my home, my life. I have nothing now,” she said to the sky, tears streaming down her face.

“You have me,” said a voice. Lily turned to see James standing behind her, tears in his eyes.

“Oh, no James. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that. It’s just…….It’s just I miss them so much. I don’t want to believe they’re gone. They have always been there for me, the whole way through my life. And I never got to thank them. I never to tell them what amazing parents they were or how much I loved them. I never told them how much I appreciated everything they did for me. Now I will never get the chance,” she sobbed hugging James.

“You can tell them now Lils. You said it yourself, they are in the stars looking down at you. Tell them Lils, they will hear you,” James said.

Lily turned back to face the sky. James was standing behind her and he placed both of his hands around her middle, supporting her.

“Mom, Dad,” she said shakily. “I need to tell you how much you meant to me and still do. You were the best parents a child could ask for. You were kind and caring and loving, I was blessed to have you as my parents. You were everything to me, my whole life. You brought me into this world and I had to watch you leave it, much earlier than you were supposed to. I am so sorry for what happened on Halloween, I didn’t mean for anything to happen. I want to thank you mom and dad for raising me to be a kind and caring person. I will try to not let you down, I want to make you proud of me. I am so grateful for everything you gave or taught me. You taught me to love others, that led me to meeting the most amazing man. Mom, Dad, I would like for you to meet James Potter, my boyfriend,” she said turning to James who smiled encouragingly at her.

“I want you to know I love you both so much. I miss you more than I can say and I will never forget you. But I have to try and move on. You taught me that Dad, that when someone you love leaves you, you have to try and move on, never forget them, but if you hold on too tight you forget to live. So I want to say goodbye to you both. I love you Mom, and you Dad. I will never forget you,” she said looking up at the two brightest stars in the sky. She had done it, she had said goodbye and now she had to move on.

She turned around so she was face to face with James. Both or their eyes were red from crying. Lily smiled sadly at him.

“Thank you James. I needed to do that. I wouldn’t have been able to move on if I didn’t. Thank you for being here with me,”

“I will always be here for you Lils, no matter what happens. I promise I will never lave you,” he said holding her against him.

Lily went onto her tip-toes and kissed James full on the lips. This kiss was different from the others, it was a promise that they would always be together.

“I love you Lils,” he said after at least ten minutes.

“I love you too James,” she replied. She then led him over to the white sofa and sat down on his knee. He conjured a blanket and wrapped it around them. They sat like that for an hour, holding each other, neither of them saying anything. Suddenly after an hour of silence Lily spoke.

“James where do you see yourself in the future? When you leave school hat do you plan on doing?”

James looked at her puzzled as to why she was asking this question and what he should answer. He had thought of his future, yes, but he never seriously considered exactly what he wanted to do with his life. “Where does she get theses questions?”

“I don’t know really. I want to be an Auror, like my parents are,” he answered. “What about you?”

“I want to be an Auror too. Apart from a job, what do you think your life will be like when you leave Hogwarts?” she asked looking at him, her eyes still reed from crying.

“This,” he said simply. “I imagined my life to be exactly like this. Together,”

“What about kids? How many kids do you want?”

“Four, two boys and two girls. Why are you asking?”

Lily shrugged. “Just curious.” She looked at him thoughtfully. “James?”

“Yeah Lil?”

“Do you really see us together when we are older?”

James looked at her completely confused. “Why? Don’t you?”

“I didn’t, until a few days ago. When I first saw the love in your eyes, I knew I wanted to be with you for my whole life. Do you? See us together?”

James nodded.

“Since when?” she asked.

“Since the first day of Hogwarts. I was all excited to be starting school I thought nothing could distract me. Then I saw a flash of red out of the corner of my eye and I looked over to see the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. She had emerald green eyes and long red hair. She had me stunned. That was the moment I knew I wanted to spent my life with you,” he told her.

Lily reached up and kissed him again. He kissed her back and they deepened it, losing themselves in it completely. Neither of them noticed the colour of the walls were changing. They were no longer a dark, sad blue, they were a light rose colour that was slowly darkening as if mirroring the love James and Lily were feeling at that moment.

They continued like this for nearly an hour, just lost in one another, before James spoke.

“Are you nervous about going back to Hogwarts tomorrow?”

“Yes,” she said honestly. She didn’t feel the need to pretend in front of James. “I don’t want to go back,”

“Don’t worry Lils. I’ll be right there with you. You won’t have to do it alone,”

Lily looked once again into his hazel eyes and saw that strong love burning in them again.

“I love you James,”

“I love you too Lil,”

They both reached out and kissed again with overwhelming passion. They sat together on the sofa kissing, until they fell asleep just as the sun began to rise.

They say every day marks a new beginning, and this was theirs.

A/N: That chapter was so sad! i was in tears writing it! Please review and tell me what you thought of it truthfully! thank you all so much for taking time to read this and tell me what you think! It means a lot! = )

Chapter 14: Chapter 14: Return to Hogwarts
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Chapter 14: Return to Hogwarts
Lily woke early the next morning. She decided to get up since she knew she that now she was awake she wouldn’t be able to go back to sleep. She got out of bed and made her way across the room quietly because James was still asleep. When she reached the door she looked back at him sleeping peacefully in her bed. They hadn’t gotten back from the Mood Room until late last night and James didn’t go asleep until after Lily had. He still insisted on staying with her every night. He said he wanted to protect and comfort her. Lily didn’t mind him staying, in fact she liked knowing he was there beside her if anything happened. She laughed to herself as she remembered the looks on her friends faces when they found out she and James were staying in the same room. Nothing she said to them could convince them it was completely innocent.

She walked quietly down the stairs and made her way towards the kitchen to make herself a cup of tea. She was surprised to see one of the chairs at the table was already occupied.

“Remus? What are you doing up this early?” she asked him.

Remus jumped when he heard her, he hadn’t been expecting anyone to be up yet. “Couldn’t sleep. What about you?”

“Me neither, too many things to think about,” she told him.

Remus looked at her sadly. She hadn’t been the same cheerful, full of life Lily she used to be. She tried to act normally when everyone was around but he knew the death of her parents still hurt her deeply.

“How have you been?” he asked slowly, not sure how she would react. “I never gad much of a chance to talk to you since we came,”

Lily smiled at her thoughtfulness. She really liked Remus. She had gotten to know him a lot better over their two years as Prefects. She always wondered how a caring, sensitive, quiet guy like Remus had ended up with best friends like James and Sirius. But James wasn’t really as bad as she thought, and Sirius? Well, he was just Sirius.

“I’m ok,” she answered quietly. “I miss them a lot. It still hurts. It is so hard to believe they are actually gone, that I will never see them again. Sometimes I think, even hope, that this is all a dream, that it never happened. But I finally excepted it. James helped me to say goodbye to them. It was so hard, but saying goodbye always is.” She looked up at Remus with tears in her eyes. “Especially when you know it is for the last time.”

Remus got up and walked over beside her. “We are always here for you, you know that right? All of us,”

“Even Sirius?” she smiled sadly.

“Even Sirius,” Remus laughed. “He can help when he wants to , he just prefers to cause trouble.” He looked at Lily again. “Really Lily, you don’t have to do this alone. You have friends who will help you through it,” he told her.

Lily smiled at him and gave him a hug. “Thank you Remus,” she said before the tears finally burst their barriers and rolled silently down her cheeks. But not all of them were tears of grief, some of them were tears of happiness for knowing she still had people who cared for her.

A few hours later Lily was up in her room getting her trunk before leaving for Hogwarts. Since all her belongings had been destroyed Mrs Potter went to Diagon Alley and had bought her all new things. She tried to refuse but Mrs Potter insisted she was one of the family and that she wanted to do it. Sirius said Potter was a refuge for stray teenagers that needed somewhere to stay and eat. Lily laughed at this. She was glad she was considered as part of their very strange and unusual family. Even though her own family was gone she was happy she still had people who loved her.

Before she knew it she was down in the living room getting ready to go back to Hogwarts. She turned to a tearful Mrs Potter.

“Thank you for everything Mrs Potter. It was really wonderful of you to let me stay here,”

“It was no problem dear, I was happy to. Mr Potter and I were so glad to meet you. And please, call me mum,” Mrs Potter said giving Lily a hug.

Sirius laughed. “Welcome to the family my dear sister. No…” he said thinking. “That can’t be right. If you’re my sister, then that means you are Prong’s too, so then…Urgh! Don’t want to think about that,” he said pretending to shudder.

Lily laughed with more tears in her eyes. “Do they ever stop?” she asked herself angrily, wiping the tears from her eyes before turning again to Mrs Potter and Mr Potter who had appeared behind her.

“It really was great meeting you Lily. You have to come back soon, you are the only one who can keep our James in line,” Mr Potter smiled at her. Everyone in the room laughed.

“We hope you will spend Christmas and summer here dear. It has been lovely having another woman in the house. Things get a bit lonely when there is only these three here talking about Quidditch all day,” Mrs Potter said glancing at James, Sirius and Mr Potter.

“I would love to stay here. Thank you,” Lily said smiling and giving Mr and Mrs Potter another hug.

“That is if James doesn’t frighten you off,” Mr Potter said making everyone laugh again.

“It was lovely meeting you girls too,” Mrs Potter said to Alice and Jo. “We hope you come and visit again,”

“I don’t think that is a very wise decision Mom. You shouldn’t put thoughts like that in their heads, it could be dangerous,” said Sirius looking at Jo who smiled evilly at him. Neither of them had yet admitted how they felt towards each other.

At Sirius’ comment everyone cracked up laughing again before making their way towards the fire, where they would Floo to Hogwarts. With final goodbyes everyone went into the flames one by one with their trunks and disappeared until their was only James and Lily left.

“Are you ready to go back?” he asked her.

“I don’t know,” she said, though she was shaking slightly and her stomach was in knots from nerves.

James took her hand. “Don’t worry Lils. I’ll be there with you,” he said giving her a kiss on the cheek before she said goodbye once again to Mr and Mrs Potter and disappeared into the flames. James turned to say goodbye to his parents.

“Don’t lose her James. She is one of a kind,” Mr Potter said giving his son a quick hug. “Have a good term and be careful,”

“Watch out for Lily, Ok James? She needs you,” Mrs Potter said before nearly choking him with a hug.

“I will, don’t worry. I won’t let anything happen to her. I’ll see you at Christmas. Bye!” James said before he too disappeared in the green flames.

He fell out of the fire in McGonnagall’s office moments later. He picked himself off the ground and turned to see Professor McGonnagall at her desk.

“Welcome back Mr Potter,” she said.

“It’s good to be back Professor,” he replied before leaving her office where Lily, Sirius, Remus, Jo and Alice were waiting for him.

Together the six of them made their way back to Gryffindor Tower. James walked beside Lily with his arm around her waist for comfort. He knew she was nervous about what people were going to say about her. They all walked in complete silence (which was very strange considering Sirius was with them) until they entered the common room. As they entered the usually noisy students went silent, looking at them.

“Well,” said Sirius. “Glad to see they haven’t forgotten us.” With that he walked over to an empty corner of the room and the others followed sitting down on the armchairs. Since there was only three of them Sirius and Jo sat on the floor, Remus and Alice took the two seats and James sat on the last chair with Lily on his lap. This last movement had caused the whole room to go into shock. Everyone stared at them before breaking into whispers.

“They are TOGETHER?”

“Why did he choose her? She isn’t that good looking,”

“I thought I was next?”

“He said he had given up,”

“I thought she hated him?”

“What does she see in him?”

“Do you think he threatened to kill him, like she killed her parents?”

This last remark made Lily go very stiff. The others looked ready to kill, especially James. He hadn’t been there to hear the other comments and rumours before so he wasn’t expecting this. The others knew someone was going to say something, but they didn’t think it would be a Gryffindor. Or that they would say it in front of Lily.

James, Sirius, Remus, Alice and Jo all jumped up at the same time and pulled out their wands, pointing them at the crowd.

“No one is to EVER say that again,” James shouted. “ It is not true and I am disgusted that a Gryffindor would even believe it. None of you are ever to say anything about Lily again, do you hear me? Because if you do, you will have the Marauders to deal with, and we can be vicious if you hurt any of our friends. Understand?”

A stunned silence filled the room. James sat back down with Lily, followed rather grudgingly by the others. Sirius and Jo continued to cast murderous looks around the room but James turned his attention to Lily who was nearly crying.

“How could they even think I would do something like that? It's horrible,”

“Don’t listen to them Lils. They don’t understand. No one apart from us, Dumbledore and a few teachers know what happened. They just want to find out what happened and are using everything they can to try to get us to talk. Even pure cruelty,” James said throwing an angry look around the room.

Lily paid no attention to the looks of jealously or any threatening looks she was receiving from every girl in the room and laid her head down on James shoulder. He put his arms around her and drew her close to him. He then looked threateningly around the room as if daring anyone to say something.

“Prongs! Padfoot! Moony! You’re back!” shouted a voice from the staircase.

They all looked up to see Peter Pettigrew running towards them.

“Wormtail! Where have you been? We have barely seen you all year,” said Sirius looking at him. Peter grinned guiltily.

“I’m sorry. I had to…had to take…take a lot of tutoring sessions for my N.E.W.Ts,” Peter said quickly.

They all nodded. None of them questioned him as they knew he needed a lot of help in his classes.

Peter looked around the group. They all looked a bit angry and tired. His eyes then rested on Lily’s. He saw they were filled with pain, hurt and grief. He shuddered on the inside when he saw it and couldn’t help but think “I caused that pain. Every bad thing she is feeling, every tear she has shed, it is all my fault,”

As he watched, more tears fell from her eyes onto James shirt. He felt sick. He had hurt Lily, James girlfriend, fellow Gryffindor and friend. She was always so nice to him and he repaid her by ruining her life. “What have I done?”

A/N: Ok so HUGE hint there at the end as to who was behind all this! Please review!! Thanks fore reading! = )

Chapter 15: Chapter 15: Letters
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Chapter 15: Letters
Lily woke late the next morning. The seven of them had been up pretty late the night before talking. Lily hadn’t slept too well as she was thinking of what the next day would be like. If Gryffindors had said things like that, she worried what the rest of the school (particularly Slytherins) would say about her.

For the first time in her years at Hogwarts, she got slowly out of bed, dreading the day that was ahead of her. She usually loved school and would have no problem getting up, but now things were different, she didn’t want to get up and face the rest of the school. “Come on Evans!” said a voice in her head. “Where is that Gryffindor courage?” But Lily didn’t feel like being brave today. She knew she had to, but that didn’t mean she wanted to be.

She got up and went into her bathroom and had a quick shower. After, she returned to her room and put on her new school robes, looking at herself in the mirror when she had them on. They felt wrong. She felt she looked different somehow. She turned when she heard a voice in her doorway.

“Morning sunshine!” said James cheerfully. “I was just coming to see if the fair maiden would be joining the handsome prince for breakfast.” He looked at her, he knew she hadn’t slept well and was worrying about the day ahead. “Or I could bring some up to you?” he offered.

“No. It’s ok, I’ll join the ‘handsome prince’. It would be harder to face everyone during class when you can’t jump up and hex them for me,” Lily smiled.

James laughed. “Says who? I hexed people in class loads of times. They just didn’t know it was me.”

Lily laughed at him and together they left the Heads Dorm and headed towards the Great Hall. Before entering Lily stopped.

“What’s wrong Lil?” James asked.

“Nothing. Just bracing myself for whatever is around that corner,” she told him.

“Don’t worry Lils. I am here. The only thing waiting for you is an amazing breakfast and our friends,” he said taking her hand.

Lily nodded and took a deep breath before entering the Great Hall, hand-in-hand with James. The whole school stopped as they entered. Everyone seemed to be in shock from what they saw, wether it was James and Lily coming in together, the fact Lily had come back, or both. The hall suddenly broke into urgent whispers as James and Lily made their way towards the Gryffindor table and their friends. Lily looked straight ahead trying to ignore everyone looking at her, but no matter how hard she couldn’t block out the whispers that followed her.

“I knew they would get together,” said one boy.

“WHY! I thought she hated him,” said another.

“Did you hear her parents were killed by You-Know-Who?” asked a Hufflepuff girl.

“I don’t know what he sees in her. He could do so much better. Like me!”

“Damn that Potter! How does he get all the girls? Even the ones who hate him!” said one frustrated boy from Ravenclaw who James knew liked Lily.

“Looks like she was let out of Azkaban early. Probably because she is Head Girl,”

“She always seemed so nice, I didn’t think she would turn evil,”

“I don’t know what Dumbledore thinks he is doing, letting a known Death Eater back to school,”

“WHY? WHY? WHY? Why did he pick her? She is a MUDBLOOD!” said a very angry looking Slytherin.

“It takes someone really evil to sell someone they know to Voldemort. I didn’t think Evans would do that,”

“I feel so sorry for her. Losing both her parents, it is so sad!”

Lily walked quickly to the Gryffindor table, gripping James hand more tightly with every comment. James had to let go of her hand and put his around her waist because he was afraid if this kept up she would break his fingers. When they reached the table, they sat down with their friends. Lily was trying hard not to cry after some of the things she had heard, but she wasn’t going to let them know they were getting to her. James was right, they were only saying this because they just wanted to find out what happened. The others, however, weren’t hiding their emotions as well as she was. James, Jo, Sirius and Remus looked like they would like nothing more than to jump up and hex everyone in the hall who had said anything. Peter seemed uneasy about the whole situation and didn’t say anything, but no one paid him any attention because he never really said much anyway.

James kept his hand firmly around Lily’s waist all through breakfast. Students around the group seemed to get the message from James, Sirius, Remus and Jo’s death glares not to say anything. Sirius tried to lighten the mood by telling jokes, which made Jo shout at him, so all through breakfast they listened to Jo and Sirius fight with each other.

“Oh come on Black, can’t you even stay quiet for two minutes?” Jo asked angrily.

“I have tried, but things just get so boring. I mean what is better than listening to me talk?”

“Let me see?” she said pulling a fake thoughtful face. “Being attacked by a herd of Grindylows, having potions all day-”

“Hey! That makes me think you don’t like being around me Plunkett!”

“You think? Anyway, I wasn’t finished, you interrupted me. What could be better? Being locked in a room with a dragon, being chased by a rampaging Hippogriff-”

“Ok, I get the point, but-”

“Being chased by ten bludgers without a broom. Pretty much anything is better than listening to you Black,” she said with a smirk.

“See Plunkett, you can’t get enough of me,” Sirius said happily.

“How thick are you? How did you get that from what I said?” she asked him wildly.

“You are denying you like me, so you are making up horrible things like this. I am really quite flattered,” he smiled.

“You are such an idiot Black! I do not like you! I never have and most certainly never will. You are an arrogant jerk who thinks he is so god-damn brilliant. How could you even think I had anything but bad feelings towards you Black? I HATE YOU! So just give up. Go off with whoever is the new girl-of-the-day because I am not interested. Just let me live in peace, and a peaceful life does not include you! Do you get it?”

Alice couldn’t help but laugh. Jo turned to her.

“What is so funny?”

“It’s just, I seem to remember having this exact same conversation with someone a month ago about someone she said she ‘hated’. And well, she is sitting beside him now with his arm around her,” Alice laughed.

“Exactly!” said Sirius. “You are just like Evans, so bloody stubborn and proud that you won’t admit you like me. Not that I ever thought you liked me Lily,” he said turning to Lily. “Prongs would have killed me if you did. I only wondered how you didn’t fall for my dazzling charms and dashing good looks. Why did you go for Prongs? Have you seen him?”

Everyone laughed at him. Jo however looked murderous but was saved from having to say anything because at that moment the post arrived and all talk was drowned out by the noise of hundreds of owls flying into the hall. Lily looked up and was surprised to see a beautiful snowy white owl flying towards her and landing on her shoulder. She removed the letter and offered the bird her rashers rinds, who took them gratefully and took off.

Lily looked down at her letter and opened it. She read through the letter shocked. Her face turned pale and her eyes filled with tears when she saw who it was from. With every word she read more tears rolled down her cheeks. James looked at her to see her pale face and tears running down it.

“Lils? What is wrong?” he asked worriedly. All he got was a sob in return as she finished the letter. She handed it to him with trembling hands. He took it and read:

Dear Lily,
I never got to see you after it happened so I am writing to tell you what I wanted to tell your face. I want you to know this is all your fault. You killed are parents Lily. If you weren’t a freak none of this would have happened. We would still have parents, and a home, and our belongings. All of this is your fault. I hope you feel really guilty for it.
The funeral was two days ago so don’t even bother writing to me asking when it is. I didn’t think you deserved to go and say goodbye to the parents you killed. I didn’t want you there so I didn’t tell you.
I hate you Lily. You destroyed our family. Our home. Our lives. You don’t deserve to be alive. What happened to “Being a witch will help me to protect you all”? You didn’t do a very good job did you? Decided to save yourself and leave our parents to die? I am disgusted with you Lily. I never want to hear from you ever again. You are no longer my sister or a member of the family you ruined. I have disowned you. Since mom and dad didn’t leave a will I have taken everything that was left. You are alone now. I hope you are happy about what you have done.
Vernon and I are getting married next week. You of course are not invited. I never wanted you there in the first place but mom insisted. But now she is not here to stop me and it is all your fault. I would never inflict you and your problems on my new family. They are too good for you. As am I. So never write to me again. Do not even think of coming anywhere near me because I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!


James threw the letter at the others so they could read it. He wrapped both of his arms around Lily and pulled her close to him. She slung tightly to him and continued to cry. “Damn that Petunia! How dare she say such things to Lily? She was finally starting to come around, she is going to be crushed by this. I could kill her! DAMN HER!” he thought bitterly.

Alice placed the letter back on the table after they had all read it. Alice’s eyes were swimming with tears and Remus looked like he too wanted to cry. Jo and Sirius looked ready to kill again. They all knew Petunia hated Lily being a witch and they didn’t get on well together, but none of them thought she would do something this cruel to her only sister. They were horribly mistaken. They all looked at Lily who was still crying silently, but had sat up so she didn’t attract any more stares from students.

“Don’t mind her Lils. She is so horrible to say that to you. It is awful,” said Alice quietly.

“I am going to kill her!” stated James, Sirius and Jo.

“But she is right,” Lily said. “If I wasn’t a witch they would still be alive. And she is right about how I couldn’t protect them. It is my fault,”

James turned Lily to face him. He had an angry look in his eyes. “Lily, you listen to me right now. This is NOT your fault! You have to believe that. I told you it wasn’t, so did Dumbledore, and my parents,”

“And us!” said Sirius, Remus, Jo and Alice together.

“Exactly. Lily you can’t let one selfish cow like her make you take the blame for what happened to your parents. Please don’t blame yourself. It won’t help. She just wants to have someone else to blame so she can feel better. She is putting all the blame on you because she doesn’t want to feel the pain you have had to feel,” James told her.

“Lily, you have been through twice as much as she has. She wasn’t there when it happened. Where was she? Out with her boyfriend. She didn’t see the fight you put up. She never saw how you risked your own life trying to save them. She just feels guilty because she wasn’t there to help, so she thinks by saying it is all your fault it will make her fell better. You cannot let her get to you!” Jo said reaching over to take her friends hand as she spoke.

“They are right Lily. You have to believe it is not your fault. There is nothing you could have done. You did everything you could do without getting yourself killed aswell. I am sure they are very proud of you,” Remus told her.

“But what am I going to do? Where am I going to live? I have no money. If it is true that she has taken everything, I have no where to go,” Lily said.

“Yes you do. You have us. You are coming to stay with me over the summer and Christmas. We could never leave you on your own. You will always have us, no matter what happens. We are your family Lils. The seven of us are in this together. None of us will betray you,” James said giving her a hug.

Peter had stayed quiet throughout the entire conversation but he looked up at this last comment. He felt terrible for what he had done and what he was doing at this minute.

Lily got up a few minutes later telling everyone she had to run to her room, she had forgotten her bag. Alice and Jo said they would go with her and meet the boys in class. So together the three girls walked out of the Great Hall, with more whispers following them, and up to the Head Dorms. Alice and Jo stayed to examine the common room while Lily went to get her bag out of her room.

When she entered her room she lay down on the bed for a minute thinking about the letter. She never thought Petunia would ever say anything like that to her. She was horrified that her only sister was blaming her for the death of their parents. She tried not to think about it, like James suggested, because whenever she did her eyes would fill with tears of anger and grief. “Could this day get any worse?” she asked herself. The answer to that question was on her bedside table. As Lily went to pick up her bag and leave the room, she noticed it. She walked back over to her bed and saw “Another letter? Who could it be from?”

She didn’t really want to open any more letters after the last one, but she didn’t think anything could top the one this morning. Maybe nothing could top it, but it could sure try. She picked up the letter and opened it to find not a letter from Dumbledore or something like that, but something that made Lily’s stomach drop for the second time that morning. She had been expecting a sympathy letter from a reader of the Daily Prophet, or one from someone thinking she had killed her parents. But whatever she had been expecting, it wasn’t this.

Lily Evans,
We are writing this letter as a warning. We saw you with a certain messy black haired boy this morning and we wanted to let you know: KEEP YOUR FILTHY MUDBLOOD HANDS OFF JAMES POTTER! He deserves someone better than you. Someone who will not bring pain and suffering to his life. Stay away from him if you now what is good for you. If you continue to go out with him you will be sorry. He needs someone better than you and we are making sure you let him. He has to move on, so don’t hold him back. This is your first warning. If you continue to lead James on we will be forced to take action. We will be watching you Evans, every step you take. You have been warned. If you are still together at the end of the week we will come and make you wish you never had the amazing pleasure of meeting James. So I suggest you leave him to people who can make him happy. If you don’t leave him we will take him from you!

Head of the J.P.F.C


P.S: Evans I have done this before on you and I can do it again. Don’t kid yourself thinking this is just a stupid love-sick student trying to frighten you. I mean it. Stay away from James or you will be sorry!

Lily looked at the letter again. Maybe dating James would be harder than she thought. Especially with his over obsessed fan club on the prowl.


Chapter 16: Chapter 16: Surprises
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Chapter 16: Surprises
Lily walked out of her room with her bag and the letter still clutched in her hand. Her friends looked at her when she came in.

“What is that? Did you actually keep that letter this morning?” Jo asked. Lily shook her head and handed the letter to her friends. They read it and Jo burst out laughing.

“Please don’t tell me that you are worried about what a group of over obsessive freaks are telling you are you?”

“I….well, no….not really,” Lily said.

“Lily, they are just idiots who think they are in love with James and hate the fact you are going out with him. They won’t do anything to you. James would kill them if they did!” Jo told her.

Alice was looking thoughtfully at the letter. “Do you know who K.C is?”

“No. Do you? I know J.P.F.C is the James Potter Fan Club but-”

“And how would you know Lily? Are you a member?” Jo asked her smiling. She clearly thought this whole thing was stupid.

“NO! What self respecting person would be in a Fan Club devoted to a student?” Lily asked.

“But you were a member last year and the year before, right? When you said you were going to ‘Prefect Duties’ you were really going to a meeting, weren’t you?”

“Jo shut up! Who would be a member of an obsessed Fan Club?” Lily asked her friend annoyed.

“Aine and Mairead from our dorm,” Alice said. “Mairead is apparently Head of the S.B.F.C and Aine is a member of the R.L.F.C.”

“There is a R.L.F.C.? Lily asked

“Yeah, all the Marauders have their own Fan Clubs. Well, James, Remus and Black all have one, I’m not so sure about Peter,” Jo said.

“Ohh! So it’s Black again is it? Following his Fan Club are you Jo? Looking to be a member?” Alice asked her friend with a sly smile. She knew Jo liked Sirius, even if it was against her better judgement. She loved being right about everything.

“I thought I made it clear at breakfast? I DO NOT LIKE BLACK! Why won’t you all believe me! He is an arrogant, self-obsessed jerk!” Jo shouted at her friends who fell onto the sofa laughing. They had wanted to laugh this morning but held it in because Jo would have killed them, but they couldn’t hold it anymore.

“You did make it clear Jo,” Alice said.

“Clear you like him!” Lily laughed.

“I do not like Black. Now lets change the subject before I jinx both of you! Lily, you are not to worry about that letter, do you hear me?” Jo said, still red from shouting and being accused again of liking Sirius.

“Both of them Lil. Neither of them should make you feel bad or uncomfortable. The Fan Club girls are just jealous that you are going out with James and Petunia is trying to saddle all the guilt on you so she doesn’t have to deal with it. So please don’t worry about them,” Alice said to her.

Lily nodded and the three girls left the Head Dorm and made their way to class.

“The only thing I was wondering was, how did Petunia get an owl to send you that letter?” Jo asked Lily.

“Oh, that. When I started Hogwarts we sent a letter to the Ministry saying that if any letters arrived in the Muggle post that were addressed to me would they be sent by owl to Hogwarts,” Lily explained. Seeing the confused looks on her friends’ faces she continued.

“The Ministry has people in Muggle post offices to look out for any mail for wizards in case anyone is trying to do anything illegal using Muggle post. So since my parents didn’t have an owl of their own they set up a system, with the help of Dumbledore, with the Ministry so that any letters they sent would be delivered to me by owl. Obviously Petunia just sent the letter by Muggle post and the Ministry sent it to me,” Lily told them. Alice and Jo nodded their heads to show they understood before entering the classroom. Lily sat with James in the middle of the class (Lily had refused to sit at the back and James said there was no way he would be caught dead at the top of the class, so the compromised and now they sat in the middle), Alice went off and sat with her boyfriend Frank, and Jo was left to sit with Sirius because Remus was sitting with Peter. She threw him an evil glare before sitting down beside him, slamming her bag on the table.

At the desk in front of her, Lily was having a silent fit of laughter, hoping her friend wouldn’t notice.

“What is so funny?” James asked her happily. He was glad she was getting back to herself and wasn’t worrying about the letter. He didn’t however know that Lily had received another letter and was worrying about them both, despite all her friends comments.

“Jo gave another lecture about how she thinks Sirius is a vain idiot when we were in our room,” Lily laughed.

“Like the ones you used to give about me?” he asked her mockingly.

“Yes, except she keeps it a bit more civil and doesn’t go on as long as I did. Hers are usually short and sharp. Mine were long and shouted at the top of my voice. I also threw in loads more insults. Like how you are an arrogant, self centered, big-headed, bullying toerag. I may have used more but I can’t remember. I will tell you if I can though!” she smiled at him.

“Then you realised I am the most handsome, intelligent, funny, talented guy you ever met and you couldn’t resist my charms!” James said.

“Not really, you have the characteristics right but Remus was taken so I had to take the second best!” Lily told him trying hard not to laugh at the look on his face. She loved when she out-witted him. It was so much fun to watch him struggle with what she had just said.

“MOONY! How could you even think like that? Choose him over….Wait, when was Moony taken?” James asked shocked.

“Moony has taken what? I told you not to poison my friends Evans!” Sirius said from behind them.

“I didn’t poison him!” Lily told him.

“Then what?”

“Apparently Padfoot, our little Moony has a girlfriend!” James told his friend. He was shocked that Remus hadn’t told any of them about this.


“Calm down Padfoot. Asking him, or killing him won’t help. We have to make him tell us. Force it out of him. I think another plan is needed here my dear friend,” James said quietly.

“Ohh! What did you have in mind Prongs?” asked Sirius but before James could answer Professor McGonnagall came in and he mimed to Sirius that he would tell him after class.

Professor McGonnagall walked to the top of the class and told them they would be revising human transformation. James grinned at this. Being an animagi, he had no problem with human transfiguration. “Then again,” he thought to himself. “I have no problem with any type of Transfiguration, or anything else for that matter,”

He turned to Lily and smiled charmingly at her. Since he didn’t need to pay attention (“When do you ever?” said a voice in his head) he was going to use this class to get Lily to tell him who Remus’ new girlfriend was. Sirius apparently had the same idea because at that moment a piece of parchment in the shape of an owl came flying at him and landed on the desk in front of him. He unfolded the owl (though it put up a fight, biting his fingers) and read the message Sirius wrote.

WHO IS SHE? Do you know? Force the answer out of Evans if you have to because I need to know! I can’t believe he kept something like this from us! Padfoot!
P.S. Do you like the owl? He is my new experiment!

James looked up from the note and laughed. Sirius loved to show off. He wrote back to him.

I don’t know who she is but I’m working on it. Prongs!
P.S. The owl was excellent, though a bit vicious. It kept biting my fingers when I tried to open it!

After he finished the owl reassembled itself and took off to Sirius. James turned his attention back to Lily who was trying to suppress a smile. She knew the boys were annoyed that Remus didn’t tell them about his new girlfriend and that she knew who it was. She looked at James who was smiling at her again.

“Shouldn’t you be paying attention instead of looking at me?” she asked him.

“How can I pay attention when you are sitting beside me?” he said continuing to smile.

“Thank you, but flattery will get you no where. If Remus hasn’t told you yet, that is his business. I am not going to betray his, or her trust in me,” she told him turning back to McGonnagall, still trying to hide a smile. But James was definitely going to give up that easily. He never did.

“So he told you he was seeing someone? You didn’t just find out by accident?”

“No, actually I introduced him to her. She told me ages ago she liked him so I decided to-”

“Play match-maker? Come on Lils, please tell me?” he asked her reaching for her hand.

“No. He will tell you when he wants to. And holding my hand or doing anything for that matter is not going to make me tell you,”

“Ms Evans? Mr Potter? Is there a problem?” Professor McGonnagall asked the two of them.

“No Professor,” said Lily

“Then please pay attention to the lesson at hand and not what is going on in your own lives,” McGonnagall told them before continuing telling the class about the complications of human transfiguration.

But even the teacher telling him to stop talking didn’t stop James. Lily received a note minutes later from him.

Please tell me who she is? We won’t tell anyone, we just want to know.

Lily looked at the note and rolled her eyes. “Yeah, like they won’t torment Remus for having a girlfriend,” she thought to herself. She wrote back to him.

NO! Did you ever think there was a reason he didn’t tell you about it? Quit pestering me about it, or I might have to re-think my decision to go out with you!

No you wouldn’t! I am irresistible, remember? You wouldn’t be able to leave me now! If you tell me I will repay you.
P.S. Do you know you roll your eyes too much? You do it at least four times a day!

I roll my eyes so often because I am with you. It is either roll my eyes or hit you. Do you want to try the other one for a while? And no matter what you do I am not going to tell you who Remus is going out with! So get over it and pay attention to class, you might learn something.

While James was reading the note from Lily, another arrived from Sirius. This time he had changed the shape to a snitch and it wouldn’t stay still long enough for James to open it. When he finally managed to grab it, he opened it and read the note inside.

Well? What did she say? Who is the mystery girl?

She won’t say. No matter what I do she won’t budge. What about you, did Jo tell you anything? James wrote on the back before it transformed back into a snitch and zoomed off. A few seconds later it returned in the shape of a bludger and hit James hard on the head.

If she told me anything do you think I would be asking you, you idiot? Anyway, what happened to The Potter Charm? The one you think no girl can resist? You have to get her to tell. Maybe you could get her to give you hints? JUST GET THE BLOODYY NAME! Padfoot!

James turned once again to Lily and wrote on a fresh piece of parchment:

Well if you can’t (or won’t) tell me out straight, could you give me a few hints. That way you aren’t breaking your promise to Mooney and I don’t get my head boxed in by Sirius. Please? Come on I am your boyfriend! It is your duty to tell me things!

One, you may be my boyfriend (at the moment) but that does not mean I have to tell you everything! And two, even if I gave you loads of hints you still wouldn’t get it, you don’t know her.

There is no girl in Hogwarts that Padfoot and I don’t know. Go on, just tell us if she is in Gryffindor.


Is that ‘no’ she isn’t in Gryffindor or ‘no’ you won’t tell us.

No she is not in Gryffindor, she is in Hufflepuff.

Ok, what year is she in?


Younger, that is ok. What colour hair does she have?

No, too much information. You have to do with that. Now let me, at least, get back to class.

Fine, fine, Ms Bossy. Anyway, if one of us doesn’t pay attention how will we know what homework we have?

Maybe you should give listening a try Potter, that way you wouldn’t have to depend on others to find out what is going on. You might actually LEARN something for once.

Hey! I already know everything so I don’t need to pay attention. I am brilliant, haven’t you noticed


That was harsh Evans. Ok we will leave you alone, for now.

James handed the last note to Lily before sending a new one to Sirius. Before sending it he looked at his friend who seemed to be having an argument with Jo. He laughed to himself trying to listen to what they were saying.

“For the last time Black, I DO NOT KNOW WHO SHE IS!! Ok, so drop it,” she whispered angrily to Sirius.

“Yes you do know. If Evans knows then so do you. Come on, if you tell me I will make it worth your while,”

“Black you are so….you’re so…,”

“Dashing?” Sirius asked her with a smile before she hit him over the head with her Transfiguration book. Sirius shut up quickly. James laughed and sent the note, but not before adding something.

Ok I got that she is a sixth year Hufflepuff but that is all Lily would tell me. She said we wouldn’t be able to guess who she was though. Any ideas?
P.S. What happened to The Black Charm? Jo seems pretty immune to it Padfoot!

Shut up Prongs! That girl is so stubborn! I have never met anyone like her before.

Sure you have, Lily! She is just as stubborn. Probably why they are friends, so they can make our lives difficult. But I thought you liked Jo, Padfoot?

I like ALL girls Prongs. I just hate when they act so stubborn, and smart, and conceited like they own Hogwarts.

Because that is your job, right Padfoot? Anyway, we are getting off topic. How are we going to get Mooney to tell us about this new girl?

What do you mean ‘new girl’? She is the FIRST girl for our Mooney. Ow! Our little Mooney is all grown up Prongs, it is so hard to watch him leave us. It only took him SEVEN YEARS! But I think a direct approach is best. What about you?

But if we just go and ask him straight out he will know Lily told us and he will get all angry at her. The last thing I need right now is my best friend angry at my over-tempered girlfriend. Maybe we should ask him little questions and try to get him to tell us?


James looked at his best friend trying to hold in his laughter. Sirius looked very indignant and was telling Jo who hit him on the head again. “God help Sirius. He will have his hands full with Plunkett, if he ever gets her. Not that I can talk, I have Lily. I love her and all, but that temper of hers can be quite scary sometimes,”

The bell rang a few minutes later and the class filed out of the classroom after McGonnagall had assigned them two rolls of parchment about the spells needed for human transfiguration and consequences if the spell is not preformed properly.

The seven friends left the class together and made their way down to the dungeons. James had his arm around Lily and was trying to get her to tell him who ‘She’ was but Lily still refused to say anything. Sirius decided to take matters into his own hands and ignore what James had said earlier about straight questions causing problems.

“So Moony, Evans tells us you have a new girl. Who is she?” Sirius asked his friend while avoiding three swipes at his head. “They have to think of something else besides hitting me on the head. What if they actually HURT me? Me good looks would be ruined!”

Remus went slightly pale at his question. He wasn’t sure how to answer it. He was going to tell his friends, he just wasn’t sure how they would react. He himself wasn’t entirely sure about the situation. He usually avoided relationships because he was afraid if they found out he was a werewolf they would run.

“Um….what….what did you say?” Remus asked shakily.

“I asked you who is your new girlfriend I have heard so much about from Evans?”

Lily wanted to kill Sirius. “Why can’t he keep his big mouth shut? I am going to kill him! And James!”

“Oh….um….that right, well…” Remus stuttered.

“Why didn’t you tell us about her Moony? We had to learn about it from Lily! That is bad,” said James. “Ow! What was that for Lil?”

“Just shut up Potter before I hurt you,” Lily told him.

“Yes dear,” James said hanging his head.

“Well Lily, I think you deserve an award. Someone has actually trained James Potter!” Jo said excitedly. Everyone laughed, including James who just put his head back up and his arm around Lily again.

“So Moony, tell us who she is. We are going no further until you tell us who she is. What happened to ‘Marauders don’t keep secrets from one another’?” Sirius asked again.

“Ok it is… is….Amelia Bones,” Remus said quietly. He looked up at everyone who were all smiling at him.

“Good on you mate. She is a nice girl, talked to her a few times during Prefect Meetings,” James said giving him a slap on the back.

“I told you you would like her Remus, and that no one would care,” Lily said smiling at him. Remus grinned back at his friends.

“Excuse me but he is not off the hook yet. He still kept it a secret from us. How long have you been going out for?” Sirius asked.

“Since Hogsmeade,” Remus told him.

“THAT WAS AGES AGO! I thought we didn’t keep secrets? None of us have any secrets. I have absolutely none what so ever!” Sirius said.

“Oh really? What about the fact that you really do like Jo? Isn’t that a secret?” Moony asked him, enjoying the look on his friends face.

“What? What do you mean?” asked Jo.

“We mean the fact that Padfoot here really does like you. More than anyone before. You should hear him go on. I thought I was bad,” James said laughing.

“Ok, Ok, so maybe you guys have a point. But it is no longer a secret,” Sirius said before walking over to Jo and kissing her, right there in the hall, surrounded by other students and members of the S.B.F.C. All of them were in shock form what they were seeing. Some girls broke down in tears, saying their hearts were broken.

Lily was jumping up and down and hugged Alice, before both fell to the floor with laughter.

“Ha! We told you! I knew you liked him!” Alice cried. But apparently Jo and Sirius couldn’t hear them, and if they could they weren’t listening.

"Well,” James thought happily. “A day at Hogwarts is always full of surprises, isn’t it?”

A/N: Ok i think you all saw that coming! Hehe! And with all the letters there between James and Lily, she wasn't really mad at him even though she was calling him Potter! they were just messing! just in case anyone thought they were fighting! Hope you all liked it and please review! Thank you! = )

Chapter 17: Chapter 17: A Hard Lesson
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Chapter 17: A Hard Lesson

The next day passed quickly. Sirius and Jo had been branded one of the best couples Hogwarts had ever seen and neither was ever seen without the other anymore. Remus introduced Amelia to everyone. Sirius realised he had dated for a short time during third year, but thought better of mentioning it to Remus as he was afraid he might kill him.

Not everything that was going on however was good. Over the last few days Lily had been receiving more and more letters like the first one from girls who wanted her to break up with James. She tried not to worry about them but as they came more frequent and more threatening, she began to wonder what would happen. She arrived back in her dormitory after dinner and saw more letters lying on her bed. A small part of her told her to just throw them away, but the much larger part told her to read them. She opened the first one and read it to herself.

Lily Evans,
You have obviously not been taking these warnings seriously. We have been watching you everyday and you seem to still be with James Potter. For the last time LEAVE HIM ALONE! YOU DO NOT DESERVE HIM! If you do not break up with him by tomorrow night you will be sorry. Consider this your final warning.

Head of J.P.F.C.


Lily sighed when she read it. “Of course,” she thought to herself. “The fan club are still after me,” Not all of the letters had been formal ones like this from the Head of the Club, some of them had been from normal students. She picked up the next letter and read it too.



Lily couldn’t read any more. She knew they were all the same, threats, saying she wasn’t good enough for James, telling her to break up with him. She hated getting the letters. She thought a few times about telling James about them, but she wasn’t sure how he would react. She jumped when she heard him at the door.

“Hey Lils! Are you ready?” he asked her.

“For what?” she asked distractedly.

“Rounds. We have to go in a few minutes. Do you want to stop by the Gryffindor common room before we go?” he asked looking at her, worrying slightly about her.

“Oh, yeah sure. Let’s go,” she said getting up and taking his hand before half dragging him out of the room.

“Lily? Is everything ok?”

“Yeah, what would be wrong?” she asked him, though her voice rose a little bit.

“I don’t know? You just seem a bit distracted. Are you feeling ok?” he persisted.

“Yes James, I am fine. I am just a bit tired. I haven’t gotten much sleep this week and it must be catching up on me,” Lily told him yawning. She really was tired, but it had been an excuse to distract James from what was really wrong.

“Do you want to stay in the common room while I do rounds then?” James asked her.

Lily smiled at him. “No, it is ok. I will be fine,” she said though she yawned again. Between thinking about her parents, coming back to school, Petunia’s letter and the threatening letters she was lucky if she was getting even two hours sleep a night.

“Lily you are exhausted. You look like you are about to collapse. You take a break and I will do the rounds myself,” James insisted before they entered the common room. They looked around and saw all their friends sitting together. Sirius and Jo were sharing a seat and didn’t seem to notice two more people had entered the room. Remus and Alice were sitting on the ground doing homework. Peter was no where to be found but James didn’t put much pass on that.

“How long have they been like that?” James asked looking at Sirius and Jo.

“They haven’t stopped since we got here. AND THAT WAS AN HOUR AGO! It is disgusting!” Alice said throwing the couple a revolted look. Lily, James and Remus laughed.

“I thought you were all for this relationship Alice? What happened?” Lily asked her friend grinning at her.

“I am! I just don’t see why they can’t do that privately instead of in front of me. I don’t really need to see it THANK YOU VERY MUCH!” she said raising her voice so Sirius and Jo broke apart and looked at their friends for the first time.

“Prongs mate! When did you get here?” Sirius asked smiling.

“About five minutes ago but you seemed to be too busy to notice!” James said smiling.

“You can’t talk, look at what I had to watch at when you and Evans first started!” Sirius said to him. James looked like he wanted to retaliate but Alice interrupted him.

“Ok, I just had to watch this for the last hour, do you HAVE to discuss it now?” she asked them. “I think we should change the subject. Like asking James and Lily why they are here?” She added looking at the two of them.

“We were going to go do rounds but we decided to come and see you all first,” Lily told them.

“But now the plan has changed. I am going to go and do rounds and Lily is going to stay here with all of you. So take care of her. If I come back and anything is wrong with her I will kill you all, ok? Good, I will be back in about an hour,” James said before kissing Lily and leaving to common room.

“Why aren’t you going Lily?” Remus asked her.

“I was really tired and James said I should take a break,” Lily said with a shrug, but was grateful to James for letting her stay. She really was tired.

“Oh, ok,” Alice said.

“What is wrong?” asked Lily.

“Nothing, I just thought you two were going to use rounds to, you know, be alone,” Alice said trying to hide a smile. “But if you are tired I’m sure James understands,”

Lily smiled at her friend. “Maybe I should go with him. It is after all my responsibility and he shouldn’t have to do it alone. Besides, I’m not really that tired,” she said before jumping up and leaving the common room to find James.


“Ok, this meeting has officially begun,” said a voice. “The emergency meeting of the J.P.F.C. is called to order.” Silence fell in the room. “It has been made clear to me that the letters that we have sent have not had any effect. Evans still feels the need to continue going out with James,” continued the voice.

“It is terrible!” said an angry voice.

“How dare she?” said another.

“I love James!” came a dreamy voice from the back. Outbursts like that were obviously common because no one paid any attention to it.

“Yes it is, and it will be stopped. I think it is time we take some action against our little red head,” said the voice from the front.

“Ohh! What kind of action? Do I finally get to hit her?” asked the voice that had spoken earlier.

“No, I don’t think we should harm her, yet. I do however have something else in mind,”

“Aw! I wanted her to get hurt, even a little. She broke my heart and you are letting her get away with it?” came a new voice.

“No, Evans will pay. But I think this will hurt her more than anything we could ever do,” said the voice again laughing an evil laugh and was soon joined by every girl in the room.


James walked down the silent halls by himself. “This is so boring without Lily,” he thought bitterly while checking class rooms, cupboards and corners for students. He was about to head back to the common room when he heard a noise behind him. “Maybe Lily decided to come?” But he turned to see not Lily, but someone unexpected behind him.

“Chang? What are you doing out? It's after curfew,” he asked her suspiciously.

“Well one of the Ravenclaw prefects was feeling sick so I offered to do her rounds for her,” she told him smiling.

“Oh,” was all James could say, before continuing to walk down the corridor. But Chang wasn’t finished.

“Where is Lily? You two haven’t broken up have you?” she asked him.

“No Lily and I are still going out, she just wasn’t feeling well tonight so I told her to stay,” he told her.

“Oh, that is too bad,” Chang said moving closer to James. “Because I really like you James. Really, really like you,” she continued with a charming smile. James took a step backwards away from her but she just stepped forward again.

“Oh….em….thank you,” James said. She was much too close.

“I don’t think you get it James, I REALLY like you,” she said before taking the last step towards him and kissing him hard on the lips. James tried to push her off put when he stepped back to try and get away he felt his back hit the stone wall.

“OH MY GOD!” shouted a voice from the end of the hall. James blood went cold. He knew that voice anywhere.

“Lily!” he shouted trying to push Chang away.


James summoned all his strength and pushed Chang away from him. She had a satisfied smirk on her face. James pushed her away and ran down the hall after Lily.

“It is too late James. She is gone. You are better off without her!” Chang shouted but he didn’t pay any attention. She however was happy. She had successfully broken the two of them up. “Step one: Complete!” she thought.


Lily walked swiftly down the corridor looking out for James. She laughed to herself thinking of what Alice had said and imagining how disappointed James was she didn’t go with him. She smiled and continued to look for him.

She turned down the Transfiguration corridor and stopped dead in her tracks. She had found James, but he wasn’t alone. She looked at him kissing Chang and wanted to be sick. She couldn’t believe it, she wouldn’t. But then she realised something. “It was CHANG sending those letters!”

“OH MY GOD!” she shouted. She didn’t wait to see what happened next. She shouted at James to stay away from her and then ran as fast as she could back down the corridor but her thoughts were going just as fast.

“Oh no, not again! How could he do this to me? I guess this is why he was so insistent that I stay behind. I wonder how long this has been going on? That evil b***h! I can’t believe I ever gave that evil, conceited, arrogant, big-headed, self-centered, show off, cheating jerk a chance! What was wrong with me? He hasn’t changed one bit. Everything he said, everything he has done, it was all a lie. I can’t believe I thought he actually meant it. Why did I think he had changed? I KNEW this was going to happen! He only wanted me because I was a challenge and used the time when I was most venerable to do it! I can’t believe him!” All these thoughts came rushing at Lily as she ran and tears of anger and heartache came streaming down her cheeks. When she reached the Fat Lady she cried out the password before running inside, tripping on the hem of her robes.

When her friends saw her they all jumped up, even Sirius and Jo. They were all shocked to see the tears running down Lily’s cheeks.

“Lily, what is wrong?” Alice asked worriedly.

“I everything ok?” asked Remus

“What happened?” Jo asked her friend.

“Is James ok?” asked Sirius. They were all wondering what was wrong. Lily who was running towards the staircase stopped at Sirius’ question.

“NEVER mention that name to me EVER AGAIN!” she shouted before turning back and running up the stairs. They all heard the door of the girls room slam shut with great force.

“What the bloody hell was that about?” Sirius asked turning to face the rest of them who looked just as confused as he felt.

“I have no idea but I am going to get an answer out of James as soon as he comes in. Something big obviously happened,” Jo said.

“Well thank you for pointing out the obvious darling,” Sirius said sarcastically but not with his usual cocky smirk. He knew something had gone wrong between the two of them. Jo was about to say something but James burst into the common room at that moment.

“Where……is………Lily?” he panted.

“She is upstairs. She came running in crying and ran up to her room before telling us what happened,” Jo said. “What the hell did you do Potter?”

“I did nothing. Lily came down the Transfiguration corridor and got the wrong idea,” James said sitting down. He put his head into his hands and sighed.

“What were you doing that she ‘got the wrong idea’?” asked Remus. “Tell us what happened Prongs,”

“Ok. Well, I was doing rounds and I was walking along the Transfiguration corridor and Katie Chang came up to me,” James started.

“Oh no!” said Jo and Alice together. They knew where this was going.

“She came up to me and told me she was covering for a Ravenclaw prefect that was sick. Then she started coming closer to me and telling me how much she liked me. Then….Then she kissed me,” James said putting his head back into his hands.

“Did Lily see?” Remus asked.

“Yeah, she was at the end of the corridor. I heard her shouting and I ran after her. What am I going to do guys? She said she never wants to see me again!” James asked his friends with tears in his eyes.

“Well, Prongs mate, it kind of looked to Lily that you were cheating on her. She isn’t likely to be very happy about that,” Sirius said but Jo hit him hard on the shoulder to get him to shut up.

“But he's right! Lily thinks I am cheating on her with Chang! She hates me now! What am I going to do?” he pleaded. Alice looked at him sadly. No matter what anyone said to Lily it was going to be hard to convince her that James was not cheating on her. She could be very stubborn even when it was obvious James loved her.

“Oh James! I don’t know what you are going to do. You are going to have to talk to her. But maybe you should leave it for a day. She is pretty upset right now if how she came in is any indication,” Alice told him.

“I am such an idiot. I backed myself against the wall and I couldn’t get her away. I don’t want Lily to be upset. I have to tell her what happened,” James said starting to get up but Remus placed a firm hand on his shoulder, forcing him back to his seat.

“No James. Alice is right. Lily needs a bit of time to think about it first. If you go up to her now she will just shout at you and it will take even longer to get her to forgive you,” he said to James who looked completely devastated about what had happened.

Jo was looking thoughtfully at the wall, trying to piece everything that had happened. Then something in her head clicked and it all made sense.

“Katie Chang! That evil witch! She sent them! Alice, Chang sent those letters to Lily!” she shouted before going into a long list of curses describing Chang.

“Of course! K.C, Katie Chang! I did this to you before and I can do it again, she stole Robert from Lily and now she wants to do the same with James! Why didn’t we think of this before, it is so obvious?” Alice cried.

“What letters?” asked James, Sirius and Remus.

“Lily has been receiving threatening letters from your Fan Club all week telling her she was to stop going out with you or else,” Jo explained very fast.

“Why didn’t she tell me?” James asked outraged, standing up.

“She thought you would make a big deal out of it. She said she wasn’t worrying about them but she has been getting loads more over the last two days and they are clearly upsetting her,” Alice told him.

“Of course I would have made a big deal about it! No one threatens my girlfriend!” shouted James, but then realization set in. “But now, because of all this, she isn’t my girlfriend anymore,” James said quietly resuming his seat.

“It is ok James, we will fix it. We’ll tell Lily what happened. Everything is going to be fine,” Jo told him reassuringly. But James seemed to have made his mind up.

“No. No, everything isn’t going to be alright. She’s been through so much this year already. Between losing her parents and her sister blaming her, she doesn’t need this. If dating me is causing her so much pain, it would be best if we just stopped seeing each other. For good,” James said.

Everyone sat in their seats in complete shock. Sirius was the first one to speak.

“Prongs mate, you can’t give up. This is Lily! You have never given up on her before. Why start now?” he said.

“He is right James. Lily loves you. You are what got her through her parent’s deaths. You are the one who has made her happier than she has ever been before, even with what happened at Halloween. Don’t give up hope James, you need each other,” Alice told him with tears rolling softly down her cheeks.

“But it is causing her so much pain being with me. She is barely with me two weeks and already she has received threatening letters and had her heart broken. I want her to be happy and I have finally realised that I am not the one who can give her that. She deserves someone who can love her, make her happy and laugh and not bring any pain to her life. And that person is not me,” James said sadly before getting up and starting towards the portrait hole with one last look at the staircase where he knew the one and only love of his life was crying over him. As he turned once again to leave he felt a sharp pain in his heart as he knew he was walking away from the only woman he would ever love. “Goodbye Lily. I love you,” he thought to himself before walking out of the common room with tears streaming down his pale face.

A/N: Awww! We are two very stubborn teenagers here! Please tell me what you thought and please tell me if you didn't like it or if you did either! I personally don't really like this chapter it seems pretty dramatic and i couldn't get it to work!! Please tell me honestly what you think? Thank you! = )

Chapter 18: Chapter 18: Against the Odds
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Chapter 18: Against the Odds

The next few days were hard on the entire group. James and Lily didn’t say a word to each other all weekend and they avoided any room the other was in. This made things difficult for Sirius, Remus, Jo and Alice because they had to divide their time between James and Lily.

Early on Sunday morning Jo and Alice were sitting in the common room talking about what happened and what they should do.

“Jo we have to do something. I can’t stand to see them like this anymore,” Alice said sadly. She hated seeing the sad and pained look in her friend’s eyes all the time.

“I know, but Lily won’t listen to anything we say to her. She just stormed out on us yesterday,” Jo said.

“That could be because James walked in,” Alice reminded her.

“That’s true. We have to get her to believe that James had nothing to do with what she saw, that it wasn’t his fault. If she doesn’t we have no hope of getting them back together,” Jo said.

“But what about James? He thinks Lily being with him is causing her too much pain. He said he has to give up,” Alice said sadly looking at her friend. She was counting on Jo to think of something, she always had an idea.

“Well, I think the first thing we have to do is get Lily to understand what really happened. If we can do that she can show James that she really does want to be with him and he does make her happy,” said Jo thoughtfully.

Alice nodded. “Should we go and talk to her again?” she asked.

“Yeah, she is sure to be up. She is always up early on a Sunday,” Jo said before getting up to leave but she stopped when she heard someone call her.

“Jo darling, what are you doing up at this early hour?” Sirius asked walking over to her and putting his arm around her shoulder. “Did you miss me so much you couldn’t sleep?” Jo reached up and hit him on the head, something she did too many times a day according to Sirius.

“I could ask you the same question,” she told him.

“Well Moony and I,” he said turning to Remus who had appeared at the bottom of the stairs. “We were coming down to discuss Prongs and we heard you two talking about just that. So we sat on the stairs listening to what you were thinking.”

Jo hit him again. “Why didn’t you just come down? We could do with your help.”

“Everyone could do with our help,” Sirius told her with a smile before jumping out of her reach so she couldn’t hit him again.

“We’re sorry about that, but we wanted to know what you really thought of the situation, not what we all think together. You seem to be thinking along the same lines as us though. We think it would be best to talk to Lily first and get her to believe us before we can do anything else aswell,” Remus told them.

"That's a lot of thinking for you!" Jo said quietly but Sirius caught it.

“We were just about to go and talk to her,” Alice said. “Maybe it would be better if we all went, that way she would know that you agree with us that it is not James fault?”

Remus nodded and the four of them left the common room. Sirius walked with his arm over Jo’s shoulder. He was exhausted; he never got up this early on the weekends. “The things you do for your friends! They better appreciate this,”

Lily woke up and turned over to look at her clock. 7:30, she groaned. She usually woke up early on the weekends but not this early. She swung her legs over the edge of her bed and sat up. Before she got up she noticed a note on her table. She reached for it and opened it slowly; afraid of what might be inside.

Lily Evans,
I warned you to stay away from him Evans, that he was mine. But no, you had to be stubborn. I told you you don’t deserve him and I am right. He needs someone who won’t bring him all the pain and sadness that you did. And that person is me! Maybe you saw us last night after he realised it? So stay away Evans, you are never to go anywhere near him again because if you do you will have to answer to me.



Lily threw the letter at the wall in frustration. Why should she care that he had a new girlfriend? Why would she be upset that Katie Chang had once again stolen her boyfriend? Why should it bother her that he never told her he didn’t want to see her anymore? Why should she care about what he did? But she did. She did care that James had a new girlfriend. She was upset that she had lost James to Chang. It did bother her that James had never told her that he didn’t want to see her anymore. She was so upset and frustrated about the situation. She looked around her room. She had stayed in the Head’s Room because James had moved back to Gryffindor Tower. But now she wished she had done it first because too many things about this room reminded her of him. She remembered the way he used to lean against the door and smile at her before he came in, how he told her so many times before she went to sleep that he loved her, all the times they sat on the common room sofa together talking and laughing, how he held her close when she was upset or anything went wrong, how he told her he would never leave her, that he would love her forever. She picked up a picture of the two of them that Sirius had taken of them at James house a few weeks before.

“Well it looks like you never really meant it James, did you? You swore you would never leave me or hurt me, didn’t you? But now you have. It is all my fault though. I should never have agreed to this in the first place. I knew you would never change. You are still an arrogant, conceited, big headed, self-centered, bullying, show-off, cheating JERK!” Lily shouted at the picture. She had too many emotions bottled up over the last month and they finally blew. Even with tears started to run down her cheeks she continued to shout. It had all become too much for her to hold in.

“Why did I ever think you had changed? You only wanted me because I was a challenge to you. But I was an idiot and thought you really had changed, that you really did love me. Even though we had only been going out two weeks I thought we had something special, that we would be together forever. Those two weeks were the happiest in my life. Except that you had other plans didn’t you? All you wanted was to prove you could get any girl you wanted. You never really loved me. You used my weakest moment to make your final move. I was so upset and alone that I actually believed that what you said was true. But it looks like you are still the same James Potter. You can’t love,” she cried dropping the picture on the floor where the glass frame shattered in a million pieces. “Just like my heart,” she thought to herself.

“That is not true,” said a deep voice from the door. Lily didn’t have to look up to know who it was, she knew his voice.

“Go away Potter, I don’t want to talk to you,” she said quietly

“Please Lily, I need-”

“DON’T CALL ME LILY!” she shouted at him. She still sat with her back to him. She didn’t want to face him.

James looked at her sadly. He hated seeing her upset. Over the last three days he tried to push Lily out of his mind. He wanted her to move on, to find someone else and forget him, but he couldn’t forget her. He had wanted her to go so she would be happy, except she wasn’t, and neither was he. He missed her being around. He missed her laugh, her smile, the feeling of her hand in his. She just wouldn’t leave his thoughts. No matter how hard he tried he couldn’t do it. He loved her and he didn’t want to let go. He tried to, he really did, but he couldn’t. He needed her. He wasn’t the same without her. Even before they had started going out she was always there, in his thoughts and right in front of him. He couldn’t bare the thought of losing her, yet she seemed to hate him. He had come to explain to her what had happened, even if she still didn’t want him, he needed her to know he loved her. He thought back to what Sirius had said the night it happened.

“Well, Prongs mate, it kind of looked to Lily that you were cheating on her. She isn’t likely to be very happy about that,”

He was right. He couldn’t live with himself if Lily thought for the rest of her life that she had cheated on her. He had to tell her the truth, and then see what happened after.

“Lily, please. You have to listen to me,” James said moving slowly into the room.

“No I don’t. I don’t need to hear your gloating Potter. Just leave me alone,” she told him.

“I’m not here to gloat Lily. I’m here to tell you what really happened. Please just look at me?” he asked sitting in the chair at her desk.

She turned slowly and looked at him with a mixture of anger, pain, frustration and sadness in her eyes. “I know what happened Potter. I saw it,”

“No, you jumped to conclusions. You didn’t wait for me to explain,” he told her.

“So you are here to make up excuses to try and get me to come back to you like an idiot?” she asked him angrily.

“No Lily. I already told you that I need to tell you what really happened.” He took a deep breath before continuing. “I was walking down the Transfiguration corridor when Chang came up behind me,” he said Chang’s name with disgust in his voice. “I asked her what she was doing out of her room and she said she was taking over for a sick prefect. I said ok and started to walk on but she stopped me and asked where you were and if we had broken up. I told her no and she said she was disappointed because she really liked me. She came really close and I told her get away but she just came closer. Then she….then she kissed me, just as you came around the corner. I heard you shouting and I pushed Chang off me but you had already run off. When I got back to the common room Alice told me you had gone upstairs and that it would be best if I gave you some time,” James said quite fast. He looked at Lily but she wasn’t looking at him. Instead she was staring out the window.

“You have to believe me Lily,” he said.

“Why? Why should I believe you?” she asked him still staring determinately out the window.

James looked at her stunned. “Why wouldn’t you believe me Lily? Alice and Jo told me about the letters you were getting from Chang, why would I leave you for someone like her?”

“I don’t know. I got another letter this morning saying she was your new girlfriend,” Lily told him quietly.

“So you are going to believe HER? Don’t you trust me Lils?” he asked but regretted it seeing the look that came over her face. “You idiot Potter! Of course she doesn’t trust you! She just found you making out with another girl!” said the incredibly annoying voice in his head.

“Why should I trust you Potter? You told me you would never leave me, but you did. You said you would never hurt me, but you did that too. You told me you would always love me, but you never did. You are still the arrogant, heartless jerk you always were,” Lily shouted at him.

“That is not true Lily. I do love you, I always have. I didn’t mean to hurt you, it was a misunderstanding. I don’t want to leave you. I love you more than anything else in the world. How could you even think like that? Can you not remember these last two weeks?” he asked her standing up and looking down at her.

“Do you not remember every night how I would hold you as you cried? How we would sit together for hours on a chair talking? How I stayed with you every moment after Halloween to make sure you were ok? Does that sound like someone who doesn’t love you? Would someone who didn’t love you do anything for you? I would Lily, and have,” he told her.

Lily looked down at her bed. Her eyes filled with tears again. She loved James, but she didn’t want to get hurt again. She still wasn’t sure if what he had said was true, even though Alice and Jo both told her that was what happened aswell.

“But why James? Why do you love me? Look at everything you have had to deal with because of me? Why do you think you love someone like me? You could have any girl you want, why me?” Lily asked him.

“I don’t know how to answer that Lily. I don’t know why I love you. Maybe it is your intelligence, or your humour, your smile, your caring or maybe it even started because you were the first girl who ever said no to me? Or it could be all of them, or even something completely different. The only thing I do know is that I love you,” he said sitting down beside her.

“How can you be so sure? We are only seventeen. How do you know that you won’t fall in love with someone else?” she asked him.


Lily looked at him with tears still in her eyes. “Don’t you get it Lily? I can’t explain why I love you, I just do. I know that you are the one for me, that there is no one else. I have chased you for seven years and never gave up. Everyone thought it was a phase, that I would get over you, but I knew it wasn’t. Even at eleven I knew I loved you. But I need you to tell me you feel the same Lily,” he told her.

“But James, look at everything we have been through and it has only been two weeks. Is it really worth it?” she asked him.

James looked at her exasperatedly. “No one said love was easy Lily. Everyone has to go through things. Maybe we had more to pull through more than anyone else but we got there didn’t we? Are you going to let one jealous girl ruin what we had and could have? I would do anything for you Lily. I would give my life if it was to keep you from harm. And you are worth all of it Lily. If we gave up at every obstacle that came our way we would never have gotten this far. Maybe we didn’t have a good start, but that doesn’t mean we can’t have a happy ending,” he told her. He sat back down beside her and turned her to face him. He reached up and wiped her tears away. “But you have to believe that Lily. You have to want to get through it for it to work,”

Lily looked into his hazel eyes that were filled with determination, pain, sadness, but most importantly love. She saw that love shine brighter than ever before as she looked at him. “Do you want it to work Lily? Do you love me?” he asked her quietly.

“Ye-Yes James, I do love you. I love you more than anything in my whole life,” she told him, fresh tears running down her cheeks.

“Then why are you fighting it? Why are trying to hurt yourself?” he asked.

“I….I don’t know James. Everything has just happened so fast. I mean my parents die and the next day I start going out with you. Then I came back to Hogwarts to have everyone whispering about me and getting those threatening letters. Then I break up with you over all of it. I didn’t want to get hurt anymore James. I forced myself to believe what I saw was true instead of talking to you. I just wanted to escape from it all. I thought that by leaving you, I don’t know, I could leave it all behind. But I never realised how much I needed you until you weren’t there anymore. You were the only thing that kept me going through everything this year, and I repay you by breaking up with you? I was just so confused and upset and stressed that I took it out on you. I am so sorry James,” she cried.

He reached out his arms and wrapped her in a hug. “It is ok Lils,” he said into her hair. “You have been through so much already this year. I can’t imagine how you are feeling. But you need to know that I love you and will always be here for you, no matter what happens,”

“I do James. I am so sorry for all those horrible things I said about you, I didn’t really mean them, I was just confused,”

James laughed. “Don’t worry Lils, I know you don’t really think I am a heartless arrogant git or whatever you called me earlier,”

“Actually, it was an arrogant, heartless jerk,” she smiled at him.

He laughed again and bent his head down until his lips met hers. He had no idea how long they sat there, and he didn’t care. He was just happy things had worked out.

Outside the room, four people were leaning against the door after listening to James and Lily’s conversation.

“Well Padfoot, looks like you owe me those ten galleons,” Remus said happily. “I told you Prongs could do it without our help,”

Sirius looked very disgruntled when Remus said this. Jo looked at him questioningly.

“What? Moony and I placed a bet about how they would get back together. I said we would have to talk to them and get them thinking straight again,” Sirius told her.

“And I said James would realise that he and Lily are meant for each other and he would talk to her. So it looks like I was right,” Remus grinned.

“Yeah, yeah Moony. But I am kind of glad you won,” Sirius said. Everyone looked at him shocked. Sirius hated to lose.

“What? It means they can sort out their own problems and won’t be coming looking for me everytime they have an argument,” he explained. They all laughed at him.

“You know what Padfoot? You’re right. I think they will be fine on their own,” Remus said smiling. “Looks like Prongs has finally grown up,”

“Damn him,” Sirius said but laughed. “Why did he have to go and do that?”

They all laughed again before heading back to Gryffindor Tower.

A/N: I think there was too much mush and fluff in that! Ok i really need reviews people! Thanks so so so much to everyone who has reviewed! even if its only two words just to let me know! Please? Thanks for reading! Hope you liked it! = )

Chapter 19: Chapter 19: Marauder's Revenge
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Chapter 19: Marauder’s Revenge

Lily went down to the Great Hall for breakfast the next morning to find James already there. He was sitting in the middle of the Gryffindor table with Sirius, Remus and Peter and they seemed to be in the middle of a very important conversation because they were all leaning in together and whispering in hushed tones.

She made her way towards them smiling happily. She and James had talked last night and agreed to forget about what happened. When she reached the table she went to sit on James right but he stopped her.

“No Lils, don’t sit there,” he said putting out his arm to stop her from sitting.

“Why not?” she asked him confused.

“I think it would be…um…healthier, if you sat on his other side,” Sirius said with a smirk.

So Lily sat on James left side and looked at the boys who were all grinning widely. “Ok, what is going on? What are you up to?” she asked them. The Marauders continued to smile but were pretending to be innocent.

“What would we be doing?” Remus asked trying to conceal his grin.

“We are completely innocent!” James insisted trying really hard not to laugh.

“I am shocked you would even think we were up to something!” exclaimed Sirius.

“Absolutely nothing,” said Peter shaking with laughter.

Lily rolled her eyes. “Oh sure, I believe you. You all look completely innocent,” she said sarcastically.

The four boys burst out laughing as Jo and Alice came into the Great Hall and sat down with them.

“What is so funny?” Alice asked.

“That is what I am trying to find out,” Lily told them before turning to glare at James again. “Now tell me what the hell is going on!”

James just smiled innocently at her. “Nothing is going on. I would never lie to you Lilykins,”

Lily hit him over the head. “I just found so many things wrong with that statement,” she said. “One, I know damn well that you four are up to something, you always are. Two, you ARE lying to me. And three, DON’T CALL ME LILYKINS! It sounds so stupid,” she told him hitting him on the head again.

“No it doesn’t sound stupid, I think it sounds sweet,” James said with a smirk.

“And I think it would be sweet to hex you if you ever call me that again,” she said smiling at him. “So for the last time, what are you up to?”

“Just watch and learn Flower, watch and learn,” Sirius said. He had noticed who had just walked into the Hall and was making her way towards.

“Morning James,” said a voice behind them. Lily turned and saw Katie Chang standing behind them smiling happily. Lily’s face turned red and she clenched her fists in anger. “What the hell is SHE doing here?”

“Morning Katie,” said James with a smile as Katie sat down beside him. Lily’s mouth fell open in shock. She went to say something but Sirius kicked her under the table and gave her a look that told her to shut up. Lily shut her mouth but kept looking daggers at Chang who was looking at James in an adoring way and sitting too close to James for Lily’s liking.

“So James,” Katie said smiling at him. “Do you want to do something together later?” By the way she said ‘something’ Lily had a feeling she wanted to sneak off to an empty classroom. Lily was disgusted, but more by the fact that James was still smiling. “I can’t believe her! How dare she? And him! If he doesn’t wipe that stupid smile off his face I am going to painfully force it off,” Lily thought angrily. But then she noticed something strange going on with Chang and tried really hard to keep a straight face. Others in the Hall seemed to notice what was happening as they started to whisper and point at her but Chang didn’t notice because she was still talking to James.

“We could go for a walk around the lake?” she suggested when he didn’t give her any answer to her other questions.

James looked at her with his usual charming smile. “We could. Or we could sit here and look at the fascinating colours you are turning,” he said.

Katie looked completely confused. She looked at her robes to see they were changing colour. She jumped out of her seat with a shriek. At the minute her robes were a very bright yellow that could blind you, her hair had changed from a sleek black to a bright pink and her skin had turned red. She screamed again when she noticed that her robes were not the only things changing colour. Everyone in the Hall looked at her and burst out laughing.

Chang turned to James who was nearly falling off his seat. “James get this off me!” she shouted at him. James’ eyes were filled with tears of laughter.

“I’m afraid I can’t to that Chang. It is permanent!” he told her through fits of laughter. Katie screamed again and looked at her robes that were now violent shade of orange with different things written across them in green.

“Marauders Rule!”

“Chang Is A Loser!”

“Evans Is No. 1”

Lily looked at her crying with laughter. “This is perfect!” she thought. If there was one thing Katie Chang couldn’t stand it was being completely humiliated in front of the whole school, and this definitely qualified in that category. Katie always felt she had to look perfect and have everything she was wearing matching, and well, orange and pink? Lily couldn’t think of how James had come up with this plan, it wasn’t something he would normally do. The whole school was laughing at Katie who was standing in the middle of the Hall. She was trying to move but she couldn’t, something was stopping her.

“James, aren’t you going to do something?” she asked him angrily. She clearly couldn’t see ‘Marauders Strike Again!’ written on her back and thought someone else had done this. She definitely didn’t hear what James had told her earlier.

James looked up at her smiling and wiping his eyes that were still watering from laughing so much. “Why would I go through all the trouble of setting this up just to stop it?”

Katie looked at him outraged. “You mean YOU did this to me?” she shouted.

“Yep!” James said.

You should be honoured, you had all four Marauders pull a prank on you. That doesn’t happen to very many people. This is something you should remember forever!” Sirius said though he was still leaning on Remus for support after laughing so much.

“WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME?” she shouted at him, drawing even more attention to herself.

“It is quite simple actually. You see, I don’t like it when people sent my girlfriend threatening letters. And I REALLY don’t like it when someone kisses me trying to get me to break up with my girlfriend. So you see you did both of these things and well, we couldn’t let you get away with it,” James told her.

Katie turned to Lily glaring angrily at her. “This is all YOUR fault. I told you to leave him to me but you are too stupid to take a hint!” she shouted at angrily at Lily. Lily just looked back at her with equal hatred, but couldn’t help but laugh as Katie’s skin turned blue with pink spots. Katie looked at her hands and screamed again.

James stood up and glared fiercely at Katie. “Well let’s hope you take your warning more seriously then. You are never to come near us again and don’t even think of sending anything to Lily because you will regret it. This was only a little tester of what we could do to you. Understand?” he asked her.

Katie looked furious and tried to walk away but there was still something holding her in her place. “Why can’t I move?” she shouted.

“Because we are thoroughly enjoying watching this,” Sirius said grinning at her. The whole Hall began to laugh again as more words began to appear all over Katie’s robes.

‘James and Lily forever!’

‘Chang Is An Idiot!’

‘Sirius Rules!’

James turned back to look at Sirius. Sirius held his hands up in defence. “What? It's true!” They all laughed before looking at Chang again.

“How do I get this bloody curse off?” she yelled at James.

“I already told you, it is PERMANENT!” James said with a smirk.

“WHAT! You cannot be serious Potter?” she shouted at him.

“Of course he’s not,” said Sirius. Katie looked relieved. “I’m Sirius!” Lily laughed at the look on Katie’s face.

“Mr Potter? Mr Black? What is going on here?” said the voice of none other than Professor McGonnagall.

“Oh Professor, we are so glad you stopped by,” said James smiling at McGonnagall.

“And why would that be Mr Potter?”

“Well, we were wondering, what is the punishment for someone sending threatening letters to another student?” Sirius asked.

“What are you talking about Mr Black?” McGonnagall asked looking at Katie who’s hair was bright orange, her robes striped blue and green and her skin purple.

“You see Professor, since November Ms Chang here has been sending letters to Lily threatening her,” James explained.

“Is this true Ms Evans?” Professor McGonnagall asked Lily. She nodded and McGonnagall turned to Katie. “Well Ms Chang, we are going to talk to your Head of House about this. Sixty points from Ravenclaw and two months worth of detention for doing something as disgraceful as threatening another student. As for you four,” she said turning to the Marauders. “no matter what Ms Chang did there is no need to turn the colour of her hair, robes and skin a different colour. Twenty points from Gryffindor and a detention for each of you,” she told them though she was trying not to smile at the ‘Marauders Rule Hogwarts’ and ‘Evans, Queen of Hogwarts’ that was written on her robes.

The four boys looked delighted that they had gotten off so lightly. They had been expecting something a lot worse than that. Chang on the other hand look furious.

“Now Mr Potter, how do you reverse this spell?” McGonnagall asked.

“As I already told Chang, you can’t reverse it. There is no counter-curse,” James told them.

“Then what am I to do? Walk around with green skin for the rest of my life?” Katie shrieked.

“Actually, your skin is violet at the minute,” Sirius corrected, receiving a warning look from both Chang and McGonnagall.

“No, it wears off,” James told them.

“Eventually,” Sirius whispered to Lily.

“What do you mean Mr Black?” McGonnagall asked him sternly.

“It’s just, Chang here has to be nice to Lily for a whole day and apologise to her before it will wear off,” Sirius said with a smirk.

“WHAT!” Chang shouted.

“Ms Chang, you are to apologise to Ms Evans as it is and you should be nice to her anyway, she is your Head Girl after all. You should be respectful towards her. Now go and change your robes before your first class,” said McGonnagall before starting to leave.

“But Professor, what about my hair and face?” she asked looking at her yellow hair.

Professor McGonnagall turned to her hiding a smile. “Well it looks like you will have to deal with it for today Ms Chang,” she said before turning away and walking back to the staff table.

James removed the spell that was holding her in place and Katie stormed out of the Hall amid fresh peals of laughter fro the school as her back of her robes flashed up ‘All Hail James and Lily, King and Queen of Hogwarts!’

The group laughed and Sirius flicked his wand so that below the last statement appeared ‘And Sirius, Ruler of the Universe!’

The Hall applauded the friends as they left for their first class. Once they were outside and out of view of the rest of the school Lily turned to James and kissed him.

“That was brilliant James!” she laughed.

“Hey! It wasn’t all his idea. We helped!” Sirius said pretending to be offended.

“Of course you did. We are so proud of you,” said Jo sarcastically beside him.

“I don’t think Ms Katie Chang is going to be a problem for us any more,” Remus said with a smile.

“Oh, revenge is sweet,” James said.

The seven friends laughed again and walked out of the castle towards the green houses for Herbology.

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Chapter 20: Chapter 20: Quidditch
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Chapter 20: Quidditch

The first match of the Quidditch season was fast approaching and James was working his team as hard as possible to make sure they won their first match against Ravenclaw. Lily was just as determined to win because Chang was the Seeker of the Ravenclaw Team and she had to make sure she bet her.

Early on Saturday James dragged his whole team down to the pitch for one last practice before the match the next day. Lily walked with James and Sirius who were discussing diversion tactics down to the changing rooms. She changed into her robes and sat talking to the Keeper, Cathy, until James emerged from the Captain’s office and they all walked out onto the pitch.

It was a perfect day for Quidditch. It was sunny but no too sunny that you couldn’t see. It was a bit cold but Lily didn’t care. She walked out onto the pitch with the cold breeze whipping her hair and mounted her broom. She kicked off hard from the ground and sped around the pitch a few times before coming to a halt in the middle of the pitch looking at the rest of the team. She loved to fly. It gave her a freedom from everything that was going on. When she was on her broom up in the air she had no worries, no problems, no stress. She was free.

“Ok Lily, I’m realising the Snitch,” James called up to her. He was on the ground with the large case that held the Quidditch balls. He opened it slowly and a small speck of gold flew out of it before disappearing. James always insisted on realising the Snitch before they did any warm ups because it would be harder for Lily to find it and it would prepare her for the match tomorrow.

“Ok Team, we are just going to do a few warm ups before we actually start playing. Ok?” James asked them when they were all in the air. They all nodded at him, except Sirius.

“I don’t see why you had to get us out here so early Prongs. We don’t need to practice, we are going to thrash Ravenclaw. So why couldn’t you let me sleep?” he asked. Everyone laughed.

“Of course we are going to win, we have the best team Hogwarts has every seen. And stop complaining Padfoot or this will be a weekly routine,” James told him. Sirius grumbled something James couldn’t hear but James put no pass on him.

“So we don’t want to do anything stupid today and get one of you hurt before the match so we are just going to take it easy,” James said. “Let’s just start with some passing,”

“Oh yes, this is going to make sure we win. I bet Ravenclaw don’t know how to pass. You are a genius Prongs, teaching us something the other team doesn’t know,” Sirius said with fake awe.

“Shut up Padfoot,” James said before throwing the Quaffle at him. Sirius caught it without any problem and passed it to Lily, who passed it to Cathy, who passed it to Dan. This continued for about ten minutes until James blew his whistle signaling for them to stop.

“Ok team, that was great. Now we are going to play a little game. Sirius go and release a Bludger, we-,” James started.

“Only one? Where is the fun in that?” Sirius asked.

“Just do it Padfoot,” James said before turning back to the rest of the team. “We are going to shoot for Cathy’s goal. Ready?” he asked everyone. They all nodded before taking off to different positions of the pitch.

Lily turned her attention from the rest of the team and focused on the looking for the Snitch. She scanned every inch of the pitch for it. She thought she saw in and was about to make a dive when James’ whistle sounded.

“Padfoot, stop messing around. Concentrate!” James told Sirius who was hanging upside down on his broom. “Ok let’s try again,” James said with another blow of his whistle.

Lily turned her attention back to her search. She continued her search for ten minutes before she spotted it hovering beside James. She took off at top speed and nearly collided with James.

“Lil are you ok?” James asked looking at her, confused as to why she had nearly flown into him.

She held up the Snitch that was in her hand. “Sorry, got a bit carried away,” she laughed.

“Sure, it was coincidence that you caught the Snitch when it was beside me,” James said with a grin. Lily hit him on the shoulder. She laughed again realising the Snitch and watching it zoom off before turning to James. “Shouldn’t you be playing?”

“I don’t need practice, so I decided to watch,” James said confidently with a smirk. Lily hit him again before speeding off in search of the Snitch. James watched her go and smiled to himself. “Thank God she is getting back to herself,”


Hours later they were all sitting down for dinner completely exhausted. Alice, Jo, Remus and Peter sat down with them and they all talked happily. After Lily dragged James out of the Hall.

“Lil? Is something wrong?” he asked her.

“Yes, we are late for the Prefect meeting!” she told him dragging him up the stairs. She pulled him all the way until she reached the door of the Prefect Lounge. She let go of him at the door, brushed off the front of her robes and walked into the room, James behind her. The Prefects looked at them as they walked in, wondering why they were late. Lily Evans was never late for anything.

“Sorry we are late. Dumbledore wanted to talk to us,” she told them sitting down at the desk in the front of the room. James looked at her with an open mouth but Lily stomped on his foot to get him to shut up.

“So,” she said turning again to the Prefects. “How have things been going? Have any of you had any problems?”

“Not really, no,” a few of them said.

“Good!” said Lily happily. “If you have any problems with anyone or have any questions, you can come to me or James,”

James laughed beside her, so did a few of the Prefects. “I think they would be better off asking you Lil,”

Lily rolled her eyes at him before addressing the Prefects again. “Ok, Dumbledore was wondering if we had any ideas for some sort of celebration during the year. Do any of you have any ideas?” she asked them. The Prefects all looked at one another, wondering what type of ‘celebration’ Dumbledore had in mind. Nothing remotely like a party had ever been held at Hogwarts, unless you count the students own private parties.

“We could have a sort of dance on Valentine’s Day,” James said suddenly from beside Lily. Everyone, including Lily, looked at him.

“You know that is not such a bad idea,” Lily said slowly. “It would give couples something to do besides going to Hogsmeade together,”

“Or an empty classroom,” James whispered to her. Lily blushed but tried to hide it by continuing what she had been saying.

“But it doesn’t just have to be for couples, all students could come. It would provide a release from stress before the exams come,” Lily said.

The Prefects all nodded. A Valentine’s Day dance appealed greatly to them. It would be the first one Hogwarts had ever had.

Lily smiled. “Ok then, we will tell Dumbledore and see if he approves. Is there anything else you want to know?”

The Prefects shook their heads. “Ok then see you all next week,” Lily said.

Everyone left the room saying goodbye to Lily and James. Some of them wished them good luck at the match the next day. When everyone had left James turned to Lily with a smile.

“What?” she asked him suspiciously.

“I was wondering what you thought about my earlier idea?” he said still grinning at him. Lily knew it wasn’t the dance he was talking about.

“No Potter. We have homework and rounds still to do. Plus we have a match tomorrow,” she told him.

“But Lilykins-”

“No,” she said walking out of the room. James followed her muttering to himself. Lily turned back to him with a smile. “Maybe after rounds,”

James perked up and together they walked back to the common room to do their homework. Really, N.E.W.T’s were by no means easy.


The next morning dawned cold and clear. James woke early and looked out the window of his room. He saw the ground had its first covering of snow for the year.

“Damn it is going to be cold today,” he said before going into the bathroom to have a shower.

At half ten the Gryffindor Team stood up from the table amid cheers and shouts from the rest of the table and walked down to the pitch. James was definitely right about it being cold. Being up in the air flying at top speed was going to be a nightmare.

They reached the changing rooms and changed into their robes. Outside they could hear the sound of the entire school making their way to the pitch. James came out of the Captain’s office dressed in his scarlet and gold robes and looked at his team. He smiled encouragingly at them.

“Don’t worry guys, we are going to win this. We-”

“Oh yes, please share with us your wise words Oh Great One,” Sirius said mockingly.

“Shut it Padfoot. I mean it guys. We have the best team Hogwarts has ever seen and ever will see. Ravenclaw don’t stand a chance if we play like we did at practice yesterday,” James told them.

“Heck, we could stay in one position and still beat them,” Dan said with a grin.

“That is the attitude I am looking for. Now let’s go out there and give Gryffindors something to cheer for!” Everyone stood up, grabbed their brooms and walked out to the opening, waiting to be announced. James turned to Lily and grinned.


“Not really. I am always a bit nervous before a match. I am just determined to win today, that’s all,” she told him.

James put his arm around her. “That’s my girl!” he said before he heard the commentator talking.

“Welcome to Hogwarts first Quidditch game of the season! Today’s game; Ravenclaw versus Gryffindor! This is sure to be an exciting game. With James Potter as the Gryffindor Captain he is sure to have a great team!” said Aisling the commentator and fellow Gryffindor.

“So with out further ado, the Gryffindor Qudditch Team! I give you Black, Evans, Galvin, Radcliffe, Miller, Connolly and……the one, the only, POTTER!!” she shouted through the shouts and cheers of the Gryffindor crowd. The seven of them flew out and did a lap of the pitch. James sped over to the commentators box and circled it giving Aisling his charming smile. She was so excited she only remembered another team was playing when she received a warning from McGonnagall to pull herself together.

“Oh yeah, and the Ravenclaw team. No point calling them out they are going to-” she said in a bored tone but she got another look from McGonnagall. “I mean, I am sure they will try their best.” The Ravenclaw team came out with cheers from the Ravenclaws but it was nothing compared to what the Gryffindors got. Chang seemed to have noticed this and looked very angry about it which made Lily feel ten times happier than she already was.

“Captains, shake hands,” said the new referee Madam Hooch. James walked forward and shook hands with the Ravenclaw Captain, a sixth year named Kerry.

“And there off,” shouted Aisling as they fourteen players rose into the air along with the four balls. “And of course James Potter has the Quaffle. By God does that guy have talent, not to mention he looks great! Sadly though he is taken by his team mate and Head Girl, Lily Evans. Damn her!”

“Aisling, we don’t need to here about the players love lives. Please just get on with the match,” Professor McGonnagall said sternly.

“Ok, ok Professor. So it’s Potter with the Quaffle. He speeds up the pitch, dodges a bludger send his way by Hogan. No one in his way now, and HE SCORES!!! TEN POINTS TO GRYFFINDOR!” Aisling shouted jumping up and down in her seat. The Gryffindor supporters went wild, screaming and shouting. They didn’t stop for ten minutes and were completely lost when they finally turned their attention back to the game. They did this every time Gryffindor scored, especially if it was James who scored.

Lily was circling the pitch high above everyone scanning the ground for the Snitch. She tried to block out everything else but it was hard when things like “I can see why Evans went for Potter, who wouldn’t?” kept being shouted out. She smiled when something like this was said though because she knew it got Chang really mad.

The match went on for nearly an hour with Gryffindor leading 120-50 before anything big happened. Lily was circling the pitch when she heard someone shouting at her. She looked around and realised it was Chang. She tried to ignore her but she followed her shouting at her.

“So, what curse did you put Potter under to make him take you back? He obviously didn’t do it voluntarily. I mean, look at you! The guy can have any girl he wants yet he chooses you! You did something to him, I know you did,” she shouted at her.

Lily knew she was just trying to distract her. She tried to ignore her and focus on the looking for the Snitch when she saw it, a flash of gold. Lily went into a steep dive and Chang, who wasn’t paying attention, followed but it was too late. Lily closed her hand around the fluttering Snitch and pulled out of the dive, her hand in the air.

The crowd exploded into cheers and screams. Lily landed in the middle of the pitch, only to be squashed by the rest of the team. James pushed his way into her. He picked her up and swung her around.

“YOU DID IT LILY! WE WON!” he shouted before kissing her hard on the lips. Lily was ecstatic! Not only had they won but she had gotten the Snitch from right under Chang’s nose. Nothing could top this. But James and Sirius seemed to think differently. James, who was still holding her, carried her over to where he had abandoned his broom and put her on it before climbing on himself. They took off around the stadium amid screams and shouts of triumph from the crowd.

Sirius and the rest of the team followed them. Sirius had his wand out and was pointing it above James and Lily. She looked up to see words and shapes forming above their heads.






Every message appeared with a picture of a lion floating around it. Lily laughed out loud at everything. James turned his head to talk to her.

“What is so funny?” he shouted over the crowd so she could hear him.

“I was just thinking, if they are reacting like this when we win the first match, how are they going to react when we win the Cup?” she asked him with a laugh.

James laughed aswell. “Well, we will just have to wait and see, won’t we?”

Lily grinned widely at him. Nothing could spoil the happiness she was feeling at the moment. She looked down at the ground to see Katie Chang throwing her broom on the ground and stomping off towards the castle. Lily burst out laughing again.

“You were right James,” she said through her laughter. “Revenge is sweet!”

A/N: Soooo?? What did you think?? I know it wasn't really Lily handling the situation but she did get her own back a little! Please please please give me a review??? I really need to know what you think so I can change it if people don't like it! Which I hope you do but please tell me either way! Thanks so much for reading!! = )

Chapter 21: Chapter 21: Christmas
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Chapter 21: Christmas

The next few weeks past quickly at Hogwarts and before they knew it, it was Christmas. Lily, James and Sirius were going to Potter Manor for the holidays, Remus and Alice were going with their families on holidays, Peter, to everyone’s bewilderment said he was staying at Hogwarts and Jo, much to Sirius’ disappointment, was returning home. Sirius wanted her to come to Potter Manor with them but she said her parents really wanted her to come home. This dampened Sirius’ mood slightly, but not completely. As he said, nothing could bring him down.

The Hogwarts Express left Hosmeade Station at 11:00 on the 23rd of December. The friends got their own compartment near the back of the train and settled themselves for the long journey. But for them, it wasn’t long enough. This was going to be one of the last times they took the train, as Lily pointed out.

“This is so sad,” Lily said with a sigh, looking around the compartment.

“Prongs mate, I think your girlfriend has finally lost it. What is so sad about Christmas?”

“It’s not Christmas, it’s this,” she said gesturing around the compartment.

“Oh, I am so glad you explained yourself so fully. Prongs, how do you put up with all these mind games all the time?” Sirius asked. James laughed and put his arm around Lily.

“Oh shut up Black,” Lily said. “I talking about the fact that this is one of the last times we are going to be on this train,”

Everyone looked around the compartment. It had never really hit them that this was their last year at Hogwarts, until now.

“Oh my God! You are right! I can’t believe we are really going to be leaving Hogwarts for good in a few months!” Alice cried.

“Me neither. It seems like yesterday we only got there for the first time,” James said.

“Way to bring us all down Evans. Could you have said anything more depressing?” Sirius asked her sarcastically.

Lily looked at all of them. “Do you think we will stay together, even when we leave school?”

“Of course we will! You can’t split up the Marauders! And well, two of you are dating Marauders, and Alice is your friend, so you are all kind of honorary Marauders!” Sirius said. They all laughed before Remus spoke.

“Do any of you know what you want to do when you leave Hogwarts?” he asked them all. Everyone looked thoughtful, thinking about what they would do with their life, except James and Sirius.

“Aurors!” they both said together.

“I have always wanted to be an Auror, like my parents,” James said.

“It is the coolest job ever!” said Sirius with a grin.

“I think I’d like to be an Auror too. It would be fun,” Jo said.

“Yeah, me too. I’ll do anything to stop Voldemort from hurting anyone else. So and Auror suits me,” Lily said. “What about you Alice? Where do you see yourself after Hogwarts?”

“I think I’d like to be a Healer, I like to help people,” she said.

“I think you would make a great Healer. Especially since we are all going to be Aurors, I think it would be good if there was a Healer around,” Remus said with a laugh.

“We? You mean you’re jumping on the Auror broom Moony?” James asked.

“Well, yeah. I think it would be a good thing to be,” Remus said.

“Good on you Moony! So five Aurors and a Healer! We are ready for anything now!” Sirius said with a laugh.

The journey passed quickly with them talking about what they would do after Hogwarts, funny memories from Hogwarts and the odd strange comment from Sirius. All too soon the train pulled into the station and they got off the train with the rest of the school. They said goodbye to Remus and Alice almost immediately after arriving as there parents were already waiting for them. James and Lily went off to help the younger students get back through the barrier, leaving Sirius and Jo alone.

“I’m sorry I can’t come with you for Christmas Sirius, but-”

“It’s ok, I know. I’ll see you after the holidays. It is only three weeks after all,” Sirius said.

“Yeah. Well, there’s my Dad, I have to go. Bye,” she said with a smile.

Sirius took hold of her hand. “Bye Jo. I love you,” he said before kissing her. She broke off after a few minutes and looked at her shocked. She opened her mouth to reply but her Dad came over to them.

“Are you ready to go Jo?” he asked

“Ye-yeah Dad. By-bye Sirius,” she said before her Dad steered her away.

Sirius wanted to kick himself for being so stupid. “I bet she got scared by me saying that. Why did I say it? I have NEVER said that before! Why now?”

“Because you mean it you idiot!” said the voice in her head.

Christmas morning dawned bright and covered in a sheet of white. James was woken suddenly by Sirius bursting in the door and jumping on him.

“Come on Prongs! Get up! It’s Christmas!” he shouted.

James took his glasses off his bedside table and looked at the clock. “Padfoot, it’s 6:00am!”

“Exactly! You should have been up ages ago!” Sirius shouted happily.

“Is it a custom in this house to get up before the sun even rises?” asked a voice from the door. James and Sirius looked over to see Lily standing in the door in her pyjamas.

“Yes it is! Glad you’ve caught on! Come on Prongs, even Evans is up! You have to get out of bed! There are presents to open!” Sirius shouted jumping up and down on him. Sirius loved Christmas and always got a bit hyper in the morning.

“I knew this had nothing to do with me, all you want is your present,” James said with a smile getting out of bed.

“Thank God! That is the longest it has ever taken to get you up! You must be getting old!” Sirius exclaimed.

James ignored him and walked over to Lily. “Morning!” he said putting his arm around her and giving her a kiss on the cheek.

“Morning to you too,” she said with a smile.

“Yes, yes, we know it is morning. Now lets go and open the presents!” Sirius said walking out of room with James and Lily behind him. They entered the sitting room where the Christmas tree was set up to see Mr and Mrs Potter sitting on the sofa.

“Merry Christmas!” Mrs Potter said.

“Merry Christmas!” they all said to them, sitting down on the floor. Sirius was looking at the presents under the tree with his name on them, jumping up and down with excitement.

“Oh go on and open them Padfoot before you explode,” James said with a laugh. Sirius dived forward and grabbed the closest present to him, ripping the paper off it.

“Wow Prongs! This is brilliant!” he shouted holding up a huge bag of Zonko’s merchandise. James just grinned.

“You had to get him that didn’t you?” said Lily with a laugh.

“What else?” James asked with a smile.

The morning passed with them all opening presents from one another. When all of them were opened James turned to Lily and handed her a small box. He waited until all the other presents were open because he was nervous about what she would think.

“Oh James you didn’t have t-” she said with a smile opening the box. She stopped as she saw what was in it. “Wow James! This is….it’s… is so beautiful,” she said quietly looking at it again. Inside the box was the most beautiful necklace Lily had ever see. It was in the shape of a lily. It seemed to be made of glass with shimmering pale blue streaks running through it.

“You like it?” James asked.

“James, I love it! I have never seen anything as beautiful,” Lily said looking at him.

“I have. You,” James told her. Lily leaned in and kissed him.

“Aw! Isn’t that so sweet? It makes me feel sick!” Sirius said from beside them.

“Oh leave them alone Sirius, it is so sweet!” said Mrs Potter.

The rest of the morning went very fast. Lily and Mrs Potter prepared dinner while James, Sirius and Mr Potter sat in the sitting room talking about Qudditch. At 12:00 Mrs Potter called them all in for dinner. James sat beside Lily who had put on her necklace.

“Well, Merry Christmas everyone!” Mr Potter said when they had all sat down.

“Merry Christmas!” they said before they all started eating. It was absolutely delicious. Not even the House Elves at Hogwarts could have made a better meal. They all sat there eating, talking, laughing and enjoying themselves.

“That was wonderful Mrs Potter, thank you,” Lily said when she had finished.

“Oh it wasn’t just me dear. You are an excellent cook!” Mrs Potter said.

“Yeah James, hold on to her. I need a good meal every now and again,” Mr Potter said with a smile making everyone laugh.

After dinner they all went back into the living room. James sat on one of the armchairs and pulled Lily onto his lap.

“Did you have a good Christmas?” he asked her.

“It was the best ever!” she said with a smile.

“I’m glad you enjoyed yourself,”

“Thank you for my necklace. It is so beautiful,” she told him looking down at her necklace.

“Did you look at the back of it?” James asked her.

“No, why?”

“Just turn it over,”

Lily did so and smiled at it. On back read:
“You will always be my Flower, Love James”

“It is wonderful, thank you James,” she said quietly.

“You deserve it,” he told her giving her a kiss as she settled herself against him.

The day was one of the best Lily had. She looked down at the floor where Sirius and Mr Potter where playing a game of Wizard Chess and over at Mrs Potter who was looking through a book she had received from a person at work. She was happy that she was a part of this amazing family.

Suddenly there was a crack from the kitchen and Albus Dumbledore walked into the room.

“Albus! Merry Christmas!” Mr Potter said standing up.

“Merry Christmas Harold,” Dumbledore said.

“Can I get you something to drink Albus?” Mrs Potter asked.

“No, no, I am fine. I have come to tell you all some very upsetting news,” he said quietly. Lily looked at him to see he had tears in his eyes. She knew whatever he was going to say was not going to be good.

“What is it Albus?” Mr Potter asked him.

“I am very sorry,” Dumbledore said a tear falling from behind his half-moon glasses. “But I have received news that Ms Plunkett has been killed,”

A/N: Please don't kill me! I had to do it! Cliff hanger I'm sorry! I hate them! Please review and tell me what you think or to yell at me if you want! Thank you so much for reading and even more so if you review for me!!! = )

Chapter 22: Chapter 22: Goodbyes are never easy
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Chapter 22: Goodbyes Are Never Easy

Everyone stared at Dumbledore shocked. Lily knew he wasn’t lying, the look of sadness and despair he had in his eyes couldn’t be faked. Lily buried her head in James shoulder and he wrapped his arms around her trying to comfort both her and himself. He looked over at Sirius who was still sitting on the floor, he hadn’t moved a muscle.

“Ho-How?” Sirius asked quietly, his voice breaking.

“Her house was attacked by Death Eaters a few hours ago. Both she and her parents put up a tremendous fight. But help arrived too late. I arrived to find Ms Plunkett lying on the ground. She was very weak. It seemed she had been tortured instead of being killed straight away. She told me what happened and told me to give you this Mr Black,” Dumbledore said turning to Sirius. “She said it was your Christmas present.”

Sirius slowly reached for it. It was an envelope. He looked down at it then up again at Dumbledore.

“What happened then Albus?” Mrs Potter asked him shakily.

“She went unconscious and I brought her straight to St Mungo’s. But when we arrived she had already passed and they said there was nothing they could do. I am sorry,” Dumbledore told them.

James eyes were full of tears. He tried to hold them back and stay strong for Lily who was curled up against him, tears streaming down her cheeks, but he was having a hard time. He had never lost anyone before, especially not one of his friends. He wasn’t prepared for the pain and heartache he was feeling.

“What is going to happen now?” Sirius asked quietly. His face was pale but there were no tears running down it, yet.

“Since her parents were also killed, we have decided to hold a burying ceremony in Hogwarts for all of them on Monday,” Dumbledore told him. He could sense how upset Sirius was and was worried that if he didn’t let it out soon it was going to be harder to let go.

Sirius nodded to show he understood. He looked again at the letter that he held in his hand. It looked so plain, unordinary. He put it on the floor beside him, afraid to open it, afraid of what might be inside.

“I have to return to Hogwarts now and inform the school of what has happened,” Dumbledore said to them.

Lily looked up at him, her face and eyes red from crying. “Does Alice know?”

Dumbledore shook his head sadly. “No, I came here straight from St Mungo’s. No one else knows,”

“Can she come here? Until Monday?” Lily asked quietly, pleading with him with her eyes.

Dumbledore looked at Mr and Mrs Potter who nodded. “Of course. I think it would be easier for all of you to be together. I will send her along with Mr Lupin and Mr Pettigrew here tomorrow morning,” he told them before dis-apparating.

The room was silent for a long time, no one was sure what to say, they were all wound up in their own sadness and grief. James looked again at Sirius who was staring at his letter which he held weakly in his hand. He looked down at Lily who was still crying into his shoulder. He held her tighter, feeling her whole body shaking. He felt so sorry for her. First she was attacked by Voldemort, then her parents were taken from her and now her best friend. It just wasn’t fair. “It is all his fault!” James thought angrily. “It is all Voldemort’s fault. He did this to us. He killed Jo and Lily’s parents. He destroyed all of our lives,”

No one moved for hours. Mr and Mrs Potter watched them battle silently within themselves, trying to face the fact their friend had been taken from them. They didn’t want to say anything to them for a while, instead they let them come to terms with what had happened. After a few hours, after James and Lily had fallen asleep on one another, Mrs Potter turned to Sirius who was still staring at the unopened letter.

“Sirius, darling? Are you ok?” she asked him kindly.

“I’m fine,” he said huskily. “What would be wrong?”

Mrs Potter looked sadly at him. He was trying to hide his pain but he was only going to feel it more later.

“Don’t hold it in Sirius. Let it out, we are all here for you,” she told him softly.

“Really, I am fine. There is nothing wrong,” he told them, though they could hear the grief and hurt in his voice. He got up off the ground and walked slowly out of the room towards his bedroom. Mrs Potter turned to Mr Potter after Sirius had left.

“I hate seeing them all like this Harold. They are so upset. They don’t deserve this, they are so young, they have so much to live for,” she said sadly to him, her eyes prickling with tears.

“I know Avril sweetheart, I hate to see them so upset too. This will be hard for them to recover from, especially Sirius. I think this is the Jo James and Lily were telling us about. She definitely wasn’t just another fling, I have never seen Sirius look so defeated.

“Me neither. He always puts on a brave face,” Avril said with a tear falling silently down her cheek as she looked over a James and Lily on the chair, they had cried themselves to sleep over the last few hours.


The next two days were hard and sad for everyone. Alice, Remus and Peter arrived early on Sunday morning. Alice and Lily ran into each others arms and cried for a long time, holding each other, trying to comfort the other. Even just the fact the two of them were there without Jo was enough to send both of them into tears. Jo had always been with them. There wasn’t many moments Lily could remember since first year where Jo hadn’t been with them. “But there are going to be too many of them now,” she thought sadly, tears running freely down her cheeks.

Sirius hardly ever came out of his room over the two days. He only came out at dinner because he was forced to. But he didn’t eat much and never said a word. James and Remus were worried about him. He had never before refused a meal and he always had something to say, he was never quiet. He was really torn apart by Jo’s death.


The morning of the funeral dawned cold and dull. Lily was glad the sun wasn’t out, she didn’t want it to shine on such a sad day. She woke early and pulled on a black dress and pulled her hair back into a ponytail. Dumbledore told them they didn’t have to wear their school robes for which Lily was glad. She wasn’t ready to put it back on and go back to school knowing Jo wasn’t going to be there. She looked at herself in the mirror. Over the last few months she had become even skinnier than she had ever been. She had gone through a lot and it was taking its toll on her. She was pale and her face looked drawn and thin.

She went down to the sitting room to find everyone already there, dressed in black like she was. She walked over to James and slipped her hand into his.

“Are you ok?” he asked her silently. His usually bright hazel eyes had a deep sadness clouding them.

“No. I don’t want to say goodbye to her James. She was my best friend, she was always there for me. I don’t want her to be gone,” she said burying her head in his shoulder again. He put his arms around her and rubbed his hand up and down her back in a soothing motion.

“Me neither Lils. None of us want her to go. We all loved her,” James told her, his own tears burning with fresh tears. They had all taken it hard. It had been so much of a shock.

Alice walked over and put her hand on Lily’s shoulder. “I miss her too Lil, we all do,” she told her, tears sliding delicately down her face. Lily turned to face her. They each looked into the others eyes and broke into fresh tears, hugging each other.

Mrs Potter walked into the room and looked around at the teenagers. She too had tears in her eyes just from looking at them. “It is time to go,” she told them.

Lily and Alice let go of one another brushing down their dresses and wiping the tears from their face.

“We have to do this, for Jo,” Lily said.

“For Jo,” Alice agreed.

They all walked over to the kettle Mr Potter was holding, it was the Portkey that was going to take them to Hogwarts. James looked at Sirius who was standing opposite him. His eyes were sunken and had large bags under them. He was extremely pale and he didn’t look like he had slept since Friday. There was a sudden jerk from behind James navel and a few moments later he felt his feet hit solid ground. He looked up at the stone castle where he had spent the last seven years of his life. But for the first time, he didn’t want to be there. He wanted to be anywhere than standing outside those gates.

Together they walked slowly towards Hogwarts. Lily was walking with James on one side of her with a tight grip on her hand, and Alice on her other. Remus stood on Alice’s other side with Peter and Sirius walked slightly behind them, his hands dug deeply into his pockets.

After a few minutes they reached the castle doors and were greeted by Professor McGonnagall.

“The ceremony will be held over beside the lake,” she told them. She too bore signs of recent tear-shedding. Jo had been one of her favourite students no matter how much she gave out to her.

When Lily heard that it was going to held beside the lake she took a deep breath. The lake had been Jo’s favourite place to relax and hang out with her friends. As they walked over she saw that the seats were arranged under the large tree they always sat under. She saw three large boxes set on an alter, each covered with a purple cloth. Lily gripped James’ hand tighter as she saw it. This was it, the final goodbye. It had been hard to get over the loss of her parents, but she never had to attend their funeral. She was glad Petunia hadn’t told her about it because she didn’t want to have to go and see her parents being buried. But now, here she was, about to do it for her friend.

They went to the front row and sat down together in the seats. Lily sat beside Alice and James, gripping both of their hands. She heard the noise of the students making their way towards them. They all filed into their seats as Dumbledore walked up to the alter.

“We have all gathered here for a heartbreaking occasion. We are here to bury a fellow student, something I hoped would never happen,” Dumbledore started. Just seeing him standing up their brought tears to all of their eyes.

“Jo Plunkett was an amazing student and person. She was a friend to many and kind to all. She was a true Gryffindor, courageous and caring. She was loved by all her teachers, no matter how much trouble or stress she caused them,” he continued with a little laugh.

“Jo was always a fighter. She stood up for herself and others whenever she needed to. She fought to her very last breath. She stood up for what she believed in, which is, she believed in the good in people and was ready to fight for that. Sadly, she will not be the last one to die fighting against the threat of Voldemort. But it is better to fight for what you think is right and die, than step aside and let Voldemort destroy us all. Jo and her family did this. They fought against him for what they thought was right, and I honor her for this. I ask you all to do the same. Don’t take the easy way out and back down. Stand up for yourself and the ones you love. When you are faced with a choice about what is right and easy, remember the student that gave her life fighting for you and the good you represent. Remember her and she won’t have given herself for nothing. Remember how she stood up for what she believed even though she knew it was dangerous. Remember Jo Plunkett,” Dumbledore finished, a tear falling down his pale cheek.

Lily buried her head again in James’ shoulder, crying more than ever before, her heart breaking with every word Dumbledore spoke.

“And now we must say goodbye, to a friend, a student, a Gryffindor, a love and a daughter of her wonderful parents. Jo was many different things to many people. We will all miss her bubbly and cheerful manner,” Dumbledore said somberly. He turned to face the coffins on the alter.

“Goodbye Jo,” he whispered quietly.

Everyone stood up silently and walked over to the graves that had been prepared. With a flick of his wand Dumbledore lowered the three coffins into them gently. The tears were flowing non stop from Lily’s eyes and she stood shaking watching her friend being buried. When Dumbledore fully lowered them James, Lily, Alice, Remus, Sirius and Peter stepped forward, each holding a rose.

Lily and Alice took the last step together and looked into the grave.

“Goodbye Jo, we are going to miss you so much. I can’t believe you are gone. You were such an amazing friend, it won’t be the same without you,” Alice said through her tears and threw her rose on top of the coffin before turning to Lily and putting her hand on her back for support.

“Jo, I can’t believe I am never going to see you again, never talk to you anymore. You have done so much for me, you were always there for me when I needed someone to lean on. You have been my friend for so long, I can’t think what it is going to be like without you. No more joking around with you, no more pillow fights in the middle of the night, no more long lectures about how I should calm down and relax. Hogwarts isn’t going to be the same anymore, there will always be that whole that you are supposed to fill. We won’t forget you Jo, no one ever could,” Lily said quietly looking down into the grave. “This may be the last time we see you, but we won’t ever forget you or anything you did for us. Goodbye Jo, forever,” she said throwing her rose in on top of Alice’s. The two girls turned to one another and walked back to the rest, holding onto each other tightly, crying every tear that would come.

James, Remus and Peter stepped forward and they too dropped their roses into the grave. “We will miss you Jo. You were a great friend to us even if only for a short while. Goodbye Jo,” James said.

“I am sorry we never had much time to really get to know each other. But we are all going to miss you. Bye Jo,” said Remus quietly.

“Yeah, bye,” Peter said dropping his rose too but he didn’t look down. He couldn’t, knowing it was his fault she was dead, his fault all his friends were so upset. He stepped away from the grave with James and Remus.

Slowly Sirius stepped forward, the rose clutched in his quivering hand. “I don’t want to believe you are gone Jo, I don’t want to accept that I will never see you again. We only just got together. We could have had ages if I wasn’t too proud to admit I was in love. But I am. I love you Jo. I have never been in love before, and I don’t think I ever will be again. You were the one for me, I could feel it whenever I looked at you. I was planning to marry you. We may have only been together about a month, but I knew we were meant to be. I even bought a ring, I was going to propose at graduation,” he said taking out a black velvet box. “But now we won’t have that chance. You had so much life left to live Jo. We haven’t even finished Hogwarts yet. We were meant to graduate together, get married, become Aurors and have lots of children. But none of that is going to happen now, for either of us. My love and any thoughts of marriage died when you did. Please remember I love you. I know you never said it back, but it doesn’t matter. I love you more than anything else, and I always will. Goodbye Jo, I will never forget you or what we had,” he said dropping the rose and the engagement ring into the grave before turning around and walking away from everyone.

He walked until he was on the other side of the lake, alone and where no one could see him. He needed to be alone. Finally the tears that he had been holding in finally came. He wept openly as he looked out at the vast lake. He wouldn’t accept she was gone, until now. He had fought it for the last few days but the realization finally hit him. She was gone, the only one he had ever loved had left him.

(Real World - by D-Side)
Last night I dreamt you were lying beside me
I smelt the sweetness of your hair
You gently reached out to remind me
Of how it used to be
And I almost believed that this morning I'd find you still there

He stayed there for a long time, thinking back over every moment he had spent with her. All the times when she laughed, or smiled or even when she hit him. Every memory gave him a sharp pain in his heart. He couldn’t believe how much he loved her, and how much he missed her now she was gone.

But here in the real world
I miss you madly
In the real world
I'm coping badly with losing you
What am I to do
Here in the real world
Without you

Last night I dreamt of a different ending
Everything just seemed to work out somehow
I saw that someday I could smile again without pretending
In was so sure I'd wake up and I wouldn't need you right now

He reached into his pocket and pulled out the letter Dumbledore had given him on Christmas night. He still hadn’t opened it, he wasn’t sure what would be inside. But now he had to do it. She had used her last breath telling Dumbledore to give it to him and he wasn’t just going to forget about it, or her. Slowly he broke the wax seal and opened it, his hands trembling. As he read it more and more tears came.

Dear Sirius,
Wow! This feels so weird, I never write letters! Anyway, Merry Christmas! I know this doesn’t look much like a Christmas present but I needed to tell you this. I was a bit scared to say it in person so maybe writing it down will make it easier for telling you after Christmas. Ok, here it goes:
I love you! There I said it and I mean it. I love you Sirius Black! I have for the longest time, I was just afraid you didn’t love me, that you would reject me and run off with the first pretty girl who walked by. But then you said those three little words on the train platform and I was stunned. I wasn’t sure what to think. I wanted to reply but my dad took me away before I got the chance. But please believe that I mean it. I can’t wait ‘til we go back to Hogwarts and I can tell you to your face how much I love and show you how much you mean to me. I am counting the days!
This really doesn’t sound anything like me those it? I sound so sentimental and sweet and a bit nauseating but this is what you have done to me! You have turned me into…into…Lily!! And I said I was counting the days until I return to school? You have corrupted me Black, but that is one of the things I love about you. I love your sense of humour, the way you laugh and smile, the way you can cheer me all the time, and (as weird as it sounds) the way you love me. I love everything about you Sirius Black and I am not afraid to admit it anymore.
I hope you have a great Christmas and I am sorry I can’t be there. I am really looking forward to going back and seeing you and showing you how much I love you!
Love you always and forever,

Sirius looked up from the letter the tears streaming down his cheeks. She would never get to see him again, she would never get to tell him she loved him. She was gone, and he wasn’t sure how he was going to manage with out her.

I'm here in the real world
Without you.

A/N: That chpater made me cry it was so sad! Poor Sirius! But I always thought there was a reason why Sirius was alone so in this case this is the reason! What did you think? Please review and tell me! Hope you liked it and thanks for reading! = )

Chapter 23: Chapter 23: Don't you remember?
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Chapter 23: Don’t You Remember?

The next few months flew by and the N.E.W.T’s were drawing nearer. Everything had changed since Christmas, Hogwarts wasn’t the same without Jo. But the teachers kept everyone busy, trying to prepare them for their N.E.W.T’s. Lily and James were busier than ever with Head duties, their exams coming and organizing the Valentine’s Day dance. But the enthusiasm they had all felt when Dumbledore had agreed had dwindled now that Jo was gone.


Valentine’s Day dawned bright and warm. Today was Hogsmeade and Alice and Lily were going to see if they could find dress robes for the dance. James and the Marauders were going to stock up with Zonko products.

Lily got up, put in a pair of jeans and a green t-shirt and stood in the common room waiting for James.

“And they say women take forever to get ready?” she called through his door. All she heard was laughter from inside.

“Ok, ok! I’m coming. Calm down, I know you missed me Lils but it’s ok, I’m here now,” James said coming out of his room.

“Oh, of course, I missed you so much! I couldn’t sleep,” she said sarcastically before hitting him over the head. “Now let’s go down to breakfast before Alice comes up and kills me for taking so long. We have the whole day planned and you are throwing it off course,”

“What are you two up to?” he asked suspiciously. Lily was never eager about going to Hogsmeade, he usually had to drag her along.

“None of your business. And no, before you ask, you aren’t coming with us. We are having a girls day, or so Alice said,” Lily told him with a smile. It had taken a while but she had gotten over the loss of Jo. But whenever she went to the girl’s dorms or down to the lake she always felt like crying, knowing Jo should be there with them, but she wasn’t anymore.

“I could dress up as a girl and-” James started.

“No James! As funny as it would be to see you dressed up as a girl, Alice and I are spending the day together shopping. Which gives you boys all day to shop for our Valentine’s presents,” Lily said with a smile at the look on James’ face.

“Damn! I knew I forgot something!” he said.

“It’s ok, you have the whole day!” Lily told him brightly.

James smiled at her. He, of course, hadn’t forgotten to get her a present at all. But he wanted her to be surprised. He had it all planned, and he didn’t want her figuring any of it out.

They walked down to the Great Hall together to see all their friends already sitting there eating.

“It’s about time Lily! Emma and I were about to go without you!” Alice said jumping up and running towards her. Lily laughed at her excitement.

“It wasn’t me, James took forever getting ready,” she laughed again and sat down beside Emma and smiled at her. Emma was one of the girls who used to be in her dorm. She and Alice had become very close over the last two months since Jo had died. Lily really liked her, she was funny and bubbly, really smart and was fun to be around. She had been upset by Jo’s death too and the three girls had become good friends since then.

“So Emma, do you have a date for tonight?” Lily asked her.

“Eh…yeah,” she said quietly.

“Oh!! Who? You never told me!” Alice accused her.

“Well, I was only asked this morning before you came in,” Emma told her.

“So, who is he?” Lily asked with a smile. Emma glanced down the Gryffindor table.

“Dan asked me to go with him,” she told them. James, Sirius, Remus and Peter covered their ears as the girls squealed.

“Emma! That is brilliant! You have liked him for so long!” Alice cried excitedly.

“She isn’t the only one,” Lily said slyly. James looked at her appalled.

“You mean Dan from Qudditch? That Dan? That’s it, he is off the team,” James said looking down the table.

“Oh James, calm down. I have you, I don’t need him,” Lily told him and James grinned at her. “Besides, he is taken now, I have no hope anymore,” she said and the girls started to laugh at James who looked like someone had hit him in the face with a bludger.

“My god, you girls can scream! Do you ever stop talking?” Sirius asked.

“Do you?” Lily asked him with a grin.

“Nope! You all love the sound of my voice too much,” he said with his charming smile. He had gotten back to himself, or so it appeared.

“Well girls, we should be going! Lots to do today!” Alice said getting up from the table and pulling Lily and Emma with her. She had an excited gleam in her eyes. If their was one thing Alice liked more than shopping it was shopping for clothes. The girls said goodbye to the boys and walked out of the Hall together, laughing.

“So my boys, what are we going to do today?” Sirius asked them with a grin.

“What? Are you going to study or something instead of going to Hogsmeade?” Remus asked him sarcastically.

“When have I ever studied Moony? You really are losing it. So, are we heading to Hogsmeade now?” he asked them.

“Yeah! What else would we do?” James said.

“You just want to find out where Lily is going Prongs,” Remus said with a smirk. “I’m in though,”

“Great! What about you Wormtail? It is going to be one of the last times we go,” Sirius told him.

“Eh….em….well…I…I can’t,” Peter stuttered.

“What! Why not?” Sirius asked him.

“I…I have to….I have work to…to do,” Peter said, stumbling over his own words.

“Work! But this is one of the last times the Marauders will go to Hogsmeade together! You have to come!” Sirius told him.

“Leave him alone Padfoot. Just because you don’t work doesn’t mean everyone else doesn’t” Remus told him. Remus smiled at Peter before he got up and ran out of the Hall, leaving all of them confused. Well, James and Remus anyway.

“What is his problem? He has been acting really odd lately,” James said.

“Maybe he is just stressed. We all act a bit different and odd when we get stressed,” Remus said, though he too had noticed something different about his friend.

“You two are killing the mood! We are supposed to be having a good time! Why are you talking about exams?” Sirius asked them. “Are we going or not?”

“Yes, Padfoot. Calm down, we are coming,” James told him with a smile.

“Finally! You guys must be getting old, it takes forever to get you to move!” Sirius exclaimed before walking out of the Hall, James and Remus following him.


The girls arrived in Hogsmeade in a few minutes, Alice still bursting with excitement.

“Alice, calm down, we are here. Why is she so hyped up?” Emma asked Lily.

“I have no idea. I think she is excited about the dance tonight,” Lily said, though she was trying to hide her own smile as she thought of it. But Emma noticed and grinned at her.

“So are you! Look at you, you look like you are going to burst if you don’t say anything about it soon!” Emma laughed.

“Hey Missy! You can’t say anything! All I have been hearing for the last week was ‘Do you think Dan likes me?’ ‘Will Dan ask me to the dance, I really hope he does’ ‘Did you see Dan looking at me today?’. I swear you have a problem girl. You’d think he was some famous guy to hear you go on about him, like everyone in the world loves him,” Alice said and Emma blushed.

“What about you Alice? What about Frank? You never shut up about him!” Lily laughed.

“And you never talk about James?” Alice asked her.

“Ok, so I do. We are all hopelessly in love. Now are we going to go and find the dress that will make sure they never forget us?” Lily asked them with a sly smile before they all burst out laughing and continued up the street of Hogsmeade, enjoying their freedom.


“Ok, so where to first? We have to make this a good trip! What if we never come back? I think Zonko’s first, or maybe Honeydukes? Yeah, I think Honeydukes first, then Zonko’s and then to the Three Broomsticks. No, no. First-” Sirius babbled the whole way to Hogsmeade.

“Oh shut up Padfoot! Is it possible for you to even stay quiet for two seconds,” Moony asked him.

“No Moony, is isn’t! Deal with it!” Sirius said. James laughed as Remus rolled his eyes at Sirius who was bouncing up the path. He was relieved Sirius had gotten over Jo. He was afraid for a while that he would never be the same again. All he needed was time, but it hadn’t been enough time yet. Sirius was still torn up inside, he just didn’t show it, so no one knew the pain he was still feeling.

“Lets go to Honeydukes first,” Remus suggested. But no one was paying much attention, Sirius was still bouncing up and down with excitement and James was looking around the crowded street for someone.

“Leave Lily alone for one day Prongs! Let her friends have her for a change,” Remus told him.

“Yeah! You never spend time with us anymore either Prongs! Besides, you have her all to yourself tonight anyway,” Sirius told him and James smiled widely. Tonight was going to be perfect, nothing could ruin it. Or so he thought.

They spent most of the day looking around the shops, laughing, joking and talking about everything. James had almost forgot how much he always had with his friends when it was just them.

But, a sudden explosion stopped his thoughts. He looked up to see a group of black cloaked people descending on them. James searched the street frantically, looking everywhere for Lily. He caught a glimpse of her red hair and turned to her. She, Alice and Emma, were running towards them, dodging the fleeing residents and students.

“JAMES! WE HAVE TO GET OUT OF HERE! HE IS HERE” Lily shouted at him. James held his arms out to her and she ran into them.

“What are you talking about Lily? What is going on?” he asked her.

“Voldemort, James. He is here and he is looking for us. We have to go!” she insisted, pulling his arm trying to get him to move put someone stepped out in front of her, stopping her from moving.

“That would be a good idea, but it is too late now,” said a cold voice. Lily looked up and right into the face of Voldemort. Her insides turned to ice as she looked at his smirking face.

“Leave her alone,” James said, stepping up to stand at Lily’s side.

“Not this time Potter, you and your little friends have caused me trouble for the last time. You are not getting away from me this time,” Voldemort said with a cold laugh.

“Are you afraid six teenagers will hurt you?” James asked him.

“Don’t try be brave Potter, I have plenty of reasons to kill you. Or don’t you remember when we met last summer?” Voldemort asked him.

Of course James remembered it, too vividly for his liking. It was not easy to forget the night he and his friends had nearly died. All because of his stupid mistake….

“It’s only down here, I promise,” James said. It was mid summer and he was leading his friends through the forest near to his home.

“Where are we going Potter? Is this another one of your stupid schemes?” Lily asked him annoyed. She was angry at Jo for dragging her along. She knew she hated Potter and she only had to put up with him because Jo lived pretty near to him and she was staying with her for the summer.

“What else would it be Evans?” James asked her with a grin to which she rolled her eyes. They walked for a while before James led them to a clearing. No matter how much it hurt her to say it, Lily had to hand it to James, it was beautiful.

“Like it Evans?” he asked arrogantly noticing the expression on her but it quickly changed as she turned to him.

“You dragged me all the way out here for this?” she asked him.

James shook his head. “You are impossible Evans, did you know that?”

But before Lily could retort there was a group of large cracks and the spun around and came face to face with the one and only Voldemort.

“Well, well, the Potter boy has come out on his own. Finally,” Voldemort said with a laugh. “So this is the boy who is supposed to cause me so much trouble? You are a bit disappointing Potter,”

“What do you want?” James asked angrily. His parents had told him about Voldemort, about how he killed and tortured people for fun. It made him sick.

“I want you out of my way Potter. I don’t want you messing up anything for me later on. I have been informed that you will be of considerable trouble to me. I am here to make sure that can’t happen,” Voldemort told him taking out his wand.

James stood there, not sure what to do. He knew what was coming and there was nothing he could do to prevent it.

“AVADA KEDAVRA!” Voldemort yelled, pointing his wand at James. James waited for something to happen but nothing did. He looked around to see Lily with her wand out. She seemed to have conjured a chair or something in front of James to take the blow of the curse.

“You filthy Mudblood! No matter, I will just dispose of you too,” Voldemort said, recovering from the shock of what had just happened. No one had ever tried to deflect a killing curse before. He raised his wand but before he could say the incantation his wand flew out of his hand and directly into that of Albus Dumbledore.

“Dumbledore!” Voldemort spat.

“Leave Tom. You have lost,” Dumbledore said simply, glaring at Voldemort.

“Maybe this time, but I will get them in the end,” he said. He didn’t want to challenge Dumbledore yet, he needed be sure he would succeed before doing anything directly against him. With a loud crack he dis-apparated along with his Death Eaters. Dumbledore turned to the James and the others.

“It’s ok, he is gone,” he told them noticing the look of shock on James’ face. But it wasn’t the attack that shocked James the most. He slowly turned to Lily, trying to find something to say to her, she had just saved his life.

“Wh…Tha…What did you do that for?” he asked. He hadn’t meant to say that, but he was curious.

“Oh…well…Where would the fun be if I didn’t kill you myself Potter,” she said with a hint of a smile.

James turned back to face Voldemort. “Yes I do, do you? Because it seems pretty stupid of you to come back here if you do,” James said, fingering his wand in his pocket. This time he was going to be ready. If he was going to go this time he wasn’t going down without a fight and possibly a few Death Eaters.

“I am ready for your mind games this time Potter. You have escaped me once, so has Ms Evans here, but you are both going to die today, right here. This is the end,” Voldemort said his voice like a snake, full of venom and deadly.

Voldemort raised his wand but James and Lily were faster and sent a stunning and disarming spell at him, which he deflected easily.

“Is that all you have Potter? Nothing better than a weak stunning spell?” Voldemort mocked. James felt rage burn up inside him. Everything they had gone through this year was all because of this man. He took Lily’s parents, he had caused Lily so much pain, he had taken Jo from them, it was all him. Every hateful feeling James had all year finally came to the surface.

“Not even close,” he said in a low dangerous voice, staring Voldemort directly in the eye.

“You think you can bring me down alone Potter?” Voldemort laughed.

“He won’t be alone, he has me,” Lily said, stepping up beside James and firmly taking his hand. She glared at Voldemort, hate filled her eyes.

“And me,” Sirius said standing on James other side.

“You are making a mistake Black, you have chosen the wrong side. You should have followed your family. No matter though, I will enjoy killing you. Like I enjoyed watching your little friend twitch and scream in pain before she died. Pity I had to leave before she did though, I would have enjoyed in immensely,” Voldemort said turning to Sirius. Sirius went stiff. He was talking about Jo, how he had tortured her. He stared at him, with all the hatred he was feeling over the death of Jo rising within him.

“No you won’t, you won’t kill me or anyone else here,” Sirius said quietly but with so much hatred in his voice he sounded like he wanted to kill him. “I will make sure of it. You have already taken one of us, you are getting no more,”

“You think you can stop me Black? You and your little friends here?” Voldemort hissed at him.

“I am damn sure!” Sirius said.

“Well, lets test that,” Voldemort said raising his wand, he pointed it at Sirius and shouted “CRUCIO!”

Sirius fell to the ground, every inch of him feeling like it was on fire. He had to bite down hard on his tongue to stop himself from screaming. He had no idea how long he was under the curse but all he could think of was Jo and how she had gone through this until she had died from it. Just imagining her face gave him strength. He fought back with everything he could muster and eventually he felt the curse lift from him. He looked up at Voldemort but he had turned to face James and Lily who were pointing their wands at him. He looked around the street and saw Remus, Emma and Alice each fighting a Death Eater. He pulled himself to his feet and turned to face Voldemort but he heard a familiar voice behind him.

“Well, if it isn’t my dear cousin,” said the voice. Sirius knew who it was without even turning.

“Hello Bellatrix, it’s been a long time,” he said.

“Too long. I have waited for this moment for a long time. I always wanted to be the one to kill you, for disgracing our name, running off to Dumbledore,” Bellatrix said with disgust.

“At least I made the smart decision,” Sirius retorted. Bellatrix raised her wand and pointed it at him but he also raised his.

They all battled for a while, spells being sent in every direction, flashes of light everywhere. Lily hoped someone from the school would notice and come for them. She was getting tried from dodging spells and sending any she could think of at Voldemort. She crouched behind a tree trying to catch her breath. She looked around at everyone fighting. They were all doing well, but they had some injuries. Emma’s shoulder was bleeding badly and Alice was leaning against a wall, unable to stand on her ankle.

“Leave them alone Tom,” said a voice from down the street. Lily looked down and her heart skipped a beat as he saw Dumbledore standing in the middle of the deserted street, Aurors and teachers standing behind him.

“No Dumbledore, they will not get away from me this time. They have escaped too much,” Voldemort said.

“You will not harm them,” Dumbledore said firmly, walking towards them.

“And are you going to stop me if I do?”

“If you are foolish enough to try, I will,” Dumbledore told him.

“I am not afraid of you Dumbledore,” Voldemort said definitely.

“Perhaps not, but I will not allow you to harm my students. Now leave before I am forced to make you,” Dumbledore said, his eyes flashing. Voldemort stared at him but turned quickly as he glanced into his eyes. Whatever he saw had frightened him.

“I will come back Dumbledore, you cannot protect them forever,”

“But I can try,” Dumbledore said before Voldemort vanished on the spot, followed by his Death Eaters.

“We must get you all back to the school,” Dumbledore told the rest of them. He looked around at his students. They were exhausted and hurt, but all of them had a strong hate burning in their eyes. They were not going to give up any easier than Voldemort.

“Yeah, we should bring Alice and Emma to the Hospital Wing,” James said, holding onto Lily. She nodded in agreement and they all made their way back up to the school in silence. Dumbledore watched them and sighed. They were all in for a tough life ahead, but they would face it with bravery and determination. As he watched them walk slowly down the stone street together he knew they would be ok. Once they had each other they would make it through.

“I don’t think I have ever been more proud of anyone Minerva,” Dumbledore said. “They are really something special. I have never seen anyone go through so much for someone they love, and still come out the other end with a smile.”

A/N: Well there you go that's the reason Voldemort was so angry with Lily! I told you I'd explain it! Sorry it took so long to get there but I needed the right time and things had to happen before it could like Jo dieing! Please review and tell me what you think!! Pretty Please!!!???? I really REALLY want/need to know!! Thanks for reading! = )

Chapter 24: Chapter 24: Nobody Knows It But Me
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Chapter 24: Nobody Knows It But Me

Lily sat on the end of Alice bed in the hospital wing looking at everyone. No one was sure what had really happened over the last hour or what to think about it. No one could believe it had happened, everything came so fast. No one said a word to anyone else, they were all deep in their own thought. Lily looked up at James who was holding her tightly. She cuddled closer to him, enjoying the feeling of him against her and taking comfort from him. He pulled her as close as he possibly could and rested his head on top of hers.

They all turned at the sound of the door opening and saw Dumbledore walking in. He smiled at them as he reached them. They all looked worriedly at him but he just smiled again.

“It is ok, Voldemort is gone. There is no need to worry,” he told them.

“But why was he here in the first place?” Alice asked him from her bed. But James answered before Dumbledore got the chance.

“He was looking for us again, wasn’t he Professor?”

“I believe so James. He seems to believe you are all a threat to him and he wishes to eliminate you all,” Dumbledore said.

“So…so he is just going to keep coming after us?” Lily asked.

“I am not certain. He wants you out of the way, yes. But I am not sure wether failing twice already will make him give up or try harder the next time. But you are all strong, especially for your age. He has a very good reason to fear what you will all become,” Dumbledore told them with another encouraging smile. “I am sorry, but I must go now, I have a dance to attend. I’m glad you are all feeling better,” he said before exiting the Hospital Wing doors.

“Do you really think he will stop coming after us?” Lily asked James when Dumbledore had left.

“No, he will come back. But as Dumbledore said, we are strong and we will fight him off again. Don’t worry,” James said trying to reassure her.

“So……are we leaving yet? We have a dance to attend,” Emma said. Lily turned to her, a bit surprised. Emma had never encountered Voldemort with them before so Lily thought she would be shaken by the experience.

“You still want to go to the dance? After what happened?” Lily asked her.

“Of course I want to go. What happened was scary, really scary, but Dumbledore said we are safe, so why not go?” Emma asked her.

“What about your shoulder?” Lily wondered. Emma’s arm was in a sling as she had down a good bit of damage to her shoulder.

“A minor set back,” she shrugged. “It is fine. This is the first dance Hogwarts has ever had. And I have a date. With Dan of all people. DANIEL RADCLIFFE Lily! There is no way I missing this,” she laughed.

“She’s right. We should still go. We went through a lot organizing it, it would be a shame not to go,” James said. “Unless you don’t want to?” he added.

Lily looked around, not sure if she did want to go. It would be fun, but after what happened in Hogsmeade she was tired. Not to mention upset. Seeing Voldemort again, the man who had killed her parents and Jo, had brought back a lot of memories she thought she had left behind her.

“Come on Lily, you have to come. We can’t stop living because of what has happened. Your parents wouldn’t want you to, neither would Jo. Please come? We spent all day looking for the perfect dress robes, and now you aren’t going to wear them?” Alice asked.

“Since when did Alice get so smart? She actually makes sense,” Lily thought. She knew they were still trying to make the most of the day and wanting to take their minds off what happened. They were right, she wasn’t going to stop living her life because of one person trying to ruin it. And she definitely didn’t want to miss the chance of stunning James with her new dress robes.

“Ok, ok. I’ll come,” she said with a smile as Alice and Emma cheered. Everyone smiled and began to laugh, everyone that is except Sirius who was looking out the window that was beside Emma’s bed. He didn’t want to go to the dance, since the person he was bringing was no longer there


The looked at herself in the full-length mirror. She looked really good in her new dress robes. She, Alice and Emma were in the 7th year girl’s dorms getting ready for the dance. Lily was worrying if the dance would be a success.

“But, Hogwarts has never had a dance! It doesn’t seem right. It sounds like some muggle thing. Maybe people won’t like it,” she thought to herself all the while. She asked Emma and Alice if they thought it was a good idea. They looked at her as if she was crazy.

“Of course people will enjoy it Lil!” Alice said.

“Yeah! Hogwarts never does anything fun! This is so unusual, and strange I will admit, but everyone loves the idea!” Emma told her with a smile before going back to fixing her hair.

For two hours the girls joked and laughed as they got ready. Finally they all stood up to admire each other.

“Wow Lils! James is going to have a heart attack when he sees you! That poor guy!” Alice joked.

Lily laughed evilly. “I know, that was the whole point of them!” she said spinning around. Her robes were an emerald green. The neck of it went into a halter, while the back was low ending in point at the bottom. There was a sort of shimmer from the fabric the shone whenever Lily moved. She had curled her hair slightly earlier and now it was held back with a few beautiful gold clips and a gold bracelet on her wrist. The necklace James had given her for Christmas hung around her neck, but when she put it on the tint of blue running through it instantly turned gold to match the clips in her hair. She looked completely stunning.

They all laughed, then Alice turned to Emma. “Em, those robes are brilliant! I don’t think you will have to worry about Dan going anywhere.” Emma laughed and looked down at her robes. They were a deep red, with no straps. Her hair was up in an elegant knot on the top of her head with different parts hanging down and had a silver necklace around her neck with a diamond hanging from it.

“You can talk Alice! I love your robes! Frank will drop dead when he sees them,” Lily smiled as Alice looked in the mirror. Her robes were baby blue with spaghetti straps and crisscross design down the back of it. She had a white gold necklace on with a heart on the end.

The three of them looked in the mirror and smiled happily. It was worth all the work, now it just had to be put to the test.

“So we spent all the money on the robes and stuff, and spent two hours getting ready just to kill our boyfriends with shock?” Alice asked and they all laughed. They opened the door and descended the stairs leading to the common room.

“Where the hell are they? How can it possibly take this long to get ready? They left us two hours ago!” James exclaimed. He was pacing the common room, all sense of the Marauders image of calm and coolness completely gone. He was very nervous about the night ahead. He had a few surprises planned.

“Will you relax Prongs? Girls always take forever to get ready. They will be down soon,” Sirius told him with a smile from the sofa.

“You said that an hour ago Padfoot! The dance starts in ten minutes and Lily and I have to be there at the start. Where the hell is she?” James said as he continued pacing.

“I know. Emma is still up there too. What could possibly take this long?” Dan asked. He too looked pretty nervous.

“You too lover-boys would turn around and look at the staircase you might just find out,” Sirius said with a smirk. He had noticed who was coming down the stairs.

James, Dan and Frank, who had joined them, turned to face the stairs and were completely stunned by the girls descending them. James stumbled backwards and nearly tripped over a chair, to which he heard Sirius try to cover his laugh. Dan and Frank walked forward to meet their dates. James followed, still stunned by Lily’s beauty.

“This dance was the best idea I have ever had!” he thought with a smile.

He reached Lily who was smiling mischievously at him. She was definitely enjoying the effect her dress was having on him.

“Wow Lils! You look amazing!” he stuttered, still in shock.

Lily laughed at the look of amazement on his face as he looked at her. “Well, you don’t look half bad yourself Mr Potter.” She was right. He did look good. His robes were black, like his school robes, but he looked different somehow.

He held out his arm for her to take. “Shall we?” he asked with a smile and she took his arm with a laugh. As they made for the portrait hole Lily turned to Sirius.

“Sirius? Aren’t you coming?” Lily asked him confused.

“No, I don’t feel like going. Not right now anyway,” he told them.

“Why not? It will be fun Padfoot. Since when did you ever miss an excuse to dance with every girl in Hogwarts?” James asked.

“Who said I was going to miss it? I’m just going to arrive fashionably late. Why would I arrive on time? I have to make my big entrance!” Sirius smiled at them.

“If you insist Padfoot. See you later!” James said with a wave as he, Lily, Emma, Dan, Alice and Frank left the common room together.

They reached the Great Hall at five to eight and found Remus with Susan. She was wearing light pink robes and he black. She looked very pretty. Remus seemed to think so because he could barely speak.

At eight everyone entered the Hall at eight and looked around at all the decorations. James and Lily had spent ages putting up all the decorations. Everywhere was pink or red. But it wasn’t over done. Both James and Lily hated frilly things and so agreed they wouldn’t have anything with frills for decorations. But all their hard work paid off. The Hall looked wonderful.

The group got a table along the wall and sat down together. When everyone had settled down Dumbledore stood up and the students fell silent.

“I would like to thank our Head Boy and Girl for arranging this dance for you all. It is not something we usually do at Hogwarts, but in light of recent events we think it would be best to have some fun. So enjoy yourselves, but not too much. You still have classes on Monday,” he said and the students laughed. Since dinner had been earlier, James and Lily had decided on just supplying hand foods for everyone. Lily said she didn’t want to male extra work for the House Elves.

They all spent the first half hour of the dance sitting at their table talking and laughing with one another. But when the music started Alice and Emma jumped up and dragged Dan and Frank to the newly cleared dance floor. Lily laughed at the look on the boys faces when they reached the floor.

She and James stayed where they were, watching their friends dance and joke around. As Lily watched it suddenly struck her how much Jo would be enjoying herself if she was here. Her eyes filled with tears at the thought but angrily pushed them away. She had cried enough and Alice was right, they were here to enjoy themselves. But she still felt a pang in her heart as she looked around the Hall.

James was searching it too, but he was looking for Sirius. He had expected his friend to be here by now. He searched the room but couldn’t even catch a glimpse of that long black hair that belonged to Sirius. “Where is he?”


Sirius left the Gryffindor common room, but instead of heading towards the Astronomy Tower. He had to dodge a lot of girls who were asking if he would dance with them, even though they were on the seventh floor. He shook them all off easily, except a Gryffindor sixth year, Mairead he remembered, who wouldn’t take no for an answer. Eventually he reached the silence of the Astronomy Tower.

He walked over to the balcony and stepped out onto it. He never planned on going to the dance. Not since she wasn’t going to be there.

He sighed as he thought of her. The past two months had been very hard on him. He had acted like he had gotten over Jo’s death, but inside he was still torn apart.

(Nobody Knows It But Me - by Babyface)
I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

He didn’t want anyone to know how upset he was. He didn’t know why but he didn’t. He had never told anyone, not even James, that he had loved her. He had kept her letter a secret. It wasn’t something he wanted others to see. He was so upset, yet angry at the same time. She was gone, she was never coming back. He was angry with himself for waiting so long to tell her how he felt. He was too proud and didn’t want to risk his image, so he never told her he loved her. Sure he had said it on the train platform, but he hadn’t meant to.

Why didn't I say the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around

He missed her so much. He didn’t want her to be gone. He had never been in love before, and knew he wouldn’t ever be again. She was the one and now she was gone there was no one else for him. He just had to face he was alone now.

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

He just wanted the pain to go away. He wanted the constant stabbing in his heart to disappear. He didn’t know why he kept it from everyone, but he did. Maybe he was too proud to admit that someone meant so much to him that even after two months he still missed her like crazy.

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside
And nobody knows it but me

He couldn’t sleep properly anymore. His dreams were haunted by her face, that letter, the image of her being lowered into the grave. His eyes filled with tears and overflowed, slowly running down his face. His heart ripping again.

Lie awake, it's a quarter past three
I'm screaming at night if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
Billion words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be loving you still

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

He wasn’t the same Sirius he used to be, even he saw it in himself. Every smile was forced. Every joke he said wasn’t real. He couldn’t laugh anymore, and when he did it wasn’t the same cheerful laugh it once was. He couldn’t believe one girl could change him so much, but she had. He had fallen deeply and completely in love, just to have her taken from him. His heart had shattered into a million pieces when Dumbledore had told him. But everytime he had heard someone talk about her, or thought about her, every one of those pieces broke into a million more, and nothing could ever repair them.

(Where Do Broken Hearts Go? - by Whitney Houston)
I know it's been some time
But there's something on my mind
You see, I haven't been the same
Since that cold November day...
We said we needed space
But all we found was an empty place
And the only thing I learned
Is that I need you desperately...

So here I am
And can you please tell me... oh

Where do broken hearts go
Can they find their way home
Back to the open arms
Of a love that's waiting there
And if somebody loves you
Won't they always love you

He couldn’t not think about her though. She was always on his mind and he couldn’t get her out of it. Everytime he stepped into the common room a flood of memories washed over him and sent more tears to his eyes. He didn’t know what he was going to do anymore, he just missed her so much it hurt to even breath. He wished for nothing else than just to have her back. He could handle anything if he could just have her back, but he knew he couldn’t. She was gone and he could do nothing about it.

I've been around enough to know
That dreams don't turn to gold
And that there is no easy way
No you just can't run away...
And what we have is so much more
Than we ever had before
And no matter how I try
You're always on my mind

Lily looked around the Hall at all her friends. They were all dancing and joking on the dance floor, they really seemed to be having a good time. She laughed as Emma, who was dancing with Dan, collided with Alice and the two of them fell to the ground, Remus, Dan and Frank laughing at them.

She and James stayed at the table for a while. Lots of people came over to them, congratulating them on the dance. Lily smile at all of them, proud of what they had done.

At nine James stood up and held his hand out to Lily with a smile as she looked at him quizzically. He glanced at a group of fifth year girls who were sitting beside them looking enviously at Lily and grinned.

“Would you care to dance?” he asked with a bow.

Lily laughed at him, but took his hand. “It would be my honour,” she said.

He led her out to the centre of the floor and spun her around before pulling her into him. He glanced at Alice and Emma who were unceremoniously leading their dates off the dance floor.

The song was slow but sweet. Lily enjoyed standing there with James, swaying slightly to the music. But suddenly, all the lights around the Hall dimmed. Everyone looked around, wondering what was going on. Only one table seemed not to be worried about it, in fact they were all smiling happily.

Lily saw Dumbledore step onto the stage, a spotlight on him so the students could see him.

“I am sorry for this interruption. But I have a special request for this next song. And it comes from none other than our Head Boy. Please, enjoy yourselves,” Dumbledore said with a slight smile.

Lily looked at James for an explanation but before she could say anything she noticed the Hall was changing. White and red rose petals were showered around her feet while bouquets of lilies and roses appeared all around the Hall. The lights were all extinguished and the only source of light was from the stars above them and a few candles flouting around the dance floor. It looked amazing. If Lily had thought the Hall had looked good before, it was nothing compared to how it looked now.

The music began to play softly and Lily gasped quietly as she recognised it. It was one of her favourite songs. It came from a movie she always watched when she was on holidays; A Cinderella Story. She and her muggle friend Sarah always talked about how great it would be like Sam in the movie and have something like that happen to her. And now here she was, living that dream.

(I'll Be - by Edwin McCain)
The strands in your eyes
The colour them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains
Are thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their dept.

And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I’ll be captivated, I’ll hang from your lips
Instead of the gateau of heartache that hangs from above.

Lily looked around the Hall and spotted Alice and Emma, laughing together. They were the only ones she had told about the song, so they must have told James.
“I will kill them later,”

I’ll be your crying shoulder
I’ll be love suicide
I’ll be better when I’m older
I’ll be the greatest fan of your life.

And rain falls, angry on the tin roof
As we ly awake in my bed
And you’re my survival
You’re my living truth
My love is alive and not dead.

And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I’ll be captivated, I’ll hang from your lips
Instead of the gateau of heartache that hangs from above.

And I’ll ne your crying shoulder
I’ll be love suicide
I’ll be better when I’m older
I’ll be the greatest fan of your life.

Lily couldn’t believe James had done this. It was so beautiful and perfect. As she looked at him he smiled and spun her out and back into him. She was very impressed by his dancing, she never thought he would be such a good dancer. He spun her again and dipped her towards the floor, bringing her back up with a smile.

Everyone watched as they danced. No one else was dancing. The couples that had been on the floor had moved to the side so only James and Lily were left in the middle. Alice and Emma stood at the edge of the floor smiling widely. When James had come to them and asked to help they weren’t sure how Lily would react. But it had been worth it. They saw Lily had the biggest smile ever on her face, with an identical one stuck on James’. They had never seen them so happy, especially when they were together.

“What’s next? I can’t remember, he gave us such a long list I can’t remember what comes next,” Emma said.

“You’ll just have to wait and see then won’t you?” Alice laughed quietly as Emma hit her.

James spun Lily one final time as the song ended. It was so perfect Lily couldn’t speak. But as the music of the song slowed down it blended into another. Lily knew this one too, she just wandered how James had gotten hold of it.

(Have I Told You Lately - Van Morrison)
Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there's no one above you
Fill my heart with gladness
Take away my sadness
Ease my troubles
That's what you do

All the morning sun in all it's glory
Wishes there was hope and corn for two
And you fill my life with laughter
You can make it better
Ease my troubles that's what you to

There's a love that's divine
And it's yours and it's mine
Like the sun

At the end of the day
We should give thanks and pray
To the one

Lily was sure James had gone through an awful lot of trouble searching for these songs, and she couldn’t believe he had found them.

James looked down into her eyes he saw them sparkle and he spun her around with a smile. “Phase one; complete,” he told himself happily. This was one of his best plans ever. It had been a lot of work, tracking down the songs, charming the decorations to appear, getting the lights to change. But when he looked again at Lily and saw how happy she seemed he smiled at her again. “Definitely worth it!”

The song ended a few minutes later and James dipped Lily to the ground again and brought her back up to him as the last note finished. She gave him a big smile, her eyes twinkling.

“Wow James, that was amazing. How did you do it?” she asked. She hadn’t moved from the position she was in for the dance. Her arms were still around James and they continued to stand alone in the centre of the floor.

“I can’t reveal my secrets,” he told her. “But there is something else. I want to give you something.”

Lily looked puzzled. “James, you didn’t have to get me anything. Really, this is more than enough,”

“No, nothing is enough when it concerns you,” he whispered into her ear making her blush slightly.

He handed her a flat velvet box. She looked at him again before opening the box and looked at the bracelet inside. It was gorgeous. It was silver like her necklace, with a sort of Celtic design. As she looked closer she saw there were lilies carved along it.

“Oh, James, it is wonderful. You didn’t have to do this. Thank you so much,” she choked. It really was beautiful.

“Turn it over,” he told her softly.

She did so and looked a bit confused. It read; 10:49 September 1st 1970.

James laughed at the look of puzzlement on her face and gently lifted the bracelet out of her hand. “That is the first time I saw you Lily. And the first time I realised I always wanted to be with you,” he told her.

She gazed up at him in shock. “How can you remember that James? It was so long ago,”

He gave another small laugh. “You are not easy to forget Lils.” She smiled, leaning in to kiss him. She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him deeply. Neither of them payed any attention to the crowd around them until they started to cheer and shout at them. Lily broke off blushing but still smiling.

“Happy Valentine’s Day Lil,” James said.

“Yeah, Happy Valentine’s Day James,” she said with a smile before kissing him again.

“See, I told you it would work!” Alice laughed as they all came onto the dance floor towards them. James glared at them for coming over but they just laughed at him.

“You have her later James! We told you she would love it!” Emma said with a smirk. Lily laughed and turned to James.

“So, you had help?” she asked with a grin.

“A little. You are a difficult girl to please Lily Evans. And surprise, the hardest thing was keeping it from you. You figure everything out, I had to make up so many excuses to go and work on this that I have ran out now!” he told her as if he was exhausted.

“I don’t think he tried very hard. He kept coming up to us ‘Lily is getting suspicious, can you go on and start? I will be there soon’” Remus said.

They all laughed before splitting up into their couples again. Lily turned to James with a mischievous glint in her eyes.

“Thank you so much James, this is beautiful. So, I guess I have to repay you now?” she asked with a sly smile.

“You better! I've barely slept because I was too busy getting this ready. I think I deserve a reward,” he told her with a grin as he placed his arm around her waist again. Lily laughed and together they left the Hall.

James cast one final look around the Hall before leaving trying to find Sirius. But he couldn’t see him anywhere. “Um……wonder where Padfoot got to? Pity he wasn’t here. Probably with some girl,”

He didn’t realise how wrong he was. Sirius wasn’t with a girl, just thinking about one. One that was no longer there.

A/N: James is very showy isn't he? But sweet too! Poor Sirius I hate breaking his heart! What did you think??? PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!!!

Chapter 25: Chapter 25: N.E.W.T's and Werewolves
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Chapter 25: N.E.W.T’s and Werewolves.

The next few months passed quickly for everyone, especially the seventh and fifth years. Their exams were in a few weeks and the pressure of them was getting to the students. Especially Lily, she was not coping well with all the stress she was putting on herself. She snapped at people when they tried to talk to her, even James was getting scared of her because of the wand she pulled on him the day before for trying to give her a kiss on the cheek. He now knew not to bug Lily when she was studying.

No one had any free time anymore. They were either in the library or the common room studying. Even Sirius realised the importance of the exams and was studying. Not to the same extent as Lily, but he was still studying.

The teachers also felt the need to point out every lesson how close their exams were. Lily would have a panic-attack when they mentioned it, even though she knew how many days it was until the exams began.

A few days before the exams the group sat on the floor in the Gryffindor common room studying. Remus was the only one not there, he had gone to the Hospital Wing. He had told them he was sick but James and Sirius knew better, tonight was a full moon. The strain of the exams was causing the tempers of the group to wear thin and they were threatening any student who made too much noise while they were in the room.

“Don’t they know how to stay quiet?” Lily asked exasperatedly.

“Lily they are only whispering,” James told her. “You need to relax. What has gotten in to you? You were never this stressed during any of our other exams.”

“I can’t relax! The exams are in a three days! They determine what we are fit to do when we leave school! Of course I am stressed about them!” Lily told him.

“Lils honey, if you keep up like this the only thing you will be fit for is the mental wing in St Mungo’s,” James told her.

“Shut up James! I am under a lot of stressure at the minute and I don’t need your smart comments thank you!” Lily said angrily.

“Stressure? Is this the new Lily language we should all learn?” Sirius asked with a laugh. “You don’t need to worry about the exams, you can create your own words, who needs to know anything else?”

“I meant stress and pressure, don’t try and be smart with me Black, I’m not in the mood for it,” Lily told him scathingly.

“I think we could all do with a break,” Alice suggested. “Relax a bit,”

“That is the best thing I have heard all day!” Sirius exclaimed happily, closing all his books and jumping to his feet.

“Yeah, come on Lil, we can go outside and get some fresh air,” James told her reaching down to pull her up.

“I can’t, I have far too much to do. I-” Lily started but stopped and looked down appalled at the table. All her books, notes, quills and ink had disappeared. “What the hell did you do Potter? Where are my things?”

“You will get them back after you come outside for a break. You are working yourself up too much. You aren’t going to fail because you took a break. After an hour or so we will come back and I will give you all your books back and you can bury yourself in them again,” James told her with a grin. She sighed and stood up with his help.

“I will get you for this Potter, you won’t get away with it,” she told him.

James just grinned again and moved in to kiss her on the cheek but she backed away.

“No James. You said we are all going to take a break, and we are all going to go outside and relax, and I don’t think you kissing me involves all of us so we can’t,” Lily told him with an evil smirk and walked out of the common room with a laugh.

James sighed and shook his head. “Well at least she is calming down a bit,”


James was walking around the castle looking for Lily. She had disappeared an hour ago and never told him where she was going. But he knew there were only two places she could be; Gryffindor common room or the library. He had to tell her he wouldn’t be able to do rounds tonight but he couldn’t tell her the real reason. Tonight was a full moon and he would be with Remus, but he had to think of an excuse to tell Lily. He had been making up things every month to get out of it and go with a Remus and he had a feeling Lily was getting suspicious.

He walked into the silent library and sure enough there was Lily sitting at a table in the corner with Alice and Emma, books surrounding them. He took a deep breath and walked over to the table.

“Hey ladies,” he said with a smile.

“Hi James,” Alice replied but Emma and Lily just waved their hands to show they knew he was there.

“Um….Lily can I talk to you for a minute?” he asked

“Ok,” said Lily suspiciously.

He turned and walked out of the library, Lily right behind him. Once outside he turned to her with a smile.

“Hi Lils,” he said cheerfully. “Listen, I won’t be able to do rounds tonight, I have something I need to do,”

Lily looked at him suspiciously. “What?”

“What, what?” James asked confused.

“What do you have to do?” she asked.

“Oh….I have to….I have detention,” he said quietly.

“What did you do to get detention?”

“It wasn’t me, Sirius started it, but we both ended up with detention, so did Peter” James said in a hurry, unable to come up with a good excuse under Lily’s questioning stare.

“Ok, I’ll do them myself. See you back in the common room later then?” she asked huffily. She hated doing rounds on her own but James had left her a few times during the year, but what for she didn’t know.

“Definitely!” James said, happy she wasn’t questioning him further. “Bye,” he said and gave her a kiss on the cheek before heading to Gryffindor Tower.

Lily sighed and returned to her table in the library. She sat down with a frown and Alice looked up at her questioningly.

“What did James want?” Alice asked.

“Or is it something we would rather not here?” Emma asked with a grin.

“No nothing like that, he just wanted to tell me he wouldn’t be able to do rounds tonight,” Lily told them.

“Oh. Did he say why?” Emma asked.

“Said he, Sirius and Peter have detention,” Lily said. She looked at the table thoughtfully. “Do you….Do you think James is cheating on me?”

Alice and Emma looked at each other appalled.

“Of course not Lily, he loves you. Why would you think that?” Alice asked confused.

“I don’t know, he has bailed on rounds a few times and he always seems so uncomfortable when he tells me he can’t make it. He just looks like he is hiding something form me,” Lily told them worriedly. She didn’t thin James would cheat on her like Robert had.

“I’m sure he has a good excuse not to be there Lily. He wouldn’t give up the chance to spend an hour with you on your own if it wasn’t important,” Emma advised.

Lily just shrugged, unsure what to think. She didn’t believe James would cheat on her, but then why was he hiding something from her?

“We could follow him tonight, see where he goes?” Alice suggested.

“Alice! We can’t do that! That is a violation of James privacy!” Emma told her.

“Emma what did I say about using big words? The exams are in a few days and I don’t need your confusing vocabulary baffling me any further. Anyway, why can’t we follow him? He is keeping something from Lily and all we want to do is find out what. When it is clear he isn’t seeing another girl we will go back,” Alice said.

Lily wasn’t so sure about this plan. Yes she wanted to know what James was doing everytime he abandoned her but what if he caught her following him? She agreed in the end and so did Emma but she did give a few more lectures about peoples right to privacy until Alice told her she wasn’t allowed to use any word with more than six letters in it for the rest of the day as she was too confusing when she spoke.

At seven o’clock James, Sirius and Peter left the girls in the common room telling them they were going to their detentions. They girls gave them a head-start before they followed them at a safe distance.

Lily was confused when she saw them cross the Entrance Hall and out through the front doors. The three girls wrapped their robes around them tightly themselves and followed the boys out into the darkness. They followed them to the Whomping Willow and hid behind a bush, out of sight.

They watched very confused as to what was going on. It didn’t look like James was meeting a girl, but then what was he doing. Lily watched bewildered when all of a sudden Peter disappeared. She looked at Alice and Emma to see if they had any idea what was going on but they looked just as confused as she did.

The tree stopped moving suddenly and James and Sirius climbed into a hole that appeared to be at the base of the tree. Lily, Alice and Emma exchanged looks of understanding, stood up and walked silently over to the place where James and Sirius had disappeared. There was a well covered hole at the base of the tree that you wouldn’t notice if you didn’t already know it was there. It seemed to lead into a tunnel so the three girls climbed down carefully and walked quietly along the passage looking around it wearily.

Lily wasn’t sure why James had come down here but the tunnel was starting to scare her slightly. She heard voices from ahead and they stopped, backs against the wall, listening to them. Lily identified them immediately as James and Sirius.

“I still feel bad everytime we come here and have to watch him,” James said sadly.

“Yeah, me too. I hate seeing him go through it,” Sirius agreed.

“Did you see Wormtail?”

“I think he went up to him already. Being so small he can just jump when he is nearly fully there,” James said.

Lily was getting more confused by the minute. “What are they talking about? What is going on?” she thought to herself. Casting a look at Alice and Emma who nodded in agreement she stepped around the corner to where James and Sirius were standing talking.

“James Harry Potter! What the hell do you think you are doing?” Lily asked him angrily. No way he was getting away with lying to her so he could get out of rounds and hang out with his friends.

“Lily! What are you doing here? How did you get here?” James asked her with a scared look on his face. He had to get them out of there right away before they got themselves into a load of trouble.

“I was looking for you. What do think you are doing? You told me you had detention,” Lily said, her temper rising.

“Lily we really have to get out of here. I’ll explain when we do but right now we really have to go,” James told her, moving forward to try and lead her out of the tunnel but she stopped him.

“No James, you are going to tell me why you lied to me. What was so important you left me to do rounds by myself? Or that you couldn’t even tell me the truth?” Lily asked, her eyes blazing.

“I’ll tell you later, but we reall-” James started but stopped when he heard a low growl behind him. It was too late now, Mooney had arrived. James turned to Sirius who nodded and ran towards the werewolf, transforming into a large black dog as he ran. James turned back to the three girls who were frozen in fear.

“Come on hurry, we have to get out of here!” James told them, pulling them along the passage.

“What……What is going on James?” Lily asked as she began to run back up the passage with him, Alice and Emma right behind them.

“I will tell you later Lily, just get yourselves out of here,” James told them.

“What? Aren’t you coming with us?” Alice asked.

“I’ll be there in a few minutes, I have to go back and help Padfoot,” James said.

“Are you crazy James? There is a werewolf back there! It’s far too dangerous!” Lily said.

But from right behind James came another growl. James spun around and came face to face with the werewolf. He raised one of his paws and swiped James away. Lily screamed and the werewolf advanced on her hungrily. Lily fumbled in her pocket for her wand and pointed it shakily at the approaching werewolf.

“The wand will only aggravate it more Lily. Run!” James said trying to get to his feet but falling against the wall.

Lily faced the werewolf again and went pale when she saw his bared teeth, the teeth that could ruin a persons life forever. Something jumped at the werewolf from behind distracting it, but not before it hit Lily across the face causing her to fall to the ground.

She looked up and saw a magnificent white stag fighting furiously with the werewolf. The stag turned his head towards her and she sensed there was something familiar about him. He stared directly at her and inclined his head towards the exit. Lily took the hint and ran for it.

Lily, Alice and Emma ran the remainder of the tunnel until they reached the opening at the base of the tree. They climbed out and ran away from the tree. They stopped just beyond the tree breathing heavily. Lily was shaking from the attack and reached up to touch her injured cheek, it was bleeding badly but she didn’t care, she was worried about James because he was still down there.

“Come on Lily, we have to get away from here,” Alice told her.

“But Jam-”

“James will be fine Lily, he can handle it, but we have to get out of here,” Emma said and both of them moved to Lily and dragged her towards the castle and up to the Gryffindor common room.

Surprisingly they encountered no one on the way and reached an empty common room. Lily fell down onto the sofa, exhausted from running and from the shock of the attack. There was no way she would be able to sleep until James came back. Question after question chased themselves around her mind but she knew the answer to none of them.

“Lil, we should clean up your cheek, it looks bad,” Alice told her conjuring different supplies to clean and bandage Lily’s cut.

“It is fine, I don’t need to clean it,” Lily told her, still shaking slightly and staring fixedly at the portrait hole.

“Yes you do, so shut up and let me help you,” Alice said moving to her side and turning her face so the cut was facing her. She took about twenty minutes to clean and bandage the cut, during which they all sat in silence.

After two hours the portrait hole opened and James, Sirius and Peter walked in covered in bruises and cuts. Lily jumped out of her seat and rushed over to James, leading him to the nearest chair. He sank back into it with Sirius in the one beside him while Peter sat on the floor. Lily kneeled down in front of him and looked at him worriedly. James saw the worry on her face and smiled a strained smile.

“Don’t worry Lils, I’m fine,” he told her.

“Good,” she said before hitting him on the shoulder. “What the hell do you think you were doing James? You frightened the life out of me! What the hell is going on?”

“Ok, ok, we will tell you but you have to promise you won’t tell anyone about it,” James said looking at all three girls who nodded. He took a deep breath and glanced at Sirius before continuing. “Remus, he is a….he’s a werewolf,”

Alice, Emma and Lily looked at each other shocked, but James continued explaining.

“We found out in our second year. Every month he would disappear saying one of his family members were sick, but we never bought it. We confronted him about it and he admitted it, afraid we would turn away from him but we didn’t. Every full moon he goes down to the Whomping Willow and down the tunnel to the Shrieking Shack to transform,” James told them.

“But then how did you get away-” Alice asked.

“I’m getting there. We wanted to help him with his transformations but we knew he couldn’t go with him so we thought of a different way. We knew we couldn’t accompany him as humans so we tried animals,” James said but continued at the confused looks from the girls. “We are unregistered Animagi, Sirius, Peter and I. The black dog you saw was Sirius, Peter is a rat and I am a stag,” he told them.

“So every full moon we follow Mooney down to Shrieking Shack and help him as he transforms,” Sirius told them.

Lily was kicking herself for not realising it. It all made sense, he disappeared once a month, he always looked sick, it all fitted.

“Poor Remus, I can’t imagine what he goes through,” Alice said sadly.

“None of us can. That is why we went through so much trouble to learn how to transform so he wouldn’t be alone,” James said. He then looked at Lily.

“What were you doing down there anyway Lils? You could have gotten yourself killed,” he asked. Lily blushed and looked at the ground, embarrassed at what she had done. She should have realised James would never leave her unless it was realLy important.

“I’m sorry James, I just wanted to know where you were going. I thought that maybe……maybe you were cheating on me,” Lily said quietly.

“Oh…well you should know I would never do that Lily. I love you and I could never love anyone more,” James told her, taking hold of her hand.

“I know, I just…..I don’t know, I was stupid,” Lily said wiping a few stray tears that were falling from her eyes. James laughed and lifted her onto his lap.

“It’s ok, I forgive you. Just don’t scare me like that again. I don’t know what I’d do if I lost you,” James said.

“Me neither,” Lily told him burying her head in his chest as he put his arms around her.

They all stayed up talking until early in the morning. The portrait opened again and Remus stumbled in looking frightened. He spotted Lily and rushed over to her.

“Lily I am so sorry, there was nothing I could do. I didn’t mean to-” he babbled.

“It is ok Remus, I am fine. You don’t have to worry, I know you had no control over it,” she said kindly.

“So you know about me?” he asked.

“Yes, and I don’t care. It has nothing got to do with the person you are, it is just something that happens every month. None of us care Remus, we still love you like we always have,” Lily told him with a smile. Alice and Emma nodded in agreement.

Remus sat down beside Sirius who was laughing.

“Well Prongs, looks like you have competition, Lily loves someone else too,” he said and they all laughed, forgetting what had happened earlier that night.

A/N: PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!! Poor Lily! She has a small reason to be a bit worried about her relationship with James right? And of course Remus couldn't keep his secret forever! Please tell me what you think I really need to know!!! = )

Chapter 26: Chapter 26: Remember When?
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Chapter 26: Remember When?

The final week of school passed as a blur for Lily. N.E.W.T’s were now over and she was definitely glad about that. They had not been an easy feat and she had counted down the days until they were over. But now she had them over with she was starting to feel sad. She only had two days left in Hogwarts, then she was leaving it forever. She didn’t want to go, Hogwarts had been her home for the past seven years, the first place she felt she belonged. She had no idea where she was going to go when she left. She was going into Auror training yes, but where was she going to live? She no longer had a home to return to since her parents had died.

The weather was gorgeous and the group of friends were relishing their last few days in the castle by strolling around the grounds every day. Just looking around the grounds made Lily feel sad, she couldn’t believe tomorrow was her last day here. Tomorrow they graduated then left on the train the next morning for the last time.

Once again they were walking around the lake, Lily holding into James as they stared out at the vast lake, remembering all the times they had spent there. Sirius sat down under the big tree at the lake’s edge and everyone followed. All of them were there this time, even Dan, Frank and Amelia had joined them for their last walk around the grounds.

“How many times have we sat under this tree?” Alice asked.

“No idea, I lost count after the first fifty or so,” James said with a laugh.

“Can you believe we are graduating tomorrow?” Emma asked.

“No, it feels like we only got here, and now we are leaving,” Remus said sadly.

“Do you remember our first day on the train? The first time we all met?” James asked with a smile.

“Yeah, and James was great ‘til he got his first glimpse of Lily then he changed. That minute or so I knew him before, they were the good times,” Sirius said with a laugh.

Lily definitely remembered her first day, it was hard to forget.

Lily walked shyly onto the platform. Running through a seemingly solid wall had scared her slightly but then she saw all the witches and wizards on the platform and she was terrified. She knew nothing about magic or wizards or Hogwarts but here she was about to go to this new school for witches.

She walked up to the huge red train that read ‘Hogwarts Express’ on the front. Her trunk was heavy and she pulled it onto the train with great difficulty. A kind looking girl came up behind her and smiled.

“Would you like a hand?” she asked.

“Yes please,” said Lily with a smile and the two girls carried the trunk until they reached a compartment with a trunk already inside. The girl opened the door and pulled the trunk inside with Lily’s help. When they stored it safely in the luggage rack at the top Lily turned again to the girl.

“Thanks. I’m Lily Evans, nice to meet you,” she said holding out her hand.

The girl smiled widely and shook Lily’s hand. “I’m Alice Osbourne,” she said. They both smile and sat down on the seats.

At eleven the train stared to move and Lily felt more nervous now she knew she was really on her way. The train journey was fun. Lily and Alice talked for ages about everything. Lily learned Alice was a pureblood witch and was an only child. She was learning a lot about the wizarding world and Hogwarts when the compartment door opened and another first year girl by the look of her walked in.

“Hi! Is there anyone sitting there? Everywhere else is full,” she asked.

Lily shook her head and the girl sat down.

“I’m Joanne Plunkett,” she introduced herself with a smile.

“Hi, I’m Lily Evans,” Lilt told her.

“I’m Alice Osbourne,” Alice said.

The three girls enjoyed the journey immensely until the door opened again, this time to reveal a boy. Alice sighed when she saw one of them and looked away.

“Sirius I will kill you!” said a boy with very untidy black hair and glasses. He looked around the compartment and smiled. “Then again, maybe not. Hi Alice, aren’t you going to introduce me to your friends?”

“Not unless it would make you go away,” Alice told him but he just shrugged. “Fine, Lily, Jo, this is James Potter, my very annoying neighbour,”

“Nice to meet you ladies, especially you Lily, you are very beautiful you know,” James said with a charming smile.

Lily couldn’t believe him. He was eleven for goodness sake and he was acting as if he was twenty. Lily rolled her eyes and turned away but she was happy that he had called her beautiful, she had never been called beautiful before.

“Hey James where did you get to? All I did was send you in to drop a frog, what is taking so long?” asked a new voice. Lily looked at the door and saw three more boys standing there. The one who had spoken had long black hair and grey eyes, the one behind him who looked very shy had a light brown colour hair and blue eyes and the last boy looked very excited and had mouse-coloured hair with blue eyes. The one who spoke looked around the compartment as James had and smiled widely.

“Why didn’t you tell us you had made new acquaintances James?” he asked.

“You were planning on putting a frog in our compartment?” Jo asked him coldly. “Bit immature,”

“We were until we realised it was occupied by three very pretty girls. Let me introduce myself, I am Sirius Black madam,” he said. Jo rolled her eyes and turned away.

“James take yourself and your friends out of our compartment,” Alice said angrily.

“Why Alice? We like it here and we would like to get to know your friends better,” James told her.

“If you don’t I will just have to write in my letter home that you were causing trouble on the train, and I don’t think your mother would be very happy to hear that would she?” Alice asked sweetly.

James gulped and stood up. “Ok, we'll go, but I don’t see why you are making such a big deal,” he said but Alice gave him a stern look and he left with Sirius and his friends behind him.

Lily and Alice were rolling around laughing as they remembered that first meeting.

“Poor James, intimidated by a girl and a threat to tell his mother, you were so easy to persuade,” Alice laughed.

“And still is,” Lily said with a smile as James pulled her in closer to him.

“You didn’t get on well together the first time you all met did you?” Emma said with a laugh.

“No, we hated them. It took over six years for us to like them even a little,” Alice said.

“Hey, we weren’t that bad, we were young and stupid,” Sirius said.

“Well you aren’t that young anymore but you’re still as stupid, if not more,” Lily said with a grin. They all sat there for hours laughing and remembering different things that had happened during their years together.

“Remember the first time Prongs asked Lily out? That was brilliant!” Sirius said and they all laughed as they remembered it.

“Yeah, in fourth year he was sure she liked him and felt the need to ask her publicly,” Remus laughed as James blushed slightly.

It was a warm day at the end of April. James was sitting under a tree by the lake with Sirius, Remus and Peter, but his attention was elsewhere. He was staring at a very pretty red-head sitting not so far away from him with her friends. He turned back to his friends when he heard his name.

“Prongs, why don’t you just ask Evans out instead of staring at her all day long?” Sirius asked him.

“You know what Padfoot, I think you’re right,” James said with a smile as he stood up, closely followed by Sirius, Remus and Peter. He walked over to where Lily was sitting smiling confidently.

“Hey Lily Flower,” he said.

“What do you want Potter? I’m not in the mood to be another victim for one of your childish pranks,” Lily told him without looking at him.

“You hurt me Lily, why would I play a prank on someone so beautiful?” he asked pretending to be shocked.

“You never seemed to have any problem for the last four years,” she told him.

“Well, I am going to make it up to you now and offer you a once in a life time chance,” James said with a smile.

“Oh yeah, and what is that? The chance to get rid of you?”

“No even better, I am giving you the chance to go out with me. Most girls would kill to have this golden opportunity. What do you say?” he asked.

“Potter, I am not most girls so there is no way I will ever go out with you. I don’t know what possessed you to ask me but no way in hell am I going to,” Lily told him.

“Come on Evans, what is wrong with you? You don’t know how lucky you are to be considered by me, it is really an honour,” James told her with a grin.

“There is nothing wrong with me Potter, I just don’t date arrogant, bullying toe-rags who always wants to be the centre of attention. So that rules you out completely Potter,” Lily told him, her temper rising. “Now if you don’t go away and leave us alone you will regret it,”

“Fine Evans, but remember you might never get another chance like this, are you sure you want to reject?” James asked. Lily didn’t reply but instead pulled out her wand and sent a jinx at him making him fly a few feet back across the ground and land in the lake. He stuck his head up out of the water, spluttering with the water that had gotten into his mouth.

“I’m sure Potter. I would date the giant squid before I date you,” Lily told him with a satisfied smirk before storming off, Jo and Alice following laughing.

“That was definitely worth the detention I got,” Lily said through her laughter.

“You never told me how your date with the giant squid went. Should I be jealous?” James asked with a smile.

“No, he wasn’t really my type. He couldn’t keep his tentacles to himself,” Lily said laughing again.

“How many times do you think James asked Lily out before she finally agreed?” Frank asked.

“Well over a thousand,” Remus said.

“I don’t think I want to know! I lost count after fifth year and by then it was four hundred,” Sirius said.

“You were pretty desperate man. I mean you made a complete fool out of yourself most of the time,” Dan said grinning.

“It was worth it in the end,” James said. “You mean to tell me if you saw someone like Lily walk past you you wouldn’t try everything you could do get her?”

“Maybe I would but I think I would have taken the hint after six hundred ‘no way’s” Dan said.

“I think Prongs holds the longest crush in the history of Hogwarts,” Remus said.

“And the most rejections by one girl!” Sirius added.

“Well I was right, she really did like me,” James said.

“No, after 1001 I felt sorry for you,” Lily said slyly. James turned to her in shock but she just laughed and kissed him.

“But then you grew on me,” Lily told him. He smiled and leaned in making to kiss her but instead started to tickle her, making her scream as she tried to get away from him. After ten minutes he relented and Lily sat back up, red from laughing so much.

“Do any of you know what you are going to do when you leave?” Emma asked.

“We are all going to be Aurors,” James said indicating to himself, Lily, Sirius and Remus.

“I’m going to be a Healer, I was accepted as an intern last week,” Alice told them. “What about you guys?” she asked the others.

“I was thinking of becoming a curse-breaker. It sounds cool,” Emma said.

“I’m going to be an Auror too,” said Frank.

“I was thinking of being a professional Quidditch player. I have a tryout for the Chudley Cannons in three weeks,” Dan told them.

“Well I still have another year to go here so I’m not sure,” Amelia said sadly. She wa the only one not graduating tomorrow.

They all looked expectantly at Peter who hadn’t said anything yet.

“I…I don’t know yet,” he said quietly.

“What? We are graduating tomorrow and you don’t know what career you are going to do?” Lily asked confused.

“Well…I don’t know I want to be yet, I’m still trying to find something,” he told them.

They all shrugged before Emma turned to them again.

“Does anyone have any plans yet besides jobs? Like living arrangements? Maybe even marriage?” she asked them with a smile hoping someone would have something to tell.

Alice and Frank looked at one another quickly. Frank nodded and Alice turned to everyone.

“Frank I and I are engaged!” she told them excitedly, looking like she was going to burst with happiness.

Lily and Emma squealed and jumped on Alice.

“Why didn’t you tell us?” Lily asked.

“When did this happen?” asked Emma.

“Let’s see the ring!” they both said. Alice laughed and showed a very beautiful engagement ring. It was gold with quite a large diamond in the middle of it. The girls screamed again and started laughing.

The boys were all clapping Frank on the back and congratulating him. Or in Sirius’ case, telling him he had made a very big mistake.

“So, when did you go and throw your life away?” Sirius asked him.

“Frank asked me on Monday night after all the N.E.W.T’s were over. It was so perfect!” Alice said excitedly.

“Why didn’t you say anything ‘til now?” James asked.

“We wanted to surprise you all at graduation but then we decided to say it now since you asked,” Frank said.

They all sat there until late in the evening, reliving more memories and funny incidents. They recalled some of the Marauders more brilliant pranks and laughed as hard as they had the day it had been pulled.

Lily was really going to miss this. Tomorrow was their last day together, then everyone would go their separate ways. She didn’t know if she would see all of them again, let alone together. No matter how many times they promised to stay in touch it would be hard with all of them seeking after their own new careers.

But they were all going to make the best of their time left together. There was no point dwelling on what might happen in the future, she had to live in the present. And right now the present involved her and all her friends enjoying their last day of school out in the grounds under the bright stars.

She even felt the ones who weren’t physically there were sharing the night with them, from the stars above.

A/N: Awww so sweet! Hehe! Well only one more chapter left here and then it's all over! Not entirely there is a sequel but this story will be over! what did you think? Did you like it/hate it?? Please review and tell me!! Thanks so much to everyone for reading!!! = )

Chapter 27: Chapter 27: Endings and Beginnings
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Chapter 27: Endings and Beginnings

The next morning dawned faster than Lily had expected. She woke up early and looked around her dorm. Then it hit her, this was her last day in Hogwarts ever. Today she was graduating and tomorrow would be getting the train away for the last time. The thought brought tears to her eyes. The fact she was never going to come back to Hogwarts hadn’t fully hit her yet, but it was starting to.

She got up with a sigh and started to get ready. She had to look better than she ever had today. She had to leave the school and make sure noone forgot her. Plus she had to make a speech and stand in front of all the seventh years, so she wanted to look her best.

In little over an hour she emerged from her room and stood in the common room with a smile. This room held a lot of memories even though she had only been in it for a year. But this year had been very eventful and had reason to be remembered, some things fondly but some that brought even more tears to her eyes.

She looked around the room and laughed remembering some of the evenings she and James had spent in it. She didn’t notice James had appeared in his doorway and was watching her with a wide grin. He shook up behind her and put his arms around her waist, making her jump.

“Ahh…oh James, it’s you. You scared me,” Lily told him but turned around to face him with a smile.

“What were you thinking about?” he asked her.

“Just remembering all that has happened this year,” she told him with a smile that was happy but had some sadness hidden it.

“But why were you laughing?”

She grinned mischievously at him. “I was thinking about all the times we were spent here in this room,”

James laughed too and gazed around the room. He was going to miss it here. He could hardly remember life before Hogwarts. Hogwarts was his life and now he had to leave it behind him, but not without taking a few things with him he had picked up along the way.

“I think we should go down to breakfast. The ceremony is starting in a hour and we have to go down to it early,” Lily said leading him out of their common room.

The Great Hall was packed when they reached it. James smiled at it as he walked over to his friends at the Gryffindor table. It seemed he was going to be doing a lot of smiling and remembering today.

“Can you believe this is the last breakfast we will ever eat at Hogwarts?” Alice said as they sat down. “It is so sad,”

“She’s just a little ray of sunshine isn’t she?” Sirius said.

“But it is sad. After tomorrow we have to go out into the world on our own. It is a scary thought,” Lily said.

“You people are going to depress me before I have a chance to enjoy my breakfast!” Sirius complained and James laughed at him. He was really going to miss here.

Soon after they all stood up to make their way outside to where the ceremony was taking place, but as soon as the pushed back their chairs to stand up the Hall started to applaud them. Lily looked around to see students clapping them and more joining in as they began to leave the Hall. James and Sirius were laughing and waving at them all.

“Looks like they will never forget the Marauders!” James said with a big grin.

“How could they? We are unforgettable!” Sirius told him and clapped him on the shoulder.

Over by the lake were rows pf chairs laid out for the students to sit on. In front of them a stage had been erected and a podium in the centre. Lily began to get nervous and even upset as she saw it. This was it, this was the end of Hogwarts for her.

They sat on the row of seats at the front of the crowd and waited as the remaining seventh years took their seats. Teachers began to arrive as the students settled and finally Lily noticed Dumbledore walking up the aisle between the seats. He stepped up onto the stage and stood at the podium, looking down at all of them with a smile.

“Today we are here to celebrate your years here at Hogwarts. For many they were a challenge, for some it was like home, but to all I believe they were enjoyable and an experience you will never forget,” he started glancing around the sea of students.

“This year was different to any I have seen before. You dealt with a lot and still came out on top. I am very proud of each and every one of you sitting before me. All though you might not have all gotten along, you never let your personal prejudices cloud what was the best decision. Remember that when you leave here and go into the real world. The world is lucky to have such amazing people about to be put into it to help defend it and make it better. Whatever you decide to do as a career remember all the lessons that you learned here; stand up for what you believe in, don’t stand aside and let your fears take over, fight for what you think us right no matter what the risks are. Remember it is more important to make an ally than an enemy and fight for those younger than you and for those you love. Don’t give into the pressure you will be faced with. I’m not worried about any of you here. You have all proven yourselves that you can handle anything that is thrown at you. Whether it was with laughs or pranks or hard work, all of you managed to get through your seven years here and I must say I have never been more proud of anyone than I am of you sitting in front of me,” Dumbledore said with a smile as he looked at every student sitting in the crowd.

“So, I would now like to ask our Head Boy and Girl to come up here and say a few words,” Dumbledore said, gesturing to James and Lily who stood up together and walked onto the stage. Lily looked at James and he gave her a smile telling her to go first. She took a deep breath and walked over to the podium.

“This year has been a tough one. We have all had to deal with a lot. Between the loss of a fellow student and friend to the loss of family some of us have experienced it has been a sad and sorrowful time,” she started looking at the crowd.

“As our Headmaster has said, Hogwarts was many different things for all of us. For me at the beginning it was a new and exciting challenge. I had never known anything about magic, or Hogwarts, until I got my letter. I didn’t know what to expect, but nothing could have prepared me for what it really was. I wanted to prove to people I belonged here, that you don’t have to be pureblood to be one of the best. So I worked hard and achieved high marks in my classes. But until this year I never realised that high grades and perfect behaviour aren’t the most important thing in the world,” she said looking at her friends.

“I learned this year that having people who care for you is something that nothing else can compare to. It doesn’t matter if you have the greatest marks in the school if you don’t have anyone to share it with. I learned that this year, surprisingly, because of James Potter. Who would have ever thought he would be the one to turn me around?” she asked and the crowd laughed.

“He showed me after my parents died that there were still people in the world who cared for me and that I should never give up on them or myself. I want to give you all that same advice. We are all facing difficult times but don’t underestimate you or your friends strength because they could be the ones who save you in the end. Enjoy them while they are there because you won’t realise how much you depend on them until they are no longer there to help. Until my parents died I never knew how much I counted on them even though I only saw them during the summer. The same held through when Jo died. I never knew how important she was to me and many others until she was gone. We never get over the loss of someone we love, but we can’t stop living because of it either, we have to move on. It is hard at times and many of us have felt that pain this year, but don’t let that pain control you and make you afraid. Don’t let the ones who have died for us have died in vain,” she said sadly with tears forming.

“We are all about to go out into the world where there are many things awaiting us. Some of us may choose to become Healers, Aurors or even Qudditch stars, but don’t ever forget the times we had here. I don’t think I’ll ever forget the laughs and fun we’ve had over the years. Especially because we were unfortunate enough to land in the same year as the Marauders,” she said with a grin looking at Sirius, Remus, Peter and James behind her. Everyone laughed before she continued.

“The point of this very long speech is to remind you that there are more important things than succeeding in life; your friends, family and maybe one day husbands, wives and children. Don’t let the dangers out there stop you from living your life. Fight when the time comes, but live before it does because we are never sure what can happen,” she told them all with more tears running down her cheeks.

“I’m honoured to have been here with all of you for the past seven years and then be your Head Girl. Experiences here I will never forget and people I will always remember. Congratulations to all of you and the best of luck in your future,” she finished and everyone stood and clapped as she returned to her seat beside James. He gave her hand a quick squeeze before walking towards the podium.

“Thanks for stealing my speech there Lils!” James said as everyone took their seats again and laughed at his first comment. “Is there really much I can say after that? She never fails to surprise me that Lily Evans. She does something different every day and can be quite terrifying at times with that temper of hers,” he said to more laughs.

“Ok so I hope you aren’t expecting another big speech because they aren’t my specialty, though many other things are,” he said. When the laughter ceased again he continued.

“I came to Hogwarts expecting a lot, but not even my expectations matched what we all came to know as a second home for the last seven years. Everyday here held a new adventure, especially for the Marauders. I discovered things I never knew were possible. As you all know I was a very well behaved and model student,” James told them all and everyone burst out laughing.

“Ok, so maybe I wasn’t always well behaved and yes the Marauders bended a few rules but that doesn’t really matter right? Oh yeah, and Professors, the Marauders and I are all very sorry for any stress we may have caused you over the seven years, though I can’t imagine how we could have done that!”

“It is quite all right Mr Potter, though the grey hairs you all gave me might be a bit of a problem,” Professor McGonnagall said with a rare smile.

“Thanks Professor. So now continuing to be serious-” James said but a smile crept onto his face as what he expected to happen did.

“You can’t be Sirius! I’m Sirius!” Sirius shouted from the crowd amid more laughter. James laughed himself before he continued.

“As I was saying, this place holds many memories for all of us. Some good, some we would all rather forget I think, I know there are a few incidents I would like to forget regarding a certain redhead sitting behind me. Anyway, Hogwarts was more than a school to me, it was a home. The strength of some of the friendships that were made here will never break. Hogwarts has been creating the worlds best wizards and witches for thousands of years and will keep on doing it even when our own kids come here. Can’t you see mini-Marauders running around here in twenty years Professor?” James asked and say McGonnagall sigh but still smiling at him.

“Many relationships have been created here and many may last forever. The same is true for friendships that have formed. As Lily has already said, friends will be the most important thing you can have. I would also like to quote on what Ms Evans said about living life and not waiting for something to happen. As you all know she and I have been going out this year, after she finally realised what an amazing and charming person I really am. But to me she is more than a girlfriend, more than a friend. I love her with all my heart and am never going to let her go. I have asked her many questions over the years, mainly asking her to go out with me, but I want to ask her one final question,” James said.

He turned away from the podium he walked towards Lily who was looking a bit confused. He took her hand and kneeled in front of her. There were a few gasps from the crowd as some realised what was going on but James paid no attention to them. He started into Lily’s tear-filled eyes and smiled at her.

“Lily, I have loved you from the moment I met you. Since that first day on the platform I knew you were the one for me, that there was no one else out there for me. It was you or no one. As the years passed I fell more and more in love with you than I ever thought possible. Everytime I saw you with another guy my heart would break, thinking you would never be mine. The day you finally said yes was the happiest of my life. Loving you felt perfect but being loved by you was better than I could have ever imagined. You are my world Lily, I don’t know what I would do without you. With every breath you take I continue to fall deeper in love with you. So I want you to answer one last question for me,” he said never breaking eye contact with her even though she had tears streaming down her face.

“I love you Lily Evans, will you make me the happiest man on earth and marry me?” he asked. He opened a purple velvet box to reveal the most beautiful ring Lily had ever seen. It was gold with three diamonds on the top of it. It was gorgeous.

The grounds were completely silent. No one said a word, they were all watching James and Lily to see what she would say. Even the teachers were watching the couple attentively.

James started to worry when she didn’t answer. Surely she wouldn’t say no? What if she did? He couldn’t imagine what he would do.

Lily stared at James, completely shocked. She had not been expecting him to ask her to marry him! At first she was scared but the more she considered it the more the idea appealed to her.

“I love you James Potter! Of course I’ll marry you!” she shouted. James slipped the ring onto her finger and jumped up. He scooped her up into his arms and spun her around. When he stopped he leaned in and kissed her fiercely. He had never been happier in his life.

Everyone jumped to their feet shouting, cheering and clapping the couple. James broke away from Lily and smile at them, but Lily pulled him back and kissed him again. Sirius turned to a smiling Remus and held out his hand.

“Pay up Moony! I told you he would ask her before the year was over!” Sirius said triumphantly as Remus passed him ten Galleons.

Alice and Emma were jumping up and down hugging one another, tears of joy running down their cheeks.

When James broke away again he walked to the podium, Lily still in his arms.

“Oh yeah, I almost forgot, CONGRADULATIONS!! WE GRADUATED!!” he shouted before returning again to Lily who was smiling more than she ever had before.


Lily stood outside the castle the next morning waiting for the carriage to bring them to the station. Her last night at Hogwarts had been memorable. They had all stayed in the Gryffindor common room until three in the morning before James and Lily left for their own common room. The fell asleep together on the sofa after talking the whole night. She had never had a better time.

But now it was all over, they were leaving in a few minutes and would never be coming back. She sighed and leaned against James.

“Well, looks like this is the end now, it’s all over,” Sirius said with a last look at the castle as the carriages appeared.

James smiled and put his arm around Lily.

“No Padfoot, this is just the beginning.”


A/N: Well there you have it! The last chapter! I hope you liked it! Thanks so much to everyone who took the time to read this for me and especially to those who reviewed! i loved reading you views on what you thought of my story! Since it's the last chapter will everyone who reads it please review for me? even if you haven't reviewed before please do it for the final chapter? Once again thanks for reading and encouragement you gave me! Hope you liked it!

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