Chapter 19 : Chapter 37
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It's two o'clock in the morning and once again I can't sleep. I don't want to wake Isa so I'm out walking in the gardens. Looks like I'm not the only one that can't sleep. I walk up to the main house to find James in the kitchen. "Can't sleep either huh?" I say sitting down next to James. "Any hot water left?"
"Yeah. I'll get you some hot chocolate."
"Thanks James. I haven't gotten a bit of sleep tonight."
"I've gotten some, but none that's any good. Why can't you sleep?"
"This is why." I said handing him the box in my pocket. "I was gonna ask her tonight. I know that by marrying her she'll become an outcast, but James I love her so much. I could have made her happy. And she loves me. She really loves me. I'm a big part of the reason she's moving out I just know it."
"Did she tell you that?"
"No, but I could see it in her eyes. What do I do James? Do I just let her go? Do I still ask her?"
"Remus you know what you have to do. You have to let her go at least for now. She needs her space."
"Maybe your right James, but I'm terrified that if she moves out then I'll never get another chance to show her how much I love her. I really screwed up James. We went out on a date."
"I think I need a real drink. You want one?"
"Yeah I'll take a firewhiskey. Thanks," I said as James handed me a glass. "Like I was saying we went on a date. It went great. She was so beautiful and smart. We had an amazing time. After she went to bed I got to thinking and you know what happens when I over think things."
"Let me guess you told her that you guys couldn't be together because of your furry little problem?"
"Yeah pretty much. I made her cry. Not once, but twice. What am I going to do James?"
"You're going to pull your head out of your ass and your going to talk to her. You're going to tell her you love her and you're going to let her move into the new place. And if it's right you'll get another chance with her."
"Merlin's pants I'm gonna lose her. I can't lose her James."
"I know how you feel Remus." James said looking towards the stairs. "I feel the same way about Lily. How long did it take me to even get a date with her? Just have some patience and a whole lot of faith."
"I guess you're right James. Go get some sleep I'm gonna head to bed. I'll see you in the morning."
Instead of going straight to sleep I spent some more time wandering in the gardens. There's no moon tonight which makes it easier to be outside at night. With Sirius and Peter coming home tomorrow I should probably get some sleep. It's going to be a long and crazy night. I walked into the living room to find another one of us unable to sleep.
"It seems like insomnia is running rampant tonight."
"I guess so. Who else is up?"
"James just went to bed."
There was one of those awkward pauses, the kind that makes everyone in the room feel uncomfortable. "Remus am I doing the right thing?"
"Isabella Marie Jones I have known you for the majority of my life. I have loved you for nearly as long as I've known you. I want more then anything for you to be happy. If you need to move out to be truly happy then that's what you do. We'll still love you no matter where you live." I said lying through my teeth. It broke my heart in a million pieces to tell her to go. But it's the right thing to do. James is right if she wants to go then who am I to stop her.
"Don't, just don't."I said pulling her to me.
"You're the only one that could convince me not to go. All you would have to do is ask."
"Don't go Isa. Don't leave me. Stay here with me. With all of us. Stay here and marry me."
"Marry. Marry you? Remus I...I don't. I'm sorry I have to. I have to go."
Well folks another chapter has come to an end. Can you believe Remus? How is Isabella going to react? Keep reading to find out.
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