Thank you to I Am Frank at the Sands for the lovely graphic!
“Life’s all about moments of impact, and how they change our lives forever.” ~The Vow
I never understood how important it is to keep your loved ones close and your enemies closer. I did, however, understand that those seemingly insignificant moments of impact can be the most life-changing. One tends to overlook such occurrences, never giving them a second thought until it’s too late. When it eventually dawns on you exactly what went wrong, there is no going back.
It is often impossible to prevent a catastrophe, especially one that you had never foreseen. And, sadly, I must admit that I failed to save three of the people I loved the most. You have no idea what it’s like to have someone whom you are willing to die for torn away from you so abruptly, let alone three people. Their absence from my life was like a blow to the face. It had seemed that my world had shattered into a million tiny fragments, which seemed to pierce my heart in my every waking moment. I’ve suffered through the memory a thousand times. It’s one of those moments you wish you could forget, but you know will never leave you.
I have often wondered why life can be so enjoyable one minute, and horrible the next. It seems that everything that could possibly go wrong, does. Why? Why me? I’ve asked these questions every day of my life. I could spend my entire life searching for answers, but I have come to one conclusion which seems to satisfactorily answer both questions: life isn’t fair. I know, that’s what you’re supposed to tell whiny little kids when they’re complaining about their not-so-horrible, pathetic lives, but I’ve found that this statement has held true throughout my experiences.
Since when has life ever been so complex? I wish I could return to the carefree days of my childhood, when my biggest concern was a stolen eraser. Sadly, there’s no going back. I can never change my previous decisions, the ones that keep me up at night. I second-guess every decision I’ve made since the age of five. I often wonder how the outcome might have been different, if I could have prevented a disaster, or caused a different one.
I believe that it’s necessary to forgive your friends, and ask for forgiveness. You can never tell someone you love them too many times. You never know when they are going to disappear from your life permanently, and you run the risk of living the rest of your life in regret that you failed to express your gratitude for everything they’ve done for you. I wish I could say I lived by my own rule of thumb. The one time I strayed from this way of thinking, I found myself overwhelmed with a pang of sorrow when I realized there was no going back.
My name is Remus Lupin and this is my story; it’s one of love, friendship, and loss - an unforgettable one which has impacted my entire life. Welcome to my wolfish nightmare.
A/N - I promise the next chapter will be more interesting. It's written a bit differently. I'll upload it as soon as possible (most likely in the next week or two). Please review!