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Star Crossed by RiverFord

Format: Novel
Chapters: 28
Word Count: 79,871
Status: WIP

Rating: Mature
Warnings: Contains profanity, Strong violence, Scenes of a sexual nature, Substance abuse, Sensitive topic/issue/theme

Genres: Horror/Dark, Humor, Romance
Characters: Lupin, A. Longbottom, F. Longbottom, James, Lily, Sirius, Pettigrew, OC
Pairings: Sirius/OC, James/Lily, OC/OC, Remus/OC

First Published: 02/17/2018
Last Chapter: 04/11/2018
Last Updated: 04/11/2018

The darkness threatened to break her, but it turned out she was stronger than even she thought possible.

Chapter 15: Chapter 15

Back at Hogwarts, nothing had changed, and a few weeks later Sirius started dating Claire 'something French' from Ravenclaw. Addy wasn’t surprised, but he had gone back to mostly ignoring her, which honestly had her a bit miffed with him. She had thought they were at least friends by that point.


When Addy woke up on her birthday that year, it was to find no gifts at the end of her bed. She was none too fussed, as she had gone to Hogsmeade the day before with Alice and Marlene. At breakfast she received a customary note from her mother wishing her a happy birthday in her own way and stating Addy was free to buy what she wanted for her birthday, which was nice, but then she went on to say that as she was now fifteen they had started the process of picking a suitable match for her arranged marriage. Her vision blurred to the point she could no longer read and her hands shook suddenly. Addy found it hard to breath and felt trapped. She had to get out. She needed air.


Instinct must have kicked in, since a moment later a sharp wind snapped Addy back to present where she was sat on the front steps of the castle. She looked down at the letter still clutched in her left hand. She smoothed it out and as she finished reading her blood began to boil. She knew Aludra was in for an arranged marriage, but she would have thought that her behavior up to that point would have led them to the conclusion that she was not interested in following that same path. But here they were, trying to sell her off to the highest bidder like livestock. At that point, why did they even bother? Didn't they realize she would never follow through with something like that? She supposed they would have had to have known her. And they clearly didn't know her at all. They had made sure of that. They didn't care about knowing her, knowing what she did and didn't like. They only cared about maintaining their image. Tradition. Doing what was expected of them. What had always been done.


Addy was so filled with rage she wanted to scream and pull at her hair and write back to her parents that they could go to hell. She settled for ripping the letter to pieces and running to the pitch and taking to the air. She flew faster and higher than she had ever before and allowed herself to do something she rarely did: cry. Addy cried the bitter tears of hurt and anger and frustration that had been building in her for so long, reasoning if anyone saw her tears she could blame it on the cold and wind. Though if she were being honest, she couldn't have held it in any longer at that point, even if she had tried. When she finally came down a few hours later she only felt marginally better. She splashed some cold water on her face and trudged back to the castle with a stony expression to drink firewhiskey from the confines of her four-poster.


Addy was in a strop for the next few weeks, being cross with anyone and everyone. She even scoffed at the few Valentines she received and quickly chucked them in the bin. She was in no mood for romance. But she finally calmed down by the end of February, and even agreed to go to Hogsmeade with Christopher Turner, or Kit as he liked to be called, the rather fit, dark skinned, dark eyed, fifth year keeper for the Hufflepuff quidditch team. He caught her eye, after Gryffindor had beat them in a match, to congratulate her on catching the snitch. He seemed incredibly sweet and was definitely cute, so she decided to give it a go when he asked her to be his girlfriend at the Three Broomsticks.


It was a difficult relationship from the start. Kit remained sweet but was also shy, and with Addy also being shy, there was no initiative to be had. Since they were in different years and different houses, they had no classes together, and didn't share a common room. That, coupled with them both having quidditch practice, at separate times, they didn't have a lot of free time together. What little time they did spend together was often awkward, and quiet, and awkward again. They didn't have easy conversation. Addy tried to give Kit hints, signals; he either didn't cotton on, or he didn't have the guts to act on them. Finally, after nearly two months he kissed her. Stiffly. Like everything else, it was awkward. She tried to give the relationship a proper effort, but it just couldn't be helped. There wasn't much there. They kissed a few times. They never held hands. Addy wasn't sure how Kit even felt about her, but when someone else tried to kiss her, and she told him about it, he didn't seem to care at all. She'd say it fizzled out, but that would have to imply there was any sort of fizz to begin with. The strongest feeling Addy had when it came to Kit was annoyance that he had wasted her time.


Addy was terribly saddened by the end of that year, as it meant Alice would be graduating, and she would see her decidedly less. Alice did promise that they would get together as much as they could, though she was going to be starting Auror training, and Addy knew she was going to end up marrying Frank, so she really couldn't fathom when she would have time for her. Regardless, Addy was endlessly grateful that she could consider Alice her mate, and for the time she had already spent with her.  




Once summer holiday had started, Addy snuck away as soon as she could to the park where Kate, Paul, and Ed were just where they always were. Kate jumped up and hugged her while Ed grinned his crooked grin and shouted a greeting, and Paul eyed her up quite obviously before making eye contact and holding her gaze with a look he'd never given her before. Addy realized then what Sirius had told her the previous summer, may have been true. 'Got a motorbike like you wanted?' He nodded. 'Will you give me a ride then?'


Paul smiled. 'Sure, Addy.' She grinned. She loved hearing him say her name. And something unspoken had changed between them. Addy spent the whole day with them, not even bothering to go back for dinner, and when Ed and Kate decided to call it a night, Paul took her on a ride out of the city, where they pulled over to a field and sat under the stars. 'I spent all of last summer trying to work up the nerve to tell you how I fancied you,' Paul murmured. Addy turned to look at him and he stared into her eyes. 'And I wouldn't have thought it possible, but goddamnit, you're even more beautiful now then you were then...and just as wonderful.' She felt her cheeks heat up and thanked Merlin it was dark. 'I don't want to waste another summer not...' He cupped her chin with his hand and leaned toward her, stopping just short of pressing his lips to hers. His breath tingled on her lips and she felt like her mind had gone foggy. Addy bridged the gap between them and Paul sighed into her, moving his hand from her chin to the back of her neck and deepening the kiss. They spent the entire summer going on doubles with Kate and Ed, who had gotten together, to eat or go to muggle movies like Monty Python, or they often split off to be on their own and snog each other senseless. Addy had had dreams about it, but she had never dreamt it could be so good. Though they got on fantastically and thoroughly enjoyed each other, as the summer came to an end they decided that since they wouldn't see each other for another nine months, they would see other people if they wanted, and if they were both still single the following summer and still felt the same way, they would get back together then.


While Addy would miss Paul, all three of them really, she was feeling pretty good about how maturely she felt they had handled things and mentally patting herself on the back when she came home the night of the 31st of August. As she shut the door and was just turning away, she yelped in pain as she was hit in the arm with the same curse she had been previously. She clutched at her arm gingerly as tears of pain welled in her eyes and found the figure of her father glaring down at her in the dark. Aludra was stood on the stairs behind him, her smirk just discernable in the light from the lamps. Clearly, she had told on Addy again, and was quite pleased with herself. Addy was in too much pain to glare at her.


'If I ever find you've so much as thought about going near that filth again, you can count on much worse. Do I make myself clear?'


Addy looked at the floor. 'Yes, father.'  She waited for them to disappear and retreated to her room. Next day none of them spoke to her or even looked her way before Gilly apparated her and Aludra to Platform 9 ¾. Addy dragged her trunk onto the train and stopped just inside the door to pull off her robes as it was an exceptionally hot day in London, when she heard a scoff behind her.


'You're even wearing muggle attire,' Aludra spat. 'You should be proud of your birthright. Instead you defile yourself associating with the filth you do.'


'Merlin's saggy balls! Do you even have your own brain or are you just a mouthpiece at this point?' She scoffed again. 'Wait! I don't care,' Addy said waving her off. 'Don't you have some fellow trouser snakes to find? Or were you planning on running to mummy and daddy and telling them how terrible I'm being again?'


Aludra glared at her. 'I really should. Father told me to keep an eye on you.'


Addy glared right back at her. 'Yes, because shorts are so filthy you really should.'


'I hate you,' Al spat.


'Good! I hate you too! Now leave! You're giving me a headache.' She shot Addy one last glare before she stalked down the corridor away from her. Addy kicked her trunk. 'Fuck, I need a drink,' she muttered.


'I could help you with that.' She started and wheeled around, clutching a hand to her chest.


'Don't do that!'


'Do what?' Sirius smirked.


'Sneak up on me. Merlin knows I've had enough of that lately,' Addy muttered.


He eyed her up. 'When did you get tits Dara?'


She smacked him in the chest with the back of her hand. 'Didn't we talk about you being a prat?'


James grabbed her arm and she winced, yanking it back. 'What the fuck happened?'


'Relax, I catch the snitch with my right hand,' she wiggled her fingers in James's face. 'I can still play just fine.' He scowled.


Remus gripped her arm gingerly by her hand and pulled it in front of his eyes. 'This looks like a curse burn.'


'Did your father do that one too?' Sirius asked.


Addy pressed her lips together and sighed, pulling her arm away. 'Look, I'm fine. Really.' She bent and closed the lid to her trunk before standing up. They were all frowning at her. Even Peter, who was standing silently behind the other three.


'We heard you and your sister,' Remus said.


'Good for you,' she muttered sarcastically.


'She told on you?' James said.


'Again,' Sirius scoffed. 'What happened?'


Addy took a deep breath and looked at him blankly. 'Paul.'


He frowned, his eyes full of concern, and handed her a flask. She took a few deep gulps before handing it back with a small smile. 'You should see Madam Pomfrey when we get to Hogwarts,' Remus said. 'See if she has anything to put on that.'


'I will take that into consideration,' Addy nodded, then caught sight of a flash of gold on his robes and smiled. 'They couldn't have made a better choice for prefect.'


Remus smiled. 'Thank you.'


'I resent that,' Sirius said.


'Do you really?'


He chuckled. 'No.'


Addy found Marlene in a compartment with Mary and Lily and decided to join them. After spending so much time with Marlene last year because of Alice, she felt comfortable around her. And Mary and Lily weren't so bad. Lily had also been named prefect, so she left the compartment after a few moments for some meeting and didn't come back until halfway through the ride as she had stopped to talk with that Snape boy. Honestly, Addy didn't know why she was friends with him at all. He grew increasingly creepy as time went on and had taken up hanging round Avery and Mulciber, which didn't bode well for anyone.


Dorcas Meadows joined them at one point to chat with Marlene, and Addy left for a while to talk to Sam who was sat in a compartment with Arnie and John. She met Wood in the corridor on her way back, who at least tried to hide the fact he was eyeing her up. What had they said about silly boys...? Wood waxed lyrical about needing to find a third chaser and their need to hold trials quickly and how this was his last year to win the quidditch cup. He didn't seem to appreciate Addy reminding him they had won both his fourth and fifth years, as he retorted that it was his only chance as captain. She rolled her eyes at that.