You are viewing a story from

The Unexpected: A Lily and James Story! by Emms16

Format: Novel
Chapters: 36
Word Count: 168,086

Rating: 15+
Warnings: Mild Language

Genres: Romance
Characters: James
Pairings: James/Lily

First Published: 12/13/2002
Last Chapter: 06/19/2003
Last Updated: 08/24/2005


Chapter 15: You Don't even realize do you?



Two days later, James sat miserably between Sirius and Remus during Transfiguration. Lily hadn’t come to any meals, or even classes for the past two and a half days. Of course the teachers understood her absence, and handed her homework over to May to give to her.

He didn’t know what to do. He knew that the dull ache in his chest was because he missed her.

He glanced at her seat next to May’s; of course it was empty. He frowned; she needed to stop this. It was slowly killing her.

“Mr. Potter, you try.” He looked up at the stern face of Professor McGonagall. He looked around the room, for any hint of what they were doing.

Sirius nudged him. He slipped him a paper, which James read hurriedly.

“Change bird into worm.”

James nodded, and lifted up his wand. He changed his bird into a perfect worm.

“Excellent.” She moved to another unsuspecting victim.

Sirius glanced at his friend sideways, and smirked.


“Stuff it Padfoot,” James growled. Sirius just chuckled.

When the bell finally rang, the four Marauders, and May made their way to their next class.

James walked in silence beside Sirius, thinking, until James got an idea. He stepped out in front of May and Sirius, causing them to come to an abrupt halt in front of him.

“Hey May?”

“Hmm?” she asked, looking up at him.

“Can I take Lily’s homework to her tonight?”

Sirius rolled his eyes, and smirked at him.

May’s eyes narrowed slightly. “I suppose,” she said slowly. “I’ll give her homework to you after classes.”

They walked around him, leaving him in the center of the hall with a small smile on his face.

Remus grabbed his arm, sighing, and dragged him to their next class.


After that class, May got Lily’s homework out of her backpack and handed it to James.

“Here, that’s all of it.” May smiled. “Good luck, James,” she said, and took off down the corridor arm in arm with Sirius.

James smiled, and walked behind them, toward Gryffindor Tower with Remus and Peter.

“What are you planning?” Remus asked with a quiet smirk.

“Nothing, I just want to see how she is. I haven’t seen her since that night last week.” He frowned; his gaze falling down to look at her homework that he was carrying.

Remus smiled.

When they reached the portrait hole, James said the password and flew up the stairs toward the girl’s dorm room, without a backward glance.

He pushed passed Cindy and Alicia, who were coming down the stairs in the opposite direction, and shot them a hateful glare.

“Jaaaameesssss! Why are you going up there?” Alicia shot at his back as he hurried passed.

“I believe that’s none of your business,” James said, not turning around.

He skipped the rest of the steps, ignoring the two girls on the stairwell as best he could. He walked to the door labeled girls 7th year.

He knocked twice, and entered when he heard a soft muffled voice say that he could. He quietly entered, stopping to lean against the doorframe to stare at her.

Lily sitting up in her bed, with a large black and white cat curled up snuggly in her lap. Her dark red hair tumbled down her back, contrasting nicely with her dark blue pjs. She was sitting straight up against her headboard, her nose buried in a large book. She looked beautiful. James sighed, watching her for a few more seconds.

“I didn’t know you had a cat,” he said after a moment.

Her head snapped up, as she lowered her book.

“Where’s May?” she asked looking past him.

“She said I could bring you your homework.”


He walked farther into her dimly lit dorm room, and dropped the books on the chair placed by her bed. He sighed, and sat down on the side of her bed.

“Are you ok?” he asked, his blue eyes showing concern, with a hint of relief that she looked all right, besides the fact that she looked like she’d lost a little bit of weight.

“I’ll manage.”

“Are you coming to dinner tonight?”

“No, I don’t think so.” She placed her bookmark on the page she left off on. She flipped her dark red hair over her shoulder, and placed her book on the nightstand. She looked at James.

“Why not?” he asked.

She shrugged. “I’m not hungry.”

“Lily, you need to eat.” said James frowning worriedly.

“I will, but when I’m hungry.” She looked down at her cat, curled up pleasantly in her lap.

“Ok, then, just come to hang out with us, nobody’s seen you for a week, well, besides May, and your dorm mates.” He looked at her bent head.

She kept her gaze fixed on her cat, as she stroked his fur. “I can’t,” she whispered.

“Lily, you can’t do this anymore,” he said quietly.

“Do what?” she asked, looking up at him.

“Shoving people away from you.” She looked at him with large emerald eyes. “Just so you know, it’s not going to work with me,” he said seriously.

“That’s not what I’m doing,” she said quietly, dropping her gaze back to her cat.

“Oh it’s not? Then why won’t you come to classes or dinner?” He sighed, and gazed worriedly at the top of her head. “Lily you’re killing yourself, look at you! You’re all skin and bones!”

Lily glanced at his face, and felt her stomach flip flop, the worry on his face was obvious. Lily was touched by his concern.

She felt a prickling behind her eyes, but she blinked them back, praying they wouldn’t betray her, she struggled to keep her gaze firmly on her cat.

He reached up, and lifted her chin to look at him with his index finger. His crystal blue eyes boar into hers.

“Remember, many people love you, you’re not alone in this.”

“Who?” she croaked.

“What?” James asked, searching her sad green eyes.

Her eyes grew watery.

“Who do I have? Why am I not alone? James, I have no one, my parents are dead, and my sister hates me! I’m a social out cast, and I’m constantly being harassed for no reason!” A tear slid down her face, falling lightly onto his finger.

James stared at her in shock. Was this why she was locking herself away. He reached up and wiped the tears from her cheek with the pad of his thumb.

“Lily, you don’t even realize do you?” He smiled weakly at her. “What about May? She loves you, why do you think she always fights on your behalf?” She watched him as he continued. “What about Sirius and Remus? They love you like a sister.”

There was a long silence where James tried to gather up his courage to say what he was about to say. He looked down at his twisting hands, sighing heavily.

“James?” She touched his upper arm to get him to look back to her.

He kept his head down. When he did begin, his voice came out in a low voice, almost a whisper.

“I love you Lily Evans, but not just like a sister, I love you with my whole heart and soul, doesn’t that count for anything?” He looked up at her, staring into her addictive emerald eyes.

Lily caught her breath in her throat not daring to breathe, her eyes widened in shock.

The silence surrounding the small room stretched.

He searched her eyes for a few minutes, before breaking into a warm smile.

“I love you Lils, and I won’t just go away. I can wait, I’ll wait forever for you, forever and ever. You’re worth it. My whole being depends on you. Without Lily Evans, there is no James Potter. When you’re up here killing yourself, you’re also slowly killing me.”

He reached over to caress her cheek, and she leaned into it, closing her eyes tightly, breathing deeply. ‘Was this a dream?’ She savored the feel of his hand on her cheek.

“I’ll give you all the time you need, I’ll wait forever, but not now, not until your ready,” James finished. Lily opened her eyes, and looked into his deep blue eyes. She could see from the intensity of his gaze that he was telling the truth.

Lily broke into a huge watery smile. “Thank you, James.”

She flung herself into his arms, wrapping her arms around his neck, holding on tightly. He loved her. She had a lot of people that loved her. She just needed time to heal.

James had helped speed up the process, making her realize that she had people that loved her. He helped her realize that she made a difference in their lives, especially his. If she were going to live for anyone, if would be for him.

When they finally pulled apart, James looked at Lily, and smiled.

“So, are you coming to dinner?” he asked hopefully.

“No. Not tonight.”

James frowned.

“But I am coming to class tomorrow.”

James smiled a lopsided grin. “Good.”

He stood up, smiling down at her. He turned, and walked out her door, shutting it softly behind him.

That night, Lily stayed up all night thinking about what he’d said. She thought about the dance. She thought about the kiss, and the feel of his arms around her. The feel of her arms around him. The way her skin tingled when it was in contact with his. The comfort he’d given the night she found out her parents had been killed. She thought about the way he tried to protect her, the way he defended her. It all slowly came into place, the pieces of the puzzle, and she realized that without a doubt, she loved him back. She smiled, but she was somewhat afraid to love, because everytime she loved someone, she ended up getting hurt, should she keep her distance? First with Petunia, then with her Parents.

She sighed heavily, and laid back into her pillows. James said that he’d wait forever, surely he could wait a few days until she cleared her jumble of thoughts. She just wasn’t sure yet, but she was more than sure that she had already fallen in love with James Potter.


James smiled all the way down to dinner. Nothing could cloud his good mood.

“What’s the grin about?” Sirius asked when he walked into the Great Hall.

“I just told Lily that I loved her.” Everyone gaped at him.

“What happened?” Peter asked.

“Well she told me that she thought she was alone, and that she had no one that cared for her anymore…”

There was an outburst of noises at that. He held up his hand as he sat down in his seat, piling food on it, and picking up his fork.

“I told her that she has no idea how many people love her. I named you guys, and then I named myself, I told her that I loved her, and that I would wait forever, which I would, and I told her that I’ll wait until her heart healed some.”

May sighed dreamily, “James, that was really sweet.”

“I only told her the truth,” he said confused.

“Well, you’re really sweet,” May said dreamily.

“Hey what about me, aren’t I sweet?” Sirius pouted.

“Oh, you too,” May added.

James chuckled.


Lily had improved almost back to completely normal. She came to classes, and started to eat again, mostly because James and May forced her to eat in front of them.

Her and James had grown closer than anyone thought possible. They were hardly seen without the other. They could be seen walking down the hall hand in hand, much to the disappointment of the female population of Hogwarts. They could almost read each other’s thoughts, and knew almost everything about the other person.

It was a cold night for March, and James and Lily walked down to the Great Hall for dinner. James sat down next to Sirius, while Lily sat down next to May, and piled some pasta on her plate. As she reached over to grab a large slice of bread, she heard James chuckle. She looked up to see him shake his head amused.

“What?” Lily asked, grinning at him.

“Nothing, I just think it’s funny how much you love pasta. It’s like all you ever eat,” he chuckled.

Lily glared at him. “I eat other things.”

James chuckled, while Lily cracked a smile.

“I do,” Lily said flatly.

Suddenly a ministry owl landed in front of James. He groaned.

“Trying to ruin my good mood?” he muttered.

He unraveled the Daily Profit, as the owl took off.

Lily looked up from her plate as she heard James underlining comment, her smile quickly fading. She watched him closely as he read. She watched as his expression clouded over, and anger and despair filled his face. She also caught a slight hint of helplessness. She watched his movements closely.


James read the article quickly, growing with anger and confusion.


The dark wizard Voldemort has rounded up more followers called deatheaters. Him and his followers like to kill Muggles, or Muggle born, we have informed the Muggle media that there is s mad serial killer on the loose, and to use caution. The ministry has gathered many new aurors to help in the fight to eliminate this mad man. These new Aurors have been put under the command of World Class Auror Harold Potter; together we are hoping that they will dispose of the Dark Lord for good. The job will be highly dangerous, and puts the lives of those involved at risk, but they are willing to do it for the good of the wizarding world. They are true heroes.

James stopped reading. He couldn’t read anymore.


Lily watched his facial expression as he stood up. He crumpled the paper in his fist. His expression unnerved her; he looked confused, helpless, angry, and sad all at once. He stood quickly, and began to walk toward the doors.

“James?” Sirius called after his friend, but he didn’t answer. As James passed a torch, he flung the parchment into the fire, and pushed the front doors open. Lily and Sirius watched as their friend disappeared behind the door that had swung shut behind him.


James stormed out of the castle, and into the darkening night. His father was playing with fire, and James was getting sick of worrying about him. James didn’t know what to do about his father. He really wanted to write to his mom, to see how she was doing. To see what she thinks about what his father was doing.

He sat down on a cold stone bench. The cold seeped into his pants, but he didn’t even flinch at the coldness. He just stared ahead in thought. What was going to happen to his father? If Voldemort found out about him than he would be after him. James’s stomach clenched at the thought. He was putting his mother in danger as well. He was even putting James in danger in a way, if Voldemort feared that he would follow in his father’s footsteps. He put his head down in his hands.

After a few minutes, he felt a small hand on his back, rubbing small soothing circles. He looked up, and smiled. Lily sat there next to him, on the cold bench, wearing only her school robes, braving the cold just for him.

He smiled warmly at her.

She smiled at him uncertainly. He leaned in, and rested his head on her shoulder. She brought her arm around him, and gently began to stroke his hair.

“What’s wrong?”

“My father.”

She looked down at his head. “Your father?”

“Yes, my father.”

“What about your father?” Lily asked softly.

“For one, he’s the World Class Auror Harold Potter,” James said with a hint of bitterness in his voice.

Lily continued to stroke his unruly black hair.

“He was put on the assignment of tracking down Voldemort, and killing him.”

Lily sucked in her breath. She leaned down, and planted a soft kiss on his head.

“Voldemort…” he choked on his words for a moment, “Voldemort, is gaining followers, and is getting stronger. He’s getting stronger. My father’s in severe danger, and now my whole family is.”

Lily rested her head on his, and sighed. She moved her hand from his hair to hug his shoulders closer to her upper body. She looked down at him. She couldn’t help but think he was adorable. She kissed his head again.

“Oh James…” she hugged him closer to her side, whispering softly, “just think how many people your father is protecting, the whole wizarding world, your father’s a hero. I’m sure he’s doing everything he can to protect you and your mother, he loves you both. Don’t worry about it right now, why don’t you write your mother, to talk about all this, or your father to discuss it.”

James nodded, and lifted is head, looking out over the silent grounds. “I know I should. I just don’t want anything to happen to him or my mother.”

Lily smiled, grabbing his hand that was resting in his lap.

“He’s a World Class Auror, if he’s gotten this far already, he’ll be fine.”

James nodded. “I’m not going to worry about it now, I won’t let it.”

Lily smiled weakly, and gave his hand a squeeze.

After a minute of comfortable silence, Lily stood up, and tugged on James’s hand. “Come on Jay, it’s too cold out here, we’re going to freeze.”

“Jay?” he asked smiling.

“Yea, you like it? I thought it was cute,” said Lily shrugging.

James chuckled,“whatever makes you happy.”

Seeing James happy made her happy. She smiled, and tugged harder, she leaned back with all of her weight.

“My God man! Will you get up? How much do you weigh?” she laughed.

James grinned, and stood up. Lily immediately lost her balance from the loss of anchorage. She shrieked, but, with James’s seeker reflexes, he caught her before she fell.

“Why you!” She hit him playfully on the arm. He grinned. “Come on Jay! I’ve got to finish my homework!” she laughed loudly, as a shiver racked through her body from the penetrating cold.

“You always tend to have homework.”

“Yea, so, I like to get things done,” she said, her teeth faintly chattering.

James laughed, and followed Lily into the school. They walked toward the Common Room when an unpleasant sight met them.

“Well, well, well, if it isn’t the mudblood orphan, and James Potter, son of the famous Harold Potter?” Malfoy sneered.

James pushed Lily behind him, shielding her from Malfoy. He drew his wand quickly, and pushed the tip to Malfoy’s throat.

“Got something to say Malfoy? Say it, go-ahead say it! Give me another excuse to harm every bone in you miserable dirty body.”

Malfoy took a step back. “And you call yourself a pureblood! You know Potter; you only reduce yourself by hanging out with that mudblood…” James pushed the wand farther into his throat, “why bother?” Malfoy sneered, and glanced over James’s shoulder, and sneered evilly.

He strutted away, with his head held high.

“What a jerk,” James spat. He looked back at Lily. “Are you alright?”

Lily was a bit shaken up, but other than that she was fine. She nodded shakily.

James wrapped his arm around her shoulders, and brought her closer to his side as they walked. “If you’re sure, if you’re not, I’ll go find the ass hole, and wipe the Great Hall with his ass.”

Lily laughed, “no, James, but thanks.”

James bent down, and kissed her head.

They opened the portrait hole, and stepped into the dimly lit room. Sirius was sitting on the couch, watching Remus and Peter play a game of chess. May was lying with her head on his lap, and he was playing with her hair. Her legs were dangling over the side of the couch.

“That’s a bad move Pete!” Sirius warned, shaking his head.

“Sirius, let them play!” May said annoyed.

“But May, he’s gonna lose.”

“Then let him.”

“Fine,” Sirius huffed.

May reached up behind his head, and pulled it toward hers, for a long kiss, it was something of a tactic to get him in a better mood.

James chuckled, as he sat down in the armchair next to Sirius and May.

Lily came into the common room area, and frowned.

“Where am I supposed to sit?”

“The floor,” Sirius suggested. May laughed.

“Ha Ha,” Lily said.

“You can sit with me Lily flower,” James said from the armchair.

Lily looked at him oddly.

He reached up, pulling her down on his lap.

“There, not so bad,” he grinned. She couldn’t help but grin back. She lifted her legs up underneath her, and on top of James’s, and snuggled into his chest. He wrapped is arms around her, and rested his chin on her head.

The two stayed like that, blissfully unaware that anyone else was in the room, not sleeping or talking, just enjoying the other one’s company.

About an hour or two later, May glanced at her watch, her eyes grew wide.

“My goodness, it’s 11:30! Lils, I’m going to bed, you coming up?” May asked, as she got up from her position with Sirius, she stretched. The common room had been slowly emptying, there were only a few fifth, and sixth years left playing chess in the corner.

Lily looked up tiredly from her position on James. She smiled awkwardly, when she noticed that James had fallen asleep clutching her around her waist.

“Yea, hold on.” Lily gently lifted James’s arm from around her, and rested it on the armrest. May giggled.

“Maybe we should just wake him up?” Sirius suggested, seeing his friend’s predicament.

Lily finally released herself, and was making her way up stairs, when his hand shot out, and grabbed hers. She looked into his intense blue eyes, and melted.

“I’m sorry, I....” James said as he released her wrist.

“I’m just going to bed,” Lily smiled.

“Good night my Lily Flower.” Her heart contract. He’d never called her ‘my Lily Flower.’

She smiled brightly, and planted a quick kiss on his lips, before breezing up the stairs, after May. Yelling ‘night’ over her shoulder.

James sat there in a stunned silence. Until Remus, Sirius and Peter broke into his thoughts, laughing.



Note: They are not technically together, they like each other, ALOT, but Lily’s heart is healing, don’t worry though, it’s closer than you think. (I’m not sure if this is making sense.) Next chapter will be up soon! THANKS FOR REVIEWING! DON’T STOP!!!!!