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Even In Death by Lunicle

Format: Song fic
Chapters: 1
Word Count: 1,317

Rating: Mature
Warnings: Mild Violence, Sensitive Topic/Issue/Theme, Contains Spoilers

Genres: Horror/Dark, Romance, Angst
Characters: Cho, Cedric
Pairings: Cho/Cedric

First Published: 10/06/2008
Last Chapter: 10/08/2008
Last Updated: 10/08/2008


This is my entry in Acacia’s “Lovers’ Leap” challenge.

We all know that Cho missed Cedric after his death- but just how much did she miss him? This fic is about Cho and Cedric’s prematurely ended romance.

Chapter 1: Even In Death

Author's Note:  This is my entry in Acacia's Lovers' Leap Challenge.  It is my first challenge entry, so tell me what you think.  I went a little outside the box, but hopefully not too far outside what was expected.  Enjoy. 

“Mum, Dad, I’m going out.”

My parents looked at me as if they had just seen a ghost.

“Erm- is it- all right with you?” I asked haltingly.

“Yes, yes, it is, Cho dear,” said my mum hastily. I had known my parents would be happy to let me go anywhere I wanted. After all, I had just spent an entire month not saying more than was necessary and not eating properly; my request to go outside must have seemed like a miracle to them.

“Just mind you’re back for dinner,” said my dad.

That was easy, I thought. They didn’t even ask where I was going. I had thought they would, but I had a lie all ready for that question anyway. I would have told them anything but where I was really going- to see Cedric’s grave.

I stuck out my wand arm, and just as I had planned, the huge, purple Knight Bus popped into being in front of me. The conductor rambled on about something or other, but I was too lost in thoughts of Cedric to be able to do more than just silently hand over my bus fare.

Twenty minutes later, I heard the conductor shout that we had reached Godric’s Hollow, and somewhere through my daydream-ridden consciousness his words broke through. I rose while averting my teary eyes from everyone and stepped off into the sleepy town. 

Give me a reason to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong

I slipped through the kissing gate at the entrance to the cemetery and began stumbling around, searching for the name Diggory. The name I had once girlishly dreamed of having as my last name someday, too.

The graveyard was peaceful; no, not just peaceful, it was… dead. I felt right at home in the deadness. It was the way I longed to be, after all. The way I am, I corrected myself. I was as good as dead this summer from the way Cedric’s death was affecting me.

I continued my blind wandering through the cemetery for several more minutes before I found his grave. My eyes were too flooded with tears to read more than his name, printed coldly there in black lettering.

Not caring about how it would look to any passers-by, I threw myself down on top of where Cedric lay so far below me. The soft, mossy earth encouraged me to stay, to lay my head down and lay there so I would be closer to him in any way I could. 

Moonlight on the soft brown earth
It leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home

I stood up abruptly, feeling a sudden surge of courage, or selfishness.

I knew the raging river that ran through the town of Godric’s Hollow was not too far away, nor was the bridge that stood forty feet above it. I knew that that meant getting to finally be with Cedric again was also not too far away.

I walked slowly but purposefully out of the graveyard and past the memorial. I must have walked two miles, but it didn’t seem to be long before I stood on the little, old-fashioned bridge.

Standing there, I knew it would be harder than I had thought to actually jump. But thinking of Cedric, and only Cedric, I managed to slide one of my feet off the edge of the bridge.

At the same time I completely lost my will to live, I lost my balance. I was now only hanging onto the bridge with both hands. I knew there was no way to go back now, and held onto my thoughts of Cedric, my thoughts that told me why I was doing this. Peace overcame me, and I let go. 

I will stay forever here with you, my love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on

As I fell, a million thoughts flew through my mind. I wondered how I could have been so stupid as to actually have jumped, and I longed for the terrible falling to end so that I could finally be with Cedric again.

But my fall did not end. I had grabbed onto a ledge as I fell- or someone grabbed me- I wanted it to end, not to last longer, but when I saw who had grabbed me, my world divided and everything changed.

“CEDRIC!” I screamed. I had to live if Cedric lived.

“Why did you jump, Cho?” he asked desperately as he tried to pull me up onto the unsturdy rock ledge with him.

“To be with you!”

“HANG ON!” He held onto my hands tightly, and I relished the last few moments I knew we would have together, even as I lived them in terror of what would come next. 

Some say I'm crazy for my love, oh my love [my love]
They don't know you can't leave me, oh my love
But no bonds can hold me from your side, oh
They don't hear you singing to me

“DON’T LET ME DIE HERE!” I sobbed, gripping his hands for all I was worth.

“NO!” he yelled. “You won’t die! We’ll always be together!”

But I felt my hands slipping out of his grip even as he promised we would always be together. Suddenly, I fell out of his grasp, and all I saw as I began my treacherous fall again was the agony on his face and the horrifying sight of him jumping after me.

“NO!” I shrieked, though the words didn’t come out. “YOU CAN’T DO THAT FOR ME!”

But it was too late. All I knew then was black. 

I will stay forever here with you, my love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
And I can't love you, any more than I do

But through the darkness came a blinding light, and all I saw was Cedric, just across the room from me. I knew now that he didn’t lie when he said we would always be together. The part about me living was a lie, but even in death we could see each other, and I could feel good things again.

Just looking at his very alive-looking face made me feel more alive than I had all summer.

“Cedric, where are we?” I asked him, marvelling at the simply beauty of the brightness.

“I don’t know, but we’re both here, and I guess that’s as much as we could hope for,” he said, taking a slow look around where we were.

“I missed you,” I whispered to him.

“I missed you more,” he said, reaching out to hug me.

I will stay forever here with you, my love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
And I can't love you, any more than I do

But just before he held me in his arms, I awoke to find that all I held was my tear-soaked pillow.

Wishing I didn’t fear the pain so much, wishing that I could make my dream come true, I fell back against my mattress and sobbed until the tears could come no more.

People die, but real love is forever

Song credits:  Even in Death by Evanescence, and you may have caught a reference to Bring Me To Life, also by Evanescence.  Oh, and JKR owns the characters. 
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