My decision was finally made. And, oh merlin, was I going to regret it.
I was running around the school looking for Potter. But after I looked almost everywhere, I decided to just wait for him in front of his Common Room. Well you know what? Waiting around all day was B-O-R-I-N-G. Boring. I slid down the wall and just sat there, thinking.
My decision was that I was just going to follow everyone's advice (minus my father's, of course) and tell Rose. I'm not going to tell James that though, he's just going to think that he's amazing and that he'll ruin me. The pranks will be a downside of that, but the outcomes of those can be fixed with a wave of my wand. It's better than having the secret eating away at my insides and having the voices in my head drive me insane (I may already be insane, but whatever), and having to do everything Potter asks.
But then again...What if Rose doesn't like me like that? I mean, that would be fine if we could be friends, but what if she finds it awkward? What if she thinks that I'm some sick psycho that stalks her through the hallways, just because she knows I like her? I wouldn't blame her; I am a bit loopy.
Oh shit, are these second thoughts, er what?
"Scorpius?" I heard a voice call. Oh please, any other time, any other time, any other fucking time. This is not going to help me decide at all.
I looked up, and it was Rose. Her hands were full of books, so I was guessing that she had just come from the library, or maybe she was studying outside under the beach tree... or perhaps on the edge of the lake, or on the stands of the Quidditch Pitch. Oh, the mysteries of Rose Weasley.
"Who're you waiting for?" She asked, setting her books down and coming to sit next to me. Oh. My. Lamb.
ROSE WEASLEY'S SHOULDER WAS TOUCHING MY SHOULDER!
"Uhhhh..." I said, lost for words. I didn't dare look up at her face, I mean, I was already incoherent. "Uhhh, James."
"Oh," She said quietly, "Is it about what he was talking about at breakfast?" I nodded and she continued, "Look Scorp, I really don't think you should give into James. He's an asshole, and if he spreads who you like around the school, well, I'm sure the girl will be very satisfied. I mean, your nice, smart, and attract-" She stopped talking abruptly, looking away. Were my ears decieving me? Was she about to say attractive?
She better of, My dad said, Any offspring of mine has to be attractive.
"If it's not being nosy to ask," Rose said, "Who is the girl?"
I remained quiet. If I opened my mouth at all I'm sure that my secret would just pop out, like when my mum was having me, I just came right out. I could feel her eyes on the side of my face. Out of the corner of my eye I saw that a lock of her gorgeous red hair was sprawled across my shoulder. Curious as to what it felt like, I picked it up and put it back neatly with the rest of her hair. Her hair felt heavenly. My mouth watered slightly, and it opened out of habit.
And that's when I blew it.
I had just been in the library, reading a few books to help me with that horrible essay Professor Smith assigned us. I swear that Professor Smith is out to get my family and I. I'm pretty sure he went to school with dad, and that they didn't like each other. Merlin, why did my dad have to be a butthole to Smith, of all people. Now I'm stuck with a teacher who gives me extra work, and thinks I'm a know-it-all.
Who does he think I am, mum?
As I turned the corner I saw someone sitting on the ground. It was Scorpius, and he seemed to be thinking about something very intently. I shouldn't disturb him...
And yet...maybe I should.
"Scorpius?" He looked up at me, "Who're you waiting for?"
I set my books on the ground and then sat down between them and him. He jumped a little, but I don't think he realized he did.
"Uhhhh..." He said dumbly. I smiled, "Uhhh James."
Oh I see, he was probably coming to tell James what he chose.
"Oh," I said quietly, voicing my thoughts, "Is it about what he was talking about at breakfast?" He nodded, so I continued, "Look Scorp, I really don't think you should give into James. He's an asshole, and if he spreads who you like around the school, well, I'm sure the girl will be very satisfied. I mean, your nice, smart, and attract-" Wawawait. Did I almost just say attractive? Oh my gosh, he probably thinks I like him now. Well, I do, but only a little bit. I turned my head away, blushing furiously.
After a minute of silence (my blush had cooled down), I said, "If it's not being nosy to ask, who is the girl?"
He didn't reply. Maybe if I stared at him long enough I could just force the answer out of him. It's probably someone extremely gorgeous like.. Dom. Yes, it's probably Dom.
He reached to his shoulder and pulled a piece of my hair that had been laying on it and he tucked it back in place.
"She has really soft hair."
Oh. My. Gosh.
Did that mean what I thought it meant?
Let's go over the clues Rose:
1.) He touched my hair and then told me that the girl she likes has soft hair.
2.) People always tell me that I have soft hair.
3.) He's resistant to telling me who he likes.
"Scorpius," I asked, "Do you like, well, me?"
"Oh Rose," A voice called. Oh God, "Nice to see you here. Did you want to have a good look at watching Malfoy crumble?" I rolled my eyes.
"James," I said sternly, "Stop being such an asshole. Trust me when I say this, but girls don't like guys that are assholes." He ignored me and went straight to Scorpius. Scorpius looked sick.
"Made up your mind, Malfoy?" James asked.
He didn't respond.
"Oi!" James kicked his foot lightly to get his attention, "Tell me which choice you've made already. I have stuff to do."
He still didn't respond.
"Okay then..." James said slowly, "I guess you want me to tell her then..."
"Yes actually," Scorpius said, finally speaking up. He looked like he was about to throw up. "That's exactly what I want. I don't care if she knows. In fact, I might become sane if she does."
James looked angry for a second. And then the he made the most hated face ever. It's the face that's telling you that he's up to no good. He's making a horrible plan, and I can see right now that it's not going to be good.
"Okay then," He said, "I'll tell her." There was a moments silence.
"Well," Scorpius said, "What are you waiting for?"
"Your right," He said, "What am I waiting for? I guess I should go and find her right now."
What? So.. it wasn't me? I looked over at Scorpius and he looked angry, worse than angry, he looked furious.
He may feel mad, but I feel heartbroken.
I can't think straight. I'm too angry to think straight.
Just two minutes ago I had an epiphany, and that epiphany was that maybe Rose did like me too. So of course I chose the alternative I chose, which was the one that involved James telling Rose my secret.
I think that James had the same epiphany as I did, so he's planting it in her head that I like someone else so that she'll avoid me.
Oh, the asshole.
I sprang up from my spot on the ground and punched him right in the nose.
*A/N: So I wrote this at like midnight, and it's probably the worts chapter in the history of bad chapters, but I really hope you guys didn't think it was too bad. Also, I'd like to thank you guys for the lovely reviews, they mean a lot:)