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Friends or Foe? by Sunny_Hogwarts

Format: Novella
Chapters: 11
Word Count: 19,863
Status: WIP

Rating: 15+
Warnings: Mild Language

Genres: Humor, Romance
Characters: Lupin, Sirius, Lily, James, Lucius, Pettigrew, OC
Pairings: James/Lily, Remus/OC, Sirius/OC

First Published: 02/11/2006
Last Chapter: 07/13/2007
Last Updated: 07/13/2007


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James didn't look too jokey at the moment. He said gently, "Why dont you like me Lily?" This was the first time he hadn't called me 'sweet' or 'angel'. I thought about it and said truthfully, "Its weird, you know? No one has ever really liked me this much before. Its surprising, I guess. I'm a little afraid really." I shocked myself and James by this confession. Over 8,000 reads! OMG I love you all!

Chapter 11: Bathtub Conversations

Disclaimer: I own… Muffins? This plot? Ya?
A/N: No… could this be? Another chapter? Shock horror! So, um, yeah… review! Not much to say, really!

Okay, can I just say that the next morning I had a MAJOR hangover? Waking up with the sunshine stinging my eyes, I was surprised to find myself in the common room with a thumping headache. I didn’t really remember much, except there was this sort of coat of guilt hanging over me.

Rubbing at my eyes groggily, I suddenly sat up dead straight.

Oh God… I had kissed Sirius!  

I jumped to my feet, regretted it as I grabbed my throbbing head, and dashed – no, hobbled – as fast as I could to my dorm in my painful heels. Reaching the staircase, I ripped my shoes off, flung them to the floor and proceeded up to the girls’ bathroom.

Closing the door behind me firmly, I looked at my reflection in disgust.

“What is wrong with you, Lily Evans?” I asked myself out loud, “You look a mess, and…”

You cheated on your boyfriend, I said inwardly.

Scrubbing at my face, I managed to take of the famous Panda Eyes and the rest of my make up. I didn’t look myself today. My eyes were puffy, skin pale and dull, and my hair was a lost cause. I felt like crap. Brushing my teeth thoroughly, I pondered about last night.

I cheated on my boyfriend – what else was there to ponder?
Oh, right, it was his best mate.
Feel that guilt, you stupid girl.

Filling up the bath with hot water, I thought, ‘Poor James. He doesn’t even know that his girlfriend is a whore. Well… at least it wasn’t Snape I kissed or anything…’ I scrunched up my nose at that thought.
With the gigantic bathtub filled with steaming water, I cried, “Stupid girl! You should ruin this sinful dress!” And with that, I jumped in the bath with my dress still on. I know it was a pathetic thing to do, but what else could I do at that moment? I wasn’t going to rip up the dress, and I knew perfectly well that the bath water wouldn’t ruin it so that’s why I did it. I’m not the big rebel I would like to be.

Hearing someone knock at the door, I called, “Come in!” but stayed in the tub. It was kinda fun.
To my surprise, James edged into the steamed up room. He covered his eyes at first, but when he peeked at me and saw me still in my clothing, he dropped his hand and sat on the edge of the bath next to me.

“Lil, what are you doing?” he asked, baffled. I shrugged, not willing to say anything. The guilt was weighing down on me, making it hard to breathe.
“Lily, seriously. Why are you still in your clothes?” he pressed.

I shrugged again, but said, “It’s fun. What else am I going to do, James? I’m turning 17 this year, for god’s sake! I have never sat in a bath with my clothes on before. Isn’t that sad?! All my life and I have never sat in a damn bath with my damn clothes on!” I knew I was rambling, but I couldn’t help myself.

James raised his eyebrows in astonishment and said slowly, “Okaay. Sorry. I didn’t realise that a bath had such an impact on you. Especially with your clothes on.” He picked up a wash cloth and dabbed at my face with it.

Oh God, I wasn’t crying, was I?

I touched my cheeks but felt no tears. James continued to wipe my face with the cloth, lovingly and carefully. I slid down into the bath, feeling my dress pull up, showing my knickers. In my act of guilt, I couldn’t even be bothered to pull my dress down. I knew I was wearing sexy underwear – it was a Ball last night, of course I was going to wear undies like that!

James blushed a tiny bit. I cocked my head to the side and mocked, “What’s this? Blushing? James? Never!” I poked my tongue out while he laughed. “Indeed,” he murmured.

Raising my soaking arms from the bath, I wrapped them around his neck, before wrenching him in to the bath with me. “Woah!” he cried as the water splashed over the sides of the tub. The stupid bath was the size of a small swimming pool, all right? We could both fit perfectly, in case you were thinking that the bath was average sized.

I finally noticed that James was still wearing the clothes he had on from last night. I pulled off his necktie and slung it around my own neck, before kissing him passionately.

After a while, he pulled back, “Hey, what’s all this for, then? Must have been something good!” he laughed. I grimaced inwardly, but said cheerily to him, “Its because I love you!” He suddenly got a weird look on his face, but it was only there momentarily before I got a chance to see what it was.

We sat in the bath together silently, just holding each other. I began to think about what I had said before; I was turning 17 this year. This was my last year at Hogwarts! Well, okay, the school year hadn’t officially started yet but still. What was I going to do after school? I kind of just presumed I’d be a teacher at Hogwarts or a Healer.

Was I going to live back with my parents? What would happen to James and I?

Suddenly, James spoke, “What do you think is going to happen with Voldemort?” I had given no thought at all to this Voldemort person, but all I knew was that he was a guy who went around killing everyone. He gave me the shivers and I didn’t really like talking about it.

But I replied, “I don’t know. I don’t really think about him… he freaks me out a bit. Have there been any big killings lately?”

James looked grave, “Actually, there has. Friends of my parents. And my godmother.”

“… You have a godmother?”

“That’s not the point right now, Lily!” James looked frustrated. He had become stiff. “All of this is happening around us, and what are you doing? You don’t even know about him! What if he attacks at Hogsmade when we’re there? What if you’re hurt? What would I do?”

I was taken aback, he was being really serious.

“I – I don’t know. I’m sorry?” I didn’t know what to say. He was getting really worked up.

“What if you get murdered, Lily?!” He exploded, “What then? Hmm? You’re muggle born and everyone knows that his Death Eaters want to kill all the muggles! What would I do without you?!”

Things were turning scary. “I don’t know James!” I cried, “What do you expect me to say? I’m still a kid – we’re still kids! It’s not our job to fight him!”

James looked stern, “Maybe not this year, but definitely next year. It’s our generation that is going to have to cope with him! Lily, we’re not kids anymore. Voldemort is getting powerful now – tomorrow could be the last!”

“What are you getting at? You want me to mope around and think about how I could die the next day?! Shouldn’t we be focusing on our blessings, our miracles, and our friendships and making them as happy as they can be while we still have the ignorance? What about us? Shouldn’t we be focusing on our relationship, and making it as amazing as we can? It’s just like you said, tomorrow could be the last!” As I finished my speech, a sudden realisation hit me. I was right. I had been so ignorant of this Voldemort guy, so sure that he couldn’t hurt us, so incredibly sure that I didn’t even think about it. I really should be making things as happy as possible!

Well, James didn’t like having his words thrown back at him from a different point. He opened his mouth, but then closed it. Finally he stuttered, “You’re so right. I – I’m sorry. I love you so much.” Before crashing his lips down on mine in one of the most passionate kisses we had shared.

All this talk and kissing still hadn’t taken my mind off Sirius. I had cheated on my boyfriend with Sirius. I’m sure we could claim that we were too drunk to realise what we were doing, but really, the loss of trust would still be there. Not only between James and I, but also between James and Sirius; his best friend.

“James… James, last night…” I couldn’t get the words out. I couldn’t say it. The guilt was too much to express.

Oh, and what about Sally? She’s one of your best friends, Lily! How could you do this to her? You know how much she’s wanted Sirius. You girls have become so close because of the Marauders. It’s so true. If we hadn’t all have been hanging out with our boys, then you would never had hung out with Sally so much and gotten to know how awesome she is! How will she react when she finds out? She’ll be devastated!

Yep, my conscience was kicking in well and truly.

While I was sitting there absolute loathing myself, James had gotten out of the bath and was stripping down to his boxers to dry himself. He rubbed his eyes and ran a hand through his damp hair. I drew in a sharp breath at the sight of him. I was totally intoxicated by him. And I had cheated on him. I am such a bitch. He’s been so sweet to me, even after all these years of me hating him. So pure. Just standing by me. 

“Okay, I snogged Jas at the Ball,” he suddenly blurted.

“You WHAT?!”  

That cheating bastard! How could he do this to me? My own best friend!

Oh… wait… Wow, I’m a total hypocrite.

“Well… I snogged Sirius,” I admitted quietly. A look of shock crossed his face, but then he began to laugh. "What’s so funny?” I demanded, “We’ve both cheated on each other and now you’re laughing about it!”

James continued to laugh, “No, it’s just… Don’t you think it’s funny? I’ve been feeling so guilty, and thinking to myself that you were so pure, just standing by me and by kissing your best friend, you would hate me forever. But you’ve done the same thing, so I guess you’re not so pure after all!”

My jaw dropped. Me? Impure? Excuse me?

I mean… I guess it was kinda true… but still!

Grabbing me by my arms, James heaved me out of the bath. Grumbling, I pulled off my dress so I was just down to my knickers and lacy bra. “Still, can’t believe you cheated on me…” I mumbled. Snatching the towel from his hands, I began to dry myself. Stupid… James. Stupid little James. Saying I was impure. What the hell? I’m incredibly pure!

Okay, Lily shut up. You hypocrite.                           

Wrapping the towel around me, I took James’s hand and led him out of the bathroom. As we reached the stairs, he started shivering, finally realising how could it was. So, without a word, I just sighed, took his hand again, and brought him into my dorm where it was warmer.

Pushing him down onto my bed, I said sternly, “Stay. I’m going to get dressed.”
 “Can’t I come watch?” James whined. I shot him another stern look and he clasped his hands and remained on the bed.

Quickly, I threw on a pair of comfy jeans and a powder blue sweater. Jamming my feet into my fluffy slippers, I made my way back to my bed where James was still sitting, with Muffins curled up in his lap.

Sure, I still felt guilty about last night. I had no idea whether Sirius was going to tell Sally or not. If he does, Sally will be so totally psycho at me. After she chucks a spaz at Sirius of course.

I’ll just have to deal with that when the time comes.

I glanced at my clock next to my bed, which read 6.00AM. Sighing, I sank down next to James on my bed and rested my head on his shoulder. It was going to be a long day.

A/N: Hope you liked this chapter, I kind of made Lily and James more open with and about each other. The next chapter will, obviously, be that ‘long day’ with confrontations and chucking spaz’s. Reading over my other chapters, I find that I don’t really like many of them. They seem childish for 16 year olds. So, I guess I’m making it slightly more darker with the whole Voldemort thing. I know, I know, they don’t act like 16 year olds at all – but what can I say? Not being 16 myself, I’m not an expert on how they should act. Plus, like I’ve said before I’m sure, I don’t want it to be too raunchy (not a good word for it though…) because I want younger (well, not younger - all ages) people to be able to enjoy it too.

Yes, I’m aware that before I was all like ‘Yes, I’m gonna update more quickly’ etc. and I KNOW I haven’t. Trust me, I feel bad. Please bare with me, I’ll try my best.
I think I got writer’s block or some crap because I could just never come up with anything for a new chapter. Completely blank. So, yes, I apologise greatly! Don’t think that from this A/N I’m becoming all mature. I’m just so damn tired. What with it being 2:47AM and all.

I think I’ll go to sleep now. I have 3 hours of dance tomorrow. Today. Whatever.
Please, pretty, pretty please review on this chapter. I SWEAR that I will try and get another chapter following this one as soon as possible. It’s the holidays, so I have the time.
Bye bye my lovelies, xo.