A/N (at the beginning of the chapter this is weird): There is some mature content here. No explicit scenes or smut, just some talk about virginity and character’s sleeping around. Just a warning to those who don't like that sort of thing.
"Scorpius, Addison!" Astoria yelled from downstairs. "You two ready?"
"Hold on!" I yelled down, pushing the Wotters’ presents into my bag. I was surprised that just by buying Al and Hugo presents caused me to need more space in my bag. Normally, I just buy Rose, James, Lily and their parents presents and they all fit fine in my bag.
But for whatever reason, Al and Hugo's gifts were causing issues.
Once they both fit (I had to put a shrinking charm on James's gift. Go illegal magic!), I slung my backpack over my shoulder and ran downstairs, pulling my sweatshirt over my head as I did.
"Okay, I'm ready," I said, standing in front of the fireplace. "Where's Scorp?"
Astoria sighed and looked up the stairs. "Still getting ready. He's going to the Potter's for one night, what could possibly be taking him so long?"
"He seems to be making a habit of not being ready on time," Draco said.
"Yes, I wonder where he got that from," Astoria teased.
"Not from me," Draco said, wrapping around her waist. "No idea where that came from."
"You two aren't going to start making out, are you?" I asked. "Because it was really disturbing when you did that."
"You mean before the end of summer party?" Astoria asked.
"Yes," I said.
"We were waiting for Scorp then too!" Draco said.
"And that was when Albus and Addison got into that huge fight!" Astoria said, looking at me and smiling. "Oh, how things have changed."
Astoria and Draco grinned knowingly down at me.
"Um," I said, feeling very uncomfortable. "Yeah."
"What exactly is going on with you and Albus, anyway?" Draco said.
I sighed, remembering what happened on the train with the fangirls.
Fucking fangirls ruining my blissful, non relationship-relationship.
"We're not dating if that's what you’re asking," I said.
"Well, it's only a matter of time," Draco said.
"Right," I said, not wanting to talk about my nonexistent relationship status.
"I'm here," Scorpius said, walking into the room, his bag slung over his shoulder.
"Finally," I commented.
Scorp glared at me.
I stuck my tongue out at him.
"Okay, stop acting like you're five," Astoria said.
"Oh Merlin Ads."
We both flooed over to Potter's, since Rose lived right next door, I could just walk over.
"Scorp!" I heard a female voice say. Scorpius was engulfed in a hug by a small redhead that I first thought was Rose.
I nearly peed in happiness until I saw it was Lily.
"And Addie!" Lily said, coming and hugging me.
"Hi Lily," I said, hugging her back. "Where's the family?"
"Parents are at some Ministry event, James is out with Annalise and Al will be down soon," Lily said, letting go of me. "He wanted to take a shower before you got here."
At the idea of seeing Al, my heart fluttered and I became nervous. I didn't mean to, and certainly didn't intend to, but I was avoiding him. I was still irrationally upset about the whole dating thing. He didn't know what I wanted. Hell, I was perfectly happy with what we were until the fangirls made me doubt it.
"I should go, I promised Rose that I would go shopping with her," I said and Scorpius frowned at me.
"Rose hates shopping," he said.
"Um, she's trying something new," I lied and I saw Scorp's frown deepen. "She's all about new things now. Anyway, we have to be back at the Manor by eleven tomorrow for Christmas, so I should head over to Roses now. She wants to hit all the Christmas Eve sales."
Lily and Scorpius both looked at me, expressions of disbelief on their faces.
"So yeah," I said, inching toward the door. "I'll just be going. Tell your parents Happy Christmas, Lily."
"Okay," Lily said, confused at my sudden departure.
I walked swiftly out of the kitchen door to the side yard. I made my way to the front of the house and was almost off of Potter property when I heard, "Oi! Addie!"
I turned and saw Scorpius coming over toward me, a frown on his face.
"What the hell was that?" He asked when he got close to me. "And don't say it was nothing, because I knew you were lying back there. Rose doesn't want to go shopping, even if she was trying new things, you'd still have to drag her kicking and screaming. So what's wrong? Why did you run out of there?"
I was silent, trying to think if something that was believable.
I got nothing.
Scorpius sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "You're not going to tell me? Fine I'll guess."
"Good luck with that," I said quietly.
"You secretly hate Lily."
I raised my eyebrow at him and dropped my backpack on the ground, figuring that this could be a while.
"Thought not," he said, thinking. I pulled my sweatshirt closer trying to keep myself warm, in the December chill. "You...hate...the Potters?"
"Shut up. You're...you're in love with James?"
"Are you fucking me?"
"Good. Al would be pissed," Scorpius said. He appeared to have a sudden realization. "You're avoiding Al."
Not a question this time.
I bit my lip. "I'm not trying to."
"Why are you avoiding him in the first place?" Scorpius asked. "Don't tell me you're still upset about the whole fangirl thing."
"I don't want to be," I said truthfully. "But I am."
"I don't know!" I said. "All I know is, I'm upset about it."
"So because he wasn't able to read your mind and he told the truth, you're upset?" Scorpius asked.
"Stupid as it is, yes," I said. "I don't want to be. I was happy with what we had before that. But now, it just...it just seems like we're just hooking up and that I mean nothing to him."
"That's not true," Scorpius said quietly.
"I know." I sighed. "But I'm upset and I tend to do and say dumb things when I'm upset. So I'm avoiding him so that I don't make this situation worse by doing something stupid."
"Because avoiding him won't do that," Scorpius said sarcastically.
"It's not smart, I know," I said. "If it helps, I hate all this passive aggressive stuff."
"Then stop being passive aggressive and fix the problem," Scorpius said firmly. "If you want to be with someone, you have to work with the other person and forgive them for their mistakes."
I looked up at him pointedly. "So when are you talking to Rose, then?"
"Its different, Ads," Scorpius said quietly.
"No its not," I insisted. "You care about her, I know you do. And she cares about you too. You guys want to be together."
"She can't take back what she said," Scorpius said.
"But she didn't mean it, she was mad-"
"Ads, you've told me all this before," he said.
"I just don't get it," I said softly. "You two want to be with each other. So why can't you just talk about it?"
"We're not you and Al, we don't fight like that," Scorp said. "I want to be with her-"
"So talk to her!"
"But I don't know how we could move past it."
I studied him. He was looking away, his eyes downcast. His mouth was turned downward and he just looked tired and hurt.
"Scorp," I said. "You two could work it out. I know you could."
Scorp smiled slightly. "I come out here to yell at you and somehow we end up talking about my messy love life." He shook his head. "I don't think we'll work this out. But you and Al, you guys can work your issue out."
"We don't have an issue-"
I turned my head and saw Rose standing outside of her house, her purse over her shoulder and looking like she just came from a date. She looked cute, a stylish winter coat and her hair up in a high pony -she was even wearing make up.
I could tell that Scorpius noticed that she looked like she put effort in. Which she only did to impress people.
Normally, the only person she was trying to impress was Scorpius.
"Hey Rosie," I said walking over and hugging her.
"Hey, I thought I heard your voice," she said. She looked at Scorpius and bit her lip. "Hey Scorp."
Scorpius nodded and Rose looked at him, begging him to sat more.
But he didn't.
"I need to get my bag," I said and Rose pulled her puppy eyes off of Scorpius. "Just wait here for a second."
Rose nodded and I turned back to Scorpius. I walked over and grabbed my bag off the ground before looking at Scorpius.
"I'll talk to Al if you talk to her," I said.
"No buts," I said. "When you talk to Rose, I'll talk to Albus."
I turned away before he could say anything.
"Hey Rosie," I said, linking my arm with hers. "Why do you look so nice?"
"Went out to get a book," she mumbled before looking back at Scorpius, who was retreating back to the Potters’. "He's really not speaking to me isn't he?"
"He's just being a stubborn prick," I said, pulling the front door open.
"No he's not," Rose said leading me inside. "I shouldn't have said that."
"Let's not talk about it, okay?" I said, dropping my stuff on the kitchen floor. "It's Christmas Eve for Merlin's sake!"
"You're right," Rose sighed getting some hot coco for us.
"Of course I am," I said. "Why do you look so cute, anyway?"
"You'll think I'm dumb," she said.
"Rose, I could never think you were dumb," I said. "Now spill. Did you have a hot date?"
Rose gave me a ridiculous look as she sat down. "Yeah, because I'm not still totally crazy about your cousin."
"Okay," I said. "I guess it wasn't a date."
"No," Rose said quietly. "I knew you guys were coming about now, you've come at noon for the past five years, so I guessed this year wouldn’t be different. I needed to walk down and get a book from the village anyway, but I decided that if I looked really cute and just happened to be coming back from getting it, then maybe, just maybe, Scorpius would talk to me." She fiddled with her cup. "Like I said it was stupid."
"No it wasn't," I said. "You fancy the bloke. Trust me, there are girls who do worse than that for the guy they fancy."
"But he doesn't want to speak to me, hell he can barely look at me! I crossed a line by saying that," Rose said, sighing. "I've tried apologizing because right after I said it, after I told him to never speak to me again, I regretted it. I wanted to speak to him. I figured that we would end up speaking to each other, but every time I got close to him at school, he'd either ignore me or walk off in the other direction. I've written him a few letters explaining how sorry I am but he hasn't responded. I thought that maybe, if he saw me looking good then he'd talk to me. He'd see that maybe I'm worth it."
"Oh Rose, of course you're worth it," I said, laying a comforting hand on her arm. "He's just hurt right now. You need to talk to him."
"I can't," Rose said and I nearly screamed in frustration.
Why can't these people just talk to each other? Just talk to each other, shit, even yell at each other, make the other want to pull their hair out but just solve the fucking problem.
I ignored the logical part of my brain telling me to take my own advice.
I enjoy being a hypocrite, logic, back off.
"It's not that I can't talk to him, I know what I would say to him," she said. "It's more that I doubt he'd let me."
"Yeah well Scorpius is an idiot," I said and Rose smiled slightly.
"Nah," she said. "He may have his moments, but he's not an idiot."
"Rose," I said. "If he lets you get away, he's an idiot."
Rose looked out the window, but I see the small glimmer of hope in her eyes that he wouldn't let her get away.
Not that she wanted to leave anyway.
Like shopping, you'd have to pull her kicking and screaming.
"You got Hugo a gift?"
"Yes Rose, I got Hugo a gift."
"Because it's Christmas!"
"I know but you've been coming here since first year and you've never gotten him a gift before."
"Well I realized that was rude of me."
"No it wasn't! He didn't say anything to you!"
"Yes, well now we're on the same Quidditch team!"
"So you normally get everyone on the team gifts?"
"Then why haven't you gotten Al a gift for the last five years?"
"Al was a git. He didn't deserve a gift."
"They bloke was crazy about you!"
"He insulted me constantly."
"Again, the bloke was crazy about you!"
I shook my head, smiling, and continued putting presents under the Weasley's tree.
"How many presents did you get for people?" Rose asked, sitting in her dad's armchair.
"I got presents for you, Alice, Louis, Albus, James, Lily, Hugo, Scorp, Freddy, Dominique, your parents, Al's parents, and Scorp's parents." I put her gift under the tree.
"Is that mine?" She asked, pointing at it.
I nodded. "But not peeking until tomorrow!"
"Well duh," she said, rolling her eyes. "What'd you get Al?"
"Um," I said, because I was nervous about his gift. I wasn't really sure if he would like it. I zipped up my bag so I wouldn't have to stare at it. "I'm not sure he'll like it. But I'm hoping he will."
Really, really hoping he will.
"Tell me what it is," she said. "I'll tell you if he likes it."
I bit my lip and told her.
She looked at me, her eyes wide.
"Do you think he'll like it?" I asked.
Rose nodded. "He's going to love it. So much."
"Good," I said smiling.
"What’s going on with you two?" She asked. "He told me that you've been weird since the train ride home and that you haven't written him at all. He thought that maybe you were too busy to write, but then he saw that you wrote me. So he is really confused as to why you're mad at him."
"I'm not mad at him!" I said. "Merlin, can't a girl just not write or see someone and not have it be a big deal?"
"But the two of you are practically dating-"
"But we're not dating!" I said. "Just because we both fancy each other, doesn't mean we're dating. I have no obligation to write him or see him if I don't feel like it."
"Ads, the bloke cares about you, a lot," Rose said. "Don't screw around with his feelings."
"I'm not!" I cried. "Look, I'm upset about something I shouldn't be upset about and I'm worried that if I talk to him, I'll say something I regret. I know he cares about me and I care about him too. I'm not going to screw it up."
"Good," she said. She looked down at her hands. "He's waited a long time for this. And I know what it's like to wait for something and not get it because something went wrong." Rose sighed. "And it sucks when you have no idea what went wrong, but before you know it, you're yelling at each other and you say something that you would never, ever say and suddenly you ruined everything."
"Rose, it's okay," I said, trying to comfort her. Our agreement to not talk about Scorpius or what happened between them was going well until now.
"No it's not," she insisted. "I don't associate Scorpius with Death Eaters. He's nothing like them. He's honestly the sweetest guy I ever met. And I know that he has worked so hard to get away from that image, how hard his entire family has had to work so that they aren't associated with that. And I knew that someone bringing that up was his deal breaker. I don't think of him like that, I really don't. I think he's funny and smart and sweet and just an amazing guy, nothing like the Death Eaters. I don't know why I said it, I was just so mad at him. He took me to the bloody post office and then asked me if wanted to go to Madame Puddifoots- Madame Fucking Puddifoots, where we agreed we wouldn't go- and I just lost it. I was so mad, so upset that this was the date that I had waited for. And then I started yelling that maybe a ditz like Melanie would want to go there but I didn't. And then I stomped off, walked up to Gryffindor and...well you know the rest." She looked at the ground. "The point is, I know what it's like to wait for something and not have it happen. And I don't want Al to have to deal with that, especially since he was already such an idiot for the past few years."
I looked at her, slightly in awe of all I just heard. "You...you really like Scorpius don't you?"
"Yeah," she said quietly. "I really do. But it doesn't matter. I screwed it up between us because I lost my Weasley temper. It's all my fault."
"No it's not, Rose," I said. "There were lots of factors that caused it to not work out, it's not just you. Look, if you just talked with him, you could work it out. He really likes you, trust me. You two could fix this."
"I don't doubt that we could," she said. "I just doubt that'd he give us the chance to." Rose shook her head. "And in the unlikely case that he did, I wouldn't even know where to start talking."
"You'd tell him how you feel," I said. "You'd tell him that you don't think that he is what you said, that you don't associate him with that. Everything you just told me, that is what you would tell him."
Rose nodded. "When did we start actually having relationship problems?"
"I don't know," I said. "Normally, the poor bloke gets beaten up before he can even express his feelings."
"Yeah," Rose said. "Maybe it's just because these are the boys that our families have been rooting for. At least, in your case. Merlin knows James has been trying to get Al to ask you out, or to simply be civil with you for years. And Scorpius has been trying to get that to happen forever. I swear, I've had more awkward conversations with them about you then I would like."
"That's weird," I said, scrunching my nose. "But I know I've been rooting for Scorpius and you. Even before he liked you or I even suspected that you liked him, I thought you two would be good together." I remember vowing myself that I was going to get them together. It worked, sort of. Without Ryan they never would have gone out on their date, even though that date went horribly wrong. But I still was planning on keeping my promise. "I even managed to convince James and Freddy of it."
"I barely talked to Hugo before this year," I said. "But I think he approves."
"Well that's good to know," she said. "In the unlikely case we work this out."
Oh Rose, you will work it out.
If I have my way, you will work it out.
And I always get my way.
You need to talk with Rose, ASAP. Trust me, the girl has a lot to say to you.
You'll want to hear it.
So talk to her soon.
There's no need to respond to this.
Your favorite and most beautiful cousin,
I attached the letter to Rose's owl and sent it over to the Potter's house, not even bothering waiting for a response. I left the window open so that he could fly back in without causing a scene and Rose wondering why I secretly sent something to my cousin.
Rose and I were in her room, listening to music (we cast a Muffliato Charm so her family wouldn't complain about the noise) at around 1:30 in the morning.
"Hey, can you hand the Pumpkin Pasties over here?" I asked her from her bed.
Rose looked on her desk at the assortment of junk food we had for the night. "Doesn't look like we have any here."
I sighed and got up. "I'll go get some from the kitchen then."
"Why don't we just use magic?" Rose asked.
"Rosie, we're underage," I said. "And we've already used a fair amount of indictable magic as it is. If I go and get the Pumpkin Pasties myself, then it will make up for all the magic we've used."
"Okay then," Rose said before stuffing a chocolate frog in her face.
I walked out of her room, shutting the door quietly and walked down the stairs, not bothering to turn any lights on. I walked into the kitchen and headed toward the pantry, grabbing a plate on the way.
"Come to me, yummy things," I said, poking around the pantry. "Ah! Here they are!" I grabbed some and put them on the plate before heading out of the kitchen.
I stuffed one in my mouth before I heard a noise.
That sounded like a door slammed.
I stopped moving, my cheeks full of pumpkin patsies, and listened, waiting to hear something else.
Well, as much as I could scream with my mouth full of pumpkin pasties.
"Be quiet!" the voice said, putting their hand over my mouth, which only caused me to freak out more. "It's me!"
"Swopus?" I said, not being coherent due to my mouth being covered and full of food.
"Yes, Addie, it's me," Scorpius said, removing his hand from my mouth. He smirked down at my plate of treats. "Midnight snack?"
"Why would you scare me like that?" I asked, hitting him with my free hand.
"I didn't mean to!"
"Why are you even here?" I asked him. "It's one thirty! Shouldn't you and Al be doing whatever it is boys do at sleepovers?"
"Yeah, but I couldn't take Albus complaining about why you weren't talking to him any longer," he said, heading for the stairs. "So I'm taking you up on your deal. You said that Rose has a lot of things to say to me. So I'm going to talk to her, and you're going to go talk to Al."
"Now?!" I asked, following him up the stairs.
"Of course now," he said, stopping in front of Rose's door. "Now get your arse over to his house."
"I'm in my PJs!"
"So?" he said. "Look, do you think I want to be here? No. But it was either talk to Rose so that you'd talk to Al or listen to Al complain and ponder as to why you are mad at him. I decided that talking to Rose would be less painful." I was about to object but he stopped me. "Addie, just put the bloke out of his misery. He's getting more and more pissed with you as time goes on, so if you want to save what you have, talk to him."
And then he opened the door.
Rose was sitting at her desk chair, flipping through Witch Weekly, stuffing her face with the piles of junk food on her desk. Her hair was in a sloppy bun on her head, she didn't have any make up on and she was wearing a pair of sweat pants and one of Hugo's old shirts.
I swear I saw Scorpius crack a small smile.
"Good you're back," she said, not looking up as I shut the door. "Bring me some pasties. I'm starving over here."
"Doesn't look like it," Scorpius said cheekily and Rose froze and looked up.
"Scorpius!" She said, frantically standing up. "Um, hi." She awkwardly pulled on the end of her shirt. "What, um, what are you doing here?"
"I needed to talk to you," he said.
"Couldn't it wait until the morning?" Rose asked, and I knew that she was embarrassed that this was time that he saw her and chose to speak with her.
She looks cute for the guy and he barely acknowledges her presence. She's in sweats and looking like a homeless grandma and he can't stop smiling at her.
Scorpius is strange.
"No, we need to talk," Scorpius said, turning towards me. "Alone."
"I know, I know," I said, putting the plate down on her desk.
"But where is Addie going?" Rose asked and I could see how nervous she was. She kept fiddling with her shirt and her eyes were wide. She'd probably start rambling soon. "I mean, we can't just kick her out, my parents will be suspicious. And we can't let her out on the street, there are scary people on the street. People that could kill her. And I don't know about you, but I wouldn't want her to be dead because she's my best friend and I just don't know what I would do without her. No, she should definitely stay because that seems like the best option."
Ah, there is nervous Rosie I know and love.
"She's going to talk to Al," Scorpius said, his eyes filled with amusement as he watched Rose fidget.
"Oh," Rose said, and I could tell she was trying to think of a reason for me to stay. "Er...good, I guess. They have some stuff to work out."
"We do not have problems!" I said.
"Stop denying it and get over there," Scorpius said firmly.
"Fine," I said and started toward the door only to turn around. "Just let me get something first."
I went to my bag and pulled out his gift, before walking back to the door.
"I'm leaving, I'm leaving," I said when I saw Scorpius glare at me.
I left the door the tiniest crack open so that I could listen, despite the Muffliato Charm.
"You couldn't have waited until morning to talk?" Rose asked him, still standing.
"Nope," Scorpius said and I saw him go over to her bed and sit down.
"But I'm in my PJs!" Rose said, sitting down in the seat she was previously occupying.
"So?" Scorpius said, giving her a crooked grin. "You still look beautiful."
I don't think I've ever seen Rose blush that much.
Deciding that they needed their privacy, I shut the door quietly, hoping they wouldn't know that I listened in on that little part. I smiled when I realized how flirty Scorpius was.
I guess he was having Flirt-With-Rose withdrawals over the past few weeks.
He's making up for lost time.
I looked down at Al's gift in my hand and sighed.
I would have to make up for lost time too.
I knocked on Al's bedroom door, shivering.
I didn't bring a jacket.
I remembered Al's gift, but did I remember a fucking jacket? No.
It's Christmas Eve in England and I don't remember a fucking jacket while walking outside.
There's a reason I'm not a Ravenclaw.
"Scorpius, why are you knocking?" I heard Al say from inside. "Just walk in."
I took a deep breath and walked into Al's room.
The first thing I noticed was that it was red, Gryffindor red. I also noticed that he was pretty neat; nothing on his floor except Scorp's bag.
Al was sitting on his bed, throwing what looked like a Snitch up in the air before catching it, it's wings not breaking out so it could fly all around the room.
"Scorp, why would you knock?" he asked, keeping his eyes on the Snitch. I leaned back against the door. "You know you don't have to knock. Besides, I'm surprised you heard me with the Muffliato Charm we had on. And why did it take you so long to go to the bathroom? I know that I've been talking about Addie a lot, sorry about that, I guess we can talk about Rose if you want. Not that I'd particularly enjoy that, but if you want we can-"
"Hi," I said, stopping his rambling.
Al caught the Snitch one last time and held it to his chest, looking up at the ceiling.
"Um, hi Al," I said again.
Slowly, he turned his head toward me and I saw that his eyes were full of surprise.
"What are you doing here?" he asked. "Where's Scorp?"
"He's over at Rose's," I said. "They needed to talk about some things."
He muttered something that sounded very similar to, "They aren't the only ones."
There was an awkward silence between us.
"So do I get a hug?" I asked, awkwardly.
"I don't know, are you going to ignore me afterwards?" Al asked, pushing himself into a sitting position and giving me a pointed look.
I looked down, unsure of what to say.
"Honestly, what the fuck was that Addie?" he asked me, his voice harsh. I looked up slightly and saw that his jaw was locked and could tell that my efforts to not make things worse between us, had made things worse.
Scorpius was right.
"I thought that you didn't want me to kiss you because my entire family was looking, which I understand," he said, standing up and dropping the Snitch on the bed. "But then I don't get any letters from you. Even though I wrote you, do I get a response? No. I thought that maybe you were busy. But then you have time to write Rose a three page long letter, saying that you're so bored at home and you can't wait to get to her house and I realize that you aren't busy. According to your letter, you and Scorp are sitting at home doing nothing all day. But do I get a letter? No. For whatever reason, I don't get a letter. And then, according to Lily, you practically run away at the mention of seeing me, as if you don't want to see me. Even though I thought there was something going on here."
"There is something going on here," I said quietly.
"I know that!" Al said, raising his voice a little. "I know there is, which is why I'm pissed off that you thought it was okay not to write me. Why the hell are you mad at me Addie? Or are you just running away again? Are you here to tell me that you're back together with Caleb because he's safe and all that other shit?"
"I'm not running away!" I said and I was surprised that my voice was raised as well. "I'm not running away this time and I am not getting back together with Caleb! I fancy you, you complete idiot!"
"Well you got a funny way of showing it!" Al said back. "This is the first time that I've seen or heard from you since we got home! I figured that you would actually want to spend time with me, considering what we are."
"And what the fuck are we, Albus?" I said, spitting out my words. "Because as you made quite clear on the train, I'm not you're girlfriend. We aren't dating. We snog, we cuddle, we hold hands, and many people would think we're dating. Hell, I'm pretty sure that my mother, wherever the bloody fuck she is, thinks we are because of those fucking articles!"
"You're mad because I didn't tell those fangirls we were dating?" Al asked.
"Yes!" I said.
Oh my Merlin, this boy is going to be the death of me.
"Because I fancy you and I want to be with you, you complete arse!" I said. "And you said that we weren't dating, that you were still a free man and on the market, making me look like some cheap slag. You may as well have held up a sign that said, 'Hey everyone, come and hook up with me! I have no attachments to anyone!'"
"How was I supposed to know that's what you wanted me to say?" Albus asked. "You didn't tell me to say that."
"I didn't want you to say it only because I wanted it to happen!" I said, throwing his present on his bed out of frustration. "I wanted you to say we were dating because you wanted to date me. Because you wanted to be my fucking boyfriend. If you didn't want to be my bloody boyfriend, you could have told me that, instead of letting me know in front of a million of your biggest fans. Not to mention Erica Ericson, who is probably thinking of ways to win you back now."
"I don't give a shit about Erica," he said. "And don't say that I don't want to be your boyfriend because I do, I even had a whole plan of how to ask you to be my girlfriend!" He walked over to his dresser and pulled out a small box with a bow on it. "Tomorrow morning I was going to go over to Rose's and get you to come on a walk with me. While we were on that walk, I was going to give you this and ask you to be my girlfriend."
He thrust the box into my hand and I looked down at it, my eyes wide.
He wanted to be my boyfriend.
He had a plan and everything.
"I've had this planned since the Quidditch game, when you told me that I caught you. I was going to ask you to be my girlfriend on Christmas morning and it was going to be all magical and shit, since I know you love Christmas morning," he said, ranting out his frustrations. "And then you started freaking out on me and I thought that I was being a complete idiot by thinking that you would want to be my girlfriend. Hell, you were probably just stringing me along, making me suffer in revenge for some idiotic thing I did when I was twelve. And the longer I didn't hear from you, the more and more pissed off I got and I wasn't even sure I wanted to ask you out anymore. I figured that you didn't want me to and that I was being a complete idiot for thinking that you wanted me to-"
I stopped his rambling by kissing him firmly on the lips and throwing my arms around his neck.
Albus was clearly in shock, since he just kind of stood there the entire time.
Which, as I know, is not like Albus at all.
He tends to be a very active participant in kissing.
I pulled away a little and looked up at him. "Yes."
"Yes?" Albus said, confused.
"Yes," I said again, smiling up at him. "I'll be your girlfriend. If you still want me to be."
Al looked down at me, dumbstruck.
"I never thought that I'd ask you to be my girlfriend by yelling at you," he said, slowly.
"Yeah, well I never thought I was going to be your girlfriend in general," I said, pecking him quickly before pulling away. "Now what is this?" I shook the box next to my ear.
"Why don't you open it and find out?" Al said, a smile on his lips.
"Okay." I ripped the paper off to see a jewelry box. "You didn't have to get me jewelry," I said. "I hardly wear jewelry as it is." I opened the box and nearly gasped at what was inside.
It was a silver necklace with the letter A hanging off the chain. There was small diamond on the part of the A where the lines met in the middle.
"Do you like it?" Al asked me.
"I love it," I said, looking up at him. "Thank you. Will you help me put it on?"
Albus nodded and I turned around and held my hair up. I felt the necklace fall and hit my skin, the silver cool against it.
I grabbed the A with my fingers and started playing with it as I turned around. "Thank you, so much."
"No problem," Albus said. "Your boyfriend did good?"
I smiled at him calling himself my boyfriend. "He did really good."
"Good," he said, smiling triumphantly. "Now where's my present?"
"You're greedy you know that?" I said as I walked over to the bed to pick his gift up.
"Yeah but you fancy me anyway," he said, wrapping his arms around my waist from behind me.
I moved around so that I was facing him. "You might want to put some space between us so you can open your gift."
"Fine," Al said, letting go and backing away from me before sticking his hand out. "Now gimme."
I nervously handed over the gift. "You don't have to like it," I said, watching him open it. "It's totally returnable. I'm bad at buying gifts, so I wasn't really sure what you would like them, so if you don't it's really not a big deal-"
"You are the best girlfriend ever," he said, interrupting me as he looked down at his new Seeker gloves and tickets to the Quidditch World Cup in August. "You have only been my girlfriend for about five minutes and I can already say that you are the best girlfriend ever."
"You like them?" I asked, a feeling of relief washing over me.
"Are you fucking me?" he asked, putting his gifts down on his dresser and pulling me into a hug. "Best. Gifts. Ever."
I smiled into his chest. "Good." I looked at the clock and realized that it was two in the morning. "Hey, I just realized something."
"What?" Albus asked, looking down at me.
"It's Christmas morning," I said, smiling up at him. "You still got to ask me out on Christmas morning."
Al cracked a small smile. "I guess I did, didn't I?"
And then he leaned down to kiss me.
I'm not going to go into details, but our snog session got heated pretty quickly. Before I knew it, we were on his bed, him on top of me, and snogging as if our lives depended on it. His hand was up my shirt and I was working on taking his off.
It didn't come off though, because Al, being the rational one here, stopped.
"Hey," he said, pulling away. I noticed that he was panting for breath, just like I was. "We-we should probably stop."
"You're right," I said and Al got off of me, sitting against the wall. "I feel like getting a boyfriend and then losing my virginity all in one night might be a little too fast."
Al eyed me oddly. "You're still a virgin?"
I pushed myself up and looked at him. "Yeah. Why?"
"It just makes this a little awkward," he said, softly.
"What do you mean?" I asked, adjusting my shirt. "Did you think I was some whore who just slept around?"
"Of course not," he said. "It's just that...you're a virgin and I'm...well...not."
"I'm sorry, what?" I said, completely in shock of what I heard.
"I'm not a virgin," Al said again. "I've, um, had sex before."
"Oh," I said. "Um, who was she?"
Not that I really wanted to know.
Because I'm a cool girlfriend.
Not one of those clingy, worried girlfriends.
But honestly, who the hell was this bitch that was sleeping with my man?
"You wouldn't know her," he said quickly.
Which meant that he didn't want to tell me.
Oh buddy, you are going to tell me.
"I don't care, I want to know," I said, trying to sound nonchalant.
Al eyed me strangely. "Um, Veronica St. Clair."
"You mean the one that goes to Beauxbatons?" I asked and he nodded. "Didn't Scorpius hook up with her twin sister last summer?"
"Yeah," he said. "We hooked up with them at the same time."
As if it's not bad enough that they stole Scorp's innocence, they had to go and steal my boyfriend's too.
I sat in silence, plotting Veronica's death when Al spoke.
"Are you jealous?" he asked, and I saw that his jerk smirk was on his face.
"No," I said. "I'm just plotting her death because she's a whore who made a mess upon your innocence."
He laughed and pulled me to his chest, kissing my head. "You're something else, you know that?"
I settled into his chest, my forehead resting on his neck.
"So is the bet off then?" I asked him, changing the topic. "Because we just got into a fight, which would mean that one of us would have to tell the entire school who we like. But since we're dating that might not work as well."
"True," Albus said.
"I know!" I said, sitting up. "Whoever loses our next fight has to tell their family that we're dating first."
"It could take a while for us to get into another fight," Al said, playing with the bottom of the back of my shirt.
"I doubt it," I said. "I've been on my best behavior not to get into a fight with you this year because I didn't want to lose the bet. But now that we don't even have to worry about losing anything in this bet, we can do it." Al still looked a little hesitant. "Please? Come on, secret relationships are supposedly really good." I kissed his neck. "Come on, Al. It could be nice." I worked my way up his jaw line. "Snogging in closets, sneaking away, it sounds like a pretty awesome thing."
"Fine," he said, pulling my face away from his neck. "We'll do that. But if we haven't told anyone by New Year's, then everyone's just going to have to figure it out then. Because I plan on kissing you. A lot."
We fell asleep around 3:30. Until then, we talked a lot, getting to know more about each other and laughing at some of our dumb fights, and we stole kisses from one another before dozing off to sleep, my head against his chest and his arms around my waist.
It was the best Christmas morning ever.
I walked up the staircase slowly, making sure that I didn't wake anyone. It was 6:30, so it was still early, too early to be up and unwrapping presents.
Especially since normally I had to be pulled from my bed by Rose.
Scorpius never came back to the Potters’ last night, which could mean one of two things.
Either Rose had killed him or he and Rose had made up and spent the night talking and cuddling.
I'm not really sure which one was more believable.
I reached Rose's door and reached a hand out to turn the handle.
But it was locked.
I looked around, unsure of what to do before I decided that knocking was probably the best idea.
When I knocked, I pressed my ear to the door, trying to hear something, figuring that since I heard Al say something, I could hear Rose trying to hide my cousin's body.
I didn't hear anything.
Rose must have casted a really strong charm then.
Damn her for being good at everything.
Rose opened the door, slightly out of breath. "Hi."
"Um, hi," I said. "Can I come in?"
"Sure," she said, casting a brief glance over to her bed. "So, um how did your talk with Al go?"
Is her shirt inside out?
Yeah, it's defiantly inside out.
Why was it like that?
"Fine," I said. "How did your talk with Scorp go?"
"Oh, it went...it went swell," she said and she started fidgeting with her inside out shirt and casting glances at the bed.
"Swell?" I asked her, confused by her behavior.
Why is she nervous?
Why is her shirt inside out?
And for Merlin's sake, why does she keep looking at her bed?!
"Yeah, swell," she said. "You know, it went swell. People say swell all the time. Swell is a great word, you should really start saying it. It can describe anything, a day, a person, a conversation, really just about anything can be swell."
And now Rose is ranting.
Why is Nervous Rose here?
I want Normal Rose.
"And are you," I asked, "swell?"
"Me? Oh yeah, I'm very swell. Sweller than swell, really. And you? I hope you are swell. And Albus. I bet he was swell because he got to see you. But me, I'm super swell. I'm the swellest a person could ever be-"
Her ranting was cut off by a sneeze.
Not from me.
But from her bed.
"Rose," I asked, slowly, putting all the pieces together. "Did your bed just sneeze?"
Everything made sense now. Why her shirt was inside out, why she was Nervous Rose, and why she kept glancing at the bed.
"No," Rose said, but I could tell she was lying. "That was Crookshanks. You know him how he's always getting into my bed and sleeping there, getting his hair everywhere-"
"That would be believable," I said, walking over to her bed. "But Crookshanks died last year."
I pulled the covers up and saw my cousin, curled in a ball in only his boxers.
That was not something that I wanted to see.
"Bloody hell!" I yelled and Rose clasped a hand over my mouth.
"Please don't tell Mum or Dad!" she begged. "Please. I promise I'll explain everything, just please don't tell them."
"She's not going to tell," Scorpius said, sitting up. "Because then I'll have to tell my parents that she was with Al all night."
I pulled away from Rose's hand. "I wasn't going to tell your parents Rose, just like Scorpius won't tell his parents anything." I looked at Scorpius who was still standing there in only his boxers. "Now please put some clothes on and get to the Potters' house. You know that James likes waking up early to open his presents."
I’m not kidding. That kid would get up at 5 if his family let him. Instead they get up 7:45, since that’s as late as James will let them sleep.
I swear that boy is like a five year old sometimes.
"Right," he said and looked around the ground for his clothes. He got dressed and I sat on the bed before quickly jumping off it.
My cousin and my best friend may have just had sex there.
*shivers in disgust yet is half happy that they finally got their acts together*
"Alright, I guess I'm off," Scorpius said.
"Right," Rose said and walked over to the door and putting her hand on the knob. "Well, um, I guess we'll talk later?"
"Yeah," he said, meeting her at the door. "We'll talk later."
"Go down quietly and go through the side door," Rose said, looking up at him. "Happy Christmas."
Scorpius slowly leaned down and gave her a soft kiss on the lips.
It took all my restraints not to jump up and down and scream for joy.
Scorp pulled away from Rose, who still had her eyes closed. "Happy Christmas."
Rose opened the door for him and he quietly left the room. Rose shut the door behind him and leaned against it, a huge smile plastered on her face.
Her smile dropped a little when she saw me sitting at her desk looking smug.
"So, good night with my cousin?" I asked, cheekily.
Rose's face flushed. "Um, yeah."
I sat forward a little bit. "Want to tell me what happened?"
"We, um," Rose stammered. "We kind of...had sex."
"Yeah, I guessed that," I said. "So how does it feel to not be a virgin anymore?"
Rose sat down on her bed. "It doesn't feel any different, honestly. I feel the same as I did yesterday. I guess...I guess we were both ready to take that next step."
I nodded though something sounded off in what she said.
She made it sound like Scorpius also just lost his virginity last night.
"I'm glad that I gave that to Scorpius, you know?" Rose said, a small smile on her face. "I don't know what other guy I would want to give that away to."
I nodded, trying to figure out a way to ask if Scorp had said he was a virgin without telling her that he wasn't.
"I hope he's glad that he gave that away too," Rose said. "It's weird, you know? We've been friends for so long and now we were each other's first times and are in a relationship. It's just...strange how things work out isn't it?"
"Yeah," I said, softly. "Strange."
Rose thought that Scorpius was virgin also.
But he wasn't. I knew that for a fact.
And he had lied to Rose.
"You lied to Rose!" I said when we both got home that day.
"What do you mean?" he said as he made his way to his room, me trailing behind him.
"You lied to her about..." I walked in his room and shut the door. "You lied to her about being a virgin! She told me that last night was both of your first times and I know for a fact that you happened to lose your V-Card last summer with Victoria St. Clair."
And Al lost his V-Card last summer to Veronica St. Clair.
Not that it bothers me that my boyfriend lost his virginity to a whore.
Honestly, I don't care at all.
"That was different," Scorpius said, setting his stuff down.
"Really?" I asked. "I wouldn't know from experience, but I'm pretty sure that sex is the same no matter what."
"Not like that," he said. "I didn't care about Victoria, especially not in the way that I care about Rose. What happened last summer was a mistake."
"Mistake or not, it still happened," I said. "I don't like my best friend being lied to."
"Do you think I like lying to her?" Scorpius asked and I could tell he was frustrated. He sat down on his bed and ran a hand through his hair. "I know it's wrong and I know that she deserves better but I just couldn't bring myself to tell her that I had sex with some random girl who meant nothing to me. I don't want her to think less of me for it because that was the only time I had ever done it. But the first time that it actually mattered was with Rose. So I know that it's the best friend code or whatever to go tell her when her boyfriend is lying to her but could you please not tell her?"
"Of course I'm not going to tell her," I said, sitting down next to him and putting a comforting arm around him. "I know that it meant nothing to you. I know that you don't care about Victoria the way you care about Rose. You have no idea how happy I am that you guys are dating. I'm not going to ruin that for you."
"Thanks Ads," he said.
"You're welcome," I said. "But you need to know that if she finds out, then that will probably end all of this."
"I know," Scorpius said. "But it's a risk that I need to take."
"Scorp!" I said, knocking on his door while trying to hold my dress up. "Open up!"
Scorpius open his door, dressed in a tux and his hair looking in place for once. "What?"
"I need you to zip my dress up," I said and turned around so that he could.
"There you go," he said and walked back in his room.
I followed him in and sat on his bed, pulling my dress up so I could put my heels on.
The Wizarding Community had thankfully given up dressrobes when they realized that the Muggle formal wear was better.
Boys in dressrobes: Meh. They're wearing a dress. That's weird.
Boys in tuxes: Holy fucking crap why are they all so attractive?
I don't know what it is, but tuxes make boys look better than usual.
It's like a law.
Tonight was the night of the Potter's New Year's Eve Party, which meant that everyone had to dress up in their finest clothing and dance the night away. It was always a fun event and it was always great to see how everyone managed to clean themselves up.
"Alright, how do I look?" Scorpius asked me, standing in front of me while I put my shoe on.
"Very handsome," I said and stood up myself. "How do I look?" I asked, spinning around.
My dress was sapphire blue and a drop waist pick up skirt. It had a thin straps to hold it up and had little silver and blue jewels around the chestal area.
Scorpius grabbed my hand and kissed it, like a proper English gentlemen would. "Absolutely beautiful, my dear cousin."
"Thank you," I said, smiling up at him.
"Is that necklace new?" Scorpius asked and my hand touched the necklace Al gave me.
I smiled. "Yeah, Al gave it to me."
My boyfriend gave it to me. And because of that, I had worn it worn it every single day since he gave it to me.
"It's nice," he said and then offered his arm out. "Ready to go?"
I looped my arm through his. "Yeah."
This was it. This was where mine and Al's relationship was going to become known to everyone. We hadn’t gotten into a fight, probably because we hadn’t really seen each other, but still, our relationship was becoming public. I wasn't just some whore he was fooling around with or someone he didn't care about.
I was his girlfriend.
I felt on top of the world. Nothing could pull me down because I had my boyfriend (Al), my best friend (Rose), my cousin (Scorp), my Veela (Louis), and my badass (Alice) all by my side.
I felt invincible.
"No, Addison cannot know you're here!"
I halted at the end of the stairs when I heard Astoria's voice say that from the living room.
Scorpius and I looked at each other before walking over in that direction, trying to remain quiet so we could eavesdrop.
"You need to go, now," Draco's stern voice said. "I will not have you causing problems in my house and in my family-"
He was interrupted by a person who kept their voice low, making it hard for Scorpius and I to hear.
"She is my family!" Draco yelled. "You have no right to say who is her family and who isn't. You, of all people, are not her family."
Scorpius gave me a confused look, as if asking for an explanation of what was going on, but I just shrugged, since I had no idea either.
"It would be best for everyone if you left," Astoria said. "You know nothing about her or her life now. And because of that you should leave. You lost your right to know things eleven years ago."
More murmuring from the unknown person.
"No, you don't get the right to an opinion because you lef-"
Of fucking course, when we are eavesdropping and trying to figure out who the fuck is in our house, Scorpius fucking sneezes.
I need to get this kid some allergy medicine.
There was silence in the living room for a second before Astoria said, "I'll take care of them."
I heard Astoria's heels clicking on the floor as she made her way towards us. She walked out and plastered a fake smile on her face.
"Why don't you kids go and wait in Scorp's room and we'll come get you when we're ready," she said. "Draco and I just have a few things to deal with."
"What are you dealing with?" I asked, unable to keep my curiosity down.
"Nothing," Draco said, suddenly appear by Astoria's side. "Go upstairs."
"Ads, maybe we should go upstairs," Scorpius said quietly but I knew by the look on his face that he didn't want to. He wanted to know what the hell was going on in that room.
I looked at Draco and Astoria, both of them having very concerned yet stern faces on.
"Addison," Astoria said softly, reaching out and grabbing my hand. "Trust me, you would want to go upstairs. Please, Draco and I will explain everything later, just please go upstairs." She squeezed my hand and I saw that there were tears in her eyes. Whatever was in there was making her upset and while my curiosity was peeked, I knew that something that made someone in my family upset, wasn't worth it. "Please Addie."
I was about to respond, say okay, when the person inside the room decided to speak.
"Please," the voice said and I instantly tensed up. Astoria's eyes were wide, almost like she was begging me not to keep listening, but to run upstairs to where I was safe from this voice that has haunted me for so long.
The last time I heard this voice was on Halloween.
And suddenly the invincible feeling was gone.
"Please just let me see her," the voice said again.
"Don't you dare come any closer, Matilda," Draco said, casting a glare inside of the room. "Addison, please go upstairs."
Not that name.
"Please Draco, just let me see her," she said again, her voice begging. "Just let me see my daughter."
Before I could even think about what I was doing, I pushed past Draco and Astoria, my heart pounding in my chest.
It couldn't be her.
But her voice was the same. And her name was Matilda.
"Oh my," the women said, when she caught sight of me. "Addison, you have grown into a beautiful girl."
I felt the tears rush to my eyes and my heartbeat speed up, thumping so hard that I heard it in my ears as I stared at the women, not even believing my own eyes.
I was hoping I would never have to see this bitch's face again.
"Well, long time no see," I spat out, the anger I've held in for years sharp on my tongue. "How have the past eleven years been for you Mum?"
A/N: BUM, BUM BUUM!!!!!!! Holy crap! What a cliffhanger! I'd hate to be you guys right now.
What did you think of the chapter? It was long! Over nine thousand words, making this one of the longest chapters of the story. I like it. So much happened! Unfortunately, I wasn't able to work Louice or Jamlise in, but they'll be in the next chapter, at least Louice will. Nothing planned for Jamlise, but may put them in if I get requests (hint, review).
Okay. Albie is together! Yay! Finally. And of course, because it's them, they got into a fight :D their scenes are my favorite to write because their super fun and I just ship them so hard that it's great. *sigh* I just love them.
And Scorose is together too! Only, Scorpius is lying, which is never good. But it could work! What do you guys think?
And Lily was in here! Some of you have requested to see her and while it wasn't a big role, I figured that I probably should acknowledge the fact that she is alive.
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