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Caught In The Fire by DeathCabForCutie

Format: Novel
Chapters: 24
Word Count: 82,143

Rating: 15+
Warnings: Strong Language, Mild Violence, Scenes of a Sexual Nature

Genres: Humor, Action/Adventure, Angst
Characters: Dumbledore, Lupin, Sirius, Lily, James, Narcissa, OC, OtherCanon
Pairings: Sirius/OC, James/Lily, Other Pairing

First Published: 03/25/2009
Last Chapter: 09/18/2010
Last Updated: 09/18/2010

Everyone in the world who has ever dared to love has had that person.


This is the one person who meant more than all the others and made more of an impact than any of the rest. Juliette Paxton, Auror, disowned Pureblood and former Slythern was thought to never have such a person. That was until Sirius Black strutted back into her life.

Chapter 13: Everything We Had

“Hello Sirius.”

Sirius’s mouth dropped open. “You?!”

She smiled at him almost condescendingly. “Yes, me.”

“But …what…how..?!”

“I told you, you knew me.”

His eyes grew dark as they intensified with dislike. If he had known he wouldn’t have spoken to her. Sirius made sure to make this clear in his tone, “So you did it to mess around with me then?”

“I believe it was you that wouldn’t leave me alone.” She pointed out crossing her arms over her Slythern tie.

“…Fine.” He sulked immaturely, annoyed that his anger was his own fault.



Her hair fell into her face as she pulled out some spare parchment and began doodling on the edge of it. Sirius was planning on ignoring her. He would wait until McGonagall gave them an assignment, he would finish it and then he would talk to Remus about James’s eighteenth birthday party. At least that’s what he intended on doing. The one thing about Sirius was if he got a thought in his head it was nearly impossible to get it out.  At that moment he was watching Juliette doodle as McGonagall re-explained the notes from the last class to Alice Prewett. What kept his interest was how beautiful she looked as she concentrated on drawing unusual sketches. Her jet-black hair was sprawled across her parchment, she bit her bottom lip in focus and a small crinkle in her forehead appeared. He began to allow his eyes to wonder and fully gather her appearance. She was about five foot four with clear, smooth, tan skin, a button nose, long neck and thin lips. His curiosity widened when he subtly saw that despite her petite frame she didn’t run small in the bra department.  Going against his better judgment he decided to test the waters. Maybe a fling with a Slythern would be fun.



Turning in his chair he prepared himself on what he should say to her. Before he had the chance she sighed and glanced up at him. “Why are you staring at me?”

“I’m not!” He lied horribly shifting away from her.

“So then you had a particular interest in the mid-section of my blouse for academic purposes?”

Sirius began feeling his cheeks heat up and he didn’t understand what was happening. Why did he feel so hot all of a sudden. “Um… ”

“You’re blushing.” She smiled lightly flashing him her set of flawless white teeth. “Why are you blushing?”

“Ah…” He couldn’t be blushing. He had never blushed in his life. Sirius actively made fun of James every time he did so.  “I don’t blush.”

“Well that’s too bad for you because your entire face looks like a swollen tomato.”

Sirius felt his face grow even hotter until he had to force himself to look away from her. “No it’s not.”

“Look,” She took out a mirror and slid it across the table so it was directly under his face. “You’re blushing.”



Sirius starred at his own striking face and saw that it was a deep shade of crimson. Angry he tossed the mirror back to her and refused to look at her. He couldn’t believe she of all people made him blush. Where was the cocky arrogant punk now? Right from the start he was full of himself and confident. At that moment he couldn’t seem to find the assurance to shoot back a smug line. Juliette Paxton grinned tightly at him as if she knew that she would have this effect on him. This made him furious. She must have slipped him a potion. He was acting completely out of character. Grabbing his quill he ignored McGonagall when she started to speak. Instead Sirius used his linked parchment to send Remus a message.



Sirius: Help!

Remus: What’s wrong?

Sirius: This chick is going to be the death of me!

Remus: Why?



That stopped him. Why was he blushing? He should have moved over and thrown a suggestive line at her but he didn’t. Carefully he lifted his eyes to hers and found her reading. The doodle on the side of her parchment was finished.  He peeked at it and found an oddly shaped drawing of himself and her. The bubble that was connected to her mouth said, “Want to make out sometime?” The bubble outside his mouth was empty and he felt himself smile. Not grin or smirk but genially smile. Though he knew she was reading her book (Wuthering Heights) Sirius suspected she was waiting for him to fill in the space.



Reaching over he got steam back just before he pressed his quill down against the parchment, “Ready when you are sweetheart.”



He waited for her. In about ten minutes she would get out of Astronomy and round the corner. It was weird but he had started to plan his day around their snogging sessions. After seven years at Hogwarts, he’d chased every skirt in the place but there was something different about this one. After the first week he thought it was just the danger element that kept him so interested in this but after snogging only one girl for three weeks he was beginning to see that there was more to it than that. Sirius found himself wanting to take her out. To flaunt her to the whole school and show that she was his and his alone. It was an odd and unfamiliar emotion but as the weeks grew on he began to …like it. How strange it was that all this time he’d been unable to find a girl he could have more than just a good snog with. The only problem was he couldn’t silence all the boys who were after her because they couldn’t know how Sirius felt. Shrugging he leaned against the stone wall bored and slightly tired. So he wouldn’t owl her he worked out for two hours and threw things at James for another three before going to bed.



Yawning he saw her walk up alone. Her dark eyes searched for him as she shifted her wavy hair over her right shoulder. Smirking he grabbed her spun her around and pin her against the cold stone wall.


“Hey,” he smiled devilishly.

She grinned back amusedly. “Hello. How are you?”




Sirius took no time in wasting with meaningless pleasantries. He went in for her lips and he didn’t leave them until they were successively swollen. Then he released her and pressed his cool forehead against hers. She smiled brightly at him as their breathing slowed down. Unsurely moved her hair behind her ear and backed away.



She crossed her arms suspiciously. “Yes?”

“Would you mind or I should say would you like to …you know.”

“No I don’t know Sirius.”

He blushed slightly, much to his own annoyance.

She loved it. Juliette came closer and cupped his face though he was much taller than she was. “Why are you blushing this time?”

“I’m not blushing…All that snogging just made my face warm…” He grumbled furiously.

“What did you want to ask me?”

“If you wanted to…You know do something other than snog…”

Her hands dropped and her eyes narrowed. “I’m not having sex with you Black!”

“No! Not that…Well that would be nice but that’s not what I was talking about.”

“What were you talking about then?”

He scowled at her condescending tone. “I was talking about going on a date.”

“Oh…” She mumbled her hands dropping into her pockets, her face falling slightly.

“I mean…” He started feeling incredibly stupid for even bringing it up. “We don’t have to it was just a suggestion.”

“Oh no! It’s not that I don’t want to go. I was just wondering when we could do that.”

Sirius felt his heart rise and the smile return to his face. “Oh well. I know how to get to Hogsmede when we don’t go for school trips.”

“Okay…” She beamed unsurely before kissing him hard on the lips. “When?”

“What are you doing on Saturday?”

“I guess I’m going out with you.”

“Okay,” Sirius smiled harder before taking her face and bringing it gently to his own. “It’s a date.”



This wasn’t normal. He shouldn’t be this nervous. Sirius had been on dozens of dates before he even referred to himself as a seasoned expert but this wasn’t the same. He knew what kind of person she was and what positions she preferred to make out in but not any of the little details he wanted to know. Like what her favorite; color, food, book, class, season, chocolate, flower and animal were -simple things that if they had met a normal way he would have discovered. Leaning against the wall next to the one eyed witch he waited for her impatiently. His mind began to wonder how many dates she had been on. Over the years he had often seen her with various guys but he was never sure which of them she dated and which were just her friends. Letting out an irritated sigh he let his head rest back on the wall. Peeves came by stopped at the sight of him.



“Oooh Blackhead isn’t at dinner! What mischief do you start?”

“Nothing tonight Peeves but tomorrow night be in Ravenclaw common room.”

Peeves seemed delighted at this thought and moved on. “Blackhead blackhead how he causes trouble wherever he goes! With Loony Lupin, Pothead Potter-“

Sirius stopped listening to Peeves song as a small hand tugged on his sleeve.

“What were you talking to Peeves for?” Juliette questioned confusedly.

“He came by but I sent him off quickly.” He shrugged indifferently.

“So where we going?”

He gave her a blindfold and she gave him a dirty look. “Just trust me.”

“Alright …but if we end up somewhere weird I’m going to kick your ass.”

Sirius tied the blindfold over her eyes, “Got it,” before whispering, “Dissendium,” and climbing have way down. “Okay turn around and walk straight.”

“Sirius…” She began unsurely.

“Trust me.” He repeated again prepared to catch her.

She bit her lip but did as he asked and fell right on top of him. Involuntarily she let out a scream that was silenced the she felt him hold her. “Sirius?!”

“You’re fine,” He laughed heartedly as he went down the stairs. “You’re blind fold will be off in a few minutes.”

“So what are you going to carry me all the way there?” The disbelief in her voice made him want to prove her wrong but he didn’t.

“I could but I’m not going to.” He put her down on the wet floor and grabbed her hand. A weird sensation traveled up his fingertips to his shoulder. Suddenly he became glad she could see or he was sure she’d tease him for the giant grin on his face from just holding her hand. For the rest of the walk she didn’t say a word. No complaining or whining about how her feet hurt, no, ‘are we there yet,’ she just walked alongside him excited for whatever came next.



Finally they made it to the latch underneath honey dukes cellar and Sirius opened it and gave her a boost up. He locked the latch and helped her to her feet easily. Then he took off her blindfold and watched her face light up. She jumped up and hugged him tightly, wrapping her legs around his waist, winding her hands around his back and pressing her face into the back of his neck.



“It’s not that deep,” He snorted obviously pleased with her enthusiastic reaction.

She pulled her face inches away from his, a lock of her hair brushing his face. “I LOVE chocolate.”

“Well let’s get you some then.” He put her down and put out his hand.

“Fine,” She smirked grabbing his hand tightly, “but I pay for my own.”

His eyebrows raised in surprise but he allowed it. “Fine but I still get dinner.”




Intertwining their fingers, they walked up the cellar of honey dukes up to the shop together and started picking out sweets. Sirius went for anything with butterscotch or white chocolate. Juliette went for all the dark chocolate, candy corn and caramels. Within fifteen minutes they each had a bowlful of candies each. The man at the register looked at her in surprise but didn’t say anything as he rang her up. Sirius faintly wondered if he was more curious about how someone so small could eat so much or why she was paying for her own candy. The last did puzzle Sirius; even though he was short on funds he still wouldn’t have minded paying. Normally the girls he went out with didn’t think anything of it and bought as much as they wanted. Next time he wouldn’t let her buy but it meant something to him that she was considerate enough to pay for her own things instead of expecting him to do so.



“Where do you want to go next?” Sirius asked as snow began to fall around them.

“I dunno,” She scrunched her face up in thought. “Want to just wander around the shops?”




Stepping into a girly clothing shop she picked out a few dresses and he put on a face. He hoped she didn’t want to try a lot of them on. She didn’t actually intend for herself to try it on but for him to.



Sirius held the clothes with a blank look on his face. “What am I holding this for you to try on?”

“No,” She snorted, “That is for YOU to try on.”

“Excuse me?”

“Are you chicken?”


Juliette got closer to him and gave him a playful patronizing look. “Are-you-chicken?”

“Call me chicken…one..more…time.” He dared her, his face mere centimeters away from hers.

A fresh smile appeared on her face as she got even closer to him. “Chicken.”



For a moment he just starred at her before snatching one of the dresses and jumping into the dressing room. Sirius caught the sales lady giving Juliette a terrified look but he didn’t care. His arrogance however over powered any ounce of self consciousness he might have and he took off his clothes and pulled on the dress. She must have known his general size because the only thing that didn’t fit was the butt. For a guy he did have a big ass. After a few moments he walked out without any reservations.



“I’ve got to say,” He started with poise, “I probably look better in this then you would.”

She was hysterical. The second he came out she fell to the floor crying because she was laughing so hard. “You really do though.”

He struck a pose which only made her double over more.

“Stttop!” She begged him weakly as she wiped the tears of enjoyment off her cheeks.

“Oh don’t think you’re not next little missy.”




He went over –still clad in his bright bubblegum, knee length party dress- to the lingerie aisle. Sirius browsed for a few minutes until he found a matching black lacy set. It wasn’t overly sluty but it was sluty enough for pay back –not to mention he wouldn’t mind seeing her in it. So he marched right to the changing room and changed back into his t-shirt and loose fitting jeans.



“Yes,” He announced strutting back over to her and handing the hanger over to her. “You.”

“You must be delusional if you think I’m wearing …this...” She muttered in disgust.

He crossed his arms. “Not delusional. Just calling it even, unless you’re chicken.”

“Fine. I’m a big fat chicken! I’m not putting it on.”

Scowling he decided to go another route. “Fine. If I pick something that isn’t lingerie you have to wear it then.”

“…Fine.” She agreed narrowing her eyes in distrust.

Sighing in slight disappointment he just grabbed the first short black dress he could find. “Here go.”

“So Sirius-“ She started as she began to change behind the curtain. “How did you meet Lupin and Potter?”

He sat down on the stairs leading to the changing rooms and furrowed his eyebrows in thought. “I met James on the train ride first year. Remus was in our Transfiguration class…” Sirius broke off to give a quick bark of laugh, “He took notes so determinedly that we started watching him and noticed he sat alone at lunch so we just joined him and that was it.”

“That simple?”

“Yeah,” He paused before clearing his throat uneasily. “Um…what about your friends?”

“Oh well I’ve been friends with Parker forever. We practically grew up together. Nott, Thorn, Lestrange and I have been friends for nearly a decade. I’d always be hanging around them for those stupid boring pureblood parties…Taylor and Angie have been friends with me since the second year. We met in Potions class.”

He frowned, “Oh.”



He couldn’t really get as into her answer as he wanted to. Her friends were his enemies. It was beyond clear that he would never be eye to eye with her when it came to them but he didn’t want to push it. She was polite enough to ask about his friends when it was obvious that she didn’t like them. There was also a part of him that felt like she held back from adding his brother from that list. Sirius wasn’t blind. When he was disowned Regulus and Sirius refused to speak to one another but that didn’t stop Sirius from seeing who he spent his time with. Often he caught him lingering around her and he didn’t like it. Sighing he caught the saleswoman’s unapproving eye. Used to the gesture he just winked at her and turned away.



“Okay if you make fun of me. I’m going to beat you to a pulp.” Juliette warned from behind him.

He rolled his eyes at her empty threat, “Yeah with your t-rex arms….” Sirius’s sentence died out as he saw her.

“What?” She questioned moving over to look at herself in the mirror. “Oh come on it doesn’t look THAT bad!”



Sirius glanced over and saw that the saleswoman was helping a woman find a size that fit her. After that, he didn’t give the lady a second thought. He seized her in his arms, went into the changing room and shut the curtain. Her eyes widened in bewilderment but he didn’t give her time to ask what he was doing. With immediate force he cupped her face with one and with the other one he lifted her up so he could pin her to the wall. A loud gasp escaped her lips as he hovered over her jaw for a moment prior to enveloping his lips with hers. Her reaction was just as fervent as his initiation. They didn’t separate until the saleswoman banged on the wall.



“One to a stall!”



Sirius grinned at that and dropped her to her feet. He took a moment to admire the beauty that had hit him so hard moments ago. The dress fit her perfectly. It accented her slender waist, hips and stomach while showing off her busty chest and athletically tan legs. Her lips were pleasantly puffy as she pushed him out of the dressing room. The look he received when came out from the ladies waiting in line was one of contempt and displeasure. A proud gritty smile came on his face. Jules came out quickly, promptly giving him a kiss on his cheek.



“Let’s go!”

He opened the door for her and gave the saleslady one last wink before taking Jules’s hand. “So tell me something?”


“ What is your favorite color, food, book, class, season, flower and animal?”

She laughed lightly trying to think of all the answers. “Well …dark green, spaghetti, …ah hard one um…I gotta say I’m a sucker for Wuthering Heights as cliqued as it is, class has got to be Transfiguration, season…” Jules let her dark eyes stray from the road for an instant to just watch the snow fall. “Winter, I love snow. It’s pretty in the quiet kind of way….” Her thoughts led her astray until she came back to him, “Sunflower is my favorite flower. Roses are over rated. Animal…You know I’m pretty basic I like cats and everything but I like dogs better. They are just so sweet and honest….”

Sirius beamed at her answers and held her hand tighter. “Oh.”

“What about you? What’s your favorite color, Quidditch team…, class, season, animal and time of day?”

“Brown, …Sadly the Cannons are my team,” He chuckled to himself fake bitterly, “Class it’s a tie I like Transfiguration and Defense about the same. I like fall, leaves are falling and I dunno it looks..nice.”

She snorted at that but said nothing.

“I like the morning, I actually wake up early usually.”

“What about animal?”

He shrugged liking that she caught his subtle side step. “Dog too …I suppose.”

“You suppose?” She teased nudging his side.




They were about to go into the three broomsticks when she stopped him. She wouldn’t look him in the eye but he saw the regret and faded anger in her eyes. “We can’t go in there.”

“Why? No one will be in there.”

Her voice was faint. “My parent’s friend owns the place…”

“Oh.” Sirius couldn’t keep all frustration out of his voice but he didn’t force it. “We can just go somewhere else.””

“Okay…” She bit her lip, “I’m sorry…”

“It’s okay…No really.” He tipped her face up so she had to look into his eyes, “It’s fine.”

She poorly attempted a smile and tried to start walking. “So do you talk to any of your family still?”

This brought a grim smile on his face, “No. I don’t.”




Where was she? His mind raced as he continuously switched from checking his watch to checking the hallway. All break he didn’t hear a thing from her. Not a single peep from her in ten days wasn’t like her. Every day over Christmas break he received a very long letter detailing all the things that she had done that day. The break after he ....he expected to hear from her at least once a day. The fact that she said nothing made him worry that something went wrong. Had her parent’s found out? Did they forbid her from coming back to Hogwarts? Was she in some kind of trouble? And why wasn’t she answering his owls? Was she kidnapped by the circus or something? He didn’t even see her on the platform. They couldn’t make her not go to the last two months of school. She wouldn’t graduate.



A deep breath helped Sirius keep his frantic mind from exploding but didn’t help his nerves any. Pacing fiercely, he finally felt claustrophobic in a ten by eight compartment and had to get out. He didn’t know where he was going but he knew he could stand still any longer. He had to get to her. He had to find her. Passing by the candy cart lady he realized where he was going. It was suicide but he didn’t care. Whatever happened to him didn’t matter all he cared about was her. If that meant he had to ask a Slythern well…. he would have to do it. He would cozy up to a scum sucking, vomit inducing Slythern any day if it meant that he could know where she was. The truth was that he meant everything he had said. Over the years he had a talent for making promises he couldn’t keep but he meant every word he had ever said to her. Pushing his way to the last aisle boldly he set his face. Surely there would be a fight but he was ready. They could beat the shit out of him if they wanted, it didn’t matter.  His rush of adrenaline accelerated as soon as the compartment in question opened. Sirius stopped dead as soon as he saw it was a girl with black hair. His jaw tightened however when she turned and wasn’t Juliette but his dear dear cousin Bellatrix. If it was for anyone else he would have left but he couldn’t leave. This wasn’t something he could let go of.



Bellatrix crossed her arms and for once wasn’t sneering. In fact she looked surprised. “Well I didn’t expect you to come for her.”

“Excuse me?”

“She’s not here.” She told him honestly, “You can look in my fiancée’ compartment if you don’t believe me.”

“Fiancée?” He asked tonelessly.

Her lips curved into an unmistakable smirk of triumph. “I believe you know him, Rodolphus Lestrange.”

“Of course.” Sirius scoffed, “But you don’t know who I’m looking for.”

“Juliette Paxton didn’t get on the train. In fact I doubt that she is returning to Hogwarts at all.”

“Well I’m not looking for her,” He lied easily as he turned to leave.

“But weren’t you?” She smirked blinding him with her bright teeth. “It’s kind of sad really. I never knew you were one to commit to really anything dear cousin let alone a sad pity case like Juliette.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“Don’t you?”

He gave her an odd look. “What are you getting at?”

“Forgive me but were you not engaged to her just three weeks ago?”

“What’s your angle Bella?”

She gave him another painfully bright smile. “No angle. I just thought you should know why she is gone.”

“Do tell since you supposedly know my motivation for everything.” Sirius spat at her hatefully.

“She’s engaged to your brother,” She giggled delightfully. “They are trying to keep it all hushed up but you know how it is with our families…good news gets spread around.”

He let out a short cold laugh before shaking his head and moving around. “I don’t believe you.”

“He’s not here either.” She called to him making him pause in his tracks. “They are making wedding plans before she graduates. I think he’ll be at the castle before we get there though. Just think your own brother marrying the only girl you ever loved….How ironic.”



He never wanted to hit a woman more in that moment than any other time in the rest of his life. Inhaling sharply he curled his fist and kept walking. Her words hung in his head heavy as the gleam from her predator teeth stayed in his mind. Though he wanted so desperately to not let his cousin get under skin he could stop himself from hearing her words. She had intentionally and maliciously sent a shiver of doubt in the trust he had for his and Juliette’s relationship. Moving forward he felt his eyes begin to brim with tears. This wasn’t the end. It couldn’t be. Going into the head’s department he sat next to the window and ignored the curious stares he received from James, Lily, Remus, Peter and Emmeline. Sirius couldn’t let this go. There wasn’t a bone in his body that didn’t want to fight for her. He feared though that they might have gotten to her to the point where nothing he could say would bring her back to him. Rolling his bottom lip over his bottom teeth he formulated a plan. He had to see her. The word of his cousin wasn’t nearly enough. As the train hurdled through the fog and pouring rain one thought endured, she loved him, she said yes. One look at her face would remind him of that and that’s all he really needed.



“Sirius? You okay?”

He closed his eyes and rubbed his forehead. Around him, he felt several worried glances. “I’m fine.”

It was James who spoke. “You sure? You zoned out for about five minutes there.”

“Yeah I’m fine…Just tired.”

“Okay…” James frowned in disbelief giving Lily a worried look.




He had to turn it off. All his feelings and emotions had to be gone. If this mission was going to work he needed to shut it all off.  Every memory every attachment had to be severed now. It would be too painful to hold onto all of it with her only four inches away. Breathing in deeply he saw Lily giving him a tentative smile. Weakly he returned it. This wasn’t the time for a Lily Evans heart to heart. If she wanted to see what was wrong with him she would be waiting for a long time. 



Peter twisted in his chair to at Sirius, “What did Dumbledore tell you?”

“That …ah that I’m working with Paxton.”

Emmeline make a sound of disgust. “I’m sorry Sirius. That sucks.”

Sirius gave her an odd look and lied, “It’s not that bad.”

“I don’t know how you are going to deal with it…She’s so full of herself.  Like it’s a privilege for us to have someone like her to give us help.” She scoffed leaning back in her chair and frowning.

Lily sighed with a torn look on her face, “I have to disagree with you there Em. I think she joined the order to actually help.”

“Lily you’re only saying that.” Emmeline mumbled throwing Lily’s comment out, “You like to see the best in everybody.”

Dorcas raised her nose in agreement. “Yeah she’s really stuck up. Would it kill her to talk to us? We only have to trust her with our lives!”

“She’s a good person,” Alice commented quietly, “She’s just reserved.”

“I don’t like her.” Emmeline declared pursing her lips for effect.



Sirius glanced over and held his tongue. His instinct was to defend her but he couldn’t do that anymore.  Emmeline was a judgmental person.  She was five foot seven with dark raven hair, electric blue eyes and endless legs. At one point Sirius had snogged her put he now remembered cutting it off because of nasty comments she made about a female friend of his. Alice, half-nestled in her husband’s chest was visibly disappointed. Her straight black hair was parted to the side, her thin eyebrows shifted downward as her dark grey eyes filled with distress.  Dorcas’s chair was so close to Emmeline’s, her long blonde hair flowed down on Emmeline’s shoulder.  Rick, who was listening closely from James’s side cleared his throat. His curly dark brown hair stuck up in the back and his voice was low but jagged.



“I don’t think you give her a chance.” Rick told her honestly, “She’s got a good head on her shoulders.”

“Then why won’t she talk to us?” Dorcas challenged again. “We don’t bite!”

He smiled at her sarcastically, “Well with your high opinion of her I can’t see why not.”

Alice nodded, “Seriously did you two ever consider why she’s so guarded? She was disowned for a reason.”

Who says they didn’t have the right idea about her?” Dorcas responded quickly.

“So let me get this straight,” Lily began with a wary smile, “You think that if Death Eater’s don’t want her she must be more evil?”

Emmeline let out a long exaggerated sigh. “That’s not what she’s saying! She’s saying that just because she’s in the order doesn’t mean we should trust her. Nobody knows precisely why she was disowned. Maybe she didn’t chose to be good, maybe she was forced to be a double.”

“Okay that’s enough.” James interjected sending them a dirty look. “Whether she’s satan or not doesn’t matter. Dumbledore trusts her and that’s enough for me. That should be enough for the both of you too.”



They all fell into silence before Dumbledore himself walked in.  Sirius allowed his gaze to drop. The last thing he needed was a searing look from Dumbledore to get him thinking. For the next few minutes he zoned out. All he could see was her face and then he really did see it. She looked livid but he could tell she was trying to hide it. His eyes dropped again to the table and he didn’t listen until he heard his name called.  She rose the same time he did and they walked to the entrance room. Seeing her walk towards him looking empty and lifeless broke what was left of his heart.



He cleared his throat and tried to focus on the task at hand. "We have to break into Malfoy's House."

She unconsciously bit her bottom lip, "And do what?"

Sirius raised his eyebrows in bewilderment at how simple the task was. "We have to get the ingredient's to make a polyjuice potion."

"So DNA....I guess we could grab her brush and his...." She scowled making her face scrunch up adorably, "What would we get of his?"

He shrugged and tried to seem indifferent, "We can figure it out when we get there."

She nodded again and crossed her arms over her chest. "We should go then."

"Um...Yeah...." He offered lamely.

"I ah..."

The anxiety of what she could say made his heart jump into his throat, "What?"

She lifted her lower lip over my teeth and starred at her small feet furiously. "I don't know where they live."

"Oh..." He frowned hating and loving the thought of her having to touch his skin, "You could side along apparate with me."




They walked outside and he moved his arm out a fraction of an inch out cautiously for her to grab onto. Her black wide eyes looked into his searching for something but Sirius was determined to not give it to her. That seemed the right response because she quickly wrapped her small arm around his elbow. For one moment he masochistically let himself enjoy how close she was to him. Then he got a grip and apparated them to the Malfoy’s.

Authors Note:

I'm exhausted. That took me five days to re-write (my computer deleted the first version). For the love of everything Harry Potter PLEEEEEEEEASE REVIEW! I can't tell you how much i look forward to them...It's a bit sad really. I did not edit this so if there's a mistake I appologize. THANK YOU FOR READING! And I hope everyone had a nice thanksgiving break.