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A best friend is the one who can look at you with a big smile on your face and still know that something is wrong. - Unknown
I stomped into the castle with Lex running to keep up with me. I hate him. I hate him so much. I will never hate someone as much as I hate him and his stupid little smirk. I screamed in frustration.
“Rose,” Lex grabbed by arm to try to slow me down. “Rose, calm down,”
I spun around to face her and she ran into me. Her eyes were wide with worry but there was a small smile pulling at her lips that she didn’t want me to see.
“Calm down,” I laughed in disbelief. My laugh sounded crazy and hysterical and Lex’s eyes widened even more. “You want me to calm down after what he did to me?” I practically screamed at her. We were getting funny looks and most people knew me better than to stick around to see me explode. I buried my face in my hands and screamed again. I then pushed my soaking wet hair out of my face for the second time in one day. “He made me fall in the lake!” I shrieked. “I know I promised I would try to be nice to him but how can you possibly expect me to be nice to him when he pushed me in the lake!”
“He didn’t exactly push you, you fell,” she said quietly.
My eyes widened and I stared at her. “You’re taking his side,”
She bit her lip nervously. “I think,” she began carefully, “that you’re overreacting. He knows how to push your buttons and you let him. If you hadn’t let him make you mad then you wouldn’t have fallen in the lake.”
I can’t believe she’s taking his side. She’s my best friend; she’s supposed to always be on my side no matter what.
“Rose,” she grabbed my hand. “I’m not saying it’s not his fault. He knew exactly what he was doing and he knew that he was going to make you fall.” She smiled slightly. “You get really clumsy when you get angry.”
I was shaking with anger. Why can’t he just leave me alone? Why does he have to be so annoying and frustrating? Why doesn’t anything ever bother him? I want him to scream and yell at me like I do to him. I want him to show some kind of emotion other than that stupid calm amusement that was always in his eyes. I want him to get angry at me.
“Did you make Lily mad again?” a slightly amused voice asked from behind me just as I had opened my mouth to start my angry ranting to Lex. I spun around and almost knocked into Shawn Fuller for the second time.
He flashed his light, easy smile at me as his hazel eyes looked me up and down as he took in my disheveled appearance.
I scowled. “No,” I replied, “it was Malfoy this time.”
He laughed and pulled out his wand. “Do I really want to know what happened?” he asked me as he waved his wand to dry me off. I instantly felt better without water dripping from my clothes and hair.
I shook my head and smiled. “Probably not,” I glanced at Lex to see her chewing on her hair nervously. She looked troubled as her eyes whipped back and forth between Shawn and me.
Shawn laughed. “Then I won’t ask.”
Lex reached for my hand and held on to it like a small child clinging to their mother. I instantly recognized that she was uncomfortable around Shawn. Lex doesn’t like being around people she doesn’t know, it makes her nervous. I squeezed her hand to tell her that I understood.
“Lex and I have homework to do,” I lied. Shawn’s bright eyes dulled a little in disappointment. “But I’ll see you around,” I told him with a smile.
“I hope so,” he answered.
My cheeks turned pink and I quickly dragged Lex around him so he wouldn’t see.
“Rose,” he called after me just as I was about to round the corner.
I glanced back at him.
“Will you go to Hogsmeade with me tomorrow?” he asked.
My jaw almost dropped in surprise. I could feel a huge smile spreading across my stunned face. It took a minute for me to regain my breath to answer him.
“I’ll meet you at eight,” I smiled and his eyes danced with excitement.
I was grinning goofily, which Rose Weasley never does. Shawn seems to be able to make me do things I don’t usually do, like grinning goofily and blushing like crazy.
“Are you sure this is a good idea?” Lex asked quietly.
My head snapped toward Lex and I stared at her in confusion. “Why wouldn’t it be?”
Lex shrugged. “He just doesn’t seem right for you,” she said without looking at me. She looked troubled.
I jerked my arm out of her grasp. She hung her head and refused to look at me. “He doesn’t seem right for me?” I stared at her in disbelief. “He doesn’t seem right for me?” I could feel the anger bubbling in the pit of my stomach. “You’re the one dating Malfoy!” I screeched. “He is nowhere near right for you but you are still dating him and I am trying to be supportive and not kill him so why can’t you do the same for me?”
Lex bit her lip. She took a shaky breath and looked up at me with tears in her eyes. My heart instantly melted and I pulled her into a hug. She clung to me like she would die if she let go.
“I’m sorry Lex,” I whispered into her hair.
She shook her head against my shoulder. “It’s my fault. You’re right. I’m sorry.”
I pulled back and wiped her wet cheeks with the sleeve of my jacket. Angels shouldn’t cry. Angels shouldn’t look so broken. My angel shouldn’t be hurting because of me.
“I hate it when we fight.” I told her sadly. We seemed to be fighting a lot lately.
She smiled sadly and nodded in agreement. “Me too,”
“I hate it when I hurt you,”
“I know you don’t mean to,” she smiled again, this time a real one that lit up the stars in her eyes.
“I still hate it.”
I always feel so bad when I hurt Lex, even if it is by accident. She is just so sweet and innocent. She has been through so much and been hurt so many times. Her mother left when she was five and she never really got over it. She had to raise her little sister and she retreated into herself. She is so fragile and breakable. The slightest touch could shatter her into a million tiny pieces.
I hugged her again and stroked her hair. I was about to apologize again when Lily and Liz ran up to us yelling like little girls and dragging an annoyed looking Roxy behind them.
“You will never guess what just happened.” Liz shouted as she bounced on the balls of her feet. She looked like a three year old that had had way too much sugar.
Lex and I glanced at each other. And I thought I was supposed to be the crazy one. Liz and Lily looked like they were about to explode.
“Just tell them already,” Roxy rolled her eyes and straightened out her long curls.
Liz and Lily’s heads snapped over to glare at Roxy at the same time. If I didn’t know any better I could have sworn that they were twins. They had that weird twin connection thing where they can read each other’s minds and finish each other’s sentences. It’s really weird to watch.
“Mckenzie Hamilton finally said yes to Al,” Lily exploded before her and Liz erupted in squeals and giggles.
“What?” I asked in shock.
Liz nodded vigorously at me. “Al asked her out again in the library.”
“But this time she said yes,”
“And now they are going to Hogsmeade together tomorrow.” Liz finished.
They squealed again and hugged each other before attacking Lex and I with their smothering hugs and screaming in our ears. I think my ear drums just exploded.
“She said yes?” I asked in shock. I glanced at Roxy for confirmation and she nodded and shrugged as though she could care less.
“Weren’t you listening?” Liz asked.
“Wow,” I whispered. “She said yes.”
I looked at Lex to see that she was staring at the stone floor as though it was the most interesting thing she had seen in her entire life. She looked even more dazed and out of it than usual. Her blue eyes were dull and glazed over. She was in her own little world in her head.
“Lex?” she made no indication that she had heard me at all. “Lex?” I nudged her and she jumped back to reality. “Are you okay?” I asked.
She smiled a smile that didn’t quite seem right and nodded. “Yeah, I’m fine. I’m great. Al finally got the girl he’s been chasing for years. Why wouldn’t I be happy?” her words were rushed and she looked like she was going to be sick. Something’s wrong. Lex has no never talked so fast in her life.
I grabbed Lex’s hand and dragged her away from Liz, Lily, and Roxy. Lex was taking deep sharp breaths and I couldn’t help but worry. Something is very wrong. Lex never acts this way.
“What’s wrong?” I asked her firmly once we were out of earshot of Liz, Lily, and Roxy.
She shook her head making her blonde curls bounce. “Nothing,” she choked out.
I pushed on her shoulders to make her sit down. She collapsed on the floor and pulled her knees tightly to her chest protectively. She was retreating into her mind. She only does that when she doesn’t want to face something.
I kneeled in front of her and put my hands on her knees. “Lex,” I began gently. “Don’t lie to me. Please tell me what’s wrong,” I hated seeing her like this. It broke my heart.
She shook her head and said nothing. Tears filled her blue eyes making them sparkle like crystals. I felt my own tears welling up in my eyes. She looked more broken than I had seen her in a long time.
“Please, Lex,” I begged. “Please,”
She shook her head again. “Not yet,” she gasped out. “I will, but not yet.”
I sighed and nodded knowing that that was as much as I was going to get out of her until she was ready to tell me. I sat down beside her and pulled her into a hug. She cried into my shoulder for a long time until she finally cried herself to sleep.
Loud, echoing footsteps made my eyes snap open. I almost jumped up but remembered that Lex was asleep beside and stopped myself so I wouldn’t wake her up.
“Rosie,” that all too familiar voice said tauntingly.
I looked up and the smug smirk dropped from his face when he saw my tear streaked cheeks. I didn’t even have the energy to be angry at him.
“What happened?” he asked. The concern in his voice surprised me.
I lightly touched Lex’s hair and shook my head. “I don’t know,” I answered truthfully. “Lex,” I had to stop and take a deep breath to keep myself from bursting into tears again at the thought of the pain in Lex’s shattered glass eyes. “She just kind of lost it. I haven’t seen her cry this hard since third year when she got a letter from her dad saying that her mom that had abandoned had died.” I shook the tears from my eyes. There was no way I was letting Malfoy see me cry. “She wouldn’t tell me what was wrong.”
Malfoy knelt down and gently picked Lex up.
“What are you doing?” I asked as I jumped to my feet. Where was he taking my little Lex?
“I’m not going to let her sleep in the middle of a corridor.”
I opened my mouth to argue but I realized that I had nothing to argue with. For once I agreed with him. It was an odd feeling. I closed my mouth and walked in silence beside him. I followed him into the dungeon and into the Slytherin common room. The common room was deserted. It was then I realized just how late it was. Everyone was at dinner. I followed Malfoy to the sixth year boys’ dorm. I had been in there many times because of Al and it looked the same as it always did. Clothes were thrown around everywhere along with books, parchment, and even broken quills.
Malfoy laid Lex gently down on Al’s bed which I was thankful for. If he had tried to put her on his bed I would have killed him. I pulled Al’s blanket over Lex and she shifted slightly in her sleep. She was little broken angel. I brushed a curl out of her face and smiled at the peaceful look on her face. I then sat down next to Malfoy on the bed next to Al’s which I knew to be Malfoy’s but I really didn’t care. Lex was the only thing that mattered to me at that moment.
“Thank you,” I whispered. Right now he wasn’t my enemy, he was just someone who had helped my best friend.
I looked over at him to see a strange, unreadable emotion in his eyes but I was too tired to think about it. I yawned and leaned back. I heard Malfoy chuckle lightly. I felt him pull a blanket over me and I curled upon his bed.
Right before I fell asleep I could have sworn that I felt him brush my hair out of my face like I had done to Lex but the next second I was deep in sleep and was sure that I had imagined it.