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Hogwarts, A Musical by MagicalMiss

Format: Novel
Chapters: 20
Word Count: 57,841

Rating: 15+
Warnings: Strong Language

Genres: General, Humor, Romance
Characters: Dumbledore, Lupin, McGonagall, Sirius, Lily, James, Pettigrew, OC
Pairings: James/Lily, Remus/OC, Sirius/OC

First Published: 08/19/2005
Last Chapter: 08/05/2006
Last Updated: 09/13/2007

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Ever wondered what Hogwarts would be like if the characters lives were a musical? Well here is the perfect oppurtunity to find out! Follow James, Lily and their friends as they sing their way though seventh year. I see lights, coordinated dance routines complete with acrobatics and tap-dancing! Oh this should be fun...Co-written with Padfootismygod. Check out her stories!

Chapter 1: Back to school
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(A/N- wrote this fab story with the help of Padfoodismygod15, bit different hope you like it and remember we obviously do not own Harry Potter or in this case, James Potter nor did we write any of the songs used. While talented, we are not that talented! ,they have simply been adapted from our fav tunes to suit the story. They do not belong to us. most you will recognise... hopefully!)

Chapter one: – Back to school.

Lily Evans was glad to be back. She loved everything about the magical world and sadly this included the train station. She loved the fresh excitement of new students and the joy of the older upon seeing their friends again, speaking of…

“Ruby baby!” She cried running towards her friend. Ruby greeted her with equal enthusiasm. Ruby was slightly taller than Lily with short dark curls and dark green eyes. Lily loved her kind nature and found her ability to laugh at herself an admirable quality. She was a born optimist and could convince anyone to look at the bright side, in contrast she was so different to both Lily and Holly, their other friend but they had been almost inseparable since first year.

“Lils! I missed you so much; you have to tell me all about your summer! Have you seen Holly yet?”

Lily shook her head then she suddenly smiled, thinking of being with her friends again. This year was going to be the best yet. It was their last and she was determined to make the most of it.

“Lily Evans you look way too happy.” Came a voice from behind her. She turned to see Remus strolling towards her with James and Sirius in tow. “Don’t you think it’s kinda depressing?

“What is?” Lily asked. She loved school how could anyone be miserable?

“The whole idea of another year at school?” Sirius supplied in a straight monotone confusing Lily. How could someone who spent all his time doing nothing but still effortlessly get good grades hate school?

“With the addition of homework, rules and feisty teachers?” James told them in almost the same tone. Lily raised her eyebrows.

“It’s our last one like it. It’s sad and depressing.” Sirius added again, clearing a few things up.

“Yep. I'm gonna miss it.” Replied Remus.

(A/N: Adapted from ‘Back to school’ From the movie Grease II.)
(A/N: when we say all we mean ALL, like everyone at the train station!)
Remus: Spending my vacation in the summer sun,
James: Makin' lots of trouble, havin’ lots of fun.
Sirius: Scorin' like a bandit 'til the bubble burst -
All: Suddenly it got to be September First.

Holly: Woe is me, all summer long I was happy and free.
Ruby: Save me please, seeing summer end is such a tease
All: We gotta go back, back, back to school again.
Lily: Hey come on, let’s think positively;
All: We’re gonna be together til June…
We gotta go back, back, back to school again.
Whoa, whoa, We gotta go... back to school again!

Ruby: Arithmancy and history are all the same,
Holly: Astronomy, Herbology destroy my brain.
Remus: Well don't they know that we deserve a better fate?
Boys: As wizards, we’re already great!

James: Well mama please, I’ll behave, put your mind at ease
Annabelle: Come on, pull the other one, now get your butt on the train!
Coz You gotta go back, back, back to school again!"
It's bye-bye fun, get your homework done,
You better be good or else,

James: I gotta go back, back, back to school again.
Whoa, whoa, I gotta go... back to school again!

James: Forget your books ‘n’ whining, look right over there
Sirius: I see a different Holly strollin’ without a care
I asked, "Hey, pretty Holly, hows about a date?
She laughs at me says “I can't be late!”

Well, I can see, that look in her eyes was sayin' "Follow me,"
And I was caught - I never thought Holly could do this to me, but on second thoughts…

All: We gotta go back, back, back to school again.
Whoa, whoa, we gotta go... back to school ... again!!!

As the train whistle sounded, the students climbed aboard the train, slamming the doors behind them.


James pulled his heavy trunk down the thin hallway peering into each compartment in the hopes of finding an empty one. Behind him were his friends, Remus, Peter and pulling up the rear in a daze, Sirius.

James was starting to grow impatient as he reached the last compartment but to his relief, it was empty. He, Remus and Peter entered but Sirius kept walking, which was funny since the only door left was the bathroom.

“Sirius! Dude in here!” James yelled from the compartment. Sirius whirled around and crashed right into the doorframe. James stifled a snort of laughter just long enough to ensure Sirius was ok.

Sirius made no comment to cover up his accident but instead quietly took a seat while rubbing his forehead. That was when his friends burst out laughing. Screw them. Now what had he been thinking about? Ah yes, that was right. “Holly.”

Remus had stopped to catch his breath and had heard Sirius speak. He silenced the other two with a wave of his hand. “What did you just say?”

“Holly.” He repeated faintly.

This got James attention. “Holly? As in Holly Marlingson?”

Sirius nodded. “Did you see her? I mean wow, has she changed!”

“Are you on crack?” James demanded. Sirius had never been what you would call friends with Holly. This was so sudden. “She looks exactly the same as she did last year.”

“Are you?” Sirius retorted sharply. “Talked to Evans lately?” He asked in a fake sweet voice.

“Ooh harsh Padfoot, harsh. But this will be the year things will change. And you know it. I’m gonna get the girl.”

Sirius snorted in response. “I personally think you are delusional. She hates you. She always has and always will. I think you should give up mate, find someone else. Maybe she isn’t worth it.”

“You’re wrong again Padfoot. She is worth it, and so much more,

“Are you willing to bet on that one Prongs?”

“Maybe I am. How much?”

Remus gasped. Betting on Lily Evans was low, even for these two. He focused back on Sirius. It was like watching an organised duel, back and forth. It was his turn to speak.

“Maybe it’s not a question of how much but what.”

“What?” Interjected Remus.

“That’s right. ‘What’ is the question.” Sirius continued not looking at him but keeping his eyes on James.

“No I mean like ‘what?’ How can you be betting your possessions on the love of James’ life, as he so colourfully puts it! It’s utterly immoral!”

“He's right.” Sirius agreed while James nodded his head enthusiastically. Remus flopped back into his seat in relief. “No prized processions, we will go back to money.”

“How much you thinking Padfoot, my friend?” Remus groaned, for a moment there it seemed they had listened to what he was saying. Who was he kidding? Everyone knew he had no control over them.

Remus closed his eyes in denial as Sirius and James organised the stipulations of their bet. They were unbelievable. He hoped James realised he was going to lose their newly founded bet unless he changed his attitude very soon. Speaking of Lily… “Uh James sorry to interrupt but aren’t you head boy? And aren’t you supposed to meet Lily in the heads compartment for a little meeting?”

James jumped up and ran his hand through his hair in alarm. Oh god. Panic!

“Heads compartment is that way mate. First carriage after the engine.” Remus supplied helpfully.

“Right, thanks Moony.” James said as he dashed out the door almost crashing into Holly and Ruby, who James only knew as Lily’s friends as he rarely spoke to them in classes. He turned to look at Sirius, whose eyes had bulged at the sight of Holly. He took a moment to consider her too, aside from the change in hair length nothing much had changed. Or maybe it was the fact that you could now see her eyes. And what lovely clear blue eyes they were, thought Sirius, as she stared back at him.

Remus and Peter were almost on the floor in laughter. The look on Sirius’ face was priceless James gave his friend a thumbs up through the window as pushed past where the girls stood in the doorway. He felt a sense of disappointment. Leaving at a time like this, Remus would have to fill him in later, He thought as he bolted down the narrow hallway pushing the smaller students out of the way.

“Where’s he off to?” Ruby asked, pointing in James direction.

Remus smirked, “Our dear James is head boy this year.” He almost laughed at the look on their faces.

“Oh my god, Lily is going to flip! Oh to be a fly on the wall when she finds out.” Ruby giggled. “Anyway can we sit in here? Lily kicked us out of heads compartment so she could meet the head boy and everywhere else is full.” Remus nodded and they moved from the doorway to sit down.

Holly was still watching Sirius warily, who was still staring at her. “What?!” She finally asked him. He blinked at her, and shifted his eyes away. Had he been staring? He looked up again and gave her what he hoped was his most charming smile. Apparently, judging by her frown, it was not.

Lily had told her how she had seen Sirius watching her at the platform but Holly didn’t believe her. She was now beginning to. Today was shaping up to be a day full of surprises. She turned away from Sirius’ probing eyes to look out the window into the hallway. She saw a familiar someone and waved. He smiled and waved back.

“Who’s that?” Sirius demanded.

“Wouldn’t you like to know.” She replied but then thought better of arguing with Sirius Black. ”Lily’s Boyfriend.”

“Evans has a boyfriend? Since when?” Sirius demanded again, he turned to Remus for confirmation but saw Remus looked incapable of speech.

Sirius was right. Remus was in shock. James was not going to be happy. He was also going to lose this bet.


“So Lily Evans.” James drawled from the open doorway.

Lily didn’t even need to turn around. “Leave now Potter. This is the heads compartment. And you obviously can't be Head Boy. Dumbledore would have to be under some curse to choose you.”

“Who would put Dumbledore under a curse? Do you think he's still under it?” James asked in a mocking tone.

Lily spun around. “No!” She muttered, cringing at the sight of James Potter with the Head boy badge pinned arrogantly to his chest. “Why?”

“Why what Evans? I am Head Boy. We will be working together all year. Embrace it, you will learn to love me, and when that time comes, I will be waiting for you my precious.”

“Just how long can you wait Potter?” She asked harshly, sweeping passed him.

“Forever for you Lily my love, forever.” He called making sure she heard him, all he could do was laugh as the look of sheer disgust as she turned away from him. This year was so his year.


“Welcome all, to yet another year at Hogwarts. First I would like to remind you all that the Forbidden Forest is still out of bounds and I would like to introduce you all to our new Head Boy and Girl; Mr. James Potter and Miss Lily Evans.” Dumbledore paused while the school applauded the newly appointed Heads. “Yes, yes, congratulations to James and Lily. Now I know you are all starving, so tuck in!”

“’Ames, ot ah oo ooing?” Sirius asked his friend after he had bitten into the closest edible item.

“Padfoot, dude! Chew, swallow, then speak,” Remus suggested. Sirius followed Remus’ advice, and then repeated himself.

“James, what are you doing?”

“What do you mean what am I doing?”

“You’re not eating!”

“Oh, what? I guess I'm not,” James replied looking down at his plate which was void of any food.

“So, Prongs, instead of enjoying this fantastic feast, what have you decided to do?”

“I was just wondering,” James began in a dazed voice, “What Lily is doing with Elliot Barker.” Remus and Sirius both looked at James guiltily. James noticed this. “What? What’s going on?”

Sirius gave a suspicious cough.

“What was that Padfoot? Didn’t quite catch that one.”

“Err, James, that’s umm, Lily’s boyfriend,” Remus explained. James’ face fell, you could tell his heart had just broken in two. He just sat there, in silence, for the rest of the feast.

As the marauders were finishing their meals, James finally found the right words to say, “Lily has a boyfriend. And it’s not me.”

“Well done, Prongs, It only took you 2 hours to grasp that one.”

“Shut up Padfoot! I see sensitivity is still not your strong point.” Remus stated.

“Could the Head Boy and Girl, please meet me in my office in ten minutes.”

“Well, Prongs you better go to Dumbledore’s office before you’re late,” Remus told him.

“Yeah, umm late, right, can't be late,” James was still lost in a world of confused thoughts. However, he still managed to get to Dumbledore’s office with five minutes to spare, and to no amazement at all, Lily was already there.

“Well, seen as you’re both here I guess you may as well come in,” Dumbledore announced. They talked for ten minutes about their duties, school rules for heads and last but not least, “Congratulations to you both, I trust you will uphold school tradition and bring refreshing new ideas and joy to the school. You may go to your dorms where I assure you, your beds will be waiting for you.”

James and Lily walked off in the direction of Gryffindor tower together, they did not talk nor make any sign of recognition towards each other, until James broke the silence, “Why didn’t you tell me you had a boyfriend?”

“And how exactly is it any of your business, Potter?”

“Why him?” James asked ignoring Lily’s question, “What’s he got that I don’t?”

“Maybe it’s what you have, that he doesn’t.” She sighed.

“What's that supposed to mean Evans?”

“You just don’t get it do you?

(A/N: Adapted from ‘You’re So Vain’ by Carly Simons.)
“You walk into the classroom
Like people should bow to kiss your feet
Your hair strategically messed to give that look
To entice the girls you meet.
You have one eye in the mirror as you strut along the halls,
And all the girls dreamed that they'd be your girlfriend
They'd be your girlfriend, and...
You're so vain, you probably think I’m actually like them
You're so vain, I'll bet you think I actually want you
Don't you? Don't You?

You could’ve had me several years ago, if you weren’t quite so proud
Well you said that we’d make such a pretty pair
And that you would never leave
But then you screwed it up by acting big, and lost any chance with me,

I had some dreams, of what love could’ve been
like light through the darkness, and...
You're so vain, you probably think I’m actually like them
You're so vain, I'll bet you think I actually want you
Don't you? Don't You?

I had some dreams they were light through the darkness
light though the darkness, and...
You're so vain, you probably think I’m actually like them
You're so vain, I'll bet you think I actually want you
Don't you? Don't You?

Well I hear you vowed to win my heart, like it was some kind of prize
Then you dared to tell me and I’m suppose to swoon
But I don’t have stars in my eyes,
Well you’re charm and games wont work on me
And so you’re wasting your time
Its just something that I can’t stand in a boyfriend,
stand in a boyfriend and…

You're so vain, you probably think I’m actually like them
You're so vain, I'll bet you think I actually want you
Don't you? Don't You?”

Lily turned and stalked away, leaving a stunned James behind.

“Lily wait!”

“No, James that’s where you and I are different, while you are willing to wait I am not, I am sick of waiting for you to grow up!” She yelled before turning and running away, he watched her disappear around the corner before turning on his heel and heading towards the forest. From the sounds of that speech he couldn’t help but feel that he had blown it, big time. Lily Evans was once willing to give him a chance but that moment was gone.


Back To School, music by Louis St. Louis, lyrics by Howard Greenfield, vocals by the Four Tops

You’re So Vain, by Carly Simon

To any one who has read this before...yes the original first chapter was deleted! never liked it...held no improtantance to the stroy therefore bubye!

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Chapter 2: Change, the Good and the Bad.
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Chapter two – Change, The Good and the Bad.

James arrived to breakfast the next morning looking tired and dishevelled. He had spent the night in the forest taking his anger out on innocent trees and shrubs. He sat down with a sigh next to Sirius. Sirius turned sharply at the sudden presence behind him. “Prongs! What the hell happened to you? Where were you all night?”

James took a deep breath. “I had a chat to Evans. Last night after we saw Dumbledore.”

“And…?” Sirius prompted impatiently, which earned him a smack in the back of the head from Remus. James barely noticed.

“And she has a boyfriend and it’s not me because I am not what she wants. I am too arrogant and vain. I lost my chance because she can't stand me.” He recited in a straight monotone as if he had spent the night chanting it.

Sirius, Remus and Peter fell silent. What does one say to a statement that they had heard repeated for the last three years? Sirius settled for a sympathetic pat on the back and a forced grin of encouragement. James returned the smile as silent thanks for not ragging on him. He suddenly heard a familiar giggle and turned to see none other than Lily Evans walk in on the arm of Elliot Barker. James felt a series of different emotions all in a couple of seconds. He was shocked then disheartened then finally furious.

“Easy Prongs,” Sirius told him as if he had pre-empted his rage.

“I gotta get out of here.” James told them as he stood up. He left the hall so quickly that he didn’t notice Lily stop laughing to watch him walk by her.


“Does he annoy you yet?” Ruby asked suddenly that morning in transfiguration. Holly looked up, startled by the sudden question and the fact that her quiet and usually obedient friend wasn’t doing her assigned work.

“Does who annoy me? Coz I could think of many people who fit that description.” Holly stated wryly, looking back at her work.

Ruby rolled her eyes and quickly glanced up at McGonagall before answering. “Elliot!”

“Oh.” Holly breathed. She thought for a moment, finally looking up from her work. “Yes. But I don’t know why.”

Ruby sighed. “Me neither. I thought I was alone in these thoughts.”

“No way.” Holly shook her head. “You always had Him backing you up.”

“Who?” Ruby asked turning to see where Holly had gestured with her quill. Seeing it was James Potter she sighed again. James was staring at Lily and Elliot with a face that made her want to hug him. He looked heartbroken and ready to kill all at the same time. Tuning back she nodded grimly. “Who would ever have guessed he actually processed real feelings for her?”

Holly shook her head, picking up her quill again. “Not me…” She whispered in a voice barely heard by Ruby. But then who would have ever thought Sirius Black would ever have shown the slightest bit of interest in her?

“This years already strange and its only the first day!” Ruby whined.

“What do you mean?” Holly asked.

“Lily has a boyfriend who isn’t James and who ever thought that would happen, and look at James! So far he hasn’t done anything about it!”


“So-o, this is the guy that has been obsessed with her for how many years and he hasn’t tried anything stupid yet?”

Holly considered this for a moment. “Fair point. So maybe you were wrong. Maybe he doesn’t care.”

Ruby snorted indignantly. “Have you seen him lately? If anything proves his feeling are genuine it’s the way he just watches her…” She finished softly.

“Aww. Is my tough girl Ruby going gooey?” Holly joked. ‘Maybe you are right. Everyone has changed. Except me. I’m still the same.”

Ruby snorted again. She couldn’t help it. “Have you seen yourself lately?”

Holly shrugged. “What? So I cut my hair. That doesn’t count as change. That was me trying to piss off my mother.”


“Exactly what?!” Holly whispered a little louder than she meant to, drawing looks from her class mates and also McGonagall.

“Exactly what?” She repeated quieter.

“It seems, Holly my dear you have finally started standing up for yourself.”

Holly sat up straighter in her seat. ‘Is that a good thing?”

Ruby nodded. “Sirius seems to think so…” She stated slyly.

Holly gasped, slapping Ruby lightly on the arm. Ruby frowned. “See, old Holly wouldn’t have done that.”

Holly grinned. “Then I like change.”


James had had enough. All day he had watched Lily hang off Elliot Barker and it was beginning to make him sick. James had never noticed just how many classes Elliot had with the Gryffindor’s. Lily seemed absolutely oblivious to James death stares at her new boyfriend. She was in her own world and she was deliriously happy.

By the time they had finished classes James’ jealousy and rage had simmered into a pathetic depression. Even though watching them made him want to cry he couldn’t help it. He desperately wanted to know what Lily saw in him and more than anything else wanted to be him.

He watched them all through tea, so much that he almost forgot to eat. He could see that he made her laugh but didn’t get it. He had known Elliot for years and knew that Lily deserved someone who would treat her better. Elliot was the possessive type, and James knew from watching that Lily was so smitten she would do anything to please him. it was a disaster and there was nothing he could do about it.

Suddenly, Lily turned around and caught his eye. She raised an eyebrow as if to say, yes? He quickly looked down at his still full plate then back up at Lily; she had already diverted her attention.

James stood up. He needed to get back to the common room to be alone. He strode passed Lily but she didn’t notice him this time. James took his time getting back. He dawdled along the deserted halls in the general direction but wasn’t actually aware he was walking. He suddenly stopped as he heard voices behind him. At once he knew exactly who it was so quickly ducked behind a suit of armour. They walked right by him without so much of a glance in his direction. He snorted in disgust and once they were far enough ahead, continued his journey. James reached the Fat Lady, said the password and stepped through the portrait hole into the common room only to witness Lily and Elliot sitting on a couch by the fire having a bit of alone time, James turned on his heel and went back outside into the hallway, he leaned against the cold stone wall.

(Hopelessly Devoted to You)
(A/N: well, a song that needs no introduction.)
Guess mine is not the first heart broken,
my eyes are not the first to cry I'm not the first to know,
there's just no gettin' over you
Hello, I was just a fool who's willing to sit around
and wait for you
But baby can't you see, there's nothin' else
for me to do I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide,
since you pushed my love aside, I'm not in my head,
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you,
hopelessly devoted to you
My head is saying "fool, forget her",
my heart is saying "don't let go"
Hold on to the end, that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide,
since you pushed my love aside I'm not in my head,
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you,
hopelessly devoted to you"


Hopelessly Devoted to you, Olivia Newton John, Grease.

(A/N- people please review! i need to hear you thoughts!

Chapter 3: Quiet observations
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Chapter three – Quiet Observations 

“Yoo-hoo! Prongs! Oi! Snap out of it!” Sirius told James, waving his hand infront of his face. 

James blinked a few times and turned to Sirius. “What?” 

“Uh well, you have been staring at Evans and Barker for like all of breakfast and your bacon is going cold. Can I have it?” 

James nodded. As if he cared where his bacon went. 

“So…” Sirius said through a mouthful of James’ cooling bacon. “Is it a stupid question to ask why you were staring at Lily Evans?”
James scowled. He wasn’t staring at her. Well maybe just out of the corner of his eye but it had been almost a month since he found out about Lily’s new boyfriend and he was still confused. What did Lily see in him? 

“I don’t get it.” 

“Neither do I.” Sirius agreed, now licking his fingers. “That bacon was good, could even say it was better than mine. Why does it always happen that way? It’s always better when it’s someone else’s. Anyway I agree, I don’t understand how you could leave it on your plate to-“ 

“I wasn’t talking about the bacon!” James interrupted. 

Sirius stopped rambling and moved to look at what James was staring at. “Yeah I don’t really see it either, I mean what's so special about Ev-“ James gave him a look.
He had heard this speech many times. Why Lily Evans? What made her so special? What was it about Lily Evans that made her worth the chase? And so on. Sirius could quiz James for hours and James didn’t have answers. He didn’t know why, but he did know she was worth it. 

“He's gone again.” Commented Sirius to Remus and Peter. “YO! James! You’re doing it again!” 

“Am not.” James replied absentmindedly, his attention still on Elliot Barker, who seemed to be trying to tickle Lily. 

“He doesn’t even know what he's saying!” Sirius complained, although he knew his complaints wouldn’t be heard by anyone. 

Remus as always was absorbed in his newspaper, James was, of course, watching Lily and Peter…well Peter was currently distracted by a fly that was buzzing around the great hall. 

“How can I be expected to start a good healthy argument when the opposing teams’ rebuttal is ‘am not’!” Sirius continued to tell his empty plate. “I mean what makes Lily Evans so worth all James’ attention. I mean sure, like I get why he's like, why him, not me. Like Elliot Barker is a stinking Ravenclaw for one and they suck at Quidditch and he reminds me of my great Aunt Agnes and that’s kinda scary and they totally don’t look right for each other…You know?” he questioned the terrified looking third year girl to his left. Her eyes widened and she looked like she was about to cry. 

Sirius sighed. “Have I gone crazy?” he asked her again. 

“Can I answer that?” Sirius spun around. 

“Holly!” He squeaked, finally locating the source of the voice. 

Remus finally looked up from his newspaper. “What can we do for you ladies?” He asked seeing as Sirius incapable of speech while James simply hadn’t moved. 

“Well,” Ruby began, seating herself in between James and Remus. “Hols and I were just walking past on our way to Quidditch tryouts, the same tryouts James should be at right now…JAMES! TRYOUTS!” She told him loudly, seeing as he wasn’t getting it. 

James jumped to attention, right Quidditch. 

“Catch ya out there Prongs!” Sirius called after him joyfully. 

Ruby turned to Holly, who was still standing in the aisle, Ruby and Holly seemed to be having a silent war with their eyes. Ruby willing Holly to take a seat while Holly stubbornly stood in the aisle, indicating this meeting wasn’t her idea. 

Ruby sighed, turning back to Remus in defeat. “Anyway couldn’t help but hear Sirius’ mad ramblings and by the way I am concerned for that poor third year. She seemed quite shaken up. Should we have followed her? Made sure-” 

“Ruby!” Holly cried to hurry her friends speech. “Right.” Agreed Ruby after Holly gave her a meaningful look. “We don’t like him.” 

“Awesome.” Sirius stated. “Now who are we talking about?” 

Ruby sighed. “Elliot you moron! He is a complete arse and doesn’t deserve Lily. Holly and I can barely stand him!” 

“Oh.” Was Sirius and Remus only reply as they finally understood. It seemed no one was all that supportive of Lily’s new boyfriend. 

Remus leaned forward, “So why are you telling us? Shouldn’t you be telling Lily?” 

“Look,” Holly breathed, finally sitting down. “Lily is our friend you can't just tell your best friend that you hate her boyfriend! I for one don’t want to be the one to tell her that He is over reacting, insanely jealous, undeserving pompous prick!” She hissed surprising everyone. 

Usually Holly Marlingson was so quiet and mild-mannered. “What would you do?” 


James felt like hitting his head against a wall. He had been Quidditch captain for three years but never had the job been this stressful. He had his new chaser and beater, but still needed a new seeker unfortunately all the hopefuls were well, hopeless. 
He was about to assign the place to a third year when Ruby Sinclair ran onto the pitch with her broom in hand. 

“Wait!” She called. “Am I too late?” 

“Depends on what you had your heart set on Sinclair” James informed her. 

“Seeker…” She told him fearfully. She did have her heart set on this position. 

James breathed a sigh of relief. “Let’s see what you can do.” He winked at her and called for the team to get into position while silently praying she was better than average. Seeker tryouts tested the speed of the flyer and reflexes and so far each hopeful had failed abysmally. 

She saw her cue and took off, leaving James in a gust of wind. At least she could fly, James thought. She was beating most of the others already. 

The other team members began to throw small balls in her direction; surprisingly she caught most of them. James turned to view the crowd. He finally spotted Sirius and Remus who gave him thumbs up. 

He blew his whistle. “Well done Sinclair, you made the team. To everyone else, sorry, thanks for coming and better luck next year.” 

He watched as they all trudged off while Ruby was swarmed by her friends. They were all squealing congratulations. James caught Lily’s eyes and she smiled at him. Lily Evans actually smiled at James Potter. James felt woozy but pulled himself together.

“All right team 

(A/N: Adapted from ‘I’ll make a man out of you.” From the movie Mulan.)

James: Let’s get down to business to win the cup. 
Are you Quidditch players or are you not? 
You're a promising group, I hope the best 
And you can bet before we're through 
People, I'll make champions of you 
Tranquil as a forest But on fire within 
Once you find your center 
You are sure to win 
You're a spineless, pale pathetic lot 
And you haven't got a clue 
Somehow I'll make a champion out of you 
Ruby: I'm never gonna catch that snitch 
Chaser 1: Or roll away from flying bludgers, 
Beater 1: Boy, was I a fool for thinking I could learn! 
Ruby: He's really got me scared to death, Hope he doesn't try to replace me 
Chaser 2: Now I really wish that I knew how to fly! 
Team: We will win We will be swift as a golden snitch 
We will win We have the force of the steely bludger 
We will win With all the strength of the greatest fighters 
No match to those who dare to fight 
James: Time is racing toward us till the game arrives 
Heed my every order and we might survive 
Are you unsuited for the thrill of flight If so pack up, go back, you’re through, 
How could I make a team out of you 
Team: We will win We will be swift as a golden snitch 
We will win We have the force of the steely bludger 
We will win With all the strength of the greatest fighters 
No match to those who dare to fight” 

“All right team that will do for today, our first game is against Ravenclaw in a month, practice will be twice a week until then. I’ll let you know the times.” James watched as the Quidditch team trudged towards the change rooms. He sat on the grass and waited for his friends to walk down from the stands as they always did. 

“Can I have a go?” Sirius asked nodding towards James broom. 

James nodded and turned to Remus who had joined him on the grass. “What do you think? Is the Quidditch cup ours this year?” James asked. 

“I think you may have a lot of work to do but it is possible, especially with the mighty James Potter on the team.” Remus joked. 

He laughed as James stood up and pulled a tough guy pose. 

“Oh Remus, don’t encourage him.” Admonished Lily, joining them on the pitch with Ruby and Holly. They had come back for Ruby’s broom, which she had left by the stands. 

James scowled. “It was a joke Evans, a joke. You should know a joke by know.” he commented, his mind on Elliot Barker. 

“What the hell is that supposed to mean?” 

“It means nothing.” James retorted sharply. 

“What did you do to him?” Lily demanded, her hands on her hips and eyes narrowed in anger. 

“Why do you always assume the worst of me? I did NOTHING if you were referring to your precious Barker! I was merely pointing out that he is laughable. I have never touched him with wand or fist nor have I ever talked to him in my life. That’s right for once I have done the decent thing and tried to keep out of your life and you cant see that.” James told her in a deadly voice before stalking away. 

“You should really apologise to him Lils.” Whispered Holly after all the marauders had run after him. 

“Why?! He was the one to insult my boyfriend!” 

“Yeah and you accused him of attacking him personally just because he made a teensy comment expressing his disapproval. Which if you think about it is understandable. That’s not very fair on him Lily.” Holly concluded. “Think about it. 

“She added grabbing a confused Ruby’s hand, leaving Lily alone on the Quidditch pitch with a million thoughts running through her Head. 

Was Holly implying that she too disliked Elliot? 


 Lily returned from a quiet dinner with Elliot to find Ruby and Holly in the common room talking to the Marauders. She coughed as she walked past to catch her friends attention. They quickly said their goodnights and followed her up to the dorm. 
Ruby forced a grin as she closed the door. 

“Hey Hol, Sirius was quiet tonight. Again.” She joked raising her eyebrows to make her point. Holly groaned. 

Lily laughed. “I’ve never seen him so nervous around a girl before. You must have really had an affect on him.” Lily commented, not quite knowing why since Holly was the same as ever. she was still the same sweet Holly Marlingson she had known since first year. And that Sirius seen everyday. 

Holly rolled her eyes. This was not what they had come here to talk about. She cleared her throat. “Um Lils? We need to talk to you.” 

Lily frowned and walked over to the mirror. She picked up her hairbrush then turned back to them. “What about?”

“Elliot.” They both answered. 

“What about him?” she asked suspiciously. Thinking back to Holly’s speech on the Quidditch Pitch. 

“Well,” Holly offered, “We just don’t think…” 

“We just don’t think he's right for you.” Ruby finished with a shrug. 

“What do you mean by that?” Lily asked, her voice shrilly. 

Ruby sighed. Where to begin. 

(A/N: Adapted from Get another boyfriend by the Backstreet Boys) 

Ruby: “Let's talk about you, 
Both: Sweetie, 
Holly: You gotta hear us out 
Ruby: Or do you really want to be the last to know What he’s all about 
Ruby: Let's talk about what he says To be essence of your life 
Holly: But he'll eat you up from inside slow 
Ruby: And then he doesn't wanna know 
Both: I'm tellin’ you he'll eat you up from inside And then he doesn't wanna know Listen, we mean it There’s nothing that he's worthy of 
Ruby: He's just another playa', 
Holly: Playin’ in the name of love 
Both: We've seen enough, now this must come to an end Get another Boyfriend 
Ruby: Let's talk about what, He's done to become your number one 
Holly: Or was it all the promises of diamonds, pearls and party dresses that turned you on 
Ruby: I've seen it before 
Holly: (Don't take!) Anymore, free too, You're through for sure Just go get on with your life 
Ruby: STOP! Acting like you're giving up I'm telling you, go get on with your life 
Both: Stop acting like you're givin’ up Listen, we mean it there’s nothing that he's worthy of He's just another playa', Playin’ in the name of love I've seen enough, now this must come to an end Get another Boyfriend” 

Lily was shocked; she couldn’t believe that her two best friends didn’t approve of her boyfriend. She couldn’t say anything, instead gave her friends one last deadly look before she stormed out of the dorm. She paused at the foot of the stairs, she had no where she wanted to go besides away from the dorm. She was about to turn toward the portrait hole when she heard someone call out her name. 

She turned to see Remus sitting alone at a desk doing his homework. “Come sit.” 
Remus said moving his books from the seat next to him, 

“Is something wrong?” Lily looked on the verge of tears. 

Lily looked Remus straight in the eye; she knew she could trust him. “It’s Holly and Ruby, they think that… they think that I should break up with Elliot. They said that he’s just a player and that I can do better than him.” Lily sighed she paused for reassurance but after a moments silence looked up to see Remus staring at his shoes.

“You don’t like him either do you?!” 

“Its not that I don’t like him Lily, I just don’t trust him.”
“I can't believe this,” Lily exclaimed jumping up from her seat. “I thought that you of all people would understand!” Lily yelled over her shoulder as she exited through the portrait hole. 

“Sorry about that Remus,” came a voice from behind Remus, he turned to find Ruby and Holly standing at the bottom of the stairs to the girls dorm looking rather guilty.

“It’s fine really; I think I made it worse though. What did you two actually say to her?” 
Ruby and Holly told Remus what they said about Elliot. 

He nodded, ”I totally agree with you, we have to make Lily see how much of a git Elliot really is.” 

“Remus what has gotten into you? I have never heard you call someone a git or anything nasty for that matter.” 

“It’s what you get from being friends with James and Sirius since first year. Speaking of James and Sirius… I think we need their help with this one.” 
Before Ruby and Holly could answer, Remus had put his fingers to his mouth and wolf whistled in the direction of the boys’ dormitory. 

Two seconds later Sirius appeared at the bottom of the stairs. 

“You whistled Moony?” Sirius asked in an expressionless voice. 
Remus grinned and patted the seat next to him. Sirius rolled his eyes but still sat down next to him, while Ruby and Holly sat across from them. 

“So…” Sirius prompted as he made himself more comfortable. “What topic could be so delicate that one would need the help of the wonderful Sirius Black? Yes please,” Sirius added curiously, leaning forward, his head cradled in his hands. “Share your troubles with me.” 

“Lily again.” Ruby told him. Ruby looked at Holly. 

Holly was the first to speak. “We tried to talk to her about Elliot but she wouldn’t listen to us and we don’t know how to make her realise that she’s too good for him and that she should end it before he does something to hurt her! “ 

“What do you think we should do?”

“Well,” Sirius said thoughtfully rubbing his chin as he spoke. “I think-“ 

“NO!” James interrupted suddenly from behind them he had just entered the common room and couldn’t help but overhear their conversation. 

“Hold it! Oh come on! Holly, Ruby - you two are her best friends! You know her better than anyone. She’s smart and sensible. Don’t you think she can make her own decisions about who she dates?” James questioned, casting his eyes around for the others to side with him. They didn’t. 

“I can't believe you people! I can stay to listen to you to discuss Lily Evans’ love life! I meant what I said this morning. I fully intend to stay out of this one. Good night all.” He concluded with a mock bow before he turned and headed back to the open portrait hole. The others watched him leave in silence while his word sunk in. 

“He really cares about her doesn’t he?” Mused Holly after a moment. They all looked up at her contemplating this thought too. 

“More than you know.” Sirius agreed sadly, “He would do absolutely anything for her and she just doesn’t notice.” 

To him that was one thing he would never really understand. How could she not see the decent and caring side of James? But to him the greater puzzle was how James always managed to look passed the cruel comments to see the best in Lily Evans. It kind of reminded him of someone else he knew. What was it about Holly that he found so intriguing? 


James had left the common room in a hurry. He was now regretting it. He was forced to wander the halls aimlessly, as going back to the common room now, would be humiliating. He paused to stare out the window at the empty Quidditch pitch, if he could he would go flying right now but as he looked closer it appeared someone was 
already occupying the deserted field and he would recognise that red hair anywhere. 

James ran his hand through his hair and gave a strange strangled sort of laugh. 

(A/N: Adapted from Popular Mechanics For Lovers by Beulah) 

“I know he knocks you off your feet You’re so blind; you think he’s sweet 
Well he’s wrong for you, I swear 
Did you forget to read the script? 
There was never a role for him It was always you and me, just me 
Popular mechanics for broken hearts could help me now 
I know you never felt romance 
And we always are at war I can erase those parts out 
I never made you feel complete 
I would fall beneath your feet I would never bring you down, so down 
Popular mechanics for broken hearts could help me now 
Just because he loves you too 
He would never take a curse for you 
Don’t believe a word he says 
He would never cut his heart out for you 
I heard he promised you the moon 
But so what Some can promise you it all 
The moon just ain’t enough 
And there’s so sense in trying I know cause I’ve been trying all the time 
To find something that would make you mine 
But all I ever find, my love 
Are clichés that don’t rhyme 
Popular mechanics for broken hearts could help me now” 

James sighed, then looked away from the couple below him. 

Lily’s friends were right, she was going to get hurt if she didn’t do something about it. James couldn’t do anything about it, and watching her with Elliot was more than he could bear. 
 A/N: I’ll Make A Man Out Of You, music by Matthew Wilder, lyrics by David Zippel, vocals by Donny Osmond and Chorus 
Get Another Boyfriend, by Backstreet Boys 
Popular Mechanics for Lovers, by Beulah

Chapter 4: Friends
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Chapter four- Friends

“Lily! Wait up!” James called, madly dodging students to catch up with Lily before potions. She had disappeared from charms before he could talk to her. She seemed so miserable throughout their morning classes, and chose to sit alone in the classes Elliot did not take. James couldn’t help but feel sorry for her and decided it was time that he put aside any feelings and try to do the right thing for once. In this case comforting a miserable girl who was in the middle of a stubborn fight with her only friends.

“What?” Lily asked warily, turning to face James.

He smiled at her, a real genuine smile. “Want some company?”

Lily frowned. “Look Potter, I'm not in the mood for your games right now, OK?”

“My dear Lily you read too much into things. All I am offering is a friendly conversation on the way to lunch and if you can stand me for long enough maybe a potions partner later?”

Lily studied him for a moment before finally declaring his gesture as kind and smiled, he was right she didn’t have a potions partner for today and did need someone to talk to in the mean time. “Thank you James.” She said quietly.

“Any time Lily. So do tell, how was your summer?”

“Same as always” She answered tonelessly.

“Oh, come now that’s not a real answer. What are you afraid if you give me a real answer I may use it against you? Really you must have higher opinions of me than that.” James joked, knowing full well she didn’t.

Lily found herself smiling again. She thought for a moment. Did she really want to share her personal life with James Potter? What the hell, if he could make her smile today then she was all for continuing the conversation. “Um, well I went to France with my parents for a holiday in July and then I got the chance to catch up with my muggle friends at home and my sister got engaged, probably nothing compared to your summer right? Full of Parties, pranks and Mischief? ”

“Not at all. So when’s the wedding?”

“Next spring.”

“Excited? She is your only sister right?”

“Yes, she’s my only sister but we aren’t close…she doesn’t approve of my magical abilities. I am not ‘normal’ in her eyes, but it’s ok.” Lily claimed seeing the look on James face. “I hope she is very happy with Vernon. What about you James? I know nothing about you. Any siblings?” she asked as they reached the great hall for lunch.

He shook his head. “Nope, I'm an only child. Actually the only grandchild too… Probably why I turned out the way I did right? Classic golden child story here. No one to share my toys with or play with, steal the attention of my parents.”

“I pity your parents. They may never know what its like to have a human child.”

“That hurts Evans, really I may have to be alone now, I think I'm going to cry.”

“Ha-ha, I know you’re not in the least bit insulted but I am ever so sorry.” She told him sincerely as they both sat down at the Gryffindor table for lunch. Further down the row sat their friends who couldn’t help but exchange curious glances as the pair sat down. Usually James would sit with them while Lily would dine with Elliot.

They had just begun to help themselves to food when Elliot walked in. “Lily? What are you doing?” He questioned, possessively placing his hand on her shoulder. Lily just frowned up at her boyfriend.

“Um I thought I was having lunch with a friend but obviously it’s more…”

“James, could I please have a moment with my girlfriend?” Elliot asked rudely in a voice fit for addressing a small child.

James couldn’t help but smirk at him as he stood. “Why of course you may my good friend. Anytime.” He replied, mimicking the voice used on him. He bent close to Lily to whisper in her ear, just to see Elliot’s reaction “Meet you in Potions.” He told her with a wink before waltzing to where his fellow marauders were seated with Ruby and Holly. Lily could have hit him for provoking Elliot, especially when he had been being so kind.

“What was that about?” Remus asked. James shrugged and turned to watch as everyone else had.


“So you are basically saying that I cannot have lunch with James Potter, nor can I talk to him?” Lily asked in disbelief.

“No, Lily no,” Elliot soothed taking her hand in his. “I am simply advising you to stop associating with him and the other Gryffindor Boys. I just don’t trust them. And I’m also not too sure about Ruby and Holly. While they seem like genuine people I can't help but feel that they are being influenced by their new associates. Ok sweetie?”

Lily jerked her hand away from his “No! not ok, ‘sweetie’ because you should be able to trust me and my judgement and my ability to make friends! Even if you don’t trust them and I should be able to make my own choices!”

“I am only trying to protect you baby.”

“Don’t baby me!” Lily hissed, quite aware people were starting to stare. “You are not trying to protect me from anyone! James hasn’t done anything other than be my friend today and there is nothing wrong with that! Who do you suggest I befriend?

“Baby, I think you are blowing this way out of proportion!"

“Lily honey I think you are blowing this way out of proportion.”

“No I think you are trying to dictate who I can associate with! And you have no right to do that!”

“I can and I just did!”

“And if I don’t obey you El?” she asked in a mocking voice.

“You choose. Friendship with them or me.” He replied in a cold voice.

“Uh.” Was Lily’s only response and after one last cold look of disgust she left the Great Hall, unaware that most students were watching her.


“Lily! Wait up!” Lily groaned and walked faster. If she could make it to the common room before he caught up she would be cool. Sadly her conscience got the better of her and she spun around angrily.

“What?” She sighed.

“Baby! I think you misunderstood me back there!”

“No, No I think I understood you quite well El. You think you own me. You think that me being your girlfriend gives you power over me. And it doesn’t. You don’t get it do you?”

“Get what baby?”

Lily closed her eyes slowly. And took a deep breath. Baby. She hated being called baby. “Elliot… I think we should end this now.”

“Why? What’s wrong?”

(A/N: Don’t call me baby, Madison Avenue)
You and me, we had an opportunity
And we could’ve made it something really good
But you, you think I'm that kind of girl
I'm here to tell you baby, I wont be at your beck and call.

Don't think that I'm not strong
I'm the one to take you on
Don't underestimate me boy
I'll make you sorry you were born
You don't know me
The way you really should
You sure misunderstood

Don’t call me baby
You got some nerve, and baby that'll never do
You know I don't belong to you
It's time you knew I'm not your baby
I belong to me, so
Don't call me baby

Behind my smile is my IQ
I must admit, this does not sit, with the likes of you
You're really sweet
Mmm, you're really nice
But didn't mama ever tell you not to play with fire?

Don't think that I'm not strong
I'm the one to take you on
Don't underestimate me boy
I'll make you sorry you were born
You don't know me
The way you really should
You sure misunderstood

Don’t call me baby
You got some nerve, and baby that'll never do
You know I don't belong to you
It's time you knew I'm not your baby
I belong to me, so
Don't call me baby”

“So does this mean its over?”

“I suppose so. It’s been fun but look El, I’ve gotta get to potions, I’ll see ya later kay?”

He nodded. Lily gave a weak smile before rushing off in the direction of the dungeons.


Lily ran down the last flight of steps to their potions classroom. James was already seated at a bench close to the front while the others sat down the back in their usual spot. He smiled as she sat down and she knew what was coming.

“You ok?” He asked kindly.

She nodded. “We broke up. I broke up with him. I don’t know what happened.” She groaned letting her head fall to the desk.

James didn’t know what to say so instead gave her a consoling smile and a short pat on the back. Kind of a weak but considering while trying to be kind and considerate he was really he was bubbling over with so much joy it he wanted to jump on the table and dance a jig it was about all he could manage. Lily didn’t answer him for a while but turned to watch Ruby, Holly, Sirius and Remus. She smiled as she turned back. “What’s wrong with Sirius?” James turned to look too. Sirius was staring at the blackboard while the others were deep in conversation around their bubbling cauldron. He didn’t seem to want to be too close.

“Where do I start? I believe there are many things wrong with Sirius but at the moment I think he has a little crush on fair Holly. And I also think he is in denial about it.”

Lily looked up at him sharply. “Really? But he's so…”

James nodded. “Nervous? Awkward? I know its absolutely hilarious.” He laughed, Lily didn’t join in but instead smacked him on the arm.

“It’s not’s kinda sweet. The famous Sirius Black, trouble maker and all round bad boy made nervous by a girl? They would look so cute together. She so sweet and shy and he's so…” She told him, swinging around again. “Not…” she concluded lamely lost in thought.

“Oi, Evans! Your supposed to be stirring!”

“Oops sorry.”

“What’s up? You sort of drifted away there.” he asked as he tipped the last ingredient into the bubbling pot.

“They were right.” She sighed after a moment.

“Right about what?”

“Elliot.” She replied simply.

“Just talk to them. They won’t hold one misjudgment against you. They’re your friends.”

She nodded he was right. ”When did you get so wise Potter?”

He smirked. “I’ve always been wise, it’s just that usually no body listens to me.”

“Its funny you know.” She told him with a thoughtful smile. “You were the only one that didn’t try to warn me off him.”

“It wasn’t my place to offer my opinion.”

“Since when have you cared whether it was right to offer your opinion or not?”

“Ahh, since I realised that not everyone was as keen to hear my ideas as I was to voice them.”

“I’ve been trying to tell you that for years you know.” Lily laughed.

“Yeah, I had a bit of a wakeup call. Someone informed me ever so kindly that I need to grow up.”

Lily smiled slyly, “Really who would that of been?”


“Hi.” Lily greeted her friends as she entered their dorm after tea. She stared at her shoes for a moment before knowing exactly what she needed to say. “I’m sorry. I was wrong.”

“What happened?” Ruby asked, patting the bed beside her. Lily walked over, knowing she had been forgiven and sat between them before answering.

“We broke up.”

“Why?” Holly asked, not sure if she really wanted to know. “What happened.

Lily thought for a moment, trying to remember what had been said. “Oh god!” she moaned, covering her face with her hands as it hit her.

“What?” They both asked.

“I broke up with him because he said I couldn’t be friends with James Potter.” She told them. For a moment they stared at her in shock but hen started to laugh. Lily jumped up to face them. “Its not funny! He also didn’t approve of my friendship with you to either!” She snapped as she started to pace the room. She stopped suddenly and slid down the door to sit on the floor. “What have I done? Oh my god if he ever found out!”


“James! If he knew I dumped by boyfriend because of him I would never live it down! You can’t tell him.” She told them fearfully. Ruby and Holly shared a quick look then went to join her on the floor by the door.

“Why would we tell James anything?” Holly asked.

“Don’t worry Lils, you just started talking to us again! Why would we want to jeopardize that just to tell James that he was the final straw in your relationship? It doesn’t really mean anything.” Ruby paused as Lily groaned again. “Cheer up Lils, he will never find out from us and the whole Elliot thing is over.”

“Yeah,” agreed Holly. “You were too good for him sweetie. You deserve more.”

Ruby smirked “James Potter?” She laughed. Lily looked at her in horror before she too smiled.

“You two are crazy. I said James was…could be my friend…and that’s all.”

“Yeah but it was good to see you smile.” Holly told her hugging her but Ruby had jumped up, grabbing a hat from her bed post and shoving it on her head.

(A/N: Adapted from Fully Dressed, from the musical Annie)
Ruby: Hey hobo man,
Hey Dapper Dan,
You've both got your style

But girl, you're never fully dressed
Without a smile”

Ruby cried, pointing at Lily who threw her head back and laughed at her crazy friend. Holly jumped up to join Ruby grabbing her cloak as she jumped up on her bed to sing,

Holly: Your clothes may be so stylish
They stand out a mile
But girl, you're never fully dressed…
Both: Without a smile

Together they sang while dancing crazily around the room

”Who cares what they're wearing
on Main Street or Hogsmeade Road
It's what you wear from ear to ear
And not from head to toe.
That matters

Doo doodle-oo doo
Doo doodle-oo doo
Doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo

“Come on Lils!” Ruby cried, pulling her up from the bed to join them in their song and dance, Holly wrapping a scarf around Lily’s head as they all began to can-can.

All: Who cares what they're wearing on Main Street
or Hogsmeade Road
It's what you wear from ear to ear
And not from head to toe that matters
So, grin a bit, so, beam a bit
and laugh for a while
Remember you're never fully dressed
Though you may wear the best
You're never fully dressed without a
Smile!!!” They finished collapsing on the closest bed in a fit of giggles.

“Thank you.” Lily told them. “You always know what to say.”

“You better believe it baby.” Joked Ruby.

Suddenly a thought occurred to Lily. She pushed herself up on one elbow to face Ruby “Ruby? I have a question.”

“Mmm?” Ruby prompted her eyes still closed.

“You and Remus.”

Her eyes snapped open and she stared at Lily. Holly was watching them with interest. She knew exactly where Lily was going with this. “Well, I couldn’t help but notice you two have become kinda close…do you like him?” Ruby just looked at the floor and tried to hide a smile, however Lily and Holly noticed and before Ruby could say anything Lily and Holly were on top of her squealing and hugging.


“Prongs, I am so bored! We need to plan a prank… how about on Snivellus?”

“Padfoot, I am absolutely snowed under with homework and for once I don’t want to be doing it the night before it’s due.” James stated, then he heard a thud, Sirius had fallen off his bed. His head popped up over the top of the mattress, “What the bloody hell has happened to you? You, we never do homework! Especially not in advance” James just shrugged.

“Yeah and I never had to do nightly patrols either,” James added, “Hey, Moony, back me up here, please? Moony, hey Remus!”

“Huh? What?”

“I think our dear friend Moony has something or someone else on his mind, don’t you agree Prongs.” James nodded.

“Even though Sirius has been utterly incapable of doing anything when Holly is around and I have been well…”

“Off with the fairies?” Sirius offered.

“Yeah that. Anyway, just because me and Sirius haven’t said anything until now, doesn’t mean we haven’t noticed.”

“Noticed what exactly?” Remus asked curiously.

“That you and Ruby have become very close friends.”

“Well, what do you expect! Without you two, all I have is Peter and Ruby. And trust me Ruby is much better company than him. I’ve never really talked with her. She surprises me.”

“You like her,” Sirius commented in a sing-song voice.

“We’re friends, that’s all.”

“You sure that’s all?”

“Yes, Prongs I'm sure.”


Don’t call me baby, Madison Avenue

Fully Dressed, by Bert Healey, The Boylen Sisters

Chapter 5: Maybe this Christmas.
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Chapter 5- Maybe this Christmas

Autumn had passed by quite quickly, the Marauders had played no pranks on anyone much to Sirius’ disgust. They had also become better friends with Lily, Holly and Ruby except for Peter who had started to become very distant. Lily didn’t mind at all being friends with James since he had seemed to lose his arrogant stride and cocky smirk.

Winter was fast approaching and for James and Lily that meant planning the Christmas ball, along with the help of the prefects, this group of prefects included Remus and Ruby, who had replaced Lily as Gryffindor's female prefect.

“Well, the next few weeks should be fun for all,” James stated at breakfast. “winter is just settling in and we have a ball to organise.”

“James I detect a hint of sarcasm.”

“That’s very perceptive of you, Lily,” Sirius told her. Lily just glared at him.

“Anyway James, it will be fun! We get to decide everything, and you get to boss Remus and Ruby around,” Lily was trying to coax James into liking the idea of planning the Christmas ball. James thought about the idea of bossing around one of his best friends then a thought occurred to him.

“But I boss Remus around on a daily basis, it wouldn’t be any different.”

“He has a point you know,” Remus voiced. Lily decided to give up. Everyone finished their breakfast in silence, just as they were about to leave Dumbledore stood up.

“I would like to ask our Head Boy and Girl to see me before they go to class, thank you.”

James and Lily walked up to the staff table to talk to Dumbledore, “James, Lily, I would like to remind you that as it is almost December, I think it would be wise to begin planning the Christmas ball. I expect that it will be as good as previous years, do make sure you inform the prefects of meeting times, now off you go, we don’t want to be late for your first lesson of the day.” James and Lily left the Great Hall and walked to Transfiguration together.

“You ready for our test, Lily?”

“No, you know very well Transfiguration is not my forte. I much rather Charms and Potions.”

“Well, turning a table into a lion can be difficult, unless…”

“You’re James Potter, right?” Lily interrupted.

“Or Sirius Black,” James added, both he and Lily burst into a fit of laughter. They had calmed down by the time they had reached the Transfiguration classroom. They went their separate ways to sit with their respective friends, on either side of the room. Once they were seated, McGonagall began to test everyone individually in a smaller room off to the side. James kept stealing glances at Lily and more than once he saw that she was stealing glances at him as well.


“Excuse me, could you all settle down please? Excu-”

“Hey, shut the hell up!”

“Thank you for that, James,” Lily smiled at him and James smiled back, Remus and Ruby noticed this and gave each other a quick glance. “Now as you all know this is our first meeting to organize the Christmas ball, and Dumbledore has informed myself and James that he wants it to be just as good as last years.”

“So we are going to make this years better!” James added, the prefects laughed at his comment, “Hey… I was being serious.”

The meeting went for an hour, then everyone left except for James, Lily, Remus and Ruby. “What do you think Sirius and Holly got up to while we were here?” James questioned is companions.

“Well considering Sirius can’t manage to string a proper sentence together and direct it at her since we left London. I doubt they did much at all.” The four Gryffindor's laughed at the thought of Sirius and Holly sitting in an awkward silence as they walked back to their common room.

They reached the Fat Lady, said the password and entered the common room to find Holly quietly doing her homework by the fire, Sirius was nowhere to be seen. “Where’s Sirius?” Remus asked Holly. She shrugged and continued on with her homework. Remus groaned then looked towards James. “Catch you ladies later, we better go talk to him.” He told them as they headed up to their dorm in search of Sirius.

“He’s not here!” James exclaimed when they entered their empty room. “Where the bloody hell is he?”

“Check the map.” James went to his trunk and rummaged around in it for the Marauder’s map. He lifted it out of his trunk and laid it out on his bed. “I solemnly swear that I am up to no good.” James and Remus scanned the map for Sirius.

“There he is,” Remus said calmly, pointing to the outskirts of the Forbidden Forest, “but why is he there?”

“Come on let’s go.”


“Padfoot! What are you doing out here, it’s freezing?” James asked his best friend as he sat down next to Sirius on the mossy rock.

“Just thinking.”

“Care to elaborate? Or should I assume you’re thinking about Holly.”

“Assume away my friend, assume away… because you’re right. I talked to her while you guys were at your meeting. Didn’t go my way, so I just left.” James and Remus exchanged a glance.

“You actually like her don’t you?” Sirius nodded.

“She told me I just like the way she looks, that I don’t even know her. but there’s something else.” He told them miserably. James couldn’t help but laugh. Sirius stared up at him darkly and pulled out his wand. “You wouldn’t.” James told him with a arrogant smirk.

Sirius dropped his wand in defeat. “You’re right I wouldn’t. Where did Moony go?”

James shrugged. “Care to go for a run?” Sirius nodded and promptly transformed into a large black dog, running further into the forest. James grinned and followed him.


Remus had wandered back up to the common room. Holly was still right where they had found her earlier but it appeared that Lily and Ruby had already gone upstairs to their dorm. He sat down next to her with out saying anything. She pretended not to notice him while he watched her write in tiny, neat scrawl.

“What?” She asked after a few moments, unable to bear him watching her in silence anymore.

“You were wrong, you know.” He informed her then stood up to leave. He was at the staircase to the boys dorm before she dropped her quill and spun around.

“Wrong about what?” Holly called to him but he didn’t answer. “Uh!” She needed to talk to Lily and Ruby, she thought quickly packing up her stuff. Just as she was about to leave Sirius and James came back inside. She couldn’t help but blush before dashing across the room to her dorm.

“Help me.” Holly pleaded as she entered the room with a crash. Her friends looked up from where they were sitting on the floor laughing about something.

“Join us and share your worries, my love.” Lily soothed patting the floor beside her. Holly stared at them both in a meaningful way and they both lost their smiles. “OK we’re being serious.” Holly groaned and sat down. “Something I said?” Lily queried.

“What is it?” Ruby asked.

“Sirius? We noticed that he wasn’t around when we came back from the meeting. What happened?”

“He asked me out on a date.”

“Really?” Asked Lily excitedly. “What did you say?”

“I told him that he only liked the way I looked and that I refused to be just another random girl to him.”

“And?” Prompted Ruby impatiently.

“And he left.”

“Left? What do you mean? He just gave up?”

“Yep. He just gave up. Left the common room.”


Holly sighed. “So then Remus came in and was like you were wrong.”

“Wrong about what?” Ruby asked, slightly confused.

“Sirius!” Lily sighed impatiently. “Keep up!”

“Ohh.” Ruby said. “So what’s the problem then?”

“I don’t know!” Holly exclaimed jumping up suddenly.

“Do you like him?” Lily asked calmly.

“Maybe…yes…no...I don’t know! I'm so confused.”

“Why? Why are you so unsure? Sirius can be a pretty decent guy…”

“I don’t know! He’s just not what I want.” Holly told them in an exasperated voice.

“What do you want then?” Ruby asked quietly. Holly thought for a moment.

(A/N: Adapted from Cool rider, sung by Michelle Pfeiffer in Grease II)
“If you really want to know what I want in a guy
Well, I'm looking for a dream on a mean machine with hell in his eyes
I want a devil in a dark disguise, he's gonna be wild as the wind
And one fine night, I'll be holding on tight to a

Cool rider, a cool rider
If he's cool enough, he can burn me through and through
If it takes forever, then I’ll wait forever
No ordinary boy, no ordinary boy is gonna do
I want a rider that's cool

That's the way it's gonna be, and that's the way that I feel
I want a lot more than the boy next door, I want hell on wheels
Just give me a black motorcycle with a man growing out of the seat
And move aside 'cause I'm gonna ride with a

Cool rider, a cool rider
If he's cool enough, he can burn me through and through
If it takes forever, then I’ll wait forever
No ordinary boy, no ordinary boy is gonna do
I want a rider that's cool

I don't want no ordinary guys comin' on strong to me
They don't know what I'm looking for, they don't know what I need
They're gonna know it when he gets here, 'cause they'll cry, they'll be shakin'
I'll do anything to let him know that I'm his, his for the taking
I want a cool rider, a cool rider
I want a cool rider, a cool rider
I want a C-O-O-L R-I-D-E-R
I need a C-O-O-L R-I-D-E-R”

Ruby and Lily were silent for a moment. Before Lily started to speak then stopped.

“No, just say it.” Holly told her.

“Well, if I may say so I think you just described Sirius. So I don’t see a problem.”

Holly thought about it. “No, I want someone dark and mysterious. That was how he used to seem. But he isn’t mysterious, we all know what he's thinking. He changed and unlike you and James Lils, I don’t like it. I want someone who makes me hot and cold. Who knows me and still wants to be around me. Someone who will always protect me because he wants to not just because he can.”

“But you used to like him.” Ruby stated thoughtfully.

Holly looked down shyly. “Maybe…once when he was exactly what I wanted. But then he didn’t see me, did he? I finally got his attention and I realised I don’t want it so bad anymore. Maybe I just want some fun.”


“Hey Sirius!...What are you doing?” James asked as he bounded into the empty common room to find Sirius next to the stairs that lead to the girls dorms.

“Shhhh!” Sirius told him with a wave of his arms. James leaned next to him to listen too.

“What are we listening to?” He asked in a whisper.

Sirius sighed in defeat and wandered to the nearest couch. “Nothing now.”

“Ok…what were we listening to?” James asked cheerfully totally unfazed by how annoyed Sirius was.

“What Holly wants in a guy…”

“Which is?”

“A dark devil…cool…” Sirius muttered more to himself than to James.


“Never mind. Catch ya in the morning.”


“Looking sharp.”

“Who are you talking to?” James asked as he and Sirius stood infront of the mirror.

Sirius snorted in response. “Who do you think mate? I was, of course talking to myself.” Sirius told him running a hand through his hair.

“You know Padfoot, talking to yourself is the first sign of madness…not sure what complementing yourself is…” Remus joked in the background as he searched madly for his shoes.

Sirius spun around to face him. “Ah but there is a fine line between madness and brilliance my friend and I-“

“Am bordering on mad?” James offered helpfully.

Sirius scowled. “The whole world is against me! I can’t help if I look charming tonight.”

James sighed. “Ready Pete?” he called into the bathroom. Peter came scurrying out to join them. “I told Lily I would meet her down there. So can we go?”


“Have you seen my hairbrush?”

“Um, its under your bed.”

“What’s it doing there?”

“I don’t know! More importantly have you seen my pink lipstick?”

“The pale shimmery one?”

“Yeah that’s it.”

“Here. Sorry I borrowed it.”

“That’s cool, it looks good on you.”

“Thanks! Does my hair look ok?”

“Awesome. How bout mine? It wont do a thing I want!”

“No its fine! Looks good.”

“Yeah, you look great! So who are you trying to impress, Lils?”

“No one… I just want to look nice. You know?”

“Yeah I get it.” The others told her. Lily smiled as she looked in the mirror at her friends.

(A/N: Adapted from Anticipating by Britney Spears. BTW they are actually making their way to hall as they sing. Didn’t know how to quite get that across.)
Lily: Hair’s done all perfect
Lookin' in the mirror and
I'm checkin' out my lipstick
Ruby: Girlfriends, everyone’s set
We’re going out tonight

Holly: Feelin' so crazy cool
Vibe so right
Don't know what
They're ready for
Ruby: well we’re ready
Looking so hot
Lily: one last check
Step outside
Skip down the stairs
Head to the door
Makin' our way
To the hall”

At the door they all split up, heading toward a boy they wanted to dance with.

All: My body's taken over
And we’re gonna have fun
Woah yeah ay yeah
I'll be anticipating
This is our song
They're playing
I wanna dance with you
You're feelin' this right
Let's party tonight

Lily to James: Step up baby
Don't be shy
Ruby to Remus: know you've noticed me
'Cause you're
Givin' me the eye
And I
Don't wanna play around
Baby watch me move
Holly to Random: Check this
Let's make a scene
Don't need to
Wait another
Why you wanna
Make me long for you?
All: Move it baby over here
So we can dance all night.

We can get down
To the music’s sound
Feelin' so good baby
All around
Feelin' kinda flirty
Come and get me now

Woah oh
Ow yeah

I'll be anticipating
This is our song
They're playing
I wanna dance with you
You're feelin' this right
Let's party tonight

I'll be anticipating
This is our song
They're playing
I wanna dance with you
You're feeling this right
Let's party tonight.”


“Quite an entrance back there Evans.” James joked as he danced with Lily. He was slightly surprised that she had asked him to dance… and even more surprised when she had agreed to dance a second time.

Lily laughed as he twirled her around. “So what do you think?”

“I think you look fabulous in that lovely green dress. Really complements your eyes.”

Lily blushed and swatted him on the arm playfully. “I mean the hall.”

James laughed easily. “I know. I have to say we did a fabulous job.” He told her dipping her skillfully. She giggled again. Who would have thought she would have chosen to dance with James Potter? And have fun while doing so?


“Who would have thought that our Lily would be dancing with James Potter?” Ruby asked, looking around the table where Holly, Sirius and Remus sat. They all laughed and watched as James dipped Lily. Sirius couldn’t help but notice that both girls were smiling dreamily. He glanced around at the other tables and noticed it was a common look. Now if he could make Holly look at him like Lily was staring at James. He stood abruptly, making everyone look up at him.

“Sorry, just need some air.” He told them before striding to the nearest exit, waving to James and Lily as they made their way to their table.

Lily sat down next to her friends and grabbed a strawberry from the fruit platter that was in the middle of the table. “Where’s he going?”

“Outside.” Remus told her. She made a small O with her mouth and looked at Holly. Holly shrugged as if to say, wasn’t me. She cleared her throat and Lily looked back at her strawberry.

“I really like the decorations, you two.” Holly told them, trying to steer the conversation away from her.

James smiled at Lily and put his arm around her shoulders. “All thanks to Lily here. She had the vision. I only took notes.” He laughed as Lily blushed again. He liked this effect he was having on her. Not once tonight had she told him off or rolled her eyes at him. Miracles do happen. “Say Moony...we should go find Padfoot.”

As they left Ruby leaned in close to Lily. “So…you and James.”

“Are friends and having a good time.” She replied calmly, looking around as the fruit platter disappeared and dessert was served.

Holly and Ruby both looked at her in disbelief. “We were watching you two out there…you do realise that most of the female population were watching you with green eyes.”

Lily shrugged. “Yeah so James has a few admirers. They aren’t going to deck me or anything.”

“It wasn’t just dancing with James that was enviable, it was the way he was looking at you and the way you were looking at him.”

“How was I looking at him?” Lily asked in shock.

Holly sighed. “Like you were the luckiest girl in the world.”

Lily stared at them. What were they trying to say? She was about to open her mouth to defend herself when James, Remus and Sirius returned. Holly and Ruby stifled a giggle as Lily blushed again. She composed herself long enough to hold a civilized conversation throughout their meal.


After dessert Lily stood by the side of the dance floor and watched the colorful couples twirl merrily. She smiled remembering dancing with James earlier.

“Care to dance?” Someone asked from behind her. She spun around to face Elliot Barker.

She smiled weakly. “I’d rather not.” She told him truthfully.

“I saw that smile. You want to dance with me.”

“No. No I don’t.” She told him turning away from him.

“Come on Baby, I don’t like how we ended things. I want to dance and have a chat.” Elliot said as he grabbed Lily’s arm to stop her from walking off.

Lily wrenched her arm away.

“No I don’t want to dance with you.”

“I kno-“

“I believe she said no Barker, leave her alone.” James interrupted. He had been listening to most of their conversation and did not like where it was heading.

Elliot smirked. “What are you? Her knight in shining armour?”

James opened his mouth to speak when Dumbledore stood and opened his arms to ask for silence. He gave Elliot a smug grin before turning to where Dumbledore stood.

“A Merry Christmas to all. Before we all head off to our warm beds I would like to thank our Head Boy and Girl and our prefects for organizing this magnificent ball.” Dumbledore paused to wait for the applause to die down. “Yes, yes thank you all. Now for the last dance of the night could I ask our Head Boy and Girl to step onto the dance floor?”

James smiled to himself and turned around. He gave a small bow to Lily, reaching his hand passed Elliot to gallantly ask her to join him. She smiled and accepting his hand with a small curtsy. They made their way to the middle of the dance floor where they began to sway with the music. After a moment she looked up at him. “Thank you. I have had a wonderful time tonight James.”

“Any time Lily.” He told her. Smiling back down at her as she rested her head on his chest.

Remus watched Lily and James with a smile. He could almost feel the sighs from the crowd. He turned to Ruby. “Would you like to dance?” She nodded slowly and he lead her to the floor.

Other people slowly began to join in the slow dance the Head Boy and Girl started until there were barely any people still sitting at tables. Sadly one of these people was Holly. She sighed and looked slowly around the room. She spotted Sirius just entering from another stroll outside. He leaned casually against the wall and watched the happy couples. Holly thought it odd as she watched him reject a blonde Hufflepuff. She wandered slowly over to him, feeling slightly sorry for him and wanting maybe to offer her friendship. He watched her curiously until she spoke. “Since when do you say no to pretty young Hufflepuffs?”

He grinned. “Since I realised that they were incapable of holding an intelligent conversation.”

“I think she heard that.”

Sirius shrugged his shoulders. “She probably didn’t know what half those words meant. I don’t think I will be attacked by the breathing dolls.”

Holly smiled and they both watched the twirling couples. “Look at James and Lily…that girl is so head over heels,” Sirius said.

“Yeah but she’s never going to admit that.”

“Stubborn as he is I suppose.”

“Even more…Sirius? Dance with me?” she asked quietly, offering her hand.

He accepted with his famous smile. “I would love to.” He told her as they joined the happy dancers on the floor.


Up at the teachers table Dumbledore sat alone swaying gently to the music. He watched with a faint smile as his students enjoyed their ball and each others company. It gave him hope that the magical world would survive through the war that was approaching. They needed to remember what they were fighting for and what was at stake.

(A/N: Maybe This Christmas, by Ron Sexsmith)
“Maybe this Christmas will mean something more
Maybe this year love will appear
Deeper than ever before
And maybe forgiveness will ask us to call
Someone we love
Someone we’ve lost
For reasons we can’t quite recall
Mmm, maybe this Christmas

Maybe there’ll be an open door
Maybe the star that shined before
Will shine once more, ohhh

Mmmmmmm, mmmmmmmm

And maybe this Christmas will find us at last
In heaven, at peace
Prayed for at least
For the love we’ve been shown in the past
Maybe this Christmas
Maybe this Christmas”


“Before you go, could James and Lily please see me before you go? Thank you.” James and Lily walked off the dance floor and towards Dumbledore. “Now, as you two are the schools Head Boy and Girl, you have the duty of patrolling the halls to make sure everyone has gone to bed.” James and Lily nodded. They left the hall, deciding to start with the dungeons.

“Well Lily, looks like you’re going to have to spend some more time with me.”

“Damn,” Lily replied in a mocking tone. James just grinned at her. They walked all over Hogwarts; apparently the entire school was tired, as James and Lily found no one wandering the halls. So they just headed back to Gryffindor tower.

“So, did you have fun tonight?” James asked as he and Lily stepped through the portrait hole into the common room.

“You know I did, James,” Lily noticed that James had moved closer to her as she answered his question. James leaned in towards Lily but she backed away, “James, I can’t, I’m sorry.” Lily turned and ran up the stairs to her dorm, thankfully all the girls were asleep.


Cool Rider, music and lyrics by Genners Wade, vocals by Michelle Pfeiffer

Anticipating, by Britney Spears

Maybe This Christmas, by Ron Sexsmith

Chapter 6: Step by step.
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Chapter 6- Step by step.

“Lily wait up!…Ok. That’s fine too. Whatever, keep walking.”

“James, hold it I have to talk with you.” James spun around to face Sirius, not at all in the mood for joke. He hadn’t talked to Lily since Christmas eve…which was a total of 9 days. They both had gone home early Christmas morning to be with family and he had not yet had a chance to talk to her. Mainly because she would not stay in the same room with him for more than a minute. He gave Sirius a look that clearly said this better be good or you will die a slow and painful death.

Sirius chose to ignore James’ look of annoyance, steering him towards an empty armchair. Sirius crouched before James as a mother would her small child and gave a small sigh, clasping his hands infront of his mouth in a thoughtful way. “Look Prongs I know this may be hard to accept but I really think you need to hear it from someone who can speak through experience. James I-“ Sirius paused to take a deep breath, steadying himself to shock James.

“Sirius will you get on with it!?”

“Sorry, I’m just not ready for this. James, you don’t know how hard it is to see you in pain but I think its time you knew that Evans is avoiding you. I just thought you should hear it from somebody who cares. Wow what a relief! Thank god that is out in the op- are you smiling? Is James smiling again? Excellent, my work here is done.” Sirius told him, standing up and wiping his hands together.

“You idiot Sirius! Must you always make a joke of my life?” James asked shaking his head at his friend who always seemed to see how to make light of a situation.

Sirius pretended to think for a moment. “Yes. Yes, I think I must, as I am Sirius Black and you are James Potter and I am simply by far superior and- OW! What was that for?” Sirius cried as James punched him in the arm.

“For being you. Come on lets get to Transfiguration before McGonagall ends us.”

“Aye, Aye Cap’n. Lets go!”


Holly disliked transfigurations. She couldn’t seem to focus enough to turn the chair into a chicken. She flicked her wand once more and when that failed she turned to Lily who was changing her chair into a chicken and back without thought. Typical. “Hey Lily?”


“What am I doing wrong?”

“Yes.” Lily replied distractedly.

Holly rolled her eyes. “Lily!” she cried snapping her fingers infront of Lily’s face. “Focus! That was not a yes no question!”

Lily blinked and looked at her. “What? I'm sorry Hol, what did you say?”

Holly sighed. “I asked if you could help me…but as if thats important... Lily? What’s wrong? You haven’t been yourself since Christmas.”

Lily opened her mouth to speak but was cut off by the bell. Or saved by the bell. She rushed from the room but Holly soon caught up with her. She looked around for the second interrogator but realised she was with Remus still.

Lily looked around quickly and dragged Holly outside into the empty courtyard. Seconds later Ruby joined them. “What’s going on?”

Lily ignored her turning to Holly and shivering slightly in the cold. “He almost kissed me.”

“What?” Asked Holly. While Ruby who had caught on surprisingly quickly only muttered a small “Oh.”

“And I bolted.” Lily told them beginning to pace the small courtyard.

“And you haven’t talked to him since?” Ruby asked.

“Or more to the point you have been avoiding him.” Holly added having finally connected the dots.

Lily looked up at them sharply. “Is it that obvious?”

Holly and Ruby looked at each other. “Yeah. Yeah it is.”

Lily grumpily sat on the stone bench nearby. “Oh great. Do you think James has noticed?”

“Lily, when you pretend not to hear him when he shouts out in a quiet room, you could say it is obvious.”

“Oh Merlin. What should I do?”

“Talk to him?” Both her friends told her impatiently.

“And tell him what?” Lily cried jumping up to pace again.

Holly gave her a wide grin. “How much you love him and-“

“I do not love James Potter!”

“Lily,” Holly started seriously, placing her hand on Lily’s shoulder. “I believe that is called denial.”

Lily scowled, then sighed. “I don’t know what to do! I’m so confused.

Lily: If there's a prize for rotten judgment
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!

Ruby and Holly: Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of

Lily: No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no

Ruby and Holly: You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh

Lily: It's too cliché
I won't say I'm in love
I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
This is James we’re talkin’ ‘bout

Ruby and Holly: You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad

Lily: No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no

Ruby and Holly: Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love

Lily: This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love

Ruby and Holly: You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love

Lily: You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it

Ruby and Holly: Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love

Lily: Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love”

Holly and Ruby grinned at her “We so knew it.” Holly teased.

Lily’s eyes widened and she sat back down on the bench. “What do I do?” She whispered fearfully.

“Talk to him. Next time he approaches you, don’t run. Listen.” Ruby told her, then looked at Holly. “And I thought she was smart…”

Holly laughed while Lily stared at them in annoyance. “Oh that’s right you two laugh it up, while I panic at the thought of actually talking to the guy I apparently love. Oh my God, I'm losing it!” Lily cried but they only laughed harder. “That’s it. I am leaving. Some friends you are. Teasing me in my time of need.” Lily moaned. “I’ll see you both later.”

She walked quickly inside out of the cold and up the stairs, totally lost in her thoughts until she crashed into somebody.

“Oomph!” She cried as she landed sprawled on the floor, her books scattering in every direction.

“Lily Evans. Just the person I’ve been hoping to run into.”

Lily groaned. “James Potter, the very person I really didn’t want to run into.”

He smiled sadly, offering his hand to help her up. “I sort of got that impression.”

“Not the most subtle of people am I?” She joked half heartedly.

“You could say that. So now that I have you in one place, can we talk? That’s all I want to do. Just talk.”


Lily strolled back to her dorm in a daze. So many thoughts were running through her head. Mainly ones that involved James Potter. Before Lily could open the door it swung open and she was pulled roughly inside.

“Was that absolutely necessary? I would have only been another few seconds!” Lily muttered as she sprawled tiredly on her bed. She had just began to relax when two thumps joined her from either side. Lily opened her eyes to find two eager faces looking at her. “What?” She asked irritably.

“What did he say?”

Lily sighed and sat up. “Nothing much, that he's sorry he ruined things and can we go back to being friends.” She told them before throwing herself back onto the bed.

“And?” Ruby questioned.

“I don’t want to be his friend!” Lily wailed. her friends sighed and both wrapped their arms around her in a comforting hug. The mind of Lily Evans was not something that should be messed with. It was simply best not to question any further.


”We need to do something tonight.” Sirius complained. He and the marauders were lounging in their dorm. Sirius was busy staring at the wall while James had located his stolen snitch and had began playing with it again. “That thing hasn’t surfaced for a while.” Sirius commented lazily, not really caring for an answer.

James shrugged in reply. “Moony, you’re awfully quiet over there.”

“So are you.” Remus replied.

James shrugged while Sirius rolled back over, already bored with the conversation. “I was just thinking.

“Bout what?” Remus prompted casually.

“Lily.” James sighed. “I told her today I wanted to be friends.”

“Why?” Remus asked in bewilderment. “You’ve never wanted to be friends with Lily!”

James angrily tried to throw the snitch, he watched as instead of crashing into the wall as it should have it fluttered away untroubled again before answering. “I don’t, You're right I never have but I'm stupid and I just wanted her to talk to me again. It's slightly better than being ignored. Slightly.”

“Oh.” Was the only reply.

James nodded and tried to recapture the snitch while everyone else fell into silence again. “So how bout you Moony?”

“Ruby.” Remus replied without thinking. “I mean, what? Who said that! Not me! I didn’t! Nooo…” He rambled sitting up straight in his chair.

James, Sirius and Peter chuckled. “So Moony are you actually admitting to liking fair Ruby?” Sirius asked, glad the evening had finally gotten interesting.

“Yeah,” he sighed. “There's just something about her.”

“What?” Asked James.

Remus shrugged. “I can’t explain it... And why do I have to? I haven’t asked you what it is about Lily, now have I?”

James thought for a moment. “Actually you have. Numerous times and each time I tell you the same thing. It’s the eyes and the way they sparkle with intelligence and fire when I piss her off. That’s what got me.” He told them dreamily. “How just her smile can make me want to dance, her laugh and the way it reminds me of sweet music, the way she looks when she she scrunches her nose and-“

“My God! Make him stop! PLEASE have mercy!” Sirius yelled, slamming his hands over his ears.

“OK OK!" Remus cried, seeing how James Could and given the chance probably would go on all night. "I take back my comment, but you do realise that you are only describing her qualities that you find likable, not saying why you actually do.” Remus told him.

"Are you saying my love for Lily is superficial?" James demanded.

"No!" Remus replied quickly, alarmed at his friends sudden outburst. "Simply that theres something unexplainable."
James considered this for a moment, his anger vanishing instantly as thought. "Yeah, i get what you're saying..." He said quietly before lying back down on his bed.

“Ok, that’s kinda way to deep…” Sirius told them both after a moments silence. “So Moony why don’t you tell her?”

Remus sighed dejectedly. "Isn't it obvious?

(A/N- Adapted slightly from Every little thing (he) does is magic, by Shawn Colvin.)
Though I’ve tried before to tell her
Of the feelings I have for her
In my heart

Every time that I come near her
I just loose my nerve like I’ve done
From the start…

Cause every little thing she does is magic
Every thing she does just makes me smile
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

Do I have to tell the story?
Of the laughter that we shared
Since we first met

It’s shouldn’t be a dilemma
But it’s always me
who ends up getting hurt.

Cause every lil thing she does is magic
Every thing she does just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

I resolve to tell her straight up
A thousand times a day
And ask her if she’ll go out with me
In some old fashioned way

But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I call out to her
Long before my tongues tripped me
must I always be alone

Cause every little thing she does is magic
Every thing she does just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

Cause every little thing she does is magic
Every thing she does just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

goes on…goes on…”

“So you’re not going to tell her?” Sirius asked in confusion.

“No…I think there is something else I need to tell her first.” Remus replied thoughtfully.

Sirius looked confused still but James gasped. “You wouldn’t.” He asked in disbelief.

“Wouldn’t what?” Sirius asked.

Remus ignored him and turned to James. “I trust her.”

“Someone tell me what’s going on!” Sirius whined.

“Hey, I get it. Mate,” James continued. “Whatever happens we’ve got your back.” Remus smiled at James gratefully and both fell silent for a moment until Sirius interrupted with a snap of his fingers.

“Oh! I get it!” He exclaimed at last. “That’s big. So big. Like wow.”


“So when are you going to tell her?” Sirius questioned at breakfast the next day but was shushed by Remus. He glanced at the doorway as Ruby, Holly and Lily entered in a fit of giggles. They sat down across from the marauders as Peter jumped up to leave.

“Bye Pete!” Sirius called, slightly confused at his sudden departure. The thought that something was up was quickly dismissed as he caught sight of his breakfast. “Morning ladies.” He said in between bites.

“So Hogsmeade today…Join us for a butterbeer?” James asked in between mouthfuls.

Lily looked at her friends. “Sure.” She shrugged. James almost choked on his toast but quickly recovered to send her his most charming smile. Lily scrunched up her nose then flicked a piece of her crust at him. It hit him in the middle of the forehead causing everyone around him to laugh.


“So you never told me when you are going to tell her!” Sirius whined as the boys made the trip from Hogwarts to Hogsmeade. Remus couldn’t help but grin. He tapped his nose and winked at his friend.

“All in good time, Padfoot. All in good time.”

Sirius Pouted. “That is so not an answer!”

“Fine.” Remus told him. “Soon but not today. Today we are going to have fun.”

“That’s right.” Sirius called loudly as they entered Three Broomsticks. The girls were already waiting for them at a table down the back. Remus gestured to the table and went to get drinks for them all. The six of them sat in the crowded pub talking and laughing for a couple of hours before Holly jumped up.

“We have to go check out the sale at Gladrags Wizardwear!”

Within seconds the girls had all said their goodbyes and departed leaving James, Sirius and Remus in silence. After a while they too left and strolled back to Hogwarts.

“That was fun.” Sirius said with a smile. “Its funny to see you and Evans talking, Prongs, like civillyand i swear she may have even been flirting, eh?" He teased, nudging his friend in the side. "And did you notice Holly didn’t even shoot any evils my way! It was great. Maybe I’m growing on her. You know getting closer, step by step." He said, suddenly swerving in front of them with a smooth half turn and a clap of his hands.

(A/N-Adapted from Step by step by New Kids On The Block.)
Sirius: Step by step ooh baby
Gonna get to you girl
James: Step by step ooh baby
Really want you in my world

Sirius: Hey girl in your eyes
I see a picture of me all the time
Remus: And girl when you smile
You got to know that you drive me wild

All: Step by step
Ooh baby
You're always on my mind
Step by step
Ooh girl
I really think it's just a matter of time

Step by step ooh baby
Gonna get to you girl
Step by step ooh baby
Really want you in my world

James: Hey girl can't you see
I've got to have you all just for me
Remus: And girl yes it's true
No one else will ever do

All: Step by step ooh baby
Gonna get to you girl
Step by step ooh baby
Really want you in my world

Step one
We can have lots of fun
Step two
There's so much we can do
Step three
It's just you and me
Step four
I can give you more
Step five
Don't you know the time has arrived.”


I Won’t Say (In Love), music by Alan Menken, lyrics by David Zippel, vocals by Meg (Susan Egan)

Every little thing (he) does is magic, by Shawn Colvin

Step By Step, by New Kids On The Block

Please reveiw! i am having so much fun writing this and i want to know if readers enjoy it as much! please tell me!

Chapter 7: Secrets Are Out.
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Chapter 7 – Secrets Are Out

That evening at dinner, James and Sirius were being their usual selves and having a food fight, Peter hadn’t shown up and Remus was being unusually quiet. “Hey, Moony? Are you alright?” James asked Remus, receiving a smack on the head from a bread roll thrown by Sirius.

“Err, yeah. No… I talked to Ruby.” He said looking towards where she was sitting with her friends. She was staring aimlessly at her plate. Lily nudged her and she looked up meeting his eyes for a moment before she excused herself, leaving the great hall without a second glance.

Sirius breathed a silent ‘oh’. “I guess she didn’t take it too well.”

Remus shot him a dirty look before he too abandoned his meal. James leaned forward to slap Sirius in the back of the head. “Nice one.”

“What?!” Sirius complained, rubbing his head.

“You are a complete idiot, you know that?”

“We knew that.” Lily commented, joining them at the table, followed by Holly.

“Gee thanks, love you too Lils. So other than insulting me what do what do we owe the pleasure of your company?” Sirius greeted.

“We know you know what’s going on with Remus and Ruby, and we want to know,” Lily explained. James and Sirius chanced a sideways glance at each other.

“You know we know? And you want to know?” Sirius asked leaning forward.

“We know you know. And yes! we want to know!”

“So let me get this straight…you know we know and you don’t know but you want to know?”

“Yes! We want to know.”

“Ok…Know what?” James asked innocently.

“GA! Stop it or I will stab you with-“

“So she didn’t tell you?” Sirius interrupted suddenly. James shot his a dirty look, one more ‘you know’ and Lily would have forgotten what they knew that she didn’t.

“No, she didn’t tell us which is whyyyyy you. Are. Going to!” Lily told them slowly as if speaking to a small child…an annoying small child.

“There is something going on, isn’t there?” Holly blurted out.

“We don’t know what you’re talking about,” James said defiantly.

Lily rolled her eyes at him, “You are so impossible!”

“And yet still so unsure what you are talking about.” James told her as he and Sirius left them both fuming in the great hall.

James and Sirius found Remus staring aimlessly out at the lake.

“She doesn’t hate you, you know. She’s just scared,” Sirius said. Remus turned to face them, smirking slightly.

“Thanks, Padfoot. You’ve made me feel so much better. The girl I like is scared of me,” Remus threw himself onto the grass, now lying on his back looking up at the moon; the very same moon that brings him his terrible fate every time it’s full. “You guys didn’t react like this when I told you.”

“Yes, but we are guys. We saw it as a new adventure.” James pointed out.

“Why didn’t she see it like that? I thought she was different…”

“Give her some time. Eventually she will accept it.” James told him.

“Maybe she can even try the whole animagi thing…” Sirius added with a smile.

Remus groaned. “You two are so not helping.”

“What are friends for?” Sirius asked, patting Remus on the back.

“I am so never telling anyone else my secret ever again.”


Lily and Holly returned from dinner, ready to ask Ruby what had happened. They hadn’t expected to find their friend staring blankly at the wall, tears rolling down her cheeks. “Ruby, are you okay?”

Ruby didn’t move, she just shook her head. Lily and Holly sat down on either side of Ruby. “You wanna talk about it?” Holly asked. Ruby shifted herself “He likes me.”

“Oh my god, Ruby! That’s great!” Lily exclaimed, “I mean it is? Isn’t it? Because you like him too...?” she finished worriedly seeing as Ruby wasn’t nearly as excited as she should have been.

“Yeah, it’d all be great, that is until he kills me!” Ruby looked at her two friends, who were staring blankly at her, “He told me that he would never embark in any sort of relationship without me knowing the truth.” She told them. They both nodded.

“That was very thoughtful of him…” Holly said just to fill the silence.

“He told me he is a werewolf. Has been since he was a child.” Ruby whispered, the tears starting up again.

“Are you sure that’s what he said?” Lily asked shocked, but not nearly as bothered as Ruby seemed to be.

“Positive. Let me tell you Lils, it is definitely not something you miss.”

“So what does this mean?” Holly questioned quietly.

Ruby groaned, flopping back on her bed. “It means that every full moon, that sweet kind and generous boy turns into a full fledged rampaging monster!”

“Poor thing.” Lily murmured.

Holly nodded. “I know.”

Ruby sat up again. “What do you two mean?”

Lily shrugged. “It mustn’t be easy turning into a werewolf monthly.”

“I don’t know why we didn’t figure it out, he always seems so tired and that.” Holly added.

Lily nodded slowly. “Imagine keeping a secret like that.” She whispered. “All these years.”

Ruby let out a weird sort of laugh. “I'm not the only one who knows. I’m pretty sure his friends would.”

“Yeah they would have definitely known something was up.” Holly agreed.

“And they never told anyone. Wow.” Lily finished amazed at their strong bond and loyalty.

“So you two think its ok?”

This time Holly shrugged. “He can’t be dangerous, otherwise he wouldn’t be here. I think its more sad for him.”

Lily nodded. “You know he would never do anything to deliberately hurt you, Ruby. He must really like you to tell you the biggest secret of his life.”

“This is so confusing.” Ruby whined.

Lily laughed. “Come on. Lets go sit by the fire. We can toast marshmallows.”


“Moony, get up!” James and Sirius yelled at Remus the next morning.

“What time is it?” Remus asked, wrapping his blanket tighter around himself and over his head.

“Nearly six.”

“Nearly s… NEARLY SIX! Why are you waking me up so early?” Remus demanded from under his covers.

“Because we woke up and couldn’t get back to sleep,” Sirius said, grinning innocently, “and we thought that we could do something as Marauder’s today, to you know, keep your mind off other things.”

Remus had risen from his bed and was now in a sitting position, “Okay, fair enough but why six in the morning?”

“We told you, we woke up and couldn’t get back to sleep and you know what they say Moony, there’s no time like the present.”

Remus groaned as he reluctantly got out of bed, “Cant the present wait until daylight?” he complained even as he got dressed to follow James and Sirius down to the Great Hall for breakfast. The boys left Peter in bed, he seemed to be distancing himself from the other Marauder’s lately.

As the three boys walked through the Gryffindor common room, they noticed that there was three lumps on each of the couches next to the fire. “Who slept out here?” Remus whispered, leaning closer to James and Sirius.

“We shall soon find out,” Sirius said mischievously, grinning and raising one eyebrow. James and Remus looked at each other, worried about who was going to get frightened awake by Sirius Black at six in the morning.

“Padfoot, I don’t think this is such a good idea…” James’ attempts at stopping Sirius failing miserably.

Sirius walked right up to one of the couches, and poked the sleeping Gryffindor. Nothing. He poked again, a little bit harder than he anticipated because all of a sudden Holly sat up and punched Sirius on the arm. “Ouch, did I really deserve that?”

“Yes, I think you did… what time is it?” She asked with a yawn, smoothing down her messy blonde hair.

“Six fifteen,” Remus obliged. Holly groaned, flopping back on the couch and closing her eyes as Lily and Ruby woke up.

“Sorry girls,” James began, “but Sirius here – “

“Knew they were sleeping in the common room,” Sirius interrupted, pushing Lily’s feet over so he could sit. “I saw them here last night before I went to bed,” he added seeing the puzzled looks on James and Remus’ faces.

Lily yawned, stretching her feet out again on his lap. “That’s wonderful, but that doesn’t explain why you woke us up at 6.15 on a Sunday.” She complained.

“Tell me about it.” James agreed. Sitting on the arm of the couch next to Sirius. “He woke us too.” He told her, absentmindedly tickling Lily’s toes as he spoke.

Lily giggled. Pulling her toes out of his reach. “Stop it.” She murmured, slightly embarrassed. She looked around. Holly was still sprawled on the couch next to her with her eyes closed. Ruby on the other hand was sitting with her knees pulled up to her chin, determinedly looking at the floor. Remus too noticed she was looking uncomfortable.

“Sooo…” Sirius said, also noticing the awkwardness. “Shall we go eat since we are all up? Care to join us girls?”

Lily nodded quickly. Eager to leave, but a groan from Holly’s direction indicated food was the last thing on her mind. James winked at Lily and Sirius, walking over to her. Without making a sound he whipped her blankets away.

Holly squealed at the sudden rush of coldness. Sitting up straighter she pointed at James. “You are so dead. Ok fine! I will go get dressed for breakfast. Stupid boys…” She grumbled standing up to make her way back upstairs. Lily followed silently, dragging Ruby with them. The boys telling them they would meet downstairs.

Once out of the portrait hole, Remus turned to Sirius,” Why did you do that!?”

“Do what?”

“Invite them to have breakfast with us? I thought you said we were having a Marauder’s day so I could get my mind off other things.”

“So I did… but did you see Holly’s PJ’s?,” Sirius asked as they walked to the great hall. “Can you say cute?”

Remus rolled his eyes. “ so because you have a weakness for girly pajamas I have to spend breakfast with a girl who can barely meet my eye because she is scared I could maul her to death?” He hissed making Sirius’ eyes widen.

“Geez Moony, melodramatic much?” Sirius joked. “Anyway who’s up for waffles?” He exclaimed, bounding excitedly towards the great Hall.

“She will come around Moony. Maybe she will have fun today.” James offered weakly as they followed Sirius with a little less enthusiasm.

Remus scowled. “Its alright for you James. Lily actually likes you.” He said making James beam. Rolling his eyes once more he strode off quickly hoping Sirius was right and today wouldn’t be a total nightmare.


Breakfast that morning was awkward, due to Remus and Ruby not talking. “So, what should we all do today?” Sirius asked, putting emphasis on the word all, and receiving a glare from Remus.

“Well, I would very much enjoy a nice game of Quidditch,” James said, the others laughing at him, “What’s so funny? I really do want to play Quidditch.”

“Of course you do, you live, sleep and breathe the game!” Sirius told his friend.

“Actually, it could be fun,” Lily piped up, everyone turned to her with amazed looks on their faces.

“Since when have you liked Quidditch?” Ruby asked.

“I just said it could be fun.”

“That’s settled then, Quidditch it is. So, will it be a battle of the sexes?”

“Prongs, I think that’s a splendid idea!” Sirius exclaimed, jumping up from his seat, “To the Quidditch pitch!” The other five followed him, laughing and shaking their heads.


“Lils, that was the funniest thing I have ever seen!” Ruby exclaimed, through a fit of giggles, Holly joined in. Lily’s face was going as red as her hair.

“Hey, I think we could make a fine Quidditch player out of her yet… so long as she stays on the ground,” Sirius added, causing the girls to laugh harder, “OUCH!” Sirius turned towards his assailant “What was that for Prongs?” James just shook his head in response, then turned to Lily and whispered something to her. The two of them then headed towards the lake.

“Must be off for a romantic stroll,” Holly commented. Remus, Sirius and Ruby agreed, then all four of them returned to the common room.

Once through the portrait hole, they sat down in front of the fire. Remus looked over to Ruby and realised she was avoiding his gaze, “Err, I just remembered I have some homework to do.” With that he left for his dorm.

Ruby watched him leave, tears welling up in her eyes. She too got up and left, not saying a word. All day she had tried to act normal but thoughts kept her from being the friend he needed.

Sirius sighed, seeing two of his friends so unhappy., “So, Holly, did you have fun out there?” Sirius asked, noticing that she had moved a little bit closer.

“Yeah, I did.” Sirius noticed the look in her eye, one he had seen many times before. He leaned closer to her, until their lips met. Holly broke away first, Smiling slightly.

“Holly, I…” Sirius began. Trying to fill the awkward silence.

Holly stood up. “Well, goodnight.” She said, turning to leave.

“Holly?” Sirius called as she reached the stairs.

She turned hesitatingly. “Yes?”

“Will you go out with me?” he asked slowly.

Holly stared at him in disbelief for a moment. “I’m sorry, I have to check on Ruby.” She told him before rushing from the room.

Sirius groaned, smacking himself in the head just for being stupid. He had just kissed Holly Marlingson and it had meant nothing to her.


“I wonder what Prongs is doing,” Remus thought out loud to Sirius. As an answer they heard laughing coming from the common room.

“They’re back, that was definitely Prongs’ laugh.” Sirius and Remus walked down the stairs that led to the common room, to see James and Lily sitting by the fire, talking, laughing, getting along like a house on fire.

Sirius and Remus sat down on the bottom step.

Meanwhile, across from them, Holly and Ruby had also come down to see what was going on, they too sat down on the bottom step of the stairs.

Remus sighed.

(A/N: Can You Feel The Love Tonight, from Disney’s The Lion King)
Sirius: I can see what’s happening.
Remus: What?
Sirius: And they don’t have a clue.
Remus: Who?
Sirius: They’re falling in love and here’s the bottom line, our trio’s down to two.
Remus: Oh.
Sirius: The warm caress of firelight,
There’s magic everywhere,
And with all this romantic atmosphere,
Disasters in the air.

Holly and Ruby:
Can you feel the love tonight?
The peace the evening brings.
The world for once in perfect harmony,
With all its living things.

James: So many things to tell her,
But how to make her see?
The truth about my heart, impossible.
She’d shy away from me.

Lily: He’s holding back, he’s different,
But why I cant decide.
Why wont he ask me out again,
What’s he got to hide?

Holly and Ruby:
Can you feel the love tonight?
The peace the evening brings.
The world for once in perfect harmony,
With all its living things.

Can you feel the love tonight?
You needn’t look to far,
Stealing through the nights uncertainties,
Love is where they are.

Remus: And if they fall in love tonight,
It can be assumed.
Sirius: His pranking days with us are history,
Both: In short our pal is doomed!!

Sirius and Remus continued to watch as James and Lily moved closer to each other, the same look in their eyes that they had when they were dancing together at Christmas.

The four seventh year Gryffindor’s sitting on the steps got up and returned to their rooms, leaving James and Lily alone once more.


“Lily, will you go out with me?” James asked, forgetting his earlier vow to take it slow. But now with his arms wrapped around the girl of his dreams, as she rested her head on his chest he couldn’t resist. He waited as she looked up into his hazel eyes and he stared down into her green ones, fearing her answer. She smiled at last.

“Yes, James, I’d love to.”


‘Can you feel the love tonight’ from the Lion King, Composed by Elton John.

Well this chapter was posted about a week ago. but apparently not...sorry bout the long wait it was not lazyness it was HOLIDAYS! my co-writer has now gone back to school so expect some delays. Apologies!

Chapter 8: Bitterness.
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Chapter 8 - Bitterness.

James was absolutely walking on air. Lily Evans, girl of his dreams had finally, after three years, said yes. He sighed as he opened the dorm door, still floating, that is until he tripped on his trunk.

“What happened?” Sirius asked. Waking up at the sudden noise.

Remus sat up and switching on the light, only to see James sprawled on the floor with a huge grin on his face. “Well?”

James grinned, knowing he looked foolish. “She said yes!” He cried, throwing his arms into the air. “She said yes, she said yes, she said yes,” He chanted over and over again until Sirius’ pillow smacked him in the face, successfully shutting him up.


Lily walked to breakfast in a daze. She couldn’t believe the events of last night, even as she had told Holly and Ruby it had seemed like a dream. Realizing she must have had a goofy grin on her face she tried to relax her face but failed. She was happy. And who would have ever thought James Potter would be the reason?

“Morning beautiful!” James cried as he spotted his favorite redhead. Scooping her into his arms he kissed her infront of everyone in the great hall. Lily giggled and squirmed out of his reach, not too fond of the attention she was getting from the other students. She had had whispers following her all morning, people staring and pointing at her. She knew the reason of course, She and James had been drawing attention to themselves for years with their famous arguments, his pestering and her crushing comebacks but now, seeing them together was somewhat of a novelty. Apparently they liked the fact that she had finally given in, that James had gotten his girl…or judging from some angry glares, they didn’t.

Realizing he had embarrassed her, James quietly took her hand leading her away from the crowd. “Sorry,” he smirked. “Just couldn’t help myself.” He told her in what he still believed to be his most charming way.

Lily laughed at what may have once annoyed her. “Come on Mr. Smooth, let’s get some breakfast.” She said dragging him into the hall.

After a while Sirius joined them. “Well, if it isn’t the happy couple.” He joked. Lily couldn’t help but smile as James threw a bread roll at his friend. “Seriously, I’m happy for you both. Tell me Lily what made you change your mind?” he asked. This time it was Lily who threw the bread roll.

“Would you two quit it!” Sirius exclaimed as he dodged the flying missile.

“Quit what?” Ruby asked sitting down next to Sirius.

“Nothing.” Sirius told her rudely. He couldn’t help but blame her for Remus’ misery and had been treating her coldly since Sunday morning.

James, seeing Ruby’s sad face had to resist picking up another bread roll. “Lay off Padfoot. Leave her alone.” Ruby smiled at him gratefully while Lily sat up taller, suddenly realizing something.

“Moony…You call him Moony because-“ she started before she was cut off James’ hand covering her mouth. She pried it away. “Ok, sorry. So my question is, why Padfoot?”

Sirius looked slightly agitated by this question. He ran his hand through his hair and looked around as if looking for an escape route. James coughed nervously. Hoping Sirius could come up with something. Telling Lily he was illegal Animagi was not something he wanted to do right now.

“Well?” Lily prompted when they failed to speak.

“Look!” Sirius cried suddenly “It’s Holly! Sorry, I gotta go talk to her.” He told them, practically running from the awkward scene, leaving James to answer the girls questions.

Lily watched as James nervously tried to look anywhere but her. Lily laughed. “It’s okay if you don’t want to share.” She told him, laughing again as relief washed over his face.


Lily shrugged. “Maybe its not my place to know.”

James hugged her. “One day I will share all my secrets, I promise.” He told her sincerely. Lily smiled, looking into his eyes and stroking his face lightly totally caught up in her own happiness. That is until Ruby snorted from across the table.

“What happened to you two?” She laughed. “Could someone tell me where the real James and Lily are?”


“Holly, I need to talk to you.”

Holly shrugged. “Ok, I was about to grab some breakfast, we can talk in there.” She told him pointing behind him into the great hall.

He shook his head. “No…” He said dragging her back into the entry hall.

Taking a step back from her he took a deep breath and began. “Last night…you never gave me an answer.”

Holly pretended to think for a moment before she took a step closer on her tip toe. Wrapping her arms around his neck she kissed him again.

Drawing away after a moment, she smiled up at him.

“So is that a yes?” Sirius whispered.

“No… sorry, your just not what I want in a boyfriend but it was fun, we should do it again sometime.” She told him, patting his arm before turning to leave.

Long after she was gone Sirius finally found the right words to say. “What?”

“Sucks to be you mate.” Remus joked from behind him just coming down the stairs, Sirius sat down with a sigh.

“Ha ha ha. Hey Remus, seen Ruby, talked to her lately.”

Remus smirked. “Harsh Padfoot, harsh,” he joked joining Sirius on the bottom step.

“So you saw everything?”

“And heard it too. Can’t help but wonder what happened to her. She used to be so sweet and kind.” Remus laughed.

“She is so hot.” Sirius said, shaking his head. “Why is she doing this?”

“Because my friend, we obviously pissed someone off, karma is out to get us.”

Sirius turned to look at his friend. “You don’t actually believe that do you?”

“No, but as a reason it works. Its better than simply being unwanted.”

Sirius snorted indignantly. “I am so not unwanted.”

“By a certain blonde Gryffindor you are.”

“Yeah. And it sucks.” Sirius sighed.

Remus nodded in agreement.

Sirius could see that Remus’ problems were much deeper than his own. “She will come around Moony,” he told him, hoping it was true.

“I never should have told her. What if she tells someone.”

“She already did.”

Remus sat up straighter, unable to hide his fear, “What? Who?”

“Calm down. Just Lily and Holly. And you saw them yesterday. They were fine.”

“Yeah they were.” He sighed. “Why cant Ruby have been cool like that?”

Sirius shook his head, unable to come up with an answer.

“What if this gets out?” Remus asked worriedly. “I’ll be expelled.”

“It won’t. And you won’t. I’ll make sure of it.” Sirius assured him pulling himself to his feet. “Now come on we have to get to class.”

“Why?” Remus groaned. “So we can watch the happy couple?” He asked as Sirius helped him up. “I’m happy for him, but god I want to smack that grin off his face.”

Sirius grinned. “Oh it is tempting isn’t it?” he laughed.


As Sirius and Remus entered the charms classroom Sirius felt his jaw drop. “Moony, she stole my seat!” he whined in his most childish manner, “I told you this would happen.”

Remus could only shake his head as he took his usual seat next to Peter.

“That’s just great,” Sirius mumbled to no one in particular. “It’s cool Moony, I’ll just sit with Ruby over here,” he called loud enough to make sure he was heard.

“Ruby. Hi.” He greeted cheerfully. She looked at him wearily.

“That’s Holly’s seat.”

“Just wanted to talk to you for a moment Ruby baby.”

“As long as you don’t ever call me that again.”

“Sure it will be a sacrifice but ok.” Sirius joked. Ruby rolled her eyes at him so he got straight to the point. Ok here’s the deal, you see I was talking to my good friend Moony this morning-“

“Did he ask you to talk to me?” Ruby asked, her eyes narrowed.

Sirius chuckled. “No, no, no. He didn’t. He would probably kill me if he knew I was talking about him.”

“Neat. Does this story have a point?” Ruby asked rudely, in no mood to put of with Sirius.

“Please don’t tell anyone.”

“Don’t tell anyone what? That you can’t make a point?”

“What he told you…Don’t tell anyone…well besides Holly and Lily that is. He is worried what Dumbledore would say if he knew people knew – what?” Sirius exclaimed seeing the look on Ruby’s face.

“Do you honestly think I am so heartless that I would spread his secret around the school? I can’t believe you have that low of opinion of me!” She hissed.

“Hey, when you reacted like you did – ”

“What the hell did he expect?” She asked angrily. “Oh yeah, I really like you Ruby, but I'm a werewolf? Kiss me? Be my girlfriend? Sure. No. Look I'm sorry I didn’t open my arms with sympathy! I was a little shocked. It wasn’t what I had planned when he said he wanted to talk to me.”

“Look, I’m sorry. I didn’t think of it from your point of view.”

“Obviously not…” she said coldly turning away from him. “There’s Holly, can you move?”

“I’m not finished – ”

“Well I am! And if it will make you feel any better I wont tell Remus about this conversation okay?”

“That’s not what I was worried about.” Sirius hissed in return as Holly made her way towards them.

“Sirius, look, I care about him. I just need some time to get used to the idea okay?”

“Sure fine.” Sirius mumbled getting up from his seat.

“Sirius, Hi!” Holly greeted cheerfully. “No need to move on my account.” She smiled.

Sirius took a seat infront of them confused about what had just happened. After this morning’s conversation how could she be so damn chirpy? He thought to himself as a note flew over his shoulder.

Meet me in the Owlery after classes.
– Holly.

Sirius turned to look at her, even more confused than a minute ago. She smiled at him and winked before resuming her conversation with Ruby, leaving him stunned. Times like this he wanted to talk to James but James at the moment wasn’t interested in anything but his new girlfriend. Life sucks.


As Lily sat with James that night she couldn’t believe the day was over. It was almost surreal walking along the corridors holding his hand. But other than that nothing much had changed…except her title and the whispers that followed her. She was James Potter’s girlfriend. Like usual they had spent the day bickering constantly but now it was done with a smile. And he still drove her crazy…but in a good way. It was nice.

“Tired?” James asked seeing her yawn. She shook her head. She was tired but didn’t want to move. She was cozy sitting infront of the fire beside him, her head resting on his chest.

After a minute she felt her eyes closing. “Come on Lily. Time for bed.” James told her in a voice a mother would use as he pulled her up.

Lily crinkled her nose to show her disapproval at his tone. Yet she walked over to the girls dorm staircase with James behind her.

“Goodnight Lily.” He said quietly leaning closer to kiss her. She pushed him away, giggling, still not too fond of the attention.

He pretended to be hurt. “Not embarrassed to be seen with me are you Evans?”

She smiled. “Never.” She told him, standing on her tip toes to kiss him on the cheek. “Good night, James.” Lily whispered before running up the stairs to her dorm.

James sighed, as he too started to walk to his.
(A/N: Adapted from ‘I Got the Girl’ By Bon Jovi.)
It feels like I'm walkin' on air
When we walk down the halls
When everyone stops to watch us walk by
You can hear 'em talking, let them talk
Sometimes I think that shes the only reason
The sun still shines, when it shines
And when this wicked world starts bringing me down”

He sang to himself as he entered his dorm with a bang to see his friends staring at him. He opened his arms wide and threw his head back dramatically crying,

“I know that I'm one lucky guy

I got the girl (with all the cards)
I got the girl (she's a work of art)
I got the girl (who could break my heart)

All those years of pretending not to care
Are all worth it now, I swear
People tell me it wont last long
But I don't care, I don't care

I got the girl (with all the cards)
I got the girl (she's a work of art)
I got the girl (who could break my heart)

If I was a holy man I'd get down on my knees
So the angels that watch over her would give a break to me
Holy Mother of saint bubble gum and sister band-aid knees
Won't you please pray for the ones like me”

He cried melodramatically falling to his knees on the floor in front of his amused friends.

“But the truth is someday
Someone is gonna try take her, you see
But the queen of hearts will always be
A five-year-old princess to me, to me

James: I got the girl
Sirius: with all the cards
James: I got the girl
Remus: she's a work of art
James: I got the girl
Remus and Sirius: she gonna break your heart”

James laughed as he got up off the floor. “When did you two get so damn cynical?”

Remus gave him a half smile. “Since Karma came back to bite us.” He said causing Sirius to burst out laughing. “Don’t worry Prongs maybe one day you will understand.”


As Valentine’s day approached the whole school began to panic at the thoughts of dates for the upcoming Hogsmeade weekend.

For James this was the first year he had not had to worry or plan a ridiculous way to get Lily to say yes. This was good, as his plans never worked. This year he and Lily would be spending the day together.

On the other hand their friends weren’t quite looking forward to the holiday so much.

“So Sirius, did Holly say she would go with you?” James asked one lazy afternoon in the common room when the two of them were alone. Sirius scowled at him.

“No. She did not, Prongs.” Sirius replied.

“But I saw you two snogging in the halls yesterday.”

“So?” Sirius said turning to look at James. “That doesn’t mean she wants to date me.”

“Are you okay with that?”

Sirius shrugged. “For now.”

James could only pretend he understood, whereas he really thought they were couple of nitwits. “So…” He said uneasily trying desperately to think of a new topic. Aside from saying ‘you like stuff?’ he was lost. “Ah, where is everyone?”

“Why?” Sirius asked leaning back in his chair and closing his eyes.

“I’m bored.”

Sirius opened his eyes, and pulled out his wand. “Accio snitch.” The snitch came flying down the stairs and straight into Sirius hand. He passed it to James with a grin. “Amuse yourself,” he said making himself more comfortable again.

James took the snitch, smiling happily at the memories of the small golden ball. Just like he used to, he tossed it into the air, watching it for a moment before reaching out for it.

For once in his life, he missed. Someone else had caught it. He turned to see Lily holding the snitch and studying it thoughtfully. “What is it with this thing?” She asked, giving it a bit of a test flutter before grabbing it again. “I didn’t know you still played with it Potter, I’m hurt. Which girl are you trying to get the attention of now?”

James chuckled, wrapping his arms around her waist to pull her onto his lap. Lily squealed and released the snitch. The three of them watched as it fluttered away. “Don’t you want that?” Lily asked, making herself more comfortable.

“Nah, I don’t need it anymore. You’re the only girl I wanted to impress.”

“Aw,” cooed Sirius from the other couch. “That’s sweet… Lily can you tell me where Holly is?”

“She went down to the library with Ruby. Why?”

“Nothing, just wanted to talk to her. I’ll catch you two later.” He told them striding out of the room.


“Holly! I need to talk to you.”

“Again?” She joked.

Sirius rolled his eyes. “Is that cool Ruby?” Sirius asked looking past Holly for a moment.

“Sure. Catch ya later Holly.” She said walking away from them.

As soon as she was gone, Holly reached up to touch his hair as she had so many times before. This time however he pulled away.

Holly frowned “What?”

“Holly…what are we doing?”

“What do you mean? I thought we were just having fun.”

“Holly I want to know, if you will be my date for Valentines day?”

Holly took a step back. “I’m sorry I already said I would go with someone else.”

“What? But I thought we were-“

“Were what?”

“Obviously nothing,” Sirius muttered. “Look Holly, a bit of fun isn’t what I wanted.

(A/N: adapted from the song, ‘Wasting Time’ by Thirsty Merc. (YAY!))
All is fair
I'm trying to make you notice me but you don't care
You play me like a broken game of Snakes and Ladders
Or cards or piano or a record that's been thrown in the trash

I like you
I've liked you since the first time that I heard you speak
I like your little vibe and your clothes and feet
And your hair and your eyes and your
nose and your face and your smile

I know your name
And I've got your number
You don't wanna save the world
You just wanna waste some time with me
You say its fun
But you may as well face it
I don't wanna change nothing
I just wanna spend more time with you

Three blind mice
I may as well be asking them for stable advice
Instead I'm on a seesaw all day and night
And all week and all month and all year all my life
I'm only human
If only you could see
You do some pretty crazy little things to me
And I don't wanna change the course of history
I just want you to be, next to someone like me
And be free

I know your name
And I've got your number
You don't wanna save the world
You just wanna waste some time with me
You say its fun
But you may as well face it
I don't wanna change nothing
I just wanna spend more time with you

Wasting time
Wasting time with you
Wasting time
Wasting time with you

Now you know
My thoughts about where I would like the story to go
I feel that if you really like to play it cool
We should do it, do it, do it, yeah

I know your name
And I've got your number
You don't wanna save the world
You just wanna waste some time with me
You say its fun
But you may as well face it
I don't wanna change nothing
I just wanna spend more time with you.”

Holly was speechless. “I, Uh…Look – ”

“No, don’t bother. Never mind Holly. I’ll talk to you later maybe.”


“Sirius?” James called as Sirius stormed into the common room about an hour later. “Sirius! What's up?” James asked again, launching himself off the couch to stand infront of him.

“Leave me alone.” Sirius growled.

“Whoa, I don’t think so. Not until you tell me what's wrong.” James told him quietly.

Sirius spun in a circle in frustration before staring at James again. “Move.”

“Tell me what happened.”

“She was just messing with me.” Sirius hissed. “Now you know you can get out of my way,” he cried drawing the attention of their fellow Gryffindor’s.

“Sirius calm down,” Lily interjected from the sidelines.

Sirius immediately spun to face her, “You stay out of this.”

“Don’t talk to her like that.”

Sirius sneered. “Why? I thought she was nothing but a bet to you. Oh I forgot to pay you didn’t I? how much was it?” he asked in a cruel way, taking out his money.

A collective gasp of horror washed over the room as everyone turned to James for his reaction. James couldn’t speak, he wiped his hand down his face as if to try to turn back time but it didn’t work, instead he was left with a room full of people waiting for him to say something, maybe to deny the what Sirius had said. Before he could do or say anything Sirius, without a shimmer of remorse but instead satisfaction, pushed passed James leaving him face to face with a shell shocked Lily.

The sight of her standing unsurely in the middle of the room with tears in her eyes made James hate himself. He shook his head as he stepped closer to her reaching out his arm. She instinctively drew backwards, knowing by the look on his face that is was true.

Wiping away the tears she had tried so hard to hold back, she gave him a wry smile, “How much was I worth then?” she whispered in a voice that trembled with hurt.

“Lily, I – ” James started, speaking for the first time. Lily stepped back again.

“Don’t,” she whispered, shaking her head sadly. Before turning away to flee the most humiliating scene of her life. She had finally after so many years given in to James Potter, only to be made a fool of less than a week later. And just to add to her shame everyone had witnessed it. She was an idiot for ever trusting him.

‘I Got The Girl’ by Bon Jovi
‘Wasting Time’ by Thirsty Merc.

A/N again! love this chaptet coz of the song! love thristy merc and it was a dream of mine to put one of there songs in here...and here it is! tell me if you like was a struggle to write. the songs would have fitted back to back and yeah needed something inbetween. tell me what you think!

Also someone said that the songs needed actions of characters so it is more interesting. just wanted to assure those who agree that we tried! oh we tried! but it was weird to stop a song to say james and sirius performed simultaneous carwheels across the room then began to tapdance while singing.... know what i mean? please forgive us! we only urge readers to use your imagination! think Annie, think grease! think so corny its not funny and you are so there!

Chapter 9: Just a bet.
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Chapter nine – Just A Bet

Ruby sat up quickly as Lily burst into the room in a flood of tears. “Lily?” she cried standing up to meet Lily at the door. “What happened?” she asked concerned at the sight of her friend. Instead of answering Lily pushed passed her and ran straight into the bathroom.

“Lily?” Ruby asked knocking gently on the door five minutes later. “Lily come out, tell me what happened.”

She could hear Lily’s muffled sobbing on the other side of the door. “James… Sirius… bet… me…idiot!” Lily wailed the crying getting louder. “Stupid, stupid – hate him!...thought…thought – ”

“Come on, Lil, calm down.” Ruby told her, concerned by the pitch of her voice. “I can't understand you. You have to come out f the bathroom.”

“No.” Lily sobbed again. Ruby sighed as she slowly sank to the floor, her back against the door.

“Where is she?” Holly asked as she entered the room frantically. Ruby pointed behind her wearily.

“She won’t come out and I don’t know what happened.”

“I’ve only heard whispers but-“ Holly began as she took off her cloak. She was cut off by the sudden opening of the bathroom door, Ruby’s shriek as she fell and Lily’s numb voice.

“I can hear you from in there you know.” She told them, taking a seat on her bed. Ruby and Holly watched her, still unsure. “So people are talking about me already? What a gullible fool I am – ”

Holly rushed over to her. “No, no they’re not. Don’t worry.”

“You haven’t even asked if it was all true.”

“Was it?” Holly asked cautiously.

“What did you hear?” Lily asked in the same tone as Ruby made herself more comfortable on the floor.

Holly sighed. “That Sirius screamed out to the whole common room that basically the only reason James was dating you was because of some bet-”

“What?” Ruby cried from the floor, then turning to Lily, “Is that true Lil?”

Lily sighed, crawling under her covers before answering. “No, it’s not true.” She said, watching as both girls let their breath out. “You forgot the part about me standing there stupidly, completely mortified as the whole of Gryffindor watched as he made a fool of me.” She said as tears well up in her eyes.

“Oh Lily, It can’t have been that bad.” Ruby soothed, joining them on the bed.

Lily nodded pitifully. “It was. And by tomorrow everyone will know the story of poor Lily Evans and how she got her heartbroken by bad boy James potter. How stupid she was and how hot he is and how everyone predicted it was never going to work because he was too good for her and-“

“Lily! Ok stop. Nobody is going to say any of that.” Holly cried alarmed at her ramblings.

“Yes they will because I’m stupid and he is hot and I should never have trusted him!” Lily wailed again, this time without tears. “What was I thinking?”

“That he is crazy about you.”

“Maybe he wasn’t…maybe I was just some girl to him. That I was only ever an ego boost…”

“Oh Lily, that’s not true.” Ruby told her, leaning in to hug her friend.

“It is true! I meant nothing to him.” Lily whimpered. “I'm sorry,” She sobbed, wiping her eyes. “I’m such a pain.”

Her friends shook their heads. “Don’t worry Lils it will all turn out all right.” Holly told her.

Lily nodded, though not entirely convinced. “I think I just want to go to sleep.”

Nodding again Holly and Ruby left her bed for their owns.

“Holly?” Lily called about half an hour later when they were all still awake.

“Yeah?” Holly whispered back, rolling on her side to look at Lily.

“What were you and Sirius fighting about?” She asked in an emotionless voice.

“How did you know we had a fight?”

Lily shrugged, wiping away her tears that just would not stop flowing. “He was so angry. I just thought – I'm sorry.”

“No you were right.” Holly sighed. “I’m not sure what it was about. I thought we were just messing around but I don’t know anymore…it’s weird and messed up.”

Lily nodded silently, not knowing what to say. It was messed up she thought, as she hugged her pillow to her face, wanting desperately to stop the tears. Since when did Lily Evans cry over stupid boys? That was an easy question, ever since she fell in love with James Potter, Lily sighed to herself.

She knew by now her friends would be asleep but her mind was just too full of mixed emotions and thoughts to drift off. Letting out the deep shuddery breath that often came after tears she took a peak at her watch.


Did that mean she had been asleep or had she been lying awake for over three hours. Moodily she kicked off her blankets, shivering at the sudden rush of cold.

Silently as she could, so not to wake the others she made her way to the window, sitting on the cold stone window ledge. Miserably she let her head fall against the wall and pulled her knees up to her chin. The miserable night seemed to match her mood. The fog had drifted in and the clouds blocked the moon from her sight. Absolutely perfect.

(A/N adapted from the song “angel” by Sarah McLachlan.)
Spend all your time waiting for that great romance.
For the break that will make it OK
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction or a beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold dorm’try room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the Angel; hope to find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, hr kept on building the lies
Cant you make up for all that you lacked
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of the Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold dorm’try room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of the Angel; hope to find some comfort here

You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here


“Lily! Wake up! You have to get up!” Holly shouted the next morning for the sixth time. Lily just grumbled something before burrowing further under her blankets.

“Come on Lily. You already missed breakfast and we are going to be late.”

Lily poked her head out from the covers. “I don’t wanna go.”

“Why not?”

Lily sat up further. “Because nobody wants to be the newest ex of the Gryffindor Quidditch captain and head boy in a school full of vicious back-stabbing-gossiping-piranhas. I shudder to think of what they are saying. And I don’t want to see him.”

Holly sighed, it was times like these when she needed Ruby. But Ruby had gone to steal some toast before the hall closed while Holly got Lily up. “You have got to go classes.”

“Didn’t you hear me? I don’t want to see him. I don’t want to see anyone.”

“Okay…” Holly breathed. “Come on, if you stay here you’re only giving them more reason to talk…”

Lily groaned. “Fine, I'm getting up.”


“James? You have to get up! NOW!” Remus hollered across the room, hurling a shoe across the room. James stirred when it hit him in the back of the head. Slowly he poked his head out from under his blankets to glare around angrily.

“Bugger off, Moony.”

“Hey, “ Remus cried holding his arms up in indignantly. “I haven’t done anything wrong here. I don’t even know what happened. Okay? All I know is you came in last night threw a couple of punches at your best friend and never said a word about why. So unless you care to tell me, you can lay off right now.” he concluded before heading to the door.

“Do you remember the bet Sirius and I made on the train?” James asked just as he reached the door.

Remus cringed, knowing what was coming yet still turned to face James. “Yeah…”

“Lily found out.”

“What?” He asked, leaning against the door. “How? Sirius? No.”

“Sirius. Yes. He yelled it out for the whole common room to hear.”

“Why would he do that?”

“Because his own life sucks and he wanted to make mine the same.”

“So you are saying he was jealous?”

“I knew there was a simpler way to say it.”

Remus grinned half heartedly. “And Lily?”

James nodded miserably. “Hates me.”


James nodded again. “I know.”


“James? You ok?” Remus asked later that day in transfiguration. For once James seemed incapable of performing the spell they were supposed to be practising. Instead he was watching Lily with a look of torture on his face.

James sighed. “Yeah…no. I wish she would talk to me.”

Remus nodded, unsure what to say to that. Every time James had tried to speak to Lily she had simply disappeared leaving James wondering what the hell had happened. It was obvious that Lily was upset from the way she avoided him, the way she missed meals and the way she stared aimlessly out the window in classes, not paying attention to her teachers. Remus did not doubt for a moment that these things had escaped James’ attention.

While James stared at Lily, Remus gazed around the room. Things sure had gotten messed up. Who would have thought that in a couple of months things could have changed so much, then as quick as change arrived, things had gone back to normal. Well almost normal. Sirius still sat away from James, now sporting a lovely black eye. Remus who had tried not to take sides had talked to him but it was obvious James hadn’t.

“Are you planning on talking to Sirius? You shouldn’t let this ruin your friendship.”

James snorted. “He obviously doesn’t give a toss about me if he would purposely destroy the best thing in my life.” He spat stabbing thin air with his wand. “I hate him so much right now. There is nothing he could do to make it up to me.”

Remus closed his eyes wearily, opening them when McGonagall’s voice cut through the room. “Now the wand movements are extremely important, if we could have a demonstration…ah Miss Evans. If you could…Miss Evans?” she prompted when Lily did not respond.

Startled Lily turned around to face McGonagall. “Sorry?”

McGonagall shook her head. “This is not at all like you, Miss Evans. Please try to pay attention.” She told Lily sternly before turning away.

“Oh the poor thing!” A Hufflepuff infront of her whispered loudly enough for most of the class to hear. “Can’t even concentrate!”

McGonagall spun around sharply as Lily felt the familiar stinging sensation of tears of embarrassment. She would not under any circumstances turn to look at him.

“What was that, Miss Ellis?” McGonagall asked quietly.

Miranda Ellis stood up in a way that screamed self importance. “Professor, I just wanted to say that Lily cannot be blamed for her actions today.” She said in a sickly sweet voice, turning to look at Lily. “I myself would be as distraught as she is, if I had let someone as fine as James Potter get away.” Miranda continued this time turning to wink at a horrified James. “That is if the rumours were true-“

“That’s quite enough, Miss Ellis.” McGonagall snapped. Miranda Ellis sat down, smiling silkily at Lily one last time who was still fighting tears of humiliation. She hated Miranda Ellis at that moment even though she hardly knew the girl. In the back of her mind she could hear McGonagall still addressing the class but instead, her mind had drifted back to last night. Without warning the tears began to roll down her cheeks. Lily sobbed once, drawing the attention of her teacher and classmates. Shakily she stood up and walked quickly out the classroom, barely registering the calls of McGonagall as she ran down the empty corridor.

Back in the classroom James stood almost as quickly as she had, ready to run after her.

“Sit down, Mr Potter.” McGonagall commanded

James didn’t budge. “But-“

“Sit.” McGonagall told him in her most stern voice. “Miss Sinclair,” she said nodding at Ruby who immediately jumped up and ran out the door.

“Sit! Mr Potter!” She told James again.

“I don’t see what the big deal is. She was just a bet.” Came a bored drawl from the front of the classroom.

The room fell silent as rage bubbled over inside James. He saw red, no longer could he hear peoples whispers he could only see Sirius sitting calming infront of him smirking cruelly. Without warning James hurdled the desk infront of him lunging at Sirius and knocking him off his chair. Together they landed on the ground with an ‘oomph’ of surprise from Sirius and loud clatter of the toppling chairs.

With a sudden burst of excitement everyone was on their feet to watch as somehow Sirius wrestled his way to the top and threw the first punch. A mixture of shrieks and cries of encouragement came from the bystanders. Remus pushed his way to the front of the crowd of students for a better look. He was about to pull the two of them apart when McGonagall raised her arm infront of him.

For a moment McGonagall just watched as the two boys, who she knew to be best friends, attempt to maim each other. Shaking her head she withdrew her wand, waving it angrily she watched as an invisible force dragged the boys apart. Both struggled for a moment as the room grew quiet.

McGonagall glared at them angrily as James calmed first, breathing heavily he wiped the blood from his lip but never taking his eye off Sirius. Sirius glared back, breathing equally as heavy and determined not to look away first.

It was McGonagall who broke the silence. “Never!” She shrieked. “In all my years…Detention! Both of you!” She said, glaring at both of them. “Class dismissed!”


James walked slowly back from McGonagall’s office in a mood dark enough to end daylight. Looking up he caught a glimpse of red hair disappear around the corner. Darting forward he caught Lily by the arm. She swung around quickly but didn’t try to pull away when she saw his face, for a moment forgetting everything that had happened at the sight of him.

“What happened to you?” she asked in a whisper, her eyes widening.

James shook his head, ignoring her question. “Please. Talk to me. Let me explain.”

This time Lily shook her head, finally yanking her arm out of his grasp. “I don’t care what you have to say.” She whispered, backing away from him slowly.

“Please.” James begged. “You have to understand-“

“Understand what? That all the time you told me I was special and different I was just like those other girls? That you played me for a fool? That while I told you exactly how I felt about you, you…you lied to me so you could humiliate me in front of everyone?” She cried, slightly hysterical. “No thank you, I understand just fine. You never cared about me. I was only a game. A conquest, a challenge. What ever you want to call it, it ends the same way.” She whispered sadly, tears streaming down her face. He opened his mouth to defend himself but she cut him off.

“Just leave me alone.” She told him sadly before disappearing into the common room.

James watched her sadly hating himself beyond comprehension for any pain he had caused her. Slowly he made his way back down stairs thinking things over until he realised he had reached the lake. Angrily he hurled a small stone into the lake before sinking to the ground beneath the huge beech tree. He stared up at the sky until his eyes were drawn to the sixth window of the Gryffindor tower. Lily’s dorm. Thinking of her he began to sing softly.

(A/N: adapted from Your winter by Sister Hazel.)
“Grey Ceiling on the Earth
Well it's lasted for a while
Take my thoughts for what they're worth
I've been acting like a child
Your opinion, what is that? It's just a different point of view

So, what else what else can I do?
I said I'm sorry, and I'm sorry

I said I'm sorry but what for?
if I hurt you
Then I hate myself,
I don't wanna hate myself, don't wanna hurt you

Why do you choose your pain
If you only knew
How much I love you, Love you

I won't be your winter
I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
please can I be forgiven
I will be right here

Old picture in my mind
Memories that make me smile
Frozen image of ourselves
We were happy for a while

I read your eyes just like your diary
Oh remember please remember

Well I'm not a beggar, but once more,
Well if I hurt you, then I hate myself,
I don't want to hate myself
Don't want to hurt you

Why do you choose your pain
If you only knew how much I love you, Love you

I won't be your winter
I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
and can i be forgiven
till then i will be here.

I won't be your winter
And I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
And we can be forgiven
And I will be here...”


“Your winter” by Sister Hazel

“Angel” by Sarah McLachlan

A/N2 i love the song in this chapter, therefore i love this chapter... tell me your thoughts other wise i only have my own...oh how sad. i think i may cry.

Chapter 10: A Sirius Talk
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Chapter Ten – A Sirius Talk

“Hey Remus…Can I talk to you?” Sirius asked catching up with his friend after dinner.

Remus frowned slightly. “I’m on my way to…you know.”

“I know but it’ll only take a moment.”

Remus nodded.

Sirius took a deep breath. “Are we cool?”

Remus sighed, sitting tiredly down on the arm of the couch behind him. “It really has nothing to do with me.” He said noncommittally.

“So we’re cool?”

“I don’t know mate. You really messed up this time.”

Sirius sighed again. So far this talking to people was harder that he thought. And Remus was the first person he had talked to. “I know, I know! I am a horrible person and I’m an idiot. Don’t hold it against me. This can’t be the worst thing I have done.”

“Sirius you’re really not helping your case here. But yes you are a horrible person.”

“Thanks a lot.”

“Have you talk to James yet?”

Sirius scrunched up his nose and scratched his head. “Ah no… not without him taking a swing at me.”

“Can you blame him?”

“No not really. I’d punch me too.”

“You really are an idiot. “

“I know… So we cool?”

“Yeah. But talk to him?”

“I will. He's on my list. I have a lot of explaining to do.”

“I do not envy your situation at all.”

Sirius smiled. “Thanks a lot.”

Remus smiled too and started out the door again. “Oh and Padfoot? I’d stay away tonight. James and rage and giant antlers might not be too good for you.”


“Holly!” Sirius called down the corridor, “Holly, wait up!” Holly stopped and turned around to see Sirius running towards her, when he reached her he bent over to lean on his knees to catch his breath. “Holly, I want to talk to you.”

“Alright, what is it?”

“Look, I want to know what’s going on between us. I thought we had somethi – “

“What? Sirius, no I told you. It was just a bit of fun, that’s all.”

“So you’re saying you felt nothing?”

“Yes, that’s what I’m saying.”

“I’m sorry, I thought… I thought wrong. I’m sorry for everything.” Sirius started to walk off but Holly wanted to continue the conversation.

“You should be Sirius, what you did was horrible.”

“What I did? You’re the one that actually seemed to enjoy messing with my head! You are so fucking cruel!” he cried.

“Me? What are you talking about? James is your best friend and after one stupid fight, you ruin the best thing that has ever happened to him and Lily.”

“When did the subject change to them?” Sirius was getting confused.

“It’s James you should be apologizing to Sirius, and Lily. You messed up royally on this one.”

“So everyone keeps telling me. I know I have some people to talk to. I was getting there but in the meantime are we ok?”

“Yeah, we’re ok but just as friends. Ok?”

“That’s all I wanted to hear.” Sirius told her. “Talk to you later, I have some people to find and beg for forgiveness.”

Holly laughed and began to walk away. “Good luck to you then!” She call over her shoulder leaving Sirius beaming in the hallway. If all the conversations went that well by the end of the day everything would be back to normal, he thought as he walked towards the next victim of his apologies. Next on his list was Lily.


“Lily? May I talk to you?”

Lily sighed, looking up quickly at Sirius Black before answering. “It all depends.” She told him, dipping her quill into her inkpot again as she spoke. “On what you have to say and whether I will like it or whether I will want to hex you into next week. If it’s the second reason, I’d leave now. I’m feeling particularly violent today.” She told him a in a calm voice, not looking at him.

Sirius stared at her for a moment trying to comprehend what she was saying. Shaking his head he sat down opposite her. “I wanted to apologise.” He told her simply.

Lily looked up and raised an eyebrow. Carefully she dropped her quill and leant back in her chair. “For what exactly?”

“For ruining your relationship with James.”

Lily snorted indignantly. “He didn’t need any help with that.”

Sirius looked around the almost deserted library, searching for help. “Look, it still wasn’t fair what I did to you and James. I was mad and wanted to take it out on someone and he was there. I'm sorry you had to suffer as well. I wasn’t thinking.” He concluded lamely.

“Well that was obvious. But I for some reason am going to say that I forgive you.”

Sirius let out a breath he hadn’t realised he was holding. “So does that mean you will give James another chance?”

“Did he ask you to ask me that?”

Sirius shook his head. “James won’t talk to me.” He said sadly as Lily scoffed. “I just wanted to know. Maybe it would counteract my karma or something...”

Lily gave him a confused look before sighing. “Then my answer would be no. Maybe James and I were just not meant to be.”

“But if-”

“No. If you hadn’t said something, something else would have happened. It just wasn’t meant to be.” She repeated firmly.

“Lily you have to understand it was a joke. Made a long time ago before anything happened between you two.”

“Oh yeah?” Lily retorted. “It wasn’t so funny from my point of view.”

“I understand that but-”

“No you don’t understand!” Lily cried a little louder than she intended. “How stupid do you think I felt standing there while everyone found out that our relationship was a joke to him? When for so long I questioned what he saw in me and just when I was actually starting to think I was special it blows up in my face?”

Sirius stared at her, shaking his head slightly. “May I say you are scary when you are angry? But you really need to stop interrupting me. What I was actually going to say was that you should be mad at me not him. You can't sacrifice what you had over this! And before you interrupt again” He continued as she opened her mouth to argue. “James never saw you as a joke. You were anything but a joke to him.”

“Can I speak now?” Lily asked when he leaned back in his chair with a satisfied look on his face. He nodded. “Right. I just wanted to say, one,” She started then stopped. “I wanted to say one…oh I don’t know! I just don’t want to go there again!”

“Why not? It was just a misunderstanding. If you clear it up now things can go back to normal.”

“Normal? You think things were normal? Things are normal now. With me hating him. That is the way it is supposed to be.”

“No its not. You two are meant to be.”

“Stop saying that!” she hissed in frustration

“Fine, but you should give him a second chance.”

“A second chance? I gave him a first one and look where I ended up!” She cried standing up dramatically. Around her people started to look up to see what was going on. Quickly she sat down again. “I don’t know what you are trying to do but trust me, we are both better off. It would have only ended in an even worse disaster. We are just too different. It wouldn’t have worked.”

“See that’s where I think you are wrong. Because from the last ten minutes I have sat here talking to you I can tell you are in denial and I know for a fact, even if you haven’t realised it he is crazy about you. To him it was a never a game. He was completely serious about you.”

“Why are you doing this?” Lily asked in bewilderment, her eyes beginning to water.

Sirius didn’t answer for a moment. “Because I did a horrible thing and can't stand to see the both of you so miserable. Please talk to him Lily.”

She shook her head sadly, the tears sliding silently down her face. “I just can't do that Sirius. I'm sorry.” She whispered before exiting the room quickly, leaving Sirius to bang his head on the table in frustration. It was late and he still had to find James. The person he was most dreading talking to, but the person he most needed to. With a regretful sigh Sirius stood up, deciding maybe tomorrow was the best time to approach James.


“Prongs!” Sirius called early the next morning, running down the hallway to catch James. James kept walking, pretended he didn’t hear Sirius calling his name. “James! Wait up. I need to talk to you.”

Hearing this James finally spun around. “There’s nothing you could say that could fix this, so don’t waste your breath. Just fucking leave me alone.” He told him tiredly before leaving Sirius in the hallway, with the urge to bang his head against the wall.

Obviously just talking wasn’t going to solve that one he thought dejectedly as he searched for the one person he so far hadn’t talked to.


Ruby was sitting in the library when Sirius joined her. She looked up wearily, not knowing what to expect.

“Hey Ruby. What’s up?”

Ruby raised her eyebrows.

“OK fine, we shall skip the polite greetings. Right to the point. I need to talk to you. Outside if possible?” He added. She sighed but still got to her feet. Sirius dragged her into the empty hallway and looked around uneasily before he spoke. “Firstly I wanted to apologize about the way I have acted toward you and secondly I wanted to talk to you about Remus.”

She nodded. Knowing what he was going to say.

“It was full moon last night.” He said watching her carefully for a reaction.

She bit her lip, looking down at the ground. “I know. I couldn’t sleep. I kept hearing things.”

“So you do care?”

Ruby looked up sharply. “Of course I care. Its just complicated... ”

“Good. I want to show you something.” He told her, taking her hand and leading her towards the infirmary in silence, Sirius figuring talking wasn’t going so well this morning.

“Sirius? May I ask how you reacted?” Ruby asked suddenly.

“For starters he never told us…we more figured it out and he confirmed it. I think you were the first person he actually told.”

Ruby nodded, what Sirius was saying slowly sinking in. “You mean he's never told anyone before me?” Sirius nodded. “Oh god.”

Sirius didn’t say anything.

“How? I mean how did you figure it out?” Ruby asked again.

Sirius shrugged “We lived with him for almost two years. Put two and two together.”

“But that doesn’t tell me how you reacted.”

Sirius laughed, “We thought it was awesome. Like an adventure but we didn’t really understand what he went through.”

“And you do now?”

“I don’t think I ever will fully, but I do know more. You have to understand that he's not dangerous to be around except at the full moon and he's responsible...he would never put you in danger on purpose. You need to let him know that you care.”

Ruby nodded slowly. “Why are you being nice to me? I thought you hated me coz of how I treated him.”

“Because he is one of my best mates and I have done some horrible things lately and I’m starting to think with all this bad karma I may be struck down by a lightning bolt or something.”

Ruby stared at him. “What?”

“Never mind. I really should stop mentioning karma… Do you want to see him?”

“What? He’s in there?” She asked at he stopped outside the infirmary doors.

Sirius rolled his eyes. “Haven’t you been listening. Full moon last night.” He repeated opening the doors. He strolled over to the usual bed the Remus occupied after the full moon.

“Sirius how are you?”

Sirius snorted. “Just like you to ask that while its you that’s in the hospital bed. I bought someone to see you.”

Remus looked towards the door to see Ruby standing there. “Get her out of here now.”

“Remus?” Ruby asked stepping forward. It was strange to see him in here, with scratches all over his face that was a shockingly pale. Yet he didn’t seem unhappy. Until, that is, he saw her.

Remus grabbed Sirius’ shirt to drag him closer. “I do not want her to see me here. I never wanted her pity. Take her out.” He whispered. Sirius nodded, Doing as Remus said tried to lead Ruby back out but she pulled her arm away.

“I’d like to talk to him.”

Sirius looked warily back at Remus who sighed. Sirius took that as a sign of acceptance and left.
He closed the door quietly leaving it open just enough for him to hear what was going on.

“Sirius?” Lily asked coming around the corner to see him listening outside the door of the infirmary. Behind her was Holly looking equally disturbed. “What the hell are you doing?”

Sirius put a finger to his lips. “Shhh. They’re talking. There's something there.”


“I never wanted you to see this side of me.”

Ruby shook her head, taking a seat beside him. “I’m sorry for everything I have done.”

Remus laughed wryly. “Are you apologizing because you are actually sorry or because you pity me? Because if it is the second one, please leave now.”

Ruby for a moment looked horrified. This wasn’t the Remus she knew but she could see him beneath the false façade. Hesitatingly she reached out to touch his arm. He looked at her curiously.

(Adapted from “Something there” from Beauty and the beast.)
Ruby: There's something sweet
And always kind
he's never mean and never coarse or unrefined
And now he's here, and so unsure
I wonder why I didn't see it there before

Remus: She glanced this way
I thought I saw
And when we touched she didn't shudder at my ‘paw’
No it can't be, I'll just ignore
But then she's never looked at me that way before

Ruby: New and a bit alarming
Who'd have ever thought that this could be?
True, he's not always Prince Charming
But there's something in him that I simply couldn’t see

Lily: Well, who'd have thought?
Holly: Well, bless my soul
Sirius, looking smug: Well, who'd have known?
Holly: Well, who indeed?
Lily :And who'd have guessed they'd come together on their own? (Sirius rolls eyes.)
Holly: It's so peculiar.
Sirius: Wait and see
Holly and Lily: We'll wait and see
ALL: A few days more
There may be something there that wasn't there before
Sirius: yes, Perhaps there's something there
That wasn't there before”


Something There, from Disney’s Beauty and the Beast

Chapter 11: What the Little Birdie says
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Chapter Eleven – What the Little Birdie Says.

“Holy Cricket. Are my eyes deceiving me? Am I hallucinating? Or is that really Ruby Sinclair caught in the arms of my good friend Remus?” James cried dramatically. “What’s going on guys?”
he asked slyly.

Remus laughed lightly while Ruby blushed deep red. Quickly she pulled away from Remus. “Ah, I’ll catch you two later. “ She said quietly stepping around them to leave the common room. Remus caught her arm and pulled her back.

“Are you sure?” he asked, for the fourth time since he was released from the hospital wing that morning.

Ruby smiled. Standing on her tipy toes to give him a quick peck on the lips. “I’m sure.” She reassured him for the forth time too. She was sure. She hadn’t been this happy for ages.

Remus smiled back at her, sharing a special moment until James interrupted. “Aw how sweet!” he cooed, clapping his hands delightedly. They both turned to stare at him, Ruby coughing uncomfortably.

“Ok and I will now leave you two alone.” She told them making for a quick exit.

“Aw, come now Ruby baby?” James called after her. “Have I embarrassed you?”

Ruby turned at the portrait hole to blow them both a kiss…or maybe it was only directed at Remus. Who knows. Either way it made James laugh.

“You seem happier.” Remus commented after the laughing had stopped.

“You too.” James grinned. Remus had come back from the hospital wing for once so alive. James had never seen his friend so excited and was genuinely happy for them.

Remus nodded. “So tell me, why are you so cheerful? Is Lily talking to you again?”

James shrugged. “Nah, but I’m trying not to let it bother me. I’ve accepted that I am doomed to die alone and unloved but maybe until then we could be friends.”

Remus shook his head. “Umm…that’s the spirit? I really should stop trying to figure you out.”

“If you want to save time, sure.”

“So has Lily actually agreed to this idea of friendship?”

“No but I really hope she does. I cant stand her being mad at me. I miss her. She – Hi Lily.” He cut himself off mid-sentence as Lily walked through the common room.

She regarded him suspiciously, not stopping but nodding her head at him slightly to acknowledge his greeting.

After she had gone, Remus nodded in appreciation. “Maybe this could work.”

James grinned smugly, leaning back in his seat. “And maybe one day she will even go out with me again.”

Remus groaned. “Too far mate, too far.”


“Hi, to you too Lily.” Ruby said as Lily sat down at breakfast but failed to acknowledge either her or Holly.

Lily took a moment to open her mouth, and close it again before actually speaking. “James said hi to me.”

Ruby and Holly glanced at each other, both dying to ask what the big deal was but neither daring enough. One wrong move and Lily would be in tears…or very very angry.

Luckily she continued alone, “But that’s not the weird thing.” She mused aloud, “it was the fact that it wasn’t followed by statements such as ‘I need to talk to you’ or ‘please talk to me’…’I'm an idiot, please forgive me’.” after this she thought for a moment. “Ha, as if I needed to be told that one.”

Ruby and Holly looked at each other again. Lily, in her own little world continued eating her toast.

Just as Ruby was about to start eating, Remus sat down beside her, giving her a kiss on the cheek causing her to drop her fork. “Aw, how sweet. Look at you two,” Lily remarked in a mock baby tone. She received a glare from both Remus and Ruby, effectively shutting her up. Instead she looked up to see James hesitating behind Remus, obviously wondering where to sit. Lily sighed, “Oh just sit down already.” James looked up at Lily, utterly shocked that she would firstly talk to him at all and secondly by her irritated tone.

“Err, okay…” James was a bit unsure as to whether or not he should, but Remus was with them so he decided it was okay. Besides it would give him a chance to see if Lily wanted to be friends.

“Hey there's Sirius.” Holly commented seeing Sirius duck into the hall and back out without getting food.

“I wonder where he’s going?” Remus asked looking specifically at James.

“Don’t know, don’t care,” James answered flatly. Lily, Ruby and Holly all looked at him, not knowing what they should say, luckily Remus did.

“James, when are you going to talk to him? He is you best frie – ”

“Was, was my best friend.” James corrected, looking straight at Lily, who stared right back at him.

“I can’t believe you!” She cried to the surprise of those around her.

“Excuse me?”

“You blame him!”

“Blame who?” James asked, not sure what she was talking about.


James didn’t answer. She said it like it was wrong.

Lily made a sound of disgust. “You are so pathetic, Potter.”

“So I am back to Potter now?”

“What else did you expect?” Lily asked in a low voice, staring daggers at him.

Sighing in frustration James stood up, “You coming to Transfiguration Moony?” Remus nodded slowly, glad that that little discussion was over, and followed James while Lily angrily continued to pull apart her toast



“What was that about?” Holly asked.

“Don’t you think its wrong that he blames Sirius for everything that happened when it was his own stupid egotistical fault?”

“Sure… I guess. So why did you invite him to sit with us then?” Ruby questioned.

Lily shrugged “Because Remus is his friend too.” She then got up and left for Transfiguration.

“She still has a weakness for him,” Holly whispered to Ruby as they followed Lily. Ruby nodded in agreement.


“Good morning everyone,” McGonagall greeted from the front of the classroom, just then the door opened, Sirius walked in, “Mr. Black, how nice of you to join us, there is a seat up the front here with your name on it.” Sirius sat where she was pointing.

Once McGonagall explained what they were to do, the person next to Sirius began talking to him, “So why aren’t you with Potter, I thought you two were joined at the hip?” Sirius looked to his left for the first time to see who he had actually sat next to, Miranda Ellis.

“Hi Ellis.” Sirius drawled warily.

“Oh come now Sirius baby, we are so past the last name thing, the name is Miranda,” she told him, as she stroked him arm. Sirius looked to where her hand was now resting, then back up at her. She was quite pretty, he smiled at her. “But you can call me Randi, everyone does.”

Sirius raised his eyebrow. “I'm sure they do.”

Miranda giggled stupidly again. “And this is my friend, Mona.” Miranda introduced the small, blonde girl to her left. Sirius smiled politely at Mona, who erupted into a fit of giggles.

Turning away without a touch of subtlety he tried to listen to what McGonagall was saying but Miranda tapped him on the arm again.

“What?” he hissed.

Miranda smiled silkily and pushed a note towards him.

Just wondering is it definitely over?

Sirius shrugged at her. Miranda rolled her eyes again.

James and the red head

Sirius angrily scrunched up the parchment, leaning towards her he hissed, “First of all Her name is Lily and secondly-“

“Mr. Black!”

Still fuming Sirius tore the corner from his parchment. In large letters he wrote:

Why the hell would you care?

Smiling to herself Miranda flipped the parchment over.

I think he and I would get along nicely.

This time Sirius didn’t bother with the note. “Stay away from him.” He growled.

Miranda rose her eyebrows at him and turned to her friend, whispering something in her ear they both began to giggle again.

Meanwhile, at the back of the classroom, sat Holly, Ruby and Lily. “Where is it coming from?” Holly snapped.

“Where’s what coming from?” Lily asked not even looking up from her work.

“That god damn giggling!” Ruby and Lily listened for a moment.

“There,” Ruby pointed to the front of the class, “It’s that little Hufflepuff sitting up there, she giggling at – ”

“Black! They are passing notes! Him and Miranda!” She cried in disgust. “Uh! I can’t believe him!”


James was still fuming from his short conversation with Lily. Somewhere infront of him he could hear McGonagall talking but his mind was still focused on other things. Without realizing he let out an angry growl.

‘Is something wrong, Potter?” McGonagall asked sharply.

James shook his head. “No, sorry.”

McGonagall gave him one of her trademark stares before finally turning back to the class. “Homework will be due in one weeks time, class dismissed.”

Moodily James collected his things trying to make a quick escape. Unfortunately today was proving not to be his day…well at least for a day that had began with high hopes and laughter.

Sighing wearily when someone called out his name he turned to face none other than Miranda Ellis.

Hoping she hadn’t seen him turn he quickly kept walking. But just because it wasn’t his day she caught up with him.

“Look, I'm in hurry…if you don’t mind?” James implored trying to pull his arm away and step around her.

“It will only take a minute.”

James stopped trying to run. “Fine. What is it.”

“I was wondering if you would go out with me sometime…” She said with a giggle. “I mean I’m not usually so forward but-“

“Ah look…” He stumbled searching for her name.

“Randi.” She supplied.

“Randi? Randi. Right. I'm just not interested.” He told her straight out.

“Is this because of that girl?” She said indignantly.

James rolled his eyes, trying not to lose his temper. “If you are referring to Lily, No. Its just that-“ he began but stopped when he noticed Miranda didn’t seem to be listening to him instead she was looking over his shoulder. “Why James,” She called loudly. “ I would love to accompany you to Hogsmeade!” She squealed.

“What?” James yelped. Confused at what had just happened. That was until Lily walked past staring daggers at him and ‘Randi’. James groaned.

“I don’t like people who tell me no.” Miranda told him with what was becoming her trademark smile, sly and silky. “especially when its for neurotic Redheads.

“You bitch.” James hissed.

“Haven’t heard that one before.” She told him sarcastically.

“Stay away from me.” He spat before turning and running down the hall in the direction Lily walked.

He made it to charms without catching up with her, cursing quietly to himself he entered the classroom and took a seat behind her and her friends. Almost immediately Flitwick began to talk so James had to sit quietly and wait to talk to her. Oh the torture, he thought after ten minutes of squeaky waffling from the front of the room. Instead he focused on her. Sitting quietly infront of him scrawling down notes as fast as she could. He missed being close to her and just wanted to make things okay. How he was going to do that was another thing.


James and Miranda.

Miranda and James.

James had asked Miranda out.

Miranda Ellis.

That cow.

That… that bastard!

Stupid, stupid James Potter.

“Lily!” Holly hissed. “Stop it!”

Lily looked up at her startled. Holly gestured to the piece of parchment. Lily had apparently scratched right through and was starting on the table.

Sulkily Lily dropped her quill, instead settling for gazing out the window. Just as she was sinking back into her thoughts a note landed next to her arm.

Risking a quick glance towards Flitwick she unfolded it. Immediately she recognized James’ messy handwriting. It simply said:

I never asked her out. Please believe me.

Scowling to herself she scrunched up the offending piece of parchment. Thinking this wasn’t enough she un-crumpled it and made to tear it to shreds until Holly took it off her.


Quickly Holly read it too. “Who?” she whispered.

“Miranda.” Lily replied in a sing-song voice.

Holly gave her a look that clearly said , you cannot be serious. Lily nodded.

With a sigh Holly flipped over the parchment. Quickly scrawling something and passing it back to James before Lily could see.

After class Lily and Holly rushed from the room, leaving Ruby with Remus. Together they giggled as they over criticized Miranda Ellis. They had just begun to discuss her unflattering makeup habits when they reached the end of the hall where James waited patiently with ‘Lily’s’ note.

She stopped infront of him when he held out the parchment. Glancing at Holly, who quickly exited the scene, stifling her laughter, She read the colourful insults her friend had signed with her name. Laughing, she looked up at James.

“I didn’t write that.” She said, handing the note back while trying to force down her laughter.

Angrily he snatched the parchment away. “And I didn’t ask her out.”

Lily smirked. “Why should I care who you ask out?”

James smirked back. “Obviously you do, so it’s a problem.”

“Er, wrong! You can ask out all the bimbos in the school and it is fine by me. ”

James face softened. “Lily why are you doing this?”

“Doing what?”

“Acting like you don’t care what’s happened.”

“But I don’t care. In case you hadn’t realised we are long over.” She assured him, beginning to walk away.

“Why does it have to be?”

“Excuse me?”

He sighed. “Why does it have to be over. Give me another chance.”

Lily looked at him as if he had suggested they don grass skirts and start hula dancing in the halls. Maybe that suggestion was even a little less wild. “You cannot be serious!”

“You seem to say that a lot today.” James said warily, waiting for an explosion.

“I just can’t believe you! There is no way I would give you another chance! I know where this story goes, and I am not going there again. See its like this:”

(A/N: adapted from “Predictable” by Delta Goodrem.)
I smiled
You said I took your breath away
You said you loved me and you made
All the right promises to break

And when I turned around you're were always there
Like that's the proof you really cared
But I see right through you and I think
To myself

You're just so predictable
In every way
I want you to know I know your game
It's so unbelievable
how you’ll never change
you won't get away
with fooling me
you're just so predictable

I ran
You say you won't give up the chase
You said you'd follow me anyplace
So you can make the same mistakes?

You knew just what to do
And How to use the best of you
To try and change my mind
But my eyes are opened up this time
And I read you

You're just so predictable
In every way
I want you to know I know your game
It's so unbelievable
how you never change
you won't get away
with fooling me
you're just so predictable.”

“Is that what you really think?” James asked incredulously.

Lily nodded. James sighed and ran a hand through his hair distractedly. “Well I guess that’s that then. I am officially giving up.” He told her. “I’m sorry how things turned out though.”

Lily nodded. “So am I.” She said regretfully before turning away. James watched her sadly, feeling like the world was crashing down around him. It was now clear, if it wasn’t before, that it was over. He was deluded if he thought he stood a chance.

A/N YAY! finally! yippee!

the song is Predictable by the one and only Delta!

Chapter 12: Telling Aunty James.
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Chapter 12 - Telling Aunty James

“Do they make you so envious you want to slap her?”

“Excuse me? Care to elaborate?”

Lily sighed. “Ruby and Remus. They are so happy and I’m not.”

Holly snorted. “Yeah but you and James were like that too. So slap-able…” She muttered, stabbing her beans.

Lily moodily poked her roast beef. “Yeah but that didn’t go so well. By the way loved the note. Said exactly what I couldn’t put into words. Very colorful language too.”

Holly smiled through a mouthful of potato. “Why thank you. I have been told I have a way with words… I also heard what you said to him. I think we make a good team.”

Lily laughed. “Oh yeah.” She said, giving Holly a high five. It was just the two of them at dinner, everyone else had deserted them. It was almost strange to be eating without Ruby.

“It must be difficult for them…” Holly mused.

“What do you mean?” Lily asked, abandoning prodding her meal in favor of just chewing her fork. She knew at once who Holly was thinking of.

Holly sighed. “How they can’t be with all their friends at once. How are they sorta stuck in the middle.”

“Yeah, I thought that too. Probably why they aren’t here.”

“I am happy for her.”

“Me too. And him. I'm glad she finally got used to the idea of his condition and… everything.”

“Yeah…” Holly mused thoughtfully. “Hey Lily? When’s it my turn?”

Lily took another bite of her potatoes. “Turn for what?”

Holly looked glum for a moment. “To be slap-able.”

Lily couldn’t help but laugh. “What about Sirius?” she asked, glad to finally get that question out. It had been bugging her all day.

All Holly could do was shake her head. “Nah, there's really nothing there.” She told Lily even though her heart was beating madly at the thought of him.

Lily gave her a look of pure disbelief. “Oh come on. After everything that’s happened?”

“Yeah we’re just friends. Sorted everything out.”

“I see. So the fact that he was passing notes with Miranda Ellis didn’t bother you at all?” She asked. Holly shook her head. “And.” Lily continued, “at this very moment you aren’t aware that he is sitting behind me with a pretty Ravenclaw?”

“Oh, I didn’t notice.” Holly told her unconvincingly. Lily rolled her eyes. She had noticed about ten minutes ago that her friends gaze was no longer on her but somewhere over her shoulder.

“So who is she?” Holly asked in what she hoped was a nonchalant tone.

Lily spun around to get a better look at the dark haired girl behind her. “Wren Fischer. Sixth year, I believe.” She told her. “didn’t they date last year?”

Holly snorted. “Yeah probably. What sort of a name is Wren anyway?” She asked bitterly.

Lily shrugged just as Wren began to laugh at something Sirius had said.

“Oh my God!” exclaimed Holly, dropping her fork accidentally. “She sounds like a donkey on helium!” She hissed.

Lily shook her head in amusement Wren laughter couldn’t be further from sounding like a donkey on helium. Not that she had ever come across one but.. Cheekily she smiled at Holly, pointing her fork at her accusingly. “Nothing there, my arse! You are so jealous!”


“Hey Hol. What ya doing?” Sirius asked brightly almost a week later.

Holly held up her book so he could see the cover. He nodded in appreciation. “Haven’t seen you for a while.” She commented, setting her book down.

“Yeah…” Sirius sighed taking a seat next to Holly. “Nothing personal Hol, just not comfortable when James is around.”

Holly snorted. “I don’t think anyone is.” It was true. Whenever James and Lily were in the same room they were almost guaranteed to start an argument. Usually it was Lily with a snide comment that begun it all. James simply couldn’t resist a comeback. Whenever this happened it was time for people to start with their excuses and make for a quick exit. “Right now I am enjoying the peace and quiet.”

“Well it is about to be stomped upon.” Sirius said as James and Lily walked into the common room together. “Sorry, I’m gonna leave.”

Holly quickly gathered her things as she heard Lily mention the words ‘Randi’ and ‘joke’. “Not without me you’re not. Lets go.” She said.

Sirius smiled, putting a finger to his lips to ask for quiet, then without warning he ducked behind the couch dragging Holly with him. Risking a peak over the top he began to move stealthily like a spy around the room avoiding James and Lily. Stifling her laughter but passing on the commando roll to the next couch, Holly followed him.

Once free of the common room, Holly let her laughter out. “Oh my god, thank you. If I had to listen to another argument that really says I-am-still-crazy-about-you-but-I'm-much-too-stubborn-to-ever-admit-it I really would have had to-“

“You think that she doesn’t really hate him?” Sirius interrupted.

“I don’t think, I know.” She told him, tapping her nose, knowingly.

“I feel horrible.”

“You should.”

“Gee thanks.”

“Anytime. So where are we going?”

“Well I was going to meet a friend of mine for supper. Do you want to come?”

Holly nodded. “Sure I would.”

“Awesome. There she is. Oi Wren!”

Holly could almost see the golden light and hear the angels singing in awe as Wren Fisher spun around in slow motion, her dark curls fanning a full circle as she turned. Holly almost groaned out loud seeing her strut down the hall towards Sirius. Ok maybe she wasn’t quite strutting but whatever.

“Hey Wren.” He said giving her a quick hug that made Holly squirm with jealousy. “Wren, This is my friend Holly, Holly this is Wren. ” Sirius told them releasing Wren and smiling widely.

“Hey Holly.” She said with a genuine smile. “Great to finally meet you.” She said while standing there with Sirius’ arm still around her like it was totally natural. “Sirius talks about you all the time. All good things of course!” She laughed.

Holly looked at Sirius in shock. “Really? He must be lying then.” She joked feebly while desperately trying not to howl as she took in Wren. Sparkly blue-green eyes, a cute little button nose, an infectious smile and dark curls to frame it all. She was gorgeous and her laugh didn’t sound at all like a donkey on helium. Life was so unfair. Feeling like she was going to cry, she smiled at them both.

“So are you joining us for tea? I would love to introduce you to my friends.” Wren told her earnestly. Holly was slightly taken aback. Here she was prepared to loathe this girl and here she was inviting her to eat with her.

“Actually, I might pass on the invite…Look I’m gonna leave you two, gonna go see if I can find Ruby. See you later. Nice meeting you Wren!” She called over her shoulder.

“She seems really nice.” Wren commented after Holly had left. “I can see why you are crazy about her.”

“Yeah. Pity me Wrennie.”

“Oh don’t worry babe, I do. So are you going to tell her?”

Sirius shook his head. ”Never. I know she doesn’t feel the same way.”

“You are an idiot Sirius.”

“I know… I seem to be hearing that a lot lately…” Sirius sighed sadly.


Meanwhile Holly had wandered out side in search of Ruby. Squinting into the setting sun she spotted her friend by the edge of the lake with Remus. Heaving a sigh of loneliness she continued on without disturbing them. It was unfair to interrupt what little time they had with out their friends bitching at each other. And besides they looked cute sitting there in their own world.

Holly smiled as she watched Ruby laugh at something Remus had whispered in her ear. She moved slightly so she was leaning against his legs while he played idly with her hair. And Holly had never seen him so happy. With a final sigh she turned away, instead heading towards the Quidditch pitch where she hoped no one would be.

Holly was right. It was empty. Probably because it was meal time. And Sirius was with Wren.

Wren. The perfect girlfriend.

She wanted to hate her but it was almost impossible. She wanted to tell Sirius how stupid she had been but she couldn’t. So instead she sat in the middle of the Quidditch pitch a million thoughts running through her head. Everything that had happened this year. James and Lily and the whole breakup…Remus and his secret then him and Ruby…and last of all Sirius. And wanting what you can’t have.

Holly sat there for some time, after a while she lost track of time. The sun had long since set and it was beginning to rain. Still she sat there until she could feel the rain soak through her clothes. With a sigh she slowly got up.

Still lost in thoughts she drifted down the hallways completely oblivious to anything around her. lazily she dragged her fingers along the rough stone walls, listening to the dull sound of her footsteps.

(A/N Adapted from ‘Mouth Shut” By The Veronicas.)
I kept my mouth shut from the start
I guess I’ve left you in the dark
Thought you knew me, But who does?
Say we’ll be friends, I don’t see how.
when you find out how I lied.

I kept my mouth shut for too long
All this time you got me wrong
And before it went too far
I had to go and break your heart
Tore everything we had apart

Now I'm feeling lost
When She’s in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was ter-ri-fied of you
I tried so hard
Not to be the one
I don’t like who I've become

Won't keep my mouth shut anymore
I've had my share of closing doors
Now I can't help be afraid
I know exactly what you'll say
You’ll say sorry it's too late

But I'm feeling lost
When She’s in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was ter-ri-fied of you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become

I kept inside of me for all this time

Thought that I could push it aside if I just tried

But I'm sorry to admit that I have lived a lie

'Cause I'm feeling lost
When She’s in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was ter-ri-fied of you
you tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become

I kept my mouth shut for too long
Now I know that it was wrong

I wish I told you from the start
but instead I played my part
It should've never gone this far

Can I keep my mouth shut anymore?”

“Oi!” A voice called. Holly spun around quickly to face James. ‘Holly? Where have you been?” he asked in a concerned voice, taking in her saturated clothes and hair.

Holly pushed her dripping fringe out of her eyes. “Just outside.” She told him with a small shiver.

“You do know it’s after curfew right?” James asked, pulling out his wand. With a quick swish Holly’s clothes were completely dry.

“No sorry I didn’t. And thanks.”

“That’s Ok…” He said waving her thank you away. “Holly? What's going on?” he asked when he could finally see the tears on her face.

Holly took a step back looking at the ground to cover her slight blush. “I don’t know if I should be talking to you.”

“That’s ridiculous and you know it. So what's going on? Another argument with Ruby or Lily?”

With a deep sigh she dropped to the floor, leaning against the cold stonewall. “No. Nothing like that. Just me feeling sorry for myself.”

James frowned at her comment. “Why for?” He asked sitting down next to her. “Holly?” he prompted when she didn’t answer.

Slowly she looked up at him. “See this is where it gets kinda awkward. I don’t know if I should be talking to you.”

“Come on share your troubles with Aunty James.”

Holly snorted in a most un-lady like fashion. “That is really creepy.” She said with a smile.

James smirked. “At least I got a smile.” He said, nudging her in the side. “So can you tell me what this self-pitying is about?”

Holly gave him an innocent blank look. “You mean you have never pitied yourself?”

James thought for moment, until what he said finally registered. “Don’t kid yourself Hol, I am the king of self-pity remember.”

Holly nodded. “How is that going for you?”

James shrugged. “Strange I guess. I hate myself for what happened but I don’t know what to do.”

Holly nodded. “What about you and Sirius?”

James frowned. “That’s who this is about isn’t it?” He said nodding slowly.

Holly nodded again, looking intently at her hands. “Yeah…”

James sighed deeply. “Well I guess I regret some things that happened there too.”

“Then why don’t you fix things? It’s not too late!”

“I don’t know. I just can't help but hate him for what he did.”

“It’s partly my fault you know.”

“How on earth do you figure that?”

“I got Sirius mad.” She said quietly. To her surprise though James started laughing.

“Sorry Holly. But that is the stupidest thing I have ever heard.” He laughed. Holly pulled a face and swatted him playfully. “So tell me now what's your story?” he asked again. This time she took a moment before she spoke

“I finally realised what I wanted and it’s too late.”

“How is it too late? You two were good together.”

“Well technically we were never ‘together’ but yeah it is. He’s moved on…has a girlfriend.”

“Sirius has a girlfriend? Since when?”

Holly shrugged. “I don’t know. But how can I compete with her? She is like Brainy McBarbie. Absolutely-Bloody perfect in every way, like Mary Fucking Poppins. And she doesn’t even laugh like a donkey on helium…it’s so unfair.” James couldn’t help but laugh. Holly shot him a look. “I am serious here! And you are not helping!” She wailed. ”You don’t even know who Barbie is and you still laugh! I need comfort and support at a time like this…and possibly some unfair bitching towards her. Not laughter!” she whimpered almost laughing herself.

“Ok sorry.” James said trying to stifle his laughter. “So who is she?”

“From what I have picked up she is Ravenclaw Sixth year…name, Wren Fischer. Do you know her?”

James shook his head, this time only barely containing his laughter. “Holly you idiot. She isn’t his girlfriend. She can't be. Wren and Sirius have been friends for like ages. They are practically related. There is nothing there. Trust me. We have been through this.”

“How can you be sure?” Holly questioned, staring up at him with watery blue eyes. “They seem so…”

“Flirty? Affectionate?”


“Holly look that’s just what they do. Wren’s cool but they are just friends. She’s like one of those lifelong pals. He would never cross that line.”

“Well now I feel stupid. So may I ask how come I never heard of her before?”

James shrugged. “Maybe he doesn’t like to advertise the fact that he can actually be just friends with a female. A girl that doesn’t worship him...”

“That’s the stupidest thing I have ever heard.”

James laughed. “You just summed up Sirius in one word.”

“I actually met her today.”

“Who? Wren?”

“Yeah. I wanted to hate her so much but I couldn’t. She was really nice to me. Like I mean genuinely nice. None of this fake niceness bullshit. It wouldn’t surprise me if he did prefer her to me... I wish I could tell him the truth.”

“Then why don’t you?”

“Why don’t you?” She shot back. “I’m sure he would be interested to know how much you regret things and that you miss him.”

“I never said I missed him.”

“Yeah but I know you do.”

James laughed bitterly. “Guess we are like, kindred spirits then.”

“Yeah… both too stubborn to admit the truth” Holly sighed her eyed welling up with tears again. James noticed she was close to tears and turned to hug her.

“Hey, don’t cry.” He soothed.

Holly let out a sob. “I messed things up completely though!”

“Holly, everything will be fine. You just need to talk to him. Let me tell you, I listened to him whine about you for months, he has not moved on. Forget about Wren too. She isn’t a threat. You shouldn’t feel like you have to compete with her. Sirius likes you. Not her.“ James told her, slowly rubbing her back and hoping to god that she believed him.

“I hope you are right.”

“I promise I am. Listen to Aunty James. She knows best.” He joked again, trying to lighten up the mood. To his delight Holly began to laugh through her tears.

“James Potter what the hell are you doing? You are supposed to be patrolling” a voice interrupted them. James peaked around Holly’s blonde head to see Lily standing in the archway, hands on hips with a disgusted look on her face. “Of course I find you here with some girl- Holly?” She gasped when Holly finally turned around.

Holly smiled weakly, wiping the tears from her face. “Hey Lily.”

“What the hell is going on?” Lily demanded as Holly and James stood up. “What did you say to her?”

“He didn’t do anything wrong. Don’t jump to conclusions.” Holly sighed, dusting off her robes.

“Then what’s wrong Hol?” Lily asked looking between the two.

Holly shook her head smiling a half grin. “Everything is peachy keen. You done patrolling Lils?”

Lily nodded, still confused. To her surprise Holly turned again to hug James. “Thanks for listening.” She murmured as she drew away, kissing him on the cheek.

James shook his head. “Anytime Holly. Hope I helped.”

Holly nodded. “You did. In your own strange way. But I hope you take your own advice though. Talk to him.”

“Maybe.” James answered noncommittally. Holly almost laughed…that was until she saw the look on Lily’s face. So instead she began to walk away.

With one last frown at James, Lily followed her. Halfway up the stairs Holly turned back. “Oh and James? Tell him any of this and I will hex you.”

James laughed. “You really are such a sweet thing aren’t you?”

A/N. today we have dadadadaaaaaaaaaaa ‘Mouth Shut’ by The Veronicas.

Chapter 13: Awkwardness...
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Chapter 13 - Awkwardness…

A/N: so this chapter just goes straight into a song, so let me set the scene for you… think ‘Summer Nights’ from grease; James is on his way to Quidditch practice, Lily is on her way to the library… they cross paths, notice each other and start singing. The song by the way is adapted from ‘Pretend To Be Nice’ from the movie, Josie and the Pussycats.


Lily: Well he looks at me with those innocent eyes,
And says it looks like your wearing some kind of disguise,
Because your hairs messed up and your shoes are untied,

And I hope you got the idea at last
Coz every word I say falls flat to the floor,
You tried to tell me again but I’ve heard it before,
And I don't think I can take it no more,
Cause he’s driving me right out of my mind.

Why do you do what you do to me baby,
You're shaking my confidence you're driving me crazy,
I know if you could you do anything for me,
but please just forget me coz you’ll only upset me.

Can't you just pretend not to care,
Can you at least pretend not to care,
If you could just pretend not to care,
Everything in my life would be alright,

Oooh wee....
Oooh wee....

James: And I try so hard just to figure her out,
But she won't tell me what she's thinking about,
And then she falls asleep on the common room couch,
With her book still open and her hair all fanned out
And then she disappears for hours at a time,
And then she just shows up just like everything's fine,
And I don't get what goes on in her mind,
But I'm tired of hearing the same stupid line,

Why do you do what you do to me baby,
You're shaking my confidence driving me crazy,
You know if I could I'd do anything for you,
Please don’t ignore me cause you know I adore you,

But can't you just pretend to be nice,
Can you at least pretend to be nice,
If you could just pretend to be nice,
Everything in my life would be alright,

Oooh wee....
Oooh wee....

Both: Why do you do what you do to me baby,
You're shaking my confidence driving me crazy,
You know what I say I don’t mean it, not really
Don’t want to fight you, but you make me so angry

But can't you just pretend to be nice,
Can you at least pretend to be nice,
If you could just pretend to be nice,
Everything in my life would be alright.

James continued down the hall and out the entrance to the Quidditch pitch, where his team was waiting for him. Remus and Holly were on the sidelines watching.

James started the team off with passing drills; he sat on his broom watching over them.

“Is James even watching them, they have been passing for almost twenty minutes now?” Holly asked Remus, who was busy watching Ruby flying so skilfully.


“James, he’s off with the fairies,” Holly said pointing towards James. Remus looked towards his friend who was in fact just hovering above his team, not actually looking at them.

“Hmm, well hopefully he will snap out of it soon.” Holly nodded. Holly and Remus kept watching as Ruby flew over to James, who snapped back to reality. “There you go, back to normal.” Holly just shook her head at him, laughing under her breath.

“Hey guys,” Ruby greeted them, “Practice is over, thank god. James is acting really weird,” she added in a hushed tone, “So you wanna go Remus, I don’t wanna be around James while he is like this.” Remus nodded him and Ruby left the pitch hand in hand.

“Nice of them to leave with out you,” James said to Holly as he sat down next to her.

“I was gonna wait for you anyway,” she replied before letting out a huge sigh and stretching her feet out infront of her.

“So, you told him yet?”

“Have you?” She shot back.

James crinkled his nose and scratched his head. “Ah no…”

“What about her? Have you talked to Lily yet?” Holly asked.

“Are you kidding? She still wont have a serious conversation with me... I did see her though…it was weird. But there was a definite connection.”

“So what sort of connection are we talking?”

“I don’t know…She stared. I stared. I-almost-crashed-into-a-suit-of-amour connection.”

“Ah I see…”

“It was weird. It was like time stretched just so I could watch her a minute longer.” He sighed dreamily. Next to him Holly was close to rolling on the floor in laughter.

“I'm sorry James…but that is just so so so sad…”

"Kinda pathetic huh?"

Holly nodded. "But sweet pathetic. You are a big softie aren't you?" She cooed.

Rolling his eyes James stood up, offering his hand out to Holly. “Come on lets get out of here before I really embarrass myself…”


“I can't believe you; Lily Evans got kicked out of the library! Ha, I’ll never forget this moment.”

“Correction Black, you got me kicked out of the library. I was just so surprised to see you there; I never thought I would see the day that happened!” Lily countered.

Together they entered the common room. “So do you have any plans for the afternoon now?” Sirius asked as they approached the couches.

Lily made a face. “Well since my plans in the library fell through no…”

Sirius smiled, patting the seat next to him. “Come. Come chat with me then. Tell me what goes on in the head of Lily Evans.”

“Why would you want to know?”

Sirius shrugged. “I think it would be fascinating to get inside you head… Maybe Holly’s told you something that I can use… Or maybe I just need some company.”

“That I can understand. But I am not baring my soul.”

“Just a little bit?”

“Only if you bare yours.”

“Depends what part.”

‘Ok…tell me then who exactly is Wren Fischer?”

Sirius shrugged. “A bit of friendly company.”

“So you two are totally platonic?” Lily asked incredulously.

Sirius nodded. “Believe it or not. If you haven’t noticed I haven’t had many friends lately.”

“Yeah…what about you and Hol? Aren’t you two friends now?”

“Yeah of course.” Sirius said lightly while really his stomach sank at the though of a life long friendship with Holly.

“Good good…” Lily trailed off clearly in thought. “Sirius? Do you regret anything that happened with Holly? Like has it changed your friendship?”

Sirius ran his hand through his hair. “I don’t know…I don’t know if you could say we were ever really close as friends… but no I live with no regrets…well maybe one.” He joked feebly. Lily nodded thoughtfully knowing exactly what he was talking about. “So Lily,” Sirius he continued eager to change the subject, “What about you? Regrets?”

“Umm, no not really…” She trailed off again. Sirius waited for a moment before waving his hand infront of her face.

“Lily? Lily…”

“I just remembered something.” She told him.

“Yeah...” Sirius prompted.

Lily turned to face him. “Well…James he…well he has or had a photo of me...”

“I’m listening,” Sirius said, raising his eyebrow. Lily noticed this, and her face turned to one of disgust and embarrassment. Turning a lovely shade of red she picked up a pillow and began to hit him.

“Not. That. Kind. Of. Photo. You. Dirty perve!” Lily said, punctuating each word with a hit to his head.

“Ow, ow! Stop hitting me!” Sirius said through a bout of laughter as he cowered on the floor. “Ok seriously.” He said, making himself more comfortable once she had stopped. “What's with this photo?”

Lily tried not to laugh at the sight of him sprawled on the floor his hair looking comically static.

“It’s a really awful photo of me and I just want it back. And maybe you can help me. You probably know where it is or something.”

Sirius shrugged from his place on the floor. Slowly he sat up. “I don’t. But I have no problems with fossicking through his things until we locate it.” He told her getting to his feet. At the stairs he turned. “Are you coming?”

Lily shook her head in disbelief but followed him anyway. She stopped in the doorway to survey the mess. Sirius was already busy ‘fossicking’ through what she guessed was James’ trunk.

“So this is your room, it smells like… cheese.” Lily said sniffing the air, then she took a proper look around, “How do you find anything in here?”

“Easy, it’s all on the floor.” Lily rolled her eyes, then she spotted what she wanted. “Oh god, how have you not noticed it? It’s right there!” Lily told Sirius, walking over to where it was tacked on the wall, careful not to tread on anything. Making a face at the photo she plucked it carefully from the wall taking note of the other few photos that were with it.

Sirius took the photo from her hands as she stared at the wall. “Hmm, nice photo.” He said studying the photo.

“He said it was cute,” She said snatching the photo back from him.

Sirius snorted indignantly. “I'm sorry but that photo is just plain scary.”

“Shut up!”


“Well that was an interesting practice,” Ruby said to Remus as they sat down on the common room couch. Remus just nodded, pulling Ruby closer to him. “Remus? Do you think James and Sirius will make up?” Remus shrugged in response. “Because I’ve never seen them fight like this before, I mean I’ve seen them IN a fight but never a not talking fight.”

“I’m sure they will get over it, I mean they are basically like brothers to each other. James being the brother Sirius always wanted and Sirius being the brother James never had.”

“I never thought of it like that before.”

“Not many people actually realise how close those two are.”

Just then the portrait hole opened, James, followed by Holly walked in. Also just at that moment Sirius and Lily walked down the steps from the boys dormitory and into the common room. The four seventh years stopped dead in their tracks when they saw who was opposite them.

An eerie silence fell over the common room, the kind where you could practically hear each individual intake of air from every person present.

“Oh, how awkward,” was all Ruby could manage to say.

“Oh, but we can leave!” Remus said as realisation dawned on him; Remus and Ruby jumped up and left the room. They both wanted to escape that situation as quickly as possible. As did the few other Gryffindor’s in the common room, who all made pathetic excuses to have to leave.


“What the hell was she doing with him?” James asked suddenly, making Remus spill his ink in surprise.

Remus frowned as he mopped his now ruined essay but didn’t say anything.

“And in our dorm!” James continued. Remus rolled his eyes. “Moony! Are you listening to me?”

“How could I not?” Remus muttered. James didn’t notice.

“I mean it’s bad enough that I can't be with her but to see him with her after all that he has – Remus where are you going?”

“Look James.” Remus said slowly as he packed up his things. “I really have to finish this essay. Sorry mate…I’ll talk to you later.”

“Yeah whatever.” James muttered, resting his head on the table.

Feeling guilty Remus put his things back down. “Look, I’m sure nothing is going on. You have nothing to worry about. Trust me…but I just need to get this done...”

James nodded miserably, Remus, with one last sigh of impatience left the library, making his way up to the common room.

He had been listening to James for the last couple of hours, ever since he had seen Sirius coming out of the boys’ dorm with Lily. He could understand why he was slightly distressed but wasn’t there someone else to bitch to? Already today he had listened to Sirius’ worries and problems…and his patience was wearing extremely thin.

“Hey Remus! Wait up!”

Remus almost groaned. But turned anyway. He smiled gratefully when he saw who it was. “Hey Ruby baby.” He said with a grin, sweeping her into a hug and making Ruby squeal.

“What was that for?”

“Just for being you and exactly what I needed.”

“Aw, bad day I take it? Was it James and Sirius?”

“Lily and Holly?” He asked. She nodded. “Gotta love problematic friends…” He mused as they made their way to the common room and they fell into a comfortable silence.

“So Quidditch on Saturday…final. Nervous?” Remus commented after a while. Ruby made a face.

“James is so anal about winning. Like really, who schedules practice before ten on a Saturday?”

“He is definitely one of a kind.” He replied absently as they entered the common room to find Sirius, Holly and Lily chatting amicably. Slowly they made their way over.

“Hey guys, what’s cooking?” Ruby asked cheerfully, taking a seat on the arm of Remus’ chair.

Holly smiled. “Just talking about the big game.”

Ruby made a face again. “Seems like the topic on everyone’s mind.”

“Yeah, “Sirius added. “We figured out that the team has never lost a game since James has been captain…” He said proudly. “Its against all odds that Gryffindor lose this one.”

“That’s good to hear.” Ruby replied. At the moment she was struggling to remember why she ever took on position of seeker. What if she didn’t play well on Saturday?

Remus gave her a reassuring squeeze. “You’ll be fine.”

“I'm more worried about what James will do if we lose…” Ruby joked.

Sirius cleared his throat. “Speaking of... Here he is. I’m out of here.” He said standing up.

“Sirius!” Lily and Holly called in unison but he was already halfway up the stairs. With a wave over his shoulder he disappeared completely. Lily and Holly exchanged a look of exasperation. Stupid boys.

“Where’s he going?” James asked without, taking his seat. Lily made a noise of disgust that he couldn’t have missed.

“Lily…” Holly cautioned, tired of her picking fights and for once wanting to enjoy her friends company.
James ignored Holly. Warily he looked up at Lily. “What is it now?”

Lily didn’t answer. Instead looked away from him stubbornly. With a chuckle he opened the book he had in his hands. “You have problems Evans.” He told her as he began to read.

“Me?” Lily squawked, looking wildly around at her friends for help. Finding none she looked back at him, ready to defend herself. “I have problems? I’m not the one who is so stubborn that he wont talk to his best friend – “

“Nothing to do with you…” James sang, still not looking up, which only infuriated her more.

“Fine then.” She said leaning over the coffee table towards him. “Made any good bets lately?“ she said with a false sickly sweet smile.

James quickly returned her smile. “I think its time we moved on from that. Live in the now, honey.”

“Don’t call me honey.” Lily growled leaning back in her seat and crossing her legs.

James snapped his book closed. “What would you prefer? Pumpkin? Snookums?” Suddenly his eyes widened and he grinned as he leaned toward her. “Or how about – “ he began but was cut off by Lily lunging across the coffee table to clamp a hand across his mouth. She glared at him and he glared back. Flashes of what she had told him once, in a time that seemed so long ago came to mind and she knew exactly what he was thinking.

“Don’t you dare.” She hissed, as she removed her hand she found her face inches from his. Drawing back slowly to make sure he didn’t say anything. Instead he held up his arms to surrender. Lily sat back while the other three took in the intriguing conversation. She looked at them all in turn before looking back at him. “Anything that was once said is now null and void. Got it?”

James smirked happily, the faint scent of her hair fogging his thoughts. “Everything?” He confirmed.

“Everything.” Lily stated firmly.

“Fine.” James said simply.

“Ooh no, not fine. Do tell us.” Holly said eagerly.

James shook his head. “My lips are sealed. Isn’t that right Lils?” He cooed mockingly.

“Oh, I get it. She has something over you…” Ruby breathed in realization.

“That would be correct and don’t call me Lils either. Only my friends call me that.”

James threw his head back and grabbed his heart theatrically. “Ooh… burn!” he cried before straightening up again. “So are we back to this? What name am I allowed to call you by?” He asked as Ruby, Remus and Holly all sank back in disappointment. Obviously that was the end of that conversation. No juicy gossip shared about anyone.

“Nothing. I would prefer if you don’t talk to me at all.”

“Well that’s mature. What are you like five?”

Lily snorted indignantly. “As opposed to you? Because you are most definitely the epitome of maturity. Tell me, hexed anyone lately?”

“One more word and I will have.” James shot back.

“You wouldn’t dare.” Lily sneered.

James cocked his head to one side. “Wouldn’t I?” he said, as he stood up again. “By the way I know you have my photo… I will get it back. And that’s a promise.” He told an opened mouthed Lily as he strolled away casually, his infuriating trademark smirk the last thing she saw.


Lily was still seething when she prepared to meet him for patrolling duties that night. He always had to have the last word. Always managed to infuriate her. Always had to win everything. And that damn smirk!

Lily was still lost in frustrating thoughts until someone called her name. Startled she spun around, catching herself on the hem of her robes, landing in an ungainly heap on the floor. Groaning, she cursed her own clumsiness. Why couldn’t she be one of those people who always fell with grace and elegance? No. That couldn’t be her. Instead here she was sprawled in the most undignified way on the floor at James Potters feet while he laughed. Laughed? Laugh?! At her? How dare he! Angrily she looked up at him. He must have sensed her death stares for he stifled his laughter.

“Evening Evans.” He choked. “Nice to see you.”

Lily scowled from her place on the floor. “Nice to see you on time for once.”

James tapped his watch and held it to his ear, frowning in confusion. “Watch must be running fast.” He told her, amused by his own joke.

Lily rolled her eyes as she picked herself up and dusted her robes. “You could have at least offered to help me up.”

James made a face. “Chivalry’s dead, sugar.”

Lily walked away shaking her head. “What the hell is with the pet names lately Potter?”

James smirked. “Shows my undying affection for you.” He called to her retreating back.

Lily spun around in horror. “Tell me seriously, were you dropped on your head as a child?”

James smirked at her. “Witty Evans. Real Witty. Please do tell me when to laugh.” He told her, striding passed.

Lily scowled at his back before she caught up with him. “Sarcasm is like breathing for you isn’t it?”

To her surprise he laughed. “You are so bitter.”

“Me bitter? I am not bitter.”

“You are so bitter. Like a pickle.” He said, stopping abruptly.

Lily looked at him incredulously. “Bitter like a pickle? Where do you come up with these things?”

“Ah, the mysteries of the mind of a genius.”

“Genius? You? HA!”

James smirked yet again. “Its not all good looks you know.” He told her tapping the side of his head.

After a comment like that Lily could barely control herself. Walking along the empty halls she had to stop to catch her breath from laughing so much. Infront of her James still stood with his infuriating smirk. “You so want me.” He said as her laughter had almost died down.

Lily almost burst out laughing again. “Yuh, and blast-ended screwts are really cuddly lovable creatures.”

“That hurts Evans, that really hurts.”

“The truth does that Potter.”

“Ouch.” James replied, having nothing else to say. Secretly he was enjoying this. It was the only time he actually spent with Lily anymore. Looking across at her he noticed her glance at her watch and sigh. She meanwhile was hating every moment. That hurt.

“Know what I hate?” He said suddenly. She didn’t answer. “Uncomfortable Silences...Really steams my broccoli.”

“Do you just talk to make sound?”

James shrugged, tossing his wand into the air and catching it again. “Only when there are dreadfully awkward silences…” Lily didn’t say anything again. “I like that word.”

“What silence?” Lily asked. “Me too!!” She said pointedly.

“No… Awkward. Its sooo…. awkward. Say it a few times. Awkward. Awkward. Awkward.” He mused, changing the tone of the word each time. A-W-K-W-A-R-D. Awkward. Weird huh?” James continued, still tossing his wand around. If he didn’t know any better Lily was on the verge of laughter and this time it wasn’t at him... “Procrastinate. ‘Nother good one.” He mused as they entered the hallway that lead to the common room. “Sounds so dirty. Procrastination… Procrastinating …Procrastinated. “ He finished with a suggestive raise of his eyebrows. This time Lily actually cracked a smile.

“So, Lily, procrastinate with me?”

With a sad little shake of her head she turned away. “Goodnight James.” She called over her shoulder. James was practically floating by the time he entered his dorm.

A/N. well that is what? chapter 13. i say wowies. this chapter got a few laughs out of those who have already read it so i hope you do enjoy... and i do think the word procrastinate is funny. which by the way is exactly what i am doing now...
r&r! -MM

Chapter 14: Blinded By Pride.
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Chapter fourteen - Blinded by Pride.

A/N- Now who wanted more Aussie songs? This chapter is about as aussie as you can get! Enjoy!

“Morning Evans! Nice to see you vertical.”

Lily scowled. “What is that supposed to mean?”

James laughed. “Simply implying that while I don’t mind girls falling at my feet it is nice to see you on yours.” Lily rolled her eyes. “Coming to Quidditch today?” he asked casually.

“Of course I am!” She said, watching as his face light up. “To watch Ruby.” She finished.

James nodded. “If you say so…” James replied with a wink. Lily went red almost immediately. “So can I walk you to breakfast?”

Lily eyed him suspiciously. “Why?”

James shrugged. “I thought after last night we could go back to being friends.”

Lily looked at him strangely. “I’m sorry but we were never friends.” She told him coldly, before leaving to catch up with her friends for breakfast. That boy sure was persistent! She thought shaking her head sadly.

As she got closer to Holly, Holly turned. “What was that about?”

Lily looked at the ground. “He wants to be friends.”

“When were you two ever friends!” Holly scoffed.

Lily nodded impatiently. “That’s what I said!” she cried as they sat down at the table for breakfast.

“Hey, Lily!” Sirius greeted cheerfully. “Ready for Quidditch?” Next to him Ruby groaned.

“What’s the time?” Ruby asked distractedly.

“Almost ten.” Holly told her helpfully.

Ruby groaned again. “ I gotta go… James will kill me if I am late.”

The others waved goodbye to her before lazily tucking into breakfast. Almost an hour later Remus stood up. “Come on, if we want to get good seats.”

Sirius jumped up quickly. Lily rolled her eyes. “Excited much Sirius?”

Sirius grinned, wrapping an arm around her shoulders. “But aren’t you excited Lils?” he told her. It’s the final!” He exclaimed loudly. Lily shot him a look.

Holly laughed. “Come on Lils! Look like you are having fun!” she joined in, taking Lily’s arm. Together she and Sirius led Lily through the halls, Remus following shaking his head at them.

(Adapted from “That’s what football means to me” by Greg Champion.”)
Holly: I've got my scarf, got my old coat
I've got a Quidditch game to go to
Quidditch’s on, its here again
Back to greet me like an old friend, and

That's the thing about
That's what I like about
That's the thing about
The thing about Quidditch.

Whoa, oh, oh ohhhhhh- o-o-oh

Sirius: I'll meet a friend outside the ground
We'll argue over who's gonna win
He'll go for his team I for mine
We'll watch 'em slug it out, right to the end, and

That's the thing about
That's what I like about
That's the thing about
The thing about Quidditch.

Whoa, oh, oh ohhhhhh- o-o-oh

Sirius: Show me the crowd and I'll take my place
I'm hungry, I'm hungry for the taste of it, and

Both: That's the thing about
That's what I like about
That's the thing about
The thing about Quidditch.

Holly: I got a long path to walk down
To catch the win of my favourite team
Sirius: Use my legs, used my voice
Make some noise support the guys, and

Sirius: That's what Quidditch means to me
That's how I like my Quidditch to be, Yeah!

All: That's the thing about
That's what I like about
That's the thing about
The thing about Quidditch…”

Lily Laughed as she joined in the last line. “You two are both nuts!” She exclaimed but already she was starting to have a good time.


“What the hell is James doing?” Cried Holly an hour and a half into the game.

“And what is Potter doing up there?” the commentator cried, echoing Holly without knowing. “There goes Barker to score yet another goal for Ravenclaw! The score is now 150 – 40 Ravenclaw’s way! Ravenclaw are on fire! What has happened to Gryffindor’s winning streak? Has James finally lost his touch? Will his final game be his first loss ever as captain? And Ravenclaw have the Quaffle yet again!”

“Who is commentating?” Sirius suddenly exclaimed. Holly grabbed Sirius’ binoculars that were still around his neck and looked through them, causing Sirius to jerk towards her with a groan.

“Oh, it’s that stupid, giggly Hufflepuff girl! The one that was all over Sirius, along with her stupid friend!” Sirius looked quizzically at Holly before he was jerked closer to her by Lily taking the binoculars off her.

“Mona,” Lily told Holly, then turned to her friend, “I think someone is a wee bit jealous.”

Holly quickly shot Sirius a side glance, before facing Lily again, “Of what?” she asked indignantly.

Lily just smirked at her friend, “Of what? I’m glad you two are just friends now, it would be too weird other wise.” She then turned her attention back to the game, failing to notice Sirius and Holly’s nervous chuckles.

“Potter has the Quaffle, he’s going for goal… ohhhh, Barker intercepts it before the Ravenclaw keeper has a chance.” Elliot then passed the Quaffle on to his team mate and circled back to James.

“Yes!” Remus jumped up, along with all the other Gryffindor’s. Sirius, Holly and Lily looked up at him curiously then realised what had happened.

“Sinclair has caught the Snitch! Gryffindor wins 190 – 150!” Holly and Sirius joined in the cheering. Lily however was watching James and Elliot who were too involved in their heated discussion to notice the game had ended. Suddenly James rushed at Elliot, forcing him to crash into the stands, but no one seemed to notice, except Lily. James then flew off, out of the stadium but not before glancing up in her direction.


Lily slowly made her way back up to the castle, upon reaching the common room a celebratory party was already in full swing. She walked over to Holly, Ruby, Remus and Sirius. “Where’s James?” she questioned Ruby.

“Don’t know, he never came into the change rooms after the game.”

Suddenly the portrait hole opened, James walked in, still in his Quidditch robes. He headed straight for his dorm, making sure not to make eye contact with anyone.

"Be right back," Lily said to the others, who apparently weren't listening.

She walked up the stairs to the boys’ dorm and barged through the door, "What the hell was that about?" Lily yelled at a shirtless James.

James spun around, "What the hell are you doing in here?"

"Finding out what that little scene out on the Quidditch pitch was about," Lily stated putting her hands on her hips.

"It doesn't concern you Evans!" James said looking around wildly for a shirt.

"Like hell it doesn't! You purposefully pushed him into the stands!"

"As if you wouldn’t have done it given the chance!" James hissed.

“Oh how mature of you.”

“Yep. We always come back to that. How immature I am. Maybe next time I will let him get away with-“

“What did he say?” Lily demanded. He didn’t answer. For Lily the pieces had all clicked into place. “What did he say!” She demanded again, louder this time.

Still he only stared coldly at her. "What the hell is your problem James? Why do you act like this?"

"Me? What is my problem?" He cried angrily.

"Yes! You!" Lily flared.

James laughed bitterly, "My problem? You are my problem!"


"Yes! You!” James cried in a mocking voice. “You can't even see that I was trying defend you!”

“What gives you the right or the need to try to defend me? Another one of your macho acts on poor defenceless girls? Is that it? Another ego trip?”

“Is that what you really think? That I do all this to feel manly? You don’t know me at all! Are you really so blind that can't see me for who I am?”

Lily crossed her arms across her chest, narrowing her eyes at him. "And who are you exactly?"

James stepped closer to Lily so they were inches away from each other, he lowered his voice to a deadly whisper, "I'm just a guy who is desperately in love with someone he can't have."

"Love?" Lily whispered back fearfully, staring into his eyes that held no emotion.

"That’s what I said. Love. I love you Lily Evans, and if you weren't so damn stubborn you would admit you feel exactly the same way." For a moment Lily thought James was going to kiss her, but instead he leaned around her with his arm to pick up a t-shirt, not breaking eye contact for a moment. For Lily it was worse that the yelling. She knew he was being completely honest. Still without a word he then left the dorm, ignoring the almost silent party goers’ stares as he slipped his t-shirt over his head, and most definitely not noticing the whispers that seemed to follow him.

"What was that about?" Holly asked as the portrait swung shut on him. Everyone had heard almost every word of their argument up until a few moments ago when it had gone quiet. It was what had been said in that time that worried her.

"No idea, but I’m gonna go find out," Sirius got up and went to find James, knowing exactly where he would be.


Lily had watched James leave, her anger disappeared very quickly as what he had said sunk in. realising she was shaking she dropped to the nearest bed, picking up the pillow and hugging close. A small sob escaped as she took in the familiar scent of James. He was right. How could she have been so blind?

(A/N: Adapted from My Big Mistake by Delta Goodrem)
"Amazing fairytale that had come true
Mr reliable romantic was you
Blinded, misguided in the arms of love
Just 'cause it suited the both of us

Then it all went wrong
Was I the one to blame?
Taking you for granted
In so many ways
When I look back now
How can I ever forget
You made me so happy
But so upset…

How could something so magic (magic)
Become something so tragic (tragic)
Right before my eyes
Two separate lives
Every second was a precious moment
Now I’m thinking about the path I’ve chosen
Wish I could un-make my big mistake
My big mistake

Communication has broken down
The situation seems out of our hands
Well my hands
You've got to please understand
That I was too proud, yes just
Too proud for that
I guess it all went wrong
And I’m the one to blame
But what I would give to have you back again

How could something so magic (magic)
Become something so tragic (tragic)
Right before my eyes
Two separate lives
Every second was a precious moment
Now I’m thinking about the path I’ve chosen
Wish I could un-make my big mistake
My big mistake

The hours the days the weeks
The months that we have wasted
I’m sorry
I still love you
I don't expect an owl 'cause my apology's belated
I’m sorry
And I miss you all the time

How could something so magic (magic)
Become something so tragic (tragic)
Right before my eyes
Two separate lives
Every second was a precious moment
Now I’m thinking about the path I’ve chosen
Wish I could un-make my big mistake
My big mistake"

"Lily?" Holly asked cautiously, opening the door to the dorm. Lily turned around quickly to face Holly, wiping her eyes as she did.

“It’s nothing, just a big mistake.” Holly could tell Lily didn’t want to talk about it yet, so she left it alone.

The two girls then went to their own dorm, to go to bed.

James was beyond pissed. How could he have been so stupid to tell her he loved her? She was probably up there with her friends right now having a good laugh at his expense. Angrily James transformed into his animagus form.

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. He thought, ramming the dilapidated wall. From down the tunnel he heard a voice call out to him.

Sirius entered the shrieking shack to find Prongs ramming the wall angrily. Seeing Sirius standing there James charged at him. Quickly Sirius transformed too. The stag reared haughtily as if trying to tempt the dog into a fight. Sirius quite happily obliged, pouncing at the magnificent creature.

After about ten minutes Sirius changed back and James followed suit. They both sat panting for a few minutes, before Sirius spoke. “Feel better?” He asked with a smirk.

Jumping up, James swore loudly. “What are you doing here?” He asked harshly pacing the length of the room.

“We all heard the fight.”

James snorted. “I bet you did.”

“Except the last part…what happened?”

James stopped pacing to look at him. He was supposed to pissed at him…but hey he had already screwed things up with Lily tonight and right now he needed a friend. Without saying anything James sat back down next to Sirius. He ran a hand through his hair.

Next to him Sirius whistled. “That bad huh?”

James sighed. “I told her I love her.” Sirius’ eyes boggled. James looked at him in disgust. “Shut up.”

Sirius shook his head. “I didn’t say anything…Wow mate. That’s big… Sooo what did she say?”

James jumped back up. “Nothing. She said nothing.” He cried in frustration, punching the wall. Anger subsiding he turned to Sirius again. “But I know she feels the same way.”

Sirius didn’t say anything, moodily James sat back down. “What are you going to do?” Sirius asked slowly.

James sighed again. “Nothing. I suppose it’s all up to her now.” Sirius regarded him curiously. “I told her exactly how I felt and she said nothing. I can't do anything more.” He said quietly, letting his head fall against the dusty wall.

Sirius looked at his feet. “I really am sorry you know.”

James looked at him. “Don’t worry about it.”

“No. I was way out of line. Jealous of what you two had. I shouldn’t have said anything. I really shouldn’t have said anything.” He said, emphasising the second ‘really’.

James stood up. “Yeah but its over now, there’s nothing I can do. And there’s nothing you can do about it either.” He told him, offering his hand to help him up. Sirius took it with a grin.

“Does this mean I am forgiven?” James made a face and Sirius grinned. “That’s close enough!” He cried excitedly. “Can I hug you?”


A/N: if we previously stated that Gryffindor was playing another house other than Ravenclaw, we are sorry but deal with it.

“My Big Mistake” by Delta Goodrem.

“That's What Football Means To Me” by Greg Champion (it's about real footy!!!)
Another thing...we are looking for a song for the end, boppy love song. Suggestion anyone?
Anyway. r&r. pretty please!

Chapter 15: The One With the Photograph-Part I
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A/N-Okay we know this is kinda a long chapter so it has been split into this means we will finish on 20 chapters square...thats right count how many chapters are left guys!br />

This has been a note from MagicalMiss and Padfootismygod15.

Chapter 15 – The one with the Photograph-Part One.

Sirius wandered slowly down the stairs a midnight feast on his mind. He sadly had drawn the short straw and had been sent to bring back food from the kitchens. To him though it was a fair-trade. He was back on the right side of his friends and all he had to do was run down to the kitchens at one a.m. Damn, he thought. Really should have grabbed some socks.

Coming to the bottom of the stairs he was surprised to find Lily sitting infront of the fire, wrapped in a quilt mesmerised by the flames.

“Lily?” he called softly. Slowly she turned to him. He was slightly alarmed by the lack of emotion in her face. “Are you okay?” he asked taking a seat next to her.

She didn’t answer but turned to look at the fire again. From where he was sitting Sirius could see the tears in her eyes. “Lily, tell me what's wrong.” He repeated, knowing full well it could only be one thing.

Lily shook her head, her tears beginning to flow fast.

“Hey, hey please don’t cry!” He said. If it was one thing he didn’t like to see, it was people cry. He leaned forward awkwardly to hug her. Lily turned inside her quilt so she was crying onto his shoulder. Sirius didn’t know what else to say. He knew now was not the time for jokes but did it call for comforting silence or words of wisdom? He hoped it was the silence because as for words of wisdom, he was fresh out. Thankfully Lily solved this problem for him by pulling away and drying her eyes with the heel of her hand.

“I'm sorry…” She whispered, embarrassed that she had let him see her cry. Sirius shook his head.

“Don’t be. Do I need to ask what this is about?”

Lily tried to smile but instead started hiccuping.

“Do you want to talk about it?” Sirius ventured.

Lily looked at him. It was passed one a.m. and he probably wanted to sleep but yet he was here trying to comfort her. “I'm just confused.” She whispered again, bringing her hands up to her eyes, in doing so the diary that she had been trying to write in fell to the floor.

Sirius bent down to pick it up, something falling out as he did so. Lily laughed uncomfortably as he picked that up too. For a moment he stared intently at the photo he had helped her steal. “It’s not that bad of photo really…” He commented, turning it sideways. “Looks better this way though…”

Lily took the photo from him. “You can see straight up my nose.” She said, thinking back to the day that it was taken. One of James’ self portraits. Just before he had taken the picture he had kissed her on the side of the head, Lily had scrunched up her nose and closed her eyes but she had a huge smile on her face.

Sirius had leaned over her shoulder to look again. “You two look happy.” He told her earnestly. They did. It was something about the way she was smiling. Maybe it was the un-posed happiness and delight that she seemed to emit. He could see why James was so attached to it.

Lily nodded. She remembered the feeling she had when she was with him well. She was happy.

“It’s not too late Lily.” Sirius said surprising her. She turned to him. There were no traces of laughter or mocking for once.

She shook her head sadly. “It is. I can't go back there. I just can't.”

“Why not?” He countered.

Lily shrugged. She had been sitting here for hours, a million thoughts colliding in her head, making the situation seem impossible…Why not? The question she had asked herself over and over. Why? Why couldn’t she? Such confusing thoughts that wouldn’t sort themselves out so she could find an answer. She looked down at her diary, still open but the page blank except for the date.

“He told me what he said.” Sirius continued. Lily looked at him sharply. “It isn’t too late.” He repeated firmly.

“What about you?” Lily countered.

“What about me?”

“I see the way you look at Holly. And the way she looks at you. You two couldn’t be further from ‘just friends’ if you tried. Yet both of you play this game and everyone can see that its not what either of you want.”

Sirius’ eyes widened doubtfully. “Is that so?”

“Yep.” Lily said standing up. “Thanks for chatting. I’d like to say you helped but I don’t think anyone can. Good night Sirius.”

“Night Lily… And Lily?” He called when she had reached the stairs. “Tell him. He knows you feel exactly the same way but he won’t do anything unless you do.”

Lily nodded, biting her bottom lip. “You should take that advice too. Tell her. Night Sirius.” She called again before disappearing.

“Sirius? What are you doing?” James called less than ten seconds later. Sirius swung around, his heart beating furiously. If James had come down just a minute before…

Sirius jumped up. “Ah, sorry. Got distracted. Be back in a minute.” He called over his shoulder as he left the common room. James frowned, looking around the room until his eye landed on a crumpled quilt on the couch. Who had been down here? He wondered.

Walking over he picked up the quilt, folding it roughly. Shaking out a tattered diary as he did so. Picking it up he flipped through the pages with disinterest until he spotted a familiar photo. His photo. So Lily had been down here.

He stared intently at the photo for a moment. He had always loved how she looked in this photo. It captured just what he loved about her. Content and comfortable with herself. And once upon a time he had thought that he was the reason. Not anymore. Maybe, just maybe he had been wrong, he thought sadly shoving the photo back in its place and returning to his dorm, taking her diary with him. Suddenly he wasn’t in the party mood anymore.


“Lily what the hell are you doing? Its six a.m!”

Lily swung around guiltily. Ruby looked distinctly unhappy. Well then again it was six a.m on a Sunday…

“Sorry… I didn’t mean to wake you.”

From Holly’s bed came a disbelieving snort, indicating one, she was awake too and two she wasn’t happy about it. “Why are you up at this hour?”

Lily continued rummaging under her bed. There wasn’t much under there but maybe it fell…”I can't find my diary.”

Ruby groaned. “So you woke up at six to search for it?”

Lily rolled her eyes. “No, I was already up. And I can't remember where it is!” she cried in frustration.

“Lily have you slept at all?” Holly asked, getting up and wandering over to her.

“Lily?” Ruby asked, sitting up. “What did James say to you last night?”

Lily turned around, “When?” she asked innocently.

Ruby rolled her eyes. “Think back to last night after Quidditch. Big yelling match. Everyone heard it…”

“Everyone?” Lily whispered fearfully.

“Except the end. Right about when James Potter stormed out half naked.”

Lily’s eyes widened. Her mind processing just what Ruby was implying half of Gryffindor thought. “Is that what everyone thinks?” She whispered.

Holly smirked. “That you two had a bit of a steamy make out session?”

Lily looked at her.

“Nah… nobody could think that…but did you?”

“NO!” Lily cried. “He just…he just…I-I'm going to go check the common room fro my diary.” She told them nervously, exiting as quickly as her legs would let her.

The common room, of course, was empty. Lily marched over to where she had been sitting. Her blanket was still here and she couldn’t remember taking it back upstairs. Which left two options. Praying for the first she picked up the quilt. Damn, she thought seeing no diary. That meant one thing.

Sirius had taken it.

He was going to die. Right now, she thought marching up the stairs to his dorm.

Out of courtesy for others, (although on considering who the ‘others’ were she wondered why.) Lily opened the door slowly. For a moment she stood there trying to adjust to the darkness and that…smell.

Tiptoeing across the battlefield of a room she noiselessly pulled back the curtain on what she hoped to god was Sirius’ bed, her second prayer was that he wasn’t baring all.

Thankfully she was right on both counts. Biting her bottom lip she poked his shoulder. He groaned, rolling over to face her. Lily jumped backwards slightly. Giggling at what appeared to be a teddy bear tucked under his arm, she poked him again.

“Whaaa? He murmured, his eyes still closed. Lily knelt gently on his bed so she was leaning over him.

“Where’s my diary?” She hissed.

“What diary?” he asked with a yawn.

“You took my diary!” Lily hissed a little louder than before.

Sirius looked confused even with his eyes closed. Slowly he opened one experimentally. Then he closed it again. Then it all clicked. “Holy crap Lily!!” he cried sitting up quickly. The sudden movement knocked Lily sideways. She landed with a thump on floor.

“Ow…” She groaned. Sirius’ head appeared above her as she once again cursed her inability to fall gracefully.

“Are you alright?” Lily nodded sitting up and looking around. Ow, her head hurt. She thought, rubbing the spot she had hit. That’s when she noticed three other sleepy people staring at her.


Standing up quickly, her face turning red, she dashed from the room, avoiding eye contact with all of them.

“What was that about?” Remus asked as they all stared at the doorway she had just exited through.

Sirius yawned, falling back on his pillow. “She thought I had her diary.”

“Do you?” Remus asked watching as James quietly headed towards the bathroom.

Sirius sat up again. “Moony!” He cried dramatically. “I am hurt that you would even have to ask!”


“So Prongs.” Sirius said, wrapping am arm around James shoulders.

“So Padfoot.” James mimicked, wrapping his arm around Sirius’ shoulder too.

“You’re awfully quiet.”

“No I’m not.”

“Yes you are,” Countered Sirius, retracting his arm. “If it is about this morning…”

“Its not.”

“Well if it is, I told you what happened…I was just as surprised to see her there as you were.”

“I know.” James agreed, thinking about Lily’s which he had returned to her this morning… well at least gotten a very suspicious Ruby to put it on her bed, the photo carefully tucked inside the cover he had considered keeping it like he said but it just didn’t look right on his wall anymore. It was hers.

“James!” Sirius cried, waving his hand infront of his face.

“I’m sorry did you say something?”

Sirius smirked. “Sorta spaced out there buddy. Soooo as I was saying what we doing today?”

James grinned back. Having his friend back meant it was time for some fun. “How ‘bout some harmless pranks?”

“Harmless? Only harmless?” Sirus exclaimed. “Coming Moony?”

Remus sighed. So apparently everything was back to normal. He thought to himself, following them on their quest to cause mischief.

(A/N. Oh lookie! Its Oo-de-lally, from Robin hood!)
“Look at ‘em, Prongs an’ Padfoot
Walkin' through the hallways
Laughin' back and forth
At what the other'ne has to say
Reminiscin', This-'n'-thattin'
Havin' such a good time

Oo-de-lally, Oo-de-lally
Golly, what a day

Never ever thinkin' there was danger round the corner
They were prankin’, they’re just having some fun
Never dreamin' that a schemin' slyth’rin and his posse
Was a-watchin' them an' gatherin' around

Watch em go, Prongs an’ Padfoot
Runnin' through the hallways
Jumpin' steps, dodgin' crowds
An' tryin' to get away
Contemplatin' nothin'
But escape an' finally makin' it

Oo-de-lally, Oo-de-lally
Golly, what a day
Oo-de-lally, Oo-de-lally
Golly, what a day”


“Holly! Are you listening to me?”

“No.” Holly muttered back. She heard Lily make a small noise of disapproval.

Holly sighed but sat back up anyway. The two of them had been sitting outside all morning, Lily talking non stop about exams or something equally as boring while all Holly wanted to do was sleep. It was Lily’s fault after all. They had finally just gotten back to sleep when Lily had stormed back in muttering something about ‘so embarrassed’. At that point Holly didn’t care. It was still before 7 a.m on a Sunday. But being the good friend she was she had tried to pay attention to what Lily was so embarrassed about. The story was quite amusing actually…not at all like this one. She envied Ruby who just had to meet Remus about ten minutes ago.

Ha, as if she did.

“So then I thought – “

“Hey Holly!” A voice interrupted, Holly swung around, grateful to whoever it was. To her surprise it was non other than Wren Fischer. Oh well, beggars can't be choosers.

“Hi Wren, How are you?” Holly greeted amicably as Lily’s expression passed from annoyance to curiosity.

Wren nodded. “I am well. Just thought I would stop to say hi…I’m Wren by the way.” She said to Lily.

Lily grinned. “Lily Evans. Nice to meet you.”

Wren laughed lightly. “Of course I know you. Our head girl. What an honour that must be.” She gushed.

Lily smiled at her. it was almost impossible to not like this girl. “Are you meeting anyone for lunch?” she asked at she stood up, offering a hand up to Holly. Wren shook her head. “Good. Would you like to join us then?”

“Sure I would!”


A/N- Today on Hogwarts a musical we have “Oo-de-lally” from Robin Hood.

Chapter 16: The One With the Photograph-Part II
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Chapter sixteen- The One With The Photograph- Part Two.

“Hello ladies!” Sirius greeted in his usual cheerful manner as he took a seat at the table for lunch. “And hello Wren.” He said in surprise spotting her for the first time.

She pulled a face at him. “Are you implying I’m not a lady?”

“Would I ever say that Wrennie?” He joked. “I was just surprised to see you here…what are you doing here anyway?”

Wren smiled, sitting up in her seat proudly. “Lily invited me.” Imagine, Lily Evans, the post popular girl in school asking her to lunch. “Since you never do.” She said, her eyes wide with meaning.

Sirius laughed nervously. “There is a reason for that.” He told her, reaching forward for a piece of bread.

“Don’t worry pumpkin, I haven’t revealed any of you secrets.” She told him with a wink. “But now that I think of it there was this time when he was eight, right? Now there’s this small creek down from my house and this huge hill and you know those little-“

“And that’s enough of that story Wrennie. So that transfiguration test, ladies. Thoughts?”

“’Bout what?” James asked taking a seat next to Sirius. “Hula Hoop of fire story, Wren?” He asked in amusement, Wren nodded in delight and he laughed.

“So you were saying Wren?” Holly asked innocently, leaning forward in her seat.

If it was possible Sirius turned red. “No, she is not.” He said meaningfully. “What else did you tell them?” He whined.

Wren sighed. “Nothing at all. Lily was actually telling me about her head girl duties.”

Sirius nodded eagerly. “Is that right Lily?” He said, glad to get the conversation away from him.

At the sound of her name, Lily looked up sharply. “What?” She asked slightly bewildered, ever since James had sat down she had lost track of the conversation. “I’m sorry what did you say?”

Sirius shook his head, looking between her and James. James was staring determinedly at her, challenging her to say something or at least look at him but instead she stared at her half eaten meal, biting her lip, clearly uncomfortable in this situation.

As was everyone else. So embarrassed that Sirius almost revealed the hula hoop story himself. Thankfully Wren saved him.

Noticing the discomfort she gently touched Lily’s arm. “So Lily, what are the perks of being head girl?”

Lily turned to look at her then quickly back at James. “Sorry Wren, but I have to go. Um, I have to…” Lily trailed off as she stood up, pointing in the direction of the door, feeling like her face was burning she left still conscious that his eyes were following her.

At the table all eyes turned back to James who sighed in frustration, running his hands through his hair. Sirius was utterly bewildered. “What are you doing you idiot?” Sirius cried, hitting him in the back of the head. “Don't let her walk away! Go talk to her!”

James looked up to find Sirius’ face inches from his own. “Just drop it Padfoot.” He growled, standing up too. “I have to do something.” He told them, waving goodbye. Sympathy had never been something he had liked and he was not going to stand here and let them look at him with their soft eyes.

“Okay…” Holly laughed nervously. “That was awkward.”

“That word seems to be cropping up a lot lately.”

Wren made a face, propping her head up on one hand. “So that happens a lot?”

Both Gryffindor’s nodded wearily while Wren breathed a silent ‘O’.

“I’m gonna go see if I can catch him.” Sirius told them, standing up, leaving Holly and Wren alone.

“So,” Began Holly searching for a topic they had in common. “How long have you known Sirius then?”

“Oh, well he used to live down the road to me... before he left. We were friends as kids. There weren’t too many wizards or witches around. He was the only decent person my age around. Even if he used to pick on me. It was strange I just went over there one day and Mrs Black was screaming, apparently he just left.”

Holly frowned. “I never knew that. He doesn’t talk about his family much.”

“I wouldn’t either if they were mine.”

“So you two are pretty close then?”

“You could say that. I love spending time with him and I know too many of his secrets so even if he found me annoying, he's kinda stuck with me.”

“So if you don’t mind me asking, how come you two never dated?”

“Who told you we never dated?”

“So you did?”

“Very briefly, it didn’t work out the best. I just wasn’t what he wanted…” She said with a sad little laugh. “He was exactly what I wanted but some people are just better off as friends I guess…”

“So does that mean you still…” Holly asked, hiding her shock well. She had thought James had told her that they were just friends but then they were standing here arms around each other and suddenly she was finding it hard to believe him when he said she was no threat.

Wren laughed, that little twitter that suited her so well. “Yeah, but I know he doesn’t see me that way. I wanted to hate you when I first met you, you know.”

Holly was stunned, “Why for?”

“I was jealous. I saw the way he looked at you. Then he told me how he loves you-”

“Excuse me?”

Wren laughed again. “I know pretty immature of me but-“

“No not that.”

Wren frowned. “What that he loved you? You knew that didn’t you?...Holly?” She asked cautiously as Holly stood up without saying anything.

Completely forgetting Wren sitting alone at the Gryffindor table she headed outside where the weather was becoming increasing warm.

She had barely made it out the door when Sirius caught up with her, grabbing her arm gently and swinging her around to face him.

“What was that about?” He asked, having seen Holly run from the great hall. She was so distracted that she had run straight passed him.

Holly stared up at him, her face etched with pain. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

“Tell you what?”

Holly shook her head wildly, pulling her arm free. “I…That – that you and Wren dated?”

Sirius’ eyes widened. “What does that have to do with anything? It was two years ago and so brief. It was over before it started.”

“Then why did she tell me she still has feelings for you?”

“She told you that? Sirius asked in bewilderment, struggling to find a link in all of this. ”Holly you aren’t jealous of Wren are you?”

“Why would I be jealous of that skinny little brainless Barbie?”

Sirius had no answer to that. It practically answered itself. “Holly what’s going on?”

“What do you mean what's going on? I just don’t like the way she’s always hanging around you and always – ”

“Holly!” Sirius interrupted. “Really what is this about? See I’m confused and if I didn’t know better I would think you were feeling a little bit threatened by Wrennie-kins which means you lied.”

Holly feigned innocence. “I lied?”

Sirius smirked. “You lied. The day I ask what I meant to you, you lied.”

“I did not!”

Sirius simply rolled his eyes, girls were so stupid sometimes “Holly…”

“Fine I lied. You said ‘what are we doing’ and I lied. I never had a date for Valentines. And it was more than just a game.” She added quietly.

“Why?” He asked softly.

“Why didn’t I have a date?” Holly joked, he looked at her. Okay. Obviously not the time for jokes… “I don’t know. It was easier at the time.” She said meekly. This conversation was way too truthful for her liking.

“Easier than what?” He asked. “Holly?” He asked again when she didn’t answer.

She looked up at him with watery eyes. “Admitting what you meant to me…”

Sirius looked at her. This was beyond strange. “Dare I say why again? If you had of told me then – “

“You don’t get it do you?! I’m just plain Holly! I didn’t want to become another of Sirius Blacks girlfriends. I couldn’t! Not one of those stupid barbies like Miranda or Mona. Or even Wren! The girl is smart but so dumb in other ways...”

“I never went out with Miranda or Mona.”

“You went out with Miranda in third year,” Holly said quietly, looking at the ground.

Sirius thought for a moment before laughing to himself, “Oh yeah I did too.” Holly groaned and began to walk away, but Sirius grabbed her arm once again. “Holly…”

Holly slowly turned to face him, “I just didn’t want to become one of them.”

“And now?”

“I still don't want to be one of them. I don’t want to be some girl you date for a month then discard. I don’t think I could handle that.”

“What if I told you you would never be someone like that?”

“I don’t know if I could believe you.” Holly said looking away.

(A/N: Five Years From Now by Mercury 4)
Holly: Tell me what you are;
tell me who you'll be
When the summers gone
and all you'll ever need to fall
What you gonna do, what you gonna do

Will it be someone else’s game you're playing?
What is that you need, tell me about your dream
Tell me when your childish fantasies have blown away
Who's to say, you and I are here to stay

Tell me where you be a few years from now
Will you recognise my face in a crowd?
Tell me where you be a few years from now
Will you love me, still want me
Tell me about the guy you wanna be
Will there be a place in your heart for me
Tell me where you be a few years from now
Will you love me, still want me
Say you will,

say you will

Sirius: Holding you tonight, movin' in the dark
Time is moving faster then my world is turning
So you want to know, what is on my mind
But the future seems as distant
As the sun that's burning bright
Could it be that you, are frighted that I might
Give it all away for souvenirs of yesterday
So Who's to say and I are here to stay?

Ask me where I’ll be a few years from now
Will I recognise your face in a crowd?
Tell you where I’ll be a few years from now
I’ll still love you, still want you
So tell me about the girl you wanna be
Is there still a place in your heart for me
Tell me where you wanna be years from now
Will you love me, still want me
Say you will

Holly: Say five winters have came and gone
Now forever don't seem to long
Will you wanna reach out for me?
Or will I be your memory
Coz everything that your not now
I know that I got to stop now
You got to tell me what's up now

Tell me where you be a few years from now
Will you recognise my face in a crowd?
Tell me where you be a few years from now
Will you love me, still want me
Tell me about the guy you wanna be
Will there be a place in your heart for me
tell me where you be a few years from now
Will you love me, still want me?”

“Holly you are an idiot.”

“That’s not what I want to hear right now.”

Sirius smiled, stepping closer to take her hand, “Okay, how about, I don’t know where the future will take us but as long as you are willing I want to give this real chance. A completely serious relationship. Holly, be my girlfriend?” He asked sincerely, watching her closely.

Holly smiled, “Now that is exactly what I wanted to hear.”


Lily had left the great hall and headed for her refuge, the library. Almost an hour later she had wearily dragged herself back up to her dorm, thinking at the moment sleep would be the best thing to cure her conscience. All through those couple of minutes he had felt those eye on her, begging her to say something but she couldn’t. and as much as she pretended everything was alright to her friends, that he had effect on her, it was a lie. And the chirpy, peachy-keen everything-is-a-okay act was getting old fast. Very fast.

Praying for a empty dorm room she pushed the door open, sighing in relief at the sight of the well made beds and tidy trunks but most of all the absence of her friends.

She walked to her bed frowning at the brown paper package that sat in the middle. Her frown only deepened at she saw her name scrawled messily in the corner. She would recognise that handwriting anywhere.

With trepidation she carefully unwrapped the package, mixed emotions flooding her as the tatty cover of her diary appeared.

James had had her diary.

Had he read it?

Lily nervously flicked through the pages desperately trying to remember what she had written so long ago. What had he discovered about her?

Lily stopped flicking when the book opened to the photo. With shaking hands she pulled it out noticing writing on the back.

Lily, It read, I told you once I would get this back but obviously this photo means something to you too. Talk to me. Please. I can't stand not knowing.
-Love James

A wave of guilt washed over her as she quickly read the scribbly writing. Falling back on her bed she let the photo fall the ground, the final words that made her ache with misery repeating in her head.

A/N- And ‘Five years from now’ by mercury4!

Chapter 17: So Slap-able.
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Chapter Seventeen- So Slap-able.

News of Sirius and Holly spread around Hogwarts like wildfire. It was understandable. It wasn’t everyday that Sirius Black claimed to have a, well a serious girlfriend. And it wasn’t everyday that that girlfriend was someone they had never really noticed before…

This of course meant jealousy from the girls and complete disinterest from the guys.

Their friends of course were ecstatic. This had been a long time in the making and naturally they greeted the news with smug smiles and a few told-you-so’s and of course their hearty congratulations…

All except one.

Lily had woken up that morning feeling worse than she had the night before. She was still in her uniform and the photo she had fallen asleep over was nowhere to be seen. Wiping the sleep out of her eyes she had made her way to the bathroom. After stepping out of the warm shower she rested on the edge of the sink to carefully studied herself in the mirror.

What a pretty sight, she thought, closing her eyes in the hopes that it went away…Nope no chance. There was still the overly pale skin, red puffy eyes and the usual messy red hair.

A sudden banging on the door made her jump, making her hit her elbow on the sink, crying out in pain she hopped around the bathroom while on the other side of the door Holly stood worried about what was going on in there.

“Lily?” she called rapping on the door again. “Are you okay in there?”

“Yeah!” Lily called back, “Just hit my elbow. Be out in a moment” She called back, trying to detangle her hair.

Last night Holly had come back to the dorms practically bouncing with excitement, she and Sirius were finally ‘official’. Today was going to be couples heaven.

This thought made Lily groan. “On second thoughts,“ She called again. “I’ll meet you at breakfast!”

“Okay!” Came Holly’s cheery reply, followed by the sound of the closing door. It was definitely going to be a long day.


“Has anyone seen Lily all day?” Holly asked later that day while they all ate tea.

Sirius looked at her like she was crazy. “Ah, yes…” He said, of course they had, she had been in classes all day!

Holly briefly closed her eyes, “I didn’t mean like that!” She said backhanding him playfully in the stomach. “I mean, she has been avoiding us all. Like she has skipped all meals and I don’t know why.”

James raised his eyebrows. “Now I know why she’s avoiding me…but you guys...”

Sirius looked at him in wonder. “You mean you haven’t talked to her yet?”

James rested his head on his hand, shaking it slightly in answer to Sirius’ question. “I figure its best to let her come to me this time.”

Ruby leaned closer, “James?” She asked quietly waiting till he looked up before continuing, “what exactly did you say?”

“What to Lily?” James asked sitting up right suddenly. Nervously he scratched his forehead, to him it was no secret, he was not embarrassed about what he had said, he held no regrets but Lily on the other hand…obviously she hadn’t told her friends for a reason. “Ah, rage blackout…I can’t actually remember.” He said. “Look while it is nice being the…fifth wheel,” he said counting them up. “I’m gonna go… catch you all later.”

“Oh my God! That’s it!” Holly cried suddenly. “The fifth wheel…” She looked at everyone, barely registering their blank stares. “I’m Slap-able!” She wailed, covering her mouth. She and Lily had become allies against corny couples, such as Ruby and Remus and now she was part of one! “Oh I am a horrible friend!” She cried again, running out of the great hall. She just had to find Lily.

“Holly! Wait!” Ruby cried, chasing after her somehow understanding what Holly was saying.

“Did you understand any of that?” Sirius asked.

Remus shook his head. “What the hell does slap-able mean? Is it even a word?”


“And hello Lily!”

“Sirius. Remus.” Lily acknowledged them with a nod before returning to her book.

Sirius who was never known to take a hint sat down. “You are aware your friends are looking for you?”

Lily shook her head. “Nope. I wasn’t but I have been here most of the day.”

Remus glanced around. The library had been their first choice of places to look for Lily and no surprise it was where she was. Thankfully it was virtually empty so they could talk. “Lily?” He started waiting for Lily to answer.

“Remus.” She said still without looking up. Remus looked at Sirius. Who looked at Lily, smirked, then took her book. Finally getting her attention.

“Hey!” She exclaimed, trying to snatch her book back. Obviously that wasn’t going to happen so instead she gave in and turned to face Remus, while Sirius flipped through what he would class as a boring old muggle book. “Fine. I am listening to whatever you nosy interfering people want to say. My attention is finally yours so right to the point, please.” She said hotly.

Remus smirked. “Right to the point. Are you sure you don’t want me to skirt around the issue for a moment?”

“No really make it short and sharp please so I can get back to my story.”

“I don't see why.” Sirius told her, flipping it over in his hands. “Seems kinda dull.”

“Just because you struggle to read!” She retorted sharply. She would have said more but Remus interrupted with an extremely annoying hem hem.

“Lets focus on the real issue here.”

“Which is? Me avoiding you just because I want some time alone? Because if-“

“No. Not that!” Sirius interrupted impatiently. “You and James.”

“Me and James?” Lily repeated faintly.

“Because lets be honest here. We all know what was said after Quidditch or in your case what wasn’t said.” He intoned, making Lily cringe.

“He told you?”

Sirius nodded. “And you didn’t tell Holly or Ruby.”


“Soo…” Remus echoed.

“Do you love him?” Sirius asked bluntly.

Lily stared at him.

Remus kicked him under the table.

And Sirius couldn’t help but laugh at the expression on her face. “She did say right to the point.”

Lily felt her cheeks redden as they always did when she was uncomfortable. She quickly averted her eyes.

“Lily?” Sirius asked softly. “Truthfully.”

Lily looked at him. Something about his voice made her weak. Over the last couple of weeks he had been something of a confidant. And now even though he probably knew what she would say he waited patiently for her answer what she had known all along too.

“Yes.” She said making them both smile. “But its not that simple.”

“Nothing has ever been simple when it comes to you two but you have to tell him!” Remus said emphatically.

“I just don’t want what happened last time to happen again. I mean that was after a week and I don't know…” She trailed off not knowing how to express the anxiety of her heart. Instead she stood up, taking her book from Sirius as she did.

“Lily.” He said grabbing her hand. “I know you’re scared but talk to him. Please. At least let him know.”

Lily didn’t reply but nodded. She had been trying to talk to him all week she just needed the right time and the right words. What to say was the biggest problem.

Remus and Sirius sat there for a long time after she had gone. It was so easy to forget about other peoples problems when you were happy.

Slap-able Sirius thought with a small smile.

“What?” Remus asked as he watched Sirius break into a grin.

“I just figured out what slap-able means. I get it.” He said explaining it to Remus who nodded slowly.

(A/N Desperado by the Eagles, imagine hearing Remus with Sirius as back up but it’s Lily you can see, walking through the halls or whatever.
We dedicate this song by the way to Bexi_Potter, For all your reviews and we knw how mad about Remus you are!!!)

Remus: Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
You been denying your feelings for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
We know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Could hurt you so bad.

Don't you draw the queen of diamonds, No,
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet

Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get

Desperado, oh, time ain't gettin' no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you wild
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
but prison is walking through this world all alone

Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're losin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate.
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you,
(let somebody love you)
You better let somebody love you before it's too late…


Lily couldn’t move.

Well she probably could if she tried. After all there was nothing technically restraining her. Yet she couldn’t move.

Or was that she didn’t want to.

There she had been comfortable avoiding people, alone in the library, when Sirius and Remus had come to chat to her. A little weird that was.

But stranger things had happened…

Like Lily standing outside the seventh year boys dormitory trying to gather the courage to talk to James.

She was ready to face him.

No she wasn’t.


“Lily? What are you doing?” Lily spun around, almost relieved to see Sirius standing there. Well better him than James catching her in a way.

“I came to talk to…” she said pointing at the door.

Sirius smiled kindly. “He’s not up here. But what exactly were you going to say may I ask?”

Lily sighed. “Not what you wanted me to…” Lily said leading the way downstairs back to the common room.

At the foot of the stairs she turned suddenly, needing to explain herself to someone. “I just can't go there again. I wanted to tell him so he understood. It hasn’t been fair how I have treated him…” She finished weakly.

Sirius was struggling to understand what she was saying. “So you are willing to let fear rule your life?”

Lily scowled. “Its not fear its realism! This way neither of us end up hurt.”

“So really you are saying you are not willing to give him a chance as you truthfully believe that a relationship with him will lead no where?”

“Exactly!” Lily cried.

Sirius nodded. “Okay. I get what you are saying then… You are one hundred percent right. It is for the best I suppose.

“Thankyou,” Lily sighed, glad someone finally understood.

(A/N ‘Can't forget about love’ from Return of Jafar, A really hard song to put across…just imagine Sirius following Lily around the school… Its all singing but written normally, does that make sense? Hope so coz here we go!!!)

Sirius looked at his nails, before beginning to walk away. “Forget about that guy…” Lily looked up startled, but brushed passed him.
“Forget about the way you fell into his eyes,” He continued to her retreating back. She paused for a moment…
“Forget about his charms,
Forget about the way he held you in his arms,” He continued, catching up to walk backwards infront of her.
“Walking on air's obnoxious,
The thrill” He taunted as she tried to bat him away.
“The chill,
Don’t make me nauseous”
He smirked, stepping away so she couldn’t hit him anymore.
“And you'll never get enough,
So just forget about love.” He shrugged, Lily flicked her hair over her shoulder, turning away in a huff.

But he kept going. Making it hard to get away. Clearly she was getting annoyed and therefore it was working.
“Forget about romance,
Forget about the way your heart begins to dance,
So you start to blush?
When he's spouting out some sentimental mush.”
He sang, smiling as she did blush and her face began to soften into a dreamy

”It really is revolting.
It's even worse than when you're moulting,
Enough of this fluff!
Just forget about love!”

Lily smiled dreamily, beginning to dance down the hallway. “I had almost forgotten the way it felt…
When he held out his hand for mine,
My heart all a-flutter”

Sirius, followed her walking slowly, “Oh, how I shudder” he said sarcastically.

Lily: “The first time we kissed”

Sirius: “It won't be missed!
Forget about his touch”

Lily: “I can't forget about his touch”

Sirius: “In the scheme of things,
It doesn't matter much”

Lily: “It matters so mu-uch”

Sirius: “You're better on your own
A meal becomes a banquet
When you eat alone”

Lily: ”Hmm-mm-mm-mm”

Both: “Love's filled with compromises”

Sirius: “And don't you hate those big surprises?”

Lily: “A cozy rendezvous”

Sirius: “Oh, please!”

Lily: “Candlelight for two”

Sirius: “Oh, geez!”

“Look you're calling my bluff!” She sang, turning to face him.

“I can't forget about love” She said at the same moment he said;
“Just forget about love!”

Lily smirked. She had to find James. Cheerfully she bounded down the castle steps, spotting James at once.

Running to him she flung her arms around a very shocked James. “I can't forget about my heart”

Sirius rolled his eyes at the confused expression on his friends face. “She can't forget about her heart…” He whispered theatrically, leaning closer to James.

“And how it felt to fall for you right from the start” She continued.

Sirius smirked “Fall from the start?” he sang, nudging James in the side. All James could do was watch the both of them, not quite sure what was going on.

“Whatever we may do”

At this James raised both eyebrows. “Whatever we may do?”

“I promise I’ll be here for you if you are here for me”

James nodded sincerely, “I'll be there” He sand wrapping his arms around Lily.

Sirius looked at them both and began dancing circles around them. “To wish, to want, to wander, To find the sun through rain and thunder”

James: “A cozy rendezvous”

Lily: “Yes, please!”

James: “Candlelight for two”

Sirius: “Oh, geez!”

Lily and James both looked at him, “Enough is enough!” They sang together.

“I guess I was wrong about love!” Sirius finished, leaving James and Lily alone in the middle of the courtyard to sort out whatever they had to…Grinning like a mad man as he heard Lily apologise Sirius brushed his hands together as he walked away. His work here was done, he thought shaking his head. Some people were so predictable.

And so damn slap-able…


Desperado by the Eagles.

Forget About Love from Disney’s Aladdin, Return of Jafar.

And okay chapter 17! yay! now. sorry next chapter may be a while as for the next glorious 3 weeks it is exam time! Yay for us. So while most of you are enjoying the sunshine??? of your holidays think of the poor mid-year exam takers and have patience!!! it will be out as soon as we fininsh and catch up on sleep and such...thanking you!!!!

Chapter 18: Minnie, Will You Be Mine?
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Chapter 18 – Minnie, Will You Be Mine?

Sirius returned to Gryffindor tower to find Holly, Ruby and Remus sitting by the fireplace. “Sirius, where have you been?”

“Helping Lily and James get their mack on!” he stated, pirouetting around the room with his hand over his heart, “Love is such a wonderful thing… isn’t it?” he said sitting next to Holly, pulling her closer to him.

She looked up at him. “Huh?”

Sirius sighed, these people just don’t get the hint, he thought to himself as he shot a knowing glance at Remus, who gasped before silently laughing to himself.

“No way!” he exclaimed through chuckles, Sirius nodded enthusiastically at his friend. “What did you say to her?”

“Wait! Hold it, stop… explain,” Ruby interrupted Sirius and Remus’ little chat.

Sirius looked from Ruby to Holly then clapped his hands together, “Well, you see our young Prongsie declared his love for Lily on that fateful night – “

“What night?”

“After Quidditch,” Remus answered.

Sirius continued, “Yes, after Quidditch. Sending our dear Lily into heart wrenching turmoil! Did she reciprocate these feelings of undying affection… or did she not?” Sirius said dramatically, “It was then that me and Moony, together decided it was time to step in.”

“Sirius, quit being so damn dramatic – “

“Merlin’s ghost I’m so dramatic!” Sirius exclaimed standing up and throwing his arms in the air, just as two pillows came flying at his face. “Fine… aren’t you two boring. We went down to the library to talk to Lily,” he continued in a monotone, Ruby and Holly just rolled their eyes but it was better than the melodramatic love scene from a Mills and Boon classic. Remus was in his chair trying to conceal his laughter. “Anyhoo,” Sirius went on normally, “through some clever twisting of words, she admitted that she loves him, fully reciprocates his feelings,” Sirius said with a school girl giggle pointing at Remus who laughed.

“She does?” the girls asked in unison.

“She does. Then through some excellent reverse psychology by yours truly, she told him. Now they’re downstairs getting their mack on.”


“What the hell are you guys talking about?” The four Gryffindor’s had failed to notice the portrait hole open and James and Lily walk in.

Remus smirked at them, “Sirius was just telling us how he is solely responsible for – “

“Look they’re holding hands!” Sirius interrupted in a mock shy voice.


The six Gryffindor’s had spent the rest of the evening enjoying the fact that they could all, at last, be together as a group. And of course Sirius still believed it was all due to him.

James liked to think differently. “It was all me.” He said, pulling Lily closer. “She couldn’t resist for ever.” He finished with trademark arrogance.

Lily could feel herself blushing but didn’t say anything. Really all she wanted was to talk to James alone. But instead she tried to focus her attention on the conversation around her.

“No really do you realise that this is the first time this year that everyone has been talking to everyone?” Sirius said. “I mean at the start of the year you three hated us and then you weren’t taking to each other, but you two were – “ He said pointing at Lily and James then looking back at Holly and Ruby in turn. “Then something happened so it was all good again but then you two weren’t – “ He said looking at Ruby and Remus this time. “But James and Lily were so cute…but we weren’t, huh Hol? So that made you two not good which lead to, hem, James not being too happy with me… and then Ruby came to her senses – “ he said pausing to smirk as she pulled a face at him, remembering where he was up to he looked at Lily who smiled “And strangely enough you and me became friends and I guess you two did too?” He mused looking between James and Holly. James shrugged barely holding in his laughter, when said like this their year sounded ridiculous. “And now – ” Sirius continued, “Everything is peachy-keen. For once no one is mad at anyone,” Sirius finished triumphantly as everyone began to laugh.

“It has been a strange year, nothing like I expected…” Holly mused aloud.

Sirius grinned at her, stretching out in his seat lazily. “Nah its been exactly like I thought…Mischief, adventures, girls and a bit of homework on the side…occasionally”

“Sirius Black, how you even managed to last til seventh year without being expelled is still a mystery to me.” Lily joked.

“How I managed to do a lot of things has amazed me.”

“Okay then, question for everyone. What in your opinion is the biggest achievement of your Hogwarts days?” Ruby asked.

For a moment everyone looked around at each other. “Well since Ruby asked I say she goes first.” Sirius told her.

“Fine. I would say the friends I have made.”

“Awww!” Groaned James. “That is such a cop-out!”

“Your turn then Pah-rongsie.” Ruby teased.

James groaned again. “Great now I can’t say friends. Ummm… I pass to Remus.”

Lily smacked him on the arm. “You can't Pass!”

“Fine.” James said, Leaning forward looking at Remus and Sirius. “The Marauders Map. And my detention record of course.” He said quietly. All at once people began to talk.

“The what?” Lily, Holly and Ruby asked in unison.

“Damn you! That was mine!” Sirius cried while Remus only laughed.

“You told. You told!” He managed to sputter. James’ looked at him as realisation dawned. After a moment Sirius burst out laughing.

“No way! She will end me!” He cried.

“You have to! Marauders code.” Sirius sang.

“Fine tomorrow at breakfast.” James said with a grin looking at his friends. Two were still laughing but the other three looked extremely confused.

Looking around at them, Sirius and Remus stopped laughing.

“Done now?’ Holly asked.

Sirius nodded happily.

“Awesome.” She said, speaking for her friends too. “Care to explain A; what this map is and B; what James has to do?”

“See I don’t think the map, which is not just any old ordinary map can be just explained.” Remus told them. “To appreciate the wonder of the marauders map one must see it.”

“So? Can we see it?” Lily prompted.

Remus looked at James. James looked at Sirius and Sirius looked at Remus. “Erm..?” He said hesitatingly.

Sirius scratched his head. "Slight problem.”


"It was confiscated." James said. "Our poor map is currently held deep in the depths of the caretakers office."

"So why dont you get it back?" Lily asked.

"Well we thought about it." Remus said.

"And we thought some more." James added.

"And we decided that it could be like a test."

"A test?" Holly asked.

"Yeah. Well we have no use for it but somebody else might."

"Ahh." Ruby said with a nod. "The person who finds it is worthy."

"Uh huh." They agreed.

"That's all well and good but you haven't told us what it is."

James shrugged. "Just a map of Hogwarts. Including every person within it."

"Impressive." Ruby said nodding her head.

"Did you guys do any school related work while you were here?" Holly asked.

They laughed. "We tried to keep it to a minimum." Sirius said. "But moving on, Holly your turn."

“Okay..." She said tapping her chin thoughtfully. "Okay my greatest accomplishment is…is…being noticed.”

“Being noticed?” James asked.

“Did you know who I was before this year?”


“But only because of Lily! No one else did. Therefore my greatest accomplishment is being noticed. And making new friends…”

“Okay then.” Sirius said. “Fair enough. But you are wrong. People did notice you.”

Holly raised her eyebrows but didn’t add anything to his statement. “So you then?” She asked instead.

“Still thinking, so it’s Lily’s turn.”

“Head girl.” She answered quickly.

Sirius snorted. “You are so predictable.” He sighed.

“So what are you proud of?” Lily shot back.

“Ah still thinking. Remus?”

“Sure. Easy question, just being here. Actually going to Hogwarts. I never expected to be able to come here. And to still be here would have to be my biggest accomplishment.”

“Oh, now I feel bad for saying friends!” Ruby joked.

“Now Sirius.” Holly said looking at him. “Your turn. No more people to save you.”

Sirius thought for a moment. “Okay I agree with James, the map, detentions and one more thing I want to say…But am I allowed to tell them about you-know-what?”

James smiled smugly. “Sure you can. If, I say if you join me tomorrow.”

Sirius considered this. “Fine why not. We’ll go out with a bang. But Moony you are helping too.”

“Me? Why must I embarrass myself?” Remus demanded.

“Hush now. The more you talk the less impact this will have.” Sirius said putting a finger to his lips.

“I never agreed to this.” Remus told him, sitting back in his chair.

“Fine. Moony do I have your permission?”

“Yeah sure but I am not embarrassing myself tomorrow.”

“Yes you are.” Sirius said.

“No I am not.”

“Yes you are.”




“Yes you are. You have to. Its-“

“Sirius!” Holly interrupted impatiently.

“See what you did now Moony! Ruined the suspense. All that build up was wasted! I might as well just tell them I am an animagus straight out. No use drawing it out now.”

“No you aren’t.” Lily countered.

“Are you calling me a liar?” Sirius asked.

“Yes.” Lily retorted.

“Well for once you are wrong. Sirius Black, illegal animagus at your service.” He said offering out his hand. “Meet my associate James Potter.”

“You too?” Lily asked swinging around to look at him and ignoring Sirius’ hand. James nodded. “I still don’t believe you.” Lily said crossing her arms stubbornly.

“Well now I am disappointed.” Sirius said, mimicking Lily’s action. “My greatest achievement to date and she doesn’t believe me…do you?” He asked Holly and Ruby who had been quiet though out the conversation.

Holly shrugged. “I’m gonna need proof. But its believable. You are both smart enough to do it I suppose. And it seems like something you would do…”

Ruby frowned. “I believe you.” She said quietly looking around quickly. “You said something like this before…”

“I did?”

Ruby nodded. “You practically said you had been there at a full moon, never asked what you meant at the time but I get it now. Obviously not as humans but animals!” She said proud that she had figured it out. “Awww… I think that was such a sweet thing to do!”

“Ruby? Little hint for the future, no guy likes to be described by the term ‘sweet’.” James told her.

Ruby shrugged indifferently, pulling her knees up to her chin. “Say what you want, James, but its true. All three of you are such a bunch of sweeties.”

“Great.” Sirius muttered.

“Should I understand any of this?” Holly piped up, her hand in the air to get attention.

Lily shook her head. “No I think I get it. Company on a full moon makes it all the more bearable?” She asked. Remus nodded slowly. “And who else could manage to do it but you two?”

“Ohhh.“ Breathed Holly. “What is your animagi form then?” She asked cocking her head to the side thoughtfully. They was about to answer when she interrupted. “No don’t tell me I want to guess.”

“Oooh me first!” Sirius exclaimed bobbing up and down in his seat excitedly.

“Okay give us a hint then.” Lily said thoughtfully. “If you are able to transform into an animal at will would this animal be big or small?”

“Medium.” All three of them answered at once.

“Animagi match your personality right?” Holly asked.

“Yeah.” Ruby mused. “So you’re loud, way too energetic, playful-“

“Ooh! A monkey!?” Holly interrupted looking at Sirius hopefully. James and Remus looked at the expression on his face and burst out laughing.

“A monkey?” He asked as Holly began to laugh too. “I had hoped I come off as a little more intelligent than that!”

“Well then I would say a dolphin or something but fish, water… yeah you get it. Not possible.” Ruby said tapping her chin thoughtfully. “I know! You would have to be-“

“A gorgeous puppy.” Holly finished for her in a baby voice, pinching his cheeks.

Sirius slapped her hands away. “I would prefer to think of myself as Padfoot, ferocious wild dog.” He said standing up and pulling a super hero pose, hands on hips, chin thrust forward and chest puffed out. Just to ruin the effect James and Remus both snorted.

Sirius sat down again and all eyes turned to James.

“But now its easy.” Holly exclaimed. “You just gave us the biggest hint ever!”

“Yeah.” Ruby agreed. “If your names have something to do with you animagi form and James is Prongs then he must be a deer.”

“No.” Lily piped up looking up at James from where she sat leaning against him. “Not just any old deer. You would have to be a stag. The alpha male or something like that. Noble and proud.”

James looked at her. “How did you know that?”

Lily shrugged. “I don’t know. I know you. You don’t seem like just a deer. So we were right?” She said with a yawn.

“Dead on.” Sirius said. “So you believe us yet?”

Lily shrugged again. “Yeah. I can't believe you would, but I believe you. Like I mean, how many rules have you broken to do that? But I do admire you all for it. Shows a strong bond of friendship.”

“Awww.” Sirius cooed. “Now that is sweet.” He said

“And on that thought.“ Remus said standing up. “It’s late and I have to be up for Prongsies performance tomorrow so I am going to bed. Goodnight all!”

“Mmm I agree. “Holly said standing up and offering her hand out to Ruby. “Coming Lily?”

“In a minute.” She said waving them goodnight.

“We’ll leave you two to it then.” Remus said heading towards the boys dorm with Sirius.

“A Noble stag then…Who would have thought it?” Lily said snuggling closer to him. James replied with a small chuckle.

“James?” Lily said suddenly after a moments silence lifting her head to look at him. “I’m sorry.”

James furrowed his brow, idly twirling her hair around his fingers. “What for?”

“Being so stupid.”

“What do you mean.”

Lily sighed. “If I hadn’t been so stupid the last couple of months wouldn’t have happened.”

“Maybe the last couple of months were important in a way.”

Lily frowned, settling back down as she thought about it . “When did you get so wise?”

James laughed. “I told you. I have always been wise, just usually no one listens.”

“We’ve had this conversation before haven’t we?” Lily said quietly, closing her eyes.

“Yeah way back when I was still Potter and you could barely stand me.”

“That seems like such a long time ago.” She murmured sleepily.

“Come on Lils, lets get you to bed.”

Lily shook her head. “I’m not tired.”

“Yes you are. And you have to be bright eyed and bushy tailed for breakfast tomorrow.”

Lily opened her eyes. “What exactly is going to happen at breakfast?”

James smirked. “For that you will just have to wait and see.”


“Ready James?”

“To publicly embarrass myself? Always.” James answered calmly as he continued to eat his cereal. “How ‘bout you two? Still back me up?”

“Of course.” Sirius answered.

“Do I have to?” Remus asked.

James ignored him as he pushed his empty bowl away and stood up. “Ladies and gentlemen. It is time.” He said dramatically making his way to the professor just coming in the door.

“Mr Potter, how can I help you?” Professor McGonagall asked as he stopped in front of her.

James gave her what he thought was his most charming smile, kneeling down infront of her and taking her hand, all while ignoring the laughter and catcalls that erupted around him.

“Mr Potter, what are you-“

(A/N Welcome to the joyous sounds of “Love Scod and Gatesy” by Tripod.)
“Seven years we’ve been together now,” James began.

“Mr Potter!” McGonagall interrupted trying to pull her hand away but James ignored her as he kept singing,

“I was just a larrikin, knocking about
Remember when I broke into Filch’s office,
And tried to steal Mrs. Norris?”

“That was a bad idea.” Chimed in Sirius coming to stand beside James. “But he was naïve.”

James turned to face him. “Come on, it wasn’t that bad an idea! I reckon it would have worked if we’d all worn the cat suits to lure Mrs. Norris out.” He said, forgetting about the song for a second.

“Yeah, right!” Remus snorted quietly from his place at the table.

“I thought those times would never change,” James continued as McGonagall continued to try and shush him. “I thought that I’d be pulling stupid pranks forever.
But now I’ve grown older and I’m more comfortable in my skin,”

“Potter…” McGonagall warned.

James smirked, finally doing as she asked and standing up only to place his hand over his heart dramatically, “All kinds of grown-up feelings start slowly creeping in.”

“You know these guys made me do this coz I really didn’t want to…” Remus drawled boredly.

“Thanks. Shut up!” Sirius said smacking him in the back of the head.

“Moony!” James cried.

Sirius coughed loudly. “Every day…”

James turned back to McGonagall. “Every day with out you Minnie seems a little bit colder,”

“Every day…”

“But when I think about you I’m a little bit bolder.
Maybe the time has come to run away…”

“Oh please leave!” Remus groaned, hiding his head.

“I can't stop thinking of you,
There ain’t no nothing we can't love each other through.”

“’Ain’t no nothing we can't…’ that’s a quadruple negative, well done!” Remus piped up.

“So late at night, when heaven explodes,
And volcanoes start to burn.
I realise the naked truth,
That it’s for you for whom I yearn.”


James smirked. “Oh Minnie, will you be mine?
Minnie, say you will!”

Sirius by now could barely contain his laughter. “Coz Every day…”

“Every day without you seems a little bit colder.

“Every day…”

“When I think about you I’m a little bit bolder.”
Maybe the time has come to run away…”
To run away!” James finished bowing as the great hall erupted in applause.

Even McGonagall looked like she was on the verge of a smile. “Very entertaining Mr Potter now please return to your seat,” She said sternly, before adding, “I think your girlfriend is waiting for you.”

James smirked again, rushing forward to hug her. “Its been a great seven years Minnie.” He said kissing her noisily on the cheek before rushing back to his friends.

Lily looked at him as he sat down. “Should I be worried?”


Love Scod and Gatesy, by Tripod

Chapter 19: Wild as the Wind.
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Chapter 19- Wild as the Wind.

“Know what?” James Potter said to himself, leaning back in his chair. “I have always wondered the point of exams…like we spend a whole seven years building up to a few exams…those few hours determines our whole future and I personally-“

“James?” Lily interrupted.

James stopped staring at the ceiling to look at her, quill poised above her book and a not at all pleased look on her face. “Mmmmm?” He murmured with a cheeky grin.

“I'm trying to read this.” She whispered.

James smiled sheepishly. “Sorry. Guess I’m not the best study partner. But I am right, aren’t I?”

Lily sighed. “How is it you have time to think about all that but you can't concentrate on charms for more than a minute?”

James shrugged. “It’s charms. I can't help it if my mind wanders. Where do you think the others are?”

“Aren’t you at all concerned about the exams?”

James shrugged again. “They are too far away to worry.”

“James! They’re only two weeks away!”

James nodded “That’s right. Two whole weeks! So you wanna go do something else?”

Lily shook her head. “You are amazing you know that?”

“Why thank you.”

“You have the attention span of a three year old.” Lily said swatting him with a piece of rolled up parchment.

“I’ve heard worse compliments.”

Lily could only shake her head again as she picked up her quill to finish her sentence. With a sigh James followed suit.

Less than a minute later he dropped his quill again. “You know what I just realised?”

Lily looked up at him knowing this would not be school related.

“Throughout this whole year you still haven’t been to Hogsmeade with me.” He said triumphantly.

Lily frowned. “I haven’t?”

“Nope.” James said with a shake of his head. “Not once.”

“Interesting. Sooo… does that mean you are asking?” Lily said coyly.

“Do you want me to?” James answered back.

Lily grinned.

“Should I take that as a yes?” James said matching her grin. Lily didn’t answer but leaned closer, an expectant look on her face.

James smirked. “Lily Evans, I am asking one last time, pleading with you. Begging you! For the love of Merlin, please! – Come to Hogsmeade with me?”

Lily laughed. “What would you actually do if I said no?”

“Cry.” James said with a straight face. “What do you say?”

“Yes. Just because it is the last Hogsmeade ever.” She told him shuffling her papers around.

James grinned. “That’s good enough for me!” He cried jumping up on the table. “Attention everyone. I would like to announce – “

“James Potter! Sit down!” Lily commanded.

“ – that,” James continued, “today is one for the history books. Lily Evans has finally – Finally! Said yes!” He concluded raising both hands in the air.

People in the common room looked from him standing on the table to Lily, who was shaking with laughter and currently turning a nice red colour, and burst into applause.

James seeing as it was his moment of glory took a bow. Then another and finally jumped off the table to randomly shake hands and hug his fellow Gryffindor’s.

Lily sat and waited patiently for him to return, in the mean time taking down about half a page of notes from her charms book. He sat down with a satisfied sigh, beaming at her. Leaning forward he kissed her noisily on the cheek before sitting back in his chair.

“So where were we?”

“Page Seventy three.” Lily answered still shaking her head in amusement as James settled back down to study.

The perfect way to cast the patronus charm, Lily read before she heard James sigh. She looked up to see him staring at her, his head resting on one hand.

“What?” Lily asked. James looked startled for a moment. “Why are you staring at me?”

“You’re beautiful, you know that?”

Lily smiled. “Charms.” She said pointedly.

“Right, charms.

Less than a minute later she looked up to see James in exactly the same position as before. “James.” She whined playfully. “This isn’t helping me get any work done.”

“I’m sorry. I can't help it! You are by far more interesting than charms. “You are fascinating to watch work.”

Lily shot him a weird look before returning once more to her homework.

(A/N adapted from Bon Jovi’s song ‘You Had Me From Hello.’)
“As you think, you twirl your hair, absentmindedly
You're insecure about the way you are
But you can't do nothing wrong

To me you look so beautiful when you concentrate like that
Its half past eight its getting late
Yet I know you want to stay.

Sitting here, I’m watching you
Like I have a thousand times
Thinking back it took one breath
One word to change my life

The first time I saw you it felt like nothing else
If I never told you I just want you to know
You had me from hello

When you walk into a crowded room it's like we're all alone
Other people may try to kidnap my attention
You just smile and steal the show

When you came to me and took my hand
And we were dancing slow
To have you in my arms was right, and to whisper way down low…

From the first time I saw you it felt like nothing else
If I never told you I just want you to know
You had me from hello ”

Lily looked up sharply. “Did you say something?”

James shook his head. “Nah, nothing really.” He said with a smile. “Why? Are you trying to distract me?”


As the date for the final Hogsmeade trip approached, the excitement around Hogwarts grew. Most students saw it as a much needed break from revision for exams and as the final trip it was the seventh years nostalgic duty to go.

The six Gryffindor’s made their way slowly down the road to Hogsmeade, they had, of course, paired off but were still walking as a group.

“Well don’t I just feel like the… seventh wheel,” came a cheerful voice from behind them. They all turned to see Wren grinning from ear to ear at her little joke.

“Wrennie!” Sirius exclaimed, rushing over to give her a hug, “I haven’t seen you in ages! What’s been going on kiddo?”

“Oh, you know the normal. Finding everything out about you guys from the grapevine… although in your cases,” Wren pointed at James and Lily as they continued walking, “I knew it would happen eventually.”

“And all thanks to me, isn’t that right Prongsie?” Sirius said putting his arm around James and smiling. James nodded and rolled his eyes.

“Hang on, wait! Sirius it wasn’t all you!” Remus stated. Wren looked from Sirius to Remus then back to Sirius.

“What?" Wren asked.

Holly cleared her throat, “Let’s make this simple – no Sirius, you are not doing the explaining,” she added when Sirius opened his mouth to protest against Holly explaining. Holly ignored him plunging into the twisted tale which Sirius still took full credit for. “Then Sirius – “

“Being the genius I am – “

“Shh! Anyway, Sirius managed to somehow convince Lily to t – “

“Reverse psychology, Holly. I do believe it’s called reverse psychology.”

“Quit interrupting,” Holly playfully swatted Sirius on the arm. “Well this is the end result of Sirius’ so called ‘reverse psychology’.” Holly finished gesturing to James and Lily. James put his arm around a slightly blushing Lily, squeezing her close to him.

“That’s so cute!” Wren squealed, just as they entered Hogsmeade, “Well, I’m meeting some friends at the Three Broomsticks. So I guess I’ll see you all later. Bye!”

“Bye!” They called as they continued to walk.

“So, where do we want t – “

“Well, well, well, what do we have here? Evans finally gave in! Wow, I’m shocked!” Ruby was rudely interrupted by the appearance of Miranda.

“Can’t you just leave us be?” Holly asked, glaring at Miranda. Miranda smiled her sickly sweet smile at Holly before turning to James and Lily.

“I give it a week.” With that she sauntered away down the main street of Hogsmeade.

“She has got to be the biggest bitch ever! I cant stand her.” Holly was fuming, Sirius grabbed her hand to try to calm her down.

“Let’s go get a butterbeer shall we?” Sirius suggested. All six of them made their way to the Three Broomsticks, where they found a booth.

“What can I get you, dears?”

“Rosmerta, my dear,” James began, taking Madame Rosmerta’s hand, “We’ll have the usual.”

Madame Rosmerta took her hand back, “So that’s a butterbeer each and a shot of fire whiskey each for you two gentlemen,” she said pointing at James and Sirius, who nodded enthusiastically.

“Fire whiskey?” Lily glanced over at James questioningly after Madame Rosmerta had gone to get their order, he just smirked and kissed her on the cheek. Their drinks came about a minute later.

The girls watched as James and Sirius clinked their shots, then drank them. Remus, who was used to this by now just shook his head, “Just ‘cause you’re of age…”

Sirius was half way through his butterbeer when he hit himself on the forehead, “Shit! I, err… I’ll be right back… in like ten minutes. I have to go pick something up. See you.” With out another word, he was out the door.

“What was that about?” Holly asked, but received blank looks.


“What is he doing?”

“Holly, we know as much as you… oh my god, he didn’t!” James cried, mouth agape. He, along with Lily, Remus, Ruby and Holly were watching as Sirius rode, that’s right, rode down the street towards them.

“Sirius, what in the name of Merlin is that contraption?” Remus cried as Lily and Ruby looked at Holly. She stood there not knowing what to say. She looked Sirius up and down as he revved the engine of his new motorbike, his face expressionless underneath the aviator shades he wore.

With a nod of his head he gestured for Holly to come closer. Aware that they were beginning to draw a crowd, Holly, with a glance back at her friends moved towards him her hand covering her mouth.

Sirius, never shy of attention, took no notice of the crowd as he whipped off the shades, ran his hand through his hair in true James Potter style and winked at her.

“Hey baby, wanna go for a ride.” He asked in a low voice.

Holly, giggling too much to answer, really didn’t need to be told twice. Taking his glasses from his hand she slipped them on before jumping on behind him and wrapping her arms around his waist. Sirius revved the bike and off they sped down the street, but not for long… sooner than Holly realised they were in the air, flying over Hogwarts.

Holly squealed. “This has to be illegal right?” She yelled over the sound of the engine. Sirius only laughed.

“You’re wild!” She screamed tightening her grip on him.

Sirius turned to grin at her. “Hold on.” He said as he turned midair and began the descent back to the ground.

They landed with a soft thump and a peal of laughter from Holly. Sirius jumped off the bike and Holly swung one leg around so she was facing him.

Flicking the collar of his jacket up he asked, “Do I look like a cool rider?” He whispered in the same low voice.

“I can’t believe you heard that conversation.” Holly laughed. Sirius smirked sliding the glasses from her face carefully and tucking one arm of them into the neck of his shirt.

Holly shook her head pulling him closer. “Say something!” She laughed. “Well?”

Sirius smirked. “Well what?” He said in a low voice his face inches away from hers.

Holly shivered. Sirius seeing this finally cracked a real smile. “You really do go for the dark and mysterious don’t you?”

Holly didn’t know what to say but could feel herself blushing. “So all this to make fun of me?”

“Can’t we think of it as more to impress you?”

Holly laughed again jumping off the bike to wrap her arms around his neck. “You are crazy.” Sirius grinned at her and in one swift motion unhooked her arms from his neck and turned her in a dip.

(A/N: All Shook Up, by Elvis Presley.)
“Oh well I bless my soul
What's wrong with me?” He said releasing her into a spin. With a giggle she sat back on the bike as he began to do the classic Elvis leg wobble.
”I'm itching like a man on a fuzzy tree
My friends say I'm actin' wild as a bug
I'm in love,” He sang pointing at her.
”I'm all shook up
Mm mm oh, oh, yeah, yeah!”

Holly: ”My hands are shaky and my knees are weak
I can't seem to stand on my own two feet
Who do you thank when you have such luck?
I'm in love
I'm all shook up
Mm mm oh, oh, yeah, yeah!”

“Please don't ask me what's on my mind” He sang pulling her back up as they began to (swing?) dance to their song, moves they both somehow knew.
”I'm a little mixed up, but I'm feelin' fine
When I'm near that girl that I love best
My heart beats so it scares me to death!”

She touched my hand what a chill I got
Your lips are like a volcano that's hot
I'm proud to say You’re my buttercup
I'm in love
I'm all shook up”

Holly giggled, joining in: “Mm mm oh, oh, yeah, yeah!”

Both: “My tongue gets tied when I try to speak
My insides shake like a leaf on a tree
There's only one cure for this body of mine
That's to have the girl(guy) that I love so fine!”

You touched my hand what a chill I got
Your lips are like a volcano that's hot
I'm proud to say You’re my buttercup
I'm in love
I'm all shook up
Mm mm oh, oh, yeah, yeah!
Mm mm oh, oh, yeah, yeah!
I’m all shook up!”

Holly laughed as Sirius grabbed her around the waist and swung her in circle.

Just then their friends finally made it to the top of the hill, James in the lead. “Oh my God. That thing is amazing! Can I have a go?” He gasped doubling over to catch his breath.

Lily and Ruby followed Still shaking their heads. “I can't believe you actually went devil in a dark disguise for her!” Lily laughed.

“Oh yeah. He's as wild as the wind.” Holly said pushing him playfully.

“Just call me hell on wheels.” Sirius growled as the four of them laughed.

Remus and James looked at each other. “Huh?!”


“Had me from hello” by Bon Jovi
And “All shook up” By the king.
Dun dun daaaaaaaaaaaa! and that concludes chapter 19. we hope you have enjoyed this chapter bought to you by dirt, because lets face it where would we be without dirt? no really think about it...

Chapter 20: Thank you for the Music.
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Chapter twenty: Thank you for the Music.

NEWT exams passed over Hogwarts as all exams do. With a hint of panic as students tried to memorise years worth of information turning to dread as they realised time was not with them and upon completion, utter relief as each one could be put aside only to begin the process again for the next one.

But this feeling was nothing compared to the feeling when the final “quills down” resonated throughout the great hall. The collective sigh that passed over the student body could possibly be heard outside the hall and if it wasn’t, just to let everyone know it was finally over, the loud cheering started by Sirius black would have definitely been enough.

The last thing the teachers heard as the seventh years exited the great hall was the familiar voices of Sirius Black and James Potter calling all to the party in the Gryffindor tower.

“Why professor,” Dumbledore said as he walked to where McGonagall watched with great amusement. “Are you not going to stop them?” he asked with a twinkle in his eye.

McGonagall shook her head, “I just can't seem to bring myself to do it.”

“Yes it would seem a shame to ruin their celebrations. And I think we can safely assume that nothing will anyway.”

McGonagall chucked. “Never have I had a group of students that I fear I will actually miss as much as this year.” She said wistfully.

Dumbledore laughed. “My dear Minerva are those tears I see?”


I am going to kill him! Lily fumed running up the steps to Gryffindor tower.

Entering through the portrait hole she almost crashed into Ruby who was attempting to clean the common room from last night’s party with Holly’s help. Both were already dressed in their uniform like Lily but there was no sign of the boys.

“Where is he?” She asked.

“Who?” Holly asked innocently, kicking a stray pair of pants across the floor. “What the hell went on here last night?”

“Potter!” Lily growled.

“Ah we woke them about half an hour ago.” Holly said. “But they still haven’t surfaced.”

Lily shook her head weaving her way to their dorm. “He was supposed to meet me half an hour ago. I am going to kill him.” She said, hearing her friends laugh as they went back to talking about the pants owner.

Lily practically kicked the door to their dorm open where it slammed against Remus’ bed. He woke up with a jolt.

“What the-“He cried but stopped as Lily picked up his pillow and hurled it across the room at James.

“Potter!” She screeched as the pillow hit him.

He sat up quickly in his bed, yawned as his eyes adjusted to the light. “Morning Lily.”

Lily smiled sweetly at him. “James, honey. What am I wearing?”

“Uh…Your uniform?”

“Uh huh. And why am I wearing my uniform?”

“Um…” James stuttered squinting to look at her. It was way too early for questions.

“Let me help you out. Today is graduation. Graduation starts at noon. We were supposed to meet with Dumbledore at eleven. And what time is it now?” She asked her voice getting louder as she went on. Turning in a circle in the middle of the room she looked at the three boys all half asleep still. “Don’t worry its only eleven. Thirty. FIVE!” She screeched again as James winced and the others groaned. “Up! Up! Up!” She said clapping her hands as she walked from the room making sure to slam the door on the way out.

Silence fell upon them as no one bothered to move.

“EW!” They heard Ruby scream from the common room. “Pettigrew was pant-less last night!?”

All three of them cracked up laughing. James raised his head just enough to see Peter’s empty bed. “Sounds like Pete had a good night.”

“Uh.” Sirius groaned after it had fallen silent. “How long did she say we had?”

“Twenty-five minutes” James said pulling himself from bed and stumbling in the general direction of the bathroom.

“Twenty five whole minutes?” Sirius murmured closing his eyes again.

“Less now…” Remus said flopping back hard on the mattress. “Where the hell is my pillow?”


It was five to twelve when Lily began to pace the length of the small chamber where the graduates were waiting.

“Lily, stop it!” Ruby exclaimed tired of watching her. “Will you just calm down?”

“Calm? Calm! I can't calm down. I am about to walk into that hall to give the biggest speech of my life and the person who I am supposed to give it with isn’t HERE!” She cried. “I am going to strangle him.”

“Strangle who?” James asked finally making it downstairs in his full uniform. Considering he woke up less that 20 minutes ago that was quite an achievement.

“You.” Lily hissed attempting to get at James to if not strangle him at least give him a good sharp smack. Fortunately for James, Holly and Ruby caught her by an arm each and forced her to sit.

“Breath Lily. Breath.” Holly told her.

“I am still going to kill him.”

“Later if you don’t mind Miss Evans.” McGonagall chortled sweeping through the room. “Line up Please! James, Lily wait with me…Miss Evans where is your hat?”

“My hat?” Lily stammered touching her head frantically.

“Oh stop panicking.” Ruby scolded pushing forward to hand Lily her hat.

Scowling first at Ruby then at James just for good measure Lily jammed her hat on her head taking a deep breath as she heard Dumbledore announce the graduating class.

They forwarded into the hall, which was full of family and friends, after the rest of their class. While everyone else took a seat Lily and James were to walk straight to the front to deliver their speech as head boy and girl. They were to open the ceremony and Dumbledore was to give the final speech.

All Lily could think about as she walked down the length the of the great hall was how long it was. And with every step she could feel herself growing more anxious. Looking across at James she was disgusted at how calm he seemed.

Lily heard herself let out a faint whimper which James must have heard as he grabbed her hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze.

He still had her hand as they stood behind the podium looking out at the sea of people. James let out a low whistle which was heard throughout the hall earning him a small titter of laughter. “Wow, Look at everyone down there.” He mumbled as Lily shuffled her cue cards on the podium. James smiled to himself. Here her speech was written on colour co-ordinated card and his was on the back of an old potions assignment.

“It was seven years ago we all stood here and looked out at the school.” Lily began. “Most of us terrified about the sorting and what we would find in the days ahead. But somehow we survived and became the seventh years we once feared so much.” She finished looking back at James expectantly who was currently searching every pocket of his uniform, at first discreetly but more frantically as he realised that everyone was waiting for him.

“Ah, would you believe that I have lost my part of this speech?” He asked.

“What? I can't – " Lily hissed, James grinned at their audience as he clamped a hand over her mouth.

“Actually most of you would.” He went on. “Those of you who know me anyway. Never been what anyone could consider a model student. But somehow I stand before you as your head boy.” Pausing he looked at Lily who seriously looked like she was about to strangle him. “Sorry folks she’s a little on edge.” He said patting her on the head. “Graduation time and all. But she need not worry.

“Our seven years have been packed with so many memories it would be impossible to share all them all. Every person would have a million different stories of their own but today is one we will all share.

“Today we will leave here with a sense of fulfilment. We come away with friends, knowledge and the experiences that will light the pathway for the rest of our lives. As we embark into the big wide open world we will take the experiences of Hogwarts with us, We will laugh at the situations we once found embarrassing and reminisce over the good times.

“We will think of the friends we made, the love we shared and the enemies we fought. We will remember McGonagall’s stern looks, our love to you Minnie, Dumbledore’s vague and cryptic speeches, napping through history of magic and bribing Slughorn with crystallised pineapple. We will remember the rivalry of Quidditch – Go Gryffindor – Many Hogsmeade visits, pranks and detentions, oh wait that’s just me.” He added with a chuckle. “And a few others. And – what are you doing?” James asked interrupting his own speech to look at Lily. She smiled at him as she tore the last of her cue card in two and shoved it in his hand.

“What he is trying to say is together we started this journey and today, together we finish it. To our teachers, friends and families we owe our thanks. Together you have given us more than an education in magic but an education in life as well. With your wisdom we can now attempt to conquer our dreams whatever they may be. No matter where life takes us we will always have memories of Hogwarts that, hopefully to most, was more than a school but a home too.”

“So heres to friendship.” James added. “The old and the new, to our memories of school and most importantly the future, and whatever is in store.”

“On mine and James’ behalf I would like to say it has been an honour to be your head boy and girl this year. And as we open this ceremony we would like to be the first to say congratulations class of 1977.”

“Thankyou.” They both said together. Smiling as they picked people out of the cheering crowd. James laughed bending down to her height.

“That wasn’t so bad was it?”

Lily laughed too, hugging him. “I’m still going to strangle you.”

Hand in hand they walked back to their seats as Dumbledore and the heads of houses stood to begin the presentation of their certificates.

As the last name was called and Dumbledore stood the hall erupted in one final burst of applause.

“Thank you all for being here today. Just a few words as not to confuse Mr Potter. We have come so far but alas it is time to part. We have all grown so much in so many ways. I send you forth today with hopes that each and every one of you will succeed no matter what you pursue in life. I wish you the wisdom to make the right decisions. Remember happiness can be found even in the darkest of time if only one remembers to turn on the light.

“Now in the true spirit of Hogwarts would you please join me in congratulating the class of 1977.”

With a loud cheer the seventh years stood up and with James and Lily in the lead left the great hall.

Together the Gryffindor’s stood on the steps surveying the large crowd that had spilled out onto the lawns of the school.

“Hey Prongs nice speech.” Sirius joked.

Lily shook her head. “I can't believe you forgot your speech.”

James grinned. “It was worth it to see the look on your face.”

“I am still going to strangle you. But later. I am much too happy at the moment.” She said hugging him. “It’s been a wild year but I can't help like where we are.”

“Yeah and who would have thought it would turn out like this.” Remus mused.

Holly laughed. “Not me.”

“It’s true.” Ruby agreed.

(A/N At the beginning, from Anastasia.)
Lily: We were strangers
James: Starting out on a journey
Holly: Never dreaming
Sirius: What we'd have to go through
Ruby: Now here we are
Remus: And I'm suddenly standing
All: At the beginning with you

Sirius: No one told me
Lily: I was going to find you
Ruby: Unexpected
James: What you did to my heart
Remus: When I lost hope
Holly: You were there to remind me
All: This is the start

Girls: Life is a road
Boys: And I want to keep going
Girls: Love is a river
Boys: I wanna keep flowing
Girls: Life is a road
Boys: Now and forever
All: Wonderful journey

Boys: I'll be there
Girls: When the world stops turning
Boys: I'll be there
Girls: When the storm is through
Boys: In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Ruby: We were strangers
Remus: On a crazy adventure
Holly: Never dreaming
Sirius: How our dreams would come true
Lily: Now here we stand
James: Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Girls: Life is a road
Boys: And I want to keep going
Girls: Love is a river
Boys: I wanna keep flowing
Girls: Life is a road
Boys: Now and forever
All: Wonderful journey

Boys: I'll be there
Girls: When the world stops turning
Boys: I'll be there
Girls: When the storm is through
Boys: In the end I wanna be standing
All: At the beginning with you

Remus: I knew there was somebody somewhere
Ruby: Who could understand the dreams of my heart
Sirius: Now I know our lives will go on
Holly: And with friendships so strong
All: Nothing's gonna tear us apart

Girls: Life is a road
Boys: And I want to keep going
Girls: Love is a river
Boys: I wanna keep flowing
Girls: Life is a road
Boys: Now and forever
All: Wonderful journey

Boys: I'll be there
Girls: When the world stops turning
Boys: I'll be there
Girls: When the storm is through
Boys: In the end I wanna be standing
All: At the beginning with you

Lily: Life is a road and I wanna keep going
James: Love is a river I wanna keep going on....
Both: Starting out on a journey
All: Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is river I wanna keep flowing
James: In the end I wanna be standing
Lily: At the beginning with you…


“One last game of exploding snap just for old time’s sake?” Sirius asked pulling the deck of cards from his trunk.

Everyone gathered round as he tipped the trunk on its side as a table for their game.

“So what are your plans?” Ruby asked throwing a card on the pile and wincing as she waited for it to explode. Lucky for her it didn’t.

“Plans for what?” James asked.

“The future. Life outside Hogwarts.”

“That’s easy. I want to fight in the war. I want to help.”

“Me too.” Lily chimed. “I don’t want our kids to grow up in an unsafe world.”

“Kids?” Remus questioned. “You two have actually talked about that?”

They both nodded. “You’re all invited to the wedding.” James joked.

“Wow. Oh Shot gun best man!” Sirius cried. “And Godfather to the first born!”

“You can't have everything!” Remus cried.

“You didn’t even ask them!” Holly admonished hitting him in the stomach. “You can't just shot gun something like that!”

“Can I?” Sirius asked giving them his best puppy dog eyes.

And they all laughed, launching into a round of ‘do you remembers’ as they passed through the outskirts of London.

Sirius was just finishing his recount of that day after the defence exam in their fifth year when the train pulled into the station. They all sat there for a moment not saying anything.

Remus was the first to stand pulling his trunk from the luggage rack. Slowly the others followed suit.

“Well it’s been fun.” James joked looking out at the station from the steps of the train.

“Yeah.” Lily agreed. “When do you think we will be back here?”

“When you bring the kids of course.” Ruby said with a grin.

“Then of course I will be here. As his godfather.”

“Who says it will be a boy?” Lily demanded

Remus snorted. “Who says you will be godfather?”

“You are both idiots.” James laughed.

Sirius suddenly wrapped his arms around James’ neck pretending to cry. “I just want to be part of you family!”

“Get off me!” James cried pushing Sirius away. Laughing he offered Lily his arm. “Shall we?”

Lily grinned. “We shall.” She responded taking his arm and together they lead the way from the platform one last time. After all would they ever return?


I'm nothing special, in fact I'm a bit of a bore
If I tell a joke, you've probably heard it before
But I have a talent, a wonderful thing
'Cause everyone listens when I start to sing
I'm so grateful and proud
All I want is to sing it out loud

So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

Mother says I was a dancer before I could walk
She says I began to sing long before I could talk
And I've often wondered, how did it all start?
Who found out that nothing can capture a heart
Like a melody can?
Well, whoever it was, I'm a fan

So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

I've been so lucky, I am the girl with golden hair
I wanna sing it out to everybody
What a joy, what a life, what a chance!

So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me.


A/N- TADA! This is it guys. Its over. Last chapter. No sequel. The end. I say done like a dinner.or if you prefer, DONE AND DUSTED! WOOHOO!!! If we knew how to say that in another language (or more to the point spell it) we would but sorry we cannot. We would like to thank faithful readers and reviewers. We love you. And now because its all done we want lotsa reviews! Pretty please??? Coz we asked so nicely. I know its probably not the best chapter but I have never written a ending and I have never written a speech. (I don't do speeches.) And for those of you who aren’t Abba fans the last song is well Abba.

As its usually just me writing these author note thingies, i would like to thank padfootismygod15 whose original idea this story was and somehow exploded into, well, that. hope you liked!